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169,199 you know my heart...you know my mind....i am yours and i always. will be...



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169,198 I hate affordable housing laws! Why is it my responsibility to pay the housing bills for other people. I worked hard in school. You didn't. But I have to pay your way. I refuse.



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169,197 I'll be making the first move.
As usual.



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169,196 "We saw that movie together, right?". Nope. Must've been somebody else, jerk.



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169,195 Tattoos. Tattoos can be artistic, I have a few, but sadly most people are not artistic, and people look like they just have green blobs on their skin. In the town where I live, almost every young guy and girl are sleeved.
If aliens came down to study us, they would wonder why there is an entire generation with one green arm.....I think these sheep are unoriginal morons.....



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169,194 An observation. When I call customer service in any company and I get an African American on the other end of the phone, I'm happier. I find African American reps have the best attitude. It's like they are trying to do their job well and want to get ahead at the company. The white reps always seem annoyed they are a rep and have to listen to my issues. They act like they are too good to be working as a customer service rep. So thank you African Americans. I hope you keep up the positive approach and one day rise up in the company. You deserve it.



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169,193 I miss you my love.
I wanted to reach out to you all day.
When I finally got up the courage to message you, you were unavailable and now I feel stupid.
Thinking about you...



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169,192 Sometimes someone will ask what day it is and someone else will say Tuesday and I'll smile to myself. I lost my virginity on a Tuesday.



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169,191 Once someone told me that taking heroin was like getting to sleep with your teenage fantasy girl one night and always chasing that feeling again with every woman you are with afterwards.  He elaborated but you get the idea.
Glad I can't even drink without feeling like I had been run over and was never tempted.
Practically anything can be called a drug: adrenaline, food, sex, knowledge, money..find what works for you and makes you and those around you happier and cha ching, your drug of choice.  
Don't beat yourself up for wanting to numb the pain of this world.  Be thankful you at least care enough to have the desire to change.  Sometimes that is all you need.
Baby steps and patience will see you to the other side.



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169,190 I think if your doctor is prescribing Suboxone and you're taking it exactly as prescribed, then you are sober. Don't worry about what other people think about your sobriety. Sometimes people in NA can be the worst critics. Everyone compares there sobriety to others. There's no right way. This medication is helping you survive, function and be there for your family. I don't know you but I'm proud of you.



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169,189 I want to be with someone who inspires me. Someone who excites me.  Someone who sets my entire soul on fire.  

And I'm not settling for anything less.  

So, YEAH.  I might be single my whole twenties.  Maybe even my thirties.  If I have to wait until I'm 50 to meet that person, I don't care.  That's what I want.  And I'm going to have a crazy, wild, and fun time with myself and my friends until I find him.  

Sorry if my life doesn't fit your cookie cutter life style.  I'm not afraid to be out of college a few years and not married!  I have a life to live, and I'm not seeking marriage, I'm seeking love, fun, laughter, passion!

Lately I've been inspiring myself, and becoming the hero of my own story.  I think I finally know the language of my own soul.  And I'm not going to settle for anything less than someone who's soul speaks the same language.  

^what I want to say to all these basic bitches who are petrified of being single after 25, and try to suggest that I should share the same fears.  

F/26



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169,188 I wish I could go to a detox for my heroin addiction and then a 28 day rehab and if possible Theraputic community for a year  However, I have kids, a career, a husband, and a thousand other things that mothers do. I refuse to do methadone because that's like a lifetime sentence. At least with Suboxones I only see the doctor once a month and when I'm ready we will discuss the best way to wean myself off. M
That's the problem with people that don't do heroin or oxy pills, etc. it's an extremely hard habit to quit and even when you quit, you can still relapse. I know people that were clean for over 25 yrs. they were successful in their respective careers but they forgot that this is a disease and it can always come back.
Thank you anyways for the well wishes.

36/F



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169,187 169186-  You're not sober if you're on suboxone.  Time to kick that nasty crutch.  Well wishes...



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169,186 So I just snooped through my boyfriend's phone and found that he sent 5 naked pics of me to his friend to use as a masturbatory aid!!!!!! They were private photos I'd sent to my boyfriend of me in lacy panties, my whole naked body from behind, thong pics, one of both my breasts... his friend requested them, and openly has a huge crush on me. Friend mentioned that my boyfriend had sent him "the mother of all photos" a couple years back and he had to delete it but wanted it back so bad. I'm assuming that was the pic that was just of my pussy from underneath, so it had my butt, asshole, and pussy displayed in high resolution, and he texted "bingo" when he got that one. Said he was "so turned on" that he was gonna jerk off in public or somesuch nonsense. Had I missed a spot shaving, you would have been able to see it. His friend thanked him profusely and my boyfriend then texted him some incredibly intimate details on how we make love!! Stuff I wouldn't tell a soul. Here is what I plan on doing to my oh-so candid boyfriend as a result: send him more nude pics. ;)
33/f



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169,185 I learned that sometimes you do need help and you can't do it alone. I see that now. I'm a heroin addict and have been for 19 yrs. with a few years clean in between, but I always come back to it.
What I have is a disease and like a cancerous can come back even after chemotherapy. I see that now.
I wish I would've realized this a long time ago. I blame my cockiness and know it all attitude.
I was what you called a "functioning addict." Doesn't matter now because I see that I did have stinking thinking. As I said before my addiction is a disease and if I have to stay on Suboxones then so be it. Because if I don't stay on them, that China white will be calling me. She always finds me no matter how far I go.
I surrender, I can't take this anymore. Waking up sick. Spending hundreds of dollars a week to sniff something that you don't even know what's in it. I tell you, your brain will make you rationalize things that normal drug free people would never rationalize. It's crazy how an addicts brain is wired.

I'm done though. That's it. I've hit rock bottom. Three months behind rent, six months behind on the light. I estimated that I sniffed about $18,000 on drugs. Drugs! Crazy I tell you. I'm so embarrassed for myself. Me the perfect wife, mother, daughter who has her shit together. Good job. Good education and yet here we are.
I surrender though. I'm disgusted with myself. I have to keep my sobriety first at all times.
Anyways, thank you for letting me vent. I love this website. I have no real friends because the ones I use to have sniffed heroin. And the casual friends I have and family have no clue that I've been a drug addict for over 19 yrs. it was a long run, but I'm glad it's over.

God bless everyone that's trying to better themselves everyday and even when they fail, they get back up and try again.

36/F



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169,184 fyi....there is a difference. between. being kind and loving and needy...you have not learned it because. you have always. had cold selfish b.....i am a woman who many desire...besides my looks and intelligence...you should feel fortunate. i picked you....dont take im affections. lightly ....they are not easily. achieved...but if not appreciated...can be pulled away harshly like a carpet.....i need God and God only...but when i was given the gift of us i choose it.....font ever confuse that for anything short of..a blessing.....



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169,183 i cant sleep,,,,aggrrrr



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169,182 It has been my experience that men tend to desire females who don't seem to need them like a shot of heroin to make themselves happy.
Being too needy pushes most people away.   Most men I have known always seem to pick that women who acts like she can anyone she wants and if their lucky maybe she will pick them.
It is in there nature to always be the hunter, not the hunted.
If you are not happy without a man - you will be a, um, what do they call it, oh yeah, a doormat.  



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169,181 baby i love you....i will always put you first....you will always be the one in my book baby...there will never be anyone else....noone can be you....i will never forsake you....i will never tell you no..i will NEVER. dishonor you...i have shown you what true love feels like....do u want me to leave or do u want to continue. to learn how wonderful. this love can be?..you have no idea what i am yet?....search the word...it will become clear...



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169,180 it took you 4years to know that?..lol..i will ALWAYS support. and love you....noone will ever change that....im positive even though i havent seen you becuz i am optimistic. about us and the love we have....it is amazing...and rare....



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169,179 169171...I don't hate you. I never could...
You are very important to me, I am interested in your thoughts, feelings, outlooks on various subjects and your life. YOU keep me grounded. YOU are my biggest fan, its because of YOU and the support you give me that is making me strong.

I personally do not regret anything I have said, or done. My only regret is if I hurt you, for that I apologize.
I never used you, there is no one else, nor will there ever be. I have never felt love like the love you have shown me.

I believe in my heart that we are meant to be....



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169,178 My secret recipe for being much effing happier.

if someone you love told you they are coo coo for cocoa puffs over another please turn your perspective around and realize that situation is not going to right itself until you stop putting yourself up for target practice.  Doesn't matter what the circumstances are, no one should be put in the middle.  It's called triangulation and used by many a twisted personality.  Never ends well.  

  Let people go so you can make room in your aching heart for another.  
No one deserves to feel unloved but you can't park your car if someone else is in your space.  

The love genie only responds to a vacuum.   Make some room.

Your lover above all others is out there waiting on you to
bitch slap yourself out of this spell you are under.  If someone is making you doubt yourself in any way, get out, no run away, no looking back.   You could do a test run and see just how fast you are replaced in case you are curious.

You will be replaced.  

People who make you wait on them and wonder are just assholes, plain and simple.  People with morals don't deliberately hurt you.   Assholes enjoy the shit out of it.

One more observation I would like to make may really piss people off but oh well, truth is truth.

If you have hate in your heart for anyone, this thing called love tends to become rather elusive no matter what the situation.  And not just love either, good luck will also play hide and seek.

How do I know such things?  Once upon a time I was you.



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169,177 Although I am not sexually attracted to women, I would not be telling the truth if I said I have never sniffed another woman's panties.



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169,176 When I was little my dad was in prison for a year. I never tell anyone. It's a family secret.



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169,175 Pay for the hurt I caused my partner?  I relish it.



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169,174 Talking about your husband's small penis on facebook? Really? You're just a pile of shit! Why would you do that? At least He respects YOU enough not to post about your mustache!



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169,173 All of this Ashley Madison stuff is so entertaining. People telling their stories about how the back ruined your life. No, what Anonymous did was expose the secrets you're too scared to tell your partner. Why is anyone mad at the hackers? Of course, because it's too hard to own up to your actions. All of the government emails and .edu addresses that were used show me that these people deserve to get "caught." Too bad that your "secret" life is now impacting your real one. I hope you all pay for the hurt you cause for your partner.



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169,172 It is so easy to feel like you know how it works in the "real world," that terrible things happen everyday all day and some to good people. So easy to feel like there is no hope because of it. I used to think that people who didn't "see" this were wearing rose-tinted glasses or were "pollyannas" as my mom would say, since I thought these people were ignorant/didn't read enough/ weren't intelligent enough to see the world crumbling around them.

Instead lately I feel like I'm on the other side of the fence. Yes there are terrible, brutal people/regimes/laws/countries/groups out there. But it doesn't make it any more or less real if I pay attention. It is possible to be positive and focus on positive things/people/stories. You are in control of how you choose to process life, whether you are always scare or whether you have hope. Such a liberating realization rather than living in the "dark." I am smarter for recognizing and acting on this. Life is so short, why wouldn't you choose to drop the cynical, smarter than thou, discouraging attitude that the media imposes on you?



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169,171 I am so proud of myself for staying sober for 4.5 days (alcohol). I was worried that I had a drinking problem and being able to just not drink no worries or side effects or even thinking about it has done wonders for me. Since it's Friday, I'll treat myself.



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169,170 How can you say that after what the postman delivered the other day? How did you expect me to feel?

#confuseddotcom



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169,169 Everything you did when we were together was an act to impress the two or three onlookers, neighbors and family, so tell me, what's changed? What's different now? People like you don't just suddenly become honest. It's none of my business, and of little concern to me, but I can see right through your facade. One more very good reason for you to stay away.



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169,168 We bought a chevy Volt new in 2012, first year we owned it, the car was amazing, since then it has had repeated problems.  Been in the shop 6 times since Feb, but GM customer service claims that is normal.  17 total visits in the past two years.  I tried to buy american and support the american workers but I ended up determined never to buy another GM product ever.  I should have listened to my father.....



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169,167 why won't you answer me?
I realize that you decided we are done.
you want to be "friends" or were you just saying that to make yourself not have guilt? I would never ignore a "friend"...
I feel like a fool and used, did you ever care about me? did you ever think we would have a future? or did whatever it was we had, you go along with to make yourself feel good because you are unhappy in your current situation?
What feelings I had toward you that were love, is now turning into feelings of hate.



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169,166 Story I think about sometimes for all the wrong reasons. :)

A few years ago my wife gave birth to our son. Like so many mothers, she decided to nurse him for the first year.

At Thanksgiving we went to my wife's sister's house. At one point my wife went upstairs to hide in a bedroom while nursing. I came with her with the diaper bag.

The bedroom belonged to my wife's niece. She was 18 years old at the time and back from college for the holiday.

During the middle of nursing, the niece came into the room. She started asking about the nursing process. My wife showed her how it was done.  As part of this, my wife squeezed her boob and showed how milk squirted out.

The niece then asked what it tasted like. My wife squirted about a teaspoon of milk into my niece's hand. My niece then drank it.

These two woman did this right in front of me like it was nothing.

Yeah, I think about it sometimes.......



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169,165 It's going to be a big full moon tonight. I know you love them, so here's to you mr. magoo



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169,164 There is no sense in trying to align yourself or be bothered with heartless misanthropes, unless you happen to be one yourself. But then what happens? I suspect it could go one of two ways: Two misanthropes fall in love and do as much damage as possible to everyone around them, or, they fall in love for a few days, but stay together long after that, while doing their best to focus their hate on each other and everyone around them. Either way is sad and a waste. Best just to avoid them, which is what they want anyway.



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169,163 169157, you have no idea how much that is true.  As I have journeyed through life, I have realized what a gift it would be to be raised by in an emotionally secure home. It's too bad too many people are selfish and many kids aren't.



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169,162 heres my secret....i know you better than you think....all the emotional. stress is caused by her....i didnt do anything to cause it.....i love you...i would NEVER. treat you so bad....your her bitch...her little punching bag....man up and set her fatass straight....your the man of the house ....respesct me...



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169,161 #168326
You are loved and are not alone :-)



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169,160 My wife compares me to her long dead father. When I do something she doesn't like, she says her father wouldn't do that to her. Like what, I have live up to the imaginary standard that exists only in her head of a man who died 30 years ago when she was 10 years old? I thought I married an  adult. Oh, and he died in a drunk driving accident. Yep, he's quite a role model.



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169,159 I really do love all the attention. I don't even have to participate. It's so great. I feel so famous.



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169,158 "I always knew you would leave"

I left long before it was over.



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169,157 I notice women who grow up without fathers or shitty fathers turn out to become insecure women. You know the type who can't stand being dump or are clinging . To any fathers out there please be part of your daughters life and be a good role model there's nothing more pathetic than a women who doesn't know when to stop begging and become desperate for attention that end up with the first man that gives them a little attention even if the guy is a dirt bag.



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169,156 Today has been fantastic! I felt productive, helpful, lucky, appreciated, and happy. For someone who has been in a fairly deep depressive state for almost 2 years, this is a very big deal to me. I hardly every genuinely feel this happy. I am glad to have a positive secret this time.



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169,155 It gives me great pleasure to know that you are stuck with an old hag. Man she is UGlee. Her face looks like a bowling ball that matches her short obese body.  You used to be the kind of guy that could get a hot woman. You've become a tired looking, worn out, scraggly shadow of your former self. It is what it is.



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169,154 why are you being so upset with me? im, not her. so dont treat me. badly you never had before...



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169,153 To my exgf; I wanted to be with you through your forties, fifties, etc.  But You didn't want mE.



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169,152 To my gf: I was with my wife through her twenties, thirties, forties, and early fifties. She passed away at 52 years of age. Yet, 2 years later my  love for her is just as strong. Please understand.



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169,151 FFRO....and forget my number.



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169,150 Ha! I hate a loser you are with that old bag of bones you call your girlfriend.



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169,149 Keep women on their best behavior...STAY SINGLE!



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169,148 I look back at my failed marriage and I shake my head in disgust. The problem was two-fold.

First, my wife wanted me to buy her everything she ever wanted. She'd treat herself to clothes, jewelry, restaurants and so on.

I went along with this for a while. I treated her like a princess. I was okay with this, except for one thing....

The second problem, my wife was continually mean to me. Always yelling at me for not giving her want she wants fast enough. She never had sex and got angry if I asked. We constantly had to do what she wanted and she blew up at me if I had to do "selfish" things like... go to work.

The combination of these two issues didn't work. I was willing to give her everything, but not if she's constantly mean about it.

Her loss. I'm remarried. My new wife is very kind. My exwife hasn't found anyone. I guess no other guy likes the combination of giving her everything and getting yelled at in return.



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169,147 I think I started getting more calls AFTER I put myself on the national DO NOT CALL list!



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169,146 My ex-husband  takes care of me financial and will until the day he dies. He made a promise and is a man of his words even after dead there will be enough money for me to live a comtarble life so.



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169,145 Every day I wake up and say I'm going to work on my resume and get a job.

Everyday I start surfing the internet, and watching tv, and making myself something good to eat.

I never get to the resume.

I live a pathetic sad, lonely, poor life. And I seem to be mentally paralyzed and can't get out of this rut.



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169,144 You may have deleted your "secret" however it was not before I had a chance  to read it...



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169,143 Everyone hates bullies. Not me. I love bullies. Please bullies, come after my friends, get on my radar. I will bitch slap you like you wouldn't believe. I have infinite energy to let everyone in town know who you are and what you have been doing. I've followed bullies to get the dirt on them. I've gone so far as to sue a bully for defamation. I'm a bullies worst nightmare. This is my contribution to society.



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169,142 Has anyone else noticed that the Zartan from the old Gi Joe cartoons looks a lot like Ozzy Osbourne? The resemblance is uncanny, too similar for coincidence, in my opinion. Just a thought as I sit here, poop, and listen to Mr. Crowley.



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169,141 Anna Duggar is pathetic. If I were her, I throw religion away, become an atheist, and have wonderful sexual encounters!



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169,140 Gay, black man plans for two years and executes two white people on live TV.  Not a fucking word is said.  Black, criminal thug is shot as he is charging a police officer - the black community loses its fucking mind.  And that is what our post-racial Presidents legacy is going to be.  He is the guy that castrated an entire race with nothing more than political correctness.



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169,139 I am a sucker for a man with a beautiful mind.  They are like a rare exotic animal.



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169,138 I wonder how different Ohio is from Colorado.  We have trails.



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169,137 I'm grasping something in my 30th year here on earth that I could have really stood to understand at about 21y.o.  Why exert my energy and make huge sacrifices in life, on dudes the way I have too damn often? I have a drawer full of gadgets that a)get me off WONDERFULLY,  without feeling entitled to just go bare despite zero intention to deal with any consequences of doing so...and b)don't cause me problems by disrespecting my time, and don't manipulate or play needless games with me or guilt me when I...GASP...Don't want to just "relax" and let them do whatever they want TO MY eager body just because they "think I'm so sexy and haven't been with a lady in 6 months. " Why should I settle for some selfish, non dutiful, uncaring,  dishonest, and troublesome man-child who is led by his dick primarily, doesnt get me off, deals with me as if im some unstable psycho, and DOES cause problems? I should feel lucky really,considering that in Austin, I actually let these complacent and inept admirers convince me that I was BETTER off having them live in my space and do what they felt like. So very glad I don't give guys multiple opportunities to treat me like a slag anymore.  I see men for their actual values, and those values are just not up to my standards.  I deserve better than that shit, as do most self sufficient and socially aware women. We know we are complete as we are, and that this bullshit is...well...bullshit. Men are not obligated to be chivalrous or marry us anymore and that's fine.  We aren't obligated to let them sway us away from the life we want to live anymore. Let these ass clowns tell me I'm "trippin" or "over thinking everything. " I know the real deal, and it's that they dont feel any sense of duty towards anything anymore. Fuck that noise. My life is ultimately better off without some shitty half assed walking dido (with faulty batteries even!) diminishing my needs. Try that hogwash on some chick who is incomplete without it. I'm a bad bitch and I eat the patriarchal tradition for breakfast. Like a boss.



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169,136 Of course my phone gets turned off the day after I put in job applications. I'm starting to believe I'm stuck in this never-ending rut. Everything keeps going down hill. It may seem like stupid, insignificant little bullshit that's upsetting me to anyone else. But when these things happen through-out the day, everyday, it builds up. And there's only so much I can take til I hit breaking point. And then the cycle repeats. . .



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169,135 I miss my dad so much.



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169,134 I feel so lost insid . Sometimes I contemplate commuting suicide. I Dont want to feel this pain anymore.  I'm convinced I'm broken without reprehension. Every part of me is shattered into miniscules pieces . . to small to piece together and / or find. I wish things could go back to the way before. Let's say about 8 or 9 years ag .  before Rochelle and her fucking trashy ass homewrecking behind stepped into my dads life . Back to when I had a family to call my own . now I have sanctions... What a fucking miserable life I am leading.  My dad used to be my best friend . now he's caught up in a web of deceipt and blind neglect . . . who knows if he's unaware . he probably wishes we were never made . he probably resents everything about his old marriage ... Including me . I'm just one big fucking mistake . I am immensely depressed. I hanxle ghT by him wild casual meaning sex indulging in food, shutting people out, crying my eyes out, seeking... No thriving on good/ bad attention from the opposite sex. Just fucking digging myself deeper . All to fill this slowly elongating void in my mind,body,soul and heart . Fuck my life .



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169,133 Samiches are a comfort food.



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169,131 I have not had a meaningful relationship in 6 years. I've had sex since then, but no connection. Nothing, nada, niente,zilch, zip, zero. How does that happen???



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169,130 I miss my old girlfriend. I first was infatuated with her at age 16. We didn't date 'til our mid-30s. It didnt last more than a year. We were just too different, and we fought often. I am now 43 and still think of her almost daily. I often wish I could go back in time...and relive those moments, without any foresight of the eventual demise of our relationship. I've heard that she is married now. I wonder if she ever thinks of me?



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169,129 A recent studied showed that Sagittarians are the most likely astrological sign to commit murder. I'm dating a Sagittarian. Hmmm.



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169,128 In the past few months I spent $5,000 sending my daughter to summer camp. Then I spent $750 for a two week training session for rowing. On top of which I spent $900 on a new violin bow she carelessly broke.

School has started. She says she needs a new looseleaf binder. I looked in the closet and pulled out about 10 old binders from previous years.  I told her to use one of those.

Out came the tears and the screaming and the accusations how I'm a terrible parent.

At times I hate her. I spent literally thousands on her. But she won't be happy until I spend $10 more.

She is the most selfish child I know.



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169,127 It's past our time together...
I keep waiting for you to message me...
With each notification that comes across my iPad, my heart skips a beat...
I see it's not you babe...
An incredible feeling of disappointment washes over me...
Then, the tears fall again...



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169,126 There is an odd comfort in some things. Look harder for those comforts - reach out and find them.



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169,125 You broke my heart today...
I don't know what I am going to do without you.
I truly feel alone.
Tears are streaming down my face...



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169,124 Well you told me if I wanted him I could have him. So yeah, I want him.  Thanks, you're a gemů



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169,123 Every time you email me. I almost email you back. Just trying to do something right. Love you just the same. Hope I made the right decision.



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169,122 Sometimes I'm just looking for someone to blame my apathy on because I still don't know how to deal with it myself.



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169,121 My husband and I have been watching Mad Men on DVD. We watch two episodes per night. It should take us about two months to see everything.

Funny though, I can't wait that long to find out what happens. So during the day when hubba is at work I secretly watch an episode. Then in the evening I skip over that episode and watch the next two with hubba. He doesn't realize he's missed one out of every three episodes. Surprisingly this still works. Every now and then he'll say something like, "Wait, when did Rodger take LSD?"  I'll say, "I think you dozed off for a minute the other day."  He believes me. LOL.



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169,120 In Colorado, there are many trails you could go down, find a quiet spot, and smoke marijuana. I've done it many times. It's legal to buy, too. Yes, you aren't supposed to smoke it outside the privacy of your back yard or porch/ house but it's easy to find a quiet place here. Imagine how nice it is to just to go into a store, check out the product, decide which one you want, buy it, and know that it is exactly the pot you want and the weight is correct.



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169,119 I never thought he loved me. I never knew what I was doing by loving him. It's the same love with her. She's so distant with me, so inexplicable, so lacking in courage. Some times, like now, it feels really forced. Like I am trying too hard to make this love real. Really real. If love is supposed to be effortless, I've never felt it. That would make a nice epitaph.



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169,118 I read tarot cards to myself even though I sometimes have the same opinion of atheists.  Tarot cards are comforting to me, and they are too accurate for me to hold onto the infinite supply of skepticism I used to have as a full-on atheist, so many years ago.

I drifted from Christianity, to atheism, to paganism and other unique, very personal labels.  I never looked back, but the fear still bothers me that I am wrong, because I cannot provide instant proof to the skeptics.  In order for atheists to believe me, they have to have long, patient, and sporadic conversations with me about it.  The ones who see my proof are the ones who have been with me as friends for years on end.  I suppose that is enough I need to prove that I wasn't just blindly accepting mystical subjects as truths.  I put a lot of thought and experience into it.  There is truth in what I do.  I screw up on it sometimes.  But never enough to invalidate past and future findings.  It's hard for me to get over what people think of me.  Judgments really really pain me and I don't know how to get out of that pain.



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169,117 I eat so much because it's the only pleasure I seem to get.  Other pleasures just don't match.  Not even writing and art like it used to.

What do I do?



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169,116 I kind of hate you.



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169,115 The one thing I don't like about where I live is that it isn't easy to go outside and smoke weed.  Like I'm not really interested in getting into trouble. I just want to sit outside in the woods, smoke a bit and just listen to nature.  I would feel so relaxed.  It would be such a wonderful spiritual experience.  I hate being outside because it's where everyone can see me.  I stay inside to get away from that.  But I so wish I could go outside and be somewhere, alone, without even the risk of encountering some security person.  I don't hate people.  But I need to get away from them for a little while.  Somewhere that isn't the inside of my apartment, looking at the same walls day in and day out.



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169,114 The Univision guy was out of line. It wasn't his turn to speak. The video doesn't lie. What are we supposed to do, let all hispanic people cut to the head of the line? Is that fair? You need to learn to fit in and obey our rules.



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169,113 I skipped work today to stay home, smoke pot, and masturbate. I came when I imagined riding your cock.


I felt very proud of myself for not caving in and asking you to come over.



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169,112 A group of black women get kicked off the train and people go absolutely insane. Racists, bigots, the works. But a black man shoots two white people in cold blood and they shine a nice light on him. I'm sorry, who's racist here? Disgusted. FUCKING disgusted.



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169,111 My wife used to have a tight body. Now her ass sags. I would never tell her, but I'm disappointed.



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169,110 When I'm in the gym locker room I look at other guys' cocks. I'm married, and I try not to be obvious, but I look and think what it would be like to get on my knees in the shower room and take a guy's cock into my mouth and suck him off.



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169,109 Stop saying you miss me or love me because I know this is not true. Stop hurting me. Do you get a kick out of seeing me upset? Please stop.



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169,108 I'm trying so hard not to fall back into a depression from this. I just got out of one after getting thrown on the street again, and I just learned that my college credits might be expiring. So not only am I in debt, I might be in debt for NOTHING. And while I still have to work on finding a place to live that will actually let me be stable, I have to work on paying back loans for an education that might not count while still trying to take MORE classes and rack up MORE debt. Somebody please kill me so I don't have to do it myself.



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169,107 I bounced a $20 check. I added wrong. I only had $18 in my checking account when I wrote the check. My bank charged me a $35 fee. The place that cashed the check was also charged a $35 fee, which of course I now have to pay. So a simple $20 check is really costing me $90. This sucks. Why do you think the check bounced in the first place? Because I have no money. Now I have to come up with $90. You want the real sad part? The original $20 check was for the church. I was trying to do something nice.



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169,106 I chat on internet forums so much because my spouse has no time for me and I'm lonely. The internet is my only channel for communicating with people. I wish I could meet the people who are like me. I'll bet we would be friends.



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169,105 How can you love her unconditionally and yet never love her again in the same lifetime? I could never love her again even if I wanted to. A real must to avoid-take it from me.



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169,104 I should have married a women who was a better 'fit'.  She put up with sex to get my love and 3 kids later, the honesty appears.  I know her old BF was a 6ƍ" v-ball player with a horse cock.

Should have married that girl who fit like a glove back in ྛ.



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169,103 Dreaming of you is so sweet. Waking up sucks. I miss you, my friend.



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169,102 I love Donald Trump. I hope he makes it through the primaries. Go ahead and throw away any chance Republicans have at getting back into the white house. Either way he's great. He's like a super-villain smearing his political party's reputation.



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169,101 I pick my nose clean every time I sit on the toilet. A mans gotta breathe!



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169,100 True Floridians are assholes. They try to blame northerners, but they're wrong. Sure, northerners are anti-social freaks who can be kinda mean, but after living in Florida for a while, it goes away. True Floridians are worse because they do have such a stuck up mentality.

Example, the main road here is only 4 lanes wide but it isn't nearly enough to accommodate the very high tourism in this small town. To them...?

"THE ROADS ARE FINE WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT"

Now, when it comes to hurricanes they like to point fingers at hurricane Sandy. "No one took Sandy seriously. It wasn't even that bad of a storm."

Oh boy, I just cant wait till their hometown gets fucking DESTROYED so they can just shut the fuck up.



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