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182,399 We've been dating for 2 months. And he's starting to pull away. I don't know what I did, but I'm giving him his space. Happy to see him when I can. I don't want to push too much.

We haven't had sex yet even though I've spent the night at least 12 times. It's because I've got herpes and he doesn't want the risk unless we decide to be official and long term. I really like him but I'm scared he doesn't like me, not in the way he did in the beginning.

I let myself get excited about him and the possibility of a relationship. I'm trying really hard not to be sad prematurely. It's getting difficult.

F/28 (he's 35)



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182,398 I love my wife but monogamy is just not for me.

M married 18 years



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182,397 People who repeat the same word or phrase in the same sentence usually do not believe what they are saying is true but they want you to believe it.



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182,396 My love life sucks.  Why do these men confess that I'm the one who got away wayyyy AFTER the fact!?

My past 3 boyfriends over the span on 7 years come back in the last 2 months.  We ended on good terms.

Why couldn't they realize that I was good woman when we were together?

Now my most recent relationship has ended.  Will he come back years down the road and say "you were the one that got away" also!?

I can only conclude that the internet has ruined dating.  The grass is always greener but just as hard to mow.  Too many options.  What is this, some jacked version of The Bachelor that I wasn't aware of and I won?  What crap is this!?

I quit.  I fucking quit.



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182,395 I want to fuck the shit out of my two hot, beautiful friends.  Seeing your Facebook photos, those were so hot!



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182,394 You let the fox into the hen house. What did you think would happen?



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182,393 Right now,  I'm sick with a cold that's given me this awful barking cough. I made no mention of this in any email or social media. Yet,  Facebook knows to suddenly start advertising Mucinex and cold medication on my news feed.

There's fuckery afoot.



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182,392 I remember ocean waves knocking my body back to the shore, salt air, wind, sunshine and a feeling of hope.

My days now are a daily battle of adult bullshit that means little on the grand scheme of things.

What happened to that boy at the beach? How do I find him again?



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182,391 It's very difficult for a guy who's a weekend warrior/ alcoholic to date. Either I have to make daytime dates or have women come to my house. I can't drive because I can't afford a dui. It limits my opportunities.  I'll never quit drinking though.



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182,390 I got a called a dirty cunt at work, 5 times, the man yelling and advancing on me. My crime was greeting him and asking him how I could help him. I guess I was expected to psychically know the reason he was presenting in the ER. I'm a nurse. The patient wasn't stable, but yes 3 hours later I am still hurt and distracted. I looked for him as I left work, to make sure he wouldn't fuck me up further. Fuck people.



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182,389 Not sure who's lies I'm supposed to believe any more, the fake news network, Counterfeit News Network or any politician who's lips are moving.  

The illusion of democracy and "free" speech is just that, an illusion.



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182,388 Dreamt last night that I was in a bed in a familiar house (that I've never been to in real life)....dreading but looking forward to my husband (sort of but more muscular and predatory looking) coming into the room to force himself onto me. My younger sister was crouching by the bed as a look out.. he didn't see her.

He came in and pinned my wrists above my head, kept tellin me I was a tease and fucked me so hatefully/primally. It was incredibly sexy.

I think it's telling me I need to be dominated.



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182,387 Your life must be pretty unfulfilling if you're that desperate for other people's acceptance. The sad part is that you're actually a really fun person to be around when you want to be, but you have this ill-conceived notion that you have to be perfect. Personally I think your imperfections are what makes you such an amazing person, but I digress.

Please, continue flooding Facebook with your absolutely ridiculous and blatantly attention grabbing posts. Anybody with a single brain cell can see that you're just overcompensating. It's like when a couple breaks up and one partner writes the other,

"I'm soooo happy without you :) I even have a date tonight!"

All you're trying to do is present a false representation of yourself in order to spark a certain reaction. I know it, he knows it, everyone knows it…except you. Considering your academics, you're pretty fucking retarded when it comes to people.



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182,386 Your husband is still fucking me 15 years later. Wake the fuck up, lady!

The mistress always gets the last laugh!



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182,385 Kinda creepy when a middle age adult male coaches a high school girls sports team, and he doesn't have a daughter on the team. In fact, he doesn't look athletic at all. Hmm.



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182,384 364: That's pretty gross. I'm a woman and I promise that's not normal.



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182,383 I sent an email to somebody and I mentioned my "new Blundstone boots". I didn't search for the item on Google. I only mentioned it in an email.

By the next day ads for Blundstone boots were popping up on my screen when surfing the web. Tell me my keystrokes aren't being recorded and analyzed by big business. How offensive. I can't even send an email to a friend without someone listening in!



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182,382 No. It has been ten years now. I STILL don't miss you.



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182,381 Ive been sick, but i miss you.  I want to see your pouty lips on my cock again. I want to please you. I want to see you in pure ecstacy.



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182,380 I discovered how I could walk a hard 4 miles at my new job.  It's been 5 years since I was last able to exercise on a regular basis.  My kids made it impossible for me.  I'm feeling the muscles in my legs speak up for the first time in years.  I'm feeling the post-exercise "contentness" once more.  The hunger in my body has subsided.  I can feel the echoes of my old, firm self again.  It feels nice.  I need to keep this going.



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182,379 Most women don't give a shit about sex?  hmm idk about that.  there seems to be a lot of mismatches out there, guys who don't want much sex who are with girls who want it a lot and vice versa.  what do u mean, girls want it like once/week? or they're just uninterested in it period...



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182,378 I was just reading an article about a woman who was 61 yrs old, had to go to the hospital, incurred expenses of over $100,000, and figured from that point on, she'd be working for the rest of her life.

Honestly, I'd just kill myself.  Why go on like that.  At sixty years old ... just hang it up.  Have a little fun for a while, let the bill collectors call ... and go bye-bye.  Who needs it.



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182,377 372 thanks for the kind words, but let me explain how i got to this point. First of all 6c, means 6 inches and circumcised. Believe me i haven't rejected anyone, I've tried everything to get through to women, but even the ones below average don't want any, and believe me I'm not that picky, and not looking for a 10 at all. All of the women that I've dated or met on dating sites are still single, maybe by choice. I know many guys and women, who just can't get with anyone, and life is just passing us by. I've known many women who really enjoy sex, but most just don't give a shit, if women had an appetite for sex like guys, they would be pulling them out of bars, and dating sites wouldn't exist. I can deal with loneliness and the lack of love, but the absence of sex, or even being touched is killing me.
Maybe I'm not talking about being gay, but bi-sexual. I'm not attracted to men at all, but i do admire cock...when you can't get sex, you watch porn, and after awhile you have to admire how big these guys are, its no mystery why women like it bigger. If you think I'm an oddball, you would not believe how may married men are fucking guys on the side, its unbelievable. Being submissive to a man, might be foreign territory for most masculine guys, but so many crave it...like i said, they come out of the woodwork!



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182,376 I have a friend on Facebook who loves commenting on my posts to talk about fact-checking and sources for my posts, even on crazy Tumblr stories that nobody really cares whether they're true or not, or conspiracy theories that leave a little mystery to their merit. It's a really big buzzkill. Can't you just enjoy a funny Tumblr post or a speculative theory without turning into an unwanted internet professor wannabe? Sheesh

This same guy also has a habit of arguing with people on Facebook and other parts of the internet when he's upset, because i guess stating and overstating his opinion makes him feel better? And he posts these multiple paragraph long posts/responses, with bullet points and everything. Once again, i thought school was over! Why do you think i want to read your persuasive essay on why you think I'm wrong? I get making a point but nobody is gonna sit and read through that whole thing and respond to it. Be concise! Nobody cares THAT much about stuff on Facebook (besides the election, anyway).

Ugh, idky why I'm even friends with opinionated people anymore. Stick to your guns, even if we agree to disagree. But if you're going to make it tedious to have any conversation with you just because you obsess over meaningless things, I'm just gonna get tired of it.



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182,375 I think Śc" is a guy's cutesy way of saying "sexy".

Except on a cruise ship. They mostly locate the ship's hospital in the C stairway on deck 6.  That way when a passenger doesn't feel well, they are told to go to C6. Get it?

An inside joke with ship designers. :)



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182,374 I don't care which terrorist organization, or even if it's an individual does it. I just want someone, anyone to successfully kill trump and every member of his cabinet. I also want some hacker group to release a melania trump sex tape.



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182,373 My wife didn't like the movie "Titanic" She said that it was emotionally manipulative. But isn't that why people watch movies, and t.v. Shows like Dr. Phil for example, or Spriger, et. al? Isn't that why you get on the roller coaster?

Ding! Ding! Ding!  An epiphany, albeit a rather obvious one: What if we take advantage of average joes everywhere by manipulating their emotions in a way that blends t.v. and reality? They will never know that it's all fake, like the WWE. The sky is the limit...



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182,372 371 what's 6c? you can't "go" gay either you are or you aren't, you're making a choice to fuck men but do u actually desire it and lust it?  I'm sure if you're goodlooking and tall there were women who liked you that maybe you rejected too.  unfortunately it's all part of the "game" that i wish wasn't a game and it sucks.  please just try to give a girl who wants you a chance, someone who you wrote off as being clingy or needy or whatever it is you guys decide turns you off. i get the impression you don't really like dudes, you're just frustrated with how things have been playing out. go for a different type of girl!



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182,371 2017 resolution...I'm going gay, I'm done with women. I'm a tall good looking guy, aggressive, not a pushover, but my entire life has been a struggle with women, even though I've had sex with many and been married. Women love me, but not enough to be with me. Even though I'm 6c, I've been rejected for not being big enough, and lately I was rejected for not being alpha enough. I only know one way to treat women, and I treat them great, not needy or anything, but its as if I'm missing an alpha gene...when a girl says your "nice" its over. So if I can't have one, I'm going to be one. I put pictures of my body on cl, and the guys came out of the woodwork. I will probably still be lonely, but i'm going to have lots of sex, no more bullshit and games from women.



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182,370 i'm afraid a pool ball would get stuck up there. talk about an embarrassing visit to the doctors office!



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182,369 My husband takes baths sometimes. I'm sure he's jerking off in there.



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182,368 182358 --

I could hear you talk about your sexcapades all day...more, please!



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182,367 I don't know why this is suddenly an error people make (or why I'm just now seeing it), but I've noticed a lot of people saying "should of," "would of," etc. It's HAVE. SHOULD HAVE DONE. WOULD HAVE KNOWN. WHAT THE FUCK. Not sure why it annoys me so much



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182,366 When I was about 25 I started getting these odd headaches where I'd see zigzag lines flashing in my eyes. They'd last for about an hour and I couldn't see much of anything else why they were going on.

The first time it happened was scary. I thought I was having a stroke. I went to the ER and they explained it's a migraine and not to worry.

It happened over the period of a few weeks. Then they stopped. I never had one again over the last 20 years.

Until this past month. I've now had 4 of them. I'm trying to understand why. What is the common thread? What was I doing 20 years ago that I am again doing today?

I think I have an answer. It's very odd. About a month ago someone gave me a present of this fancy type of shampoo from a specialty bath shop in England. It seems great. The gift-giver reminded me that she bought this item for me once before, about 20 years ago. Like wow! We were trying to identify the exact date, and we think it was a direct overlap to when I last had these zigzag headaches.

Who knew that a shampoo could cause such problems.



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182,365 My son doesn't get along with his English teacher. I agree with my son, the teacher is a stubborn lazy nasty woman who thrills on marking students down. Why be that way? As a teacher, why not be helpful?

It's particularly harsh to my son because he prides himself of having great grades. He wants to be Valedictorian. But as an example, the teacher took a really good essay he wrote and marked it down to a B because on the title page he wrote the date as 12/17/2016, instead of December 17, 2016. Petty crap like that.

My son has tried to discuss this with her. She gets nasty with him and I know for a fact she is now more gung ho than ever to give him bad grades.

But I have to laugh. Karma has intervened. The teacher is pregnant. This is her last week at school. There is a long term sub coming in from another town to replace her. The teacher has spoken to the sub, telling her replacement to mark my son low.  I should be outraged! I could sue the school district on this.

But I won't. I say nothing. You know why?

Neither the teacher nor the school district realize that the long term sub they hired - is my sister. Ha ha. I love it. My sister will of course be fair with her nephew. She read his essay where he received a B for the date. She loved it. It's still the second marking period. As soon as she takes over she's going to set the grade back to an A.

Take that nasty teacher!



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182,364 I don't get women, or possibly it's just my wife? She will get up on say, a Monday, take a shower and go to work. After work she sweats it up in the gym. In the evening we have sex. This is all reasonable. But the trouble starts on Tuesday morning. She gets up and goes to work without taking a shower. How can she not take a shower? Don't you feel gross if you don't take a shower every day? And then the idea that she got all sweaty the day before AND HAD SEX. How can she not take a shower after all that? Do any other women do this? Or is it just my wife?



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182,363 It's amazing how many regular women take naked selfies. They send them to boyfriends and the pictures end up online. I love it.



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182,362 The only thing divorced men want is sex. Stay away.



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182,361 I don't get wet anymore. :( 48f



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182,360 Someone told me to look up Alabama Hot Pocket on urban dictionary, so I did... I wish I hadn't.....


wow



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182,359 WTF! The escort section on backpage has been blocked in Illinois! My husband and I are adults, if we want to pay another consenting adult to join us for some fun then we should be to!



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182,358 I love taking a long hot bath, and I most enjoy when I also am shaving my pussy.  I do a good job, as I am able to be where I'm laying down but sat up at the shoulders, with my legs up and spread as far apart as I can manage. I use lots of sesame or coconut oil a 5 blade razor and carefully spread my lips to reach every single Hairsurrounding my slit.I make sure that I am completely hairless everywhere except a small patch right above my lips. The act of shaving makes me incredibly aroused and I usually follow by pouring more oil on and in me and just sliding my hand up and down my slick, swollen, and gorgeous pussy while I feel the heat and warm wetness making me open and melt, wishing that there was hard, warm, and girthy cock about to fill and stretch me . Sometimes I just finger and lightly slap my pussy until I cum and feel the warm water under my ass...but sometimes I slide my fingers into me first the right hand then the left right next to it, and pull my hole wide open with 2 fingers from each hand. It feels just like I'm being fucked by a thick object and I get so wet that only one thing will do what I need done.  I then slide 2 regulation billiard balls up my tight hole, one after another. The first feels great and immediately slides far up my hot hole until I'm stretched deep inside by the heavy ball I'm fucking. But the second...oh my God. I feel the second ball slip in completely, and it makes me Hornier than I could ever describe as it clacks hard into the first one and makes my pussy lift me up and open my legs more each time my frantic hips and pussy are forced up. It feels like I'm so full I might feel pain or be injured any time now...but my body takes the extreme width of the objects in stride and lets my body derive extreme pleasure from it. I just rock my hips and feel the rock hard and heavy balls sliding back and forth inside my straining pelvis Until I am breathing hard and crying out as I throb and contract around those fat things in my bare pussy. It's the best feeling ever and no man could match the feverish arousal I feel when I am being fucked by 2 unyielding and hefty pool balls. It also feels good to take 1 with a cock pushing it in and commenting how I'm "so fucking tight." Bath time is definitely my favorite time.



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182,357 I don't belive in happenstance or fate or gods or heaven or hell. But there is something...a force or a curse...supernatural shit happens ok. I'm 25 and the running joke is I'm phsycic or phsyco depends on my mood,

I dream about things...or get these intense gut feelings. I JOKE and call it vibrations in the force...and keep a journal of how often the shit happens.

Precognition is a thing. Its happened to me too much not to belive it. I wish I could control it. Truely. For better or worse..

When I was 12 I dreamed I married a long haired boy named james and we had a son and a daughter we lived in a small house and somehow turned into lady bugs I never forgot the dream completely, just the eyes stood out large and green. At 23 I did marry a guy with green eyes and long dark hair named james. My sister made fun of me and threw one of my old dream journals at me. It had his face described complete to his beard hair. I got chills.

When I was 14 I dreamed my sister would fall and in a hole in the yard and break her ankle. Just a quick snippet of her shoe, and leg and the fall in the yard watching from the wrong side in vivid detail.

I told her she would break her ankle running in the yard that summer. 2 months later it happened. Chills ran up my spine as I watched this happen. Across the lawn too far away to even make the run She told me later It was freaky. I didnt disagree

At 15 I dreamed my friend would have cuts on her arm and blame t on the cat. I knew it was self harm. I saw her cover it up with a specific wrist band like those skater hipsters wear. It was just a short snippet

I looked for it constantly waiting. A few weeks later her boyfriend gave it to her she wore it for 2 days then didnt wear it again.

they broke up about a month after that I saw it on her again. I kept peroxide and achohol swabs in my locker waiting and kept telling her not to let a stupid boy make her stupid.

There it was the wristband I took her by the hurt wrist to the bathroom and cleaned the cuts silently  and told her she cut herself again I would tell her parents. Not once bringing up the dream. She got mad at me blew up on me demanded I tell her how I knew and never talked to me again. I still think I did the right thing.

At 16 my friend greg dated this girl sheila I knew I KNEW they were going to get married...they are. But I told her they would the first and only time I went to her house to see her...after their highschool break up cause reasons. I told her not to lose faith...I dont remember the conversaton much. Just that her bed room was...VERY VERY purple. I remember her picking me up tho, and hanging out...and me telling her fad diets dont work as well.  I don't think she liked me very much and probably kinda saw me as competition...they announced their engagement on fb last month. I ALMOST want to see if she remembers the conversation...but we havent spoken in years...and in the time it took them to get together I may have slept with her now fiance...more than once. Its complicated. Well, at least she's in for a good sex life..


When I was 17 I saw a stork fly over my car when I was driving. I knew then my friend was pregnant and it was a boy. I called and told her to take a pregnancy test and hung up. He's almost 9 now.

When I was 19 I dreamed about the planet of the apes being big again. I told my uncle and he laughed so I made a bet 70$ says a new movie will be released by the end of the year. I won.

When I was 20 I woke up in feburary 2013 in a cold sweat crying I knew I would have to drop out of school and would be homeless by november of that year my life would be shot to shit and it was gonna be life changing.

I started dropping job applications saving for a car of my own, making small changes to my life to prepare. My dad died in august. Before he was in the ground my family kicked me out. It almost panned out Cause I knew...something was gonna happen. I now know why "may you live in interesting times" is a curse. Because my brush with near homelessness was interesting but fuck if I could have remembered...I wouldnt have let my father out of my sight.

When I was 21 I dreamed my new boyfriend (soon to be husband) needed shoes for his best friends funeral, he was a paul bearer we were standing in my aunts room the walls were purple the bed was a big yellow square. My aunts friend was there the onlu vivid detail was my aunts friend passing my then boyfriend shoes. And the words. I woke up and told james his friend was going to die and to call and check on him. He laughed at me but I KNEW.

He called a few days later everything was fine. A few months pass I meet dude again. We all get drunk and smoke a bowl and he says something about not thinking he will live to old age. I just look at him and say "you won't" he asked how I knew and I told him about the dream. He and my husband laugh about it. They told me not to be a party pooper.

He died april 19th 2014...2 WEEKS after I found out I was pregnant with my son. My husband gets the call, then less than 24 hours after that I am walking from my aunts bathroom to the living room and I see it. James getting the shoes the purple walls the bed...my aunt had replaced her old matteress with a big hunk of memory foam, a paint mix up from home depot had her walls the exact shade as the dream my aunts friend turns to my husband with the shoes and I throw up on the floor. Sick james just turns to me pale and clammy. I had told him it would happen. He doesnt disregard my dreams anymore

I don't know what this is. Those are the biggest...events? I've had happen. I try really hard notnp to lable or give this ability a name. Cause if you name shit it gains power.

now my mind keeps drifting to an ex I did dead wrong...like not consious thought but somehow I KNOW he is going to ask me about things better left unspoken. I feel it in my bones.

I am not prepared for the confrontation.

I keep reading about altered states and precognition in dreams. I mean...if I can harness this...maybe I can prepare.

You might think I'm nuts. I promise I'm not.



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182,356 On my way to work today I felt very stressed out. I was dreading the day. I have a stressful job and problems with anxiety. I drive past a church on my way, and today the sign out front said "It is going to be okay." I didn't realize how much I needed to hear that. THAT is far more uplifting than the typical, sanctimonious church sign out front....whoever decided to put that on the sign today, thank you so much.



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182,355 182353 - I have this little voice which gets very loud when I read a question asked which needs to obviously be answered for the well being of another.
All I kept hearing was "death to your own ego."
This is a good thing but always is hard to let go of which in your case has manifested itself in sadness.
It will pass and it is something that happens to most of us on our way to becoming "detached" from much of the craziness going on in the world.
Relationship heartache is one of but not the only way this can happen.
Becoming a truly humble being is always a hard road.  There are no short cuts.
Everything will be okay and like Steve Winwood sings "just roll with it".



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182,354 Is your reality really that bad, that you must dull yourself with the harshest street drugs available, to a debilitating point? At this point all I can do is pray for you. I hope you get the help you need.



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182,353 I had the worst nightmare of my life last night. I woke up shaking and crying and almost screaming. It shook me to my core and haunted me all day. I can't bring myself to tell anyone what it was about, but at the same time, I can't can't hold it in and it's only been 14 hours since I woke up from it.

I don't know how to describe the setting or time. It was kind of like fantasy, in another time and another place. The man I was in love with had committed a crime against the corrupt government, and we were on the run together because he was condemned to death. He had these beautiful dark eyes and pale skin with black hair. He was noble and strong, so brave. We were finally caught, betrayed by someone who was working with the government to find him and bring him in. We were taken to this room and informed that he'd be executed within the hour and after that I'd be set free. I became frantic and distressed, but he held me while I cried. He knew it was the end of the line for him. Finally, the head of the government himself came in, carrying a sword. He orders the man I love (I don't remember his name but in the dream he had one) to prepare to die. I was taken about 15 feet away and restrained while I cried and cried.

He was asked if he had any last words, but he says nothing. He turned his and looked over at me, and could hear him say "I love you" with the look in his eyes. I could tell he couldn't fully express it with just words.His eyes were the most vivid image in that dream for me. Not even in real life has a man ever looked at me with such intense love. It was HIS last moment of life, and he selflessly used it to comfort me. The man beheaded him with a single stroke of the sword. I dropped to the floor and cried so hard I silently gasped for air. When I started to really cry and scream, that's when I woke up, crying and screaming.

I don't know what it means, if anything, but it's the saddest, most distressing dream I have ever had. I can still see his eyes and the way he looked at me before he died. I can still feel the pain in my heart and soul almost as deeply as I did in the dream. I just want it to stop following me, but it won't. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be a little more over it...

And now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to bawl my eyes out because I've been holding this in all day...



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182,352 feels like I might still be in mourning. wear black on the inside. cry at work.

can't turn back time. never go home.

use to believe that he had an open door policy.

the only thing that gives me hope for my sweet girl.



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182,351 During sex, a woman should not suck on a man's nipples. It's weird and emotionally uncomfortable. Pretend they aren't there.



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182,350 Disney ruined Star Wars, and anyone who thinks otherwise brings shame upon their family name.



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182,349 EPA.  If you travel through North Dakota you will see thousands of oil pumps pulling oil out of the ground.  You will also drive by coal plants that are creating electricity.  People think they are not running because you cannot see any emissions coming out of the smoke stacks.  They are running 24/7.

So I have a friend who sells equipment to the coal factories.  He told me about a conversation he had with a person highly placed in this coal plant.  He said that last year the EPA approached them and told them they had to cut emissions by 15%.  Their engineers sat down, figured out they could do it for a couple of million dollars and it would take a little time to get the scrubbers installed.

About a week passed by and the EPA came to them again and said that they changed their mind.  The EPA wants them to cut emissions by 45%.  Think about that.  They make up the rules as they go along.  The engineers sat down and figured it could be done for tens of millions of dollars.

About another week passed and the EAP came back and told them, "you know what?  We really are not sure what the number is that you need to reduce emissions."

So there you have it.  It isn't about pollution.  It isn't about science.  It is a political agenda being shoved down our throats by Obama and the federal government.

The cost of coal fired electricity is 2.5 cents a kilowatt hour.  The cost of solar panels, which the EPA wants this coal plant to change to, will cost the consumer 46.5 cents a kilowatt hour, and that is with the government subsidizing it. I hope to hell these people have their heart medications when they open their electric bill this year.  Of course Trump will get blamed.

If I were Trump I would eliminate the EPA on January 21st, 2017.



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182,348 I wish that we could talk about it. But there, that's the problem.



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182,347 I have a friend who's this cute, mousey, very quiet 33-year old Vietnamese woman who's never had a boyfriend and still lives with her parents.  She occasionally fixes her dad's computer.  She told me one day that she was on his computer, and in the process calmly mentioned that she had to go through his porn folder to fix part of a problem.  

I don't know why, but I found that to be kind of hot.  Here's a quiet woman who just calmly mentioned porn... why?  Is it because she's an Asian woman and has been conditioned to accept what men do?  Is it because she might watch porn?  Does she masturbate to it?  Why did this usually shy, quiet woman just mention porn?  I hope she has secrets!



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182,346 My wife is not computer savvy.  She knows nothing of what I do online, and she has never bothered to ask me for my password.  I really think any other spouse could easily find my browser history, locate my porn folder, see the 300 videos I have saved, and find the 60 pictures of women I know in their bikinis and with their boobs hanging out.  Not my wife.  Thank god.



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182,345 Breitbart, Fox, etc don't even come close to qualifying as "news". Pure biased fiction.

Trump is a disgusting man and it is no surprise he attacks media.

Just because something does not have right wing bias and is center to center right and reports objective truths, does not make it liberal.



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182,344 Trump wouldn't take a question from a CNN reporter.  He said CNN was "fake news."

I'm laughing my ass off.  A year of the Clinton News Network bashing Trump, and then CNN claiming that "fake news" got Trump elected... and Trump throws it right back in their fucking biased faces.

Hopefully this will serve as a lesson to the other liberal outlets: Be fair, or be kicked out.  Probably won't, though.



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182,343 My ideal woman would be very capable using power tools.



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182,342 yeah, so a guy was arrested for shop lifting in Texas. he was searched and had drugs on him. he gets handcuffed and put in the back of a police car. he then reaches around to the back waistband of his pants, pulls out a gun and shoots himself in the head. yeah, that's what happened. when the police searched him for the drugs, they missed the huge ol gun sticking out the back of his pants. and you know how when you're handcuffed you can reach all the way behind you and then cock a gun and put it to your head. yeah, that's what happened.



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182,341 Since I was a little girl, I'd occasionally have dreams about doing incestuous things with my brother and father, and I wasn't sure why. I never told anyone about it until I was 16, when I told my best friend. She never told anyone, and actually confessed that she'd had dreams like this every so often, so she understood.

For years, I've lived in shame of these dreams. They'd pop up again every time I didn't have a crush on someone, lust after someone, or have someone to pine over in my life. I noticed this pattern in high school, and as I got older I'd always be moving from crush to crush, desperate to keep the dreams away. Whenever I thought I'd be happy being single, and focusing on myself and my own pursuits, I'd have an incest dream and feel ashamed all over again, and renew the search.

Yesterday, that same best friend called me just to talk, and we ended up figuring out why this has been happening. Put shortly, my Dad and brother are the only 2 I grew up with, and they're very cold people. No affection, no I-love-you's, nothing to indicate they actually care about me. There was no sexual abuse, but emotional and physical abuse was very prevalent. So my subconscious has been turning my extreme desire for affection and love from my immediate family into dreams about having sex with them. Which makes sense, because in the dreams I want to have sex with them, and in reality the idea is revolting.

So we figured out that even though there's nothing I can do to change what happened, what I need is to find a source of affection in my life that I can depend on. I need more huggers in my life, lol. So today I came up with the idea of volunteering at an animal shelter, so I can be close to lots of animals. I like them all, but I think cats and especially dogs will help me the most. Wish me luck



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182,340 I'm not really cut out to be working with other people. I don't know how to put a lid on it. I tell people what I think. I don't try to sweet talk it. Why should I? When something is wrong it's wrong. And when they do something wrong, I jump in and fix it. I end up annoying people to the max. They hate me. They talk about me. I become the icon for why they hate work.

Then again, I've become hugely successful. They have not. I get things done. They don't. I get company bosses begging me to work for them. The people around me get fired.

It seems to be a truth that you can either be successful, or well liked.



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182,339 For the person on the rice diet, for the love of God eat some veggies and a can of tuna or something! At least take a multi vitamin with your gobs of rice.

When I first moved out from my parents house, I was working full time and only making like $550 a month. I was determined to stay out on my own, so I had little money for food after rent in apartment I was splitting with a roommate. I lived off of minute rice, and A-1 that I stole from restaurants. I occasionally would buy 2 garlic bread rolls from the store for .66˘. Now I did loose about a 100 Pounds over the first year, but I was always light headed and hungry as fuck. I would bend over to pick something up off the floor and have about 30 seconds of the light headed semi black out when I stood up. I was always Shakey, and cold. It sucked!

Loosing weight is not worth going through that. Please be healthy, and loose weight the right way. Moderation, and regular exercise.



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182,338 Armpit hair on a woman can be very, very sexy.



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182,337 Gay men adopting children. It's like some kind of fashion trend in the gay community. Doesn't sound like the best reason for adopting a child.



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182,336 why do people get so angry about armpit hair on a woman?
like do you really have no lives, to care about someone who doesn't take off some hair from their underarms 😒

news flash.. women have armpit hair... get over it



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182,335 Life is a horrible, cruel  joke and I am its ridiculous punchline.

Thanks, God.



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182,334 I am friends with a married couple. I met them at a bar years ago. We would meet at happy hour, have a few beers, hang out and after a while I got to be friends with them. Sometimes when we would go out she would be very touchy feely with me and it made me a little uncomfortable in front of her husband. One night she asked to go out with me but her man didn't show up with her when I picked them up. Needless to say we got drunk and fucked that night. I have been fucking her for the past year or so. She will usually come over to my place during lunch and we will go at it. I have a girlfriend now but the thing is my girlfriend is thin. This married girl is fat (not obese but thick). Big cans, big ass and curvy. She is also really into giving head which I love. I tried stopping for a while but I came back. I guess I am a bad person...



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182,333 Once, I made a kid cry, when I was growing up.  I have to admit, it felt kinda good, to be on the opposite side - for ONCE.



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182,332 The difference is that blacks play the victim card, and whites do not.



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182,331 Trash is trash, no matter whether they're white, black, or gay.  The difference between white trash and black trash is that the entire race of black people are considered responsible for them whereas white people aren't considered responsible for their trash.



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182,330 I fucking hate anti-vaxxers.  They're going to get us killed.

Actually, they're just going to get their children killed.

People who don't vaccinate their kids when they're able to get vaccinated should be charged for criminal neglect.



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182,329 I wonder what will happen when the out of control "crack child" you mention hits puberty. It won't be chewing gum he's putting in the girl's hair. But remember, you are not allowed to say anything. If it's a black child in a white town, then you are a racist for daring to wake up white each morning. Your daughter is a racist too for getting her hair caught in his gum.



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182,328 I'm not prejudiced. But I do have my limits.

There's a gay couple in my town. They tell the charming story of how they met. One of them was rich. He got a massage from a male masseuse. It was a massage with a happy ending. In other words, the masseuse jerked him off. They met a few more times. They fell in love and got married. Oh how sweet. The rich man fell in love with the male prostitute who jerked him off.

If a male / female couple loudly told a similar story on every corner, you'd correctly say they were trash. But it's okay for this gay couple to be sluts.

There's more. They adopted an inner city black crack child. Because gay men who get jerked off by a male masseuse would of course make for a really great parent.

Their new child was already about 10 years old when he arrived. He entered the school system of this white uppity town and proceeded to terrorize his classmates. He punched kids on the playground. He stuck gum in girls' hair. He made such a non-stop commotion in the classroom that learning ceased.

So I'm not prejudiced, but come on. What am I supposed to do, just tolerate that my daughter had to get her hair cut off to remove the bubble gum? Fuck you creepy oversexed gay men. And fuck you crack kid. All of you should get the fuck out of my town!



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182,327 I LOVE to jam my tongue in her pussy and make eye contact with her, while i make love to her amazing pussy, TRYING to get as much juice and cum on my face and down my throat.



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182,326 182254 -- that's not BORDERING on mentally ill, that's a textbook case of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  Or depending on her age, early Alzheimer's or dementia.

Take your wife to a psychiatrist.  You'll be glad you did.



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182,325 Jon, your relationship with Ben is terrible for you. He says he's not attracted to you anymore because you gained weight, but I don't believe his enormous ass has ever seen the inside of a gym. He criticizes you for not being ambitious, but that's pretty funny coming from a guy who's been unemployed as long as I've known him. He's treating you exactly like asshole straight guys treat gullible straight women, and it's not "special" just because you're gay.

I can't say anything, because everyone will just think I want you for myself. I do want you, but I don't actually need you to end up with me just as long as you get rid of him.



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182,324 A secret I've never told anyone I know, and most likely never will.

I came from a dysfunctional family.  It was a nasty environment growing up. We hated each other and expressed it daily. My parents themselves came from their own dysfunctional families that never talked. They passed it on to us.

As a result, when I was 21, I moved to California and never went back home again. I don't keep in touch with any of them.

Over the years I've dated women, but with my dysfunctional family in mind, I have never been motivated to get married.

When I was in my late 30s though, a woman from work set me up on a blind date. I didn't mind at all. Dating was fun. It was the longer term commitment I didn't want.

So I went on this blind date. There was kind of an instant bonding. She was from New Jersey. I was from New Jersey. Jersey people stick together. So we had that. It broke the ice. We got along real well.

She also mentioned how she came from a messed up family where people hated each other and no one talked. I liked her.

Mostly on the dates we spoke about current things. We went to hip restaurants. We went to the movies. We had sex and more sex. Typical scenario. It was good.

At about the two month mark, she wanted to be Facebook friends. Whatever. I didn't do the Facebook thing, but I signed up for an account and became her friend.

Of course, once I had access to her Facebook page, I looked at her photos.  There was a selfie of her standing by the San Fran waterfront. Some of her friends commented with the typical “You are beautiful.”

There was a guy who commented too. He said, “Looking good sis.”

Ah, this must be her brother. I noticed he had a different last name.  I'll make up names here for privacy reasons. His name was “Stephan Green”. My new girlfriend's name was “Patty White”. (Again, made up names.)

That evening, actually while we way laying naked in bed, I mentioned I saw the post from her brother. I asked why her last name was different.

She said she still uses her married name from before her divorce. I already knew she was divorced. It wasn't a big deal.

“So your name when growing up was Patty Green.”

I didn't think anything of it until she said, “Actually, my real name is Patricia. When  I was a kid they called me Trixie. I didn't think it very professional, so in college I migrated to Patty.”

“Ah... Trixie Green-” I cut myself off. My brain started exploding. She noticed. She asked what was wrong. I was quiet for like a minute.

“Wait... so you were Trixie Green. And your brother, was he called Stevie Green?”

“Yes, how did you know that?”

“Do you have another brother who they called Charlie?”

“Yes! How do you know these things?”

Oh shit.

“And is your mother named Shelly and you father named Bobby? So you were Trixie, Stevie, Charlie, Shelly, and Bobby?”

She looked very confused as to how I knew all that.

“And the town your from in New Jersey, was it Belmar?

“Yes but....”

I went silent again for a bit.

Recapping the scenario. We were laying their naked on the bed. Her pussy juice was on my lips. My semen was inside her body. That's when I turned to her and said, “We're cousins.”

“You mother is Shelly. Her sister is Elizabeth. That's my mother. Your my cousin Trixie. I remember you. We used to go to each other's houses when we were very young.”

She looked astonished. She let out a little scream. “Aaaaaa..... Wait...... No...... Yes...... Your last name..... Oh it's your father's last name..... So you don't have the same last name as me...... We are related though our moms..... Ohhhh..... Now I remember you...... We used to play together in my backyard.”

Talk about awkward. I had been fucking my cousin and didn't even know it. Like what's the correct thing to say to each other at that point?  I licked her pussy. She sucked my cock. I came inside of her multiple times. What do you say to that? “Hey, how's you mom, my aunt?”

It was like no feeling I can describe. Not to be a prude, but I fucked my cousin. Truth be told, the relationship was very good. I liked her. I was really enjoying our time together. What would we do, continue dating and send a note to the families one day saying surprise, we were getting married and looked forward to a life with deformed children...

In the end, we both wimped out on this. We immediately stopped dating. We spoke I think only one more time, but not about being cousins. Then it was over. We never saw each other again.

The woman from work who set us up on the blind date couldn't understand why we broke up. She thought we were great together. She has no idea what really happened.

Now I'm back to single status for the past few years. All of this was God's way of reminding me that I should never be in a relationship.



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182,323 I have been making friends lately and it feels really good. I spent a long time being alone because I set very high standards for the people I allow in my life. But I've been getting myself out there, talking to people, and making connections. I feel loved and supported. It makes me stronger. Lesson learned; it's important to have friends in life.



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182,322 I reached for you and you rejected me.

I'll never forget you and I will always love you.

Despite it not working with us my love for you continues on.  I have no say in the matter.

Beautiful soul, goodbye



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182,321 I use always have viagra on me at all times. Not that I need it but sometimes if I am with someone new it takes a bit to get it up. I'd rather not have to worry about it. You never know when you may need it as I also live in a college town.



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182,320 I miss you. I wish you would reach out.  I mean, would it hurt anything to do so?



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182,319 I was born and raised as a democrat. For years I blindly followed my party. When I heard Trump was to be the next president, I felt nothing but fear…and that's what happens when other people tell you what to think and what to do, because once I started thinking for myself, I told all those hippies to fuck off back to Woodstock with their shitbird mascot Bernie and started swinging right.

I've never felt better.

Do I agree with everything republicans stand for? Absolutely not. But after everything that's happened these past few months, I never want to be associated with liberals again.

Trump 2017, make America GREAT again.



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182,318 Here is a secret many do not know. I have been working in healthcare for 30 years. I have worked in ER's, clinics, private offices, etc. If you are on Obamacare and it gets cancelled, take yourself to the nearest non-profit ER. They cannot turn you away. Thats a NON-PROFIT ER. For profit hospitals can refuse service. If you have a condition, just go in every week. Eventually the amount of funding will be needed to go up for these ERs and Congress will need to do something.



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182,317 After 10+ years of hard partying, it's all about to end.  I finally got caught with some of it in my car, and was arrested and charged with felony drug possession 3 months ago. In 11 days, my court date will be upon me and I expect that my lawyer will negotiate a less harsh penalty,  but the charges will stick. I always said I would chill out before this happened, but I didn't. I will definitely get 1-3 years of supervision and probation, which includes drug testing. Now I have to quit cold turkey and on someone else's terms, or I will be sent to prison. This is not going to be pretty, it is going to be the ugliest. This is sure to be the fight if my entire life.
-32F, dont know how to live without a needle.



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182,316 #303: I went through a breakup many years ago that I have not forgotten because I cannot forget the level of pain that I felt. I am most certainly over him (what a jerk!) but the pain - never. I felt broken, truly broken into little pieces, so shattered that I never thought I would be whole again. It took years and the elimination of certain people in life, including a family member who just made it so much worse. I am tearing up as I write this because I remember the pain. It was and remains an extraordinary lesson in life and in trusting others. You will recover, you will re-gain your life's purpose, you will feel better - its just so difficult to hear it and believe it right now. I promise.



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182,315 When your child takes the PSAT exam, DO NOT check the box allowing colleges to send literature to your home address. You will be overrun with thousands of pieces of useless advertisements from colleges.



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182,314 I won't be watching any more Meril Streep movies. No proud American should.



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182,313 I just had a married man come over to my apartment. I sucked his dick, we made out, and he came all over my chest.

I know it's wrong but it just makes it hotter to me.



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182,312 My husband's love handles are very unsexy.



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182,311 I am completely fulfilled



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182,310 Day 14 of my rice diet. I've been very diligent. I eat about 800 calories a day. I did vary the formula a little. I now also eat an apple a day. I felt I should add a source of a few vitamins, something other than just rice carbs.

My pants as a yardstick progresses. I still can't fit comfortably into the chosen pair, but it's getting closer.

Interesting that my spouse is of no help. My spouse seems angry I'm losing weight. Is this common, where a spouse is jealous or fearful I am losing weight? Maybe my spouse thinks I am trying to leave the marriage? (Honestly my spouse should be worried.)

I wish the weight loss was more dramatic. It's slow going. I think one can lose 7 pounds a week under a very aggressive diet plan, like eating little and running 5 miles a day. I'm not so aggressive. I eat very little but running isn't my thing. Can I call sex a form of exercise? Not that I'm getting any, but it's something to keep in mind in case the opportunity arises. Come to think of it, no one is home, I think I'll go with some solo sex right now, you know, for diet reasons, LOL.



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182,309 20 years in health policy here - The thing about Obamacare is that it made costs go up, which translates into a LOT of people losing their insurance.  You simply can't make costs go up without making access go down.  It's a law of health care.  So what ended up happening is for every one person with a pre-existing condition who got insurance under the law, at least one (and probably many more) lost their insurance.  These people who lost their insurance are now far more likely to develop conditions because they can't get in to see a doctor.

So that's what Obamacare did.  It gave insurance to one group of people by taking it from another larger group of people.  What's better, having one person have health insurance, or having five or ten people having health insurance?  The answer's obvious.  It's going to suck for someone.



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182,308 I wonder what's going to happen with the cancellation of Obamacare? I have a pre-existing condition. It was okay, I had private insurance I paid for every month. When Obamacare came along, I switched and gave up my private insurance.

Now if Obamacare gets cancelled, no private insurance company will take me back because of my condition. So then what? I end up with no insurance. I kind of got royally fucked by this entire fiasco.



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182,307 If you did everything you could to love someone and want to make it work and it doesn't... You have to let it go.
But take solace to know you exhausted every option, no regrets!
Losing love is like grieving a death.

It's hard, you go through the stages but you will find your smile again.

Love is a beautiful, ugly, awesome and soul crushing emotion.  You will survive and find it again.



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182,306 203 - My heart goes out to you.  I feel your pain so deeply in your post <3 I dated someone for 5 years, and we broke up in 2015.  It was absolutely soul crushing.  I had no hope, and I felt cold and stone-like, like I would never love again.  It even affected my relationships with my friends because I felt like I was out of empathy and out of warmth. I used to have a 50 mile commute and I would just drive the entire way crying and listening to songs on loop. Or some days I would just drive in silence. Stone cold staring ahead at nothing.

I'm here to promise you, it does get better.  There's not going to be a day where you wake up and suddenly feel better.  You're going to feel like garbage for a LONG time.  Longer than you think is reasonable. But one day, you will cry a little less. And after some time of crying a little less, it will turn into no crying, and over time, the sadness will turn to disappointment. (I think that happens because at some point you just get tired of being sad.)  Then disappointment will become acceptance and will turn into taking action to better your life.  Whether it be professionally, spiritually, physically, emotionally, or with friends and family.  You will begin again, slowly.  You might not even notice at first (I didn't)  Then one day you will look back and realize how far you have come.  How you have climbed up from rock bottom.  .....and MAYBE after that process, you can even find love again.  But for now, allow yourself to feel hurt, and know you will recover eventually.  

I'm not sure if there are any tips I can really give you.  It just sucks and you are stuck experiencing it.  There are no ways around it, I'm afraid.  I supposed one piece of advice would be to keep a journal.  I think it really helps later on to show how far you've come.  And also meditation, it helps you understand that emotions come and go, and can help to avoid getting caught up in them feeling like they will last forever. I know that is how I felt in my heartbreak.  Like I would be broken forever.  I would always have a piece missing from my heart. I can tell you from the other side, I don't feel like that anymore.  Maybe it just leaves a small scar...

Good luck my friend, you will get through this. <3
-F/27



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182,305 My heart still aches for her today even though it's been almost 10 months since I last saw my (ex)wife.  I wish there was some way we could make it work again.  I'm always going to love you, Paula.



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182,304 I'm crushed pretty much every time it happens.

It reminds me of this time, (and I'm not trying to be funny) that this friend from the old neighborhood was jumping on my back. My friends and I use to fight all the time. This kid was huge. I was the tough one in the neighborhood, or so I thought, and as a matter of principle, I refused to cry. But I distinctly recall tears squeezing out with every blow landed from his entire weight. I proudly dusted myself off, and we made up, probably that day. I loved that guy.

Anyway, my most recent break up was fine at first. I really needed my space, but then it dawned on me that i had made a life commitment to that person. I took it much too lightly after it was too late. Just like the above scenario, and having been through similar situations, I cried a lot, knowing that it would be okay. I realized some things about myself, that I had depression and had to seek help. I also hit the gym, which is some of the best advice I ever got, not because I got buff, which I didn't, but getting your heart rate up for a sustained period of time is good for your mental health.

Do I wish I didn't have to go through all of this? Yes. Do I miss what could have been? No.



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182,303 Last time I was in a relationship, I was with a woman that was madly in love with me.  It was the best feeling ever, knowing she would be determined to keep the relationship going, and I would not have to worry about it dying.  Sadly, I eventually found out I was her secret lover, and she secretly had a boyfriend and a kid behind my back.  I broke up with her and lost all contact to avoid being a cheater.  I wish I had stayed, but it would be awkward meeting up with her again.



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182,302 So this is what heartbreak feels like.

After two years together, it's over. The pain I felt last night was excruciating. I never cried that hard in my life. The mix of stabbing emotions made me nauseous.

The day before I had just fought so hard to persuade you to give me a chance to see me a new. The last four months haven't been easy. I was dealing with depression for the last 2 and it was the acid that steadily ate away at the open wound in our relationship. Finally telling you that I had viewed porn during our relationship was the shock that snapped the lifecord.. You said we needed a break, which is different than ending us altogether (though some people may disagree).

I had a sense of hope in moving forward together... I was hurt, but I took time to reflect on the life of our relationship and really feel the hurt I had caused her. I saw the areas I needed to change and I sought a new commitment to myself and started planning to do make it happen.

I should have known that your text to take a break meant terminate the relationship permanently, because you did this to me once before... Maybe I'm a fool for getting back together with you, maybe I'm a fool for having hope, but when you truly want someone in your life, love can make you a fool.

The other day I ran into her at church, it was so good to see her, I was distracted and anxious for the next several hours. I was losing it. I did exactly what I knew in my mind was wrong, I asked her if I could stop over and she said no. I then explained why, and she still said she had 'plans' (this was a date I would later find out). I got increasingly anxious and texted her probably 10 more times and called her repeatedly... I was emotionally engaged and logically disconnected. I knew that what I was doing was pushing her farther away, but I couldn't reconcile that in my mind...

A couple hours later I sent her an apology text and she told me that after today she would have to block me or I would have to stop contacting her altogether... So I jumped on the emotional train for one last ride and drove over to her place.

She barely agreed to talk to me, but she did. I noticed the flowers on the table and asked her and she said that yes she went on a date this afternoon. I was in shock. I didn't even think that was a possibility for her this soon... but after talking with her I understood how she had broke free from me. She waited for break to come and said what she did over text because she didn't have the heart to say it in person or on the phone... She neutralized her feelings slowly over the last month and had pushed me outside of her heart. She started talking to a guy and planned a date soon after she broke up with me. Her plan was pretty clear. Although talking with her last night was utterly obliterating to my sense of self and cut me deeper than anything else I think it's what I needed to get the closer and to try to push forward.

I needed to let go of the hope for a future us. It's gone.


There's a lot of blame I can put on myself, in fact, most of the reasons I would put on myself. Maybe I just needed my life to crash around me in order to make the right changes..

Alyson, no matter what happens in the future, I wish the best for both you and me.
As much as I want to hate you and be bitter for your decision, I can't because I understand.

Hopefully understanding can help me process and work through this more than not. It will take time but I know I will be get through this and I will get over you.

M/25  #CaveCanumCommunity



PS - Have you ever been absolutely crushed by an ex or relationship fell apart, could you share? It's easier to go through something when you have others who have gone through it already and come out on the other side (or who are currently going through it).



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182,301 If a woman wants to have an abortion but the man wants to keep the baby, it's considered OK to have an abortion anyway.  But if a woman wants to keep the baby and the man doesn't, the man is considered garbage and is still forced to pay for the baby.  It's sexist that women think of the baby as "part of her body and have control over it", and still expect men to pay for it.  I've seen women get nasty over this too.  Pay for yourself women, if you really think a baby is part of you!



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182,300 182254, I have a mentally ill mother who does this.  Years of therapy and medication and she still pushes me and everybody else to do the most basic things for her.  She doesn't even drive anymore because a nurse long time ago said she shouldn't.  She's too afraid to get a free aide, and it's limiting my life.



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