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172,399 My wife died tonight and I am utterly and completely alone. 56m



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172,398 I volunteer to help people and always always always regret it.



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172,397 92: So would I.

-89



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172,396 172362- no one ever wakes up and says..."hmm..I feel like being a heroin addict today"



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172,395 I have a really great pair of scissors at work. Every few weeks I bring them home to trim my pubes. :)



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172,394 i should have kissed you when i had the chance



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172,393 I had an online dalliance with a professor from the college in town. We both used fake ids and never knew each other's real names. We were both married so the anonymity worked for us. He did reveal his academic department, but that was it. This didn't stop us from sharing intimate details of our lives. We talked about the troubles with our spouses. We said sexy dirty things. We exchanged photos of our body parts. No faces, only the private regions. Over a 10 week period we bared our souls and our bodies. Then the communication suddenly stopped. No more responses from him. I didn't know what went wrong. I assumed his wife caught on and he could no longer continue our virtual affair. This was a year ago. I felt slighted. He could have at least explained and said goodbye.

Over Christmas break I was at a party. I was talking to a couple. The wife worked as a professor. She mentioned how her colleague died a year ago in a car crash. I suddenly had a sick feeling. I asked what department he was in...

Yep. It was the right department.

I feel terrible. My virtual lover died and I had no idea. I'm so sorry. You were a beautiful man both inside and out.



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172,392 I'd still ask where the arrow came from so I can make sure it doesn't happen again. This is why forward thinking people end up running the world.



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172,391 This looking through the windows routine you've been pulling is becoming irksome.

I really should be more bothered by it.

I REALLY should be more bothered by it.

The fact that I'm not is pretty much down to the fact I know you're nuttier than I am. That is some grade AAA nutty shit.



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172,390 Maybe her husband knows how to fucker the under carriage and not be a total selfish douch *glaring



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172,389 In the eastern religions (ex: Hindu) where the concept of karma originated, it had little to do with 'I did x good thing, so a good thing should happen to me today.'

The watered down version of karma was that if you lived a good and just life, you would be reincarnated into a better life after you died.  If you lived an evil life, you were reincarnated into a worse life.

Karma had little to do with being a current-life justice overseer like most people view it in the western countries.

One interesting viewpoint that is in some forms of Buddhism (I forget which specific one) is the idea of not wasting energy asking why a bad thing happened or whether or not we are being divinely punished for a catastrophe that happened.  Let's say... a man is shot with an arrow.  There is a question, "Where did that arrow come from?"  The answer to that question is, "Heal that man."  It doesn't matter where it came from, the best "karma"-type reaction is to heal the wound.



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172,388 If a woman says she enjoys sex and her marriages, I can only conclude she hasn't been married very long.



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172,387 From the outside it looks as if I am okay. I am optimistic about the future and that I will find more than this under-employment. I don't believe this at all. No luck or good karma is coming my way.

Example: I went to get a coffee. The woman at the register made my coffee, handed it to me and walked away. I hadn't paid yet, told her and I paid for my coffee. Good karma, right? I left the coffee shop and my brakes go out. Sudden brake job that I have no way to pay for. This is why I have zero hope. There is no good karma coming to me.



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172,386 What do you call the rest of it? Mack lip no msrio



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172,385 I used to call the sparse patch of hair atop your head you cling so fiercely to & keep as a too long "straight up" rather than a "comb over" your Gaza Strip



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172,384 I can go much longer than 8 minutes, and cum several times in those 8 minutes. Oh the joys of being a woman with a husband who loves to make her scream and squirt. Who sexts me from work on my day off and gets me dripping wet, encouraging me to be bad and share the details.

And the joys of pouncing on him the minute he gets home, returning the favour and making him explode as often as he wants.

I'm sure this won't last for eternity, this crazy sexual attraction and satisfaction - but when it has all gone and our looks have faded, we will still be best friends. Instead of staying up every other night fucking all night, we will stay up every night talking and reminiscing and philosophising, making music together for hours instead of making love.

It took so long to find you my beloved, but we will grow older together.



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172,383 Older men take too long to ejaculate. I can perform oral on my husband for 20 minutes and he still isn't hard. Cumming? It takes another half hour.



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172,382 i don't even want to have sex anymore, cause it's so boring. in and out in 5 minutes, no foreplay no tease. when it's something different, is something he wants. i ask for things directly and he just acts like he doesn't listen.

and this is why women cheat.
but because i don't cheat, i'll keep doing my job as a blowup doll and pretending to enjoy it.



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172,381 I can go much longer than 8 minutes



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172,380 When I was working many years ago my neighbor (who I still ignore) was a pain in the ass.  He used to keep the kids balls if they ran down into his yard, and other stupid things.  At one time I was in a late night bowling league, every Tues. night coming home around midnight - every Tues night five minutes after I would get home my phone rang. It went on for months - nobody was on the other end of the line.   My neighbor was bowling the same night, got home the same time and I suspected him so I mentioned it to one of the Lieutenants.  The Lieut. went and knocked on his door and to this day I have never had a call.  I don't know what he said to the guy and this was before caller ID.  I suspect he gave him a good threat.

That's who people are. They try to be annoying. And it takes a threat to get them to stop. This bowling story can be extrapolated to the whole world.



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172,379 I can jerk off from start to finish in 8 minutes. Not bad for a 59 year old male.



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172,378 Parents have destroyed education in America. Parents are lazy and self centered. They don't want to help their kids with homework. It interferes with their glass of wine while watching TV. In response, parents jump on the band wagon of saying teachers assign too much homework and give too many tests. The parents are willing to throw their child's education under the bus, just so they don't have to get off the couch and help. Hard to believe parents think this way? Not really, this is the same generation who aborted their unborn children because being pregnant is such a bother.



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172,377 172357 - I know what you are feeling. I have an idea. If you can access that video again, take a screen grab of the close-up and of the regular view, see if you can find this POS home address and mail the photos to his wife, or mail them to him saying, "I know who you are and what you are doing, if you don't stop, you will be visited by the police". It may just scare him enough to make him stop.....



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172,376 Sex is Sex. pussy is pussy. it's how the woman acts during sex, and how wet she gets that makes it hot



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172,375 My life will never be as good as it was 2 years ago.



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172,374 There are three people I've encountered in life who have gotten under my skin. I'm usually a reserved demure person, but I hope these three people die a slow painful death. If ever scientists say an asteroid is hurtling towards earth and we will all be dead in a few days, I'm going to slice these people's innards out and feed them to wild dogs why they are forced to watch.



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172,373 I volunteer a lot at the schools because I think the teachers feel obligated to grade my kids a little more leniently.



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172,372 People refer to me all the time as an "artist" I once said to my mom, "mom, I'm an artist!" and she laughed. She thought it was bullshit. So what...I'd rather be validated be random strangers that have no stake in the matter.



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172,371 I can't believe that the NFL doesn't care about protecting their players from getting concussions and causing their mental health to deteriorate.  They spend all their time and money trying to hide it thought.



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172,370 We are an older couple (not married) - me: 55, her 58. Sex has become "difficult" and man is it frustrating. One of the biggest things I miss is being able to make a woman cum with my lips/tongue and/or fingers. She just does not get off this way - and she tells me she never has, even when she was young.

There is nothing more I love than going down on a woman and getting her juices all over my face and fingers. Then seeing and feeling her swell and open for me. Then seeing/feeling/hearing her cum. I love that. And I miss it so much.



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172,369 You ever wonder as you're driving down a highway... what am I driving over that was paved over by asphalt?  I live in an area that's been populated for centuries.  Houses and buildings had to be knocked down and foundations filled in so that the roads could be built.  You think they just hauled all that stuff away?  That costs money.  How much just had dirt and crushed rock dumped on it and asphalt poured over it all?  There must be tons of shit that we drive over.  Cheap stuff, valuable stuff, evidence of crimes... probably fucking bodies, too.



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172,368 I work in college admissions, here is how most colleges/coaches handle athletic recruits.
Almost every coach has a number of free passes to admit athletes, the amount depends on the visibility of the sport/college etc.  The catch is while this allows an unqualified kid in, they have to keep up the grades to maintain eligibility.  Most coaches also have a limited number of bumps, where a kid might be a border line kid to get accepted, the coach's nod/help will get him in.
Where it gets less than transparent is for the kids the coaches recruit and then the kid doesn't develop as an athlete and the coach sees the player and realizes the kid he thought was so amazing as an 8th grader for example, well he isn't that great as a when it comes time for him to apply.....so what happens in most cases is that the coach simply doesn't "help" the recruit's application and in some cases even tells the admission dept that he doesn't want the kid.....so then kid who was a "committed recruit" as an 8th grader doesn't get in to that college.....It allows the coach to say "well I wanted you but your grades/SAT scores/GPA just weren't good enough.  This happens all the time but is kept quiet for the most part as the kid and his family are embarrassed and the coach doesn't want to advertise it as it hinders his future recruiting.

If you kid is getting recruited in any sport, do your research.  NOTHING, I repeat NOTHING scholarship wise is official until you sign the National Letter of Intent (NLI) and you can't do that until your junior year.  Even if you do sign it and lock in scholarship $$, its still subject to you gaining admission.  The schools and the NCAA hold almost all the cards.



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172,367 Those two new pillows and covers you brought over to my home the first time you came over to spend the night? I "re gifted" them to my mother at Christmas...she needed some new pillows and I have enough of my own...It felt good



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172,366 When you are consistently missing romantic cues, it makes me realize you don't care enough to pay attention.  That, and you don't bother reading anything I write.



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172,365 I received a beautiful (and expensive), Jo Malone candle for Christmas; unfortunately when lit it smelled exactly like your cologne.  Needless to say, the candle went straight into the garbage can; along with all the other memories I have of you.  My apologies to the candle.



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172,364 My wife has died, two year have gone. We had 26 years together.

Thirty years ago we met. We connected instantly.  It was as if we were two parts out and about with no direction. When we met it was a union without ambiguity. We didn't know it then but in time two became one. I became one with her and she with me. I like to believe nothing would have broken us.

Now she's gone and I'm on my own. I'm thankful. To had the chance to walk this earth with her was a gift. A gift of love forever. Thank you baby.

Forever my love.



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172,363 Awwwws... darlin...my former fucking weirdo

Gonna cut my phone you provided me with now without a word?
Not a word from you...
Cat got your tongue?!?
Done spying on me now, Sugar?
"Not enough credits, please refill your account"

I couldn't even retrieve the voicemail of a person I perhaps met/know In Real Life
<..wish you had a passion in life other than
tooting your own horn,
needing your ego massaged,
and trying to be a first class bullshitter (you get 4th at best...or let's say a "Participation" ribbon in modern parlance))

Please...return...to your natural habitat....to the dumpsters of the Internet
And roll around in the detritus

Grow in that dirt
My ole potato in disguise

You may be a lil clever
But not all that...you may present quite well as one thing in the beginning, and then be found out

You ought to anticipate your opponent a little better
If you are going to play a game in the first place
Right?

Good thing I kept the other phone and number I had for so many years before I met you...controlling and voyueristic fool...Maybe try not giving someone an STI and then try telling them they got it from a toilet seat....if you want to keep talking about your "superior intellect" out the other side of your mouth...



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172,362 I just found out that heroin makes You feel constipated,and once You're off it You shit like crazy.... It makes me wonder - what kind of a person would do something,even as enjoyable as heroin,only to shit their pants once they stop?



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172,361 It's sad how people can go in and out of your life.



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172,360 I hate that I always have to have a crush on a guy. It's been this way since 4th grade. So finally, I am not seeing my crush anymore and I know he's not interested in me, but, months later, I'm still thinking about him! So apparently I can't just stop having a crush, I have replace it with someone else, or I'll just keep thinking about this guy forever?! Ugh.



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172,359 It sure does, but hang in there! Everyday that you stay clean is another day that you didn't do heroin. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you have something to help ease the withdrawals. The first week is the worse, but after that you should start feeling somewhat normal.

36/F



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172,358 Time slows way down when you are kicking heroine.



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172,357 I came across some internet pornography which is shamefully illegal and offensive. The images show a woman at a urologist's office getting a pelvic exam. The photos were clearly taken with a hidden camera by someone who was also in the room and assisting with the procedure. What the photo-taker didn't quite realize, there was an ultra sound machine being used. It can be seen in the background. I know those machines. I've seen them up close. The doctor's name is always displayed on the screen. So I magnify the image and sure enough, the name of the doctor can easily be seen. A quick search on the internet shows one and only one urologist with the same unusual name.

This is far beyond acceptable. People want to look at porno, go for it. Not my cup of tea, but whatever, get your jollies. But you can't photograph a woman in a doctor's office with her clothes off! That should never happen.

I tried to contact law enforcement. Yeah right. What a bust dealing with law enforcement. They don't have the time or resources to look into every illegal act.

So that's it then. The bad guys win. But know this women, when you are at the doctor's office, pictures of your private parts might end up on the internet.



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172,356 I told him I love him. He told me he's trying not to be monogamous so be doesn't go crazy over me. He did an amazing demonstration of emotional abuse on Sunday. He wants to hurt me and doesn't know why.

I can't live like that. I need to be true to who I am. I still love him and wish only the best for him. He's just not the partner I hoped he would be. I need someone who will be as caring, kind, respectful, and loyal as I am. I want a partner I can depend on to be there for me like I am for him. One day, I will find him.



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172,355 I have so much good credit at the Karma bank. But when I'm hoping to make a slight withdrawal... nothing. The vault is empty. I need to rethink my life.



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172,354 I come across so many experts these days. They know everything about everything. Except for the little detail where they've never actually accomplished anything. Then there's little old me, sheepishly raising my hand in the back of the room to make a suggestion. Me, who has done so much. Me who wrote all those articles. Me who won all the awards. I raise my hand with a suggestion and these self proclaimed wizards immediately and unpleasantly shoot me down. Why? Well I guess I'm a stranger to them and all strangers must be wrong. I of course don't say anything more. A respected friend who couldn't make it to the meeting asked me to show up to help. He thought the group would get a kick out of me being there. I tried. There was a private funny moment. One of the "experts" mentioned my name and what I did two years ago to win, and how he thinks the group should try something of that caliber. He didn't realize I was right there sitting in the same room. People never stop to consider what and who might be a resource. They won't go out on a limb and listen to someone new. You want to achieve greatness? You need to be open to any and all suggestions. That's the difference between ordinary and extraordinary.



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172,353 Nothing against my wife. She's an okay person. We get along well enough. However, I'm not interested in sex with her anymore. It's boring and routine. If the opportunity presented itself to have an affair with a different woman, I'd be all over it.



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172,352 You think an 8th grader received an Ivy scholarship for his grades? lol. He has never taken a high school course or the SAT exam. You think he received the scholarship because of financial need? He won't have any financial need until 4 years later when college begins. What, you think colleges like to lock in financial aid 4 years early? Why would they do that? Obviously they were trying to lock him in as a sports player. As for it saying something in a handbook, lol. It says in the NCAA handbook that no college players will be given perks, like cars and cash. Big lol. How many times have colleges be caught doing exactly this? Get with the program, Ivy League schools routinely hand out sports scholarships. But no, you think they wanted to lock in this 8th grader with a B average? lol. Yes, better lock him in early before some community college steals away this academic powerhouse.



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172,351 Get this: After spending $1,500 on two Christmas gifts for my spouse, I received nothing in exchange. I still made fucking Christmas dinner, because that's just the kinda wife I'm. Happy fucking new year to me!



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172,350 What's with people humiliating their husbands on facebook? "I can't BELIEVE my husband was able to hold the house down and take care of my children while I was away!". If it's really that hard to believe, then why did you marry him? It's degrading to call your husband "the biggest kid in the house." Seriously? Your husbands deserve better then some condescending, sexist bitch like you.



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172,349 Don't call the divorced woman back. Save yourself. I know the type. At least she's letting you know the kind of person she is BEFORE you get married. Count yourself lucky that you know and stay away.



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172,348 My wife behaved so badly at Christmas. She was hideous and ugly. She complained about everything. She hated her presents. She screamed at our children. She refused to make dinner, so I made it with the kids. She then complained how bad dinner was.

What set her off? What was the underlying cause of her tirade?

That's the million dollar question. It takes nothing to set her off. She knows it's supposed to be a pleasant fun day, so she makes it as unbearable as possible. She likes to make sure everyone is miserable. What reasonable adult behaves this way?

I want so badly to divorce her. But I can't leave the kids with her, even if it's only for half the week.  I can't do that to my kids. So I stick it out and act as a defense-man and stand between her and them. What kind of marriage is this? The suckiest marriage on earth.



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172,347 I accepted a party invite from the wife of a friend who specifically wanted me to meet a divorced friend of hers. I am divorced also, she thought we be a match.

So I went to the party, we meet and talk. I ask her out to dinner, and she accepts. We had a great time at dinner.  Interesting woman, easy to converse with, subtle sense of humor, cute, and we got along well. We talked about our lives etc.  On her divorce vague answers about differences, difficulties and such.  Ok I think, she doesn't want to talk about it. That's fine.

Another date for a movie and pizza, and then coupe afternoon events on the following weekend. I am thinking this is going well. Next weekend another date and for dinner again.  When the drinks come by she says to me in a very serious tone. “This has to be our 3rd or 4th date, you agree?”

“Well, yeah”, I said, “seems about right, but I haven't really been counting.”

She replies, very seriously. “I just want you to know there is no sex tonight. I know you guys have this 3 date rule for girls you go out with, but I am not that type of woman.  I hope you understand”

“Well, Mmmmm, ahhh. You know I have not thought of it that” I replied. At this point I am wondering where the hell this came from.

“Good”, she says. “Most of you men are pigs when it comes to sex, want it all the time. I am just letting you know about tonight”

We continue with dinner and talking about this and that, but in my head I am just stunned by her tone of voice and the way that discussion came about.  Then I thought back to our first dinner when I asked her about her divorce.  Difficulties, difference, and such.  Now it was clear to me what all that was about.

I have not called her back, and no intent to.



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172,346 Please just tell me. I don't understand how you can put me through such torture like this.

What do you except of me?



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172,345 I once went to an erotic massage parlor.  When I turned over, the woman asked if I wanted a blowjob without a condom for $40 more.  I said sure thing.  Of course, after a few minutes I knew I couldn't waste this opportunity to cum in her mouth.  So there I went and blew my load into her mouth.  Her head bobbed up and down a few more times, and then she pulled away from my cock and looked at me surprised like "did you actually do that?" as my cum filled her mouth.  But like a pro, she kept stroking my cock as she gave me this look.  But what surprised me was how much cum dribbled out her mouth.  It was so much... I never knew I could cum that much.  It didn't even feel like I came that much.  Maybe it was a little rude for me to cum in her mouth, but afterwards she laughed and kissed me on the lips as I grimaced.



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172,344 Oh please let 2016 be okay. After 2015, I'll settle with "meh."



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172,343 My GF makes more money than I do.  I don't care.  She doesn't care.  We love each other, and that's it.  Insecurities just get in the way of a good life and a good relationship.

All that matters is survival and happiness.



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172,342 Every now and then I play the numbers 4 8 15 16 23 42.

:)



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172,341 When I was in 7th grade I followed Debbie Conner home. I don't know why. I saw her walking ahead of me when school let out. I hardly knew her. For some reason I got it in my head to follow her.  She knew I was there. She kept looking over her shoulder at me. When she got to her house she ran inside. I sat on the split rail fence across the street and stared. A few minutes later I could see Debbie and her mother peering out the window at me. I kept sitting there. Half an hour later Debbie's older brother came home from High School. I never knew his name. He went in the house. A few minutes later he came out and walked over to me. He asked what I was doing. I said, “None of your business.”  He instantly slapped me in the face so hard that I fell backwards off the fence. I ran all the way home crying.



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172,340 I'm trying not to waste any more time in my life with petty arguments.



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172,339 It's no surprise that women want men to make more money than they do.  It feeds into their sense of security.  If a woman feels overwhelmed about her life and responsibilities, then the man who brings home more than she does must in some way have his act together a little more than the woman does.  Before she has kids, a woman will seek out a man she can fix.  But if she has kids or wants to have kids in the near future, a woman will seek out a man who can provide for her kids.  If the woman has her act together, she wants the man who can provide for her kids emotionally, to be a good father.  She'll have a great marriage and a great family, but she might be poor sometimes.  Otherwise, she goes for the money first, and she'll be rich but miserable.  None of this is a surprise to a man in his 50s.  It's the way it's always been.

We used to have a term for this 30 years ago.  We used to say that a woman is always after the "Bigger, Better Deal."  The BBD.  In high school, she'll dump her average boyfriend for the more attractive guy.  In college, she'll dump her guy for the one who makes her look better to her friends, whatever form that takes (money, looks, potential for success, etc.).  In her early 20s, she'll dump a guy for another who has more potential for success.  Late 20s and early 30s, she'll dump a guy for the one who'll be a better father to her kids.  In her late 30s and if kids aren't an issue, she'll dump a guy for the one who can be a better friend.  In her 40s and beyond, she'll dump a guy who will make her less lonely, or who has more money.

It's just the way things are and the way things have always been and the way things always will be.



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172,338 I make about twice what my wife does, but I would never have dreamed of not marrying her because of that. She's got the degree - I don't. She doesn't throw money away, nor do I, and we share what we have equally. In staying home to raise our children for many years, she made a much greater contribution to our household than my extra money ever did. Pretty grateful to this site for reminding me to be thankful of something I've always secretly taken for granted.



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172,337 My mouth hurts! I wish I had taken my wisdom teeth out in high school.



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172,336 I didn't hate my parents until I had a baby and realized what terrible "phone-it-in" parents they were.

I secretly count the days until they're gone; and yes I mean dead.



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172,335 Goodnight and goodbye.



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172,334 I still believe in you, even though, you may think I don't.



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172,333 172317: Welcome to the club...my mother resented me to the day she died...I was the one that trapped her into motherhood and marriage...but I was not the one that spread my legs yet she accused me of just that many times when I barely even knew what it was...even as a little girl, I knew she resented me...and, with age, my siblings and their spouses knew it, too...I never had to say a word...her actions and her treatment of me spoke volumes. She beat me when I was just a little girl and I could never do anything right...it wasn't until I ended up in the hospital one night (while staying with my cousins) after hemorrhaging from my nose due to the beatings...only then did my father find out how bad things were and she stopped after that...I think he threatened to throw her out or leave her or something...then there was the hysterical paralysis, etc...of course, the screaming and yelling never stopped so now all my siblings knew how much she hated me, what a whore, tramp, slut, whatever...I was and...my sister feels entitled to speak to me just the way Mother Dearest did...and treats me the same, too...it then spread to my youngest brother who has threatened to "terminate" me...how awful to have to report your sibling to the police in an effort to maintain your personal safety. She was so jealous of me - Daddy was the one to tell me that as I never knew...if anyone could have seen her face when my wonderful stepfather introduced me to several of their friends...it froze me in my tracks and I know Tom saw her - and he was shocked. I left the next day...I never visited her alone again. But I was with her for several weeks before she died and she actually confided a few things to me about her life, etc. but no mention of her 5 children...just how much Daddy and then Tom loved her. I don't think she ever wanted to be a mother...just be adored by her husbands and for them to tell her she was always right...her way, her opinions, her fucking everything. How very sad...if she only knew...but then, maybe she did.



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172,332 This was the pattern:

When I was a teenager, I had constant suicidal thoughts.  I whined about having to keep it to myself because nobody wanted to hear about it.

Eventually I learned that I had friends that wanted to support me and hear about it.  So I was more open about it.

As time passed and friends moved on, I began to learn that although people want to help and be supportive, they ultimately have no idea how to help.  So I still have suicidal thoughts, and once again I've accepted a new perspective and the same conclusion that nobody wants to hear about it.  So I keep it to myself again.

I still want to shoot myself in the head.



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172,331 All I'm trying to do is connect with people, yet I'm met with cynicism and rudeness. Figures.

If people would just let go of their ego for JUST a minute and have a normal conversation, the world would be a better place.



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172,330 When I was 7 I was caught stealing licorice from a candy store. It was not my idea. It was my friend, the boy who lived across the street. The store owner grabbed both of us by the wrist and said he was going to call the police and we'd go to jail for a long time and when we got out our parents wouldn't want anything to do with us anymore. I was never so scared. After a few minutes of scolding, he had a change of heart and let us go. I ran all the way home.

Two things came of this. I decided to no longer be friends with the boy across the street. He was trouble. I made very careful decisions from then on about who I chose as friends.

Also, I never stole anything again in my life. I remember the dread I felt in the candy store. Nothing was worth having that feeling again.

Stealing from the candy and getting caught, as much as it worst the worst day of my youth, it turned out to be the best thing to happen to me. Thank you store clerk whoever you are.



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172,329 My wife often threatens to leave me. She does it to get her way.  Either we go on vacation where she chooses, or she will divorce me. That sort of thing. This trick of hers has worked for years. But you know what? Fuck her and her manipulation. I'm at the point where I don't give a fuck if she leaves me. I finally think I'd be better off without her.



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172,328 I don't know that much about ivy school scholarships or any collage for that matter as I never went to one however I know a family member who got a scholarship playing soccer and I also know a professor who teaches in a private collage and you might be surprise how admissions works .  You can be an average student yet you might be accepted into an ivy school based on your race . The whole system is set up to have a quate so they can say their school is diverse . And sometimes it means they have to accept people that don't have any business being there.



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172,326 >1,000 per year.

I got off of disability last year because I didn't want the government watching my money so closely anymore.

Unfortunately, I don't have the credentials that any job wants.  And I technically still have my disability that prevents me from working.

I'm just kind of waiting to die.



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172,324 North of 100k.  work from home in a township where the mean income is 20k



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172,323 She was small, gentle, and quietly kind. She had her own life, but it was entwined with mine. She understood me. She understood my thoughts and feelings. She saw something in me.

Good bless you, and I hope you rest well.



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172,322 Money comes quickly, easily and often.



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172,320 Why is it called a blow job?

Because it's a fucking JOB!



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172,319 You flipped our car 30 minutes from home on a  1000 mile trip. You make my days so difficult with your emotional neediness. You pay for things,then make me feel like a loser for accepting your help. I am so sick of your shitty attitude towards me , especially after you nearly killed us because you couldn't handle a little driving. Loving you is simply too exhausting, and I think I need you to go away and leave my life and my mind alone. You're just too nuts.



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172,318 I'm glad she started taking more care and pride in the way she expresses herself, again. I feel like I'm taking a risk in telling her that. She'll think I'm insincere. I'm not. I don't want to squash her.

One of these days, we're going to have a REAL conversation. She's not the most cooperative woman I've ever met, that's for sure.

I don't express myself as well verbally as I do when I write. I figure she's probably disappointed with that. I've been trying to work on that. Well, you know, talking much at all was the first hurdle.

I feel weird. A person in transition but not the one I hoped for. Can a person grow without growing up?

No cheap shots about my waistline, either...

Waiting, waiting, waiting.



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172,317 Similarly, my mom, although she won't really admit it, didn't entirely want me.  It became a clearer message over time, one I didn't put together until much later.  But she did not really want me, thought I was intrusive.  I was there too early.  So as a result, I grew up with a similarly imprinted attitude.  I don't really want to be here inside of me either.



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172,316 I would never seriously date a man that makes less money than me. And I make pretty good money for a single person with no children.



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172,315 I slept with your husband, I am so sorry



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172,314 I have never dated a man that makes less money than me. And most of them are highly educated and spoil me  .



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172,313 I don't want people to think I'm crazy. At least I'm not the only one. Maybe the people around me feel it too and hide it well.



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172,312 Somedays when im going about my business my brain just zones. And i too start to miss something that i dont even know.  I miss someone I've never met. A home thats never been mine. Some faces remind me of people I've never known. It's pretty weird. And i too feel like this world is just a joke. I dont think the things we do are that serious. But i dont wang people



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172,311 I have never been comfortable being me, like physically being me. I can talk to people on an intellectual level about cerebral things. But my body can never be discussed. No one can ever ask how I'm feeling. No one can ever know if I'm sick, like if I have a cold.  There's nothing wrong or odd about my body, but it can't be mentioned. I wear droopy clothes so my body isn't obvious. No one can know I go to the bathroom. I can not eat in front of people. No one can see me sleeping. I can not admit I'm cold or hot. No one can see me naked. I don't know why I can't admit I'm physically present in this world. I think it has to do with me being an illegitimate child. Supposition, but I think my mother wished I did not exist. So I wish I did not exist.



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172,310 A lonely, elderly neighbor recently told me I have privacy issues. I know. No curtains, floor to ceiling windows. Lights on at night. I know.

It's all a part of a longstanding  conspiracy to give my neighbor the world's most boring peep show, ever.

Like a spider in the web, am I.



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172,309 I've tried like hell to get clean of lies. But in getting clean, I've actually had another person involved in an evolving experience that I can not possibly ever tell the most important person in my life about.

And the thing is, she deserves to know.

And the thing is, the other person doesn't deserve to have the secret kept.

Nevertheless, I feel I have been left no choice.



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172,308 I received a full athletic scholarship to an Ivy League school. I didn't pay a dime.



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172,307 My biggest fear is that everything I do is wrong.



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172,306 298 & 303: Please read the book from Marja de Vries: The Whole Elephant Revealed - Insights into the Existence and Operation of Universal Laws and the Golden Ratio



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172,305 Hello 2016, thank you for coming and 2015 thank you for all of the life lessons but I got sick of them all.  BUT I did learn a lot from them.  Now its onto better things and better people in my life for once I am taking care of me and only me because I can finally.   Here is to 2016 and the greatest year yet to come!



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172,303 298, I experience this all the time. I'll be driving and suddenly feel like I've driven through a bubble into a different world. Or I'll be just going about my business, then stop, look around, and wonder if this is all real. That actually has been happening to me since I was about 5 years old. I've also felt for a long time that I don't belong here. Not necessarily "on this planet" - but in a different time frame. I have distant memories of living in different countries and in different centuries...past lives, I guess...and that's where I long to be. I actually ache to be there, not here.

If you want some interesting reading, look up time slip accounts, time/space continuum, astral and etheric travel and parallel universes/quantum jumping. I've experienced some of these. I've learned how to slow down time. I've learned how to leave my body at will to go to different places and even dimensions. Sometimes my etheric body leaves and goes somewhere during the day. I've had people swear on all that is good and holy that they saw me, TALKED to me, when I was actually at home, miles away. One time I ran into an older friend and had a full-on conversation with him. I found out a few days later that it wasn't possible - see, he'd been in the hospital, in ICU, for months. There was no way I could have seen him. But I did! We talked for 15 minutes! Another time I went to sleep and immediately after closing my eyes I saw a bright flash and my body started tingling. I jumped up and ran into my living room, where I was struck by lightning. But when I opened my eyes just minutes later (it felt), I was in my bed - and it was 5 hours later.

There is a whole other unseen world swirling around us. I've had unending weird experiences like this for most of my life, and I stay up late into the night reading, researching and trying to figure out what the fuck is going on.

46/F, married with kids, highly educated and completely sane professional



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172,302 My father used to hit me with the belt all the time.  I wasn't a bad kid.  I was actually very well behaved, so being hit by the belt never made me any better.  It just taught me how to hide everything I was doing from him.  It taught me that my father was not a man I could reason with.  Being hit by the belt taught me that my father was an unjust man who I should minimize my contact with.  Even now, I don't really talk to him that much.  He's close to dying, and I don't feel overly sad about it.

Now every time I have to fold my belt in half and carry it, it reminds me of how he used to hit me with it.  I can never feel comfortable holding my belt like that.  I was a kids  What kind of man hits a little kid with a weapon??

I don't touch my boys now to punish them.  The most physical I get with them is I'll drag them by their arms into their bedrooms and close the door, and even then it's only when they hit each other.  I have to show them that hitting is the worst thing they can do, so I have to show them how angry I am.

But hitting them?  With a belt?  Hell, no.  No man does that to a child.



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172,301 My sister visited this weekend with her family.  Three days of me not being able to jerk off regularly because her kids are everywhere.  I was able to sneak into the bathroom on Saturday to rub one out, but it only did so much.  I didn't get it all out.  Finally, last night I'm able to boot up some porn and jack off.  In minutes I'm squirting buckets into an old shirt.  Still didn't get everything out.  Did it again this morning before I left for work.  Came almost immediately, didn't drain everything once again.  I wonder how much jerking off I have to do before I finally empty my balls to a reasonable level?



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172,300 This job makes me want to scream.  My coworker - a manager, no less - is a fucking idiot.  I get an e-mail from someone who wants to schedule a phone call about a project me and my coworker are on, because he has a few questions.  I let my coworker know, because this is her project.  She wants to know what he wants to talk about.  That's what the fucking phone call is about!  So I e-mail him.  "What do you want to talk about?"  He responds, "I have some questions about the project."  Yeah, no shit.  Now I look like the idiot.



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