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185,499 What bizarre behavior from Hernandez. He killed a relative's fiancee? He killed someone who spilled a drink? No murder is normal. But Hernandez's killings go ever further. I wonder if brain damage is involved from getting bashed in the head so often while playing football.



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185,498 Fuck Aaron Hernandez. Rot in hell, you weak piece of shit.



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185,497 My libido has so deserted me over the past few years that I sometimes find myself wondering what all the fuss was about.  I guess that means that I'm now vagina-immune.

M/60+



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185,496 I'm glad he's dead.



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185,495 I just had my lover in bed with me screaming her head off all night until we finished off together. Even with the windows closed, I'm sure the neighbors heard us!

I love it when they lose count of the orgasms I give them!
M 51, She's 55  :)



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185,494 Guys, if you want to make a woman squirt you have to use two fingers and your tongue. Get a little rough. Suck her clit...tease her lips with your tongue at first--go very very slowly up and down, nibble a little (no teeth, just lips!), then speed up with your tongue, then slow down again, then shove your tongue deep inside her when she least expects it, tongue fucking her then cupping her clit with it while you use your fingers to fuck her as she cums in your mouth. Alternate back and forth, going fast and slow. Tease her. Push her over the edge, then speed up just as she's getting relaxed... Totally fuck her world up. You'll see it in her face when it's about to happen. There is this face that a woman makes when she just can't take it anymore... So erotic.  

And I should know because I am a woman and I've experienced this from both angles. Hee hee...



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185,493 I'm not happy until I daydream about living my last day before I die.  Not thinking about the future and just enjoying the moment really helps.  I don't mean doing something stupid like blowing all my money in one day or something, but just enjoying the day and not worrying about the future.  I haven't done this in years.



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185,492 I'm really stoned. Like, really fucking stoned, and when I get this stoned, I like to put the negative filter on my phone because looking at pictures and shit like that always trips me out. So I'm going to the usual sites. Facebook, everyone looks like aliens. YouTube, cartoons are weeeeird on a negative screen. Then Reddit…only when I go onto Reddit, I notice one photo that looks normal. When I clicked on this image, it was indeed normal. This completely put my head in a spin, "What are the chances!".

But as I'm writing this out and having to remember the entire experience, I realize how fucking stupid and uninteresting this all is. If I read this on here, I'd think "…so this guys retarded…"

I think I'm retarded.



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185,491 Glad I could be of assistance, 490. :) Don't wait for it. Go out and get it, tiger!

(a fellow f/35)



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185,490 Yessssssssss!

Oh my God I need to get laid.

I haven't had that kind of sex since my 20s.

Shit I need a cigarette after reading that post and I haven't smoked in years.

35/f wondering when that kind of sex will show up again in my life



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185,489 BELIEVE! When the tip of a man's cock rubs your clit and he goes as deep as he can inside of you and pounds the ever living FUCK out of you until you're shaking all over, your teeth are chattering, all the neighbors know you're fucking because you're so damn loud, your head is banging against the headboard but you don't give a shit because it's so worth it, your sheets are dripping with cum, and you fall off and land on the mother fucking floor and are still going at it till you almost pass out and you are completely fucking spent and can't walk for a few days, I think that...yes, perhaps it may just be as good for a woman as it is for a man.


Enough for you?

Now cut it out!



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185,488 I refuse to believe that women get the same amount of pleasure form sex that the man gets. The entire concept just seems fundamentally impossible to me.



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185,487 If you are 40+ and are still living for (and creating) high school drama, there is something seriously wrong with you.



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185,486 -480 please, please, please do what 482 suggested; you can prevent an innocent child from becoming yet another victim. This is horrific. Good luck & keep us posted.



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185,485 There's a certain kind of spammy virus email making the rounds for the last year or so where the content is just a link to a website and .php file.

The email is very easy to spot.

But I have to ask. If the email is so obvious, why does my email provider allow it to get through? Why doesn't their email server stop the virus message from being delivered?

I think the email providers like spam and viruses. It means innocent people like me are logging in when we see there is a message. It means we are exposed to more ads in the margins. It means the email provider makes more money.

How sick is that? They intentionally let us get exposed to a virus so they can profit.

That's corporate greed for you!



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185,484 I had a friendly and informative hour long meeting with the Superintendent of Schools. I then posted all my questions and his answers online so our community could have more information about the upcoming budget vote. The next day I received a snide phone call from the Super telling me I had no right to share what was said in the meeting.

What? He is a public official. His salary comes from tax dollars. I didn't sign a confidentiality agreement with him before the phone call. That would be crazy. Of course I'm allowed to share what was said in the phone call.

I think public officials are out of control. They have this sense of entitlement.

It's horse shit. It's kind of what's wrong with the entire nation. Public officials need to understand their place on the ladder. It's on the same step as the rest of us.



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185,483 If we don't sin, Jesus died for nothing... Just saying'



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185,482 480- mail an anonymous note to all your neighbors on your block, include yourself and the guy.  if you're able to let the people on the websites know where he lives. maybe they can sue him. it may make other victims come to light.



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185,481 476-thank you for sharing this. It takes guts even on a site like this to be that open. People are so quick to judge. I was to that point too not that long ago. I still haven't told anybody.



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185,480 Not sure what to do about this. I have a very difficult neighbor. He's a crotchety old man who comes into my yard and yells at me that my lawn mower noise bothers him, or the leaves falling from my trees are landing on his grass.

He strikes me as "off". But it's more than just his yelling, he's creepy.

So I looked him up online to see if there's a history I should know about.

Sure enough, what a background. Back in the 1960s and 1970s, he taught at private schools. About 10 years ago one of his former students started a blog on how he was molested by this guy. Other former students joined in the conversation, saying how they too were victimized.  These are people who don't even know each other. They are from different schools and even different countries (because after getting fired so many times in the USA, he eventually started teaching abroad.)

He has never been arrested. And the statute of limitations has apparently expired. So this guy is free to walk around.

I think back to an incident two years ago. It was before I knew about his sordid sexual history. He had house guests, a young family with a son.  I noticed they were staying with him for a couple of days. Then one evening I heard yelling, very angry yelling. I couldn't make out the words, but the boy's parents were very upset. They drove off that night. I can only think the worst...

So what do I do now? It seems like this guy is still up to his old tricks. But I have no hard evidence. Maybe the boy's parents from two years ago do, but I have no idea who they are. I'm guessing they never informed the police if anything sexual did go on.

So I'm just supposed to wait around until I see another young boy over there?? Legally there has to be a better way. Our laws should help prevent any more occurrences.  This guy has slipped through the cracks for too long.



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185,479 That was probably the nicest evening I've had in many years. I just wish I wasn't such a goob.



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185,478 I fired someone because she sent me an email addressed to another person by accident.



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185,477 Sure...if you want to bleed internally and have irreversible liver damage.



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185,476 I've lost 20 pounds since January. I'm still nowhere close to being where I want to be, but it's a start. Maybe it sounds superficial, but my self-esteem and weight go hand in hand. They always have. This is only a small part of my journey, though. Up until a few months ago, I hated myself. I was so depressed I didn't give a damn about anything. My weight was just a symptom of everything else that was wrong, not a cause. I figured that nobody would want me anyway so it didn't matter. I saw nothing good in myself. I saw nothing worth saving.

I had given up on myself completely. I just wanted to be drunk and forget about everything. I thought that I was washed up and my life was over. Even though it was irrational, that belief was so deeply embedded in my brain that I stopped caring about everything. I just gave up. It's amazing how your mind can defeat you. You become learned helpless and you're drowning in three feet of water, but it feels so real to you.

My mind was my hell. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital because I tried to kill myself. I had lost my grip on reality. I was out of my control. I had become this person that I didn't recognize and didn't really care about. I was indifferent to myself; indifferent to existence in general. It's funny how your darkest moments can become these points of light, though. The people that I met in the hospital were not what you would expect. They were incredibly intelligent, quirky, funny, creative, vibrant...they had everything to live for, but like me, they had let one or two other people and their own dark thoughts wreak havoc inside of their heads to the point where they had forgotten their worth and had abandoned hope in favor of despair. 

I think about how many people succeed and snuff their own light out when, in reality, they could just stand up in that proverbial three feet of water and walk back to shore. I invested so much of my time and energy into lies and false beliefs. Anything positive that people said I rejected. Anything negative about myself I latched onto like a stone junkie. I don't know why. Fear of success maybe? Fear of failure? That's the more likely answer.  Something snapped inside of me, though. Being broken became untenable. Finally. Thank God.

Misery can only be comfortable for so long before it no longer becomes sustainable. You either let it guide your hand and take your own life or you get better.  I had to get up off the ground. Something deep inside of me refused to give up and give into the demons.  I am proud of this. I'm not proud of all of the knots that I had to slip down to make it to the end of my rope, but I am proud of that strong, relentless force inside of me that wouldn't give up.

The point of my rambling is this--never give up. Your life is beautiful even when it seems like it isn't going where you want it to go fast enough or isn't amounting to much in that particular time and place. You may feel like you are worthless and like everything is over for you, but this is all an illusion. Things can always change. One step forward is still a forward motion. You are not alone. You are beautiful. You are important. You are needed.

Please, when you feel like you are at the end, keep going. Don't stop. You will survive. I promise you. I did and I will. Keep on going. The story isn't over yet.



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185,475 I hate those Charmin bears, but dammit it is good toilet paper.



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185,474 185470.  Don't be quiet! Shout it from the mountaintops!!! Your child deserves better, never see those people again. They aren't worth your time. I hope you got her therapy. Also, I would have your daughter file a police report.



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185,473 For some reason I'm feeling really nervous about putting my music out there. But I've been holding onto it for too long, and I need to do SOMETHING with it.

Here's to leaving my comfort zone...



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185,472 But, to quote FBI Special Agent Dale Cooper, "You need a friend more right now."



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185,471 My work wife and I were eating lunch together today, like always. We were sitting on a park bench on a hill near our job, just talking about our weekends and talking shit about our bosses. She's in the middle of a story about this guy we met at the park the other day, and she stops and says "Why do you have that look on your face? You look like something happened and you don't want to tell me."

I had just been smiling in what I thought was an attentive manner, but apparently I looked like I had a secret lover. She asked me if I'd gone on any dates or talked to any of the guys in my life, and I told her, truthfully, no.

For a second though, I thought, maybe it's just because I'm looking at you.

I love her guys, I really do. We've become closer friends over the last 6 months than we've been in the 3 years we've known each other. We've already said "I love you" as friends, and we're very compatible as people. We make each other laugh, we can hang out and do nothing but talk, and we're there for each other.

I don't think I'll tell her, but she's one of those few women that I find myself attracted to romantically. She says she's bisexual (only sexually, not emotionally), and either way I don't know how well we would work with her father being one of the bosses here. Plus, I just don't want to ruin the beautiful friendship we have. If something is meant to happen, I can wait.



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185,470 An odd tale. When my daughter was 3, she was molested by her older cousin. This did not make me happy. The whole thing was twisted. She was molested on several different occasions. But no one told me. It was only when I discovered the boy in the act that the prior incidents came to light.

How could the other adults not tell me? I could have kept a close watch on the situation if they had informed me after the first incident. Don't they see how wrong that was to keep it a secret? Ugg.

It got worse. The adults who dropped the ball on this then started bad mouthing me AND MY 3 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER! They said I was a terrible parent and knew nothing about raising children. They insisted that child molestation is a normal part of growing up. WHAT!!!!!!! They also tried to claim my daughter was the instigator. Like holy shit, do they really think a 3 year old molested her much older boy cousin? I'm a peaceful person, but the adults needed to be beaten in the head at that point.

Years have gone by. The molestation has not been discussed in a long time. I just recently saw everyone involved, the children, now grown, and the offensive adults.

I look at the children in the molester's family. They have tattoos. One has tattoos on her hands. Another has a tattoo on her face. They are grossly overweight. They dropped out of college. I think they work as waiters and waitresses.

By contrast, my children have won all sorts of academic awards, not just in school, but on the State and National level too.

Yet according to the molester's parents, I know nothing about raising children. But they do.

I don't bring it up. I don't say anything. They are related to me through marriage. If they weren't, I'd never see them again. But unfortunately, they can't be entirely avoided, so I just keep my distance as much as possible and shake my head at how some people just aren't worth dirt. And it's these people who try to put the conscientious parents down.



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185,469 My husband needs to wipe his bottom better. Just sayin'



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185,468 I know a kid who was recruited into an ivy league college while in 8th grade. He was in a few honors classes back then and played lacrosse. The combination got him accepted four years early.

Here we are four years later. He is a senior in high school. He stopped taking honors classes because he's not a great student. He's mediocre and never speaks up in class.  He's in no way a shining academic star. I'll bet I could name 100 kids who get better grades.

Each week I read the sports section of the local newspaper. Never once has his name appeared for scoring a goal or making a play. There is nothing about him. I'm not even sure he's still on the lacrosse team.

But he'll be going to an ivy in September. What a dumb system.



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185,467 During my divorce, my ex - a LEO - hacked my email account.  So I closed it and opened several other accounts with different providers (not Google).  One was just for communication with him and my attorney.  One was for friends and subscriptions, and the third was solely for my aunt and uncle, who are like my parents since mine passed away.

That third one is under a completely fake name, fake DOB, fake zip code.  I kept my ex's last name for the kids, and am remarried now, so I haven't used my maiden name in over 20 years.  It's different from my aunt and uncle's last name, and their email was also created with false information for this purpose.  There is nothing showing any connection or relation between us.  So tell me why I am getting spam emails in that account using my first and maiden name???



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185,466 During my thirties I went back to school to get a Graduate Diploma in Computing at a technical college in my city.  The final and most onerous part of the course was the Case Study, for which we were required to form teams and each team to collectively submit a suite of programs fulfilling specifications provided by the Case Study supervisor.  Unlike the other members in my team, I already had some experience working as an unqualified programmer, and did some programming as a hobby as well.  I knew that I was the best man for the job (we were all male), and I think the others realised that as well, which is presumably why they nominated me as team leader.  I assigned two of the four interactive programs to myself, along with all of the batch reports, and entrusted the next best man with the other two interactive programs, while the remaining team members could deal with producing the documentation.

I took a few weeks off my day job for the Case Study, and soon fell into a routine of going to bed late afternoon, waking up towards midnight, having a shower, and then driving to the computer lab at tech to work overnight until around 6am, and then drive home before the traffic got heavy.  It was pretty quiet in the lab, and response times on the mainframe were at their best during those hours.  There's a saying that there's no shift like night shift, and I loved working on my programming during those graveyard hours.  It felt liberating being able to work on it at times that suited my temperament, rather than at times dictated by office hours convention.  It was also apparently very productive: our team topped the class in Case Study.



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185,465 And so loneliness returns.



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185,464 I think the happiest I've ever been was when I worked freelance as a computer programmer. I'd wake up in the evening, work through the night, then sleep all day. There was a 24 hour market on my corner. I'd stop in there and get take-out food several times a day. Other than that, I'd be home working and most important of all, I'd have no interaction with people. That was key to my happiness. Very minimal contact with people. People always disappoint.



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185,463 I get paid twice a month. 8th and the 23rd. I've been overdrawn since the 10th and don't get paid again for a week. Not sure how I'll survive. I'm so tired of working my ass off to barely scrape by.



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185,462 I have multiple Gmail accounts for my online activity.  The one I use for work - the important one - is not connected to anything else.  YouTube is connected through a different account, and so is Facebook.  Occasionally, I will put my important e-mail address into Google's search engine to see if it shows up anywhere.  Nothing so far.



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185,461 Save yourself. No other human being deserves your soul. Trust me on this.



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185,460 His grip is tightening and I can't escape. I feel the demise of my soul just around the corner.



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185,459 455 – It's Google, right?  I wouldn't touch Gmail with Kim Jong-un's dick, but I have a Google account so that I can login to YouTube when the need arises.  Every now and again when I'm trying to login to YouTube, Google harps at me for my mobile phone number and tries to block me from proceeding further until I give in to their demand, but I manage to get around it when it happens.  Like hell they're getting my phone number.  If they're that concerned about being able to contact you via alternative means in an emergency, why don't they offer the option of you giving them an alternative (non-Gmail) email address instead ... hmmm?

I furthermore would not trust Google after an episode where they revealed my previous YouTube (ie, Google) handle to an online vendor that I was dealing with.  Like with everything else that I do on the 'Net to keep personas segregated from each other, I used a handle that was solely for YouTube.  The only people who knew my previous YouTube handle were Google and myself.  I had no reason or occasion to disclose it to anybody else.

My email provider is a pay service located in Norway, and the only way that they'll disclose your personal information is if compelled to by a Norwegian court order.  I have a number of different alias email addresses set up there to provide to different parties – again, for purposes of segregation.  For my YouTube account, I gave Google what I think of as my "dodgy" email alias.  It's potentially disposable, and I used it for risky purposes such as YouTube – YouTube being a risk because of the teenage trolls that infest it.  I also give the "dodgy" email alias to online vendors with whom I don't expect to have an ongoing customer relationship.

So, I ordered some goods from an online vendor, and used the "dodgy" email alias to communicate with them.  Imagine my shock when they emailed me back, and I saw my YouTube handle filled in as my name in the addressee line in their email!  The vendor was using their own business domain name in their email address, but that doesn't mean that they mightn't have been using Google email services underneath it.  I deleted my YouTube account, created a new one, and associated it with a brand-new email alias that was just for Google – nobody else.  When I login to my YouTube account, I do it on a different, spare browser, and when I'm done, I clear all of the cookies / history / cache / everything before closing that other browser.

A few months ago I acquired my first smartphone, and found it was more or less indispensable to use Google Play for obtaining apps.  I created yet another brand-new email alias just for Google Play and associated that with my Google Play account.  It appears that Google have not been able to connect my plain Google account with my mobile telephone number.  Otherwise, they wouldn't need to harp at me for it when I attempt to login to my plain Google (YouTube) account.

You have every right to be suspicious.



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185,458 I fell off that pedestal you put me on. Fucking hurt.



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185,457 Today I suggested to my wife that we go for a walk. It was a beautiful day and a holiday. Perfect for a stroll.

She agreed.

But then she does what she always does....

She noticed I was wearing a sweatshirt. She instructed me to take it off. I declined. It's Spingtime. It's not 90 degrees outside.

"Why are you wearing a sweatshirt... you don't need a sweatshirt... it's nice outside.... why don't you take off the sweatshirt... You should take it off... Who wears a sweatshirt on a nice day... no one wears a sweatshirt on a nice day... you should take off the sweatshirt..."

In the hour before leaving for the walk, it's all she spoke about. I started counting how many times she mentioned the sweatshirt. It surpassed 20 in the first 5 minutes. And she didn't stop there. She labored on for an entire hour about the sweatshirt.

She gets this way. It's like a form of OCD. She gets it into her head that there is nothing more important than what she wants at that moment. She has to have it. She has to convince me to do things her way.

Imagine living with her everyday. It's the sweatshirt today. It was about watching a DVD yesterday. "When are we going to watch the movie... when... when... when..."

She couldn't be more annoying.

The question must come up, why did I marry her? She wasn't this way during the courtship. It's as if she knew to bite her tongue. It must have been killing her to be on good behavior. But right after the wedding, she changed.

I've never felt so duped about anything in my life.



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185,456 Got plenty of exercise today. An hour and a half of cardio followed by an hour of hardcore fucking. :-) Sore and a little bruised, but oh so worth it......Being tongue fucked & cumming all over his face was the best part.



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185,455 OK, I am now sooooooo very suspicious. I've had an email account for years with the same popular website. Everyday I login to check my email. It's never been a problem.

About two months ago, as I logged in, I started to get a new popup message. They wanted me to give them my cell phone number "to keep the account secure". They explained that if I ever couldn't get access to the account, they would use the cell phone number to send me a new password.

I wasn't buying it. It sounded like a ploy to get my cell phone number for their records. That's what they do, they try to get all the information they can about everyone.

So anyway, today I tried to login and guess what? I can't. It says my password is incorrect. Gee, I guess I should have given them my cell phone number after all....

I call BS. I think they disabled my password to teach me a lesson. I mean why would my password suddenly not work after all these years? Who are they fooling with that trick?

I think it's terrible. I feel like I'm being bullied into giving up my private information! To hell with them. I'll get an email account elsewhere.



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185,454 so alone, black on black

It hurts when you cut in two

no help for my mind



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185,453 It's Easter and mom and I were talking about chocolate on the phone. She says, "you really need some self control."

Mind you she's 5ƍ" and a size 24 waist. I'm 5Ƌ" and a size 12, not where I want to be, but definitely not hugging 300lbs like she is.

As we go to hang up she calls me "Willy" as a joking reference to my lack of willpower.

My mom is a bitch and a hypocrite.  I'm so glad I moved so far away from her.



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185,452 DON'T SEND ME RELIGIOUS MEMES SAYING "CHRIST DIED FOR YOU" AND "HE HAS RISEN"!!!!!!!

I'm Jewish duh. Leave me alone already!!!!



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185,451 I've seen that distant look before...It's the "You've been all over me and inside me with your cock, but I don't know you now."-look.

It's not for everybody. Remember, it's a stare that comes only from having been turned out in every direction.

It simply says, "I fell for you once, but it ain't happening again."

A true look of indifference is hard to pull off under these circumstances.  The ones that pull it off effectively are a menace to society.



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185,450 434 here. Thank you for encouragement!!! I'm going to take a break till the middle/end of summer and then start dating again. Hopefully, the right man will come, I want to be in a committed mutually enjoyable relationship.



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185,449 I'm forcing myself to go spend time with him because that's the smart thing to do and he's a great person and I should be happy, but the only one I want to see is you.



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185,448 OK... my wife wants to know what I want for my upcoming birthday.

Here it is:

I want to find a young guy to come over to our house and while she's on top of me sucking my cock and I'm eating her out, the other guy is fucking her "doggie style". I want to be that close and see her getting fucked.



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185,447 Personally, if I was God, I would be more interested in the Sinners than the Saints. Why would a God give us all of this if we aren't supposed to be enjoying it?



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185,446 Some men like to chase younger women, leave them to that and concentrate on the men who like women your age.  They are out there.  I know it's not easy.



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185,445 There is this certain sect of the female population. They were the mean bully girls in Junior High school. Now they are adults and have facebook accounts. They pretend they are kind hearted people, with their posts about charities, and memes about being nice to one another. But no, they are still the mean bully girls. They still make their snide comments. They still have no understanding of anything intellectual. They still are out for themselves. It's sad to see. Their entire life has been about condescension, drama and being the center of attention.



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185,444 I find women in their 40's to be the sexiest women out there.  I am a 53 year old male but I have felt this way all my life.  Even when I was the same age.  I have to have a connection with them, though, in order to fuck them.  We have to have things in common.  I also love women that are smarter than me and I have a mensa IQ.  So there are a ton of men out there who want you for being you, and the number ends up being nothing.



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185,443 Why does it have to be that way?



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185,442 I don't know what I would do if I saw you again, but I only hope that I have the sense to not make the mistake. You're a stranger, and that's how it has to be.



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185,441 I want to kiss your lips and touch your face again. No explanation and no apologies necessary.



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185,440 I write these things that seem to inspire other people. They latch onto my words and I guess they identify with what they think I'm trying to say. These messages are word pictures that I paint using arrogance and bombast in order to give an air of self-assuredness and tenacity, but the hidden message, the one that nobody seems to get, is very simple:

"I am so lonely.
I am hurting.
I am going out of my mind.
Please help me."



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185,439 My message about mindful procreation I do realize is null... There is so much darkness and desire to compete and it's "natural".. I only wish loving people had the fight in them to eliminate those who bring us all to hell. I am hacked and it just pretended to be karma they hate me so much something pasted in a private message I wrote to my love. I don't deserve to be hacked but hackers deserve to get their own life



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185,438 43 you only have two choices, date younger men or go for the older ones 10+ your age. Men your age might either be intimated or might be holding to the illusion to have more kids , they known for sure ones a women hits 40 they are pretty much done having children .  Don't waste your time with those guys , there's plenty of men out there and if they are not interested on you just because your age so be it , their lost.



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185,437 I don't hate or love the person who didn't know how to give me water. I wish she knew my truth but she wanted to withhold hers to get more of mine. I would advise u to stop expecting people to bend over backwards and lick your ass. I love the person I am with now because they breathe life into me. I have doubts I can be enough for them but I'm trying. They love me for real not because I stroke their ego and I love them for more than that too. Too bad such a disaster from so many directions has to taint my words. I will be happy once I'm saving money and if I can be humble and bring out the miracles of her life to share in. I will never know if you're "trying to contact" me or if others are pretending to be me contacting you but please believe me I am over it. I felt bad for some reasons bad for being over it bound to u like u let happen but I don't appreciate what you became to me. I will not respond to indirect bullshit any longer see how u let this happen now they can say anything.. I have nothing for you. I have a chance to truly love someone now. Please please let me be enough for her. I so hope you DONT care



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185,436 That's the thing. 43 year old guys don't want 43 year old women, shit they don't want 34 year old women if they can get something even younger. They want 24 year olds, and it doesn't matter who is prettier or more in shape. It's the number, it's mental not about looks. Either that or they're looking to start over or reclaim their youth.



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185,435 Why do you hate me now? Seriously, why? What did I ever do to you that was so bad? The answer is nothing. I am a good woman (worth a million times more than just a vagina) and you know it. You have a cold heart. That's the only possible answer. I don't want to believe that, though. I know in my soul that you are a good person...a person who has overcome so much, and a good friend. You told me about your life and you told me about your struggles, and I have to admit that I fell for you. I fell for your courage, your honesty, your strength, your vulnerability, and your sensitivity. I fell for this beautiful heart that you revealed to me in bits and pieces. I couldn't help it. You were so raw and so brave. I had never in my life met anyone like you. You took my breath away. You are an incredible human being. I admire you. I respect you. I hold you in a higher regard than most people I have ever met because you deserve that. I still believe in you. You could turn a million cold shoulders to me and you still couldn't make me stop seeing the best in you. None of this makes sense to me. Why do this? I deserve the truth, and you are so much better than this. If nothing else, let's make peace with each other. Please.



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185,434 I'm 43, look younger and a very attractive woman. The man I dated broke up with me because he went after 20+ something. I see this trend going too. But I know that there are men who appreciate maturity and brains as well. The last break up hurt me tremendously. Not to mention that I'm in much better shape than the young one, established, and etc. I guess he wanted to feel admired without having to work on it. Still baffles me as I treated him like a king.
Here I am right now, dating a man who is 8 years younger than me. We have known each other for a long time and always had a connection. He thinks I"m the hottest thing ever. I don't think that this relationship is going to last as he would like to have children one day, and I'm done having kids. But it feels nice to be desired and cherished after the last break up. At some point, I'm going to start looking for a man my own age to be in the relationship, who is not chasing young.



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185,433 I'm having trouble dealing with this anymore. I want it to end once and for all! What kind of life is this?



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185,432 I'm 34. One guy I was talking to, he's 32. He made an "old" joke, even though he is around my age! But he's just jerky like that, he's dated women 15 years older than himself, he doesn't discriminate, if he's attracted to the woman, that's it. Still turned me off. This other guy I'm talking to now, he's 42. He lives further away from me, there's an attraction and we'll talk sex stuff. So (partly my fault) the conversation goes to girls who like him, but he doesn't go up to. I was curious, but I didn't expect him to take it and run with it. But these girls are 22, 19, ugh. Claims they're too young, what would he have in common? But still,he has fantasized about fucking them. So that got awkward for me. I'm starting to feel insecure about younger girls, but it's not because of guys my age or younger, it's because of guys older than me. It's like these men hit 40 something and the allure is all in the number, it's not even about looks. 30 something, 20 something men come up to me and think i'm younger, age isn't an issue. It seems to be an issue with these older guys. In the end, you wanna fuck a girl, she wants to feel desired and wanted. Feminine. she's not gonna feel that if you talk about other women, whether they're older, younger, a different type than her, etc.



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185,431 My hair like to swing...Hell yeah

That little g is my fucking hero. God bless you baby girl. Happy Easter.



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185,430 My life is as such, rather also so unbelievably weird that this morning I posed a query to myself. "What is wrong with you? Most normal people would very likely have put a gun to their head long ago and said fuck this and you're not even capable of imagining it?" I'm so blessed. Thank God I'm predominantly Irish and Anglo Norman. If not, Ide probably be a footnote about a jumper. Haha To you who read this. I've died five times. Don't waste time. Tell those you love how you feel as much as possible, and count your blessings. Don't worry. It's just life in a "civilized" world.



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185,429 It's 4ᚼ in Texas. I'm going to smoke a bowl and then go to my very conservative family dinner. Should be fun.



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185,428 i feel worthless.



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185,427 Just as women need to wear a bra to stop boobs from sagging, men should wear something to stop their balls from sagging. The older I get, the more I see men with balls hanging down to their knees.



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185,426 I have the nicest, sweetest husband in the entire world. He's kind, loving, gives me everything.

But we have this ONE friend, a younger man, who I want to fuck into a shivering heap. Just ONCE.  I'm the tiniest bit obsessed with this guy.  I wish I could just get my hands on his naked body for one hour -- that would be enough.

So sorry, honey, you didn't do anything wrong.  I know I'm too old to be crushing on some hot guy.

Just ONE hour.

The sick part is, I think Hot Guy Friend might be up for it too.

I'm SO going to hell.

Fortysomething married female with 2 kids



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185,425 I've been contemplating the rice diet, I just can't see myself eating only rice for months... the teeth thing is kinda scary too. I've heard people say, that dentures are just not the same... I think I am going to try the 5Ɇ diet. This one large lady lost quite a bit of weight at work...



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185,424 Rice diet person here. I've been hovering at down 40 pounds. But a problem has developed. Several of my teeth are now loose. Apparently this is a sign of malnutrition.



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185,423 I live in the south.
I hate it.
Everyday I'm here I feel trapped. I'm surrounded by idiots. It's hot. It's ugly. I want to move somewhere far away. Somewhere that I don't feel like I have to struggle to breathe.
But every time I try, I fail.



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185,422 I know that I'm probably beating a dead horse here, but as intelligent as you are and as good of a person as I know you to be, it is beyond my comprehension that we couldn't manage to communicate better than this. I know I screwed up, but everybody makes mistakes. My intentions were good. I wish that you would forgive me. I can't just act like it doesn't hurt because it does. That isn't a guilt trip, it's just the damn truth.



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185,421 Coachella. Pfft.

There are a million better music festivals and people lose their mind over this garbage? Frank Zappa was right, music is a dying art.



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185,420 You can't make me feel bad just because you do.



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185,419 Gotta love those women who think they have the only vagina on Earth. Newsflash toots, no matter how beautiful, smart and/or funny. There is a man TIRED of fucking you.



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185,418 I'm the worst person in the world.  About three steps up from Hitler.  I can't believe I still gotta do this for the next 40 years.



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185,417 Did you see Christopher Walken in that TSA patdown?  Alls I can say is if he should take up making horror movies, he won't be needin' any makeup!  ... just sayin'



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185,416 Secrets I learned from my mother:

If all the world starts looking crazy to you, go look in the mirror; it might not be the world.

When you start to feel that you are better than everyone else, go back to that mirror; you might just be crazy.

and finally ...

When you decide that you are going to try atheism, go upstairs and pack your shit and get the hell out of my damn house (to my brother)!



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185,415 I want to kiss your lips and touch your face again. No explanation and no apologies necessary.



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185,414 Today I felt kind of badass because I ignored a security guard yelling at me for like 30 seconds trying to get my attention to tell me not to park somewhere. I continued parking and walking to pick up my food at the restaurant next door while silently giving a raised index finger (not the middle one, the "wait a minute" one). Parking in an urban area frequently has changed me.



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185,413 I've been fairly consistently "down" or generally depressed for I don't even know how long. It's been at least 2 years now, but there was a period between somewhere when I felt o.k. for a few months.

I do believe that it is diagnosable as major depression with generalized anxiety. I don't really care much about that either.

I'm starting to realize more than ever right now how much the people in my life contribute to this. Some of the assholes I consider my friends. A selfish, uninteresting lot of people. I miss real conversations. I feel like I need to find "my people" again at 32 years old.

It's not that I don't value long standing relationships. I feel like I do even more so than some people. Maybe that's why I am uninterested in maintaining relationships that don't hold my expectation of value.

I moved out on my 6-year boyfriend with little explanation other than I wanted to, I wanted more time alone, and that I was generally tired of dealing with being unhappy which seemed to be related to my living situation. Moving has helped a lot. I feel more comfortable being at home, and I like my new neighborhood. I still have no idea whether all of the issues are worth the good qualities. We still talk and see each other sometimes and don't date anyone else.

I wish I could live alone, but right now I live with my close girlfriend.She makes me crazy with her ridiculous attention needy personality and refusal to admit when men treat her badly. She's highly self-absorbed and seems to look at people in a "what's he worth to me" type of way that makes me disgusted. Whether it's acknowledged by her or not, it bothers me.

Most of the people I hung out with during college annoy me now too. Drug abuse, treating going out as a hunt for the opposite sex instead of just hanging out, no real conversation value. There are a few good ones left, but I've given up on hanging around most of my old friends in an effort to separate myself from those annoying factors and put more effort into showing interest and starting interactions with other people I don't know instead.

I'm not by any means anti-social. I go out several times a week and meet new people all the time. You probably wouldn't be able to tell from what I've said previously. I think this is why all of this is kind of confusing to me. Maybe it's my age changing how I want to socialize? This is not the first time I've ghosted on a group of friends.



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185,412 I saw part of a HBO documentary on suicide today - they played audio of this girl screaming & crying bc she found her dead brother; he shot himself wa gun.

I was thinking about how great it would be to make my Mother scream & cry like that.  That'd really get her.  That put a smile on my face. :-)



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185,411 I realized something that I had never considered before. For as much as I felt that I had been a fool for you, you were a fool for me. There was something that you couldn't give up on, something inside of me that you had to have at any cost...something that you lusted for and wanted to possess. In its own way, it was empowering. I kept coming back too; against all odds, against all logic, against all common sense. What made us do that? Why did we keep seeking each other when everything about it was so wrong? I wish I knew. You were my passion. You were my inspiration, my eternal detriment, my sunrise, and my storm.

You awakened my soul and made it impossible for it to slink back into its prior slumber, and for that I am forever grateful. You truly did make a woman out of me.



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185,410 Because of you, I know what love is. Kind, unconditional, ever-patient, ever-gentle love. If nothing else, for that alone, I am eternally grateful. Love, kumquat.



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185,409 My boyfriend gained a lot of weight in the last few years. The last year I have been slowly losing weight and become more healthy. He decided to do the same. At first I thought it was great, we would both be healthier.

But... I kind think he's becoming weird about it. He's super strict about what he eats. He was only eating 1000 calories. I talked to him about it and he said he would go up to 1800. He's 6 feet and down to 215. He's lost over 100 lbs since August. I don't think he really has gone up to 1800. Also I think he should be eating at least 2000. He's obsessed with hitting 180. That's his target weight.

Maybe I'm worrying for nothing but this whole weekend I'm making sure I watch everything he eats.



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185,408 There are two sets of laws in this country. One set is for you and me. And the other is for famous people like OJ Simpson and Aaron Henandez.



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185,407 I love my boyfriend and I have no intention of ever leaving him. He is everything to me. I want to have children with him, marry him, and make my life with him by my side. Lately however our relationship has been a little boring. We won't be seeing each other until next week. We haven't seen each other for a month.

I've been chatting with a guy. We haven't met yet. He doesn't know I'm in a relationship and that I'm just fucking around. I've talked with him for two days now and have sent him Snapchats. Our conversations are good, he's smart and attentive. i can tell he's into me by the way he responds to my messages. I would never physically cheat on my boyfriend, but I want this guy to fuck me. I want him to eat me out and fuck me raw. I've been masterbating to him for the past few nights... He makes me so horny.

I'm going to ask my boyfriend to fuck me over and over next week. I'm going to give him head until he nuts in my mouth.



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185,406 My 10 year old son was eating lunch, a Greek salad. He squawked at the olives, not his favorite treat. He said, "I hate olives. They are evil."

Then he put on his thinking man's face for a moment and offered, "Hey, you know what, evil olive is a palindrome." He looked very pleased with his linguistic discovery.

I love how smart he is.

My wife, always the disgruntled naysayer, shot back at him. "Don't be a fool, 'evil' has no 'o'. You need to think more before you speak!"

My son looked at me and rolled his eyes. He gets it. He's beginning to understand what I've had to deal with all these years.



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185,405 Just saw "Ghost World" the other day for the first time.

Young cynical girl meets a record nerd and falls in love with his stuff.

She throws herself at him and it screws up his chance at true love.

Instant regret and boredom settle in. She gets on a bus and disappears.

Seems like she got whatever she wanted.



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185,404 402 I think we might have the same ex, I swear I been dealing with very similar problems , I constantly have to change my passwords and only friend family on social media .   A few weeks ago someone hack into my Facebook and bunch of emails disappear out of my account of course I cannot blame people without any proof but I wouldn't doubt who is behind of it.



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185,403 an evil that can turn to love would prove more strong than a privileged love.... to think the actual strength and sacrifice those men (&women) who fight in the midst and win their truth often go unrecognized.... "steal my words" oops---words are pathways through truth patterns of notes to songs that are real before you find them... i actually think part of this should be viral but perhaps someone who isn't boycotted would accomplish that better... not that it will change anything cuz we don't really care if we are just in our own little validated worlds.. people blur their eyes over everything that doesn't fit into their little box of perception anyway but yeah... and there's more where that came from that i don't even want to have to deal with being passionate about.. i am no threat i am passive in my views i only use words and visuals...STOCKHOLM SYNDROME WORLD + MORE AND MORE BABIES = DEATH OF EARTH     if you ignore this message as a lost cause all your lives are a lie... STRAIGHT WOMEN ARE REAL AND IT IS NOT A CHOICE ORIENTATION SO DONT THINK YOU CAN FIGHT ACTUAL FEMINISM WITHOUT DESTROYING THE BEAUTY OF THIS PLANET..... we are ALL gatekeepers it just takes more strength for a man to resist temptation.... men and women are equals... do you know the men i've wished i could love? it can't be forced... know this



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185,402 Years later and my Obsessive Ex still tries to find a foothold in my life.

Now this person resorts to linking my email address to their accounts.

This was not a mistake. This is intentional.  I have no idea of the intention but I wish this person would leave me alone.

Just leave me alone. It's tiring.

I'm tired of blocking unknown numbers and emails from this person. I'm tired of deleting friend requests from this person on social media.  I keep it pretty locked down but of course this person finds me anyway.

At least I left the state so I didn't have to look over my shoulder anymore.  Yes it got that bad.

But now I'm still dealing with this.

Just leave me alone.



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185,401 My life is filled with contradictions. For example, I hate children, yet I work in the children's library. I think I like to torture myself.



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185,400 I love Bob Ross and I've never picked up a palette in my life!



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