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168,599 As a dark skinned Nigerian American woman, I am so glad that the general public now knows just how cruel Black men are to Black women like myself. The controversy about Straight Outta Compton's casting list for White and light skinned women as "pretty" and Dark-skinned short haired Black women as "ugly" is so telling. I grew up in the days of Onyx and NWA. I can't tell you how much rappers like that changed the dynamics between Black women and men. Now so many  Black men shit on Black women and only want to date a White, Asian or Latina women. I gave up and now I don't date Black men either. I am an engineer dating a White looking Cuban man. He and men like him seem to be the only men who actually appreciate dark skinned Black women. Its so sad that Blacks are the only race of people where the men are so self hating, they won't date women who look like them. After years of abuse about my skin tone, my large African features and short coarse hair, I gave up on the very men who look like me but refused to love me even though I look like them.
Google "Black women are.." or "Dark skinned women are..." and see how many Black men are filling in the blanks with the most insulting and degrading things.



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168,598 My cousin who kind of scammed on me at our last family reunion is now missing multiple teeth.  I can't figure out if I'd rather be fat or without chewing apparatuses.



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168,597 To lump all guys together and say they are worthless or what the fuck ever is like saying every women is a cunt!!! Yeah you are right you are a cunt!



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168,596 Stop with the endless regret bullshit. I am a woman. I had an abortion.
When it comes to mind, it's because I'm so grateful I had a choice.
I made the right one and do not regret it.
Do I regret getting pregnant? Sure. I regret the circumstances, but I will never regret my decision. Ever.



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168,595 95% of women report "relief" after an abortion. Pro lifers hate facts. 95% of people cannot agree that the sun is up, but women agree on this. Abortion = NO regrets!



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168,594 He speaks of not having feelings like he doesn't. But every time she twists the knife I see him cringe. He gives all this power to these women who do not love him. He give the importance of their souls over mine every time. How quickly I am cast to the shadows. How often it starts innocently enough. She is a friend. She is only a friend. He says this first. He is no good at keep them friends. He falls and then says he doesn't. He lies to the world and says he's detached. Yet I can see the glowing chains he adorns for her sake. He will let her figure it out and be with whomever. All the while she slinks back her to fuck him while she tests the waters with other men.
I hurt for his pain. I know his pain. As it is mine. I love him freely. To allow him to do however he pleases and know that he will return to me soon. But it is a learned thing. A painfully thing that I do not believe he has mastered yet. Because he comes to me in tatters.
She doesn't know how much I truly love him. How much I love her. but my love for her is different. I want her to go and explore and see all of the stars and dreams she never could trapped here. Because he and I are trapped by our circumstances. Twirling points on a chained web.



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168,593 you mean everything. to me



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168,592 i am so happy...and its all because of you...i will never love another man like i love you...and you know what?...i lied... i would marry you in a millisecond. if you asked....just to be with you always..would make me the happiest girl in the world....and if we could never have sex again..it wouldnt matter hottie cuz its you i love...being with you....no matter what....i love you...xoxo



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168,591 Everybody has been crying about a lion Cecil being shot in Africa, but nobody cares about almost 30,000 white people loosing their lives in Southern Africa. Murdered in their beds by Africans. Go figure......



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168,590 I feel so much better now. I can't tell you how happy I am!! Very, very excited!!



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168,589 Abortion is violence committed  against the woman's own body. Very few woman survives this harm she does to herself. That child will NEVER leave her. It will be part of her forever. It has nothing to do with politics or religion-it is the worse sin a woman can commit to her own mind and soul. It will bother her until her last breath. Think hard about this. The women that I know that had abortions pay for it for the rest of their lives....



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168,588 Parents who leaves kids in hot cars to die, I call bullshit. I don't think in every case it's an accident. Some of the stories are too twisted and unbelievable. I think some parents are intentionally killing their kids this way. And they are getting away with it.



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168,587 My love for you has never gone away but my ability to put myself out there for you only to have hopes dashed has.  You taught me how to value my self worth again and for that I thank you.



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168,586 44% of Millennials sleep with their cell phone in their hands.

That's sick.



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168,585 It's become a thing in my town for all the rich people to wear an apple iwatch. I notice they walk around with this awkwardly large clunky thing on their wrists and they make a point of never wearing long sleeves exact so the rest of us will notice the watch. Haha, sorry to disappoint all of you. I don't see the watch. What I do see is a vain, self conscious, insecure person.



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168,584 Amazing how women band together to justify their abortions. They feel like if all these women are on the same side, then what they did couldn't possibly be wrong.

Well wake up sister. You killed your unborn baby. Why? Having a baby just wasn't convenient at that moment.

You murdered a baby for personal gain.

Women, pretend all you want that abortion is okay. Go ahead. But know this is why hell exists - for people like you.



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168,583 I don't choose what's for dinner. The supermarket chooses for me. I buy whatever is on sale. I'm rich. I could buy whatever I want. But maybe this is why I'm rich.



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168,582 If you asked me to run away with you, marry you, I would in a second. I would do anything for you. Anything to be with you. I have never in my life been so smitten.



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168,581 If you asked me to run away with you, marry you, I would in a second. I would do anything for you. Anything to be with you. I have never in my life been so smitten.



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168,580 Please get a divorce. Please give me strength to end my relationship. I'm down if you're down.



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168,578 Everyone who terrifies you is 70% water. And everyone you love is made of stardust. And I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply and the night sky is no home and you have cried yourself to sleep enough times that you are down to your last 2%. But nothing is infinite, not even loss. You are made of the sea and the stars and one day you are going to find yourself again.



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168,577 Today is your birthday.  I've remembered for close to 30 years.  Hell, I remember every single day.  I miss you every day.  The way you smelled, the way your voice sounded, the way you used to clip your hair up off of the back of your neck when it was hot outside. You had hazel green eyes and a crooked little smile, and nobody ever made me feel the way you did just by being around me.  You were electric, and shining and beautiful. I felt whole when you were with me.  I felt home then, in those fleeting days, and I've been lost all these years.

I'm sorry I blew it. I never deserved you. I Made the wrong choice and screwed it up so badly. I've regretted it every day since. I was only 20 - a dumb kid, all screwed up and I honestly don't know why you ever spent 5 minutes of your time with me, but I treasured every moment. I tried to forget you 10,000 times.  I never could. I'm sorry for the things I did, and I'm pretty sure you never even gave me a passing thought all these years. I think you had a beautiful life. I never thought I was good enough for you, and it turns out I wasn't. I probably would have poisoned your life.  I'd like to think you would have made mine better instead, but it doesn't matter now. I just miss you.  I've been alone forever, and the only reason is that I've never found anyone who even comes close to being as special as you.  

I hope you know all of the secrets now.  I hope that you know how I felt about you and that I think about you every day and that I adored you.  I hope you understand that I have to try again to forget now, because all I have is sadness, and all I want is a little happiness before I go. I hope one day I'll see you again and I hope that when I do I can be proud of my life.  I hope I can find a way to make something out of what I have left and not be embarassed to see you. I hope I can find some courage, and some grace.  I hope you're safe, happy and warm,  And God dammit - I'm so sorry.  I'm so fucking lonely, and I miss you so much.



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168,576 said i loved you but i lied... this is more than love i feel inside...



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168,575 You cheated on me and there's one thing I regret not doing. Two and a half years and there's one thing.

I never tickled you. I never watched that fucking beautiful smile cover that incredible face I never fucking tickled you.



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168,574 Uh...nevermind.



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168,573 And that's why Jesus never shut anyone out, indespite of character flaws or annoyances. The Catholics have it wrong. Jesus said "the only unforgivable sin, is not to believe in the holy spirit". Suicides are condemned to hell for eternity? I think not! You don't think God will take into account circumstance, like insanity, or emotional overload?

By holy spirit, I feel, he means belief in no higher power. A straightforward denial of intelligent design. So from the pagans to aboriginal peoples, Christendom and even Islam...good to go! Provided you're not using religion, or hiding behind it for nefarious purposes. Sorry Hindus, didn't mean to forget you or any others ;)



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168,572 whoever started the phrase 'sticks and stones' myst have been a white male. theyre pretty much the only type of person that cant be affected by derogatory terms. meanwhile non whites and women have to put up with some pasty dudes verbal assaults in the streets and now online. as sure as no father wants to hear their daughter being aggressively catcalled in the street, no one wants to be called a goddamned word that could potentially flip a switch that some white guy from the 1900s said we should have under control. bullshit



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168,571 I'm pissed off that the laws of physics apply to me. The laws of man??? You think you worthless fucks have the right to tell ME anything?????? Kiss my ASS!



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168,570 i hope you made it to your grandma's in time

i wish my kids had the same relationship with my mother, as i had with my grandmother. same DNA, but oh so different.

i love my mom, but she's not beloved



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168,569 Please dear God, please let my husband's name be on the Ashley Madison leak list.

I won't be cruel about it. I'll be kind. I will handle it with grace. I will protect the children. Ill "forgive" him and be understanding.

I just want the fuck out of this marriage already.



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168,568 I am as described, a kind, smart, attractive woman and I too married a bullying oaf.  Yes, I could have and should have done so much better.

But why? Why did I marry him?

Because I long time ago he was funny. He made me laugh. He made me feel protected with those bullying ways. His negativity was never directed at me.

It is now though. Constantly. He's cruel, unappealing and Juvenal. He has never grown up, only grown meaner.

I'm trying to find my way out now.



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168,567 I knew this woman. She had no soul. She was not necessarily a bad person, just empty. Always looking for something or someone to fill the space. That something was always changing. She was not a person on her own, she needed to frame someone else's opinions and beliefs. I could never stand to be around her. Her presence was tiresome. She sucked the life out of me. I put a distance between us. She met this other guy online, a Muslim guy. She was raised Catholic and worshiped Christ her whole life but after a few weeks of talking with this guy, she's converted to Islam. A month later, they're married and she is pregnant. Then she starts telling people she is thinking about moving to south France with her new husband. Then she just disappeared. Her mother reached out to me on Facebook looking for her. I was so surprised. I haven't talked to this girl in years. She must have really been desperate looking so far into her daughter's past. No one knows what happened to her still. I think she found what she was looking for.



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168,566 The new, soon-to-open Smithsonian Museum for African American History is hideously ugly, especially when contrasted with the style of every other building around it.  Apart from that, it's a block away from the National History Museum.  This is confusing to me - why do we now have segregated museums?  Why can we not all be part of the American History museum?  Build a new wing on it if you need the space, but set aside a minority apart in their own building seems condescending and...well, racist.  In contrast, the museum of American Indian history makes sense - they had cultures and nations distinct from the U.S., were all but completely annihilated, and so we give them their own museum, simply in recognition of the fact that they had their own thing going before we even got here.

Not a secret so much as a thing I can't say because I'm white.



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168,563 There's this guy. He's like the town socialist. According to him, big business is evil. Men who wear suits are the enemy. He blabbers on about how his lifestyle of making art and love is the better path.

But it makes me laugh how greedy and corrupt this guy is turning out to be. He desperately wants to make money, so he converted a garage on his property to an apartment. Problem is, he never clear it with zoning. The apartment was totally illegal. Yes, big business does illegal things. But so does this starving artist. Are they really any different?



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168,562 He left me today, and he seemed satisfied with having sex with me 3 times in one evening. I wonder how long it'll be until he wants me again? Our meetings used to be so much more fulfilling, or maybe it's just that I can't lie to myself and say he cares about me anymore. He left me today and the void of sadness, chores and "not-good-enough-for-myself" attitude comes barreling back in like happiness was a bad dream. And I really just want my expensive China back.



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168,561 I never knew the exact meaning of Racism so I looked it up:
"The belief that all members of each race possess characteristics or abilities specific to that race, especially so as to distinguish it as inferior or superior to another race or races."
This shouldn't be a secret but it was to me.



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168,560 I've come to realize today that the devil is a white man. They smile to your face and stab you in the back.  Up until today I never thought that all white people were racist. But today my eyes were opened.



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168,559 My boyfriend went away this summer for a week's vacation with his family. In that time I made love to two men.



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168,558 I'm only 21, but I feel like I'm learning how to have a casual relationship with no drama. There aren't any intense feelings between us, besides the instinctual man&woman feelings. Like his dominance. Or my charm. Or the way we come together like we're making sweet love. We've decided to stay exclusive for health reasons but we don't fret over each other's lives too much.

Easy. Simple. No harm done.



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168,557 I know a beautiful woman. She's smart, gentle and kind hearted. She married a very unlikable man. He's crass. He's bald and pudgy. There is nothing to recommend him. He posts racist comments on Facebook. In person he interrupts people and talks way too loudly. It's not even like he has money. He works at some low level computer job. Their house is rundown and all around hideous.

I do not understand their marriage. She could have done so much better. I can only imagine she was desperate. I'll bet she hit 30 and married the next man who sat near her. It's so sad to watch.



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168,556 When life puts you in tough situations, don't say "why me" say "try me". Don't tell God how big your storm is, tell your storm how big your God is.



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168,555 I'm beat universe. You fucked me up good. Now can you or God tell me why? What did I do to deserve this?



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168,554 168552, not all guys are selfish a-holes. I'm a guy and going down on a lady is my very favorite thing to do. I just love it! It gives me such pleasure to give her pleasure and I'll gladly do it whenever my lady wants it and for as long as she wants it...24/7. Just thinking about it turns me on. And no, I don't demand anything in return.



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168,553 Brain-addled facebooker got up in my grill concering my posts about Cecil the Lion. "You care more about that animal than you do babies".
"What is this about? Abortion again?"
"Yes. If you could stop an abortion by letting an animal die, you would'd do it. That is horrible!".
"That's not exactly true. If I could stop sixteen million abortions by letting that lion die I wouldn't do it either".
Damn, wish I could have seen her ignorant face as she read THAT.



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168,552 I got so mad at my so that in early choked him to death! WTF is wrong with me?!? I know it's the withdrawals, but damn! He didn't deserve that. I need to apologies ASAP! I said some really hurtful things. I have to learn how to approach him. Geez I'm so mad at myself. Words do hurt!gosh I'm such a bitch.

36/F



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168,551 I'm dealing with my mother's death by letting strangers fuck me in the ass in my childhood bed. It makes me feel optimistic again for a little while.



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168,550 My ex hated to go down on me (hated it in general), but was never shy about asking for a bj. The longest he stayed down there was less than a minute. So frustrating. You know his punkass never came in a minute of me sucking his dick... More like 20!!!

My friend has the same problem with her husband. Dude, wtf? You think it's not labor intensive for us? Think that monster doesn't hurt our jaw? Think it smells like roses? Think we live to have your dick in our mouths?!? No. We don't. But we love you, love getting you off, are turned on when you are about to cum and so we do it. It's no big deal.

So I kind of wish men wouldn't be little bitches about being sat on once in awhile. Take it like a man!

I could never ever see myself in a long term relationship with a man who can't reciprocate something that feels so good.

Selfish much????

Yeah, pass. I'd rather masturbate then have a man down there whose all weirded out...  

You don't see me running to the bathroom to rinse after your dick was in there, now do you? Nope, cause now that we're in our thirties I've moved past that.

Like seriously wtf?!?!



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168,549 I just want someone that whenever I'm with them, it feels like home.



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168,548 Male here. I would like to suck off a married man in front of his wife. Isn't there any woman out there who'd like to see her husband come in another man's mouth?



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168,547 Pretty girls get everything handed to them on a silver platter. It's not fair.



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168,546 You always wanted a boy.  Now you have stepsons.  They are gay.  You didnt plan on that did you?



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168,545 My Facebook translation guide. These are from actual fFacebook postings.

Poster: What's the better place to stay in Disney World? The Yacht Club or the Polynesian.

Translation: I could easily look this stuff up online at many travel websites, but what I really want to do is brag to all my Facebook friends that my husband and I are going to Disney World.

Poster: Anyone know what's good to order from the menu at Lutece?

Translation: I'm going to a fancy restaurant and I wanted you all to know about it.

Poster: Anyone know where I can buy one of those bumper stickers, "Proud parent of an Honor Student!"

Translation: My child made the honor roll and I needed a way to tell everyone about it.

Poster: Anyone know where I can get 2.3 carat diamond stud earrings polished?

Translation: Guess what I got for Christmas?  I love how the poster has to mention they are exactly 2.3 carats, as if that's important to to the polishing process.

People are so self serving. They are braggers in disguise. I preferred when they were just braggers and didn't hide behind some ruse of seeking information on Facebook.



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168,544 That's the problem with entire generation of men today. They are nothing but kids who shave and can legally buy beer. They never grew up. Their mommies wiped there noses 30 years, and their wives wipe their noses today. I've never seen a more dimwitted bunch. I'm not surprised some father feeds his kid beer. I'm sure he does it for attention.

"Hey everyone, look at me, look what I'm doing. Gimme a high five."

I pity what the world will look like in another 30 years.



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168,543 Guys who feed infants beer should have the beer bottle jammed up their ass.



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168,542 I've never met an intelligent man who wears a gold chain. This particular piece of vain jewelry is reserved for trailer trash.



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168,541 To the guy who think's he is mean for having sex, not all girls are like that. if you get your girl really wet there is no problem, if she can't do it on her own try some lube. I love sex and I'm a girl.



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168,540 I think modern day Christianity is horrible. It dumbs people down so much.



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168,539 Had a dream it was the zombie apocalypse, and you and I managed to lock ourselves in a hotel room before getting bit. The remainder of that dream involved me worshipping and pounding your ass like my life depended on it. The little freckle on your butt cheek is still the most SEXIEST thing I've seen.

Dreams are wonderful, and so are you, for once.



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168,538 Maybe we should have tried a little harder then?



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168,537 168536, I agree with you.



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168,536 I have finally accepted the fact that I will die alone having never been loved or ever having a relationship. I must have fucked god over so bad, because he really hates me and makes sure I know it.



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168,535 Sorry for having sex with you.  

I know sex is painful for girls and I'll stop trying to have sex from now on. I don't want to be a mean person. 

It's quite a revelation to find out that sex only feels good for the guy and the girl just has to put up with it.



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168,534 I hope someone shoots the dentist.



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168,533 Why do fat balding middle aged men still wear basketball shorts? Do they think there's still a chance the NBA might call and offer them a slot on the team?

(You look like idiots. Grow the fuck up!)



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168,532 I had a bad day at work. I come home and you don't want to be around me. I feel so alone in this world. I keep trying to make meaning of myself but you make me feel so unimportant.



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168,531 My wife had to go to a business dinner with her workmates. So before she leaves the house she shaves her pubic hair? Like what the hell?????



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168,530 there were moments in that lifetime that my heart still replays. there were minutes, there were hours, there were days... there are times that i still love you the same way...



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168,529 You should call the police on your brother in law. It's illegal to give a child alcohol. Then you should tell your sister in law to divorce this idiot because he is possibly damaging the child's brain. Eight months old! My God what's wrong with people!



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168,528 My brother-in-law feeds his kid beer. The child is 8 months old. My brother-in-law thinks this is cool. He thinks it makes him some kind of macho dad. I think it makes him an asshole.



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168,527 So, weeks later, the Confederate Battle Flag is still flying at my house. If anyone objects they haven't told me or done anything to show it. It's right there for everyone to see. Hmm. Guess maybe my neighbors either don't agree with the Left Wing, they're too self-absorbed to care, or they're happy to have someone take the risk of displaying the Battle Flag for them.

I'm proud to be that person.



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168,526 thank the world that the mortgage is in my name only. My bank rep sent me an email requesting signatures for an equity loan my wife applied for. She denies any knowledge of a loan application.



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168,525 Soulmate: I wish you joy and love. #forever



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168,524 I'm against everything you are for. Our political opinions are opposite. We are worlds apart. We can never be.
My mind tells me this but my heart tells me different.



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168,523 Person: I want to date you.
Me: No, I'm horrible.
Person: I don't think you're bad.
Me: That's because you've never dated me!



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168,522 Before going to New Orleans for Mardi Gras I looked in the mirror and practiced flashing my boobies. LOLOLOLOL.



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168,521 Hey. Same. Getting drunk mid day is thr highlight of my work week. Its not a big deal. W.e



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168,520 Don't let our whole life's go on without us getting to be us again, even if it's just for a few weeks. I wanted to love you forever, and I would of taken care of you. You don't have a son to run the business like your dad does. I'll always hope that you come to me one day even if just for a short while. My feelings for you will always ignite once you're near.



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168,519 My dreams literally come true.



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168,518 I'm settling.. And I'm stuck in the past. I don't know how to move forward. I'm not in love, there's no trust. It's just another blah relationship.. You were right, it's vanilla from here on out.



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168,517 I noticed he liked another girl's photo and felt jealous but cucked so I masturbated for a while. i later found out it was his cousin. So disappointing!



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168,516 This breaks my heart. I know a 70 year old man. He's my neighbor. He finally retired last year after having a heart attack. He decided to move to Florida. Sounded like a good idea. He could live out his days relaxing on the beach.

But what happened next breaks my heart. He and his wife went down to Florida to check out the real estate. They saw a house they liked. They bought it. Then they came back north and put their house here on the market.

And there it sat on the market. Month after month and no buyers. They are on a fixed income. They couldn't afford to pay for both houses. They lowered the sales price. Still nothing. The priced has dropped to less than his equity. He will get nothing for selling his house, meaning he will not be able to make the balloon payment due on his new Florida house at the end of this year. He will lose that house too. And all this has wiped out his savings.

He's so distraught. I think he's going to have another heart attack.

If I had money, I'd buy his house at double the price. I'd relieve his angst. But I'm broke too. Life is cruel.



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168,515 I cheated on my wife and I've never once regretted it.



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168,514 I think my wife leaves her dirty underwear out on the floor with purpose. I think she's trying to test me to see if I look at them. I've caught her in the act where she was arranging a pair right by my side of the bed. She didn't know I was watching, but she opened them out on the floor, stood back and took a look, then moved them over a few feet so I would be more inclined to step on them. Yes, men are perverts at times, but women seem to like it.



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168,513 Getting drunk in the morning is my favorite. I don't know why everyone has to be so mean about it. How is it worse than getting drunk at night? How rude!



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168,512 All my friends left this weekend.  Im home alone.  Again. My fwb doesn't want to go out with me to dinner like we used to. I'm just lonely.  The one guy who is interested in me is 400 hundred miles away and not really my type.  

I'm hoping I can get over being alone and enjoy my time. Otherwise I'm afraid I will let 400 have his way with me and regret it later



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168,511 Moving mountains is a bit overkill. Just text me.



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168,510 Longer than there have been fishes in the ocean...



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168,509 I' m not really happy. I'm just in the process of assuring myself that this won't work before I finally break away.  In the meantime, I am an hour away and so wishful for a sign from you. I'd move mountains to have what I had, and be so much better than I was -- since no one else has bothered to come that close.  No one has loved me better.

But I keep on wishing....

I've a suspicion that you hide what you cannot fight, but I will not try to overcome your pride for you.  It isn't over until I'm vowed to someone else, and you've only got so much time...

Or maybe that's my own delusion.



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168,508 The past is a dream.....

That is the perfect sentence for me to think about today,

thank you stranger.  :)



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168,507 My grandmother may opt not to do a second chemo treatment for stage 4 lung cancer. I've never had anyone close to me possibly die.
I'm going to buy two plane tickets. One for myself and one for her only great grandson that she hasn't seen in years.
I'm going to go for a week and try to make the best memories for her and her 3rd grade sweetheart, her husband, for her most of her lifetime.
I want our family genealogy, her secret southern recipes, reminiscing about my childhood summers with her.  Whatever I can get.  Hours of recording on video.
I can't afford to go, time or money wise but I don't care. I'll make it work and eat ramen noodles for months if I have to.

I'll find a way to survive.

I have to go, time is precious.

Her daughter did unspeakable things to be when I was younger but it's time to forgive and forget. She's always been there for me.

I love you grandma, I'm sorry I never bought your only great grandson around all these years.  I'm coming, please hang in there.

I'll be there as soon as I can.  I'm scraping together my money now.

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168,506 a very disappointing orgasm today. i need to do it every day. if i don't and i wait too long, then the orgasm is bad.



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168,505 I'm not comfortable around people. I never have been. I always feel like I'm a burden. I feel like no one ever brought me inside. Even my family when I grew up. I was always the odd one out. Nowadays they have family get togethers and no one even thinks of inviting me.



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168,504 My therapist was always saying, "What's up with all this yearning?" I was settled on the fact that the heart wants what the heart wants. It's not attractive. She knew I had so much going for me, but I continued to stub my toe over a lost love. It was too much to understand when I was younger. I see that I wanted validation for who I thought I was, or, I wanted to return to a happier time. The happy time is now. The past is a dream. Let's move forward people.



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168,503 Secret 168504 - I hope lots of good things come your way for all your hard work. It's nice to know there are good people like you in the world. In the meantime, enjoy the flowers



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168,502 There is a municipal parking lot in my town. Down the center of the lot there is a 50 yard strip of flower beds. A few days ago I noticed the flower beds were overgrown with weeds. I thought it was such a shame, the flowers were being drowned out.

Next morning I went back to the parking lot with my gardening gloves. I figure it's my town. I live here. If it doesn't look nice, no sense complaining about it. I should just fix it.  So I weeded and weeded. I did it for 10 hours until it started to ferociously rain.  I had a little bit left to do, probably another 20 minutes worth, but it would have to wait until the next morning when the rain stopped.

To my surprise, when I returned the next day, the little section was completed. Wow. I was impressed. Someone must have seen me working and decided to lend a helping hand. Yay!

Sort of...

The local newspaper reporter just happened to come by when the stranger did the last twenty minutes. The paper did a front page story on him and his valiant efforts to weed such a large flower bed in the parking lot. He was hailed a civic hero. Several people posted comments online singing his praise.

I just kinda sat back and watched all this unfold. My original intent wasn't to get a thank you or anything. I wanted the flower beds to be weeded. They were weeded. Kinda weird to be reading about someone else getting the credit. But whatever. In these past few days when I drive past that parking lot, I still smile when I see all the flowers.



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168,501 I need to make a correction.

*A hot girl getting laid is a matter of choice.  

*An ugly guy getting laid is a matter of chance.  


*An ugly girl getting laid is a matter of chance.

*A hot guy getting laid is a matter of choice.



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168,500 Email me. I miss you.



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