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177,699 Each girlfriend I get always tells me a few days after we get serious that she keeps having these "dreams" about being taken to a metal table where aliens do things to her. A lot of times she has felt pregnant and has been pregnant them all of a sudden she wasn't. It's always grey aliens and some tall mantis ones too.

Honestly I wish I could give them all a straight answer but I can't because I really dont know what the fuck is going on.

I know those dreams are not dreams though. They were real....



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177,698 I wish I went off to college instead of going to the satellite campus in the city where I live. Man, student in the morning exotic dancer at night.. But instead  retail worker in the morning, classes at night.

22/F



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177,697 Congratulations!  Pole or hole?



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177,696 The day after the service, I'm glad I didn't go. I battled with myself about it - should i... shouldn't i...
And now that it's passed, I'm glad I didn't.
Had I gone, it would have been in support of the people that were left behind, but you are includes in that and I really couldn't put myself through that.
No way in hell could I have seen you and been ok.
But in a very spiteful way, I wish I would have gone just so you could see the ring on my finger and the happiness that surrounds me.



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177,695 The stuff I have on all the people who have betrayed me could toppled a few kingdoms but I chose to take the high road and let the universe take care of it.
It's working.
Take the high road, your life will thank you.



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177,694 i had an incredibly rude and verbally abusive client a couple of days ago. I've spent the whole weekend trying to think of some kind of revenge. I know he's a local business owner so I can't decide if I want to attack him, his business or both. I'm a sweet, kind and patient person but holy shit. He was awful. im still angry. It's not a hot anger though. It's the cold, quiet kind. I will destroy him if it's the last thing I do.

28/petite female



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177,693 Julian Assange, the wikileaks founder, is a hero. He released the Clinton emails. He probably has many politicians wondering if their secrets will be revealed next.

But Julian Assange probably also has a price on his head. Assassins are surely after him. Isn't that something. He is an honest man. He is merely revealing the truth. Yet people in power probably want him dead.

Our world is so unfair in this way. We shouldn't stand for it. We should demand all truth all the time. No more coverups. No more rigged system. I don't care if you are Republican or Democrat. We should all insist on the truth.

And Julian Assange should be awarded the Nobel Prize.



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177,692 I miss sitting around the house with you, smoking pot, usually nude, when we were alone together, or sunning ourselves in the back yard, nude of course.  I know that we had a lot of issues and the hardest part is knowing what I need to change about myself, by myself.

I miss going to church with you, going out to our usual restaurants together and living our comfortable life together. I miss you. I miss your scent, your touch,the way you used to look at me, the sound of your voice, going for walks around the neighborhood and through the park along the river.

I miss our pimky promises, going to junk stores together to buy fun things for our house. I miss watching old movies with you and wrapping up under a blanket next to you.

I miss taking baths with you and our long , deep conversations together in the bathroom. You sitting on the toilet lid, me on the edge of our gigantic soaking tub while we'd smoke a bowl together.  

I miss our anticipated evenings together and our super cosmic, crazy love fucking! I miss laughing with you and crying with you , I just get to do that alone now.

I no longer fear a future without you in it, I don't like it, but I will survive. I know we can't go back even though I wish we could. The grief of losing you becomes more bearable each passing day, but some days I cannot do anything but let it wash over me and rip my soul out again.

My therapist and my friends say "this too shall pass", but I still hardly believe it. I know that I have harbored some resentment toward you and that's not healthy, I will try to let it ALL go, just like I am TRYING to let you go. It's only fair to each of us to move forward and fulfill our own  separate identities. I'm growing and I am certain that you are as well.

Some days, it's all I can do to not call you because I just want to know how you are, where you are and so on, but I know that is a dangerous thing to do, so I resist, for one more day.

Just know that when I get my next tattoo, you will have a significance in that because you shaped this final chapter of my life for the better and helped me awaken even more from the slumber I had been a part of for so long.

You already know this; I will always love you, just like I had in past life times.



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177,691 I've been coming to this site for YEARS.  I'm thinking about 10 years if my memory serves me correctly.

Back then, we were not allowed to respond to other posts.  I am so thankful that we are able to do that now.  It's nice to be able to let other posters know that we're thinking of and encouraging them.

Thank you, Admin!!!



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177,690 670 - just said a prayer for you, too!



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177,689 Racism hurts. Being constantly reminded that people who look like you are despised in society is humiliating. It's in the news recently. It's in our lives daily. Constant reminders.

The sense of shame and inferiority. Never quite knowing if someone is just having a bad day or if you're being treated like that because of the color of your skin. Having to send your white spouse apartment hunting because your physical features bar you upfront from showing them your almost 800 credit score and 6-figure salary.

These are the things that grind you down every day of your life. These are the things other people get to bypass for life. So I'd offer you my shoes for a 1-mile walk but I wouldn't wish this on anyone else.



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177,688 I pre-ordered the new Harry Potter book months ago and it just hit the shelves today. Amazon says I won't get it till Wednesday. Goddamnit. Your drones have failed me Amazon! FAILED ME! D:

Seriously though. Wtf was the point of the pre-order??!



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177,687 I'm sitting in my undies, smoking pot, and eating organic berry oatmeal while waiting for my hair to finish dying. After that I will rinse it out and get dressed. I will go deal with this day.

This moment, this one right here where I'm relaxed in my underwear is my moment. I don't have to be anyone for anybody. I don't have to put on a polite mask. I don't have to pretend I'm okay.



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177,686 I used to sing in the shower as a child. Now I am 36 and I realize I haven't sung a single song in about 15 years. That was about the time my crippling depression kicked in. I don't even listen to the radio anymore.



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177,685 I just walked out to talk to my mom and she ran away from me screaming that I assaulted her. All because I tried to talk to her. I feel so alone



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177,684 I stopped talking to a friend of mine this month and it has been so peaceful. This friend was sucking the life out of me, she was constantly negative about everything in her life. Even a small thing would turn into a massive issue for her. It was exhausting dealing with her.



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177,683 you white people don't know how good you have it, stop hating on majority because we get a little lenient once in a few hundred years, I have to work everyday with a bunch of co-worker who treated me like shit and i can't said anything because i don't want to get fired or written up because i can't get away with the same thing as you white people can, i seen how my boss treat the pretty blonde compared to me, yet I take it all in silence



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177,682 I play games on my phone all day because what else is a loser to do.



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177,681 Mirrors make my depression a daily nightmare.  The image staring back at me is so unworthy of existing.  I start from my head and end up at my toes - not just looking but creating a list of physical defects.  

My hair grows terribly - the unflattering type of curly
My forehead is always greasy
My eyebrows are 2 different sizes and 2 different shapes
My eyes are unremarkable
My ears stick out just a little at the top
I have scars behind both ears from removed keloids
My nose has a disgusting bump where I shattered it as a child
I have a wide nose bridge and pig-like nostrils



I haven't even made it past my head yet.  I could go on and on.  The list is exhaustive and exhausting.  But every word is true.  I am wretched.



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177,680 I know my husband hates me.  I just wish he would admit it and tell me to leave.



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177,679 Conversation with a 25 year old cashier at my (then) local supermarket.

Him:  Wait, are you Jason's mom?

Me:  No, there's someone I look like in town? (I'm a black foreigner in a 93% white town).

Him:  Oh, you look so much like someone I know named Jason.

Me:  I wish this Jason were here so I could see who I looked like.  Do you know about how old he is?  Maybe I might recognize him on the street or something...

Him: I dunno know.  About 23/24?

---------
I was 33 at the time.  Apparently this wrinkle-free black is somehow cracking. :(



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177,678 I think i have bipolar disorder, but i don't think anyone will believe me. I also don't want to look for help, fuck that. Yay for the beautiful but rotten people. I also sleep bad, even though we have summer break. The crazy movies calm me down. I like to be dominated but don't like to be talked back to by people who i barely know. That can really make me hate a person. I just wish it would stop. I hate waking up mad. I will never kill myself, but i always hope i get hit by a bus or something. Should have gone into the model business, all girls there are fucked up anyway.



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177,677 Now there is outrage that Trump never served in the military, so how could he possibly be Commander In Chief?

Remind me, when exactly did Hillary Clinton serve in the military?



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177,676 I had no idea what borderline personality disorder was until after my spouse split. Had I known about it previously , I'd never have gotten tangled up in that mess.  Thank God for what I know now.



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177,675 I can't believe this website is back. I'm not sure how long it's been but I used to be on this all the time in high school. Miss this



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177,674 I would love to be an escort. I go to an Ivy League school but at the same time I'd love to have the opportunity to help to family who is struggling. Namely mother and younger sister. And god bless I love fucking. My mother would condemn having sex for money but I would love to do it! I'd absolutely love to be paid an enormous amount of money for something that I thoroughly enjoy. How wrong can that be?



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177,673 Let me understand this. George Bush invaded Iraq. Obama kept the silly war going.

So Trump is at fault that a Muslim American soldier died?

How does that work? Trump isn't President. Yet he should be  skewered at the podium because someone's son died.?



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177,672 Ivy League colleges have sold out. What a shame. I'm so disappointed. When I went, it was all about smarts. Everyone there was super intelligent and interesting. Now here it is 25 years later. My children would like to go to an Ivy. They are super smart and intelligent. But so far, they know of two students in their grade who were already accepted, even though we're talking 9th graders. How did they get in? Sports. The Ivy League is all about sports these days. Wow, this country is doomed.



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177,671 I'm sorry the Muslim father lost his son in Iraq. But I think it's wrong for him to suggest he's better than us because he's made the ultimate sacrifice. My mom died when I was little. I would never throw that in someone's face, saying I'm somehow more qualified to know what grief is, I'm somehow more qualified to make decisions for the nation. It's irrelevant. My mom died. It was terribly sad and unfortunate. I wouldn't taint her memory by using it for political gain.



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177,670 After reading on here about the Dallas mother of 3, I started praying. I need a job too.



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177,669 660...because sometimes you have to wait for other things to happen before they can happen to you.

I'd lost my job unexpectedly.  I had a good amount of savings, so it wasn't imperative for me to find another one RIGHT NOW.  However, as the months ticked by, I was wondering what the heck was going on.  I have a lot of skills and experience in different fields, and have never had a problem finding a job.  I have literally walked into every job I've ever had, with no effort.  But this time it was taking forever.  I sent out tons of emails and resumes and nothing.  Literally not ONE call back.  Wtf?

But I was also in a weird position and really couldn't just take ANY job.  I'd recently become a single mom.  My family is thousands of miles away.  I had only been living in the city I was in for a few years, and there weren't a whole lot of people I was comfortable leaving my child with, and we all know how expensive childcare is.

I was down to about a month and a half's worth of bills in savings, and friends were commenting that I didn't seem as stressed out as I should be.  My reply was, "I know that God is holding the perfect job for me, I just have to wait for it to become available."  I actually had one crazy friend - a born-again Christian! - tell me that it wasn't that God was going to hand me the perfect job, it was actually the devil who was working to KEEP me from getting a job.  What in the fucking fuck.

Two days later I got a call from a former coworker who I had put out a feeler to.  There was some rep they were working with who mentioned that they needed to hire someone stat, did she know anyone?  He happened to be in the office right then, so I spoke to him and we set up an interview.

I went to the interview.  Despite having no degree in that field, I did have some experience in it.  I was hired on the spot.  The pay was $23/hr plus commission, full benefits, 401(k), paid holidays, company car + travel allowance.  If I needed to, I could bring my child with me.  Also, I could work whatever days and hours I wanted.  The President of the company told me, "I don't care when you work, just as long as the work gets done."  The only thing I didn't get was paid vacation, since it wasn't exactly full time, but if I could get two weeks' work done in one week (not a problem for me), then I could take off whenever I wanted.

So yeah.  Crazy perfect job, I mean, who gets that kind of job???  (Thank you, God.)



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177,668 I'm sure the men being a pain in the ass and talking about nonsense is actually talking about the mundane but essential aspects of running a household, keeping a realistic spending budget and general stuff like paying bills, house maintance, etc.



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177,667 Hilarious....countless secrets from men living with absolutely insanity and enduring incomprehensible situations with borderline and bi-polar women. The secrets from women, their husbands want to spend to much time with them. Poor women.



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177,666 664 - that's why I love when my husband isn't home.  Having the house to myself is so freeing.  I can just do whatever I want without the constant questions and running commentary. I can actually think straight.  I feel free and happy.  

Men are a giant pain in the ass most of the time.  I really like men, and I enjoy their company and love sex - I just don't want to be married or live with one ever again.

Anyway. I don't know what you can say. I've asked my husband to please stop asking me questions, please leave me alone, please give me space, I need quiet time.  Nothing works. If I manage to get to the bedroom and be alone for an hour or two then he's coming up to "visit me" and talk nonsense or he's texting me on the phone.

 I wish I married a busier man.



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177,665 I feel alone no matter who I'm with.



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177,664 I adore my husband. He's my best friend and the love of my life but I need some space sometimes. He's not intrusive or clingy but he doesn't seem to understand that sometimes I just need to be autonomous. Does that make sense? I'm struggling with how to explain it to him. Sometimes I just want to get up and mess around on the computer without having to explain what I'm doing and why. Sometimes I want to get up and make a sandwich without it being a whole process. Like, no words. Just get up and make a sandwich. Not all the time. Just sometimes. I feel like a jerk because I don't know how to properly explain it. I simply want to move freely in the house without being asked what I'm up to SOMETIMES.



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177,663 Many mornings after you leave for work I curl up into a ball on the kitchen floor and cry. Love is not supposed to be this way. You are the worst husband I could ever imagine.



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177,662 God gives us all challenges. How we respond to them is our responsibility.



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177,661 I sure miss our dog.  You can pound sand though.



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177,660 I'm wondering why god would make a mother in Dallas suffer for over seven months without a job...



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177,659 I have this intense fear that there will be a horrible terrorist attack against the US during the upcoming Olympic Games.



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177,658 Today I saw a Trump support sign on someone's lawn. The juvenile in me wants to sneak back there at night and egg that house. The adult says no it won't change anything for the better.

Adulting sucks so hard sometimes.



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177,657 Mom in Dallas, so happy for you!  God is indeed good, it was HE who turned my life around when I asked Him for help.  Best of luck to you!!!  -589



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177,656 I know that you've been attempting to fuck trannies and other women via Craigslist casual encounters. I don't know whether or not you've actually done it. I won't let you know that I know. I will just wait and plot and eventually I'll know what to do. Until then.... I don't know what to do.



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177,655 I buy the old bread at the supermarket. There is always a special shelf for old products like this. Sometimes there are cakes and pies. Sometimes they aren't even old. The plastic covering broke is all. That's the best. They are half the regular price.



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177,654 Remember , revenge is a dish best served cold....

Your time is coming.



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177,653 I like to touch my asshole. Alright, that sounds a bit off. I don't do it on the bus. But if I'm home alone watching tv and I'm wearing something very loose, then I'll diddle with my anus to pass the time.



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177,652 I'm lonely too.



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177,651 I regret most everything I've ever said to people. I have a knack for being stupid.



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177,650 The last two years have been incredibly hard for me. I've experienced quite a few health problems, including a thyroid disorder, a severe back injury and Lyme's Disease. As a result of the Lyme's Disease I started experiencing debilitating panic attacks, which were so bad I could barely leave the house for three months. My whole life stopped. I also had to stop using medical marijuana. The marijuana not only helped me with my pain it was also a nice distraction from all the crap going on, but now I can't even count on that to let me chill out.

To add insult to injury, my best friend of five years started dating a woman and although we didn't like each other very much, I still helped them out financially and helped them get an apartment. He started having seizures and no one knew why, and I paid for his medical bills for a month because that's the type of friend I am. His girlfriend got in his head and convinced him that I was the cause of the seizures. As a result, we got into a huge fight about it and all of a sudden I didn't have a best friend anymore.

I'm devastatingly lonely. I have a few other friends but I don't want to burden them with my problems so I find myself alone night after night. I was playing the popular augmented reality game for a while and I met some cool people, but just this past week one of the people I met groped me. I told him off and I'm glad I did but I have been blaming myself for it happening. I rationally know that it wasn't my fault, but I'm so angry that I was assaulted and there will never be any kind of justice for that happening to me.

It's the latest thing in a series of incidents that have made me question continuing to live. I just don't know what to do right now. It's feeling like I'm on a long, lonely slide into depression and despair. I don't know if I'll be able to get through this.



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177,649 Agree to the post below me 100%. When I talk to people I want to hear their thoughts on both candidates and give my opinion in a way that is not offensive but it always seems to piss people off.
I've never shared my political thoughts on here but many people have and some of them (on both sides) get a little insane.
SO I stopped talking about politics months ago.
37, f, liberal in the heart of a very conservative Texas



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177,648 People who support democrats and republicans but spout off with one-liners ripped from the internet or twitter are all stupid. I would love to talk to someone with an opposing view and have an intelligent conversation but that is impossible with these retards. I generally keep my political views to myself now simply to avoid having a conversation (confrontation?) with someone who is just less intelligent.
37/M/frustrated with stupidity



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177,647 Dear God, please help me understand. There are a few very bad people I know. Good things keep happening to them. These are people with corrupt minds. Before they had financial success, they treated people poorly. Even so, you bequeathed great riches on them. Why?



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177,646 I'm irrelevant. I've done nothing. I have no potential. I could vanish today and nothing in the world would change.



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177,645 Sometimes, i feel lonely and sad and disappointed by my love life. Nothing really that bad happens, but nothing exciting happens. Other people wouldn't think that about me--people think I'm attractive, sweet, smart--im sure there are things people don't tell me, like maybe I'm not so committal, i'm picky...etc. Anyway, times like this, I don't pay attention to my phone or social media . I open youtube and watch disney movie romantic songs and hope that maybe it'll happen to me, that maybe ill have a happily ever after. In life, it just seems like some of us are always working and trying to get it together and nothing is ever certain. well, sometimes its nice to look into these disney movies and pretend that maybe i have a true love. I'm 29. many of my friends are married with kids or getting there. Meanwhile, some older friends and single and have not met anyone they want. Disney, please send me a true love =(



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177,644 THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!
After being layed off and looking for gainful employment for nearly 7 months, applying for social assistance for my 3 children and I, being on the verge of financial ruin I was FINALLY EXTENDED AN OFFER OF EMPLOYMENT TODAY!!!!!!!

After I recieved the phone call with the offer I fell to my knees and cried
and cried. I knelt on the side of my bed and thanked God, the universe and everyone that prayed for me. It was because of your kindness and prayers that I got this job. I wish I could thank you personally. You could have kept reading and by pass me but you chose to write a note of encouragement and include me in your prayers.

Please know that you made a difference not only in my life but also the lives of three young children.

I won't forget you or the kindness you showed me. I will pay it forward.

THANK YOU.

A greatful Mom of three in Dallas, Texas



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177,643 A sports medicine chiropractor office opened up across the street. It's on the second floor. There's no elevator. All these patients with leg and back trouble have to climb a flight of stairs. This is the plan? Here's the secret: I think sports minded people are not very smart.



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177,642 They fuck up their own countries, then come her to tell us how to run ours?

Thanks for the advice, but no thanks.



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177,641 "The US Constitution does have some rights that are exclusive to citizens..."

You said it yourself.



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177,640 One of the first signs one will notice when you are in the mist of changing into a higher density human is a sudden distaste for meat of any kind.
Only upon starvation or threat of death could you get me to eat red meat or pork.
My reaction to chicken or fish not as intense but you won't find any in my fridge.
Now if I could only resist scrambled eggs.



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177,639 @632 - Don't want to get into a political dialogue here, but OH, how wrong you are!  The US Constitution does have some rights that are exclusive to citizens, but most of them by far are reserved for people in this country regardless of their citizenship status.  Meaning that the rights therein apply regardless of whether one is a citizen or not.  This is by both the text of the constitution and hundreds of years of legal decisions.  So maybe you should take that guys advise and read the Constitution.  You might just learn something.

M/40ish, and a sitting Judge right here in the old USA.



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177,638 Today I'm sick. I thought I'd take a nice bath to feel Better. Wound up spontaneously shitting myself while in the tub. Its a horrifying experience. So, in short, you might be having a bad day, BUT at least you didn't shit yourself in your own bath.



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177,637 the only thing i look forward to these day is going to bed.



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177,636 Watching all the convention coverage on both sides and hearing all of the comments in public I've come to a realization: You Americans scare the shit out of me. Wow.



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177,635 the people who I work with can honestly go fuck themselves



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177,634 Pssst: Khizr Khan is an American citizen.



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177,633 Yo, deli guy. When you make a ham, egg and cheese on a roll, you need to take the plastic wrapper off the cheese. Does this really need to be explained?



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177,632 I take offense at the Hillary camp putting a Muslim at the podium last night to lecture us about who to choose for President. I don't need a foreigner to tell me who to vote for. What an insane thing for Hillary to do. He was spouting wrong information too. He wants to give Trump a copy of the Constitution. How rude. He said all people have freedoms in this country and Trump needs to learn that. Wrong!  ALL US CITIZENS HAVE FREEDOMS. Not people who are here illegally. There we have it yet again, Hillary's people spreading wrong information. Hey, you want all people to have freedom? How about your wife dutifully standing by your side wearing traditional garments and not saying a word. What about her rights? You going to treat her as equally as a man? How about cleaning your own house before you start lecturing us.



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177,631 There is such outrage on both sides of the aisle. It's so intense. I'm not going to be surprised if one or the other candidate is assassinated. I'm not advocating for it to happen. I'm only pointing out that with such hatred out there, someone somewhere is going to try it in my opinion.



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177,630 I had a dream the other day where I saw myself laying in a coffin. I looked the same as I do now. I think I'm about to die.



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177,629 I think tradesmen, I'm talking carpenters, plumbers, electricians, they try to charge outrageous amounts for their services to see what sticks. It's a game to them. Catch the suburban housewife off guard. Charge $300 an hour to fix a simple loose wire. These tradesmen are scum. They are trailer trash robbers. They goofed off in high school and now they have a chip on their shoulder because most people are more successful. So they've turned to a life of essentially stealing from hard working people.



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177,628 I feel lonely and unloved, isolated and hurt. I want to ask someone for a hug, but there is no one to physically give me one. I want to ask friends far away for a virtual hug, but I can't - they are all busy and I don't want to be a burden. So here I sit, crying, wanting to feel cared about for a moment and knowing that I need to just suck it up because I have a whole hug-less  lifetime still to get through. I'm so mad at myself for wanting something that I cannot have.; when will I accept that this is just how it is and always will be?



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177,627 When I'm asked years from now what I did while the first woman gave her acceptance speech for a presidential candidacy, I'll say I was masturbating to internet porn. I should really be more excited about this history thingy yada yada.

40/F



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177,626 I don't like my 15 year old nephew. I think he's a rude, selfish annoying little shit who bullies his siblings. My sister thinks he's a good kid because he doesn't smoke or drink. Instead he sits on the xbox all day from the time he wakes up until he goes to sleep.

I'm considering a small withdrawal from my sister's life, even though I help her a lot with stuff, just so I don't have to deal with my nephew.



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177,625 no one understands what its like to have lyme disease. I dont play "woe is me", but I do wish for awareness for other people to have an easier time. sometimes when the symptoms flare up bad, it feels like I'm at a faraway place where no one can reach me. They think its all fake or that its "not that bad", etc. And yet if I told someone face to face this, they'd think I'm looking for attention. I just feel really alone and want to reach out to someone who understands.



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177,624 my mom brings out fear in me. maybe it was because i grew up and she was a bit insecure, maybe because she is scared of a lot of things. but we were talking about a certain opportunity and the way she reacted, brought all the fear up in my body. it is a bad feeling i don't like to experience. i like taking new opportunities and believe that something good will come of it. now i even feel my heart beating in my chest.

i don't want to be afraid like her, but of course it has an effect on me. i just think my mom is too afraid of failing, too afraid of forgetting that one copy, getting in trouble or not doing her job good enough. she built up a really great career, but it took a lot of happiness away from her.

i want to change things, my life will be different. my boyfriend takes away that fear, he teaches me to live in the moment and that it's oke to make mistakes. i just want to thank him for that. and mommy, i understand you had a tough life. but now it's all fine, no need to worry about silly things. and no need to worry about the big ones either, if there's nothing you can do about it. i think even her worrying about me noticing that she was worrying got to me even more. it's not good to be that insecure. we have a goodlooking fam, live in luxury, all finished universities, have good relationships, are protected by our country. all will be well, just please don't worry



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177,623 I really enjoy being treated like what I want doesn't matter...



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177,622 I'm a loving person, work hard, put my best foot forward, constantly help people, always a resource for friends, family, co-workers, you name it. I think some people think I'm living a decent life or something. My secret, I can't wait to fucking die. I fucking hate this place, hate the apathy, how vapid everyone is, how completely and utterly unfair this world is. The worst part, is that I have enough awareness to understand the impact my suicide would have on family, friends, etc. So I have to fucking wait this life out. I try very hard to be positive each and every day, to start each day anew. But inevitably the disparity and utter worthlessness of nearly everyone existence just knocks me back down. Can't wait until this stupid ride on the rollcoaster of life ends.



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177,621 Key to ZERO pc problems is equipment first.  Update.  Clean out.  If your using a 10 year old computer you will have 10 year old speed on the internet because well..
Maintenance, maintenance, maintenance.
Just like anything else if you don't take care of it; machines need love too.



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177,620 ... and my email provider is... a major major major part of the internet's backbone... so yep, the internet was better a decade ago when things worked much faster.



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177,619 It does not matter which computer you send the email from. It's not going to be any faster if you are trying to send and receive on the same computer. Your issue is also not related to general performance of the internet as a whole.  It is entirely the fault of your email provider.



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177,618 I can send an email to myself from my computer and it doesn't show up for a few hours.

I tell you, the internet was better a decade ago.



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177,617 " your life is the creation of your mind". Buddha.


I keep this on my bathroom mirror to remind me every day.  So glad for the path I'm on now.  No longer do I "need" toxic situations in my life. My new normal is filled with positive people, ideas and things to help my recovery.

I don't need to blame anyone for my life, it was always MY choosing, so now I choose better things.

No more of what I used to be .....



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177,616 A combination of combing the internet in what works for others in shifting direction has led me to conclude that staying happy no matter what is going on, finding Something to be grateful for each day works like magic.  If your sad and frustrated, that is exactly what your subconscious mind thinks you want. More of the same.

Started "acting as if" everything was going to work out was what helped move things along.

When you can trick your evil mind into believing something good then it will give some good in return.  Start small.
"My kids will be perfectly behaved today" - "I am going to get asked to dinner so I don't have to cook" - "I found the long lost ______ I've been looking for".

Baby steps usually lead to the universe stepping in and going "oh, oh, I got this".

Bottom line, try to stay happy.  If it was easy then the world wouldn't be in such a state.  Takes policing your mind like a drill sergeant.  

Abraham Hicks has helped me a lot to figure out how I was sabotaging myself.   Quit worrying about what "God" thinks becuz it is all you, you, you making the gears turn.



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177,615 My wife needed to remind me to do something today, so she grabbed my phone and quickly sent my phone a text to itself.

Thank god I deleted the texts to the escorts from the other night.  They weren't serious texts.  Sometimes I just like to send girls from Backpage texts to see what kind of conversation I can get into.  I never, ever follow up.  But I do t think my wife would have understood it that way.



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177,614 Part 2 from below-

What else doesn't work - bargaining with God.  Telling God you'll improve yourself morally if He helps you get out of a bind doesn't work, either.  So you may as well keep fucking that guy behind your husband's back, or watching porn, or treating people like shit, because it just doesn't matter to God if you do that.  And don't feel guilty about doing that stuff, either, because He obviously doesn't consider fucking and heating off and treating people like shit to be a factor in His decisions.  It's not like fucking your neighbor is stopping you from being unemployed.

Again, I feel horrible saying this stuff as a lifelong practicing Catholic, but what am I supposed to think after dealing with this job crap for 72 months while we lose all our money and our future to debt?  I have 20 years in my field and multiple advanced degrees, so it's not like I've been smoking crack and fucking off.  The only logical conclusion is that praying to the Virgin Mary doesn't work, and reforming yourself doesn't work, so you may as well save your time and not pray, and just keep doing the awful stuff you're doing, because God doesn't care.

I hope I just saved you all a bunch of guilt and a lot of time.



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177,613 I prayed to the Virgin Mary for three years to help me in my job situation.  I went from one bad job to another over the last six years.  In those 72 months, I had 26 good months of employment.  I've been unemployed 13 months, and 31 months under ridiculously bad bosses, bosses who would scream and insult me personally.  Meanwhile, I've fallen into debt while having a family to support.  I hate to say it as a practicing Catholic, but the truth is, praying to the Virgin Mary is not effective.  It just doesn't work.  There.  I said it.  It's hard as hell to say something that goes against everything you've learned since you were a boy, but the truth is, after three years of praying the rosary constantly, it's just clear that praying to the Virgin Mary for help doesn't work.



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177,612 I love to surf all the incest porn sites for pictures, videos and stories of young men having sex with their mothers. I know the pictures and videos are all fake, but they remind me of all the times my mother and I had sex before she passed away.  Mom was a young man's dream - beautiful features, killer body and CONSTANTLY horny! We fully planned to have kids, but after her second mis-carriage, it became clear that I would be her only child..  R.i.p., Mom - I love you and I miss you SO much, but I know that one day we'll be together again, and we'll make sweet love for the rest of eternity



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177,611 Unless you jizz Sriracha, I will never swallow.



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177,610 There are I words to express how deeply moved I am that total strangers took the time and cared enough to pray for me in my quest to find gainful employment. Because of your prayers I have three interviews lined up. Two tommorrow and one next week. Continue praying for me as my plight isn't over just yet.

"Thank you" just doesn't seem enough for your thoughtfulness.

You and your families are also included in my prayers.

From the bottom of my heart and soul THANK YOU. You gesture and kindness mean more to me than you will ever know. I will pay it forward.

Mom of three
Dallas, tx



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177,609 One of Hillary Clinton's delegates is a convicted felon. He can't vote in an election, but he can vote for Hillary as the Democratic candidate for President.

Why would Hillary allow one of a her delegates to be a felon? Isn't that a bit sketchy? Couldn't she appoint someone who didn't have a criminal record? Didn't it bother her that he broke the law? No? What does that tell us?



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177,608 My wife often gets angry at me during sex. Out of the blue, she'll start complaining about whatever while we're in the middle of doing it. I'll be thrusting into her and suddenly she'll go on a rant that I don't take her to enough restaurants. Like holey moley, who complains during sex? Can't you be quiet for half an hour? No, she has to spoil everything.



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177,607 I officially stopped caring about the Olympics when they dropped Wrestling.  Yeah, we need more dressage and Ultimate Golf but the oldest sport, nah.

I hope Rio sucks.  Never should have gone to them but P.C. wins.



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177,606 Thanks for the time together today L, I really like talking to you !  I know neither of us is ready for a relationship, but I could certainly see myself with you in the future if that actually worked out. No pressure or expectations, just living in the present!



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177,605 Crap all over someone's life for years and years, fine. But when you do it, and the person you're doing it to says that they don't mind, don't confuse that with happiness and fulfillment. You're still crapping all over that person.



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177,604 I predict Hillary will win the election and by the end of her presidency, her net worth will be over one billion dollars.



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177,603 Dear guys,

When you're making out with someone, and your penis rushes with blood, I know it's probably a primal reaction to take your partner's hand and lead it southward. Please don't. (Don't act like you don't because you totes do.) Stop. If that person wants to go there, believe me, they will.

Thanks



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177,602 I'm one of those undecided voters. I thought that I might wind up voting for Trump but the whole buddy-buddy shit with Russia was the last straw for me. I would never, EVER vote for Bernie, but I think that I'm going to cast my vote for Hillary because I don't want to live in Amerikaburg.



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177,601 I was destroyed by a womanizing sociopath.

What next...?



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177,600 I'm actually rather lonely. This isn't a thing that can be conveyed to anyone at present. My date I think of often, yet I know I'm not at all ready for a relationship. More than that its simply her company and the ability to converse I dearly miss. God, to have a woman to hold and let go with...what a fantastic fantasy indeed. Unfortunately my walls are up, or so it feels. Damaged goods, wrecked, haunted by my recent departure from a long-time relationship. Call it what you want. I want of life to fall in love again. What will arise from the ashes, a phoenix or a dragon?

Sincerely,

The worlds most updateable man.



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