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187,799 Why do you keep telling me you want to meet, and every time we are close you disappear?  You stopped talking to me for awhile and reappeared, then said sorry. We have been talking for so long, and you bring up meeting again, and we make tentative plans, then you are nowhere to be found. Why do you keep doing this?  I feel so stupid. I asked if I did something wrong and you can't even answer me? Wow. Why bring up meeting me over and over if you're just gonna disappear?



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187,798 Radical honesty is the path to an enlightened future



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187,797 I think that we women are capable of doing much more, such as physical labor or technical stuff but our society doesn't encourage it. For example, I recently talked to a female engineering professor at a university who developed an internship program for female engineering students. She said that she developed this program to help women engineers who graduate to stay in the field of engineering. In a nutshell, she said that the field is male dominated and therefore women engineers are not taken seriously (although they went through the same education/training) and give up and leave engineering behind. So this situation is not as black and white as some might think...



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187,796 It's quite simple most people expect women to be " femenine" and man are expected to be "manly" and if you are not to their expectations you get ridiculed. If a man dreams on becoming a nurse he gets mock , if his wife makes more money and decides to stay home to take care after the kids he gets ridiculed by both men and women. Same for women if you want a job that is nominated by men there's must be something wrong with you, idk you might be a "lesbian " for wanting the job and god forbid you chose a career that requires a lot of hours on the job that might make you a horrible wife/mother for expending more time at work than home.



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187,795 Bye! Please, keep going! Noboby will miss you!



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187,793 We stopped the car on the shoulder that night. The fog was so thick.  I saw a light shining on the fog from the woods to my right.  It came closer and closer, must be someone with a flashlight. I told him, "look, someone is out there".  The light went off.  Something, or someone, hit the car. Every hair on my body pricked and my heart jumped.  Then the car started shaking like someone was standing on the trunk and bouncing the car.  I didn't look back.  I looked at him to whisper "DRIVE!!!" but he was frozen with fear and his eyes were wide.  The door handle on the back passenger door popped open.  That sound must have forced him to act.  He slammed his foot on the gas and we hit something as we took off.  We drove and drove without saying a word.



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187,792 Women don't want those jobs. And it's not up to you which jobs they choose to get into. Pregnant women should NOT be doing jobs like that btw. Men who talk like that, it's like this bitterness you have against women. I am not a feminist I'm a bit sexist myself, to a point. I like being a woman and yes I ask guys to lift heavy things for me and do "man stuff" in the house. I am not ashamed of that at all. I do not think I can do everything a man can do, guys are naturally stronger than us. Faster too. Everything else considered equal, it's just the way it is.



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187,791 I, on the other hand, every time I come here, I appreciate people's honesty when they tell their secrets or whatever. I think, that if I met you in person, I might actually like some of ya'll...



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187,790 People still see you after this time. Can you see us? Are you standing precariously on the flower pot? Are you lost in a daydream?

I want to be okay with everything. I want to see the worthlessness of my own life and meet you in the shadows.  

Driving home from the cereal factory on the old fish camp road. Stop the car. Look in the shadows.  

Can you see us? We didn't see you. I'm so sorry.



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187,789 Every time I come here, i'm bound to see something that pisses me off.  I hate so many of you.

I hate this world more and more by the day.



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187,788 I want to be "roofied".   I picture a good (and sexy lol) female friend slipping a pill into my drink, then the next morning having random flashes of intense sex with her, but having no ability to control the situation.

My mind goes crazy with the thought. I know it's a horrible thing when it's used to rape innocent women, and I have a friend who went through that hell. It's impacted her life for years, and I want to badly harm the unknown asshole who attacked her. That shitstain on humanity should be castrated by drunk sewer rats.

But this other friend? I trust her. I love her. I want her to take me and use me mercilessly. It fuels my 'me time' sessions in the shower.



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187,787 Several times over the past few years since I've owned a house, I've dealt with the effects of storms, as well as hiring people to help me fix the damage. Downed trees, flooded basement, septic field floods, roofing tile replacement, broken windows, etc.

Then I hit traffic on the way to work. Line painting, paving, pot hole filling, new guard rails, new traffic signals, etc.

When I can't do a car repair (or don't want to do), I take it to the local shop. My wife doesn't trust me to work on her car, so i take hers to the dealership.

While downtown for work, I see new skyscrapers being built, underground utilities being fixed/updated, and the mini-kitchen being restocked. I also deal with project managers, HR, finance, reporters, baristas, IT folks, and secretaries.

Then on the internet and TV I see women's rights groups talking about equality, the "wage gap", and the glass ceiling.

Why is it that in all the above cases, the only jobs I see women doing are the ones where they won't chip a fingernail?

I can count on two hands the instances where I've known a female brick layer, welder, pipe fitter, or lineman (power lines). Why? Aren't women equal to men all of a sudden? It's not very hard to get a job being a common laborer.

90% of the trades people I see are white males. About 75% of the paper pushers are female and/or non-whites.

Tell me again that there's a "war" to get women equal footing in the work world. When I see a 20-something black lady working on my roof, or repairing downed live power lines at 3am in a blizzard, a 40 y/o woman rebuilding an engine, or a lesbian Latino operating a crane, or a pregnant lady (any age/race) repairing my home's plumbing, then I will admit that women are truly fighting for equality. Otherwise it's all about airtime and attention. Mostly attention.

I have *zero* problems with women in the work force. None. When as they put out the same effort as men to do in their jobs for the same shitty pay, they will have achieved equality. The same jobs, not just ones revolving around typing and talking.

Any other time, I will deny the fight is real. If you want equality, then pursue it for real. Don't settle for paperwork or relationship (PR, etc) jobs, fight to have equal standings in EVERY field.

My company has a goal of ensuring equal representation of race/gender/sexuality in all the top-paying levels. Fuck that. Why just the executive jobs? Why not the rest of them too? Maybe they know that they won't see a 50/50 split in the high-rise window washing industry.

Zero respect to the management. You don't want equality. You want the buzzwords in the news releases saying how inclusive you are. Idiots.



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187,786 Okay. So people were created in God's image.

God has no gender.

People can have no gender.

We're all riding around in different coloured shells until the great waves take us back.



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187,785 I know my friends like me, my family likes me, and my coworkers don't hate me.  But really, I'm mostly invisible. If I 'disappeared' somehow but my paycheck still showed up, I doubt anyone would notice until the next time I didn't respond to a Happy Birthday text.

People frequently get mad at me for saying things that aren't politically correct, but are still true. It's like they don't want to admit someone's failure, instead finding a way to blame 'society' instead of owning the fact that they screwed up.

Maybe I'll find a way to live in an RV (a van by the river, lol) with wifi so I can still work and provide for my family, yet not say things that cause the drama that no one admits they thrive on.

I will miss my kids, a few friends, but my sex life will be the same. Fuck everyone else.



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187,784 781....did you sign up to use the wifi possibly?



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187,783 You're not totally right, but you're not wrong either.
It would be nice if sheltered people could experience reality.



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187,781 Has anyone noticed how the left is against marriage - but fought for gay marriage - against religion - but fights for the “religion of peace” - against the military - but fights for the introduction of the mentally ill into its ranks….against western values - but fights for the destructive and anti-woman and anti-gay customs of the middle east - is against motherhood and childbirth but pushed the bullshit that men can have periods and give birth, is against men and women (the only genders proven by biology and science) but wants to push their ideological (cult) onto children who they say are blank slates but we should reject gender norms and biology ?? WTF!  

How many such instances do we have to note until someone confronts them with the truth?

They do NOT care for our institutions and they do NOT care for minorities either, they're just using them because they see them as destructive.



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187,780 Yesterday, we went to Arby's for an early dinner.  Later, after we got home, I got a message on my smart phone; it was a questionnaire about Arby's and the service we received.  We had given them no identifying information.  How did the phone know???



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187,779 If you have another baby, will you support and raise it out of your own pocket and not stiff your ex-husband-to-be or the taxpayer for its support?  Have you also considered the preferability of a child having both male and female adult role models in its life – especially if the baby turns out to be a boy?



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187,778 I will never get over having had to grow up without a father.  I wouldn't wish that on a dog!



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187,777 I think Mt. Rushmore is creepy...



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187,776 I always wanted to make toilets, not have to clean them.



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187,775 Hey you know that girlfriend you're always posting and trying to act like the perfect couple with? Well she's hitting on me every chance she can get !life sure is odd



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187,774 I suffer from a mild form of overload sensory disorder. I am most bothered by noise and clutter. In both cases -too much/many noise(s) and/or clutter- my brain completely shuts down and I am reduced to being a bumbling idiot. It is really quite crippling. As a result, I avoid situations when I would find myself in sensory distress. My house is very quiet, clean and organized and I do not go to bars, clubs or even I-MAX movies. I also tend to avoid places like thrift stores and bargain stores as they do trigger my problem.

For the past 2 months, I have been helping a friend reno her (new to her) fixer-upper of a house. We've done everything, from drywall to paint to putting new baseboards down to rehabbing the old kitchen. My friend is both a litter bug and a hoarder but these past two months we've worked in a mostly empty house, save for tools  and supplies -both haphazardly strew about but I can deal with that when that's all the stimulus I need to handle.

Well, today she decided to move all her stuff into the house, before the new carpet was even put in. I offered to help her load/unload the truck when she told me that ට% of her stuff (at her old place) was already boxed in". But when I arrived at her place it turned out it was not the case and most of her stuff was just... well...waiting to be packed up. I helped her with a few bigger pieces of furniture then I bowed out because I could feel myself shutting down under the onslaught of smells and visual disturbances. I told her I'd help her unload later if she needed me too.

When I finally caught up with her later in the day, she had unloaded most of her belongings into the small living room and there was very little room left to move about. I tried helping her the best I could but finally, I had to throw in the towel and tell her I would not be able to help her with the reno for a while, at least until the carpet was put in and boxes and assorted sundries could be dispatched into the adjoining rooms. Of course she took it badly. Never mind that I have provided her with 2 months of free labor and expertise in all things DIY. No, never mind that. She chooses to be p-o'ed because I cannot function under the current circumstances. As if operating a table saw and a nail gun with shit lying everywhere around and piled high was even safe. I am so disappointed in her.

That'll teach me being nice and building shit for people for free. Ugh.



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187,773 Tonight I discovered that I can identify with Monica Lewinsky.

I'll likely puke later.



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187,772 I want another baby....and then I want a divorce.



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187,771 I work in entertainment and my job has made me an alcoholic. It's always event after event, party after party, night after night and everyone drinks (and worse). Yes, I am a willing participant but it's so easy to get caught up in this. I need to get it together...like years ago...



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187,770 I had it bad for Sarah for years when we were young.  I wanted to marry that girl.  She ignored me, but I wanted her so bad.  I wanted her to have my children.

One day I found out she got a 700 on her SATs, back when the max score was 1600.  I got 1210.  She got almost 60% of the answers wrong.  Had she been able to at least narrow down each question to the top 2 answers, and then made a blind guess between the 2 answers, she would have scored better than she did.

It was the first crack in my obsession for her.  One day when I was 22, I woke up and realized she was stupid, mean, and a loser, and that I had wasted three years of my life chasing her.

I made a priority change after Sarah.  I'd never date a girl who wasn't my intellectual equal, or at least close to it.

It was a good decision.  I'm still smarter than my wife (she'd be the first to admit that), but she was the valedictorian in high school and college, and I was the slouch.  Our kids are obviously smarter than their peers.  My five year old was telling me tonight about binary numbers, and wanted to learn more.  They're also kind children.

Thank God for unanswered prayers.  I'd be embarrassed to bring Sarah around to any of my coworkers and friends.



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187,769 My ex used to say his depression was why he wouldn't clean up, and if he didn't maintain it just grew and became overwhelming. He would order things and wait until the boxes piled up to bring them to recycling. When he started working it got a little better, then it got worse because he had more money to buy things. I would go over and he'd get on my case that his house was messy because no one helps. I'd tell him, he's one person, he only has to clean after himself. He'd say it was the depression. I didn't leave him for that, it's very confusing, depression. You don't leave someone when they're sick, but what if they use that sickness to do or not do things? In men depression can manifest as anger, but if he's abusive, then what? He gets so mad at little things because he's depressed, then it would turn to me. Depression is real. And he has it. But where do you draw that line?



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187,768 Been married a dozen years or so. I don't recall a single day where my wife didn't drink alcohol.



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187,767 i married a lazy person. if i had known this is how it would be, i never would have done it. marriages changes people. some become more responsible. others take advantage.



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187,766 When I was in high school there was this annoying kid named Mike. He pestered everyone in an immature way. Like he'd go up to someone at lunchtime and over and over ask for a cookie. He knew he was being annoying. It was his schtick.

There was one day though that a group of us were playing frisbee at lunchtime. Mike came along and started commenting on how stupid we all were to be playing frisbee. Then he grabbed the frisbee and threw it over the school yard fence.

Jim Guinness was playing frisbee with us. He was also co-captain of the football team. He calmly walked up to Mike and without saying a word, he punched Mike in the face with everything he had. When Mike crumpled to the ground, Jim gave him a full force kick in the gut.

Mike laid there moaning for a while before hobbling back inside. We heard he went home. He wasn't at school for the next few days.

After that Mike stayed in his corner. He said nothing to no one. But what did the little prick expect? He got what he deserved. In fact we helped him, because he shut his damned mouth after that. He never said a word anymore. People eventually forgot about him. This was good for his health.

Now I look at our world. North Korea reminds me of Mike, always getting in everyone's face. We'd be doing them a favor with a solid punch in the face, followed by a kick in the gut. At the very least, we should put North Korea in touch with Mike.



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187,765 My room mate constantly leaves garbage around, and tells me that "they're depressed and that makes it hard to clean". Really? You're so depressed, but you have the energy to drive all the way to taco bell across town every day , but not enough energy to throw it in the garbage right next to you when you're done with it? OK.

Just a lazy piece of sh*t using mental illness as an excuse to be a horrible roommate.



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187,764 So, that guy that killed his wife in front of their daughter on a cruise ship? I could see my husband doing something like that. If I displease him in any major way (say something he doesn't like, mostly) he exploded in anger, bows up like he's going to hurt me, then he usually smashes something all to hell. Or if we're in public he will herate me verbally, cussing me up and down, loudly. To me that's proof that he can control himself, he just doesn't want to. Anyway, I haven't left because he's made it clear that he will kill me, by both saying it, and eluding to it. He cheers when a husband gets away with his wife's murder, and grieves when they get caught. If staying with him means I get to live a little longer, then I choose life. The fact is, as soon as I move out, the clock is ticking. I will live in fear until it happens, or doesn't. At this point I'm sure he'll do it, but hope he won't. As long as I stay, the clock is still ticking, but the pin hasn't been pulled, if that makes sense.

How'd I get myself into this? I escaped an abusive childhood to be with him. I'm nearly middle aged, successful in my career, make good money, but absolutely locked into this relationship for life. Either way, leaving just might be worth it. Not being abused and living free just might be worth the risk. I'll wait till my kids are grown before I really start to follow that ray of light.



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187,763 God, I'm craving a drink right now. I went sober, cold turkey, from last December until early July when i  went on vacation. Getting sober again now that I'm back home is even harder than quitting the first time. I can do it with a little help from my pal weed though



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187,762 I've been with my husband for 10 years. If I tell him I have to pee he follows me into the bathroom. I suck his cock while I pee. Sure it only lasts like 30 seconds or so at a time but it's still fun... and almost always leads to sex not to long later. I feel really lucky to have a husband who is very into sex. No matter what he is doing he will drop everything and pleasure me to orgasm if I ask. God I love that man! F/39



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187,761 I'm angry at how stupid everyone is...



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187,760 I had sex with a married guy in his car while Taylor Swift's You Belong to Me was playing.

The irony was not lost on me.



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187,759 I just noticed. I think she tried to reach out, be friendly, extend some kind of civility. And I shut that shit down. I'm sorry, but you can't do something to somebody, deny it and act like it's their fault, and then expect to be let back in someone's heart for that kind of manipulative behavior



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187,758 I am very happy and it evident to everyone around me.
My manipulative wife hates it. She's all about winning.
At any cost, including cheating on me with the sole purpose of putting me in my place.
My hope is she learns from my joy and contentment to stop her behavior. The likelihood of that happening I know is very small, but I have hope.
I'm happy because I know she cannot hurt me anymore. I'm am hyper aware of her tactics now.
I will file papers if that's what it takes to snap her out of it. Or to start my new wonderful life.



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187,757 Even though I still make mistakes, I've been growing to live my life with more understanding. I understand myself and my habits, good and bad. I understand my friends, where they're coming from, how true our relationships are (for the most part). I understand my family, both by blood and by choice. It makes me happy to understand. So even though I make mistakes, I've always been aware of my slow improvement over time, and the strength that comes with awareness. I'm okay with that.



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187,756 My wife is unintelligent. It's embarrassing in mixed company. She says the dumbest things. When we are out somewhere at a group function, like a party, I try to stay away from her. I don't what people to think I'm associated with her and assume I'm also dumb.

Something telltale, watching my wife try to read aloud.

She brought a movie home from the library. She was trying to tell me the name. She read the DVD cover and pronounced it as "rewg one".  I didn't understand. I've never heard of such a movie.

She handed me the DVD box.

"Rogue One".

She doesn't know the word rogue?

Hard to believe she is a college grad. Well okay, it was a community college. But still.



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187,755 Listening to Empire State of Mind (the Jay Z and Alicia Keys song), makes me break down. I couldn't go anywhere without it playing when I was in college. It was the backdrop to so many awesome nights getting fucked up and hanging out with friends. Those were the best nights of my life.

Now I'm usually sober and most of those old friends have drifted away. I was once surrounded by people and happy times, and now it's all gone. Empire State of Mind reminds me of that, and it can reduce me to tears in a second.

There are a slew of punk rock and alternative songs from back in the day that also make me tear up, but this one immediately turns me into Pavlov's depressed dog as soon as I hear the intro.



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187,754 "The Approaching Curve"by Rise Against  reminds me of a bad event in my life. I'd been sexually assaulted by someone I knew. Sociopath. Nobody has ever had the ability to manipulate and deceive me the way this individual has. I'm known for my good judgment of character. He manipulated that too. I felt so stupid.

He came over one night because he wanted to "apologize" for what happened in the past and start our friendship over. He did it again. A third time. I froze and couldn't move as he did whatever he wanted to me. I was screaming on the inside, but I couldn't move my body for scream to my roommate for help. It was horrible and I've never experienced agony like that before or since. In therapy I realized it was because my brain was protecting me from the trauma I experienced previously from fighting him and being held down against my will. Fucked up.

After he stopped, I took him back to his house. I should have made him walk, but I wanted him as far away from me as possible and as quickly as possible...

He grabbed my iPod and turned on "The Approaching Curve" and started telling me how it was the song that was in when he and his cousin got in a car wreck. I said nothing because I was wishing that he had died in that wreck. He chatted away as though nothing happened. Grabbed my upper thigh before he got out of the car and said "Thanks for the good time" and left. I vomited on the way home.

I can't listen to that song. It makes my stomach retch.



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187,753 When I die, people will say how intelligent and talented I was.  They'll say I was a man who could quickly understand anything I wanted, who mastered several instruments at a young age, published several books, and earned multiple advanced degrees.  They will say how amazed they are that I did all this despite losing my parents at a young age and surviving cancer as a child.

And then they will say, "Why was a man like this always near poverty?"

And they will marvel at my incredible run of bad luck.



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187,752 My advice is counseling, then financial counseling first. Seriously, try it and you might be surprised. If that doesn't work, then a good mediator for a divorce. Your wife will have no choice in working at that point. She needs to understand the financial realities of life and she will learn quickly. If she has good references, she can get a job almost anywhere. And please keep your "person" - and I do understand that theory - out of all of this and do not see her until you are ready to present yourself as an eligible man with children. Nothing else is fair to her.

And...frankly, there is no upside for either one of you for a while after you separate. Its tough but, again, I think you should try the above recommendations. A healthy frame of mind is much more important that caving into some spoiled brat's decision not to work again - and she is a mother! Your children may not be happy with your initial decision but they will be happy with a happier Dad.

I wish you lots of luck...and all the best!



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187,751 My husband has this theory that whoever makes more money should get more free time. It's resulted in me working 70-80 hour weeks, while he works a clean 40. That doesn't include household chores. How did we get like this? We've been together for almost ten years and his attitude toward my work is making me contemplate divorce. My job is not less important because it pays less. It still fucking pays. I feel like I'm around the corner from being requested to quit my job. If that happens, I'll be filing for divorce same day, moving out the next week, and getting myself a dating profile in a month. I already have an apartment in mind.



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187,750 By the third day of my honeymoon I realize my marriage was a mistake.



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187,749 I'll be honest I'm a women and do not like cleaning or cooking. Growing up we had a housekeeper so she help my mom to run errands and clean around the house while my mother did the cooking which she enjoyed ( she is a great cook) however I never got interested on learning how to cook especially since she used to make everything from scratch, she never bought microwave meals , cans or anything that came from a packet. While her meals were delicious she spends hours preparing our food . No thanks I'll rather help around the house changing light bulbs,assembling things, lawing the grass etc.. etc but please do not ask me to make a elaborate meal.



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187,748 Instead of cleaning up messes, my wife will go out and buy a new "cleaning up messes" outfit. Then she gets so distracted with her new clothing purchase, that she runs out of time and never cleans up the mess. I'm not kidding.



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187,747 My wife never uses sex to get what she wants.  We just don't have sex.  Ever.  And she still gets what she wants.



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187,746 Instead of cleaning up her messes, my wife will first read a book on how to clean up messes.  It's fucking crazy.



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187,745 739- It's called Covert-Aggressive Disorder.
You are being manipulated and abused. Put a stop to it. Stand up and stand your ground.



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187,744 My therapist is a genius.
She has changed my life.



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187,743 Free form roaming man. Good for you! I love it! Inspirational!



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187,742 When a woman's 18, she's old enough to make her own decisions about sex.  Daddy needs to step back.



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187,741 "Wonderwall" reminds me of my when my dad died, and I was self-medicating with alcohol and narcotics to handle the pain.  Now it reminds me of how long ago that was.



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187,740 I pray to the Lord every night for forgiveness in your Heart.



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187,739 Rolled my Honda into a ferry today, going to Prince Edward Island.  I've gone over a thousand miles on adventure. Never. Even on a ferry before, there is a Busker festival in Halifax next week.
Free form roaming man. Wife isn' t happy about it, she should have come or can join me but I got 20 good years left and I'm gonna pack em tight with experiences, no schedule no  obligations just on the road.....



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187,738 My wife has this mental game she plays. She never tires of it. She works it out where we never share the chores. I do all the chores in exchange for her participating in sex. The only thing is, and this is the game part, she never comes through with the sex.

At her request, I drive into town to pick up the pizza. I go to the train station to pick up her friend. I drop off her package at the post office. "Don't worry," she says, "When you get home, we'll have the best sex."

Then when I get home, she's in a foul mood, and the sex doesn't happen. She does this over and over again.

You might wonder why I do the chores then? Why don't I stop helping? Because I can't leave the kids with no dinner. I have to pick up the pizza because my wife never will. I can't leave someone waiting at the train station. I can't not mail the package. My wife bought an item on Amazon. It was the wrong size. My wife would just as soon throw it in a closet and forget about it. This means I would be out $100. She doesn't care. So I take care of all of these things because I am a conscientious reasonable person. My wife is not.

I don't even care about the promise of sex anymore. I know it's not coming. It's never coming. Bizarre to me how she keeps bringing it up as if she's using it to control me. She's twisted. One day when the kids are old enough to get their own pizza, I'm out of here.



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187,737 I was too shy to ask you out



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187,736 Red red wine by ub40 was playing the first time i lost my V card.  To this day whenever I hear that song it makes me smile.  Thank you Denise



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187,735 "Move On" by Garden City Movement is one of the strongest musical associations I have. When I first heard it I was 19 years old, in the middle of my first relationship. We were each others' first loves, met in the summer, and carried on an intense romance. We spent almost every day together, mostly outdoors, flying planes and canoeing in the bay, jumping off quarries--a true summer of love and adventure. It was one of the happiest times of my life.

But I remember when I heard that song the first time that I knew it would break my heart, because most first relationships end. Now I can't listen to it anymore, because it reminds me of what perfection felt like, and what it felt like to lose that, as a girl who'd already lost her home, her job, and her family (none of that due to my ex).

Of course, this isn't a very terrible thing in the grand scheme. A first love is unreal, the first moment you feel more intensely about a person than any friend or family member you have. You feel like they're your other half, and all that stuff. But finding love the 2nd time is just as good. Nobody really talks about it, but it's the first time you can choose to love somebody with the experience of knowing what that means. You can have a healthy relationship, instead of a dependent one. You can maintain your individuality, and your respect for one another. You can do it right.



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187,734 stuck in the middle....
kids being kids around the house, i let them have fun and they respect me and know their limits

wife gets home from work and all hell breaks loose.  try to tell her, treat them the way you want to be treated, i suddenly get treated like the kids.

she's a bully and when she doesnt get her way, reverts to a 6yr old    

kids ask why is she so unhappy....not sure what to tell them.   peace and harmony when its just the 4 of us...throw the wife in and all of a sudden the blender is turned on...

and she wonders why im pulling away



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187,733 In college I took a management class for juniors when I was a freshman by accident. One of the things I learned was that employers try to make their employees as happy as possible, because it statistically increases their productivity. You know, they try harder if they're working for something they agree with/believe in.

I find that the opposite is true. I work the hardest when I'm having a depressive episode, but at my job it sucks because the work is easy enough for me to get the work done while negative thoughts still swirl around my head. I try to work quickly so that I have to pay attention to details and not fuck it up, but the negativity persists. So I end up with perfectly polished reports and a growing sense of apathy for the whole thing.



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187,732 My wife gave me a bj last night when she got home from work before we ate dinner... little did she know I had been with my mistress just before.  So not only did she get to swallow my cum but she got the added pleasure of my mistresses pussy juice too....



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187,731 If somebody made me work 70 hours a week, I'd divorce them.



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187,730 Happy birthday Catherine B from Raleigh.... always felt bad for ghosting you but you were married and unable/unwilling to leave your marriage and kids to move to another state.

That last weekend in May was awesome, great sex and fun...thank you for the going away fuck fest.  Closure was great.  I did use you that last weekend for the sex and I have felt badly about that since.

I wonder if your husband ever figured you had cheated on him and/or you ever got up the nerve to leave him.

Either way I hope you are happy!



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187,729 I hate "Wonderwall." There. I said it.



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187,728 In a sea of complaints from dissatisfied people married to dull, selfish or wacko spouses, it was lovely to hear from poster 710 of the spontaneous playfulness that he and his wife still share in their marriage.



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187,727 Keeping it trailer park.



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187,726 688 - You are quite literally living my dream! I'm a bit more on the "before" side of the bullshit conformity.  Turned 28 this year.  My friends are all miserable public accountants buying houses and getting married to boring people left and right who can talk about the price of a fucking sofa for hours on end.  There's so much life to live! I might just skip the bullshit and fast forward to being like you if I can manage it! Take me with you?!

- 28/F who feels retired on the inside (retired from society I guess!)  



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187,725 Mean people are the spice of life. They make it interesting and keep you on your toes.

But beware the ones who are only mean behind the scenes. They're the most dangerous.



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187,724 Been married now 13 years.  2 kids age 13 and 10.  my wife and I have been okay roommates for the last 3-4 years.  We barely speak.  There is zero intamacy. she does her own thing i do mine.  we coordinate on the kids and work opposite schedules.

She was recently laid off and doesn't want to work anymore. we barely make it now living paycheck to paycheck.  we have shitty health benefits that were one hospital stay away from being broke. we don't contribute to a 401K now since we need every bit of money to make the month work. She wants to keep doing expensive kids sports and says "just charge it" for the travel costs. I make my own lunch everyday for work and i come home to the kids having new sweatshirts in the middle of summer. I told her she needs to start looking for a job and i get screamed at for not being considerate of what she needs now.  she says working that hard (40 hours a week) was too tough.  I work 70 and still have time to take the kids places, clean the house, cook dinner, etc. We will run through every bit of savings by the end of 2017. no house - we rent.

I've thought about separating a long time ago.  I was too scared.  now i am even more scared that without her working we would separate and completely shatter the kids lives by having to move - neither one of us could afford the house on our own. Did i miss my chance? What could be the upside of leaving now if there is one? How hard is it when first separating?

secret 1: i'm terrified of making the wrong decision.
secret 2: i've recently someone who is my person. the one i should have been with long ago.  i found out our paths have crossed and we came within hours of meeting each other in certain places 15 years ago before i was married.

i'm so lost.

39/married?



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187,723 As much as I love alternative music , Radiohead is one of those bands I cannot stand their songs are too long and depressing even in the 90's when they were super popular didn't care for them.

37 f who loves alternative music



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187,722 AMERICA:

I'm scared!  Can he invalidate my marriage???????????

Goddamnit something must be done!

but what ...  Maybe we'll have to leave our home.  This is beyond disaster.



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187,721 "High and Dry" by Radiohead. Every time I hear that song, I'm brought back to high school. Talent show night, senior year. This quiet kid in the band walks on stage, steps in front of the microphone and that song begins to play. I remember being skeptical. That's a high pitched song, and as far as I knew, this kid didn't even sing. But apparently, he did. He NAILED it! Sounded even better than Thom Yorke. We were blown away. He got a standing ovation and won the contest. I still remember the headline in the school paper: Who Knew Andy Starr Could Sing?

Fast forward 7 years. Andy is battling alcoholism and tries quitting cold turkey. He has the DT's and suffers such a severe seizure that it kills him. He was 25.

It's a song that means something to me now. It's a nice memory of how people can surprise you sometimes.



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187,720 Not just adopted. I grew up in the foster system. As soon as I discovered sex, it's what I had to do all the time. It must have something to do with not having parents in general.



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187,719 If you come onto my adopted daughters because you think they're an easy lay, I will fucking shank you. If the only way you can get any play is by manipulating insecure younger women, you're pathetic.



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187,718 like I'd want to talk to someone because they threatened me with a vid I don't even care about with the sound removed of me letting you know I'm not even participating and you're stupid. Sharing that would look worse on u than me bad on me only for letting some stupid sex happen. Keep nurturing ur inner victim mentality



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187,717 I'm pretty sure Donald Trump is a coke addict.



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187,716 Find somebody who believes in you, builds you up, and helps you. Don't waste time on people who only want to control you, or keep you down.

Trust me. Find the ones that care. They are out there.



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187,715 Don't do it. The drama is not worth it for anybody involved. Trust me on that.



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187,714 I think my boss wants to sleep with me. I want to give him a try as well. I guess we will see what happens tomorrow night.



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187,713 The song "As the Rush Comes" will always make me cry every time I hear it. I was about 20 year old, fell in love with a crazy, deeply emotional man who felt as strongly as I do. It was a year of great times and happiness that only a 20 year old could experience. I've never met anyone like that who could actually be honest and talk about it but him. He became involved with another woman who quickly became overly dramatic and hurtful to him. He loved her, and he chose her. He was too hurt by her and briefly decided to come back to me. He found out she was pregnant and left again. I was so intensely hurt that I had to move away. I couldn't stand to be in the same city as them. Even after a year or two, I still was captivated by him and couldn't forget. He contacted me again later when they had problems. I blew him off. I was just starting to get over it and didn't want to let myself go back down that hole. Now, 12 years later I still think of him sometimes. They are no longer together, but I've moved on. I admire him from afar and am happy for him to have found happiness again. It's too late to care about any of it anymore, but it still hurts like it was yesterday when I hear this song. That and "high and dry" by Radiohead. Fuck. Music is so powerful.



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187,712 I don't like watching TV anymore.  I used to, but the channels I liked either changed themselves into something different, or shut down altogether.  I took a long break from TV due to having no money.  When I started watching again, there was nothing there that I used to like.  I prefer watching Youtube shows now.



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187,711 Work never noticed money was missing from the account. :)



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187,710 Proverbs, 13ᛀ - Spare the rod, spoil the child.

I've never hit my kids.  But I sure have hell acted crazy enough around them to keep them in line.



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187,709 My wife and I have this thing. If she's in the right mood, she'll head to the bathroom to pee, and she'll ask if I've been stung by a sea urchin. We saw this on a tv show once. Someone was stung by a sea urchin and another person had to pee on the wound because pee is sterile and cleans out the poison. My wife asking if I've been stung is code speak, meaning do I want her to pee on my hand. We both go to the bathroom. She opens her legs. I stick my hand in there and she let's loose. It's weird, but it's a type of foreplay for us. I lick my fingers. I say I need more. I then lick her still pee-wet pussy.



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187,708 I wish the high I get from Percocet would last longer. I can only take one a day, and I have to take it in the evening because once the short high is gone, it makes me so  fucking sleepy I can't function. I have no idea if it affects anyone else like this, because I don't have a prescription for it, so in essence I'm a junkie of sorts. I fucking love the high, but it'll only last about and hour or maybe two before I crash and get irritable and super sleepy. It gives me so much energy that once I start feeling the high I begin to work on things I need to get done because I know it won't last long.



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187,707 I gave my wife everything she ever wanted. She was still miserable. I'd cajole her, pointing out how she has a wonderful husband, house, car, vacations, and friends, so how could she be miserable all the time?

She refused to change. I divorced her. She moved back into her mother's house, a run down rat's nest by the highway. She is miserable. But at least now she has a reason.

I do not understand women.



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187,706 I thought it a good idea to go into a business with two "friends" of mine.  WARNING! Do not go into a business with a landscaper and a carpenter who have never filed taxes in their lives.  They do not understand the first thing about business.  But, they are not the dopes. I AM!!!



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187,705 finding a job is all about relationships, not resumes.



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187,704 I feel desperate, I have submitted tons of resumes...... Nothing yet.



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187,703 Oh my god my town is riddled with corruption. A developer was given permission by the zoning department to put up a number of massive buildings. These things are huge and don't fit with the character of the town. They are also against the zoning rules. Why would zoning allow them?

Completely separately, the guy who runs zoning just bought a new house. He got a very good deal on it. The purchase price was well below the asking price. Who did he buy it from? The same developer who was allowed to put up the giant buildings.

Greed and corruption are out of control!!!!!!



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187,702 688, you give me hope



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187,701 That was the best head of my life, and the only time someone has made me cum by giving me head. The orgasm was strong with this one when it hit. Granted, I had to imagine that I was a man, and that he was sucking my dick. It played out like one of my favorite pornos, and it was still extremely gratifying.

That's how I discovered my dom fetish XD



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187,700 My maternal grandmother died at age 56. My maternal grandfather is still alive at age 73. Lord forgive me, but knowing how my grandpa abused my grandma and mom, I feel deeply resentful that she was denied the opportunity to grow old and watch her grandkids grow up. She was a sweet, lovely human being. That woman couldn't have hurt a fly, figuratively speaking. I loved her warm smile and dark brown eyes. The world could use a few more beautiful souls such as her. It hurts me to the depths of my heart knowing what she endured when she was with my grandpa before she thankfully got a divorce from him. I can't even imagine. I was heartbroken when she passed away so suddenly. She was too young.

Gramps is still here. Growing older, still mistreating my mom and now me and my sister when he gets the chance. Still being a sexist and racist and not quiet about it. It's not fair. Its not fucking fair. She gave so much happiness to those around her. My grandfather couldn't beat out the beauty from her. She's gone. He's here.

I do my best not to dwell on this because I know life isn't fair, but there are some times more than others when it really gets to me and I miss my grandma even more. She deserved so much better.



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