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172,799 172789, oh my god!  I am so sorry this happened.  That is unbelievable.  I cannot believe companies can get away with doing things like this.  This should be completely illegal.



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172,798 I dislike people that judge people for stupid minor things.  You think too highly of yourself!



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172,797 I have the best life! Was off today and made the day my own! I started with two screwdrivers and a bowl of weed. Made a batch up cupcakes for my kids, enjoyed liking the cupcake batter and had amazing sex with my husband, while discussing my potential new 26year old boyfriend. Seriously, slow down! Live in the moment! Have an open marraige! You may find you like it too!
Married/40/White/Employed/Milf



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172,796 Please don't take my son away.  You must know how cruel and unfair that would be.  I love him more than life.



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172,795 1 in 5 women. Well it happened to me when I was 14. First time. I pray it never happens again.  If I'm ever raped again, I'll kill myself. I can't ever recover from that again.



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172,794 You can't put it all on me.  We decided together.  Now, every breath is spent on blame. I imagine all the blood draining out of my wrists while you scold, scold, scold. If I didn't have time without you, there'd be no reason to live.



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172,793 Your 9 year old has an instagram account? I'm sure the pedophiles love it.



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172,792 I know someone who looks completely hot in her Facebook photos. In real life she's a bowser. Ugly as can be. But thanks to the wonders of Photoshop, she's made her self look like a model.

But what was the fucking point? Everyone who knows her in real life isn't fooled. We know what she looks like. Now not only do we think she's ugly, we also think she's vain and shallow to have doctored the photos. She's dropped another rung on the ladder.



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172,791 Someone from my distant past found me on Facebook and wants to reconnect. Uhmmmm, no thanks. There's a reason we parted ways so many years ago. I never liked the person. As I was maturing back then, I realized this and purposely allowed the relationship to fade away. To everyone else, learn from this. Don't go looking up people from long ago and try to make friends with them. If it was meant to be, it never would have faded in the first place. It's over. Let it alone.



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172,790 It's true, a great many music teachers are total wackadoos.  Most of those are very damaged people.  But every so often, you come across one who makes you see life a whole new way and inspires you to greatness, in whatever field you choose to pursue.  They don't need to be mean to get kids to play or sing well and they don't make it all about them.  There's a special place in heaven for those people.



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172,788 Anyone have any inconspicuous painless ways to commit suicide?

I've given this life a fair shake. It's just not working out.



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172,787 Alyson, I just don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

It feels like it's just not meant to be.



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172,786 I started my job. I'm smart, professional and all that good stuff. But I haven't had a professional related job in MONTHS. I've spent 3 years living on the beach, surrounded by losers, smoking weed everyday and doing menial jobs because its all I could ever find. Now I'm worried I stick out like a sore thumb. I dress the part and try to fake the part.

The people at the job are incredibly intelligent and compassionate about space and science. So am I, but I'm just different. I like drugs, Grateful Dead and being laid back. I feel so guilty while sitting in a room full of these people. Like I'm wasting their time or don't belong.

Time to hike up my pants and join the rest of the world, maybe. Maybe not, though. I heard a secret from the locals that the people at NASA are big party animals. What if we're all the same and all hiding it?



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172,785 I'm desperately searching for supplemental resources for my class because I have a hard time understanding my professor's thick accent.  But every video resource I can find is someone with the same thick accent!  If it was just a casual conversation it wouldn't be a problem, but a lot of the things I'm studying involve unfamiliar terms and things that just make it really hard to decipher the actual information.

Is it racist if I want someone without an accent to teach me this stuff, simply because I can't understand what they're all saying?



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172,784 Women in their early 20s look good, but they're awkward.  Women in their 30s look more confident, so they look sexy.



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172,783 I find bald men attractive. They seem more like a real adult, more competent and respectable somehow. My boyfriend is bald. I like it ;)



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172,782 I see a woman in her early to mid twenties, and I think she is pretty cute. I don't feel the urge to fuck her on first sight. She's pretty cute, that's all. Then I look at the women my age, and though I may find them cute, I know they are complicated and have tons of baggage. I could turn their asses out, but I have no need for that, especially given the fact that they've all been there and done that. Is there something wrong with simply appreciating something without it turning into Boogie Nights? It's all just boring to me.



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172,781 I've never been as depressed as I am now.



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172,780 I make ornaments with nose hairs and other assorted body stuff too.



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172,779 There is nothing worse than these barbaric immigrants. We should build a wall, and forbid Muslims from entering our country.



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172,778 Have fun in the United States, where 1 in 5 women is sexually assaulted in their life times, and only 3% of rapists ever see jail time. Refugees are not any more dangerous than other people. In fact, throughought history, it has been recorded that white men are the most dangerous.



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172,777 There's this thing some women do. They trim their pubic hair so there's a small tuft above the clitoris. Nothing anywhere else. It looks odd to me. It's like an Amish man's beard. Like only hair on the chin but no mustache. That's what their pussies look like. Amish.



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172,776 One of my dreams has always been to tour Germany and see all of its history, but I know that will never happen now, as I am not about to risk being sexually assaulted by a refugee (and then being told by the government that I deserved it). Europe has become an absolute cesspool, so I'll spend my time and money checking out the U.S. and Canada instead.



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172,775 I admire that Asians immigrants do their best to assimilate to the American cultures they find themselves in, but somebody ought to tell them not to try to assimilate too hard if they find themselves in a ghetto area.  It's fucking ridiculous to hear young Chinese and Korean women talking about being "broke ballers" and saying "shit be poppin, yo."  Fucking.  Ridiculous.



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172,774 On Friday night I was sitting in my car about to drive out from the mall when I felt a booger in my nose that needed to be removed.  My finger was pretty dry, so with a little skill I managed to reach to the back of my nose, touch the booger, and the booger stuck to my finger like glue.  Then I slowly pulled my finger out so it wouldn't break.  My god, this thing came out as a thick string about 1.25 inches long.  I stared at it hanging off my finger and tried to think what I could do with it.  It was epic and shouldn't just be rolled up and flicked.  So I stuck it to my rearview mirror.  I am now driving around with a huge booger dangling off my rearview mirror.  But it looks like a piece of shriveled packing tape.  No one would ever think it was a huge piece of snot.



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172,773 Depressed but everybody is sick of me being sad. I burden all my loved ones with my sadness, but if I ever killed myself then it would cause people so much grief. So ...I suffer in silence.



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172,772 Everyone dies. Why are people concerned with dinner tonight? Or presidential politics? Or office gossip? Death should be our overwhelming concern.



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172,771 10 years ago my wife said our sex life "had never been that great".

I've loved her since but not like before.



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172,770 I miss our little home.



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172,769 miss u. mkp.



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172,768 I find myself being careful not to pick my nose in front of the window because I don't want my peeping tom to be grossed out. There's something deeply wrong with that.



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172,767 My wife is so unconscionably mean. The things she says are unforgivable. She gets mad at minutia and tells me she wants me dead. How do we recover from her words? She has no trouble with it. The next morning she acts like everything is fine. But it's not fine. I can't forget what she says. Who is this person. She has demons inside of her. I can't be married to demons.



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172,766 172755 and 172758, now that I think about it, all my music teachers were really angry, until we got some assistant teachers in my later years.



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172,765 You are no longer a reason for me to keep living.

So now I'm down to one reason (my mom).

It hurts.



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172,764 Aah high school reunion, looking forward to it. Meeting the people who remembers the shy quiet guy , frequently butt of jokes and victim of bullying . Nobody know the angry man who has recurring dreams of killing people and who always carries his knife with him but they are going to meet him :)



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172,763 My Facebook slut blocked my account.  I don't know why she did.  We had plenty of phone sex and naked picture exchanges, and everything seemed to be going well.  She didn't give any indication that something was wrong, although she does have a boyfriend, so maybe that had something to do with it.  She forgot that I had a second account that I could see her account on.  She must have realized that, because now it looks like that account got blocked, too.  Oh, well.  Shit happens.  It was a good 5-year run.  Time to move on, I suppose.  She was getting chunky and losing her looks anyway.



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172,762 Older men who are thin don't look very manly to me.  Men who are in too good of shape don't look manly to me, either.  They look like boys, probably because boys are thinner and in better shape.  To me, a guy has to be somewhat overweight to look like a man.



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172,761 I like big boobs, yeah, but I prefer smaller women because I can move them around more easily when we fuck.  If I want to change positions while keeping up the intensity, I can drag them around the bed where we need to be, lift them up, etc.  Smaller women usually have smaller boobs.  That's just the way it is.  But when I look at a woman, what turns me on is her size first.  Small is good for me.



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172,760 I hate talking about the fact that I'm pregnant with people around me.  I honestly do not care for your unsolicited advice nor your constant "recollections" of the time(s) you were pregnant.  Or have you not noticed that I didn't ask?



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172,759 I'm not scared of being pregnant anymore, I'm just scared to tell you.



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172,758 172755, conductors are insane assholes. Period. I've been playing for over 30 years, and I refuse to play with an orchestra for exactly that reason.

Some people will subtract from you if you allow them to. Whether you allow them to do that is up to you. Me, I would have held my bass under one arm, flipped him off with the other hand, and walked out with my head held high.  Screw him.



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172,757 You took third shift cyuz you knew i go to bed early and we couldnt talk much your a shit for being that selfidh and im sure i have interesting reading and pucs for your fatass wife...



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172,756 I have a bad hip. The doctor said the ball joint has deteriorated and I should have it replaced. It hurts like a son of a bitch. I try to never show it though. It annoys the hell out of my wife when I grimace in pain. It doesn't upset her that I'm in pain. It annoys her that I must be getting old. So as much as it hurts I try not to show it so she doesn't leave me.



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172,755 I played clarinet throughout my years in school. I enjoyed  playing. I took lessons every week and they tell me I was good. In my senior year of high school I was selected to participate in an elite concert band chosen from students over the entire state. This was supposed to be a coveted honor.

The band convened in one city on a Friday morning to rehearse with a specially appointed guest conductor. We were to intensely practice as a group all weekend and give a concert on the Sunday evening.

From the outset I personally found the guest conductor to be unpleasant. He was rude and had a temper. He was getting angry if the band didn't play a passage correctly. At one point in frustration, he threw his baton at a trumpet player. At another point he crumpled a piece of music and tossed it at a flute player. This went on all weekend. He scared me.

On the Sunday afternoon we were going over a piece with a very difficult passage for the clarinets. The conductor suddenly stopped the entire band and pointed to me. He said I was messing up and not playing the correct notes. We started over and once again he announced I was making mistakes. His tone was one of disgust and condescension. I was mortified to be singled out like that.

He had us start the passage a third time. Again he cut us off and yelled at me. He called me an idiot.

I innocently said something to the effect of, "Actually Sir, I didn't play at all that time. I didn't think I was making any mistakes. So I only pretended to blow into my instrument to see if you still heard the errors. And you did. So I don't think it was me."

The band laughed.

The conductor turned red and pushed all his music off his podium, sending it crashing to the floor.  Then in his loudest tone ever, he screamed at me to get out. He told me to pack up my instrument and leave. He said I was no longer in the band.

Dead silence as I took my clarinet apart and put it back in the case. Of course everyone was looking at me. I tried so desperately not to cry as I walked off the stage.

I stopped playing clarinet after that. I was going to major in music in college. I changed my mind and instead decided to major in engineering.

My life turned out completely differently than what it could have been. All because of that one incident. I've never told anyone any of this before. I'm still afraid I might cry.



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172,754 Go.
I need to Go.
Work on an exit plan
Get another job
I can do better than this

Time for action



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172,753 My alcoholic father in law has been sober for almost a month so now he thinks it's his job to mock anybody who drinks. I got silly and drunk the other night and was dancing and singing. Tonight, in front of the family he chose to mock me and say how stupid I looked. He went into great detail. Guess what, I may look stupid drunkenly doing a Britney Spears dance routine, but at least I never punched a hole in the wall and told my wife she was a stupid fat slut and I wanted to kill her and I never punched my own children
So who is really the stupid one here,you ridiculous self righteous alcoholic?
Btw, he got kicked out of his house and I was gracious enough to let him stay in my house so he didn't have sleep outside in the winter and this is how I'm repaid.
You can take the alcohol out of someone, but you can't take their problem away.



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172,752 i feel society has deemed it ok to make fun of certain people, and 99% of people feel its ok to dehumanize these people. ones i can think of off-hand are people that are overweight, or short, or poor, and the category in which i fall: black people that dont act black(whatever that means that decade)

its perfectly acceptable to make a small, seemingly innocent joke at a person expense. just a little 'shorty' quip, or making fun of someones weight, and ive encountered plenty of seemingly open minded people that still somehow feel theres a way black people should be, and since im not that way, they have no problem letting me know. ive seen all colors and genders do this. how dehumanizing.



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172,751   Yes,I understand. The fact that I am bald disgusts me, too. The fact that I can't force my body to do as it is told infuriates me.
  That you find my baldness disgusting... I guess I'm done with this. I will do as you suggested and
stay by myself.



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172,750 I want a nose job so bad.  My face would look so much better with a refined nose.  Right now, it's kind of flat and bulbous.  I have other features to offset it, but I hate smiling because it becomes so WIDE.  I hate looking at pictures of myself and always take a picture form a certain angle.

In my family's culture, noses are an *incredibly* important feature.  If you had a nice, tall and narrow nose, that meant you had 'better blood' or less native ancestry than others.  Even at the dinner table, if my family would have a chat that somehow involves other people, their nose comes into the conversation.  Like, "she has a good nose".

All throughout my life my mom was telling me to pinch my nose upwards so that it will become taller and less wide even as a child.  My dad supported me getting a rhinoplasty for a while.  I even have a contraption that clips my nose (softly) in hopes that if I do it enough times, the cartilage would stay.

I'm 25 and I've been thinking about it since I was 15.  Do you think it's time?  I feel my money would be better spent somewhere else (obviously), but at the same time, I'm very unhappy with my face.    Makeup can only do so much.  Sigh.



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172,749 My heart sank when I saw you today.



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172,748 When I first told my friends how I supported Trump for President, I was kind of kidding. It was a joke. Now my friends are in favor of Trump. How do I back down without looking ridiculous and two faced?



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172,747 My girlfriend's favorite color is gray. Who has a favorite color of gray? It's not even a color!



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172,746 When I was in 4th grade I saved up $24 by doing chores. As Christmas was approaching, I decided to buy presents for my mother, father and older brother. I discussed it with my parents as to what I should get my brother. I noticed the little jewelry store in town had rings in the window with initials. They cost $10. I suggested I could get my brother a ring with the letter J. His name is Joseph. My parents said it was a nice idea.

On my way home from school I stopped in the store with my money. I really liked the rings. I liked them so much that instead of getting a ring with the letter J, I bought one with the letter C, which is my first initial.

On Christmas morning. I gave each of my parents a present. I forget what they were. And I gave my brother a deck of cards. My father asked what happened to the ring? I said I instead bought a ring for myself. I showed it to him. He was furious. He said I was selfish and a few other things. He took off his black leather belt and whipped my bottom.  Not only did it hurt physically, I was shamed into thinking I was a terrible person. My father took the ring and I never saw it again.

In looking back, wait what? What did I do wrong? I earned money through the year. I used some of that money to buy myself a nice ring. Why was that bad? Isn't that to be encouraged? I worked hard and then spent some of the money on me, and most of the money on others. What did my father expect, that I should work hard and spend all the money on others? Nothing for me?

I remember my brother got nothing for me or my parents.  Whatever money he earned during the year he spent on candy for himself. That didn't seem to matter. But me, I saved my money and spent less than half on me and the majority on others. This was to be punished in my father's eyes.

This is my first memory of the unfairness of adults. I never forgot the feeling. I kept my distance from my parents after that. I was never cross, but I moved away at 17 years old and never looked back. To this day I'm still a bit cold around people. Maybe it's not all because of the ring, but that's what started it.



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172,745 "Men" who abuse and humiliate women have no one to blame but themselves when their wives and girlfriends don't want to have sex with them. Hopefully someday you'll find women who will turn the tables on your pathetic asses and abuse the fucking shit out of you, all in the name of sexual experimentation. My only hope is that they'll come and share the wealth with all of us when they bite your dicks, defecate on you, and cram metal objects up your sphincters.



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172,744 I piss on my girl friend in the shower.... she's fully clothed when I do it. It grosses her out. I love it.



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172,743 It puts it in perspective when your father has in his memoirs, that he started listening to country music after visiting a honkey tonk in Compton California. I shit you not! Damn I am the second to his youngest, and its no joke that he's the last of his era in our family.

Our old hard asses are on their way out. Whatever will we do? Endure as we have I suppose. It was said of the Roman's that "their exercises were bloodless wars, and their wars bloody exercises". And in other news, someone is suing who really cares because their feelings were hurt over who gives a fuck, and the leader of who knows where, demands an apology over whatever.

Yeah kids. We could have been born in a whole other world! Do we weep, or count our blessings?



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172,742 I was upset that I found them, the perfect couple that I fell so quickly in love with & chose to adopt my baby, because it would've been so easy to get an abortion otherwise.
6 months to go..



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172,741 Thanks for telling me once that "even though my boobs are small, they're nice"

Golly, gee, and thanks for the appraisal...It's not always what you say but also the way you say it

Too bad I never told you how much it turned me off to feel like I damn watched you pick your nose across France...well, because you did...And I still have a hard time understanding how anyone could be in the middle of Paris and ferret out bad food like you did...but you had a knack alright...Glad you were so damn proud of your own farts on the first leg of the trip...I so enjoyed the trucker horn arm pull with the "Good one!" exclamation

Me and my 34B's gonna be just fine...
You might wanna do something about that personality of yours though



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172,740 You and your Velcro brown bad boys
Tappin any of that low hanging fruit that seems to be your thang on the down low?!?
Sure thing, fishing in a barrel be your style I see now...

No questions asked...
So no answers to be given...

Ghah, I am glad to be free of your pseudo-intellectual twaddle at least
Though I am not so pleased with the way things ended...
Thus, my ramblings....



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172,739 I've never dated a girl with big boobs. I definitely would be into it.



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172,738 I've looked up a few old girlfriends on Facebook. Each of them are married now. I sift through photos of their families. I see them hugging their husbands in front of the Christmas tree. And I smile...... knowing that I fucked her in the ass before she ever met her husband. That's right, my cock was up his wife's ass. I shot load after load up there. I'll bet she doesn't do that with her husband.



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172,737 This is not how I thought marriage would be. Most secrets on here are the wife withholding sex, but it is the opposite in my case.

I worry that I am missing out with my soulmate who has yet to be found. It's disheartening...... What if there is a man who is my equal?



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172,736 I pray to god every night that he will watch over you and protect you. He brought me to you one night and is do not understand. I ask for him to continue to lovey our unconditionally and to open your heart to feel his love for you. I continue to worry about you but I leave it up to him. I still love you but you have to find your own way which I know you will. I believe in you no matter what.



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172,735 I have been in the love triangle in all three angles: Cheater, Cheated on, and side piece.  Side piece is always so much better!



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172,734 Two secrets,

1]  I wet my pants when I was 14. It was a desperate situation. Really it was. And I was only 14. My brain wasn't fully mature. It's not like I was 40 and had the wisdom of so many more years.


2]  I wet my pants when I was 40. Okay... well... I have no excuses for that time.

---F, 48, my kids would die laughing if they knew I wet my pants.



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172,733 2715. I really want what you have. But idk how to get it. I feel like im putting myself out there looking for a married man that wants a secret affair but havent found anyone.. im so jealous. I hope to have that one day though. .. 24yr old attractive married female



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172,732 Sometimes I think "what if" with my emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend. He was the first person who ever made me feel really loved.  

He sang and played guitar for me and made me soup when I was sick - I cried.  He surprised me all the time.  We were together 24/7.  The times that were good were simply euphoric.  I feel we were these two souls who had found each other in the cosmos, and were relieved to finally connect.

Unfortunately, he also had self-esteem issues, was manipulative, jealous, possessing, and had extreme double standards.  He had threatened to throw himself down the stairs if I walked out from our argument.  He got irrationally angry when a guy friend would text and always inquire who I am talking to.  He got upset if I spoke to any male.  I felt suffocated - I had to end it as I was paranoid that anything could set him off.

Relationship didn't last too long, but still sometimes I think "what if".  Maybe things have changed, maybe not.  I'm not sure if I'm willing to find out... yet I wonder.



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172,731 Dude, psych 101. Your wife is giving you shit about the presents because deep down she feels bad she got you nada. She has to make you out to be the bad guy, to cover up how bad she is. Don't fall for it. Kick her ungrateful tush to the curb. Good luck to you.



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172,730 725 I wish I had a husband like you, I love the aquamarine gift, how thoughtful and original.

My husband got me nothing.  He hasn't bought me anything in a long time, he doesn't take me out either.  He lost his job last year because he's a drunk.  I'm trying to get out of here.

If I had a real man, I'd never let him go and I'd treat him like a King.



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172,729 How do people deal with severe anxiety.....



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172,728 My secret is that I don't want to date a man making way less than me.

For example, I would not date a guy if I was making 90k and he was making 45k at a job he's not passionate about.  70k+ would be more acceptable.

It's cool if he's happy with it, and those are his life choices and goals, but I don't think I can be in a serious relationship with someone who earns half my salary.  

Sorry 'bout it.



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172,727 You introduced me to this site several years ago...I wonder if you still read these secrets...if you do, I miss you.

Congratulations on your marriage...I wish you weren't married. I miss our late night rendezvous's. I think my favorite night with you was after we put together your IKEA "shelf boxes" in your cute little studio apartment.

JMF...if you're reading this and miss me too...email/fb message me for my new phone number.

Love...JLG



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172,726 After years of taking pain medications I finally had enough!!! People I loved dearly were dying  & others were easily going from pills to herion so fast so I decided to Get The Fuck Outta the pill world all together... I feel there's only a few options to leaving pill addiction:

1- I could ween myself down & walk away all on my own, no rehab.
2- I was terrified that I'd break down in Withdrawals & actually do herion 1 day because I couldn't find pills. (Thank you mom for raising me to know damn well never ever touch herion)
3 - Be carried out in a box like so many before me & so many People I know their deaths coming to sooner than later.  

So I told my Drs enough is enough ween me down & they did... Option 1 was what I did and walked away with my life. I had the opportunity to get 4 Roxys for $50 the other day & I took the deal... seeing that deal would  never happen again. It's been 5 months since I put pills down & walked away... I took 1 & was disappointed afterwards that I bought them & taken 1. I'm extremely grateful that I got violently sick!!!!

Mentally I threw pills out of my life months ago & the People & the misery that comes with all of the shitty pill life!!!!  I truly Thank God that my body now physically rejects them!!! I see that as a lesson & a huge blessing!!! I tossed the rest out. That chapter, that phase is OVER!!! I've never been so happy in my life to violently throw up!!! Thank you God for the reminder that pills are poisonous & definitely are apart of my past & have no place in my present or future!!!!

I think the saddest part in all of this is the person who gave me the "great deal" knew I don't take pills anymore but they gave me that "deal" in hopes I'd go right back & be another connection. Misery just loves company!!!

I'm disappointed I took the deal but everything is a lesson to be learned! I'm damn proud I walked away & I'll definitely stay away!



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172,725 I'm working towards a divorce. Every now and then I wonder why. My wife and I will have a pleasant afternoon and I question if she's so bad.

But...

She always finds a way to remind me why I hate her so much, Take Christmas. She bought me nothing. I'm okay with that. Second year in a row. But I don't actually want anything.

On the flip side, I bought her about a dozen presents. I'm disgusted at how much she complains about them.  

I bought her running clothes because she runs all the time. She snarled at me saying the color was ugly. The items are black, like all the other black running clothes she owns. But the black I buy is an ugly color???

My son and I go rock hunting. We find some great semi precious stones. I had one aquamarine professionally put in a gold setting and placed on a gold necklace. It's not just a piece of jewelry, it's something my son and I chiseled from the earth and turned into jewelry. She complains bitterly that aquamarine is cheap junk.

I bought her thoughtful items. She broke a plate in her china set. It was china she inherited form her mother. It's been in her family for 50 years. I searched around for months on ebay and found an exact replacement. I thought wow, what a great find. She's going to love that the china set is whole once again. Nope. She complained I bought her a used plate on ebay.

She is the ugliest person I know, ugly on the inside. She reminds me this everyday. Divorce can't come soon enough.



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172,724 I have self harmful thoughts more often than I should. I shouldn't have any, but I have them too often. I am better than I was at 19. Then I self-harmed as a form of self punishment. Now I don't harm at all, and instead am letting myself fall into depression....

If I knew what I was supposed to be doing with my life I would work towards it, but I don't. So I just work, and work. I hate myself....some days...



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172,723 Every Sunday I go to Costco with my wife and two little boys.  Three weeks ago, it was just me and one of my boys while my wife went to another place with the other son.  I went into a checkout line where a very attractive young woman about 26 years of age was working.  Dark hair, beautiful face, and 20 years younger than me.  I didn't pay attention to her because I was using my time waiting in line to interact with my boy and make him laugh.  Besides, after 46 years, I've seen plenty of beautiful young women.  They no longer catch my eye past just briefly looking at them and enjoying the scenery.

Now it's my turn to be checked out this young cashier, and suddenly she gets chatty with me, makes eye contact... she's flirting with me?  I'm old enough to know when a woman is interested in me.  My wife and I don't wear out wedding rings, I'm a fairly attractive dad who's interested in his kid... I can see why a woman would look my way, but I'm 20 years older than this woman.  But the feeling that went through me was amazing.  I felt incredible.  Young, beautiful, and flirty with a lot of confidence in her - wow!  I went back into her line the next week, too, and it was more of the same from her.  I pass her in the store and she smiles and waves at me now, says something to me. My God, it just makes me feel amazing.

I can now see why men my age have their midlife crises.  I can see why men leave their wives.  I have felt the incredible emotional pull from a young woman who made me feel young and revitalized in life.  But I'm smarter than to actually leave my wife for a random beautiful young woman who works as a checkout clerk.  I know it's all in my imagination.  If my wife and I didn't have such a good relationship, if we had serious problems, it would be a different story.  But I am no longer judging the men who have done this... the pull is too great.



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172,722 I want to understand someone, maybe someone who was a source of suffering. I say they are alcoholic, and presto, they have an excuse for their behavior. They surely wouldn't have treated me so bad, were it not for alcohol. I'm sure the problem has little or nothing to do with my behavior. I say this or that girl has a personality disorder, then boom, I understand why they chose to walk all over me. Off the hook again. At some point I see the light and realize that the world isn't filled with malevolent sociopaths and chronic abusers. They exist, but the legit malefactors mostly exist on dateline and in prisons.



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172,721 My Boyfriend of 4 years has been hiding his phone lately. No one should have to feel insecure & completely mind fucked because of their "significant others shady ways" so 3 days ago when I got into his car & he fumbled with his phone & locked it right away I said & fully meant it "after 4 years together you can keep the phone & whoever you're talking to behind my back, I'm done" I punched him directly in the face & got out the car. I don't regret it, I definitely don't miss him & all the anxiety it brought me daily!!!  I'm sincerely glad it's over!!!

Ladies NO MAN HIDES HIS PHONE FROM HIS GIRL UNLESS HES CHEATING PERIOD!!! I don't even need to see what's on the phone, the sheer disrespect of hiding it is more than enough proof for me!!

This goes both ways People! If she's hiding her phone just leave. Better yet if your significant other is hiding their phone just end it without as much as a reason nor an explanation..... Say we're done & nothing more just LEAVE!!! Walk away with your pride intact & they'll be mind fucked as to wtf just happened!!!



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172,720 If I allow myself to think about her, it's just gonna hurt worse when that bubble of hope finally pops. Those thoughts are like ninjas, tho. Sneaky little devils.



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172,719 Growing up, when my generation went out to dinner, it was special.

These days, when my kids and I go out to dinner, it's Tuesday.



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172,718 I always need something to worry about. My throat hurts. It must be cancer. I go to the doc. He says no it's a sore throat. It clears itself up. No worries. Except I must worry about something. So now I have it in my head that terrorists will blow up my flight a few weeks from now. I'm panicked. The rational part of my brain says none of these worries are real. But it doesn't make the fear any less.



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172,717 Single for 6 years. Not a monk, I have short trysts here and there but nothing meaningful, no connection besides that of our respective fuck parts.

And while I don't miss the day-to-day relational drudgery, I miss simple things like the touch of my lover's fingers on my neck; their lingering smell in your bed; a kiss on the cheek; running fingers through their hair etc etc...

Single-dom is not that bad, really. Loneliness, on the other hand, is atrocious.



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172,716 I've watched so many of my friends transition from fun college party girl, to plump 45 year old suburban housewife. This makes me sad. We used to be the top of the world.  Now we are the middle aged fatties the next generation pokes fun at.



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172,715 I have a boyfriend. It will be two years in March we've been together.

No biggie, right?

Except I also have a husband. It'll be 18 years in April.

He has a wife. It was 20 in January for them.

We're good about keeping things seperate, trying to not catch serious feelings for each other.

Except for the part where I was fucking him on their anniversary. That was pretty bad. Even I know we crossed a line there.



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172,714 Texas is my personal preference because for various reasons it worked for me. I didn't want to get into the details, but here we go: i earned my masters and phd in the tx medical center in houston (look it up if you haven't heard of it before) and the academic/work  setting was rather diverse in comparison of a similar setting in the midwest. When I said that I'd rather be in texas, I was stating that from a very personal perspective not from a 'political' perspective.



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172,713 My wife doesnt know i pay a young next door girl to blow me in the garage on weekends. hahahahaha



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172,712 172702... If you haven't cut contact with your narcissistic ex, do it now.  Don't give them even a slightly cracked window of opportunity to suck you dry more.  I've dealt with one not long ago.  Best thing to do is block them the fuck out of your life.  Not worth the revenge... Nothing.  I started talking to my shrink to heal soon after the breakup.  It will take a lot of time, but focus on getting your self esteem back.  Don't cave.  Do not even think about texting them for anything.  Let it all go and start fresh.  Life is too short.  There are decent people out there.  You deserve someone decent who treat you with SOME goddamn level of empathy.  Narcissists and sociopaths are simply incapable of empathy.  They feel things but only for themselves.  They don't and can't ever care about you.  Run far and run fast.  Take care and good luck.



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172,711 I am a female immigrant who lives in Texas and as soon as I am able to I am getting the heck out of dodge. I can't handle the anti women/anti immigrant sentiments, not to mention the gun-toting "everything is better in Texas" hicks. There are some good people here but most of them have already or are planning to leave soon. I think that I'll head to New York after I leave here, I could get used to living in a place that gives a damn about my human rights. This is why Texas is so backwards, anyone who has half a brain gets out, leaving the dredges of society behind. Screw Texas.



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172,710 You come from Texass and you say Minnesota sucks? Texass is the asshole of America, a state of ingrained hatred where rich whites get off for  murder using an Affluenza defense and where killing hookers is legal if they don't put out. Greg Abbott is the closest thing we have to Satan in power in this country and he loves being a despicable, hateful misogynist and racist who punished the poor for being poor. Sure got back to Houston and revel in the hate there.



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172,709 I miss you because I'm lonely.



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172,708 Minnesota sucks. Coldest state in America, has high taxes, is not diverse and they can't fucking drive. I grew up in Houston, TX, came here to work but will go back as soon as I get a chance. You must be born and raised in MN to tolerate it!



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172,707 I know of someone who emailed her suicide note.

Not to nit pick, but there are times when paper and pencil are much more effective. I picture her suicide note ending up in the spam folder next to an ad for viagra. Kind of diminishes the drama of her suicide.

Lesson, if you are going to kill yourself, old school works so much better.



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172,706 There's one thing that scares me about the idea of "equality" and "everybody being equal."  It's that in order to achieve it, you must bring those with talent down to the level of the least achieving individual.  It's impossible to achieve equality by saying those without talent now suddenly have talent.  It doesn't work that way.  The talents of the achievers must be tempered down to match the talents of the non-achievers.  It must be why the Eastern Bloc collapsed.



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172,705 I am a minority. I live in texas. It's fucking great here.



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172,704 I am seriously tired of being fucked up, fucked on, and fucked over.

Alright, so it was my idea to show you my soft underbelly and let you kick at it repeatedly so we could, I dunno. Bond. You needed to be able to kick someone, and who else was gonna volunteer? All I seem to have gotten out of it is an ache in my chest that won't go away.

And who can I really blame here? Only me. Only me.



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172,703 Ted Cruz.  Donald Trump.  Or, on the other side, Hillary Clinton.  

Really?  This is the best we have to offer up?  

At this point, I'm all in for Bernie Sanders.  If you're going to elect somebody who is outside of the general status quo consensus--and really, all of them have electability issues-- I'm rooting for the guy trying to right the inequality of this country.  

I could care less that he's Jewish.  Or unpolished.  Or not an insider.  I just hope he can navigate half of what he wants to do with reform.  Lobbyists have destroyed our options on every issue.  



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172,702 I have been feeling miserable for months. A narcissist has hurt me and I cannot stop to think about all the pain and anger. I feel stupid. I just want to stop to think about him.



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172,701 Sometimes I wonder how many of my craft beer friends are actually alcoholics.  I log a bottle a night, maybe 4 times a week, with dinner.  These people are logging up to 10 a night and throughout the week.



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172,700 Alligators, space invaders, rock-and-roll bitches

Good bye, Dad, I love you



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