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185,299 She's dying, and I feel all alone.  There is nobody around who understands.  There is no point in living, because I will die one day too.  The only time I'm happy is when I'm hiking in the woods, but that doesn't last long.  I just want to die and get it over with.  I feel angry most of the time.  I just sat in my bedroom crying.  I just want it all to end.  I want to die.  I want to live forever, but if I'm going to die, I just want to die now.  There is no point to life.  The happy moments never come anymore.  I've been alone for a long time.  I've eaten myself alive.

28/m



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185,298 i know its a stretch but omg i miss you!!!  i'll say something and then others get theres in and by the time its said and done i'm here confused.  in the end i convince myself i'm letting hope and wishful thinking win. anyways, just in case, i hope you're getting all my best.  i send it daily. please be well.



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185,297 Most people can't apologize. Their egos are too big. In the end they look even more foolish. You know what? I didn't like to apologize either. I'd do it, but I didn't like it. As a direct result, I made more of an effort to always do the right thing so I wouldn't have to apologize. I solved the problem. But not most people. They won't apologize and they won't do the right thing.



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185,296 It sucks because he's most likely dead and gone, a criminal with a tarnished name, but some part of me will always remember him as the first person to look me dead in the eyes and tell me i was beautiful.

Some serious shit went down at my high school, and I'm really glad I just wasn't involved.



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185,295 Some people are so despicable! I posted some information online about an upcoming Earth Day event. It was no big deal. I thought people might like to know about the event.  One woman went nuts on me, saying I was completely wrong. There is no such event and how dare I post false information. She called me a liar and a few other choice things. She really called me out saying she's blocking me and never wants to hear from me again. I didn't understand. I was just passing along info about an event.

Since then I've heard from the organizers. They say their event is going on as planned and I had all the info correct.

Just as a point of order, I sent the confirmation to the nasty woman. She owed me an apology. But of course I heard nothing back from her. She was wrong. Not me. Yet through the power of the internet, she gets to have a www.hissy_fit and then disappears when the truth is revealed. Sometimes the internet sucks.



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185,294 No, I do not want to connect to Debbie or Diane on LinkedIn.  I don't want them to see I fudged my job title and the length of time I was there.



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185,293 You'll never sell that house.

You're worshipping of Ivanka while the Donald worsens the housing market is your own damn fault.

Also, you rushed into buying that house while laughing at your friends wise enough to continue renting until they had savings enough to buy a decent home. People who sacrificed that much don't want your sad excuse for a house.

But go ahead and keep worshiping Ivanka while your finances fall apart. I assure you, she is not thinking about the little guy one bit.



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185,292 Oh my friend, the one sure fire way to lose a stream of information is to brag about it



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185,291 Came in a pussy yesterday. It's always a good day when I come in a pussy.



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185,290 you wanted a piece of me you chose not to help I gave you what you wanted my pain be grateful



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185,289 I met a woman through CL and the conversations we had were hot.  We chatted live, had lots of dirty sex talk, she sent me photos of herself.  She always had these great face pics, but they were in tight and always taken from above.  She also sent me a photo of her legs and boobs.  She described herself as Rubenesque.

We met, and I soon discovered she was not Rubenesque, she was morbidly obese.  Why would you lie about something like that?  Her gut was so big it had multiple levels, the part that stuck out under her tits, then there was a little bit of a shelf to put your beer on, and then the rest of her massive gut.  It hung low over her pooch.  I was put off.

You know what?  Be honest.  There are men out there who love heavy women.  Love them.  I do not.  It is a personal choice.  At first I felt absolutely horrible that I told her she was not my type.  She asked why and I said she was bigger than I thought.  She left, I felt like shit for telling her this, and I am sure she felt like shit, too.

And it all could have been avoided if she was honest up front.  You are not Rubenesque.  Look up the paintings.  I was angry at myself for being so honest, and now I am angry with her for putting me in that position.



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185,288 I am a middle aged man who loves women and the female body, I love all kinds of sex with women and currently have a steady girlfriend.  My secret is I love to let her strap on dildos and have her way with me.  Luckily she enjoys this very much also, it really turns her on to make me get on my knees and try to deepthroat for her.  She says its a real turn on to bend me over and fuck me hard.  What a lucky man I am.



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185,287 I think I'd be a great criminal. Humbleness aside for the moment, I'm very smart. That's the problem with criminals. They aren't smart. They dropped out of school. This is their downfall. They don't think ahead. They screw up and get caught.

But me, I'm extremely detail oriented. I plan things out so well. This is why my employer pays me so much. But imagine if I used my know-how to commit perfect crimes. I'd be great at it. It's something to consider. Maybe when I retire.



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185,286 Don't replace the door, replace the wife (or not)!



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185,285 I didn't tell you but I will wait for you.  The heart wants what the heart wants.



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185,284 Me and my husband made a deal many years ago , that all thought things werent going so well in our marriage we were never going to divorce until our kid was out of the house , I was going to stay at our second home and we were going to try our best to stay as a family even though we live in different houses.  Fast forward almost a decade later and things are great for the most part, we get together for holidays , vacations and weekends and do things together as a family but now out the blues he wants to build a small house next door so I can be closer, like seriously we only live 15 minutes apart our kid goes back and forth and spends the same amount of time on each house.  I love my husband like family but I wouldn't want to give my place , I like my small condominium there's plenty of space for two people and a small dog, I don't want a house , there's no need to get a ridiculous loan for something I don't want or need not just that but property taxes are ridiculous high where he lives .  He better get his idea out of his head , I think he is just bored since he retired too early , he needs to get a girlfriend or a hobby.



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185,283 People give me shit because I hang out with my dad a lot. Yeah, the guy with track marks on his arm and has had three friends OD and die in the past year is calling me a loser because I have a good relationship with my dad. Sorry I can't be cool like you and waste my life shoving needles in my arm, writing "deep" Facebook posts every five minutes, and sucking dick for drug money.

I never judged you and always considered you a friend, even when you were at your worst. But you fucked me over today, and I'm sick of trying to be there for you. Good fucking luck, man. Don't forget to wipe your ass after you're done shitting parasites in the gutter.



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185,282 Wow. So glad I got to see your new girlfriend up close and in person today. She's sooooooo unattractive. I'd love to give her makeup  tips so that her eyeliner doesn't look so 80's. Hope you can convince her to go to the gym with you. Fuck knows she needs it. Enjoy your rebound. Sorry you couldn't find someone hotter.



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185,281 Girl sending a message...swinging around in the pines. She didn't deserve this. We didn't need to cry. We are the ones that could have saved her.
We cry for her because we love her. It's okay. She was our child. She was my kin. If we could turn back time, we could have saved the day.  If we had time, we could have made them pay. Now they go on and pretend like nothing happened. Our child slipped away in the darkness.
Look there, it's a ghost. Meth and narcotics help them live with the ghost. They sweep it under the rug. They have to go on with their lives.
And still we dream of an answer, but at the end of the day, there are no answers. They call her name, but there is no answer. She sees the ground and is swept away in a flash.  
So do whatever it is that you are going to do. Stop and smell the roses. Smell the sweet air of the dismal grove. Raise a glass in tribute to this lost child. We will be okay. She will be okay.
Rest in peace sweet girl. Hopefully, you will get this message.



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185,280 Thank you for the reference and vote of confidence. I still adore you...from afar.



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185,279 I can't help but wonder if you still want my journey.



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185,278 I miss you so much. I'm in love with you and I'll never ever say it to your face.



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185,277 People lie when they say that killing yourself is selfish. Keeping a person alive that doesn't want to live is selfish. Killing yourself is generous. Share your pain with others. Make them understand. Only when you've lost something you realize the worth of it.



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185,276 Only people who don't understand what it's like to exist in a state of perpetual mental torture and suffering every single day for years, will tell people that suicide is selfish. It is not fair to tell someone that it's ok for them to live in horrendous pain just so people won't miss them. My family (including my husband) treat me like my misery and my brokenness is a nuisance, or they ignore it altogether. So on top of bearing my own pain I have to bear the responsibility for these people who will be in pain if I die on my shoulders, even though they couldn't care less that I am dead inside right now. Fuck this. If i have been forced to live like this for years, isolated too, the bunch of them can do the same. They will probably find that their lives are better off without me, since I'm so difficult to love.



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185,275 And get yourself tested for STDS. she cheated or is cheating on you.



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185,274 You know why she did that. There's only one answer...



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185,273 Maybe she fucked a dog.



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185,272 I'm loath to mention this. I hide it away in the back of my head. I try not to think about it. About a year ago my wife was out very late. She said she was going to an art gallery opening. I have no interest in such things. But my wife never misses the opportunity to go to a social event. The opening was from 6 to 8 in the evening. She said she'd be back shortly thereafter. She came home at 3 in the morning. I woke up as she came into the bedroom. She hurried into the master bathroom, which is a door off our bedroom. I could hear her grumbling and futzing around in there. I got up to make sure she was alright. The bathroom door was partly open and the light was on. Our bedroom was dark. So as I was approaching the doorway, I could see her, but she couldn't see me. She was standing there with no bottoms on, no pants, no underwear. She was rummaging around in the drawers of her vanity, one drawer after another. She was clearly looking for something. Finally, she searched in the cabinet under her sink. She sighed with a look of relief. She pulled out a small black bag. She took out a tube. It took me a moment to recognize. It was a tube of spermicide. I hadn't seen that in 15 or 20 years. It was used in the old days along with a diaphragm as a form a birth control.  She reached back in the black bag and pulled out the applicator. I think I stopped breathing at that point. I watched her fill the applicator with spermicide and then inset the goop into her vagina. Why would my wife feel the need to insert spermicide into her vagina at 3 in the morning after coming home from a party? Why? Why? Why? This is the question I hide away in my head. I can't deal with it.  



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185,271 259 - Have a big 28th birthday & do something special! You will remember it more than your 21st anyway. Plus, the people you have around you at 28 are probably much more special than the ones at 21.

I went to prom, it was fun and all, but at the end of the day it was just a party with expensive dresses.  At this age the memory of prom isn't all that important to me.  You're not missing out on much.  Move on, and enjoy your the rest of your 20s exploring this vast world! Do something you've never done before for your 28th birthday!

- A fellow 27 year old



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185,270 185247.....What 185269 said.  I totally agree. You keep playing right into her hand.



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185,269 185247 Provided that your garage door can still be raised, lowered and locked, don't replace it.  Don't replace the bumper on your wife's car, either.  She needs to be handled like a child: if you break your toys, too bad you won't be getting replacements.  Replacing the garage door would also signal to your wife that she got to you, because it would show that it bothered you enough for you to replace the door.  Act as if you're not bothered, leave the garage door as it is, and deny your wife the satisfaction of seeing you getting all busy and dealing with the problem of her creation.

When you're about to sell the house in connection with your inevitable divorce, then you can replace the garage door.



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185,268 I was planning to drop out before starting h.s. I was like, "nope, not gonna do it." Then in the wider environment of older and more interesting kids, I found my groove.
I keep having the same frustrating dream where I am in h.s., but instead of graduating and getting a diploma, I sort of dick around because I consciously know that it's all a bunch of bullshit.
That's what actually happened, except I managed to graduate anyway.
Yay! Fuck you, shit dreams!  



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185,267 Don't get the door fixed.



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185,266 185259 you can't keep reliving the past.  Truth is, there are many of us out here that didn't get those parties or invitations to the prom either.  Sometimes I wonder why I was so invisible, but better days came along.  They will for you too....more meaningful, important events and people.  Just try to live your life with happiness and no regret....   Hugs...



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185,265 Didn't have a 21st bd party.  I bought a beer just because I could but never drank it.



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185,264 I didn't get to go to the Junior Prom bc my boyfriend didn't want to go.  I did get to go to the Senior Prom and I wish I had never gone.  Prom is always built up to be something you will always look back on fondly.  Pssh, maybe for the kids who have ppl that care about them. The dress I picked out was around $40, my mother refused to help me buy it. She brought home a dress she borrowed from a friend that was purple, floor length and gaudy.  My boyfriend didn't want to be there and refused to dance with me. I was so embarrassed that we left halfway through the prom.  Needless to say, I didn't make Prom Queen, lol



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185,263 To say my mother in law is difficult would be like saying the Black Plague was difficult. We went out to dinner at a family friendly restaurant today. She screamed at a nine year old on her way out the door, calling the child a bimbo. That was the the END of the evening, after hubby and I insisted it was time to go. The rest of it wasn't any better. This happens every week. She tortures waiters, cries when we don't oblige her every whim, and complains about literally everything the entire dinner (even good news). It's unbearable. And this is her public persona. You don't even want to know what she's like in private.

There are a lot of reasons we don't have kids, but I'd be lying if I said she wasn't one of them. My husband is fully aware of the insanity. We're quietly scaling back on visits.



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185,262 i would like to apologize to the boys who I completely turned down when they asked me out or came onto me when I was younger. Looking back, I realize I hurt some of your feelings and I didn't mean to. I was so insecure That I honestly thought you were making fun of me. I didn't think I was the kind of girl that boys liked. I'm sorry.



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185,261 I was given a surprise 27th birthday party.  It was nice, but a lot of the people there were people who had treated me like complete shit the previous year.  There were some true friends there, of course, but 20 years later I still think about that party and cringe a little.  I think the bad people held it because they were trying to show the real friends that they were still "good" people.



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185,260 The thing is, in marriage, there is an implied commitment. Some people take this very seriously. Some people reinvent themselves every few years, and the stuff they once did in that marriage is rendered obsolete. Are there any sweeping statements that apply to all marriages? Maybe. I admire people who take their commitments seriously. It's not just about you. It's about your spouse and your family. You want your family to take you seriously, don't you? Credibility means nothing these days. People treat their friends, family, spouses like disposable dishware. It's trashy. If you can't handle the responsibility, don't get married in the first place. It seems like a harmless thing to do, but if it doesn't work out, it will expose you to an unfortunate side of life, and you have only yourself to blame. I use to hate hearing people say stuff like this, but this is real. You'll never quite know what to do with those missing, invisible years. Life goes on. New experience and loves take hold. It doesn't have to have a wrecked past. Those are choices.
Of the things I have some control over, having children and being a good parent is the most meaningful thing I have experienced in life. Marriage was probably one of the most meaningless.        
I wish I had taken the advice of others here and elsewhere when I had the chance. I'm okay with things on the whole, but there is a price for not listening. They warned me but I didn't listen. I believed.



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185,259 I'm 27 but still can't get over not having a 21st birthday party.I can get over most shitty events of my past but not this.
Also struggle with not having an 18th birthday party and not going to my prom.
Can anybody help me?



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185,258 love to those who can differentiate... I want to be myself and not get mad at ppl for being all they can for me... My relationship is not a relationship. She won't be my gf and I don't play games I just stress u out... Now I know how my ex bf felt ... I kind of foresaw this... Oh well. I'm grateful for the time left I hope I can change... I will have peace of mind by protecting my sanity from those who know they can abuse it



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185,256 Just fucking fire me already. Do it now. Do it so I can move on with my life. Do it so I can focus on my small business. Do it so I never have to punch a clock, or wear this stupid uniform, or fake sick to get a day off ever again.

I have so many other things I want to do with my life. I'm not going to be hurt if you pull the trigger. I'm going to be grateful. I'll mope for a day or two, take a week off to visit my family (who I haven't seen since Christmas), then I'll keep it moving.

But before I do that, I want you to fire me. I want you to look your best sales person in the eye (because you know I'm the best you have) and let them go. All because you're too scared to defend me to our corporate overlords. Fire me. I can hear it in your weak, wimpy little voice every time you call to check in. Just do it already. Because I'm not quitting just to make your life easier.



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185,255 I too have learned that same lesson your wise grandfather shared with you. I had a lover once who was so broken and miserable and the experience was detrimental to the well being of my children.  Some people will always choose victim-hood over accountability and constantly make unreasonable demands.

Letting go of that and working on myself has been liberating and affirming. I find I can still attract those type of people, but now I choose to include people who get out of their heads and look around.  I'm not discounting their story, it's important as well, now I just choose those on a path of self awareness and reconciliation.   I am forever grateful for what it taught me. I am a better person as a result.



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185,254 No matter the circumstances or how you feel about me now, I still think well of you. You are an amazing person, with a very good heart and a strong mind. You were a great friend to me. You  deserve to be nothing but happy and fulfilled. I hate thinking that you are being treated in a way that is less than you deserve and I hate that you seem to be walking around believing things that aren't true about me or about the situation. I can't really fix that, though, because you won't let me. Thank you for being yourself and giving me the brief opportunity to know you and see you for who you really are. I consider myself very lucky to have known you. I'll end here. Just know, no bad feelings on this end.



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185,252 One of the most profound pieces of wisdom I've heard was about 15 years ago at a work presentation we had during lunch.  The presenter was an older black woman from the ghetto. She said that when we go to bed at night, we should ask ourselves this question:

"Did I build today, or did I break today?"

Each day, she said, we have the choice as to whether or not make the world a better place.  During the day, we can build... or we can break.

That's stuck with me for a long, long time.



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185,251 The best advice I have ever heard came from my 88 old grandfather and it was about my soon to be ex husband. What he said was:

Love isn't always enough. There are some people that cannot be fixed and cannot be happy. It is better to let these people go then to let them effect your life or your children's lives.

I let him go. It was tough but 8 years later, I am happy. My kids are happy.
My ex is still doing the same thing he did with me. I wish him peace but I understand that there is something wrong with him.



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185,250 Like I would even take someone's abuse in at this point. I've said my bit. I worked hard on paintings for my mom to throw me to the wolves and throw out my paintings while my only friend ignored me. I need to know this friendship now is real. We both seek and hold back reassurance and it's stupid. I won't let your guys darkness in. I will be happy again. I'm with her now. Everyone does want me to suffer. My mom once admitted she was jealous. Now she tries to make me abuse her by having nothing to say but I love you when I talk about things. No one can give me advice. I wish my actual best friends from high school I should have put them above. I don't know no one likes me. I love myself bet that makes you mad



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185,249 You never seem to be able to blame the right person. You seem to be completely blind to how fucking crazy her behavior is, so you excuse it and blame everybody else...even the people who only wanted to help you. That's nuts. I would love to know what I supposedly lied about or what situation I was pretending was another way. I would love to know what bullshit stories were concocted about me to make you believe that. I never lied to you about anything. I didn't make up anything. Not once. Which is why you lashing out at me makes no sense. You want me to hate you, but I don't and I won't. I feel bad for you. You deserve so much more than to be treated that way no matter what her excuses are, but apparently you don't believe it. It takes one hell of a fucked up, conniving individual to do what she did, the way that she did it for as long as she did it, and then turn it around and try to make any part of that your fault or something that you deserve to be punished for. Why don't you see that? It sounds like it's more about control than anything else.

(And, for the record, I didn't write half...if any...of the posts that you seem to be attributing to me. That is also the truth. So please stop with the unfair assumptions and accusations. )



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185,248 when someone needs to talk to YOU and you give them a void to rot in. yes I hate you. I don't give a shit as long as you know that. you do. whatever.... if in see some dumb person sound like your bitchness and lying pretending the situation is one way, then ill ignore it. and obviously I'm not happy. I can't talk to her either. I am supposed to touch her and not get touched and not be considered her partner and know I'll never be home. ever



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185,247 Guy with the difficult wife here again. When it rains it pours. This morning I see the garage door is busted. There is a large vertical crack down the middle. Clearly "someone" backed the car into it. I asked my wife. She said she knows nothing about it. But she had that tone in her voice. The menacing tone. Like come now, who else could have done it? Someone broke into my garage and then backed their car into the door????

I checked more closely. There is blue paint on the door. There are scratch marks on the bumper of her blue car. I pressed her more. She finally admitted she backed her car into the garage door yesterday. She said she forgot to open the door before leaving. She backed into it.

A few things come to mind. Who doesn't open a garage door before trying to back out? Was it really an accident? There is a good possibility she did it on purpose. I'm reminded of all the times she has gone out of her way to cause a problem. This one is a winner. This time I'll bet it will cost $1,000 to get the door replaced. But also, she lied about it. She told me she had no idea what happened when she knew full well she had done it. It shows once again what kind of person I'm dealing with. Not only is she difficult about everything, she's dishonest. What a combination. She is the worst person I've ever encountered.



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185,246 We could have had it all. Money, that elusive thing that we've struggled to have enough of. Back breaking work, carefully planned and executed budgets. For 15 years, we haven't dropped the ball, we've worked together to maintain a decent lifestyle. Now I'm about to double our income, the answer to all our original problems. And what? The relationship goes down the toilet because I'm becoming empowered and independent as a result of becoming a professional, and it turns out, that's not the type of woman you can be married to. We could have had it all.
At least I know I'll have everything I now have minus a stress inducing baby boy for a husband. That's progress any way I look at it. But, goddamn if I don't want that doubled income lifestyle. Nice house, new cars, full wardrobe, disposable income. But that can't beat freedom. I came from not having it all, I've lived without having it all, and I'll continue to not have it all. Fuck the advertisements.



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185,245 I entertain the idea of sending him a message to ask him if, at any point in our relationship, he felt something genuine for me. For us. Truth is, I am afraid to know.



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185,244 Someone gets kicked in the balls. That person has a strong leg

That kick was easy because it was motivated by passion - You might have forgotten what that is like.

Maybe you never knew what that was in the first place.



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185,243 185221 my <3 absolutely bleeds for you.  Please get out ASAP.



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185,242 Love my wife and family, but wifey doesn't like to give oral. Every man needs oral.  If wifely won't do it someone else will. Just the way it is.



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185,241 *185221- You need to get out of your marriage ASAP! You do not deserve to live like that nor put up with that maniacal behaviour- your wife is a mean, vindictive, trouble making shrew! I wish you all the best.



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185,240 I am so sorry. I idealized love. I thought someone could take care of me. I am a sorry excuse for a human. My art is all I have. I will cut my losses. I thought I was right. She is allowed to hate me. I deserve this pain. You don't know my pain. Know I suffer in kind. Know I am sorry. And that I want to die. I just want to be free. How dare I smile. Every pain has a smile in it every joy I see darkness in. I dont want ppl to have to deal with me



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185,239 I really miss doing sex. I have not had one in 7 months.

My wife had me on sex probation for 7 months now.You wanna  know why? Right, this is it:

We had good sex all the time. Before having sex, we play a bit of romance for a while then we stop to do exchanges, I first go down on her, then she goes down  on me too before penetrations begin.

It only takes me a few minutes - about 9 to 12 - before I cum. When I go down on her it would take about 50 minutes or an hour.

The thing is she wants to cum till she can't cum no more before she allows penetration.

One night, we did our usual romance and I went down on her. I always go down on her first. She's responding to my licking in little movements of her downside and telling me how she is enjoying it. A few minutes later her movements quickened and in short breaths she grabbed my head to her vjj till she screamed and shivered. I knew right away that she had cum. She would released her grab on my head for a while so I could take a rest till the quiver was over. Then she told tell me to go on and give her another lick explaining she had not cum yet and that she was almost there when she quivered. Aah! Isn't quivering the same as cumming? I went ahead as she said thinking I could make it quick. By the time I realized, I was doing this for about fifty minutes or an hour, telling me anytime she quivered and scream that "honey I am almost there " until she finally could not take it anymore before she allowed me to penetrate. I couldn't even do the penetration for long.

My wife came more than 5 times in these minutes of great screams and sensations only to tell me she came in the last show. Jesus Christ! That's how it happens every time. My jaws always get hurt and my tongue feels like it wants to bruise.

The next night during romance, she wanted me to go down on her and I intentionally said "my jaws and my tongue is bruised so I can't do it tonight ". Oh, that was all! She went down on me for only two minutes and said her downside also feels bruised so she wouldn't allow me to penetrate until it is healed.

Oh Jesus Christ, it has been 7 months now and her cunt has still not been healed from a simple bruise.

I am planning on fucking somewhere else one of these days. Maybe I will be fucking her close friend who has been coming to our house, or I would just be fucking somewhere else she doesn't know.
I don't know yet. Maybe I would be doing that; maybe I would not :(

M/36 [ married and in want of sex ]






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185,238 I changed my daughter's name. When she was born I officially named her ****** on her birth certificate. A few years later on I decided I didn't like her name. I paid about $200 and changed her name. I've wondered if this messed her up. I called her one thing. Then I started calling her a different thing. A funny side note. Some people I don't see often would come up to me and ask how my daughter ****** was doing. They would use the old name. I'd correct them and say my daughter's name is xxxxxx. I'd use the new name. I never feel like explaining I had her name changed. They act all embarrassed that they got my daughter's name wrong. It's not their fault, but I never tell them that.



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185,237 I will search for you through a thousand worlds and ten thousand lifetimes until I find you...



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185,236 I wish I was a girl. Then I could wear pretty dresses and twirl. I like to twirl.



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185,235 You have spent the day bashing my wife on facebook. You have done this to other people in the past. I spent the day getting all of your personal information to give to the next scam suspect I come in contact with. I've done this to people like you before. I come in contact with them often due to work. You have been running wild fucking in my garden and disturbing my family's peace. We are not trash that go on Facebook and feed trolls like you. You don't know me because I  have made no attempts to meet you. You are trash. Your whole family is trash. You have been fucking with all of these small town bible thumping fake ass morons. You have never met a mother fucker like me. I want to make you pay a pound of flesh. I will settle for a pound of your emotional sanity. I will also take a pound from each one of your family members. You have mistaken quietness for weakness.  I will wait for different months for each of you. I want to stretch it out for a long time. I have held off from doing this because I was hoping you would go away. You are dedicated to causing us problems. I am now dedicated to hurting you slowly for a very long time.



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185,234 The secret ingredient in my meatloaf is Spam. It's not a real food but it tastes so damn good!



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185,233 I KNOW HOW IGNORANT I AM.



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185,232 My wife says she read a book once before she met me. I don't believe her. I don't think she has ever read a book.



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185,231 I don't care when somebody does a public shooting.  Society should be nicer, then this wouldn't happen.



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185,230 People point the finger when you've hurt them. You point it back it means you wanted to.



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185,229 Meds don't change the things stressing people out its just something people use to make unhappy people feel worse "you need help" stress does not go away with meds u have to deal with it and confront others on their bullshit. Or not just deal with yourself. You have no idea what I'm capable of. Maybe you will never know. I am a selfish person who wants to talk about myself and blame everyone but today I listened to an old man and he made me cry. He has a tumour and $2000 savings trying to choose between knocking on his exes door in another city or something else I forgot



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185,228 There's an electrician who comes in to my workplace from time to time for wiring and such. I'm so attracted to him. I love the guy who dresses in jeans, work boots,  and a t shirt. The kind who isn't afraid to get his hands dirty at work.  I think the feeling is mutual. There's very low key flirting that goes on while he's around, however, I'm not sure if he's just being polite or if he's flirting back. Today is casual day so we are allowed to wear T shirts. I have a relatively tight t shirt on, and my boobs, well, they're enormous. It's impossible not to notice them, especially when I'm in this t shirt. I took off my jacket while he was around so that he was sure to see my figure. He took notice. I caught him looking more than once. I swear I'd fuck him in a second. I do think he feels the same.

We both wear wedding rings on our left ring  finger, but hey, I can have my fantasy, right?



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185,227 April is alcohol awareness month. I'm doing my best to get acquainted with liquor...



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185,226 If you are getting upset and being overly emotional at work all the time, people probably view you as mentally unstable. They appease you because they don't want you shooting up the place.



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185,225 I just talked to the sexiest sounding man on the phone. Mm...Boston accent. Can't lie. Got a little wet.. I don't know why, but Yankees always do it for me.



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185,224 Sometimes psychotropic medication can be a wonderful thing. I wouldn't recommend it for everybody, but some people could really benefit.



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185,222 it should be funny she perpetuated my pain with little fake avoidance of my love question. i do not go WAY out of my way to bother u but u wouldnt lift a pinky for me and thats worse. i don't care for u i am over it. i think u enjoy feeling i still care. good luck with that because u wont get another piece of my soul.as tho the very few messages i send to tell u this that u reply "i don't agree with you" to are anything but bullshit. your anger at me is your business. it should be funny someone getting off on my pain but it's not. you are so full of shit. "i have a really scary bisexual secret" WHHOOOOP DEEEE DO try to be real now in YOUR life. blocked



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185,221 I'm the guy with the world's most difficult wife. It's been a while. A new story. It was snowing a few weeks ago. The temp outside was in the teens. I turned to my wife and suggested I start a fire in the fireplace to keep the place cozy.

I went out to the back porch to get an armful of firewood. I was only wearing a t shirt and jeans, but no big deal, I was going to be outside for less than a minute. Or so I thought.

When I tried to bring the wood inside, the backdoor was locked. We never lock the back door. We never lock any door. We live in an incredibly safe place. There is no crime.

I knocked on the door. No answer. How could there be no answer? I was just talking to her. How could she not hear me knocking on the door?

I started to get very cold. I went around to the front door. It was locked too. I can't remember the last time the front door was locked.

She was up to her difficult tricks. I went outside without a coat. She saw that as an opportunity to cause a problem. She locked the doors so I would freeze.

I pounded and pounded. Still no answer.  After a few more minutes I had to get into my car and start the engine and turn on the heat.  I waited.

How long would this sickening game of hers take?

About half an hour later. The house door opens. I finally get back inside. She puts on her oh so innocent voice and asks why I didn't come back inside sooner and start the fire. She said she was really looking forward to the fire...

I didn't want to play along. I didn't want to acknowledge her in any way what so ever. Because that's what she wants. That's what she lives for. She wants to hear how she caused me trouble.

I stayed silent. So she chimed in. "Oh, were you locked outside? Were you knocking? I didn't hear you, I was in the shower..."

Right, that was all part of her plan. Lock me out and leave me in the cold for half an hour. And then claim she couldn't hear me knocking because of the shower.

It's still hard to believe that she can be so calculating and evil. I fucking hate every ounce of her menacing self. I can't wait to get out of this marriage.



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185,220 It's sweet how people try to make me feel better when I'm visibly upset at work. It's kind of annoying though, because my bosses still pepper my day with little shows of disrespect or inconsideration when I'm not in a sour mood. So they'll be nice to me and try to make me laugh, until I go back to normal. Then it's back to the status quo.

My other coworkers are sincere about it, which is nice. Sometimes though, I wish I were just allowed to be in a shitty mood without people arbitrarily trying to make me be happy again. It doesn't feel healthy to have my negative expression curbed whenever I try to express it, because the actual reasoning behind my bad moods doesn't ever go away.

Plus it also feels like I'm a child they're giving candy to so she'll just shut up



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185,219 All of these years and you still go wayyy out of your way to try and hurt me. What in the actual fuck is wrong with you? Sorry I'm not a lesbian and I didn't want to be your friend that way. But you gotta move on!



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185,218 I lied. Being alone terrifies me more.



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185,217 MAC computers are so poorly designed. It shouldn't take 45 minutes of hair-pulling agony to print a page. There are so many platforms and so many versions of software and so many network issues and so many design flaws, that computers today are not functioning correctly. It's a huge pain in the ass. I'd rather go back to paper and pencil.



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185,216 I'm a good girl.  The guys I talk to want to fuck me but no one wants anything serious, and I think when they sense I am a real deal good girl, girlfriend material they get scared.  They sense I am open to more than a fling so in their eyes I am "clingy."



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185,215 YOU GOT YOUR WISH EVERYONE WHO PERPETUATED MY PAIN BY FEIGNING IGNORANCE TO MY TRUTH AND DENYING ME ACTUAL HELP AND MAKING ME WORSE I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I HATE AND LOVE EVERYONE SO MUCH THAT THEY CANT HANDLE ME AND IM A JOKE. EFF YOU



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185,214 Are there any women out there who can truthfully say that they've never been raped/molested/sexually abused or harassed? Maybe there is hope for my daughter.



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185,213 I'm afraid Trump just started World War Three. That didn't take long.



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185,212 When I was a sophomore in college, I would sometimes hang out in my boyfriend's dorm room while he was working 3rd shift and wait for him to come home. One night, I was asleep in his bed and he came back around 3 a.m. and just started fucking me rough while I was asleep. He didn't talk to me or even try to wake me. It was so unlike him to be so forceful with me. I kept trying to turn around to look at his face but it was dark and he had me from behind. He didn't respond to me calling his name. He finished quick and walked back out of the room (the bathroom was out there) and came back in a few minutes later, turning on the lights and talking to me as if none of that had just happened.

That was about 17 years ago. I don't know why it popped into my head again just recently or why it took me so long to realize that that man that fucked me was not my boyfriend.



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185,211 Well.. even my husband hates me... I think it may finally be time for me to die without worrying about the people i leave behind.



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185,210 Sometimes all you really want is for someone to take your face in their hands, look you in the eyes, and say, "I don't care what lies anybody else has told you. I don't care about the lies you have told yourself. You are enough."



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185,209 Sometimes I feel this intense longing for human connection, to feel someone's naked body pressed all over mine. Then I masturbate to completion and go on about my business. It helps the cravings for a lover subside.

Ohhh, but there's this guy that comes to my house a couple times a week...people tell me I can do better (I can, but he's a nice guy), but I know I could snag him if I wanted



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185,208 no one could possibly give a shit about what i have to say



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185,207 205 we want the same thing buddy



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185,206 It wasn't just security I wanted someone to understand my deficiencies and forgive and accept me and you turn me on I dreamed I landed on you and it felt like a bed of flowers



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185,205 I want a good girl.

Nice Guy 37



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185,204 I've read secrets on other pages where people confess to having all sorts of deviant sexual desires.  Fucking animals, and even pedophilia,  Me, I just want to fuck beautiful Asian women in their 20s.  Guess I'm not such a bad guy.



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185,203 none of this would have ever happened to me if I could manage my own money ONE doctor had the power to write that order just because I bought concert tickets for my friends and they FORGOT THEM AND DIDNT EVEN GET TO GO sarah silvermans show whatever years ago living in the past because its too much to process maybe I just like the drama I dont know NO I DO NOT LIKE DRAMA ITS PEOPLE WHO SEE THEY CAN CREATE PAIN IN ME THAT JUST flick me when I beg for forgiveness and cant stop talking they perpetuate it I remember I have been so violated by everyone my mother I will never forgive u will all go to hell before u get to heaven based on your heart u will yes you pervert will be a distant cold cold cold cold burning star that none of the others care about. I know they have pictures of me and they like pretending their little jerkoff actions manipulate me like their stupid penis is a friggen voodoo doll.



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185,202 I dabble in assumptions...

Why not? Seems harmless. I'm up for an adventure.

It's about where we come from. We get each other. I see that now. There is a side that I will never understand, but that is a healthy mystery, or so I am told. The other side of things that I was waiting to discover. I never mentioned that. I wanted to know more. I wanted to go further. I'm so stupid sometimes. I'm out of sync with what is happening in real time. I'm so much better now. Still stupid, but better.

If it is protection, then fine. It is what it is. Someone asked me the other day how you were doing. It was our anniversary. (I didn't mention that) I just said you disappeared. Showed up in my dreams the next morning. That was unusual. Anyway, just sending a shout out on this old wind telephone. take care



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185,201 I want u to know I didn't lie about loving him AS A FRIEND OR WAIT I TRIED TO LOVE I DO NOT NO WAY YOU KNOW YOURE SCUM THINKING I WANTED THAT I offered him the "girlfriend experience" in exchange for HELP and HE COULDNT HELP AND I COULDNT GIVE HIM ANYTHING BUT MY BODY 3 TIMES. I WENT UNDER FINANCIALLY LOST MY PUPPY AND FINALLY IM OUT OF THAT GUYS LIFE AND HE IS A GOOD GUY AND IM SORRY



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185,200 if its ever too late to do the right thing, or to make something right with another, we're all screwed.



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