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166,499 My wife was a lesbian for 10 years, starting right out of college. It's a long story but she had a full out sexual/love relationship with a woman for all that time. They had a falling out. The other woman suddenly decided she was straight and needed to get married and have children. I happened to come along at that moment. I met my wife. I thought gee, here's a nice woman, I think I'll marry her, not realizing I was stepping in a hornet's nest.

My marriage has been horrible. She never told me about the lesbian part. I only found out from one of her friends years after we were already married. My wife is so difficult because duh, she doesn't like men. I get the brunt of that anger. She also doesn't want to have sex with a man. I get the brunt of this too.

This weekend was particularly bad. Out of the blue she heard from her ex girlfriend. They haven't seen or spoken with each other in 17 years. Just like that the woman calls and my wife hides herself away in the bedroom literally for hours talking on the phone. I since noticed that my wife also went out for a few more hours and spoke to the woman on her cell phone for all that time.  

Turns out that woman's TWO(!) marriage didn't work out. She is now divorced again. My wife and her ex have arranged to get together this week for dinner. It's a two hour drive away. My wife says she will have to spend the night at the woman's house and come back the next morning.

I KNOW SHE IS GOING TO HAVE SEX WITH THIS WOMAN AGAIN. 17 years of pent up lesbian desire is about to be unleashed. This entire situation sucks. She created a mess and will just walk away. I was a pawn in her twisted love life. My wife knows she made me so very unhappy. She doesn't care. I can't believe how rotten of a person she turned out to be. She duped me into this marriage. She has treated me so badly. No apologies from her. No remorse for marrying me under false pretenses. No "Gee, I'm sorry to have dragged you down with my lesbian life."

Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. And Fuck you.

PS, we have children. That will be a great conversation. Oh yes, mommy has run off to be with another woman and so they can lick each other all day.



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166,498 I'm actually going to fuck him. Oh man, I actually prayed for this! Ever since last week when he had me pinned up against his car I've wanted to do it so bad, especially since he's leaving town in a couple weeks. It's not surprising since he's my type, though when I first saw him I thought he wasn't anything special. I have to be shallow and admit that once I saw he was packing heat downstairs that I internally submitted to him. Now we've got plans to hang out this evening, and then I'll get fucked like a good little bitch. It's terrible how hot for him I am



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166,497 My friend is having her wedding close to Christmas because she knows I'll be back in town for it. It's all very moving, but I wouldn't schedule my wedding for her.



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166,496 I had a crush on the last manager and imagined being his mistress all the time. But it was just a crush - the fantasy may have been inappropriate but nothing came of it. The fantasy left when he moved interstate.

The new manager is in, and he's quite handsome as well. Not as young or handsome as the last one but he's got a nice smile and we get along very well and we got close fast. I've noticed he holds eye contact for a long time, often before starting his sentence he'll stare at me for a bit, and keep staring and making sure the conversation is definitely over before breaking eye contact. Today after work we were the last ones out left to lock up the office....oh the lingering.

If I could of had an affair with either, it would have been the first guy, but this one is looking a lot more likely and I'm not as happy about it as my fantasy would suggest.



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166,495 I cant fucking stand other people's happiness.. it is disgusting.. like what ever happened to us being friends.. I guess I was never important enough... enjoy your fake life



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166,494 If I were doG and in a position to redesign the world, I'd create a world without religion next time around.  Look around at how much strife in the world is motivated by religion.  The only problem would be that, without religion, I'd get no acknowledgement or credit for having created the world.



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166,493 Please stop stalking me I'm begging you.



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166,492 If I were God and I had a chance to design the world again, I'd make a few changes.

* I would not create mosquitoes this time around.

* I'd put the testicles on the inside with plenty of padding.

* I'd make waterfalls just a little quieter.

* Hair wouldn't turn gray.

* I'd turn the dial a little higher on a woman's libido.

* Maybe tilt the globe a little less than 23 degrees so winter wouldn't be so cold.

* Get rid of childhood leukemia. What were you thinking with that one?

* Prevent the invention of opera and gold teeth.

* Foot odor doesn't work for anybody. Not needed.

* One thought would be to make gravity a little less strong so we could hop really far. That would be cool.

* The whole Jesus thing kinda backfired. Next time send down your daughter.

The world is pretty good the way it is for a first pass. Just add these few tweaks and I think you'd have a much better product.



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166,491 When I was a kid we had a TV. It was enough.

Today in my house, we have 7 TVs. We're only 5 people. And still my children complain.



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166,490 George Zimmerman seems to get into trouble wherever he goes.

Are we clear yet on what really happened to Trayvon Martin?



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166,489 I'm worried about the most petty shit. I don't think I understand what reality is anymore.



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166,488 When telemarketers call, there is usually an option like "Press 9 to be removed from our calling list." It's total baloney. I've pressed 9 and I still get calls.



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166,487 It's tough because I want a real connection with someone, you know? That's what we all want. So I try to engage you but you just are so cold. I just want to spend time with you. But I get so sad when it's clear you don't care, and try to force myself to stop talking to you or thinking about you or fantasizing about you. But that's so hard and my passions get the better of me. I want you to touch me, to hold me and really care for me. I would care for you.

But that wouldn't last either. We'd hurt each other, like everyone does to everyone else. And that leaves you with the same conundrum as you started out with. Being with someone when all the do is hurt you. And that's everyone. There's so exception. So it's all an exercise in futility.



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166,486 My wife encourages my daughter's anorexia.



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166,485 Wanna know a secret? Ever wondered what your girlfriend does after you leave? She runs to the bathroom to take a dump because she hasn't pooped since you got there



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166,484 I wish my sister in law was better looking. Her face looks like it was left outside in the sun for a few decades. She is Ugly with a capital U. She makes for terrible sexual fantasy material.



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166,483 Ha ha ha, I love reading everyone's secrets. I also managed to watch my wife touch herself and she didn't know I was there. It was Friday the 13th. The rugrats were in bed. I asked if she wanted to stay up with me and watch a horror movie. She said no and went up to bed. The movie started. It was stupid. I thought I'd make my own horror scene ha ha. I snuck upstairs and into the bathroom. I quietly opened the window and crept onto the porch roof. I inched on down to the next window which was our bedroom. My plan was to press my face against the glance and make evil noises. I knew it would scare the shit out of her ha ha. But when I looked in the window my wife was laying on the bed with her pajama top pulled up to her shoulders and her pajama bottoms pulled down to her knees. One hand was rubbing her nips and the other was rubbing her vag. I sat on the roof and watched. It took fucking forever. But she managed ha ha. Something I notice, she spent half the time pinching her nips. I never did that with her. Guess she likes it. I've been doing it more with her now.



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166,482 My wife is mean to our children. She has alwas been mean to them. Now they are coming of age. They are teenagers. And they have responded to her meanness by letting her know they don't appreciate it. They are good kids. They don't yell at her. But they explain that her words have always been hurtful and they want her to stop.

This is of course all my fault. At least that's what my wife tells me. I've always been kind and pleasant to our kids. She has always been mean to them. But somehow her meanness is all my fault.



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166,481 I lost my virginity in a threesome just for the story, and because I was newly 18 and sick of being a virgin. Call me a sell-out whore but I was planning on wasting it anyway. No virgin attachment for me! And it worked



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166,480 I use to be so hurt when I thought of my ex having sex with someone else. Hell, even the thought of her cultivating a meaningful friendship with someone else use to tear me up inside. It took me a long time to put things in perspective. I've never shared so much of myself as I did with her (up until we broke up), but that doesn't mean it wasn't a mistake. The proof is in; it was a mistake. So much time has gone by, that I can't even say that we were special or that I even knew her. What a relief.



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166,479 Seriously, this nigga moved away to college and got a girlfriend and then comes back disappointed that I didn't "save myself" for him when he got home for summer? So many levels of FUCK YOU.



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166,478 I was stupid and slept with my ex. He was all too willing, and it was evident from minute 3 that it was gonna go down. My friend and her boyfriend ended up in the same room as us because our gay friend was cock-blocking them on purpose...and afterward she said it was awkward because watching us having sex was like watching 2 people forcibly take pleasure from one another, instead of willingly giving it. Knowing me and my ex, this is all too true. It would seem he trusts me as little now as I've trusted him for a while.



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166,477 Chocolate & alcohol is making it easier to forget you.



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166,476 I'm staying where I'm at, I have nothing and no one to come home to if I don't have you. My mom was a real wench to put it lightly the first week. She's calmed down now and is going to help me start over. She's making me stay at her boyfriend in a spare room, she doesn't trust me around her cats! Hahaha nor her 70 yr old man. Keeps coming to check on me making sure I'm in my bed. Think she has something wrong with her mentally so I try not to anger her. I rechecked cave after our last convo and I seen two posts that sounded like something I could of wrote but I assure you, neither one was mine but if I know you as well as I think I do, you would of thought they were mine. It pains me, that you see me that way. I don't view you that way anyways. I am so sorry for all the terrible things I've said, I'm ashamed. We live and we learn. I do hope that one day we can be friends again and that you will come and see me. I'm also sorry for how things turned out between us, thank you for being there for me and everything you & dad did for me and sorry if you felt I used you. It was never my intent. I hope that one day you'll come see me and I can put you up. Either way you'll have free room & board/guide. I did love you, do love you and will always miss you and your fantastic hand jobs..  Text me on fb when you're ready to forgive me.
36 F far from where I want to be



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166,475 My wife gets furious with me if I show affection and put my hand on her shoulder, arm, or hip when we are sleeping. I'm not trying to be sexual. Ha, you kidding, she get even madder if I try to be sexual. But I'm only trying to show affection. One human being feeling the warmth of another as they sleep. My intentions are nothing but good. Yet she gets so mad. She has some serious issues which I know will end this marriage.



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166,474 I hate hot tubs..... ummmmm.... they are hot.  Way too hot. How is that enjoyable? Dumb invention.



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166,473 First Lady Mrs. Obama gave a speech at a commencement speech at a college in Alabama over the weekend. She told the audience of black students how misconceptions and racism had made her life difficult. She comes from humble beginnings but became a lawyer as well as the  First Lady of the USA   but she still pulls the race card. Is this the way he encourage young students about their future in USA?
She reinforces this nonsense that that black people in this country are victims of racism.
By becoming a victim you don't need to take responsibility for your action because you can blame slavery and racism for all your failures .This has kept the African Americans down for decades.
She of all people -like her husband - had a perfect opportunity to encourage young black students that if you work hard ,educate yourself you to become a responsible citizen of the USA -the sky is the limit.
No she uses the platform to reinforce the negative and tells whatever what a black person does, he or she will not succeed because they are black.
She -as well as her husband- had 8 years to help their own people and all they dii was to reinforces the attitude that has kept black at the bottom of the totem pole .Unless blacks start changing their way of thinking and get more of a positive outlook ,and stop blaming racism and slavery- they are doomed. It is very sad.



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166,472 There is only one person I dislike. This person was my lover like once or twice. Then, she decided to corner me on the street and run away with my phone so I couldn't go home. Then she decided to block me on social media. Im glad, because watching her wake up a dog that needed sleep made me so angry I just couldn't take it...who the fuck does that except someone who hides their desperate need for attention behind being sentimental? To think this person believed they had a chance with me..irritates me so much. To think she had such deranged ideas about sacrifice and getting back ..as if love were an exchange. She even said I punched her in the stomach and when I said " no I didn't.." she said " i mean you punched me in the heart" oh really? oh really? I punched you i the heart just cause I told u I wanted to be friends, was honest with you, checked up on what you were thinkignand walked you home cause eyou said you didn't know if you were drunk? idiot. The kind of person who feels sorry for themselves and resents you and says " the nice/girl/boy never wins huh?" idiot...you aren't so nice. duh.



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166,471 Your mind is warped by your medication and you can't see it.  That's not a fault of yours, it's merely how it works.  I wonder if you've ever bothered to look into that stuff and saw how that is more common then people realize.  If so, I'm betting that you immediately dismissed the possibility that it happened to you because that's what people do.  It kills me to have to accept that one of the sweetest people I've ever met no longer exists and has been replaced by someone who was incredibly cruel and self-centered.

The person I knew would be horrified and feel like such shit at how hurtful you were.  I really wish that person wasn't chemically dead.



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166,470 You were worth it.You were worth all the tears I shed. You were worth all the desperate words i used to try an keep you. You are worth going to hell and back for. In the future if someone doesn't see that then they don't deserve you.

I'm sorry it took me so long to accept there is no more us and probably never will be again. I'm sorry you had to deal with my desperation on top of everything else. I'm sorry I tried so hard to keep you that I pushed you to the point of wanting nothing to do with me. Maybe someday we can be friends again. In the meantime life goes on.

My future is looking better and better every day even with hole in it that was left by you. All the things i said i would do are coming to be. Sorry i didn't wake up and take action sooner. Before you lost hope and was filled with doubt.

I hope your all your dreams come to be. I hope your heart becomes filled with love and happiness.



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166,468 I can't be responsible for anyone else's happiness. And I am entitled to happiness myself. Or sadness. Or any other emotion. If every person worried about how everything in their own lives affected every other person in the world, we would all be paralyzed, afraid to feel anything at all. I mean, how dare I be happy that I'm pregnant when there are women that have had miscarriages or can't get pregnant at all. Or how dare I be upset or bummed that I have the flu when there are people out there that have cancer. There will always be someone out there that has it worse than me or better than me. Someone who has more and someone who has less. I'm still entitled to feel how I feel about things in my life. I'm entitled to my petty bitchiness from time to time. I'm entitled to celebrate the good things that happen in my life. I'm entitled to grieve. I'm entitled to feel whatever I want and not have to feel guilty about those feeling just because someone else may have it worse. Everyone has problems. Everyone has dealt with loss. Everyone has had victories. Everyone has failures. We are each entitled to celebrate, bitch, moan, groan, cry, grieve, etc. without having someone chastise them. Tired of people telling me I can't do things in my life because of what other people have been through or what they are going through.



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166,467 Putting your 9th grade daughter on birth control isn't sick. It's smart!!!
I found out my 10th grade daughter was having sex with her boyfriend. I hated that they were having sex and still do. I'm glad I put her on the pill in 9th grade.

We can't control what our kids do behind our backs and we can't keep our kids on  lock down 24/7.

Mother of 3



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166,466 Can't wait to see how I feel when I wake up tomorrow...because I still have hope it's got to be better than today was
Still want to see what else is out there???
Have at it, dear motherfucker! Besides a host of physical issues brought on by your poor personal hygiene, I have also wondered to myself if you may have Aspergers.



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166,465 I think it's awful that everyone is posting about how much they love their moms today. What about the people on your friend list who don't have moms? People are so rude! They don't consider other people.



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166,464 There is nothing left. After all the veiled threats and considerably more thinly veiled attempts at manipulation to get me to feel guilty, there is nothing more. My heart has nothing and no room for you. I wish you could get it, but you don't seem to understand. So I'll keep going and maybe one day you will understand what you did. I just hope that you don't make the same mistakes next time.



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166,463 I'm just glad that I don't have any kids!! When I talk to other people who have kids, no matter what age the kids are, the parents seemed stressed and worried. I don't think having kids makes people happier!



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166,462 I'm full term, as of today.
I want to see my baby's face. I'm also terrified something will go wrong during labor.
Trying to stay positive.
I don't talk to anyone about it, because I want to remain to appear strong to everyone, but it's a life altering event, giving birth.
It's probably the closest to death one can feel & touch, without actually dying.



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166,461 So the in-laws are all a-buzz because somebody says she might have caught a glimpse of my sister-in-law's husband kissing another woman.

It's probably just church gossip, as those church biddies LOVE a scandal.  If there isn't a scandal going on at present, they're more than happy to fabricate one.

Secretly though, I'm just surprised he hasn't found somebody else sooner.  If my only sexual option was to fuck some fake-pious, bitchy, ugly, catatonic mass like that guy's wife, I might have a piece on the side too.

I don't approve of adultery, but sometimes... I understand it.

43 / F/ Happily married with no kids



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166,460 Of course I do. You don't get that I will ride it for as long as I can! Why stop?



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166,459 I celebrate mother's day alone today. Without my children. Without a partner.  May all of you whose children were born know how lucky you are.

I hope my two know I love them and miss them. I hope that in my next life I am able to hold them and see their faces.

Miscarriage is a crurl reality today. Mommy loves you. Mommy is sorry.



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166,458 The truth is I miss you. I would never admit that to friends, family or your friends and family - or you for that matter.

It's the truth though.

How did it go from so fun to so not fun? Why did I let myself say those awful things to you at the end?

I feel horribly for what I said. No matter what you did and how mean your actions were, I didn't have to stoop so low. It was callous, immature and unnecessary. I would take it back if I could.

I hope you're happy and that the right woman gives you exactly what you need.

When I think of you I mostly smile and think of the good times.



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166,457 The cps "workers" took personal offense to some perceived rudeness (I assume) and they lied in court. They do it all the time. My wife is an attorney, so I hear about it all the time. They hurt more families then they help, even if you are squeaky clean. We tell the clients to kiss their asses, but it doesn't make any difference. They take their kids to the health clinic. They attend classes and go to support groups, and at the end of the day, they are left crying at the courthouse without their kids. And don't get me started on the cases they let fall through the cracks.



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166,456 When we were 15 my best friend and I gave each other blow jobs. We only did it once.



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166,455 Either way, one size never fits all ...



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166,454 Deep down I've always felt that loving someone meant taking myself out of their life before I ruined it.



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166,453 I have a certain respect for people that use i love you instead of love you.



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166,452 Facebook is a total waste of time today. Mom is my hero blah blah BLAH!!



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166,451 I was lucky enough to find my soulmate, my missing puzzle piece that completed me. We knew true happiness and contentment, thought ourselves blessed and planned a wonderful fulfilling future together.

Now he is gone and I am even more broken and empty than before. I don't think I can stop myself from falling into darkness and the only person who could save me isn't here any more.

I would give anything to go back in time a few weeks and be with him again.



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166,450 I wish I really had you good.



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166,449 I know a woman who has a 9th grade daughter. The daughter now has a boyfriend so the mother put her on birth control. That's sick.



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166,448 so i'm in hospital, because I had another lupus flare up. that's all I told him. the part I left out was that i also just miscarried our baby. that part i won't tell him, they're no need for him to know.

Happy not a mother's day to me.



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166,447 Please God help me through this. Please let everyone that wants to currupt me forget about me for the next two weeks.



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166,446 At my daughter's high school there's an annual year end academic awards ceremony. This year they forgot to hand out a number of awards. For example, they handed out awards for the top student in each Spanish class. But they forgot to hand out the awards for the top students in French and other languages.

The school is lazy in that way. They don't care. They are so haphazard and irresponsible. Yet they are there to guide our children. What, so our kids can become lazy and irresponsible? I'm going to be really glad when my daughter graduates and we're done with that place.

All of this is of course a secret. You are never allowed to say anything bad about your kid's school or the teachers will retaliate. The whole system is fucked up. This isn't the America I knew.



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166,445 Can take the boy out the ghetto, can't take the ghetto out the boy!



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166,444 You had you're chance....time to move  on



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166,443 Why a lot of trashy people have to come from Dayton and work in selling printers.



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166,442 Go and eat shit bitch. Your life will be so much better if you quit paying attention to mine. I guess you are the one with no life since since you always get on my business.  Who knew that my existence make you skin crawl lol. I hope every I'll you wish you have on me or my family returns to you time 3.



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166,441 My eating disorder is taking my grades away. I no longer have anything going for me. It sucks. The problem is that I'm thin enough to look really good but not thin enough to warrant any real concern. But I'm always tired. I'm always exhausted and I can never stay awake and I NEVER get a break from this. The only break I get is going out and drinking/doing drugs. And now I'm worthless because I can no longer get good grades because I'm always fucking exhausted from starving myself and exercising 6 days a week. I don't know what to do anymore and I just wish I could be calm and stable.



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166,440 I'm not a proponent of torture or the death penalty but what I wouldn't give to have that piece of shit for brains demon Adam Lanza still alive so we could, as a nation, watch that fucking bastard suffer a slow, painful, torturous death. All broadcast for anyone to see if they so chose.
Fucking asshole retard.



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166,439 Old people make me sad. You hobble around. You say demented things. You wet your pants. Fucking off yourselves already. That's what I'd do if I were your age. But then again, I guess I have my pride. Old people today have no pride. They stick around so another spoonful of tapioca can dribble down their chin.



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166,438 I'd be embarrassed to work at Apple.



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166,437 I had sex in a church.



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166,436 God, whatever I did for you to punish me with no husband , no family of my own. I'M SORRY !
I'M SORRY .. I CANNOT DO ANOTHER SUMMER ALONE WITH NOTHING TO DO AND NOBODY TO TALK TO.  I'M SORRY GOD PLEASE STOP THIS HAVE MERCY ON ME.



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166,435 Every time something happens to my cars I always wonder if my ex is behind it. He's a mechanic, and a stalker. If it was just one car at a time I wouldn't be suspicious at all. But it's always both. At the same time. And it started happening about a month after we broke up. Maybe i should get security cams for the outside of my house.



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166,434 Four people beating on one guy. You think that's something to be proud of? You stupid cunt. Just wait until you're by yourself. One by one, you're all going to fucking get it in the end. I have ALL the time in the world, and nothing but patience. You've never felt fear, have you? I mean, true fear.

You will soon enough.



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166,433 Silicon Vally programmers need to stop snorting coke and start fixing bugs. I can't believe the crap they sell as programs. FIX YOUR BUGS!



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166,432 I was looking through my old Facebook posts and saw a few humorously saying I was planning on drinking, or saying I was drunk.  I stopped drinking a few years ago.  I no longer feel a need to drink.  Reading those old posts made me wonder what kind of hole I was trying to fill with alcohol.



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166,431 I don't look both way before I cross the street. I don't even care if I get run over. I deserve to die.



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166,430 I'm sorry I fucked everythng UP. i deserve to be dead. Fuck youlk. I'm drunk and dead inside fuck



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166,429 I will never stop crying.



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166,428 I want to go to my mom's for mother's day but I also want to get drunk alone and listen to Linkin Park. Decisions, decisions. I'm a little buzzed even though it's 8ᚺ in the morning. Hmmm.



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166,427 She's relentless in her love for me, I'm not used to someone having my best interest in mind. But I'm sick, leave me alone already.



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166,426 I have dealt with ACS/CPS and you want to know my secret? I gave birth to my daughter and she came out dirty for weed and zannys. I myself came back positive for weed and zannys too. Guess what? My daughter was never removed. Neither where my two other kids ages 6 and 10. You want to know why? Because even though I had a drug problem that did not make me a bad parent and ACS/CPS saw that when they checked my kids school records and spoke to their pediatrician. I work full time and my husband does too (he doesn't do drugs, I'm the loser that does). I proved to them that I was an excellent parent besides my short comings. ACS/CPS asked me if I wanted to do a drug program and I did. Completed it and everything. Took a parenting class and completed it. It took six months to get them out of my life. I'm strong believer that everything happens for a reason. It's all in how you handle it. I never gave them (ACS/CPS attitude and I did everything they asked. I wasn't a doormat. I did stand up to them and told them I had nothing to hide. Investigate away. My kids go to school, shots up to date, food in the cabinets, clothes and every toy imaginable in their rooms. Like I said if you are a good parent then ACS/CPS means nothing.



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166,425 How about, you blew it! There will not be a next time again!



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166,424 In my next life I plan to skip college and become a tow truck operator. I'll make more money. Lots more.



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166,423 I threw out my Tom Brady jersey.



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166,422 Don't you see what's going on?

Educated white people rarely have to serve time in jail for their crimes.



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166,421 I hate CPS. No, I was never investigated, but my ex was, and a friend of mine. They're fucking lying bitches. They come and tell you how you family should live and always pick up easy cases, cases they can resolve within minutes and punish parents for nothing. But when it comes to real child abuse, they are useless. I read so many articles, how CPS worker was called to the household, visited them for several years and found nothing. But then we find malnourished children in the closet or sexually abused girl in the basements.



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166,420 I just cried in the bathroom at work after looking at my ex's FB. His new girlfriend posted some sappy "I will always love you" post for his birthday, and I lost it. It's not because I miss him or want him back though, I just feel so cripplingly alone. All of my friends are in relationships or doing what I'm doing, being too scared to let anyone close.

Well. I realized today the pain of being alone is worse than the pain of a broken heart, because broken hearts eventually heal, but aloneness endures. It endures moments where you're supposed to be smiling, it endures times when you should be proud, or even grateful. It endures even when there are others around.

I decided today that I'm ready to be open to love again. I want to feel that connection you get with someone when they understand you completely, and even when you don't your ideals peacefully and playfully coexist. I want that feeling of being with that one person and feeling like you're never alone, even when they're not around. The instant smiles at a text. The long walks and talks on the phone. I want it all and I'm ready.



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166,419 Hey, CPS, aka Children Protective Services: Every day I get to hear about how your social workers are destroying families. I sound like an Internet tough guy, but I really want to kick your ass in a back alley. Today you lied in court which resulted in another broken family, so Fuck you, and fuck your mother while you're at it, asshole.



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166,418 You are the girl I love the absolute most, even almost three years after you crushed my soul, but I still (and always will) resent the fuck out of you and hope that you end up alone forever. Your crazy ass earned that. I'd still love to fuck you in the ass one last time, though.  Maybe some of that excellent road head. You were always great at taking cum like a good little whore.



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166,416 Yesterday the stars must have been totally out of whack. By all rights I should be able to call my father and have a normal conversation. My husband and I were fighting.. Arguing really about nonsense that we both know is nonsense. So for the icing on the Cake I decided in all nonsense to see if I could Stay the night to calm our heals and think some shit through. Normal call your only living parent for a bullshit calm down things will be fine my door is open always pep talk. Oh not in my life or world... He goes off the deep end about my dead ass not having a job.. I do have a job just suspended for my husband almost dying and wanting to be by his side in case the dumb ass drs. Decided to cut him internally more.. And two kids who yeah are teens but not quite aware of the unkindness of the world enough to not be taken care of... Back to the deep end he hits Me with a you stole my identity and took a 50k loan??? Wtf? Would I call you in need of rescue if I had 50 grand sitting in my pocket? If that isn't good enough he tells me I was the product of his affection for my lovely mother who wanted a baby so bad that he couldn't say no.. Wait my birthday is exactly 9 months from your marriage date.. So in was an unwanted by product of consummating a marraige. Thats why you never came around while I was little? You didn't want one of four kids?? OK flashback to the years I took care of my mom while I was a child flashback to my brother 20 years older than me telling you I had it rough because of said mother and lifestyle she chose. Flashback I never asked for you two losers to fuck get married or be born. Oh I have never asked my father for anything. I was so happy to just have a relative left alive I never thought to question why he wasn't around. Well he set me completely straight. Apparently when you don't want your wife anymore you get to dump the kid too.. And then later in life when kid is grown and needs someone in their corner you get to say not me... Fuck you and throw in some low blows about already hated said parent. Sounds all good right? Well fuck you men in your 60s or 70s who wanted all play and no pay. I suffered my mother decided to sell me to a stranger. Its a good damn thing she wasn't creepy and just wanted eyes on her grandson who I happen bto go to school with for whatever reasons she had. Better than the abuse I suffered from both my sisters and damn near every man I've known minus three my step dad who taught me to hunt and fish my brother who in death I still wish he were here to be my dad and my husband who has suffered more than any one man should. All in all I threw my phone hung it up and know that its probably the last time I will hear from the man... I sobbed after that.. Knowing you're not wanted is by far worse than thinking it. Father's of the world you make it too easy for your kids to absolutely despise you. Just because you remarried doesn't mean your child doesn't need you. In a respect I was lucky my step dad put up with my mother for years even after they divorced he took care of me. We took our kids to see him when they were born. Other than that I am secretly hoping you die fuck you and your hatred for mom. That's your baggage not mine.



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166,415 You know how some men complain about their wife's spending too much money in my marriage is the opposite.  My husband ask me to look online to get hotels reservations for our weekend getaway . Me the practical and frugal person I'm , gave him some codes for specials and discounts . My husband calls me a few hours later and told me he already made the reservation I ask him which packet deal he got us and he said oh I didn't I ended up booking the nicest (most expensive) room they have its beautiful and have so much spaced. He does the same with clothes, cars, houses etc.... I usually just bat my eyes and don't say anything since I'm a home stay home and he is the provider of the house.



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166,414 As a teacher I know far too much about the personal lives of the children in my classroom. It's not just that J. missed school today, it's that she missed school because her mother is going into court-mandated drug rehab today. I know so many secrets which by law I can't share. I feel like I'm going to burst.



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166,413 Tom Brady ... what a joke.
Sportsmanship ... what joke.
Football ... what a joke.
Sports in general ... what a joke.

That's right, gear your sons to grow up to be sports players. Or rob banks. Same thing really. No ethics needed for either.



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166,412 I've already been at my breaking point, I'm not so sure I'm making the right decision in coming home. I'm afraid I'm gonna reach it once again and then I'm out of options. I never seen my life turning out or ending this way. I have to pray on it and try to listen this time.



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166,411 I still masturbate everyday. I'm 59, male. I feel no slow down. I could see doing this til the day I die.



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166,410 "Thanks for helping me... I'm going to give you a sexual reward because I know you like it... But I can't today... We'll do it tomorrow..."

I've heard this from my wife at least 100 times and she has never come through the next day.



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166,409 You know what? I tried very, very hard not to, but I fucking hate you.  There. I said it.



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166,408 Been years already…. Fucking YEARS – I was thinking the morning, since you have been with mr. wonderful, how many times have you slept at e's house? Or not come home at all and didn't tell him shit? Probably ZERO.  Maybe he is the one being shady on you – not answering his phone etc. telling you one thing and doing another. Or do you only do that to your husbands? Fake ass trick, lying piece of shit, I haven't paid on “our” loan in 5 months – well to be clear – I make the payment, then I take the money right back out – that fucker will STAY at unpaid FOREVER – my credit is over 800 – where is yours? You cant get a loan for a tank of gas can you? But you got a snowmobile? Let me guess – the same way you got your bike? Had him cosign, the way you had me do it? See a pattern… user – liar – scumbag.  How does that work exactly? You just bat your eyes and get boys to help you? Must be nice. Are you going to your sisters wedding? I hope your fucking plane explodes on takeoff – better yet – during landing, that way you can feel like you made it and then BOOM – game over. Thanks for paying for your tits too – oh nevermind – thanks for paying $300 for them. Asshole. I hope they give you cancer – but first you should have kids so they can die in front of you – THEN you can get cancer – THEN you can have the plane crash.  Whore. Go fuck yourself with a cactus covered in HIV and razor wire.  But no, Im not still bitter, angry or mad. You MOTHER FUCKING CUNT.




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166,407 All this talk of conservatives and liberals is nonsense. There are two groups. Rich and poor. Rich control the media and the police and the stock market. The poor are just fed upon. Two party talk is just a smoke screen to keep you arguing about this party or that. All the while, the rich get more and the poor get less.



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166,406 Thank goodness for intimate relationships. It's not easy to get along with out them. Also, my children. I love my kids.



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166,405 I checked my news feed this morning and saw something interesting.  I don't follow British politics, but one of the links was something like "Elections Too Close to Call" while the link below it was "Conservatives Deal Labour Massive Defeat."

How can one link say the elections will be too close to call, when the truth is that the liberals got their asses handed to them?

I guess liberals control the media in the UK, too.



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166,404 I only went to class today because that's what Nicki would want me to do. Sigh I need to get my shit together.



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166,403 My confidence intimidates people. I like that.



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166,402 I wish I had a cock in me right now. My husband is sleeping and useless.



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166,401 I have peed into my hand. It's oddly soothing to feel the warm liquid run through my fingers.



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166,400 I never share the traumatizing things in my life anymore because whenever I seem to do so, there's always someone else telling me how they've gone through worse, or how they know somebody who's gone through worse, or that what I went through wasn't even that bad at all. It's infuriating. If trying to belittle something that was very significant in my life is your idea of helping, then you can help yourself to nice cup of shut the fuck up and fuck off.

What's even worse are the people who were the main cause of a majority of those traumatizing events are the people saying this stuff. It seems pretty fitting, actually, that they would deny any wrong doing. It fits their patterns of protecting themselves by downplaying and denying anything that shines a bad light on them. I've learned it's a fight I'm never going to win. But I've also learned that there's no benefit of winning that fight, so, I'm in purgatory with this.

When it comes down to it though, I haven't earned the right to say any of this. In fact, I haven't earned the right to use this computer, or to be in this apartment, or to even be alive. I'm worse off than any of the people  I talk about. At the end of the day, I'm nothing really, and to blame anyone but myself is childish and moronic. I know better than that. I guess I have to keep pushing forward even if I don't see much to push for. I've never seen the sense in giving up, especially while I'm still young, but I am starting to see the reason.

Don't give up. If I didn't tell myself that every day, I would.



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