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177,799 The terrorists? Ffs, we are all terrorists -it's only a matter of perspective.
Stop being a hypocrite. Rational thinking is all we have in this life.

- Well educated european who has lost family to a a bombing.



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177,798 The other night, I took my kids and their cousins to a rap concert.  They're old enough to go to concerts by themselves, but not a rap concert.  I've been to too many myself, and I wanted to make sure they were safe.  There were four acts performing - first, two black rappers, and then two white ones.  The latter are the ones the kids wanted to see.

These white rappers were very cool.  They spoke to the audience, talking about love and peace.  One of them said to look at the person to your left, and then at the person to your right.  And then he said, "For the rest of the night, these people are your friends.  Everyone treat each other with kindness respect, and have fun."

But the first guy - I couldn't believe what I was seeing and hearing.  A huge display came up on the screen: FUCK DONALD TRUMP.  The guy went off on a political rant, and the crowd ate it up.  And then....he began chanting.  "FUCK THE POLICE!  FUCK THE POLICE!"  And the crowd joined in, middle fingers raised.  Not my group of kids, though.  We are a police family, and God, that hurt, them having to hear that.  Note, pretty much all of the kids at this concert were skinny white kids.

I'm all for expressing yourself through your music, and I don't have a problem with explicit lyrics - God knows, I myself listened to Tupac, Biggie, Cypress Hill and Eminem when I was younger - but pushing your political agenda on impressionable young kids is morally reprehensible.

As we left the venue, there was a sea of parents out front picking their kids up.  I'm betting these parents have no idea what went on in there, and I highly doubt their kids are going to tell them.  I just hope that these parents are responsible enough to talk to their kids about what's going wrong in this world.  Apparently they DON'T talk to them about drinking and drugs, though.  I couldn't believe how many very young teens were lighting up, and not only drinking, but getting so shitfaced that they had to be carried out.  That's the ones who didn't completely pass out right there on the ground - including a boy of about 15.

Keep a close eye on your kids, parents.  Monitor their social media, their friends, what they're listening to and the messages these artists are conveying.  And make sure you TALK to your kids.  Communication is key.  I'm so disturbed by what I saw the other night.



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177,797 I feel sorry for children who are raised by idiots, while I might not be the perfect parent  and there is no such thing as one . I try my best to give my kid a loving and nurturing home . I'm sorry but if you are a grown adult (36) and still do hard core drugs, verbally and physical abuse your partner in from of your kids that makes you unfit to be a parent . Those kids deserved so much better than being raised a piece of crap .



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177,796 I'm not sure what to make of this.  I am at my new job less than 3 months now and I just want it to go well. A few weeks ago, I get a FB and LinkedIn request from some girl I do not know. She is the girlfriend of one of the guys I work with, I know this from her profile picture. (I am female, btw). Why the fuck is my co-workers girlfriend trying to contact me? I rejected both requests. Now he is acting really weird towards me and I didn't even fucking do anything.



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177,795 When I was 32, I visited my friends' daughters at their college.  We're all really close.  The consider me their older brother.  We all got shitfaced drunk.  I was in this weird stage where I'd get so drunk, I'd end up pissing myself in my sleep.  It lasted about 6 months.  Get drunk, pass out, piss myself.  Well, I passed out on their couch and pissed all over it.  When I woke up, I was like holy shit, I can't let everybody know I did this!!  I could hear people starting to wake up, so I had to think fast.  I flipped the cushion on the couch.  Problem solved.  I wonder if they ever found out why their house smelled like piss?



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177,794 Right now I'm at work, and I'm controlling a vibrator via the internet which is currently inside my girlfriend's pussy while she's driving home from work. It was her idea to buy the thing, and I didn't hesitate in ordering it right away. She is smart and funny and awesome and has her shit together and she's also hot as hell and she isn't scared of crazy sex stuff. I love my girlfriend!



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177,793 I have a boyfriend if the years. He's wonderful. I cheated on him last year with a married man. The married man ended up not being who he said he was. What a shocker. He all but ruined my whole life. My boyfriend made the tough decision to stay with me. He saw the good in me. I was so lucky. Things are getting better, I'm becoming myself again. I get on this site a lot. After the affair it took a while for me to believe in relationships again. I read all the posts on here from married people and it makes it hard for me to continue to have hope.i really hope my boyfriend and I don't become one of these married couples. Wives who's husband don't listen, husband's  who don't get laid enough. I'm trying to have faith but man, us it possible to be happily married forever? The married man was married for twenty years. He could never voice a good excuse for why he wasn't happy in his marriage. I'm just unsure if you can be happy with one person forever.

Female, mid twenties



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177,792 I pretend to be happy in this marriage but I'm not. I don't like his personality. He's smart and successful, but immature and rude. I can't believe I let him touch me. I hate having his semen in me. But we live in a big house and have all the right friends. For this reason and this reason alone I tolerate his penis inside me.



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177,791 i use the express line at the supermarket while pretending not to notice i have more than 10 items.



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177,790 I'm wondering if the terrorists will try something in Rio. With all these reports coming out about how poorly the Rio games have been implemented, there probably was very little effort put into security. To be clear, I hope there isn't an incident. But I think it's a perfect opportunity for something bad to happen.



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177,789 I have no friends. None. I try to make friends sometimes, but men, eh, men don't take to overtures from other guys to be friends. At least I'm honest about it.

I'm married. My wife has no friends either. She's not honest about it though. She lists the names of all her friends.

* There is K. My wife says K is her best friend. My wife hasn't see K in 4 years. K only lives 10 miles away. Gee, what a great friend.

* There is M. M is a masseuse. My wife would pay M $100 a week for a massage. I told my wife she needs to stop wasting that kind of money. Once my wife stopped paying M, we wife never heard from M again. Friend? I don't think so.

* There are a few more. But so superficial. My wife counts her dentist's receptionist as a friend because the woman is nice. There is also a cashier at the supermarket my wife thinks is her friend. But come on. My wife doesn't even know their names.

You'd think my wife and I would be friends. But we are not. She's so angry all the time. I don't trust her as a friend. She's always turning on me.

Out of some primordial necessity, she has me lick her clit to orgasm once every few weeks. In return she sucks my cock. Other than that we are two friendless lonely people who just happen to sleep side by side.



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177,788 People give away so much of their own personal power when they are duped into thinking that a certain political candidate is going to change their lives.
Spending less time thinking about what others are doing has significantly changed my life in a myriad of positive ways.
It's the medias fault as they constantly focus on the shit show instead of what good is actually being done in the world.  



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177,787 The divide in this country bothers the Hell out of me too.  I grew up in a time and place where there was a lot of effort to pull sexism and racism out of myself and fellow students.

Something has just gone wrong through the way though.  Feminism wasn't supposed to be about hating men.  Removing racism wasn't supposed to be about hating white people.  The purposes of these groups were to advocate for women and people of color because they are disadvantaged and face both personal and systematic discrimination.

I suppose some people think that advocacy for one group means that the other group must be suppressed.  But that isn't the way it's supposed to be.  We all need to rise together and improve together.

Someone had argued with me that feminism was bad and out of date, mostly because they saw all of the tumblr problems.  It was bizarre to me.  When I was in the feminist group in college, we didn't waste time ranting on forums.  We were putting together programs to help the community.  We worked with the LGBT group to have an HIV testing drive for students.  We discussed rape and domestic violence that happens to both men and women.  This was around 2007, and I guess ten years is a long time.  It seems like people have become more you vs. me.  Including myself.  I am a lesbian and if someone is vehemently anti-gay, then I can't help but see them as an enemy.  But someone who is Christian and says that although they believe being gay is a sin, it is wrong to implement church law into US law, they are not an enemy.  Because they are not standing in my way.



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177,786 some people are planning their retirement.....I'm planning my death. Everything in my house will look untouched, no note no nothing, I will wear a camouflage suit and take myself out in the back country. To friends and family I'll just be missing, then forgotten.
I lived most of my 60 years alone, not because I ever wanted to be a loner, its just the way life panned out. Seeing all the couples and people with normal lives was always painful to watch as an outsider....but I'm at peace with it now, I'm going to enjoy life best I can until the money runs out, then boom lol......



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177,785 The Dems will twist and malign to the point where they get Hillary elected.

AND THEN WHAT? She's corrupt. You think she's gonna stop because she's President? NOOOO. She'll be even more corrupt.

Do you think she'll only be corrupt towards Republicans? No, she'll be corrupt towards everyone. You included. She'll take your money. She's make everything in her favor. When she lies to the public, she'll be lying to you too.

Dems are only thinking as far as the election. They stop short of thinking out what will happen the day after the election.



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177,784 Sometimes I'll masturbate with a condom on because it changes things up a little. I get a new set of fantasies going about a woman putting the condom on for me and how she is scared I'll get her pregnant. Makes it different.



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177,783 My husband's shirt doubles as his napkin.



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177,782 So bothersome how much Democrats lie about Trump. It started with the Mexican immigrants. He said some come here and murder US citizens and we need to stop it from happening.

In comes the Democrat lying machine which claims Trump said to deport all Mexicans. It never happened that way. But the truth didn't matter.

Then take yesterday. The media was abuzz because Trump threw a crying baby out of the room when he was giving a speech. More lies. If you watch the video, Trump is brilliantly funny about the crying baby. He was joking with the mother multiple times about it. But when you read the media headlines, you would swear Trump must have thrown the baby out the 10th floor window.

Don't you get it. Hillary's and Bill's entire political life was based on lies.  "I did not have sex with that woman."

And now they are doing it again by making stuff up about their opponent. Don't fall for that crap.



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177,781 I hate the suburbs. It was a failed experiment to move here. I can't wait to get back to the city where intelligent people live.



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177,780 Some bitch is whining how she almost got hit by an oncoming car as she was pulling out of her driveway. She said if she didn't slam on her brakes, the oncoming car would have smashed into her own.

Everyone gave her sympathy.

What dopes. She was pulling out of her driveway onto a busy road. She has 100% responsibility to make sure She will not hit any other cars. She has to make sure the road is clear before she pulls out.

How about sympathy for the other driver who was completely in the right!



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177,779 The residual scent of toothpaste on her toothbrush mask the smell of the smegma I rub onto it.



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177,778 I have completely fucked up my life



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177,777 I'm being forced to get married... my parents are insane.



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177,776 I'm old and will die soon. I can't believe my life is over. One short ride on this blue marble of a carnival ride and that's it. I'll never exist again for all of eternity. I'm completely depressed on this topic.



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177,775 Sometimes, the same people who are candy to our eyes can be poison to our hearts.
Study their ingredients before feeding them to your soul.



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177,774 When I'm bored shopping I imagine what my fellow shoppers look like while masterbating.



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177,773 I have a friend who is a sub, she is constantly trying to find her next Dom.  She allows strange men to tie her up naked and do what they want to her the same day she meets them.  It's funny but she always wonders why most never call her back and the few who do only want to use her again.
Weird way to search for the man of your dreams but to each their own



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177,772 I thought you said that you were going to pay me back.  Yeah, right....



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177,771 Z, you did so many things wrong but so did I. Nobody is perfect. If only we could see past what happened.



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177,770 I'm taking a few courses during the summer so I can finish my degree a little quicker. My literature class is amazing, but my sociology class is absolutely horrid. I thought it would be interesting, as it deals with migration, but the people in the class seem to be waging a constant war against white people. Someone actually mentioned the "evil white devils" in class today!

I took this class to learn interesting things and connect with my peers, not to be hated for my heritage (I'm half white). I get that people are mad about racism, and understandably so, but hating a certain group of people just for their skin color is JUST as racist, no? Well apparently not, because according to my classmates, white people are everything that is wrong with the world today.

The attitude of these kinds of people indicates why this country is so divided right now. They're carrying on the very "us versus them" narrative that they claim to have been fighting for so long. Demonizing "others" (no matter what their race/ethnicity is) will never unite us, because all it does is perpetuate anger on all sides without any meaningful solutions. I don't have all of the solutions, but I know that playing into racist tropes isn't the way to end racism or make the situation better for anyone in the long run. Sadly, you can't reason with people who are so damn racist and hateful themselves.

I am so relieved that I only have two more weeks of dealing with my nasty classmates. Anything more than that would be absolutely unbearable.



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177,769 Hillary is going to win, its in the numbers.....another 4 to 8 years of democratic rule, and further erosion of the middle class. The sobering reality of her win will be the most horrible feeling since dubya's winning his second term....we are fucked!



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177,768 It's obvious that your whole family are trying to pull a scam , well I have news for you it won't work . He is already aware of what kind of people you are . Good luck trying to any kind of financial gain from us . Go try to pull your a little game somewhere else it's not wise to try to mess with person who's father is a lawyer and it's very good friends with very powerful people around town that includes judges.  If I were you I would never come close to this family .



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177,767 I'm done with women and done with the rat race.....today i rolled out of bed, went swimming for an hour, then played golf all afternoon.....the real highs in life.



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177,766 Gotta get the vodky down because tomorrow's just another day negotiating against the doldrums of the machine...

Yeah, "management", I FUCKING DRINK.  So what?  We have an entire unit in the toilet over their behavior and reputation.

I produce, fuckers.

Call me on it.  Put me out on eight weeks to get clean?  Cause I'm valuable?

Dare you.



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177,765 I really didn't know one person could cut me so deep over and over again.



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177,764 I wish nothing but the best for you.



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177,763 I don't know much of anything anymore.



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177,762 I don't know if you are married or not. In love or not. Happy or not. That's your business. Nobody cares, because you don't care. You don't care about anyone besides numero uno, in spite of husband uno dos and tres. You use people. That is your legacy.



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177,761 My secret is, if my current line of work runs out, I could always become a hit man.  I have the stuff and the wherewithal to do it and some of my closest people have mentioned it as if it's like playing golf.



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177,760 Stay in a relationship long enough with a woman these days, and it will degenerate into her jumping at EVERY chance to tell you every thing you do wrong. there's an invisible scoresheet and believe me, she's keeping score. why does she win when you screw up (or when she tells you you screwed up, whether you did or not)

this is the only sadness i have in having a daughter.

M / 50ish



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177,759 I hate him and I feel guilty for it. He's a terrible person who is constantly berating and yelling at the ones who support him and love him. He's aggressive, rude and selfish and believes that he's the only one who can get away with it because he has cancer. I do feel bad for all the things he has gone through but I don't like him. He feels as if he could yell and insult anybody he wants, he's only positive if it's for his own personal gain. He'll never go out of his way to help someone but demands everything in return. I feel so guilty for feeling the way I do, I wish I could just overlook the times he attacks me when all I've done is try to help but I'm human.  I feel like if he was any type of decent human being he wouldn't feel the need to be so nasty and insult everyone around him with no trigger. No one is safe and everyone is wrong. What's the point of supporting someone who is so negative and nasty all the time and always has been? Because he's family. But I still don't like him.



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177,758 I think terrorism in the good ole us of a is the last thing people should be worried about in this country.
I think America is already great.
None of us are sitting in our homes right now worried about the 10 mile walk to fetch a pail of water or wondering  when the bombs are going to start falling today.
I despise fear based politics.
Ok Im done.



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177,757 Everyone online is insane, Trump, Clinton...good GOD. I'm no conspiracy theorist, but we all (or most of us) know that the world banks run sh*t. Money talks and BS walks. Honestly, I don't care cause it has nothing to do with the gravitational pull of the earth. But the fact that ONE family could end hunger ENTIRELY kind of makes me want to puke.



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177,756 I feel so alone sometimes, I want so badly to be in a loving supportive relationship. But when I see all the drama and divorce and BS around, I realize, I should be happy and careful of what I wish for. I have friends and people that care. it'll come. I hope

48M



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177,755 42-- i feel the same way. i feel like you are reading my mind. I don't know how people do it. I certainly can't. I get all dressed up for work and do my hair/makeup. I try to eat healthy everyday. I try to take 2 walks a day. I try to keep my house clean. I try to keep my relationships happy. Meanwhile evyerhting is happening around me! Getting notifications about the news. Being constantly bombarded about everythign.

But SHIT I am tired. I feel like I spend 90% of my life overwhelmed.



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177,754 I find hysterical when a low life felon , drug addict loser talks bad about my husband. You can call him whatever you want but he has acomplished more than you will ever do . Just look how shitty your life is a long criminal record ,disfunctional family , drug addict etc... You wish you were a fraction of what my husband is .



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177,753 God I wish my gf enjoyed receiving oral sex. Sometimes it makes me so frustrated.



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177,752 7 billion plus people on the planet while we are undergoing a mass extinction event because of our very numbers. We are a cancer on this planet multiplying like a deadly malignancy. I wish people have to win the lottery to have a baby, the rest, aborted.



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177,751 I strongly believe that young children should have a very limited amount of screen time. But I let my 3 year old play with my phone and watch tv for a few hours a day so I can stay sane and get things done. I'm a hypocrite.



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177,750 My wife is so quick to decree how wrong I am about everything. It gets very tiresome. I tell her I'm going to mow the lawn now because it might rain later. She jumps down my throat announcing that I'm wrong and that with 100% certainty it won't rain later. Guess what - it rained later - just like the weatherman said.

But this is what she does. Whatever I say, she has to tell me I'm wrong. I tell her I like chocolate chip icecream, she tells me I'm wrong. How can I be wrong about liking ice cream? Isn't that my right? I tell her I miss living in Florida. She tells me I'm wrong. What, I don't miss living there?

It's just everything. All of my thoughts are wrong and she always knows what's right.



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177,749 I'm really do have a compassionate side, E.....I could be a good friend to you still.



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177,748 Getting sober is one the best gifts I could have ever given myself. It's hard to change decades old habits, but the improvements are obvious within just a few months.  

Yes, I'll always want to get obliterated , but now I know I don't need that shit in my life, body or head.  

Help is everywhere.



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177,747 Today's one of the days where it's so bad I don't want to eat anything, even though my head hurts and would probably feel better if I ate. I don't want to do anything, and when that happens it scares me because dying seems like the only immediate option. But that's stupid, because it's not a solution to anything. I once heard the phrase, "Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain, it merely transfers it to someone else." I don't want to do that. I bring too much happiness to others and I wouldn't want to taint those memories.

But God FUCK ME I wish I could live like a normal person and not need substances to fill every moment of my free time. Even when I don't want them, I feel like they're necessary, and it's gotten back to the point where I hardly want to do anything sober. I get genuinely surprised when I have a good time without alcohol.

Fuck and I'm so overwhelmed even though I'm not trying my hardest at work...how is that even possible?

I hate when I don't want anything. I don't want religion. I don't want a boy to come make it better (he couldn't anyway). I don't want food or water or to go home. I have no space at home. I don't want anything and yet I need something! Something to help. What do I fucking do?



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177,746 The only days I don't drink are the days when I don't have alcohol, have weed to smoke instead, or when I'm hungover. Every other day is like Friday. Or a tasteless, sad Tuesday.

I really need help.



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177,745 I just talked my very attractive cleaning woman into cleaning nude...she wanted a raise and I want to see her naked, win win



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177,744 The smartest people I know never call themselves smart, whereas the dumbest people I know call themselves smart all the time.



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177,743 At this point in my life, I am seeking the company of only the more highly evolved of our species. I no longer feel that just because a person is attractive that I want to be with them. Even intelligence, the other great turn on for me is now trumped by that need to seek the companionship of more mindful,spiritual types.

I used to stay in relationships that had long expired because I was afraid of being alone, when being alone is exactly what I needed. I am now on a journey that is taking me somewhere I've never been before and I am exhilarated and frightened at the same time.

This journey isn't about getting more "stuff" or getting a better retirement portfolio, though there is nothing wrong with that, it is about shedding my ego, my fears and the social constructs and conditioning from my previous "life".

Illusions, be gone! As well as the suffering brought about by my own lack of understanding. Let me now be a vessel of light and love and be teachable.



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177,742 I've always been too embarrassed to ask but: how do people do it? How do they stay on top of everything in their lives? I tell myself they must be letting SOMETHING go by the wayside but sometimes I'm not so sure. I get up at 5ᛆam and work 9-10 hour days. I try and eat well and drink plenty of water. By the time I'm home I'm exhausted. How do people put in a full workout??! I'm on my feet all day and the idea of doing more is almost unthinkable. (Lucky for me I'm naturally slim because goddamn). Then there's housework, friends, family, sex life, hobbies, etc etc. Not to mention the media is constantly blaring shit at you to worry about. What foods to eat, what to wear, who to vote for, etc etc. Guys I'm fuckin' TIRED. How do people do it? I always feel like I'm failing in some way. Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband who makes me feel like the best thing since sliced bread. I sure as fuck need it. :



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177,741 The problem is that abortions are  used when a party girl forgets to use contraceptives.Life is a bitch ,we all pay for our mistakes. By killing a part of herself , it does great harm to any human's soul. How can anybody justify this? It is very very karma. Women have spoken about the torment they endure for the rest of their living days. Thinking of that little baby whenever they open their eyes in the morning.How old it would have been etc etc etc.This has got nothing to do with politics- it is all about being a decent human being.



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"When that baby is dead the moment it's put into my hands.  That's right.  I'd grab it by its ankle and bash its head into a wall until all its brains and blood sputtered out."

Wow- this is written by a woman who is supposed to be a nurturing creature? Frightening that self interest can get this bad. It is a sad day for women when they can kill their own child so easy.Animals are kinder to their off spring. This is what is happening in America today? Is this how Democratic women think? Frightening to think the kids are being born to women like this -perhaps is is better that they are not.......



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177,739 6ᛜ am
I have to be at work at 7ᛆ am. I live roughly 30 mins away.
I am still sitting in my pjs on the couch.



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177,738 My life is all about me.  Because it's my life.  The one who is truly selfish is the one who thinks they have any say about my life.

It is absolutely my own choice what I do with it, and absolutely my choice if I decide to give it up for someone else.  Not yours.  I decide what is worthy enough for sacrifice, not you.  If you think you're the one who decides whether I sacrifice or not, then you are the selfish one.



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177,737 I have absolutely murderous frustrations with the world.

Everyone can agree that something is wrong.  Nobody can agree on what it is or how to fix it.



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177,736 I am at the logical point of believing girls have a physical potential for pleasurable sex but the emotional and rational part of my brain keeps saying it's an illusion.  

When the guy wants sex then the best she can be is a willing victim.


I don't understand why a girl wants sex when the guy always gets the most pleasure. Do girls realize that guys take physical advantage of their vagina for thier own selfish pleasure?

Sex is not a selfless act. He wants to orgasm from your vagina and that's the only thing motivating him. You just happened to be willing and available for some unknown reason.



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177,735 I will always try to be accountable for all my actions



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177,734 Abortions

The first one I had because I was in a the beginning of a divorce. We had been married for 10 years and I found out he got another woman pregnant while we were basically trying to get pregnant again ourselves. I knew if I told him we would stay married. I didn't want to be with someone just because I was pregnant and I didn't think I had the strength not to be with him. I already had two kids and I was struggling as a newly single parent.

The second time I had abortion I was raped at a birthday party. It wasn't a crazy party or anything like that. It happened when I was 34. it was my best friends party and was held at my house because I had a big yard.  It was really late after the party and everyone but my best friend and her boyfriend had gone home. I was putting stuff up in the garage when he came out and came on to me. He was really drunk, not that it's an excuse. I told him no and he tried to kiss me even though I was pushing him off. I struggled but he was too strong for me. I cried out but no one heard me and he covered my mouth and nose so tight it was hard to breathe. That's the thing I remember most because I thought I would die from lack of oxygen. He pressed so hard it left bruises on my face. I got scrapes all up and down my back from the concrete floor but didn't even feel it at the time.
I just laid there after and he went inside.
I told the police but they made it sound like I was drunk and that even if I wasn't his lawyer could argue it. I only drank 3 beers and it had been hours ago. I didn't even end up going to the hospital or anything. Didn't press charges because I didn't want to go through the court hassle. My friend stopped talking to me. I didn't even think about being pregnant but I got pregnant. Had an abortion as soon as I had the money for it.


But as far as I'm concerned any reason is a good reason. It's no one's business unless you want to tell someone. It's no ones choice but yours as you are the one having the baby. There are a thousand reasons. There's always going to be someone who thinks its not good enough.

It's always a good reason because the reason is you are not ready for a baby and there are millions of unwanted children who have shit lives.



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177,733 You hear what I say but you never listen



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177,732 My wife was the epitome of the pro-choice feminist.  Through her 20s she would march in protests and even went to the army school in South Carolina where it was claimed that they were teaching soldiers how to torture.  Very anti-Republican, as expected.  Kind of crazy that we got married.

But yeah, she was seriously pro-choice.

Until shortly after she got pregnant for the first time.

Then she realized what abortion really was.  She realized abortion was murdering a child so a person could continue their lifestyle.  It was very upsetting for her to come to understand that.  She would tearfully ask how a person could ever harm something so innocent, and for such selfish reasons.  She became more pro-life after our son was born.  

I never rubbed it in to her.  The realization of what she had been supporting was too traumatic for her.  I told her that there are no few good people in the abortion debate.  Case in point, the Republicans stopped complaining about abortion when they realized it was cheaper than welfare.



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177,731 I keep thinking about signing up for a match-making service, but what's the point? ... they're not going to find anyone for me - NO-ONE has.  

Well, same old routine, then - birth, school, work, death.  I've had enough of work so death better come soon...



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177,730 #720   Get out,



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177,729 What I've learned is that pro-choice people are selfish. Life is all about them. Oh they will make excuses, which tells me they know they are in the wrong.



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177,728 Heartbroken...



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177,727 Liberal Democrat here and I actually want Trump to win.  I think it will be the only way to wean the stupid voters who believe every sound bite they hear.



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177,726 10 years ago my wife and I had to decide between her life and the 20 week fetus she was carrying, it was the easiest choice we have ever made. My two young sons grew up with a mother and we had three other great children after.  I will always vote pro choice, after all we had a choice, so should everyone else.  No one should ever have a say in someone's else medical decisions. No one.

I'm actually a Catholic and a Republican



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177,725 If I have to choose between my body and a fetus's body, that fetus is dead.

If I have to choose between my life and your life, I'm probably going to let you die.

If you had to choose between my life and your life, you're probably going to let me die.

If I had to choose between your life and someone else's life, you're going to hope that I choose yours.

If you had to choose between my life and someone else's life, I'm going to hope that you choose mine.

If you have no skin in the game, you should probably just butt out.  You're not the hero you think you are.  You are an enemy because you are okay with letting me suffer so long as you get to think of yourself as a hero.  Since you are an enemy, I will fight to prevent my own suffering and help those who suffer with me.

If you win and force me to suffer, then I will violently resist.



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177,724 My son's coach renamed the team. They had been named after an  animal. Typical for a baseball team to be named after an animal. But the coach changed the team's name to his own. They are now called "The Roberts". Like huh? He named the team after himself? Isn't that a little self centered? Isn't the team supposed to be about the boys, not the coach? What about that adage, there is no I in team? Seems like this team is all about one person, the coach. Why do parents do this? Why do they interfere with kids sports? Very strange!



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177,723 I had a massage and it reminded me of that night when we decided to get a massage together instead of the planned study session at the coffee shop.

I remember staying inside a cubicle with two beds for you and I, separated by a huge curtain. We had to take our clothes off and put on the flimsy ones they provided for us to wear during the massage.

I could feel the tension rising as I undressed, fully aware that you were doing the same thing just behind the curtain.

When the massage was done, we were given time to change back into our clothes and one of us pulled back the curtain, revealing to each other ourselves, in nothing else but our underwear.

You smiled at me - your eyes bright - as you grabbed a hold of my hands and pulled me closer to you. I pulled away from you, although I didn't really want to. But we were dancing so dangerously close to the line - I was a taken woman, and everyone who knew me and knew us both knew that, and so did you.

But that didn't stop you, did it?

.....I guess all I really want to tell you is that I miss you so much. Please come back to me.



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177,722 I'm a pro-lifer and I'm not trying to control any woman's body. I'm trying to control what happens to the unborn baby. I'm trying to stop the child from being murdered because some selfish woman doesn't want to get stretch marks.

Think about it. A woman's stretch marks are more important than killing a baby? Really?

And to the woman posting below, you'd bash a baby's head in, and somehow this would be my fault? Please seek mental help.



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177,721 I can't stand pro-lifers who think they can decide what I can and can't do with my body.  I got my tubes tied years ago and I paid out of pocket for that surgery.  I took the precautions to make sure I couldn't get pregnant.  Not everyone is as lucky as I am.  I've never had kids, never had an abortion.

These pro-lifers have never thought about their own bodies and what would happen if they got pregnant (especially men don't think about this, they don't have to worry about that part).  They're not the ones who have to deal with their bodies bloating up, their boobs leaking milk, the strechmarks, the excruciatingly painful birthing procedure where they have to shove this shitting, screaming leech out of their crotches that will never recover again.  They aren't the ones who have to visit doctors and pay medical bills.  Of course they want to save the fetus, they don't have to worry about these things.  They aren't the ones risking their bodies and minds and wallets.  They don't have to deal with post-partum depression or psychosis.

They don't think about their personal risks.

I'm fixed, but this mentality still enrages me.  If I ever did get pregnant and I couldn't get an abortion because of these fucks, then that baby is dead the moment it's put into my hands.  That's right.  I'd grab it by its ankle and bash its head into a wall until all its brains and blood sputtered out.  That's how deep my rage would go if I had ever been forced through a pregnancy.  Especially if the baby was a product of rape.  Bash, bash, bash.

It would be the fault of pro-lifers who don't think about the risks they think others should take.



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177,720 I love my wife, but I'm pretty sure she hates me.  Nothing ever gets done I the house, she doesn't look after me or the kids, and we haven't had sex in three years - and frankly I gave up because honestly- how much rejection can one person take ?  I try to be a good husband, father and provider, but feel like I'm not only dragging the four of them along, they are actively working against me and in some cases TRYING to make life more difficult than it needs to be.  At this point, I can see us going our separate ways - "no hard feelings".  Maybe we'd both be happier somewhere else, as it is - we are just killing time.



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177,719 I used to think it was silly how stric my school was. I learned to march yes like they do in the military since age six , it was mandatory in my school . We also have ethics , morals and manners class . My uniform was expect it to be clean , wrinkle free at all times , my shoes were always dress shoes and have to be polish and shiny looking that only time we were allow to wear tennis shoes was on gym day which was only once a week .  I wore gloves to school my hair was always pull back on a pony tail no make up or nail polish was allow . We weren't even allow to used slang language or chew gum and then I move to the good USA and enter public school for the first time I was horrified by how the students talk to their teachers and the behaviors that these kids get away it . It's such a shame that a country that spends a lot money per student it's not doing enough to teach these children discipline and I understand that parents should be responsible for their children but whether we like it or not kids do spend a lot of time in school and influence their life . Instead of protesting over stupid staff parents should outrage with the staff the goes on in their schools , these children deserve better they are the future of these country for better or worse.



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177,718 I find it very insulting that you'd brag about how you're not into "that love shit," as if there wasn't someone worth loving right next to you. I know myself, and I'm worth more than that. I deserve someone who'll love me out loud, instead of someone who'll just be proud to be seen with me because I have a fat ass and a pretty face. You've been through a lot and I understand that. You have to take care of your mother and brother, and love is a distraction, and I understand that. But don't you dare brag about not wanting to love anyone to me, the person who wants to love you so badly.

Once again, you've reminded me why I shouldn't. I want to be the bigger person and heal your beaten heart, but I know that I'm worth more than someone's "almost love." If you're not working with me, if you don't even want to try to heal...then eventually I'm going to leave. I think you know that, in the back of your mind. This whole playing at love game we've been going through starts to bore me, every time you hide behind your coping mechanism, and show that you're content to. It's stagnation, as far as I can see, and if you've changed on the inside I can hardly tell.

I want you to be happy. You know you'd be happy with me. I'm taking a risk in caring for you too, and I want you to realize that I'm worth risking your heart for. We'd move mountains together, I just know it. We have power and presence when we walk into a room. You're the stern realist who keeps me grounded, and I'm the happy dreamer who makes you smile. I know you don't feel like you're ready, but it's been a year...I don't want to give up on you, but when you tell me to my face that you're happy you don't love me, that makes me want to walk away. Are you pushing me?

Phew. Needed to get that out. I'm gonna tell him this in person, but for now I just couldn't hold it in.



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177,717 I really hate society.  But I don't know how to live without it.  I'm a pretty worthless member to it because I don't have a job and don't want one.  I used to work a lot.  I worked official jobs from age 15 until 25 when I got really sick and landed on disability.  I had babysitting jobs and volunteer jobs starting at age 11.  I spent 10 hours a day at school from elementary age all through high school for various extracurricular activities.

I really hated society as a teenager because of the usual angst.  I thought it was stupid and that I couldn't fit in.  Years later, I still think it's stupid and I can't fit in.  I can do art, read tarot, write stories, but these aren't very marketable skills.  I let disability drop later on when I got married to my girlfriend because they basically just end it for you anyway once you get married.  I guess I chalked doing that up as a sacrifice for the society that I hate that also hates me (I am not the thing they want me to be, I do not fulfill the roles I'm expected to fulfill) because I guess some part of me still accepts that I have to contribute somehow.

GF works and brings in the money.  I don't really do anything because I have crippling depression and I can barely get myself up to get something to eat.

I'm pretty worthless now.  I hate society, but I'm also sorry to it now that I am worthless.  I understand that many of them would rather pay for their own healthcare rather than add to mine when I don't give back in any shape or form.  I'm sorry that I don't give back.  If I knew a way, I would.  If I could buy a gun, I could set up a situation where we both will benefit better.  I could put us out of each other's misery.

There isn't really any place for me to contribute except to try to be nice to the people I meet.  It sucks for me too, because I have no income except for what GF brings home.

The problem is that I don't want to work, and I won't.  There aren't any jobs out there that I could cope with.



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177,716 I was a kid of the 80's and 90's.  Climbing trees was one of the best things!  I had favorite trees to climb and I would even name those trees.  I stopped climbing them because for some reason my parents would always cut off the branches I needed to get up into the trees.  I don't know if they did that intentionally or not.

Kids don't do things like this these days, but neither do I.  I'm 30 years old and I'm supposed to act dignified I guess.  It's why I'm fat and don't exercise.  I hate exercising for the sake of exercising and health.  It's no fun.  I would rather run outside like a kid again, climb on trees, and jump into mud puddles.  Maybe kids these days would learn by example.

But I think mostly what would happen is that I would just be considered an idiot by other adults.  I hate how much it bothers me what other people think.



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177,715 I need to stop cheating on my boyfriend.
But fuck, his dick feels so amazing inside me.



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177,714 I never pooped my pants in school.  Ever.  That is my only claim to fame.



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177,713 Ice cream tastes better at night when I'm alone. Maybe that's why I can devour a pint by myself in 10 minutes flat.



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177,712 My husband's family say awful things to each other and then after a little while act like nothing happened.  But here I am still reeling from something he said to me more than 5 years ago that he begrudgingly apologized for. Here I am still destroyed.



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177,711 No means yes, yes means anal.



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177,710 I have no friends and I don't deserve any.



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177,709 The hospital room on the 5th floor where I was staying when my baby died had no windows. Just reinforced thick glass panes. That was a good thing as after watching my baby suffocate to death I was ready to jump.

There were no windows anywhere on that floor. I noticed when I walked around. Now if I had had the strength to make a running start, I would have pummeled right through the glass, window or not.  A shattered, splintered escape from a shattered, splintered life.



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177,708 I know you're tired of my moods. So just ignore me and I'll go away eventually. Then you can go on with your life and find someone better than I. There are so many better women in this world. You deserve so much more than I can give.



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177,707 I remember the 70's. I see it through the lens of a kid. I was a kid in the seventies. If I didn't have worries, it was because I was a kid, but I had worries.
One thing that we use to do for fun was climb in trees. Kids don't seem to do this anymore. I've said it before. There is nothing like being high up in a tree. When you know you are in a jam, the adrenaline helps you get back down.



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177,706 I was fine being single until you came along and reminded me of butterflies. Why don't you like me like i like you. Dating is so frustrating I have people that want me, but I want someone who probably wants someone else. Sigh. Sucks.



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177,705 668 I wish it was about that stuff - no he doesn't care about the house or anything else. I take care of the house and the bills, he does the food shopping and some light cleaning. He lost his job almost 2 years ago and half assed looks for a new one.    

He's usually lecturing me on politics, talking about all the neighbors, talking about the pets, what he watched on TV, what his brother and sister are up to on and on and on and on.

Trust me, if I had a responsible hard working man who gave a shit about the house and important things like bills, saving for retirement, or what I feel and think then I would love it.



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177,704 Please get help



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177,703 I was raped. Right now.



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177,702 I was relieved when you picked him. At least he believes he's worthy of you. He's wrong but he believes it. You are the most perfect creature I ever encountered. So different you may as well be another species. I would have tried every day but I could never live up to you and I would have known and I would have ruined it.



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177,701 Mrs. Clinton,
Hi. I am not your biggest fan by a damn sight. On the other hand I recognize that you are the superior choice to the game show host you are challenging. As a citizen of our great nation I am going to ask you to do something for me. Maybe a few things.

Be the adult in the room. The game show host wants to make this a dirty campaign full of insults (Crooked Hillary, Lyin' Ted, etc,). Please don't lower yourself to this level. Keep the level of discourse high. Be strong & confident and make him look like the middle school bully that he is.
Make it clear what your view of the future is and how you intend to achieve it. Be as specific as you can. Ignore the game show host's jabs & insults.

Mrs. Clinton, we don't need politicians right now. We need leaders. You are the first electable female candidate in U.S. history. Be the leader we need.

You are married to one of the best orators of his generation. Get his help for your speech-making. There is a reason why your detractors call you "Shrillary." No offense, it's just something you need to work on.

I don't imagine that you will ever see this but I want to put it out there. Good luck, Mrs.Clinton.



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177,700 Send me a text, E.



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