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187,599 Leadership and Obama in one sentence ?????



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187,598 Where is Barack Obama when you need him? Our country desperately needs his leadership now.



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187,597 This is the best career advice I can give from a guy in the middle of his career.

If you are in a job where management listens to you and treats you with respect - KEEP THAT FUCKING JOB.  Work out the salary things later.  

Maybe 1/3rd of places I've worked showed any real respect towards me.  Keep that job.



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187,596 Even if I don't have kids to stop the cycle of domestic violence, I'm still afraid my nephews are learning it and will pass it on to the next generation anyway. I have failed.



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187,595 This heroin epidemic is way bigger than I thought. It seems like everyone is on some type of opioid and it's scary. When I was growing up being an addict was not the move. Now it seems to be a normal thing. It's not! However, I cannot stop and quite honestly I cannot stop. I just wish I could wake up and not be sick or worried about getting sick, etc. My hubbys is super codependent and is in denial. He obviously doesn't get it. He married an addict. Plain and simple. An addict. Geez I'm a loser. Back to square one. Sigh.

37/F



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187,594 I treat all my nephews the same and show them affection equally, but secretly I like my youngest nephew the best. Good thing they don't know, because I'm their favorite aunt!



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187,593 I think I want to live a simpler life. I have been working pretty hard for the past few years, living in the same city i was born in (NYC). Always hustling, always on the grind. I think I'm almost ready to just move south or to the west coast.

somewhere with better weather, better people, and a higher quality of life



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187,592 -584, it's tough for me to discern anything about anybody who's family or a friend.  I would even go as far as to say that I just can't do it.  Sometimes, yes, but over 90% of the time, no.  It's a huge gap in my ability.  The best I can do is try to intellectually recognize a pattern of behavior.

Let me give you an example.  I was renting my house out.  A close friend from middle school, who I've known for 30 years, asked if he could rent it.  I haven't been in touch with him much over the years, but I only had good memories, so I said yes.  He ended up bilking me for over $6000.  He never paid his electric bill, and the power got shut off.  I knew none of this until I walked into the house after he left and the lights wouldn't work.

I couldn't tell for the life of me that he was like this now.  He lied repeatedly to me.  I couldn't tell.

But people I don't know?  I can read them like a book.  One woman passed by me today.  I could tell that she considered me to be not much more than a lawn ornament in this shared office because I never try to talk to anybody.  The young lady who finds me somewhat attractive?  I almost bumped into her, I looked at her and said "excuse me," and her mind was completely blank as if my presence stressed her the fuck out.  I've never encountered a mind so stressed that it just wasn't functioning.

Love is a very, very powerful thing.  I love my family and friends, and it must be acting as this giant beacon that makes it impossible for me to tune into my own friends' faults.



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187,591 Why are all engineers assholes?

It's quite fascinating. 90+% of engineers that I have met are socially inept. Why is this?



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187,590 The management where I work are such boneheads. Two things about them. 1) They are dumb. Just plain old dumb. 2) They are all about ego.

It's a terrible combination.

I'm the lead tech guy. Management knows nothing about tech. One of the management wonks sees me in the hall. In a swarmy way he tells how a friend of his works at a disk drive company. His buddy gave him a good deal on these special (and wickedly expensive) hard drives. So he bought them. It's $100k out of my budget and he didn't even check with me first. Cause he's management. He's the king of the castle.

But it's a stupid purchase. The drives are designed to cache (remember) the last number of requests. So if you call up a Word document, the hard drive spins and gets the info. Then if someone else at the company calls up the same document, the drive doesn't have to spin and get it - it has it in memory. So it comes back faster the second time. Woohoo, someone saved a microsecond.

The really stupid part, is our company provides stock tik data. Someone calls up the price of IBM, then 5 minutes later someone else calls up IBM - then what? We are supposed to give him the 5 minute old price even though IBM traded 100 times since then? It's just stupid. These are exactly the disk drives we would never want. God I hate working with idiots. But they are management so they can do no wrong. $100k down the drain.



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187,589 When my wife is out somewhere, I'll check on her location using her phone's GPS thingy. Sometimes the map shows she's not on a highway, but about 50 feet off the highway in the woods. I picture what happened. Her car broke down. A stranger stopped to help. But he was a serial killer. He dragged her into the woods and tortured her before slitting her throat. I would never say this out loud, but I get a little excited by this. She's dead. I'm free!

Then I hit the refresh button and the damned GPS has recalibrated itself -- the map shows her on the highway coming home.

Damn it.



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187,588 Every once in a while I'll go look up my ex on facebook - the one who emotionally and sexually abused me in high school.  He doesn't have much of a social media presence.  It used to make me sick to my stomach, I would get paranoid trying to figure out what he had been doing, if there was any chance of him trying to track me down and stalk me like he did when I first broke up with him a few months before graduation.  I was so scared of him, and the fact that I couldn't really keep tabs on him just made it worse.

I'm better now in many ways, but that habit would still rear up every once in a while, and with it, the fear.  I checked his page today after a long period of not doing so.  I was surprised.

He volunteers for the soup kitchen.  He's anti-Trump, but not in the crazy radical left way, from what I can tell...I find myself wondering if maybe he's become a good person.  It rekindles a question that I've had for the longest time, ever since I broke up with him: did he actually know what he was doing to me, or was he just young and insecure?  That doesn't excuse any of it, I don't think, but...maybe there's a difference between someone who willingly gaslights you and someone who doesn't really understand how relationships and sex are supposed to work.

Can't believe I'm even saying any of this...but it would be better if he's become a good person, a stable person to some degree.  Even if it means that the anger and fear I still harbor are less valid, it would be better for there to be one more good person in the world.



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187,587 My parents brow-beat me into submission & nearly killed all of my soul.  A tiny bit of me survived.  I'm hanging on to that tiny bit for dear life ...



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187,586 I'm very suspicious. My wife has done a number of deranged things in the past. Scary deranged things. Like if another car annoys my wife, she will get in front of him and come to a complete stop. She'll do this on a highway. She'll get out of her car, walk back to the other driver and yell at him. Like who does that? A deranged person.

But here's why I'm suspicious today. My wife, her sister and I were going to drive to the beach today. My wife didn't want me to come. Not to be a nudge, but it's my day off and I could really use a relaxing day at the beach.  My wife got nasty about it. Typical.

We have two cars. One small two seater, the other larger. The plan was to drive in the larger car of course because there would be three of us.

This morning I go out to pack up the larger car, and it has a flat tire. What? The car was fine last night. How could it have gotten a flat while sitting in the driveway?

The end result, we had to use the smaller car. It only sits two. Therefore my wife and her sister got to go to the beach without me afterall.

That's a little too convenient for me. I think my wife let the air out of the tire. Normally I'd say no rational person does something like that, but we're talking about a deranged woman who stops on the highway to yell at people.

I married a fucking nut job.



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187,585 you don't have any money and I don't have any time. people look funny when I drive by. genocide. they'll never be the bigger man.

i'll just be by myself. there is no such thing as meant to be.



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187,584 We could be perfect together and we could be the worst for each other. I don't know which it would be and that's why I'm so scared of her.
I don't think 2 lesbian addicts with borderline personality disorder could work out.
But oh my God I'll always love this girl and everything she's done for me just by speaking and existing.



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187,583 You know, Discernment guy, I can empathize with you on how your trust for people can dampen the accuracy of your perceptions about them. I struggle with this a lot, particularly because I'm too understanding of the human condition. I get that people hurt, and why. I'm hyper-aware of the fact that we all start off innocent, and that everyone has a sliver of that innocent person left in them, even as adults. I try to nurture that sliver in people, because usually that's their kindest, purest, best self.

Problem is, being understanding ends up proverbially taking food out of my mouth a lot, so I had to learn to pull back from people and find ways to be selective about my caring nature. It's hard though, because I'm an extremist--that is, if my feelings were represented by a physical item, it would be a switch. There's ON, there's OFF. I feel like most others operate like dials. But when it comes down to it, I usually either care about something intensely, or I don't care at all.

How do you learn to try to discern things about your loved ones? I'd be really interested in that, because I care so much for my loved ones that I feel completely blind. And it makes me angry, because I feel stepped on, maybe more than I should because I have immense trust issues. I just want to trust my own perceptions so that I don't have to worry anymore



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187,582 We're sitting around watching a show on TV. You come home and stand right in front of the screen. You ask what we are watching. You completely block our view of the TV.

Every time we ask you to move to the side.

Why do we have to do this every time? You are either a passive aggressive prick, purposely trying to block our view.

Or you are most fucking brain dead twit to block our view without realizing it.

Hello, there is a universe out there and guess what, you are not at the center. Think of other people for a change!



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187,581 I told my wife that she either behaves like a better person, or I want nothing to do with her. No I'm not going to a party with her if she's such a rotten person towards me. Why would I spend time with her in a group setting if she uses the situation to say bad things about me in front of her friends. Not happening ever again. I've turned her down for half a dozen outings in the past month. Her choices: She either goes to a couple event solo, which is embarrassing for her to be singled out like that. Or she doesn't get to go at all. Or, and this is the goal, she behaves better. Results: She's gone alone - this enraged her. She's missed events - this also enraged her. But what she hasn't yet decided to do is behave better towards me. I wonder how long this will take. It reminds me of Psych Lab in college where we trained rats by shocking them if they made a wrong turn in the maze. The rats learned very quickly how to behave. My wife, eh, not so much. Me though, I'm loving this. I'm perfectly fine with this arrangement where I don't go to events to get verbally put down by her. I could go on like this forever.



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187,580 It's coming up more and more in my life, but I'm really good at pretending to like people. Most of the time it feels genuine while I'm with that person, and it comes from a mixture of me trying to avoid confrontation (or at least approach things in a calm manner) and me being understanding of peoples' plights, even when I don't necessarily agree with them.

So this leads to me telling people what they want to hear, for the most part. I don't find it worth the effort to tell everyone the hard truth about how I feel about them, mostly because I assume they wouldn't care or that it would cause unnecessary tension.

But, it bothers me that I'm so good at it. My father, when it comes down to it, is a fantastic liar. Now that I'm older I know all his tricks (much like everyone else), but when I was younger I watched him be nice in peoples' faces and talk shit as soon as the door closes behind them. It's troubling.



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187,579 A friend of mine's husband died recently and I know she misses him deeply but every time she posts a memory on Facebook about him, I can't help but remember that she cheated on him years ago.



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187,578 I have dreams about my ex almost every night. This morning, I woke up and remembered the dream and started crying. The guy in the dream was the man I was passionately in love with...he was everything I thought he was..the one I obviously created. When I have these dreams sometimes they are lucid, where I know it's not real and dont want to wake up to the harsh truth. In reality. I don't think he ever loved me. He lied and had another life. When I am awake, I am strong, I have moved on, I am fine. Conscious, I have a wonderful way of filing my feelings away. I dealt with the pain for a long time and convinced myself I was over it. My subconscious is still in love with this ghost I created and won't let go. In some ways I want the dreams to stop, in others, it is so comforting to get to be with this person the way i wanted him to be...but I want the pain to stop. I hope by writing about it and getting it out will help.



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187,577 I had a daughter. I'm in love with her. I'm worried about her life, this world is brutal.... and I'm a lucky one.



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187,576 I jerked off twice today.  I haven't done this in years.  I really need to get out.



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187,575 My husband and I became friendly with another couple a few years back, both of them very attractive. (Or rather, he's absurdly hot while she looks good with makeup and a nice outfit on.)  

So the two of them and my husband and I were all at the same wedding at a hotel about 2 years ago.  Later I heard from another mutual friend, "Kay" that she'd walked into a hotel stairwell and found the girlfriend going down on her boyfriend right there on the stairs. "Kay" left, but then she told practically everyone in the world because she's a prude and a giant gossip, which gave both of them rather a reputation among our friends.

So this couple broke up about a year ago, due to unrelated reasons, and now Mr. Hot af is single.  His ex the wild wanton babe is already living with someone else, which is no surprise.

Now, me and the hubby were more amused than shocked when we heard the story from "Kay" -- we had gotten up to some similar mischief while we were dating, so to judge them would be more than a little harsh.  Unlike them, though, we just never got caught.

But this guy really is just SMOKING hot, and the visual this scenario brings up in my mind is... wow. I can imagine her on her knees in front of him, going at that cock like a porn star... his head thrown back, sweating, maybe his hand in her hair...

DAMN.

Secretly, I wish I'd been the one who'd seen them. I wouldn't have barged in and then told the whole fucking world about it -- I'd have just stood there looking through a tiny crack in the barely open door while she got him off, and you know she's the type who would have swallowed.  Then I would have quietly gotten out of there before either one of them noticed.

Just the idea of watching this guy with his cock in another woman's mouth... even better would have been if he'd looked backwards and seen me watching, while she kept at him, totally oblivious...

I'll be in my bunk.

33/F/Married



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187,574 I feel I am at a crossroads in my life at the moment. I started reading this book, called Trust by Iyanla Vanzant. I saw her on Oprah and she spoke of her extremely troubled childhood and how she learned how to cope. Through this book, I think I've found that I do not trust myself as a person. That sounds very vague and somewhat cryptic, but it seems that I am always looking outwardly for reassurance and chase a sense of comfort and security through positive outward validation from others. External validation.

I don't think there is any decision I make where I don't second-guess myself. I always have to weigh the pros and the cons each time even if it's a simple decision such as making dinner or choosing which groceries I need. I also often ask people what I should do in certain situations. This never seemed odd to me, but the fact that I do it so often is something that I've never realized.

This is interesting, yet alarming, because I have never thought about it in-depth. It's a new realization. I suppose there's always been a nagging feeling that I couldn't pinpoint... whether in romantic relationships, work, with family relationships and social situations. Could that nagging feeling be the self-trust that people talk about? It seemed like a far-fetched concept in the past.  I do wonder how I became this way. There is something within me, perhaps the inner child, waiting and waiting for validation to come In some form.

Come to think of it: I don't think I have a sense of self and who I am. Who am I exactly, and what do I stand for? Do I stand for anything at all? But how does one define who they are? And is it necessary in this life to completely know who you are, to be successful, fulfilled, or happy?

When trying to answer these questions, I struggle to find a concrete and coherent answer.



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187,573 The left lane on highways is for passing only, people!!!  Can't stand grid lock traffic due to people in left lanes dilly dallying. They hold up the lane and prevent thru traffic from freely flowing!!!



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187,572 Deleted.

Shhh, that was supposed to be a secret.



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187,571 Dumb, but: Hallmark movies make me sad because I feel I'll never get a fairy tale ending like you see in those movies.



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187,570 I am wondering if this site is owned/operated by a psychology professor.  Why else create this site?



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187,569 Alex you fucker, stop showing up in my dreams!!!



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187,568 I just got back to the U.S. after visiting London for 2 weeks. I have no idea when I'll be able to take a vacation again, but my goodness that was great for my soul!

I didn't realize how much stress I was under until after I left. That's how it is when things build up slowly and consistently. But leaving gave me the space to think about the things about my life that trouble me, and even though my stressors are trying to flood back into my mind now that I'm home, I am standing firmly in my positive mentality. I can take care of it all, as long as I do things in order and with purpose.

It feels condescending to talk about it, but vacations are so vital to one's mental health. Now, I'm a 23 year old that makes $15/hr, and I paid for this vacation myself, through scrounging and budgeting. But it's so important to be able to walk away from one's problems sometimes, REALLY be able to leave them on the shelf for more than 2 days, and truly, truly relax.

Another thing, going to Europe really made me realize how our systems are ALL geared towards treating us like consumers instead of people. What I mean by this is that they're structured in a way that forces us or guides us into spending more money.

My economics professor put it best: "Humans are only as valuable as the money they spend." That is, we are most useful to our economy/country when we spend lots of money. Everything we have is driven by this integral purpose, and as society progresses, we stop noticing our quality of life slowly deteriorating in the name of profit. It's even useful to let this happen, because if we're unhappy we'll spend more money on things to fix that, right?

It's good to be back, but it feels sort of like breathing fresh air for the first time, and then dropping back down into the sewer. I'll never be the same. But I'm inspired, emboldened, and I want more



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187,567 Discernment Guy here again.  Posting about my experiences has made me think a lot about the "gift" I have.  I also realized how strongly the gift doesn't work when I'm dealing with people I care about.  Experience doesn't come with that "inner feeling."  I've also realized that it's gotten much, much stronger, or at least I've come to realize how strong it always was.

I thought about some of the odd times it occurred.  I once got pulled over by a cop for doing 100 mph.  I faked a medical emergency.  He told me he believed me, which is why he was only giving me a ticket and didn't impound my car.  I looked at him and could tell that he was a kind, good man.  Most people would be laughing at how they pulled one over on a cop, but all I could think about was that I lied to an honest man.  I felt horrible.  It had an impact on me.  Another time I visited a friend in college.  I met her roommate, and I immediately knew she was going to try to fuck me.  It was instantaneous.  I consciously told myself that I wasn't going to let her.  Well, she got me drunk, and it happened.  Today I thought about how yesterday I mentioned the young woman who thought I was attractive.  I thought that maybe I was being silly and conceited.  I walked out of the bathroom and bumped into another young woman going in.  She was thinking, "Oh no, it's some strange man, don't make eye contact because I'm too shy and making eye contact makes me uncomfortable, let me just get out of this situation."  She definitely wasn't thinking I was attractive.

I realized that sometimes its not "discernment" in me, it's just the life experience of being older, but discernment and experience work hand in hand.  For example, the other night I was talking to my wife about what she made for dinner.  The dinner's not important, it's what I did that's important.  My personal, smart aleck side made a humorously disparaging remark about what she made.  But my experience side reminded me that sometimes my wife doesn't like having the food she makes being made fun of.  Desperate to keep peace in the house, I instinctively looked at her face.  My discernment side could read what she was feeling inside of her.  She was happy in general, and she was looking forward to eating what she made, and she honestly thought it was good.  My experience side told me not to break her mood, so I followed up my asinine comment with, "Nah, I'm sure it's going to be good.  It sounds really good."  I've realized that that's how I've been living with my gift my whole life, alternating between the experience and the discernment to make decisions and choices.

I'm starting to realize that I'm starting to understand strangers through mediums such as instant messenger and email.  Sometimes I sit in my car during lunch, and while doing that today I thought, "I know things about people by reading what they write, can I know things if I listen to their voice?"  I turned the radio to Rush Limbaugh and listened to his voice.  I realized that he has something bad "inside" him that is driving what he says on the radio.  I thought that was weird because even though I think he's an asshole, I actually agree with most of what he says.  Why would something evil be using him to say things that I personally feel are right?  It occurred to me that it's the way he says them - divisively and condescendingly.  He mocks his opponents while saying truthful things.  That subtly makes his listeners hate his opponents, and that's what it's all about.  But then I thought I was just being silly, there's no way I could tell he's got something in him just by listening to him.  So I listened to a soundbite of a Republican Congressman that Limbaugh played.  I could tell the Congressman was a good man.  He's trying to do the right thing.  He knows he has one chance to make things right, and he doesn't want to screw it up... but Washington is hard for him.  Limbaugh came back on, and again I could hear the "thing" in him.

I seem to be able to instantly tell when there's something evil in a person.  I don't know if this has gotten really strong, or if I just always knew that but now I know what's going on.  In any event, it makes me fearful.  I hope I don't start seeing those things.

Anyway, I'd set up an email if people want to know stuff, but this is a page on our secrets.  If you don't want people to know, it counts as a secret, and maybe they'll let it be posted here.



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187,566 I want to give up ....so badly.
but i'll hang on a bit longer.



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187,565 don't give up.



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187,564 Ok, I've had 3 jobs in my 30 year career. Is every small business owner completely insane? As Operations Manager, evidently my job is to take full responsibility for everything that is not my fault and being 'gas-lighted' daily. My boss has to think he has the biggest dick when I'm totally sure that's not the case. And I've got 15 more years of this abuse? No wonder I drink [on my time, not his]!



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187,563 562 Just put up your prizes and give the discount up to  the amount you really want -Then  everyone is happy! ;-)



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187,562 It is shocking to see that CNN, NYT, MSNBC can't give up on this ridiculous Russia story. To think  these were news sources we thought we could trust ? This Russian story has been going on for nine months without any proof -but they will not give up. Trump is elected for 4 years, why not give constructive criticism - and talk about real issues.He will not be impeached he will be there for 4 years Grow a pair and accept that and start acting like grown ups and not like a bunch of spoiled brats that did not get their way.The way the press is carrying on i makes one start wondering if the freedom of press is such a good idea? Jeeezzzz!



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187,561 I'm sorry for venting...But I am tired of my clients always trying to get discounts (I'm a hairstylist) I need to make a living too, I also have bills to pay. Just because I am nice doesn't mean you get to walk all over me, from this point forward no more discounts because one to many people pissed me off



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187,560 I spent so many long hours at work, building a business , building a future for my pregnant girlfriend - who I hoped to marry. By the time that future finally arrived, my family left me. I got no credit for some of the best achievements of my life. The love of my life and my 3 month old daughter left.

I wish I would have paid more attention to my personal life. I honestly don't know if was simply being used, or if it was actual love.

In hindsight, I'm pretty sure I was being used the whole time. I haven't been the same since and I fight daily to regan the person I was before my life wrecked.

The good news: it's been over a year and half and I can feel myself waking up again. It's been a slow, long fought battle with depression and self hatred. I'm starting to think positive again. To live again.



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187,559 He doesn't love me anymore



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187,558 I was working late. I had some documents for my boss and went to drop them in his office. When I walked around his desk he was masturbating to porn on his computer. I froze trying not to make any noise. I watched as he shot a long rope on his desk. As I inched back out of the door I heard him say, "hope you enjoyed yourself. Knock next time. See you in the morning."
Not looking forward to getting coffee today!



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187,557 I have no self confidence and come across as very insecure.  A number of friends have told me this over the years.

Boy, that really helped...



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187,556 At the end of our honeymoon, my wife left directly for a small business trip and I flew home alone.  The night I arrived back home, I picked up a woman at the local club, got a hotel room and fucked the shit out of her til 3am.



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187,555 I don't want to give up



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187,554 I see a therapist. seriously, people, go see one if you haven't. It's not shameful. work through your feelings and process them with a confidant.



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187,553 I have a crush on this guy. We both go to the same gym but it is hard to approach someone there. So I left my name and number on his truck. Yolo



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187,552 I wish I could get some weed and watch bad TV...

I'm on med school so I dunno if it would react.

Damned wrong drugs! 😠



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187,551 Discernment Guy:

How can I contact you?



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187,550 I'm way more excited about the GoT premiere on Sunday than I should be!!!



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187,549 Donald Trump won because many people can't stand Hillary , I'm sure if the Democratic Partyhave more choices and Clinton wouldn't won the nomination, Trump wouldn't be president.  My husband been a Republican his whole life and even he said the Trump is an idiot , but he still voted for him because he had no other choice .



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187,548 Theresa, stop telling people I hit you. I never laid a hand on you, no matter how much you deserved it.



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187,547 I have consistent sex dreams about a co-worker. I think he's cute in an extremely niche way but I don't think a relationship would ever work out between us. What do sex dreams mean? Is it even about sex?
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187,546 You were supposed to be a friend with benefits, a fuck buddy. You turned into so much more and I fell in love with you. What's the problem? Your in love with someone else. Fuck this life.



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187,545 College is great for certain professions doctors , lawyers, nurses, teachers, engineers but if you are not too sure why waste money on a degree when you can invest your time and money on building your own business or get a trade if you are good with working with your hands . Electricians , plummers ,welders even beauty school are good careers not everyone is college material.



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187,544 I was appalled when my mom told me in the hospital that my overdose was a stunt. She would only say this when no one else was around. That was a shock.



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187,543 I'm a business owner. I hate my work. I'm not sure why it was to be so bad. Everyone pretty much hates their job. I don't need extra stress just to motivate me to run in place. Why? The whole thing is pointless.

Maybe my work isn't so bad. Perhaps things will work out for awhile since they usually do. It's the temporary aspect that gives me pause. I was raised to believe in a utopian afterlife. I even attempted to take my own life once in an effort to get there, you know just to get this bullshit over with.

Attempting suicide put me back on the ground. I use to unintentionally say when referring to my one of several suicide attempts as "that time when I killed myself..." I had to always stop myself before saying stuff like that when discussing it with social workers, and therapists. I'm sure they heard this kind of thing all the time.  

I didn't die. All I ask is that when it happens that I don't feel any pain. It doesn't make any sense. That's what they wanted us to believe when I was growing up, assuming you chose not to live your life according to the rules.

Therein lies the dilemma. Not sure what is going to happen. Did I fall short? Did I fall too far?



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187,542 I saw a felled oak tree. I thought I'd be sneaky and take a part of it, which I did. I took it home and fashioned it in a clock with some stuff I bought from Michaels arts and craft store.

I took a picture of the tree. It must have been about 80' tall and about 100 years old or older, perhaps much older. The piece I took must have been so high up in the air.

Meanwhile, a thief was rifling through my truck and took a check which could never be cashed due to the fact that it was *for deposit only. Still a huge pain in the ass, not to mention that the lady writing the checks was very upset about a pending divorce.

The clock sat in a drawer for months. A picture of the tree was affixed to the back using glue and varnish, along with some coordinates and a brief statement for posterity.



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187,541 These sex secrets are hot. Now I want to see my husband get a mouthful of another man's cum.



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187,540 -535, I read people.  I can tell what they're thinking when I look at them, or if I see a picture of them, and occasionally if I instant message them a lot.  Sometimes when I talk to someone in person, I feel myself "mirror" their faces in my head.  It gives me a small sense of the emotions that they're feeling, and I have to "work backwards" from the emotion to figure out why I would be feeling that emotion.  In that sense, it's almost an intellectual process that occurs.

Sometimes, I look at a face and know exactly what they're thinking, and without any effort.  For example, a woman just left her office across the hall as she was playing with her phone.  As she stepped out of her door, I glanced at her face.  She didn't look at me.  She felt self-conscious as she walked out the door because she knows I'm here and she thinks I'm somewhat attractive in an older man kind of way.  When she walked back, she was thinking it was silly for her to feel self-conscious for thinking I'm attractive because she's a professional, educated woman who's here to do a job, so who the hell am I to her anyway?  I knew it looking from at her.  There's another woman who walks around here who walks right by me, and all she's ever thinking about is her work and what she's doing at home.  Her home life is very important to her.  It's where she gets to be "boss" and take control of things herself.  She needs control because she feels she hasn't been treated well in her life.

Still other times, however, I will look at a person and know there is something seriously wrong with them.  This is what happened when as a child I looked at my elementary school gym teacher and knew there was something "wrong" with him, and I found out later that he was a pedophile.  I looked at a young woman walk into a neighbor's house - there was something evil in her.  I remember the evil ones for years.

I can "read" myself, but it's not the same as discernment.  It just requires a high degree of self-honesty, no matter how hurtful to my pride it could make me.

I'm not always perfect.  If I'm tired, I can be off.  The biggest thing that throws me off is my personal affection and trust for a person.  I have been seriously burned by "friends" because my trust drowned out my impartiality for them.  The longer I've known someone, the less likely I can read them.

Maybe I can help you.  It's worth a try.



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187,539 In college I was involved in a MMF three way. It was with a woman I knew from a class, plus her boyfriend. It was totally unplanned. I went to a wine tasting party at the French Department. I bumped into the woman and her boyfriend. We drank beacoup wine. We ended up back at her room.

First off, I am straight. But okay, there I was in a room with this girl and another guy and he had an erection. It was the first time I saw another guy's erection in the flesh. It wasn't a big deal for me. We took turns fucking her. There was no interaction between the two guys.

But then at one point I was laying on my back. She's between my legs blowing me. He's kneeling behind her fucking her pussy. She suddenly asks me to lick her pussy. She scrambles forward and is essentially sitting on my face. I stick my tongue in her pussy. It took me a moment to realize what just happened. Her pussy was wet. Very wet. It didn't taste like pussy juice. Wait, I know that smell... it's semen.... Oh my god, he came in her pussy and I'm now licking his cum.  I instinctively turned away.

She's like no no no, lick my pussy, eat his cum, I want to see you eat my boyfriend's cum...

Like here I was in an MMF. A once in a lifetime opportunity. They were very kind to invite me into their bedroom. And all she wants me to do it lick her pussy.  Maybe this is the price of admission. So okay, I turn my face back towards he pussy and lick away.

Two hours earlier if you had said to me today is the day I will eat another man's cum, I would have asked what drugs you were on. But here I was licking a cum filled pussy. She was obviously very excited by this.

Then she asked if it's okay for her and her boyfriend to suck my cock. My head was like no no no, but again I'm thinking this is what happens in an MMF.  So I said yes.

They get between my legs and both of them put their mouths on my cock and do their thing.

Then she says she wants to see me cum in her boyfriend's mouth. She pleading with me. She wants to see me unload in there. So I do. Bam, I'm cumming in a guy's mouth. I thought she was going to die of excitement.

And that was that. I ate a guy's cum. I came in his mouth. One time only. We never had sex again.



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187,538 I fear that my husband has more than one kind of dementia. I agree with his primary doctor that he may have the alcoholic dementia, due to many of the symptoms. After tons of research, I will be pressing his neurologist to do more testing within his brain for damage done to his frontal lobes when he received a direct lightning strike. He.has.nearly.EVERY.symptom.of.behavior.variant.frontal.lobe.dementia - I am scared for what lies ahead for him and us - - - - Until you've done the research and live with all the insanity, please do not judge me for wanting more definite answers - this is vital for the quality of life for both of us in these retirement years.



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187,537 My wife is a compulsive liar. Shes had several affairs.
I'm to codependent to leave her..



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187,536 You told me not to contact you anymore, and I don't.  Then you text me hello the other night, and when I respond you don't answer.  I don't understand.  I would be friends if that's what you want



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187,535 I get so horny sometimes that I wish I could be strapped down, carted around, and fucked by every person in a city. Covered in cum. Men and women alike. Used for pleasure by thousands. Spread open for the world to fuck, poke, cream on. It would be fucking amazing. My fantasies get so naughty. I'd settle for a gorgeous lady to share our bed.



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187,534 Discernment Guy: can you read people or just yourself in a situation?

I could use some answers because I'm all out of logic...



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187,533 I don't want to spend the rest of my life without you.. I have cried so much for this I have no tears left



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187,532 I think hand poked tattoos look like shit.



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187,531 I am a US Army Desert Storm Veteran. A couple of years ago due to poor decision making, substance abuse and mental health issues I ended up homeless. Now I live in an apartment where most of my rent is paid by Section 8. I also receive food stamps and cash aid. I spend most of my cash aid on alcohol and marijuana. I'm so miserable I feel like killing myself everyday. Nothing is ever going to be alright with me.



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187,530 My wife wants sex. I can't tell her I already did it today and can't do it twice. I'm going to lie and pleasure her orally and then say its enough for me to satisfy her sexually.



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187,529 If you're unemployed and enjoy finding errors in the newspaper, you should look into getting freelance editing jobs from one of those Internet editing sites.



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187,528 187523::::: I've had tarot card readings at parties for fun. Not a believer but each time the card I picked to represent me in the reading was the fool. Each time. It's fun to give it meaning if only it is in your own mind.



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187,527 -526, your sex dreams mean two things.  You're desperately horny, and you're also desperately horny for that guy at work.



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187,526 If I had 1 day to spend with you I would spend that day in bed with you, make love to you again and again and just enjoy your company, live for today and not tmorrow.   We'd just take breaks for reading poetry, mixing drinks and, of course, lunch and dinner.



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187,525 I have consistent sex dreams about a co-worker. I think he's cute in an extremely niche way but I don't think a relationship would ever work out between us. What do sex dreams mean? Is it even about sex?



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187,524 I am tired of people copying me in life/professional/career choices. They say that this is a form of flattery, but I can't help but get annoyed when a person goes in my same exact path (my path to get where I am is highly unconventional and never really seen before in the industry).

There is one person who recently joined my current company because they followed my exact path - and it just so happens I knew them from college as well (this person was good friends with a roommate). In addition, another college acquaintance got wind of my success, the professional trajectory, and is deciding to take the same route.

I understand people want to be better professionally. However, I just want to leave all my high school, college, and past life alone. I don't want to see persons from that time of my life or be reminded of the past... but unfortunately it's coming to haunt me. In addition, if people think its a free meal ticket to get into my company - as in they will use my name for networking purposes or leverage the fact they knew me 5 years ago - I'm not cool with that.



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187,523 -517, Discernment Guy here.  There are two things here.  One is the dream, and the second may be some psychic ability on her part.  Her dream means that she really cares about you and your daughter.  That's why she's sitting with your daughter playing a game - she cares for her and wants to spend time with her.  Your getting angry during the dream and walking off means that she doesn't know what you want emotionally, but she wishes she could understand you.  She walked into the room not necessarily to defend you, but to see if there was any danger to you from your guy friend and your ex-wife that you needed to be warned about (again, she cares for you).  She knows something is wrong with them, and this is why I suspect she might be "sensitive."  My guess is that the guy is banging your ex-wife, and they're talking poorly about you behind your back.

There you have it - she cares deeply for you and your daughter a lot, and be careful of your guy friend and your ex-wife, because somewhere along the line their fuck sessions have worked to turn them against you.  Of course, I don't know where they live, or even if they know each other, but it sounds like they're turning against you.  The woman sounds like a good, caring person.



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187,522 second time in my life i've had a complete stranger tell me i have a purple aura.



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187,521 You're a grown woman with a child.  You want to do the right thing, okay, that's good.  This is a good sign.  You need to run it by your _____.  Really?  This is not a rocket science decision.  It's the passing on of a phone number.  To give it or not to give it.  It's a phone number.  Nobody is asking for crystal meth here.  Just a cell phone number so that I can pass on a message.

Holy shit.  Why is everything soooooo complicated with you?!!!!

Do you need to get permission to take a crap in the morning too, or are you able to make that decision on your own?!!!!

You hurt my head and embarrass me on the behalf of our entire sex.  Stop overthinking.  You're killing me.

See ya, bye!



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187,520 You've hurt my feelings for the last time....

.....poof.....



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187,519 No - more like the sins of the father fell on the poor son - Rest in Peace



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187,518 I am an acquaintance of a bad guy.  They type of guy who beats the hell out of his girlfriend.  They type of guy to drive without a license or insurance.  The type of guy who sells drugs to get by.  The type of guy that will cause you to walk away from a good friend because you do not want to see her beat to a pulp anymore.

Well it seems that his son was killed in a random gang drive-by shooting.  An initiation for a Hispanic female gang.  He was a good kid, but they shot him and he died instantly.

I think Karma is paying him back for all the pain and misery he has caused people in his life.  It would have been to easy to see this guy killed, then he would not have to suffer, but to kill his son.  Good God, if there is such a thing as Karma then this would be the greatest example of it ever demonstrated on humans.



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187,517 I'm unemployed. I spend each morning reading the newspaper, then I email the editors with all the typos I found. They never respond. I'm wasting my life.



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187,516   Yesterday morning, upon waking, I saw that I'd received a text from a woman I had dated a couple of months before. It was somewhat distressing as she shared with me that she had the most unusual dream about me and was wondering if I was OK.

I assured her that I was fine, but was curious about the dream and wanted to hear what it was about. She called me later in the evening after I had gotten home from my usual Friday activities.

I listened to her tell me about the dream and it was interesting to hear the descriptions of the people involved. It went something like this:

She was at a party and sitting in the middle of the room playing a game with my youngest daughter and watching me across the room. I was having a discussion with a woman and from what she could see, I was very agitated and from the appearance, having n argument. After a bit , I took off somewhere and she went into the kitchen and some people were talking about me about some personal things. She remarked that it was odd that they were having this discussion and I wasn't in the room to give my side of the story. She  may have interjected at some point ( I don't remember it all, it was pretty intense)- but what I found unusual, the person she was talking with was a close friend. I'd mentioned him several times to her in conversation, but she had no idea what he looked like as she'd never seen a picture.

Eventually, the woman I had the argument with came over to her and started grilling her, acting very aggressive and telling her to mind her own business and leave me alone etc.

When I asked my friend to describe the woman from her dream, she gave me a very detailed description of her mannerisms, her tone and the style of clothing she wore. She even went so far to describe her physique.

In this dream, she had made the assumption that the woman I was talking to was the lady I am currently with, but when she'd finished, I told her that she was describing my ex-wife. Mind you, she had no idea what she looked like, had never even seen a picture of her and really had no idea of her physical characteristics.

Later, I sent her a picture of these two people from the dream. The first one was of my friend , a guy I sometimes hang out with. A few minutes later, I sent her a picture of me with my ex.The funny thing is, she said the two people from her dream looked exactly like the pictures I had sent to her. It really shook us both how here were these people from my life, complete strangers to her, yet she saw them in her dream exactly as they were in the two images.

Later, she told me that she was even more shaken than she was upon initially viewing the images. A while later, she took another look at my ex and said that the more she looked at her face in the picture, she got the sense of pure evil in her visage. It scared her so much that she deleted it immediately and said that she never wanted to see that again.

I'm not sure what to take away from all of this, but it certainly seems like a paranormal event, lucid dreaming or astral projection. What it tells me is that this friend of mine is connected to me on some soul level and there was a message in it.

What is the message?



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187,515 This guy was my friend with benefits for a while. We were good friends, grew very close. I had a little crush on him from the beginning but I kept it under control. Now I moved far away from him. I was hoping we could still be close friends, but I think he doesn't care any more. I used to be convenient, but now I'm just the burden of another message to answer. It hurts.



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187,514 Who the fuck graduates at 22? Those people aren't emotionally ready for life anyway.



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187,513 I took Differential Equations in Engineering school.  Got a good job with an industry-leading company.  Worked there for years, am now retired.  Never used Differential Equations.  Not even once.  It was a waste of time.
- M/70+




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187,512 I don't think going to college matters. People argue back at me pointing out how much a young person matures between the start of college and the end of college. But I think that happens anyway. Young people mature between the ages of 18 and 22. It has nothing to do with going to college and taking a class on differential equations - something you will never use in your lifetime. It's just a natural process for young people to grow emotionally during those years. There is nothing I learned in my college years that was of practical use later in life.

To hell with college.

Save yourself from  a mountain of debt. Get a mail room job in a good industry when you are 18. Work hard. Pay attention. Be helpful and dedicated. Build bridges with the professionals at the company. Tell them you are sincerely interested in learning more. By the time you are 22 and your peers are graduating college, you will already be in the job they want.



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187,511 I tried to kill myself when I was a teenager. It didn't work, and when I was in the hospital, my mom came to visit me, and the first thing she said to me was "you're still going to school tomorrow"



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187,510 So I am applying for this job,a job that is paying in cash.  They liked my resume but asked if I had proof of working at those jobs.  What proof?  Pay stubs.  I do, but that's an unusual question.  I've never been asked that before.  I don't like that at all.  Plus, they're paying in cash, so what right do they have to see paystubs?  I thought they initially meant references, which is fine.  But paystubs?  That's fucking weird.  I'm not gonna go interview, it's an apartment with 3 men in separate offices.  I'm female.  I just feel that's aggressive, you could have asked for references.



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187,509 I'm in the same boat. 35 no career a little college left. Messed up thing is I am smart.  What happened?  I just never knew what I wanted to do, so I've been going job to job.  There's no future in that.  Do I go back to school?  When all these people have degrees and still don't make money and it does not guarantee you a job?  Idk what i should do.



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187,508 I used to go commando. Then I noticed poop on the back of my skirt. It's what can happen if you go to the bathroom and have no panties to pull up afterwards. I no longer go commando.



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187,507 I don't have the slightest clue as to what I'm doing in the gym.  I wish someone had taught me this stuff when I was young.  Now I'm going to have to pay someone at least $50 an hour to learn.



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187,506 I'm 36 and have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I have no career, I have a little more school to do for my BA but I'm almost done paying off my loans from 15 years ago. I'm pretty sure I don't want to do what my major was.

I have excellent credit. That's kind of saying something.

I've started writing recently, a story, it's sort of pouring out of me.

I know not all wanderers are lost, but this one sure feels that way.  Does anyone ever feel this lost?



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187,505 Oh no....She's back..and still off her meds!



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187,504 I am trying to count my sex partners I am f 28 lesbian and I have slept with 1 guy been masturbated inside of by 2 but my first partner was a woman and I rebounded from her to the guy who was supposed to be best friend at the same as rebounding on 2 other girls in sequence and then.. theres me now escaping into new hopes from> someone> who loves me yet does not find satisfaction in their baseline sense of peace being just having me but all the things I am slowly getting better with..ppl if u have a checklist of things a person needs to be respected enough to love that's better than not needing to respect to "love" but I could have been happy with my first partner if only (oh wait before the first girl I almost slept with a guy but had my period and I did love him in a way... well his energy anyway I didn't find kinship in him but...he actually made me wish I didn't have my period which never happened since I "cheated" on the one I was made to start calling my bf and at that point I was too desensitized anyway plus..k too much detail just that there needs to be mutual listening in sex as tho a conversation u cant just expect to get wet/hard for something ur not wanting to happen or that u know isn't love in the end u will know whats important.. uh.. how I initiated tho the FIRST TIME ONLY with the guy who destroyed my things in the end and it was to help push away my gf at the time THAT IS TRUE after that I only initiated out of guilt. but I destroyed his too ACCIDENTALLY I MEAN THAT his mother moved out*rolls eyes* he was a terror to her for little bits of money for things he didn't need(cigs weed pills) he got me smoking cigs but couldn't even use them to lower his weed tolerance and do his OWN art which is all I respected him for in the end. revenge for something accidental does not equal justice and violation of the body revenge is always shameful he didn't do that exactly but he didn't give a shit about if something mattered to me he was a selfish lazy thing or rather had not found mindfulness or humility on any level. who when it was hard blamed the devil delusional guy I didn't even respect him as much as the other guy oops not the 3rd guy sorry the first guy.. so that makes...oh and one girl who I loved her energy but wouldn't have found kinship in now someone I find everything in and im recovering knowing love can be combined with aspirations and compatibility issues... I LOVE her and I feel her love yet .. I am being told to move on at times yet still punished for talking to others yet told again of the trust in this devotion and it is devotion oh shit and I was a prostitute ONCE for $200 he was respectful I made sure firsthand he respected me on the phone in a conversation.. um.. and then before that feels like before any actual contact I asked for a ride and brought to a graveyard and he played with my boob while wanking. the end.. u do the counting no ok so that's um..exactly 10 being 28... I think its 2 times too high and 10 times what proud would be



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187,503 if u spend your whole life looking for some kind of thing now based on dumb parameters (30sec?) and don't even enjoy being enjoyed by someone you LOVE ya your dick will stop working cuz ur heart will.. from a lesbian who is rekindling lost sensitivity from being masturbated inside of by "ex" among other violating()things and my own selfish promiscuity.



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187,502 Holy shit, this man doesn't have what I need sexually. His dick is a great size, his body is on point, but his energy and appetite align with his selfishness in bed. It's all about him, while I get 30 seconds of absolute bliss that ends way too soon, and leaves me wondering how the fuck I'mma do this for the rest of my life?



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187,501 I guess I'm done with sex. I haven't had sex in 3+ years. Yesterday I hired an escort. The young lady was my absolute ideal. Dark hair, dark eyes, a slim body with an ass that could make a man beg and firm, perky tits. So, what does my dick do?
Nothing. Despite this young woman's best efforts my dick wouldn't respond. Not even a partial chub. She was a good sport about it, thankfully. Still, embarrassing. I guess it's all over.
57yo WM



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187,500 If it's true, Clinton didn't get caught; Trump did ... THAT'S THE DIFFERENCE!!!  And it makes a big difference.  If you don't get caught, you won't have to pay.  If you do get caught, you do have to pay.  Learn to be moore clever in the future.



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