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168,999 I usually know nothing about nothing. But one thing I do know, women like it when you play with their asshole.



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168,998 Rap is not music and it sucks. If you are not a 15 year old car thief you should not listen to it.



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168,997 I hope you know I'm over you and if I had anything to say I would text or email you..



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168,996 I'm a poet in my heart and my soul is reflected in the blue of your eyes.



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168,995 My wife walks all over me. I am good natured. I don't like to cause problems. She takes full advantage. It has to end though. Now. It's ridiculous how she takes advantage. Bad people are like that. Lesson learned.



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168,994 So his email is there, in that Ashley mess, but I need to know if his name is too.

The email is too easily explainable. His name and credit card info isn't.

I need to find a name searchable database.

I need to just know already.



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168,993 In need of a nap, but all I can think about is making out with you. I want to suck your d*** so badly. I want to kiss and love on you even more.



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168,992 i'm learning as much as i can about Adrenal Fatigue. very interesting, and many suffer from it.



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168,991 I just want to scream. I feel like I can't talk to anyone, and I'm going insane.



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168,990 I think someday I will end up committing suicide because of my migraines. They won't stop.



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168,989 It's really depressing being an 18 year old girl and being fully aware that you are dying alone.



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168,988 Where are you, my Rev. Dimmesdale? :(



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168,987 Save your money, I spend a lot money on 6 treatments on laser hair removal under my armpits , it was extremely painful .I was only hair free for 2 years then a lilitle by little all my hair came back.  . I also had eye laser on my eyes same thing , I was eyeglass , contacts free for five years before my eyes went bad again , even though they are not as bad as they used to be  , I still need my contacts or glasses in oder to see.   I went with vey good doctors , check referances and educated myself on the procedures. Even though it was nice to not shave for awhile and be able to see without contacts or glasses it wasn't long live and waste of money if you ask me.



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168,986 I wish my daughter would say thank you once in a while.



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168,985 Suffering is love with nowhere to go.



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168,984 I wish he didn't hate me. I wish he would tell me what I did wrong.



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168,983 You know how much it would mean to me to hear "me too". Wtf..



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168,982 I want to save up for laser hair removal treatment for my breasts. They're my best feature. They should NOT be covered by hair.



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168,981 I don't get the cops. Are they dumb? Are they lazy? Do they not care?

A week ago there was a local news story about a pedestrian getting hit by a car at 11 o'clock at night. He died. This story caught my interest because a few hours before the accident, I was in my car about a mile away from the scene. I was on a rural road with no houses. Suddenly, out of nowhere, a fellow jumped from the bushes. I slammed on my brakes and swerved to avoid him. I narrowly missed hitting him. It was so weird. He never even looked up at me. He stared down at the roadway and scurried right back into the bushes. My first thought was that this guy wanted to get hit by a car.

And then I read about this accident a few hours later.  

I looked the fellow up on Facebook. I was shocked. From looking at the photos I could tell the dead guy was the same one who jumped out in front of me.

In the news stories, the police were asking for help in case anyone knew anything about the accident. So I called them up and explained their dead victim had jumped out in front of me hours earlier. Meaning this wasn't a simple accident. This was a suicide by motor vehicle.

You know what the police said? They said they doubt someone would intentionally jump in front of a car. But I know what I saw. The police can't be bothered to look into it. Sigh. Some driver thinks he killed a pedestrian when that's not what happened at all.



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168,980 Ha. My wife promises sex and rarely comes through. I'm sick of her shit.



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168,979 Lord, I trust you. Please help me become the right person! Let your will be done whatever it may be! Amen.



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168,978 I'm trying not to wish my life away. I realize time is precious. But damn, my job is soul sucking and I can't wait to retire. I need a hobby or something in my life besides work.



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168,977 He loves to HATE me and he also HATES to love me.



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168,976 There is really no one else but you. There never has been. You were the special one from the day we met. I compare everyone to you. I've loved you since I was a child. I'll love you when I'm an old man. Silly as it seems, you are my one and only true soul mate.



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168,975 After all this time, I still wished I killed myself. Maybe this year. One can hope.



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168,974 Dearest Nick, I love you. I hope we didn't try this too soon.



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168,973 The curse has been lifted.
I love again.



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168,972 I pee in the swimming pool.



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168,971 I was married for 12 years. It became clear to me early on that my wife often lied.  She made up amazing fictions. But when confronted, she'd deny it and wiggle out of the situation. That was more frustrating than her lies.

The final straw was when she away on a "girl's weekend" to Las Vegas with a former roommate from college. The day after she got home she sent an email to her friend. I still have it. In it she said:

"Those guys were so fucking hot. I can't believe I went all the way! No guilt. What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas."

My heart dropped when I saw the email. I was devastated. All her previous lies were about shopping or traffic jams or whatever. This time she clearly cheated.

I confronted her and out can the most unbelievable lies ever. When she said the guys were so sucking hot, she was talking about the weather. She assumed that those guys, meaning just everyone in Vegas, was walking around in the heat of the day, so they were so fucking hot.

By going all the way, she meant she drove all the way to Las Vegas. She can't believe she did that. Even though we live only two hours away.

No guilt meant she didn't feel guilty about using up half a tank of gasoline driving there.  Gas is expensive you know...

I mean what an unbelievable crock of bullshit. I divorced her soon after. Do women really think men are that dumb? My God, her lies were so just as insulting as her cheating in our marriage.



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168,970 My heart hurts. I am going to drink this pain away. So what, it's only life.



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168,969 I know it's not their fault, but I don't think I can eat at a Subway sandwich shop again.



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168,968 Some mothers in my town are on facebook talking about how their kids have lice. Ummm, thanks for the heads up. Your filthy brats will never be invited over to my house.



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168,967 Yes I am well aware you hate me



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168,966 My wife and I have slept in the same bed 4 or 5 times in the past year.  I drowsily paw her and try to fuck her as I am half-awake and she is asleep.  She yells, I go sleep in the guest bedroom.  Most nights I just sleep there because I know she's not in the mood.

The 4-5 times were where we slept together were in hotel rooms or I got a BJ before bed.

This sexless marriage messes with my head during the day and fucks up my sleep at night.  My kids think I sleep downstairs because of the AC.



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168,965 Nice try bitch.  It was indeed his letter and we both see it as you trying to get me in trouble. Further it shows how vindictive you are, as well as being a mooch.



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168,964 Take it from someone who knows.  The worst part of being with an abuser is the shame you feel even years later in remembering people spelling it out for you and it didn't matter, you still professed your love.  
Stupid things a person does during a lifetime.  That is the category this goes into.
Now I feel terribly sorry for them.  Did NOT think this was possible back then.



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168,963 Rules for fast food drive thru:
The drive thru is for when you want a sandwich,a drink and fries, no more.
If you are ordering for your family/ friends/ office; GO INSIDE TO THE COUNTER!
If you are unfamiliar with the restaurant and need to peruse the menu GO INSIDE TO THE COUNTER!
If you have special requests for your order because of special food requirements GO INSIDE TO THE COUNTER!
The drive through lane is for people with small orders who know what they want and are prepared to move quickly.



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168,962 Today is my 11 year wedding anniversary. Do you know what it's like to be married for 11 years? I'll tell you what it's like. It's looking at my phone to see that I missed a call from my husband, calling him back only to realize that he accidentally pocket dialed me on his way to lunch with a female coworker.



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168,961 Ever watch Steve Wilkos?

I do. And I can't count how many times I've seen a beautiful woman on that show, trying to find out whether her boyfriend/husband is cheating on her, who tells Steve all about how her man calls her nasty names, doesn't give her an ounce of privacy, hits her, etc. on a daily basis.

This conversation, pretty much word for word, happens every time:

Steve: "If he's treating you so bad, why are you even with him?"

Woman: "Because I love him."

(Later)

Steve: "If he's cheating on you, what are you going to do?"

Woman: "I can't be with him if he's cheating on me. It's over."

It just, it baffles me.

I've been abused. I know what it's like to have someone you love call you awful things and try to make you feel worthless. I know what it's like to be hit and even beaten by someone who's supposed to love you. I also know what it's like to be cheated on.

Why will these ladies let men treat them like shit and stay with them (in full knowledge of this fact), but leave the instant they hear their men had sex with someone else? Abuse is dangerous. Physically and mentally, it is DANGEROUS to your health.

Am I really the only woman on the planet who would rather be cheated on than beaten?



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168,960 il never leave you im in love with you il never leave you....no worries



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168,959 If you leave me I will have a nervous breakdown.  This I know.



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168,958 It's the dryer sheets.  (So says one who knows!)



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168,957 I'm going to do LSD with him this weekend. For some reason he only trusts me to do it with for the first time, and that's probably because I've done it a couple times before. Plus, we're going to be at my house (I live alone=privacy) and I'm going to take special care that he's okay while he's on it. 8 hours of something you've never done before is no joke. It could end really badly...but I'm not worried. I've talked people off ledges before, and I've been on ledges before. I think it'll bring us closer together, and maybe then he'll be more open to loving me...



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168,956 you need to take care of that first...shes first..if i EVER was first i .its too bad i never will be first and you will continue to take all the venom she spews at you day after day after day...that would never happen in my house..i love you and it would be happy and loving in our house....ALWAYS



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168,955 I like Katy Perry's "Roar".

I can't help it. .  .



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168,954 I hate people who use sports terms in regular speech.  "Swing for the fences", "stand at the sidelines".  Oh shut up!



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168,953 I often make my own soap, with essential oils, and use them to make my own laundry soap.  I know exactly what I'm bathing with and what's going in with my clothes.  

My sister scoffs at this.  She would rather use Tide, Irish Spring, and dryer sheets wonder why her kids have eczema, allergies, and strange rashes.



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168,952 I lose respect for super smart academic types who still believe in god.  Even worse, those who pray before they eat their main meals.  Snacks and fruit don't need any prayer, just the big ones with people around who can see them with their heads all reverently bowed.  Don't choke on those cookies now.



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168,951 With every few acquaintances, I seem to attract this one type of person over and over.  This is nothing romantic.  

This new "friend" thinks they're witty but confuses wit with sarcasm.  The mean type of sarcasm.  Every interaction starts out the same.  

They seem really interested/impressed with my background/accent/education.  They probe to find out more while sharing just tidbits of themselves.  Then their "wit" turns on as they realize my intelligence and, in my opinion, their insecurities kick in.  

They make stupid jokes like asking which pen/pencils/serving spoon I just used and making a big "scene" about not wanting to use that one.  What are you 5?  Serving spoon rivalries are unheard of nitwit.  Next they move on to some passive-aggressivee quip about my hair, "So do you wash it at all?" (I have dreadlocks), then some swipe at my intelligence if I make a silly comment in jest ("Gosh, you must only have books smarts").  

None of these comments is lost on me.  This is the kind of person to whom supposed "random" violence occurs.  You know the "one night they pulled up to their house and were found face down, apparently with a baseball bat to the head injury" kind of violence.  The "who keyed my car?" kind.  The "someone pushed me down the stairs" kind.  The "maybe if I stop being a douche bad things will stop happening to me" kind.  The kind I will never admit to.



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168,950 I live in an apartment complex with walls so thin I can hear the tenants one floor down BUT across the halls walking.  Yes, 2A and 2B are across the hall from 2C, and my apt 2D and I can hear people walking around in 1B.  I can only imagine what I sound like to the people under me.

Anyway, my neighbors in 2C are extremely inconsiderate.  He and his wife and 2 kids are loud as fuck.  Last night I heard the mom yelling to the 4 and 2 year old girls, "Get the fuck inside and eat your goddamned cereal!"  Mom of the year, folks!

The dad smokes on the balcony and exhales toward my window, filling my apartment with nasty fumes.  He also has a motorcycle that he revs loudly while it warms up at 6 in the morning and when he comes home at about 11 at night.  Who revs their bike to cool it down?  That mofo.   So twice a day the entire complex is awakened by his startling muffler noise.  I was contemplating putting sugar in his gas tank until....


.... everyone got a notice that kids on the compound have been up to mischief.  Riding around in unsupervised packs, throwing stones at cars, placing nails in front of tires, etc.  So now everyone is on high alert and extra lighting has been turned on at night.  Totally foiling my covert plans.  Damn kids!



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168,949 you constantly. treat. me like shit...yet you still want me? man up. and tell me how you feel....your hurting me...and ll ive ever been is kind to you and. there for. you



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168,948 I love you. More and more all the time. It scares me because I don't know if you will reciprocate. I can see your love for me sometimes, in the way you care for me. For now that is enoug. That and cuddling.



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168,947 I wish I had a best friend. Someone I could share all my secrets with and they'd be understanding. And I would do the same for them. These relationships can be even better than romantic ones. I miss that.



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168,946 The only somewhat verifiable piece of evidence that proves you were on Ashley Madison and had a meaningful intent is credit card info, albeit someone could have stole your card. I'm going to go out in a limb and say it's a 99.99 probability if your card is in the database, that was you. The majority of those millions of address were people who were simply curious and not paying customers or sham email address. Although some people may have been silly enough to use their primary personal or work address you would have to be pretty stupid and unless there was a correlated credit card, I would be leery of destroying my marriage over it.



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168,945 I wasn't compromised on the Ashley Madison leak. Phew! I did take the time to check all my wife's friends. I was hoping I'd find one who had used the site. What great info that would be. I know who I'd flirt with at the next party because obviously she was looking for something on the side. No luck though, none of my wife's friends were compromised. Dammit.



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168,944 I went to the beach with friends and when we were all in the water together I peed. I was only a few feet away from my friends. I'm sure my pee got on them.

F22



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168,943 My heart hurts. I am going to drink this pain away. So what, it's only life.



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168,942 I am dating someone with a child from a previous relationship (whom I happen to adore).
My view is that romantic love is different to that of love for a child and shouldn't be compared or in competition with the other.
Whereas, he views love as on the same scale and says I will always be below his daughter.
Is it wrong to feel hurt by that?



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168,941 I was really surprised when you sent me that descriptive text yesterday. I don't know what it means; the fact that you sent it unprompted, the language you used (specifically the pronouns), the way you had obviously put a lot of thought into it... I don't know what to think & I'm so confused!



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168,940 My friend repeats the same stories over and over. He is so fucking annoying. I can't take it anymore! It's like listening to the radio. The same fucking songs every hour. I think he enjoys annoying the fuck out of people. I don't know what I did to deserve this.



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168,939 i'm a girl and i love thinking about sex. when i have it once, it's like a drug and i don't want to stop. when I can't have it for a few days, I can live without it for a long time feeling oke. but the first day after leaving my boyfriend is the worst :( He tells me I'm special in that way, even when he comes home from soccer for example and I'm half asleep, just touching it once already wakes me up. I hope we are going to be a good married couple later. sex is already getting more exciting for us the longer we stay together :) so to the guy who said girls don't think about sex, they do but you probably wont know ;)



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168,938 I checked the Ashley Madison email database.  Sure enough my dummy email address showed up.  This could get real interesting for folks.



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168,937 ...



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168,936 I don't bother going out anymore.  I just go to work, come home, surf  the internet & drink.  It's better; I like life better this way.



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168,935 I have to agree with Mark Twain. The more I learn about people, the more I like my dog.



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168,934 You said you keep me guessing. It wasn't funny because it is too true.



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168,933 I hate it when I catch myself projecting my own worst qualities on the people around me. That's when I know I need to look at myself, see where I'm not being honest about my own behavior. There are many onion layers in this game.



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168,932 I find in life people behave badly. They are selfish. To one degree or another they are out for themselves. It's a pet peeve of me. I don't like selfish. When people I know do it, I cut back. I don't let them in anymore. It means I've cut a lot of people out of my life. But oh well, I'm happier without selfish people.



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168,931 You have a demon for a wife.



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168,930 3rd genital herpes outbreak in 6 weeks, right after I was diagnosed.
I want to die.



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168,929 Know one knows the misery of being married to my wife. She's the most awful person I've ever known. We'll have sex possibly once every two months. But it's not mutual. She insists I give her an orgasm. So I do with my tongue. It's the only way she ever has an orgasm.  Once she's satisfied, one of three things happen:

1) She falls asleep. The day is done and the sex is over.

2) She'll tell me she's got things to take care of and she'll finish me off later. But later never comes. She sneaks off to bed later to avoid having sex with me.

3) She will actually have "sex" with me. But this is almost the worst option of all. She'll give me a hand job for a few minutes then tell me her arm is tired. She insists I finish it myself. I did a  few times. But when I did, she'd get up and take out her contacts or change into her pajamas, leaving me jerking myself off alone. I felt like an idiot. I eventually learned that when she asks me to do it myself, I just say no and walk away. At least I have my dignity.

My wife is the worst sexual partner ever. I win. Yay me.



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168,928 I had dated this girl for about 6 months. From time to time we would engage in anal sex. She really liked it up her ass, as I did as well. One time we were 69. As I probed her labia with my mouth my finger was up her butt hole. I was knuckle deep in her ass when my finger tip hit a turd. Gross.

Another time when  I went down on her pussy I found a piece of tp stuck to her anus. It was brown and nasty. Omg.

Next!



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168,927 I have a crush on you



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168,926 Happy birthday M.  LOVE YOU. always have always will.



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168,925 i think i hate 20 Somethings



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168,924 I remember the moment I became a drug addict.  I was 19 and recovering from surgery.  I had taken my morphine capsule and a few minutes later realized it made me feel excited and painless and terrific.  It was the first time I ever got high.  I kind of forgot about it, and then two years later found some of the morphine again in the back of the cabinet when I had a migraine.  It got me high again, and from that moment on it was about abusing the medicine to get myself high.  I had an autoimmune disease, so my doctors were willing to give me the pills.  I would exaggerate the pain to get narcotics.  At first I thought I could control it, and I did.  I only took it at night, and told myself that I'd know if I had a problem when I felt like I needed to take it in the day.  A few months later, I was taking pills in the day.  It didn't help when my mom got cancer and a huge bottle of morphine.  I'd just stay high for days.  I managed to get pills for two straight years after a surgery.  Most of the ྖs were spent finding pills and looking for drugs in my friends' medicine cabinets.  Eventually I realized I was ruining my life and went cold turkey.  I started running to substitute the pill high with the runner's high.  It felt great to get my real strength back.  I went through six months at a time with nothing, but would always pull a few pills out of people's medicine cabinets.  This went on for 17 years.  Finally, a few weeks ago I went through my sister's cabinet and couldn't find any pills, and I realized I didn't want them.  I left her house sober and didn't care that I wasn't high.  It took 24 years to get through this addiction.  Just don't ever do drugs.



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168,923 He shows no remorse.  It was obviously his way of ending it with me and I interfered, believing in words instead of actions. The blameshifting points the way out.



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168,922 Got the message
Loud and clear
It's time for me to
Leave from here
We are just too different
We are poles apart
I am fed up of waiting on
Something that'll never start



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168,921 Demanding free college? I think parents should pay for high school. Paying indirectly through taxation, if at all, fosters a sense of entitlement, laziness, and devalues the work of educators.



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168,920 When Hillary Clinton was First Lady, she would quote an African proverb about it takes a village to raise a child.  I just thought that was a feel good phrase she liked to use.  Now that I'm much older, I understand why she would say that phrase.  It was her backdoor way of saying that the government (the "village") was what a person needed to perform their most important tasks (raising their children).  The village must instruct your child.  The village knows best, not the parent.  The parent is dependent on the village.  All good things come from the village.  Hand your children over to the village so that the children become dependent on it, too.



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168,919 You must really hate yourself. Your loss.



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168,918 I would have been so happy to get my favorite kind of chocolate on my anniversary, while out to dinner with my husband of ten years. The earrings would have been nice, too, I guess. I'm not that much of a jewelry person. Honestly, receiving expensive gifts makes me uncomfortable. Still, I would've said thanks. It's a lovely thought.

For me, thought and effort count for more than money does. Is that really so unusual? :/



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168,917 I'm scared that my boyfriend doesn't love me as much as I love him. At the same time, I think what I'm really scared of is that he loves me more.



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168,916 I thought you might tell me you loved me last night. I will keep hoping.



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168,915 My 9 year old asked me why black people speak so ignorantly and disrespectfully and white people speak proper English and use manners like please and thank you. Also why they don't behave in school, bully people and talk about having sex in elementary school and flat out walk around town half dressed, screaming profanities and threatening the public. From the mouths of babes; they're doing it to themselves. We're not raising them this way, this is what they see.



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168,914 @168868 If you haven't already started a plan, you must start one now so in a few years, you could put it in motion. See an attorney, a good attorney, to see if you were to divorce what would happen. Every State is different. Before you go see him, research questions you should ask. You may even want to put your home on the market now and tell her you are wanting to upgrade. Then instead, rent until you find the 'one'. Lessen the amount of things you will need to sell. She will make selling hard. You may even want to put money in your childrens' account with only you as the beneficiary. If they don't have one, open them and start putting money away for them. You may not have to 'split' this money. But make sure you stay as the only beneficiary. Again it depends on the State you live. Start your planning now. And leave all paperwork, etc at your office. Good luck.



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168,913 Black lives matter... but apparently looting a tv from the local electronics store matters more.



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168,912 @168910. I was in a relationship with a bitch like that,worst experience in my life. Get out of a materialistic marriage and find Yourself a proper woman. Someone that is high quality and low maintenance.



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168,911 Liberals think the know it all. They want to change the world so that nobody does anything. Communism has not worked in Russia and socialism has not worked in Europe- but they are still beating this dead horse. Everyone has to work pay taxes and do their share. There is no free ride in the world. Democrats are enslaving people to vote for them by giving them more free stuff-how long is this going to work?  This is why Japan and China owns the USA. We borrow 48c of every dollar from them to pay for the freeloaders in America. How can Americans sleep at night? Is this the country you want to leave your kids where every person is in debt for about $150,000 to the  Chinese! Americans better wake up  soon and educate themselves about what is going on in congress. We are being lead down the garden path. Vote with your head and not emotions. Don't vote for a guy because he looks "cool" and can make a speech! Look at what these politicians are all about. Forget about the Kardashians and movie stars and become a responsible citizen before it is too late. The future of the USA is in your hands. WAKE UP!!!



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168,910 Your wife likes the diamond earrings because she can show them off to her sister, and then have them seen at the party - by other women.  It's driven by the same mentality manifested in women's preference to receive Valentine's Day flowers at their workplace - in front of other women.  It's all about competing with, and sticking it to, other women.  "Look how shit hot I am for a man to have bought this for me!"  You, the giver, are almost irrelevant.



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168,909 Embarrassing story about my wife. Or maybe I should say sadly sickening story.

It was our wedding anniversary. I took her to a nice restaurant. I had a gift bag carefully concealed in my jacket. I pulled it out and put it on the table. She seemed genuinely excited.

The bag sat there for the entire meal. I was building the anticipation.

Finally, just before desert, I let her open the bag. She removed some of the colorful tissue paper and.... pulled out a small box of chocolates. Almond bark really. She loves almond bark. I try to always get her almond bark on her special days. It makes her happy.

But not this day. She immediately frowned. Then turned to me and in the ugliest sneering voice ever she said something to the effect of, "Fuck you! We've been married 10 years today and all you can do is get me the same old damned chocolate? You're cheap. You're lazy. I fucking hate your guts. I regret ever marrying you."  You get the idea. She wasn't happy.

I was dumbfounded. I had no idea she was so unhappy being married to me. I thought our marriage was good. She knocked me off my spot.

It took a minute to get my wits about me. I didn't know what to say.  I just wanted to get the restaurant bill and go home. I started clearing the colorful tissue paper off the table.

That's when it occurred to me she didn't open the other present in the bag. I told her this. She sneered and said there was no other present.  

I looked in the bag. Oh, a piece of tissue paper was covering it. I showed her the small jewelry box.

She had this confused look. She opened the box to find diamond stud earrings which matched her wedding ring.

She was suddenly all happy again. She gave me a hug and said she couldn't wait to show her sister the new earrings.  She told me she loved me and how excited she was - she would were them to a party we were attending the next week... and so on.

See what happened? She thought I only gave her chocolate. Almond bark really. And she was livid and admitted she hated being married to me. But when she realized diamonds were also in the bag, then she loved me unconditionally.

Since that day I've trudged through this marriage. I never divorced her.  But things have never been the same to me after that incident.



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168,908 I so want to talk to you my friend. I wish you would just call me.



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168,907 ...What is it that I want to do on this godforsaken organic space ship with the short span of time that I've got?  Do I really want to spend it all trying to please others?  Why does money have to be so bloody important?  I want to live, I want to thrive and be happy.  But everyone around me is so bloody miserable at their jobs they spend half their lives at.  I'm terrified that's going to be me, that I'll have to join that just for the sake of surviving.  I don't want to.  I want to know another way I can survive, thrive, and be happy.  Or I want one where I can be happy.  I want what is best for me.



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168,906 It's nice to know that it was final between us. Very sad at first, but that has given way to acceptance. Plus, things are going pretty well. Some of the same old problems, but it's going to be okay. As for you, anything could be happening, who knows... All I know is you forgot about me and quickly moved on. It's comforting to know that you aren't secretly hoping that I will send you a sign, or give you a call, etc. That's not you. I don't have to wonder. Thank you for being so wonderfully consistent/capricious.



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168,905 How can I send 5 emails from my phone, 2 arrive right away, and the remaining 3 arriving a day later. Sending email from an iphone is as bad as sending a paper letter with a stamp!



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168,904 My big insight. There have been a few times my husband has cum in my pussy or backdoor and then I have to go out somewhere with friends. I'll find myself sitting in a restaurant for lunch and I'm smiling because I've been naughty and there is cum in me and the women I'm with have no idea.

Then it occurred to me... how many times have I been out with one of these woman and it was her doing the smiling because there was cum in her backdoor and I was the one who didn't know. It's a funny thought. Now every time I see one of my friends smiling, I wonder...



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168,903 Ive gained 30 pounds in 6 months. I now weigh 233# @ 5Ɗ". I'm not going to make excuses.  I eat too much and move too little.  I've been through a rough time romantically and professionally. It makes me feel better to eat... until its hard to shave or difficult to bend down to get laundry or a little difficult to ride him to completion.
This relationship (fwb??) Is new. He met me fat. He fucks me fat. He cums bc my fat ass makes him cum. I like that he isn't afraid that I eat or isnt afraid to grab my stomach.  I hate that I cant ride him like I want to. I hate that im nervous because I know hes sleeping with prettier/slimmer women.
Im afraid that if I don't lose the weight I'll become ill or injured.  Im afraid that *when* I do lose the weight I will lose my ass and tits and just be miserable (I like my body mire now than at 160# but not as much as 190#).
I wish his six pack abs didn't make me crazy. I wish oxytocin didn't exist and I could pretend I'm not catching feelings.
Bottom line is I want to be loved completely,  fully and unapologetically. Hopefully one day a man can do that.  Today I need to do that and start taking care of me.



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168,902 Waking up everyday in the personal hell I created.



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168,901 Guess what? I am a good and classy woman. When I meet or date a man I really like, some of  the first things I think of are: what it would be like to kiss him, what it would feel like putting my hands on his bare chest/biceps and what his cock would look like and how he would like to make me cum. I like, respect and appreciate men. Men should act like men. The ironic thing is I am divorced by choice, a single Mom and I have not had sex for 9 years because I haven't found the right man to love, respect, look up to and who can fuck my brains out.  F/41



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168,900 Kevin, I asked you to hang out and I'd love it if you'd reciprocate. I can't stop thinking about you.



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