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173,899 Sometimes I wish I had the courage to mutilate my face so that people would stop focusing on my beauty.



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173,898 This makes me happy. Being myself and the humiliation of not making it easier to be understood and the excessive efforts for love and attention.. I need to listen and am opening myself in an unfiltered way towards everyone who shows me respect. If u don't understand someone that doesn't make it nonsense it only means it failed to speak your language. It's not like u cant just ignore things so limiting length only limits possibilities



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173,897 I hope that as the days go by you can slowly become happy again.I hate to be the reason for your sadness.



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173,896 "Rose! Rose!"

that's the one that really gets my vote



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173,895 I hate that I miss you so much.



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173,894 I've come to terms with the fact that I'm a liar. I also have a tendency to steal. I don't steal if I think I'll get caught, plus I rarely, if ever, steal from businesses. I have stolen things from wal mart as I'm using the self check out, and I always think that if I'm called out I'll just laugh and say "Oh goodness I guess I forgot to pay for that!"  Sometimes when I'm tempted to steal I'm proud of myself for resisting. Today I could have stolen almost $100 cash (which I really need right now) but I closed the drawer and left it. I was proud I was able to have the restraint. What made me a liar and a theif? It wasn't learned behavior from my parents. When my children are with me I try to instill 100% honesty in them because I don't want them to be like me. They were with me at k Mart the other day and my daughter was cold in her short sleeves so I told her to pick out a light jacket and put it on and id pay for it later as we checked out. I had no intention on paying for the jacket but as we were paying for our items my son said "Don't forget yo pay for that jacket she has on" I played it off and said I had the price tag in my hand ready to pay. Maybe I'm ra honest kids after all.



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173,893 Apologies Leo, you were great in "Basketball Diaries" and "The Beach"' but everything else you've been terrible at, including "The Revenant".  

I'm sorry Leo, but you could not carry Tom Hardy's canteen.  Although you try and sometimes succeed to imitate Brando, you need to develop your talent as an actor and that requires surrendering your ego, of which there is no shortage of.



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173,892 My personal therapy for the day that u might see as an example of how to self therapy.

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because.... I miss having a family meal and the doors off the side where I knew people who eternally mattered were next to me and there was more to life than those who are there at least for me much too conditionally or at least take an investment and sacrafice even if unknowingly or unintentionally or worth it in the end That being the sacrafice of not choosing or at least glancing at the unchosen perhaps unseen different possible sacrafices (of time and attention) truly having potential no harm would come from considering if not choosing. for actualization of our peace of mind our best effort at creating and sharing good awareness and state of mind. I offer an impression of the state of mind where I feel most hope=motivation=action. You are part of this because you are the prized lights of awareness of me closest to my own peace of mind that I am motivated by. Truly awareness and feeling itself.. is pure free will. Mutually considering eachother at the very least a smile of appreciation between in the direction of acknowledging the acceptance and respect (a form of not love but part of love and not at all useless) u would feel, (despite anything else bad feeling or how unwanted a certain feeling is) the respect u would feel for the good intentions and efforts we all feel even in turning our heads). I ask u to gift us with the sacrafice of your chosen size just go with it and it will be the best and only effort as right and honest as it ever could be as in wrong is not possible. Nothing is also a gift of truth and insight on your own peace of mind and position in this truth that we mustn't deny matters to each of us about each of us. Even if this seems wrong or uncomfortable which it shouldn't.. Just say no thanks. That will be the dust in the light that is you. Your light will shine elsewhere. The taste of your presence in my life will be peace from the note of awareness and my choosing the joy of believing my care was appreciated if not acknowledged by more than a nod. after the pain of disappointment I will be forced not to learn from and appreciate the shape of your dust and the touch of your light and the help of your story to practice my focus and concentration on (u all know this of me the burden of my leaning or cruelty and blindness even abuse from me that I live with the shame of to each of u in its way. I am saying I take too much but starve to give and practice being light and not dust in your eye. appreciating this is my story so I ask the ones I love to gift me and us with an anything goes expression of your own experience and if u so choose any awareness that u might benefit from offering in any of our directions the birds in the trees distanceless and with access to asking for any souls perspective. I am -asking- for at least one impression from each of you... My family... The exact very best impression of your best self.. and entitlement to honesty is a grey area and no one is wrong because we all know we are flawed potentially beautiful perfect states of mind. Roger roger what's up this family as we are from your best self. If nothing is your best self or you need the front burners of your time for now.. Just know this is on the a back burner welcoming and there's something slow cooking that is timeless and unavoidably approaching overcookedness overlookedness know and feel at least for a moment what the frown on the back of anyone's head feels like. All of you are important to me with mystery and caring for the beauty Ur striving for and feeling the awareness that I am not a part of that beauty and I send a signal and open my ears and eyes and mind in a request for an impression of YOUR TRUTH. This is me putting these words in all of our mouths: How are you? Well... Me....in the void of my completely unburdened time I assume an emotion with the awarenesses I build and please try and hold together with me I ask of everything as energy is derived from potentially false hopes that cause me to create my life that even if wrong in your eyes is my own best self and better than nothing when it's all I have in the shadow of disappointment that the belief sparking my heart was artificial. Artificial in a way is my self created everything and The state of accepting this is the shadow I spent many years running from and Falling back down beneath for different periods. I am learning how to set my sights on a realistic and reachable state of life and I change never without flaw or concern for the amount of shade but always reaching for light and no part of my experience is a total waste it all could teach me if I practice the rules set by my best self. The area of honesty that Breaking promises is to myself is grey aswell as it is never completely chosen and is always flat out and proven i think to be the very best I could do or did do. That is the forgiveness I work towards but do not yet deserve as I am indebted to it all from deliberately almost evilly or carelessly experimentally choosing the path of least resistance. The whole time I walk in this void I feel the sharedness of all emotions and I want to create something tangible and work on the right things which are actually possible and I confusedly go cross eyed in a cloud of building and falling bits of potential action almost with its own timing of coming forth when I follow the priority of my heart bravely but the freedom from exerting myself allows these happy efforts accepted as the best I can do yet always limiting me and causing sacrafice and failure. I am doing well right now I did take a speed pill but I swear I felt this same motivation and positivity a couple of times this week while I hadn't touched it for a while. finding somewhere I truly feel is home is happening because I am changing for the people I live with in a way that inspires them to change for me. Me and Shawn are going to fast until it feels wrong by fast I mean not eat and I push for a rule against any weed while Shawn decides for himself and we meditate on positive possibilities and he is open to working on art with me in an experiment again that worked before for him of reducing weed getting higher because of it and creating something beautiful. We went in this direction years ago and it resulted in a childlike beautiful drawing of a purple and torquoise and magenta landscape of different connected areas to explore and childlike yellow stars surrounding a possibly hospital church and farmlooking building on a plateau. I had a few dreams with him within what this building ultimately represents. He says one time when we got in a wicked fight it and his spot on the bed set fire and went out on its own aswell as a burnt hole on the original of this art that is our fortune. the fact that his spending money only on drugs is sacrificing not only everything else he could be working toward but also damaging both our states of mind by constantly wishing Ur state of mind was improved and using these gifts from nature in this futile way that must go hand in hand with your thoughts and efforts to change your own state of mind. When unconditional love is divided by sacrifices that do not give or get perpetually or fully leaves undeniable absence occupied by lesser love.. He now is in a very open minded attentive honest state and happy in the awareness that I am only temporarily in his life and not available to him as the person he wishes I was. I too am accepting and appreciating him. Ok that's enough about that sorry for making this all about me resist giving feedback please if you please please respond and express what it is you're doing. Dad what was that hacking the home thing and I'm sorry for not asking or even noticing the foreign information. Mom R u in a play now? Are u living the dream? Bro is there a special heart connection for you as I never heard much on how it went with that guy from God knows how long ago. Feel free to keep this idea on the back burner it could be whatever u make it.. family /memory /journal /documentation /poemy creative writing even if only wiping That universal ass on this 📜...with the deliberate action of rejection in a silence. That sounds accusatory but in a way im looking at all of us as 100% following our hearts and I don't want to ask u for a sacrafice as much as to enjoy knowing you are so loved. but to actually appreciate what I know is a therapeutic method. I don't think therapy is transferred in one direction between ppl.. The best therapy is to give and teach and actualize making the best changes to the people providing therapy thru feeling appreciated in your story. I want to show u what else I am trying with this new practice I am perceiving as my possible unofficial approach as a therapist.
Mat.. I think I am my best self right now(rolls eyes).. 👯🐗👹lol what a way to start this message but I don't think it'll psych me out. I'm writing a few ppl at a time . Switching windows it's like trying to start flame back and forth from each hopeless tinder. I have hope and hope this isn't just a false feeling and I honestly think my faith in you to understand me and treat me in a way that is good and embraces who I am instead of believing in what I can never be and have never wanted to be. could be made either false or true but only by you. You could be a friend I read most of your emails and you are a good writer and I see your soul is good but can grow sick and angry and threatening. I have a new perspective Id like to share but first an apology.. Like you when I feel threatened or like the person sees me as something that I am not and have not ever been or ever acted as intentionally especially things reflecting mistakes sins shame and every action and relationship that is damaged. I do communicate and gratify my anger by disrespecting you. I know I'm damn fine thank you rabbit teeth and all but it is disturbing to hear more than it is pleasant from someone who I see as seeing me in a way I am not or praying for a path for me I absolutely do not want. You must accept less and so so much less from me than u want but the sacrafice you make does not go unappreciated.. We must forgive eAchother and see eAchother in the best light by trying to grow to love the reality of what we are to eAchother. It won't be the shore of intense bliss and pride it will be a long road of struggling to be at peace with a lesser feeling but please let it be peace u feel for me peace in letting me go and helping me feel safe. Waiting and barking at me thru my window or trying to break in does not make me feel safe or accepted it makes me resent and see u as deluded and dangerous. don't get excited because I don't intend to ever see u again or at least not for what will feel like a long time. My dream come true and love of my life is a woman who loves me back and we struggle together so far apart and this is my own beautiful horrible dream and you could catch your own fish if u keep those photos up on pof that show ur cuteness and innocence and handsomeness. Look into the mirror with innocence and see your charm please. Sometimes I think certain peoples potential for beauty is equal to their potential for horribleness. Never give up and try not to write too much and say what is important so I don't have to tell u im not even reading you and we can be friends. Please don't call without texting and asking first. Please accept this truce and this appology and forgiveness to your own failure to see yourself as what u truly are to me. A soul of passion and love and intelligence and caring failing to believe and desire for someone ELSE to love you. I am gay and I can answer any question and even ask my own and care. So this is all I have to offer I can't say how much time I can give you in this limited and distant way but I share this painful void of rejection and have seen the same shame. Think of me as a bro. Respect me and pray for me to make it with the love of my life and I can't say how often I will reply but refine yourself knowing your efforts of friendship are the only way to provide me with happiness and feeling understood and accepted in what I want. try and change for me and see how I am trying to change for u and the truth in that I can not and do not desire to change in the ways u want me to and know I should not. Start wanting me to be myself. I'm sorry for being so selfish and seeing the way I took from u as any less wrong than how u took from me. Start believing in yourself and you'll be younger and more beautiful every day. Good luck mat. Try to focus on your own life with faith in that u will find someone BETTER for u than myself.



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173,891 Trump is the best thing that has ever happened to this country. Can't wait for him to be president.



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173,890 I watch porn. I love cock porn. I love cum porn. Every day I wish I didn't marry my fat bitter ugly wife so I could suck cock an taste cum every day for the rest of my life



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173,889 Now that Common Core is dying, I think every dumbass school administrator who tried to jam it down our throats should be fired. Not the teachers. They got it right. They'd whisper to me how lame Common Core was. But some of the school officials, my God what a con job they tried to sell us. Their days should be numbered.



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173,888 My wife has a friend who hates me. She's very unkind about everything I say and do. I asked my wife why she's still friends with this woman. No answer.

Today I found out her husband said he hates her. He said he hasn't loved her in years. She came bawling to my wife.

I want to buy her husband a beer. I want to pat him on the back.  I want to set him up with the woman I work with. It was a long time coming, but I'm feeling vindicated.



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173,887 Death is the light at the end of the tunnel for me.



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173,886 It amuses me how people get so caught up in politics.  It's like they actually believe any one of these fuckers that is running for president will do anything better than any other one.  To put your faith in any of these people and to believe that they are somehow going to make your life any better or worse is a pipe dream. Believing in any of this is a fools errand. Good luck though, I hope whoever you're pulling for wins.  You'll feel better for a while, at least.



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173,885 I hate myself so much.



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173,884 I've been  married for 27 years and with my love for over 30 years. Through all the good and bad never once did I think of straying outside the marriage. I signed up for in sickness and health and all that good stuff .  If I found out my supposed had cheated, we would talk it through and figure things out. I love him very much and I know he loves me. I only want what's best for us.



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173,883 I live in South Carolina and this week was our Democratic primary. I tried to vote last week at the Republican primary. However, the ground was unlevel and I tripped and fell and required 15 stitches.  Since I couldn't vote the way I really wanted to I just figured I would take a vote away from Hillary.



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173,882 Black lives DO matter. I wish that all the black parents out there would instill that belief into their children. There would be much less black on black crime if they realized how important life is and how important they are.



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173,881 If love is not about possession, why are we not all polygamous?

In my experience, love is as possessive as drugs.



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173,880 I get to visit my family in LA today and they already started asking about my ex. Great.



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173,879 pretty girls crying in their rooms. no one will ever find out because it's true what they sad, the saddest people have the brightest smiles. I hate that no one will ever know, but I will never be ready to share. not even to people closest to me, not to my boyfriend or my best friends. I wonder if they would ever guess.



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173,878 I've had three of my friends wives cheat.  In all three instances the wife was just about to or did divorce her husband to be with the new love.   Twice the other guy dumped them before the divorce was finalized and the other one lasted for a week.    Everything is great and wonderful until he realizes that he's gotta be with your crazy ass 24/7.  



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173,877 Motherhood is the hardest job in the world?? What complete bullshit.

Oh it's hard to drink coffee and wine all day and gossip about the other mothers you don't like? Oh yea, that sounds hard.

Oh it's hard to get fat. Um, no, that seems to be easy seeing so many of you do it.

Oh it's hard to stick that lasagna in the microwave for dinner? Yea right.

Oh it's hard to begrudgingly give your husband a handjob once every three months. Poor you.

Motherhood being labeled as a hard job is a fabrication made up by... get this... mothers. They try to spin their lazy existence as being a lot of work. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU'RE FOOLING?



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173,876 I had these mushroom infused chocolates that I ate of a period of several months, a couple of springs ago. Some friends and I ate them together and recorded the insuring jam session. Naturally, one would think that the music sounded great at the time, but actually was quite terrible when played back in a sober condition. This was not at all the case. We wrote something like 4 or 5 solid song ideas, and the performance was actually enhanced by the shrooms. It's like a creative demon got in to us and started kicking out the jams. Thumbs up to shrooming. Just don't overdo it.



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173,875 Look at our big name all-star lineup. Hillary and Trump. Let me say this. She's no Margaret Thatcher, and he's no Theodore Roosevelt.

Her outwardly cool head is as much a facade as his antics. A campaign manager for the Obama administration stated on record "the only reason Obama was elected was thanks to America's stupidity". He's right! Yeah, who does not want to be a part of history in the making? But unless we really get into the know, join the show, and make our demands have our voices heard over theirs...well, its the same old songs playing. Why don't we boycott the elections? We have the power to say No! It is high time they are told who is in charge of this country!



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173,874 Okay, jokes over. You've had your fun America. You made your point. Haha Trump for President. Good one. But it's time to stop this silliness. Trump can't be President. Oh my lord it would be the end of the world. But I know what you are saying. The career politicians are also bad for America. I agree. Got the message loud and clear. But now we should work together and find the right person to run the country. I'm open minded. First thing though, we need to all get off this Trump shenanigans.



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173,873 Sometimes my husband sleeps so late that I wonder if he died in his sleep. I tiptoe back into the bedroom and listen for him breathing or moving. Very paranoid of me but who sleeps until 2 in the afternoon?



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173,872 863...You should be the one seeing the divorce lawyer, and soon. Suppose she and her FB get the itch and rekindle their affair? I wouldn't bet against it. Leave while you can retain some of your sanity and dignity.



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173,871 You sound like a nice person. Advice from a stranger with no bias. Leave her. She's using you. She wants you at the party so she can flaunt it in the face of the man who dumped her.  Don't go to the party. Do get divorced. There are many better women out there.



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173,870 It had been about three weeks since I last saw her at the bar we hang out at on Friday nights.  Finally, the star aligned and last night we were both there and I went over to say hi to her and her friends.  She was wearing a top that was absolutely beautiful and I told her how nice it looked.  She told me about her girls weekend and that today she was going ice fishing up north on a big lake.

She is far and away the most beautiful woman I have ever met in my life.  I would give anything to spend the day with her.  I would take a million different photos of her megawatt smile, her eyes that shimmer, that beautiful blond hair and those damn freckles.  I don't even think she realizes how beautiful she really is.  If I could undress her and make love to her I could die a happy man tomorrow.  I have never felt like this before.  I am so intrigued, she is so real and alive.

I am older than she is.  I am married.  I am overweight.  It doesn't matter because it would never happen in a million years.  

And it all started months ago because she took the chair next to mine at the bar and I asked her if she lost the bet.  It is amazing how the world and the universe works.



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173,869 863...sounds like you should be delivering the "or else"..."stay home, go alone, or get the fuck out." People make mistakes, and forgive those mistakes, but asking your husband to socialize with your former fuck buddy against his will is pretty awful. Good luck.



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173,868 I'd like to try mushrooms. Not sure where a mid-fifties guy would find them.

I'd also like to have a short "affair" with a younger woman who really enjoys being eaten out.

Sometimes I also think I'd like to try giving a guy head.



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173,867 We had our "transfer of property" yesterday. Embryos aren't considered people...regardless, we now have 2 embryos that will be transferred in early April. I'm so excited! Hoping, praying, fingers/toes/eyes crossed that this works. We've been trying for over 5 years to get pregnant and if one or both of these embryos implant, our dreams will come true! Male factor infertility is so much more difficult to treat, and there are really no options for my husband. He is my best friend and my life partner and I am so excited to know that we may finally be parents soon. My whole family is excited and praying for our embryos already. We love you, Snowflakes!!



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173,866 I wish I had a dollar for every time someone tried to break me down by referencing my sexuality. I've been threatened with murder and rape numerous times, called a slut, whore and succubus and even a golddigger.

Nasty slurs like that are unfortunately par for the course for women, but I have used them to my advantage and have remarkably thick skin as a result. I hope other women and girls out there are doing the same thing. When people (men and women alike) try to break you down, make sure that you use that as a way to build yourself right back up, better and stronger for having survived each vicious attack.

Ladies, you are all truly stronger than you know!



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173,865 The ugliest thing in America starts with a T, ends with a P, and sounds like CHUMP



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173,864 I don't have a wife nor kids, nor a dog, nor a pickup truck (but I'm not gay, either, in case that's what the reader might be suspecting).  No wonder I feel out of place in this neighbourhood - especially when I probably have more books in my two bookcases than in the other six households in my little cul-de-sac combined.

I was the first in this street to build a house and move in.  After nearly 24 years, I'm by far the only original resident left in the street.  Every other house in this street has at least its third or fourth set of residents by now.  For me observing, it's been like living in a halfway house.

What a disappointment it's been.  I didn't expect things to end up like this.  It wasn't like this for my parents when they built their house and proceeded to live there for the next 47 years until they had both passed on.

I recently visited a small retirement village for the first time to gauge what one might be like.  The atmosphere there felt so much more accepting.  I think there might be one more housemoving on my horizon in the next couple of years, and I won't miss my present street one bit.



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173,863 My wife created a difficult situation and dragged me into the plot. I hate it. A few years ago she went nuts on me. At the time I didn't understand why. I strongly suspected she was having an affair. It empowered her. She started complaining about everything I did. As her affair took off she said she wanted to divorce me. She turned to one of her divorced friends who set my wife up with a divorce lawyer. I think my wife's plan was to divorce me and then start a new wonderful life with the guy in the wings.

But one day it all came crashing down. My wife stayed in the bedroom for a week crying. Then she resurfaced in a much more pleasant mood. I asked what the past few months were really about, all her complaining about me. She said she didn't want to talk about it, but she was sorry.  Thus my thinking she had an affair and that it ended.

We've been getting along okay for the past year. Although I'm  still wondering if I should leave her because of her affair. If she talked about it with me that would be one thing. But she had an affair and won't discuss. The lack of communication is killer. So yep, I should leave her.

But the latest twist. Her friend, the one who set her up with the divorce lawyer, she's having a party. My wife and I are invited. I heard my wife on the phone with the woman. She asked her friend, "Will HE be there?"

Okay, it sounds like the man she had an affair with will be at the party.  All around this sounds like a terribly uncomfortable situation for me. I have to be in the same room with the woman who set my wife up with a divorce lawyer. I'm sure she told people. Oh great, everyone can look at me and whisper.  But also I get to be in the same room with the guy she had an affair with?

No thank you.

This is messed up. I told this to my wife. She says I have to come or else.... the or else sounds like she will look at divorce again. Is any of this fair to me? Why should I be put in this situation. I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't have an affair. I didn't try to end the marriage. It's all her doing. But I'm the one being put in this incredibly awkward situation.



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173,862 My heart breaks every single day of my life because I wake up and it isn't 2009-10. Those were the best years of my life. My life is "better" on paper now but I think about those years constantly. The worst psychological torture is the one that I put myself through and it just won't end. If something doesn't change, I'm going to spend the rest of my days pining for what was instead of enjoying what I do have. I can't even look at pictures from that era without crying (which is frowned upon for guys to do so I have to bite my lip and keep it together). Part of me is glad that I at least had some good years in my life, but another part of me wishes they didn't happen so I wouldn't think about how great they were all the time.



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173,861 Did you really finally tell me last night you love me???   You know dont you....you know im dying......;'-(  im sorry baby i somehow knew you knew.....you will always have my heart tho ....forever hottie



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173,860 No. I am never "with" anyone. No girls, no guys. I'm not gay.
I'm 5Ƌ" and bald. I find myself disgusting so how can I expect anyone else to find me attractive?



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173,858 The reason I'm weary of men who have a real history of going to prostitutes isn't so much a jealousy or "Ewww" factor...but that I think it indicates either an impatience/incapability or a lack of capacity for "relationshipping", and for all the emotional shit that comes with that...And their tastes can change very quickly in my experience

Who knows, as for Mr.#2 maybe I'm just unfairly coming to a judgement about a good catch who had a dry spell and needed to scratch an itch...

But then again, Mr.#1 told me in a rare moment of honesty that one of the reasons he enjoyed experiencing prostitutes was for "the degradation of the humanity"

My dating experiences as of late have done little to change my belief in the cliche that most men are as faithful as their options, and the desire for having an exclusive relationship is from the man's desire to possess that pussy he sees as "his" while he still goes and sticks his dick wherever he can



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173,857 Why should I expect my dad to care if I don't even look into and try to understand him and his journey .. When I'm confronted with foreign information I just avoid it.. It feels too late to catch up.. I'll put more effort in but.. I suck.. I hate myself



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173,854 I'm just jaded by men who want to do the whole "girlfriend" thing but also have a bit of a double life going...Been burned by fellows with a propensity for working girls prior. Just want to find someone without a Madonna/Whore complex that I can be both for...

I like the chase too...learned it to be more interesting amongst men who can easily pay for it.  And I don't go into it with money as a main goal...but if someone is just throwing it at me...well, I guess I don't feel that badly for catching it.
Just a combination of opportunity and circumstance I guess



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173,853 I have been watching so much porn and jerking off so much that I have been having a hard time getting it up when I'm not watching porn. Then, when I do and I'm fucking my wife, I cum in about 10 seconds.  Its a real problem.



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173,851 I saw "Backpage.com Escorts" come up on his tablet when he was keying up something else on his tablet for us to look at...It was very quick and I don't think he noticed me noticing at all...He is even more computer illiterate than I...and doesn't seem to ever erase his history and all that...

Sure, he could've just been looking, but I just don't think so...
Regardless, it turned me off
And it makes sense he'd be one to pay for it

Glad he spent a lot on me while it lasted
And I never gave up the pussy!



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173,850 I think assault rifles and handguns should be outlawed. They are designed to kill humans. You like to hunt? Fine, keep your shotguns and deer rifles. Guns designed to kill humans only belong in the military.
Just my two cents :)



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173,849 I told this guy his tree was rotting and he should take it down. He gave me crap saying it wasn't my business. I told him it was everyone's business because the tree was leaning towards the road and the power line and if it fell then the entire neighborhood would lose power. He ignored me. Yesterday his tree fell over and everyone lost power. We're sitting here in the dark and cold. And now I learn the mother fucker went to Florida for the winter so he isn't affected at all by the power outage. How is it that crappy people like him always come out on top?



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173,848 Fuck off hate spreader.



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173,847 I am now obsessed with creepy dolls.  I want to collect them.  I like listening to creepy music while I browse through an online catalog of creepy dolls.  I want to get my first doll with black holes where her eyes used to be.  It is so reflective of this void I feel like I'm in.



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173,846 I know i eat too much when i have to take two dumps a day.



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173,845 PEOPLE OF CAVECANUM: we need to return to our roots. Infancy holds the keys to the afterlife designed by God.
Man & Woman were made as to reproduce a baby, for us to understand the concept of growth and how it renews hope for the adventure of existance! Let's make common ground. We all can relate to this memories since we have all come from here, they're our own! We are so saddened by the present difficulties that we only hold anger as our driving life force.
Repent, so you can feel the warmth of God.



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173,844 The thing that I don't get about all of the gun control nuts is that we've had guns in this country since its earliest days. It's an unalienable right, one that was so important because it ensured that citizens would be able to both protect themselves and launch a revolution if they found that the government wasn't working out.

I don't think that guns are the major problem facing our country, I think it's the fact that people with mental deficiencies aren't getting the treatment that they need. Until we deal with that in an effective manner, the acts of violence are going to continue. If you take away the guns, they'll use knives. If you take away the knives, they'll use their hands and so on and so forth. If we do not figure out a way to fix the mental health problem in this country then we're all going to be in grave trouble.

I'll vote for any Presidential candidate who will actually address this problem in a way that isn't just a pipe dream.



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173,843 I think I'm over you now.



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173,842 173838  I love your saltwater taffy secret.  I also love it when I'm completely emotionally dissociated and the only thing that makes me comfortable is other people just railing off facts.  I read all the other negative humanity secrets on here and feel so emotionally removed from the peopleness of people.  You're right... saltwater taffy has salt and water :D  It's factually amusing to me.



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173,841 I made of list of pro and cons in our relationship. Sadly, there were only 3 pros and almost 30 cons. Time to give my great life a chance to bloom again! You are out!



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173,840 This weekend is a game changer boyfriend of mine! You have messed up to many times and now it's time to pay the piper!
I have every other weekend of no responsibilities! Kiddo is with her dad, I worked a 45 hour week and it's time for me to enjoy myself! That does not include you feeling bad because you haven't seen your daughter in a week due to your bad habits! That, my dear, is your problem and YOUR FAULT! If you so much as suggest bringing her over this weekend I am going to find a quick way out and go to lunch with friends, have some drinks on a patio, kick back and relax! I have earned that! I may even talk a little more to a guy I met not so long ago! You can stay there and yell at your daughter because she is bored and you are trying to sleep! I won't be there to entertain her and I won't be there for you much longer! Kiss it loser!



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173,839 I swear while I'm at work te clock moved backwards.
Let this be a lesson to youth: choose down thing you love doing and stay away from cubicles.



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173,838 One person hears the word "saltwater taffy" and assumes it has something to do with saltwater. Salt plus water equals saltwater. Saltwater taffey does contain saltwater. Most small batch recipes call for a 1/2 teaspoon of salt.



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173,837 One of my new year's resolutions is to not leave any feedback on-line.  I've done so & gotten nasty hate-filled messages (when what I said wasn't even that bad ... well, don't mess w/crazy I guess) and I consider myself fortunate that's all that happened, when I hear about other people getting sued.  Sucks for the others who will have a bad experience, but I'm not risking getting sued, no way ...



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173,836 I am a terrible human being. You told me you don't want to be with me but I begged you to stay. I can't tell if you really meant what you said since you don't want to talk about it anymore. I am still not sure what it will take for me to stop begging you and hoping you will love me.



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173,835 Please pray for me.



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173,834 I went to a Girl Scout (it was probably Brownies, but anyway) camp once - it wasn't with my usual Troop, and I was excited to meet new people ... I started talking to these two girls who were from a different section of town & they (seemed) nice, I was excited to make new friends ....

At one point I was sitting on a couch, reading a book or something, and they both came & stood in front of me.  One said to another, oh, I REALLY don't want to do this and the other said, I *know* .... like they're "supporting" each other ... then they both looked at me and said, LEAVE US ALONE.   ... Then they explained that they had been planning this trip together, and that they bought special food just for the trip, and I was interfering.

You know what, you two?  You should have taken a trip by yourselves, then ... going on a GROUP outing and then insisting that others don't speak to you ry to get to know you ... rotten.  I'm sure their lives are great, now - that's usually the way it goes.



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173,833 I still love him,
my new boyfriend-old boyfriend? Wouldn't be happy to hear about that.
Shit.
So I'm going to pretend I don't.
FML



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173,832 Please, take your meds.



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173,830 I think it's time I talked about M.

I barely started at ___ and didn't know anyone there because I wanted a fresh start. It didn't go so smooth, and I thought I needed to be loved to have a purpose in the world.
I barely knew M, but every time I saw him on campus, my heart throbbed a little. A few of my classmates knew him, but I didn't have the nerve to talk to him. So I didn't do much, and gave the entire thing a rest.
A few months passed, and I ended up finding him on Facebook, and a friend of his added me as well. I started talking to said friend who I had never met in real life. The more we started talking though, the more I felt attracted to himself as a person. I realized I really enjoyed his company and we ended up dating after I ended things with my 'boyfriend' at the time.
Guess who was his best friend? M.
We had a stormy relationship, and at the end of it, I was alone. I had nothing else besides him. M was the only friend of his who kept talking to me for some odd reason. I had built so much on our relationship that I had no true friends of my own.
So when  M asked if I wanted to hook up one day, and he showed up at my house on his bicycle, who was I to say no? I did have a crush on him after all these years, and I had nothing to lose.
Dating M was became my dream. I remember he posted a video of him playing and singing on the guitar, and that was what kept me hanging. I knew that beneath our chemical reaction, beneath the FWB, I knew he was sensitive and sweet. He cared. I thought.
Things didn't work out. We talked here and there, but our hookups ended.
So when I heard that he died in the car crash in the spring, I felt my heart ache and ache and ache and ache.
Not because I lost my only connection to my ex, but because I lost the only thing that kept me floating after him.
I didn't fall in love with M, but my god, I could have.
RIP



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173,829 Never date anyone going to therapy. Eventually you will be blamed for their issues.



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173,828 Boycott Apple!

I'm so damned tired of giant corporations doing what they want!



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173,827 Since I've been back in town I've been hooking up with your boyfriend almost everyday. We take our pups out for a walk and then settle in for a light dinner. It's funny when you call and I'm giving him a blowjob or kissing his neck and he can't concentrate on what you're saying! 😂



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173,826 I'm hooking up with my friend's boyfriend consistently and it's been going on since January and she has no idea. I know it's seriously fucked up to have sex with someone else's boyfriend but the dick game is real & I just can't help myself.



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173,825 I'm gonna be late for work because I spent my whole evening giving myself multiple orgasms. Yey me!



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173,824 Every once in awhile I'll see a discussion online about people's jobs being automated. Tellers, fast-food workers, grocery cashiers etc etc. The discussion always seems to be about how folks with no skills deserve it and/or that it's a natural progression of things. That it ought to be expected in today's society. I'm not going to argue one way or another because it doesn't matter but I DO wonder what these people think will happen to the folks who lose their jobs. Do they think they will be absorbed into the atmosphere or something? We need to come up with a real game plan when this happens on a large scale. We cannot as a society afford to have that many people unemployed and depleting resources. Also, I think people would be a little less callous if they knew just how many types of jobs are set to be automated. Having a skill/education guarantees nothing. Trust me. I know some of the programs/AI that are in development. Even "safe" jobs like doctors & nurses can (and more than likely WILL) be replaced by a computer. All I'm saying is we need to really sit down as a society and think about the future. No matter what side you're on.



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173,823 There's a bitch in my neighborhood who married a man so she could get him to pay for a set of fake tits for her. She never loved him. She got big tits and spent all his money and then she left him for a man with more money. It's not my business but bitch I hope karma pops those bags of sand in your chest.



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173,822 Every morning when I shower (after my morning shit) I stick a soapy finger up my butt to make sure everything is all clean in there. Some mornings I can still feel a turd up there. This morning I could feel a little nugget of turd, but it was small enough I could find the end of it. So I hooked my finger around it and pulled it out. It smelled awful. I didn't know what to do with it so I squished it through the grate over the drain in the shower and finished washing up like normal.



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173,821 You must probably think I'm one frigid bitch...
Fair enough~
After the effort, money, and time you spent

But nope,
I'm a freak
I just couldn't get down with you, Hams
Sorry.



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173,820 After my therapy appointment today, I went to the store and bought a whole new bathroom set: new shower curtain, mat, towels, bin and doohickies for the sink.

My roommate (it's my house she lives in) does not know it yet but 2 months from now, I am going to ask her to move out. I made the decision 4 months ago but I had bills to take care of before I could tell her. So now, another month and I'll be in the clear. And then I am going to have a conversation with her.

She and I have been roommates for 4 years. I bought my house last year. It's a small house (1200 sqfeet) but it's mine. It's all nice and clean on the inside EXCEPT for my roommate's room and bathroom. That girl is a complete pig. Gross, gross, gross. There is not one inch of visible carpet space in her bedroom. She hoards shit everywhere. Her bathroom, you ask?...oy. It's disgusting beyond words.

While we were renters I could overlook it. But now it's impossible and it makes me irrationally angry. And yes, I have had a talk (several, in fact) about it but she either does not get it or does not care. So there. She goes. I don't need her to pay my mortgage. And if she and I are to remain friends, she needs to move out of my house and take her nasty habits somewhere else.



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173,819 .
47% of Hillary voters surveyed for a Nevada exit poll reported that they disagreed with the decision to end slavery during the Civil War. White feminists are doing whatever they can to Make America Hate Again, it makes me want to vomit.



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173,818 I give my husband a haircut every month. It's easier to do it when we are both naked. Then we don't end up with hair sticking to clothes. We do it most of the time in the bathroom. But during the warm summer months we do it in the backyard. We put a chair near some bushes. The neighbors can't see. Except for when we walk in and out of the backdoor. Hopefully they don't happen to be looking at that particular moment.



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173,817 Mrs . Fitzgerald I'm shock you are younger than I though. Funny for a person who loves to criticize other woman . It's probraly all the years of smoking and sun .  Btw you seem very obsess with my furniture , I'll sell to you if you want , 800 for the mirror( it's a great deal it's worth much more)  2 k for my canopy bed ( I paid close to 5k)  2 k seems a fair price .   You can buy that condo if you want , we are planning to sell it anyways in a few more years .   There's plenty of land in the other house to build another house .   Please let me know if you are interesting , I'm tired of people like you looking through my window ( it's quite creepy )  and an invasion of privacy .



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173,816 Did you ever hear the song, "You're so Vain?" Btw-Mick Jagger is doing the backing vocals, boom, secret. Anyway, the lyric is "you probably think this song is about you, don't you, don't you?"  Nope, and nope.



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173,815 Attention black people , please stop being ignorant and offended without knowing the facts.  The translation for black in the Spanish language is negro ok and no it's not the same as the n word that spelling is different as the meaning.  So next time you hear a spanish speaking person use that word , don't get all upset and confused .



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173,814 Lol crazy person again,  please take your mess honey.  Life's is great , family is healthy , plenty of food , roof over my head etc.... My life is not going well? Hahaha if you only knew .....



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173,813 It takes two to form a good or bad relationship.  To the assholes who blame women for being psycho or women who constantly bitches about their men but never analyze your own behavior in all this, well, good luck with all your life relationships.  You're obviously too dense to learn.  No one ever admits there is a communication failure that happens on BOTH ends of the relationship.  People deflect and demonize because it's easier than being self aware.  It's all the other party's fault.  Yup.  Keep that up, you miserable people.  This is why nobody's happy because people are too self inflated to transcend above blame deflection.  It's all good.  I like watching people doing the same shit over and over... at least it gives me entertainment value.  



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173,812 For some, simply not being caught in the act means they didn't do it. You are only as dark as your secrets. You actively cut the legs out from under everyone around you and blamed it on me. Everyone knew who you really were, except me. If you could have been you, instead of a projection of what you thought everyone should see, then I could have loved you. I pinned my hopes on the possibility that one day you might get real. As it is, I can only say of you, that you were a complete fake and a waste of my time. It may do you some good to ponder what it means to "Be true to thyself, and thou canst not then be false to any man" (human, for the pedants) sure, we all have secrets, but actively lying about who you are is unhealthy and leads to broken families and broken hearts. Think about that next time you're doing your hair in the mirror. It might explain why things aren't going so great for you now. Just a hint from your past...



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173,811 If the FBI's ability to keep people safe is dependent on accessing 1 iPhone, then they are incompetent and we are fucked. They need to think outside the box instead of trying to force other companies to do their job.  No more giving up civil liberties, and privacy for the vague promise of safety.



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173,810 You know how pizza guys knead and then throw the dough up in the air and catch it?  Well look a little more closely and you'll notice that they wrap the dough around their fists and lower arms.  

Have you ever seen an Italian man's arms?  Hairy as fuck.  I do not want your arm hair by the slice!



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173,809 It's not the voices in my head that keep me awake at night. It's the memories...



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173,808 If Apple can't help the FBI keep our country safe, then I can't help Apple make any more money. My next phone won't be an Apple product.



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173,807 I'm a senior in college. I'm finally beginning to enjoy it. In the first two years the courses were mandatory core classes. In these last two years the courses have become more complex. In several of my classes the prof will be doing some derivation on the white board when he hits a stumbling point. He then turns to me sitting in the audience and asks if I see his error. So I tell him. In these last two years the profs have realized that I understand things, that I can see further down the road than everyone else. It feels good to be recognized. They don't get mad. They seem very happy I know more than them. A few have said I'm their once in a decade student. Students also come up to me after class and ask if I can show them how some formula works. I think I've found my place in life. I think I'll become a professor of mathematics.



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173,806 20% of Trump voters surveyed for a South Carolina exit poll reported that they disagreed with the decision to end slavery during the Civil War. White supremacists are doing whatever they can to Make America Hate Again, it makes me want to vomit.



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173,805 804- do you read this site on a regular basis. All the men with miserable marriages especially due to mental instability of their wives. Run for the fucking hills. What ever you think is hard now, you don't know what hard is and by that time it's way too late. If you do get married, report back to the site in a few years



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173,804 Tonight my girlfriend Started talking about her boss and his girlfriend. How he just met her and how he was telling her that he expected to be engaged by July. That everything was perfect and they complement each other. It made me sad... It hit me how much I want to feel that. Even after dating for 1.5 years now, we don't have that.

I think I feel like I've put too much of myself in our relationship and I can't back out. When objectively, I know there are other women who would be a much better fit for me and who are not emotionally broken.

I'm scared for the future.I don't want to settle... but I'm afraid to throw it all away too.

We have come a long way sjnce our relationship began, but man... I just don't know if she is in it for the long haul.

M/24



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173,803 For the first time since I've known you, I called out your name while masturbating. I want to not just be your girlfriend, indeed, I would also love for you to be my "first". Take my V-Card and tear it into shreds. I would love more than anything to just be yours, but it wouldn't hurt necessarily if you fucked me, either.

Let me love you. Let me be your only girl. Be my lover and fuck the shit out of me whenever you want to. That's all I want. I see true potential in you, and I am legitimately attracted to you. Hell, I'd probably even let you jam your revolver down my throat as you fucked me, just give me a chance.



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173,802 Your shit is gonna hang too...gravity doesn't discriminate...balls to the knees like a long red rooster and what nots

Hopefully you can pay for pert and taut as you age
Unless you possess an unusual charm and or charisma

I've known too many men who've liked to rent instead of buy as the saying goes
And I think a lot of that is down to waaaay more than simple physical preferences...
Me? I just hope and pray to have enough money as I age
Not only for comfort, no...
But so I can consider myself and be considered "eccentric" instead of simply downright weird



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173,801 You know what's sad?  It's sad when I remove women's pictures from my porno folder.  Sorry, Jasmine and Lauren.  You just got too old.  Nina, you got fat and ugly.



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