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188,699 Don't worry, you'll be gangbanged on your married boyfriend's yacht one day.



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188,698 An addendum, especially for 682.  Post-pregnancy boobs are HOT!  As a nudist, I don't ogle but I do catch an extra peek at Mom boobs.  Flaunt it girl!

- M 44



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188,697 I drink a 2 liter bottle of soda every single day. 53/m



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188,696 The residents of Houston need to realize that these catastrophic floods are going to keep happening because Houston doesn't have a viable storm drain system. The terrain is flat and the water has nowhere to go. I used to live in Houston but I moved out after I experienced a flood and lost almost everything I owned. Houston residents need to demand that their public officials address the storm drain issue or they are going face numerous floods in the future.



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188,695 For the first time in my life, I am worried for my future.

50/F



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188,694 I'm addicted to tramadol. When I try to stop the withdrawal pain is so overwhelming that I take more tramadol to feel better. I tried going to Narcotics Anonymous but that was weird. It was like they wanted me to join  their cult. It was creepy and definitely not for me.

I've decided to be honest with my doctor and tell her that I have been abusing the tramadol that she and a couple other doctors have been prescribing for  me. I know she will be pissed at me for using her but whatever. Hopefully she can refer me to an inpatient treatment center so I can put my addiction behind me.  I cannot live like this anymore...



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188,693 I'd been talking about wanting to see a baseball game for my birthday. It meant a lot to me but my husband just never picked up on it that I'd enjoy it (as usual). It would have been a fun family night. I'd hoped he'd snap out of it and just get the tickets and surprise me. Haha. Yeah right. So my birthday arrives and we watch the game on tv. When I casually mention that it would have been nice to be there, he makes up this statement that he wasn't feeling well anyway. He's fine. Once again, LAZY chips away another chunk of our marriage. I'm really hurt. Happy Birthday goes to shit for yet another year. This makes 16 years so far of this.



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188,692 Ive been pretending for so many years now. Today, im going to attempt living cqn authentic life. God I hope I can do this. Wish me Luck



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188,691 Yea I don't like when cum is curdled.  I thought it had more to do with a guy being backed up, like maybe he had blue balls and didn't cum and when he finally did it was old cum.  I really love when a guy cums and it shoots far and it's a lot. Mmmmm



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188,690 Shortly after I proposed, I decided I didn't actually like my wife-to-be. She changed after we were engaged. She became unrelentingly pushy. The relationship became all about her and what she wanted for the wedding. I had no say in the matter. She demanded everything be exactly as she wanted it to be. That started bleeding over to non-wedding issues. She viewed where we went to dinner on a random night to be solely her decision. If ever I objected, she'd bring up the wedding.

"How could you not give me my way when we are getting married in six months!"

It was a disgusting power play on her part to control everything. She acted like it's a given that the bride to be always gets her way. It made no sense. I had to go to the restaurant she wanted because we were getting married six months later??

As the wedding date approached, I knew the marriage would be a disaster.  I pretty much hated her by then. She was no one I wanted to spend a day with, let alone a lifetime. But the dye was cast. The wedding hall was booked. The guests were invited. I couldn't wiggle out of it.

Very telling, I never purchased my wedding clothes. I kept delaying. She of course demanded to know what I'd be wearing. I told her it was a surprise. But honestly, I had no idea. I didn't care.

Finally, the evening before the wedding, after work, I reluctantly went to a department store and purchased a blue suit off the rack.  There was no chance for alterations or anything. It was much too late for that. I found a suit that sort of fit and went with it. Here she was spending a fortune on her wedding dress and everything else, and I bought a cheap suit a few hours before the big event. Clearly my heart wasn't in it.

And I was right. I've hated being married to her. It's simple. I don't like her. I got caught up in the idea of marrying someone. So I proposed. without thinking if I wanted to be married or if she was the one. She wasn't. But I am stuck with her. For now. I know I will undo this mess. It's too soon though. I'd feel like  an idiot getting divorced so soon. I figure I best wait a year or two.



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188,689 My previous boyfriend's semen was smooth and creamy like hand lotion. My current boyfriend's semen is more like blobs of curdled milk. I prefer the hand lotion variety. Guys, I don't know how you can control it, but look it up and change your diet or exercise routine. No woman wants to swallow curdled milk.



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188,688 This sounds crazy but...

My hair was completely gray for the last 10 years. About a year ago I noticed some of my natural dark color returned. Like what? How could that be?

I thought about what I did differently. Nothing. Except for one thing. They started selling kale in the local supermarket. My wife was making salad from it. I was eating it. My gray hair went to more salt and pepper.

Last winter came. No more kale in the supermarket. My hair returned to all gray.

This summer. Kale was once again on the store shelves. My hair is back to salt and pepper.

I'm only one data point, but kale seems to be restoring the natural color to my hair!



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188,687 I will likely never say this aloud for obvious reasons, but you need to grow the fuck up. Lose the sympathy card and either put up or shut up. I'm inclined to realize it's all a self-serving game in your eyes, but that just feeds my despise, despite devouring you with my eyes against a billowing tide. Let's talk again when you're actually ready to ride. Otherwise please step aside before I say something stupid.



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188,686 I'm pretty tired of hearing that there's discrimination against women in the workplace. That's bull. My boss is a woman. Half the professionals at our large company are women. I can honestly say we don't care a darn if a job applicant is male or female. Maybe 50 years ago women were held back. But not today. Anyone whining about it is trying to cause trouble where there is no trouble. Crocodile tears.



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188,685 672..I would love to linger in bed after sex. My current bf wants to go to sleep or jumps right out of bed to go run errands.I haven't stayed in bed with someone just talking and caressing each others bodies or lay my head on their chest in years. The last time I did that with the bf, he pulled away and said my hair was tickling his chin. Boo hoo. He could lay his head on my breast. Small price to pay for intimacy I think. I can't remember the last time I could just lay there and have someone rub and tickle my back until I fall asleep. It's been at least 20 years. My cousin and I used to do that for each other when I went to sleep over at their house as kids. Man this has got me feeling nostalgic and melancholy now. I need to find myself a man who loves to pamper his woman like that. Wow.



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188,684 I have feelings. Apparently that's a secret.



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188,683 I cheated on my husband twice. He has no knowledge of the affairs. These things happen. I don't view it as a big deal.



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188,682 Some people are to invested on other people's business, I honestly don't give a dam about what other people does, I don't envy people that has more than I do in fact I always say good for them and I mean it .  Only insecure and jealous people worry about others , who on their right mind gets happy when other people are down or lose their wealth? Oh yes jealous bitches .



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188,681 680- Thanks! That makes me feel better about my not-as-nice-as-they-were-before-two-pregnancies boobs.



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188,680 So I know a person who has cheated on their husband for years with hundreds of men and even to the point where she was the center of attention at many gang bangs.  She loves attention.  Her husband did not know or pretends not to know, but he found out about a few of her affairs over the years.  He worked his ass off from peon to the owner of the company and he is frugal.  She is not.  She stopped working 20 years ago and spends his money on personal trainers, chef school, a foolish business endeavor and fucking every cock that happens to cross her path.

Well her husband went out and bought a yacht.  Not a boat, but the kind of boat you can live on.  It has three bedrooms and enough space on it to land a small aircraft.  She bitched when she heard he was thinking about this thing, that it was a lifestyle change, who wants to live on a boat, bitch, bitch, bitch.  

Husband has the biggest secret of all.  You see, for years now he has been seeing someone on the side.  This person is a good and decent person  who cares about him, not his money.  She does not look down on others, she has never needed to be the center of gangbangs.  She is sexy as hell, smart, funny, etc.

Well the real biggest secret of all is he went shopping for his yacht with her, the other woman.  He bought this boat with plans to leave his wife and sail away into retirement in the Caribbean.  The angry, bitter, entitled wife has now taken to the boat, refurnished it in one day, is throwing parties on it on weekends, every weekend since they got the damn thing.  She lives on the boat three or four nights a week.  The yacht is about two hours away.  She is marking her territory.

The lover, the good woman in all of this, (yes, I do get the irony but she is 100 times the person his wife is) has not been on the boat since before they bought it and were checking out boats.

Meanwhile I can't wait until next year.  The fireworks are going to be a thing that dreams are made of.  I can't wait until I see this bitter woman crushed and her world finally taken away from under her.  I want to see her when she comes to the realization that she is not the center of the universe, that he will not be there anymore to support her, that he will not be there to funnel money to her worthless brother, that he will not be there to bail any of them out.

It is going to be the best year ever, next year!



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188,679 Not a secret but I love boobs.  Large, small, perky, saggy, stretch marks, huge areola, small areola, eraser nipples, inverted nipples, round, tube sock or mosquito bites.  I love the look of them all.

Braless?  Off the charts!

-M 44



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188,678 I feel so alone in this place.  I am sick and tired of being alone.  I help people non stop but when I hit the time where I need somebody, nobody is around.  I feel so alone...



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188,677 I'd like to get a guy off. Suck him off. Jerk him off. Or Both.

Signed, a married guy



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188,676 My ex-gf is now enormously fat. She must weigh 400 pounds. Her face is so round and bulging it looks like a pimple waiting to be popped. I actually feel bad for her. I shouldn't. She treated me terribly when we dated for six years. She had temper tantrums. She cheated on me. She would mock me, claiming I embarrassed her in public. She didn't like the way I laughed, or the way I stood, or the things I said. She was condescending like you wouldn't believe. She said I wasn't smart enough for her, even though we both attended the same Ivy League school. She also said I wouldn't amount to anything in life. Whereas she saw herself as an A lister who would change the world through her "gift as a writer".

Here we are 30 years later. I've long since retired after being the head of a company. She is still slogging away at a small-scale dull technical journal where she writes about cement and silicon sealants. Eye roll.

I don't wish her unwell, but I'm wondering if she regretted all her negativity towards me and drowned her sorrow with food, thus her 400 pound weight.

I selfishly would like one thing from her, just one thing. I'd like an apology.



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188,675 I need to improve myself, and I need to do it by myself. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but all I know is that I wont last long if i keep worrying about everything. Or I will end up losing my mind.

It's hard to have hope, and right now I don't have much of it. What I do have however is close family, a good relationship and good friends who can help me through this. I think my self destruction is even worse than e.g. cutting myself because no one can really see it. I hide everything behind a mask, sometimes even from myself.

Stuff needs to change or I wont make it until the age of 23.



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188,674 657: Good for you. I hope he finds out what you were going to do for him. My best friend of 45 years, since we were twelve, stopped talking and texting me because I voted for Trump. I'm not hurt by it. I'm more disappointed to find out that it took me this long to realize he's a total asshole.



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188,673 In a fit of anger, and to inflict maximum harm, you told me your family hates me. You said they have always hated me and talk behind my back about how much they hate me.

Then a few days later, calmer and with a different bipolar personality in place, you say you mother is hosting Thanksgiving this year and we must go.

How could I possibly go? Do you ever stop and think about the things you say? How could I possibly go after you said their hatred of me is a prime topic of conversation.

You know what? I'm a good person. I'm a very good person. I'm not the problem. You and your uncontrollable anger is the problem. Your meanness is the problem. Go to your mother's Thanksgiving by yourself. I'm sure that will give everyone a new reason to hate me.



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188,672 I am just done with all the bullshit.  I am done with feeling sorry or having to take the higher road to make sure that I don't hurt somebody's feelings.  I am done being a crutch to those who have treated me like crap and whine when I do the same thing back to them.  I am just done!



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188,671 I miss the part where we used to linger after sex. These days is wham bam thank you ma'am and then you hop out of bed to go do something else. I don't think you like being with me. You like having an orgasm, but afterwards you can't wait to get away from me.

Your husband.



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188,670 I'll do my makeup as I see fit, but thanks anyway! :p



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188,669 Sometimes, when we are very used to seeing a thing, it can go completely unnoticed.  So, here's the thing, women should really stop outlining their eyes in those hideous black circles.  They are very ugly, and when you really notice, look quite stupid.  Blond women do not look good with big, black circles defining their eyes; ridiculous!  You should not be able to see a person's eyes from  block away.  

Try this; with your pencil or apparatus, create a thin line, then blur the line with your finger or a Q-tip to make the shadow that will be an illusion for eyelashes.  You are trying to make it look as if you have longer, thicker, fuller  lashes on the bottom and top of your eyes; you are not trying to imitate a racoon, nor are you making up a clown (I hope).  


Makeup should enhance, not disguise.  Ideally, anyone should wonder whether you are wearing makeup at all; they should not wonder in what circus you'll be performing.  

You're Welcome!   (Yeah, I know.)



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188,668 I have to learn to chill. No one likes a romantic partner with no chill.. and this one has me wanting to at least try to chill.. but will trying get me far enough?



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188,667 God help us if we ever cross paths again.



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188,666 I know you were here. I only missed you by one week.  Which is funny because I did think about being here then.  Close call for you. :-)



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188,665 Sometimes I think I should be committed to a mental hospital. I can't go on with these delusions of he loves me , he loves me not. It's like a sickness now. Also don't think I can keep pretending im happy when im just miserable with this depression and anxiety. I don't want to live anymore.



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188,664 662 - Yay for your victory!!! I feel a similar way after repairing a pair of boots with a 2 inch heel.  The bottom of the heels came off.  I wore them like that for months waiting until I had the extra money to spend on new boots.  Then I said fuck it, and took a pair of tiny scissors and re-carved the slots where the bottom of the heels fits into the cheaply made plastic base.  Then I superglued the heel back into the slots.  Take that fast-fashion! :D



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188,663 I wish I could give up porn. I'd be somebody if I gave up porn. I wonder if there are support groups for people like me who watch too much porn.



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188,662 I sail. I've always sailed. As such, I basically only wear topsiders on my feet. They used to be great shoes that lasted forever. But about 10 years ago they changed the manufacturing process or something. Probably made them in China for half the price. But the shoes became junk. They'd last barely a year and then the stitching on the sole would pull away from the shoe. Walk walk flap walk walk flap. It was awful.

But I wouldn't throw the shoes away. I couldn't. It was nostalgia or something. I put the ruined shoes in my closet.

About a week ago I was cleaning up. I found the now 8 pairs of unwearable topsiders. I had an epiphany. I went to a boating store and bought sail thread and a large heavy duty needle. I cut away the bum stitching on the shoes and sewed them back together by hand. It took about half an hour per shoe.  But I did it.

Now I have 8 pairs of wearable topsiders. 8 pairs!! I feel like it's one of the greatest accomplishments of my life. I love it. To hell with big companies making junk and forcing us to buy their products every year. I beat them at their game. Life is good!



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188,661 I gave up facebook. It's amazing how much spare time I now have.



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188,660 Gigantic Spiders out number the humans in my house.



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188,659 That would be one interesting orgy there or maybe it would just be ass licking.



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188,658 There are two great plagues upon humanity: Politics & Religion.
I can understand politics because people can't be trusted to behave themselves. We need rules. Religion? No. Gods do not exist. Demons do not exist. The problems we face were caused by  people and if they are to be solved they will be solve by people.
God, Jesus, Allah, Vishnu and Buddha can lick my ass!



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188,657 I was going to mention your name to the guy at the local TV studio.  You're talented, and funny, too.  You would have been a hit.

I was going to do this even though you blocked me on Facebook because you didn't like that I voted for Trump.

But then I realized that if you didn't have the maturity to handle somebody thinking differently than you did, then you wouldn't have the maturity to work with the rest of us on the air.

I'm old enough to know that you don't throw whiners into the mix with adults who are trying to accomplish something.



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188,656 I'm not one to get outraged at every little thing, but when I see that Kit Kat commercial where the guy shushes the librarian by putting a Kit Kat up to her mouth, I want her to slug him in the face.



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188,655 W, call me or lose me forever.



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188,654 By the time I get the guts to leave there will be no one left to care and it will be all my fault.



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188,653 I moved in my girlfriend because She thought it was because I loved her. Nope. I wanted to save money on rent. It didn't work out.



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188,652 I think I'm making a mistake. My boyfriend and I are going to be living together at my place and now I'm worried that we're moving too fast. Am I not ready?? Is it too soon? Or do I just have the jitters and everything will be okay? I'm going to have to figure this out soon because the move is just about to happen. I hope he wouldn't be hurt if I tell him I had a change of heart. I have a lot to think about today.



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188,651 I have no idea whether these thoughts are real or I have them because I'm not supposed to have them. I have a wonderful relationship but there is this man that I have only seen a few times and my mind keeps wandering back to him. What is wrong with me. I cannot do the thing that would break me in the worst way if my boyfriend did it. I'm not going to cheat obviously, but why am I thinking of this guy. I feel terrible. And I can't share this with anyone, I just hate being an adult, it fucking sucks. I can't imagine how people who are worse of then me deal with everyday life. I would probably kill myself.

If there would be a button I would hit it. I am one of extremes. Either extremely happy or sad, I'm too sensitive. That's why I have to fucking ignore every fucking man, it's probably on a chemical level, but I instantly connect with some people.

fuck fuck fuck fuck I thought that this semester would start out fine, with a clear mind. fuck everyone, I just want to scream until I die.

Fooling everyone, telling them she's having fun. I'm lying all the fucking time and I think I'm starting to lie to myself too. I have no idea what to do. I just need to get my brain drained. And I couldn't wait to grow up...... How wrong I was



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188,650 I'm devastated today. Picking up the pieces of my heart ... again.



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188,649 I want to quit my job too. I'd move away and work in a small bookstore. I see myself living in one bedroom apartment upstairs. That's all I need. Every morning I'd have coffee and eggs down the street at the diner. I'd go to church and sing loudly. I'd hand out candy on Halloween. I'd volunteer to be a reading tutor at the school. People my age, with interesting things to say, would invite me for brunch. It would be a much happier existence than the rat race I'm in now.



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188,648 Have a hug. I don't know why you're sad or who you are, but someone is thinking of you and hoping it gets better!



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188,647 I'm very sad today.



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188,646 If your choice is to have a wart on your face, or a scar on your face from where a wart was removed, go for the scar. No one wants to see your wart. So many people choose to keep the wart. Dumb.



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188,645 Many items in my home came from other people's trash. Off the top of my head, several chairs, side tables, a mirror, a dvd player, a blender, a pot, and a laptop. The first thursday of every month is trash pickup day. I get out there early and look around. It's a gold mine.



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188,644 I am a married woman who has no problem with MGTOW. I love my husband, he treats me with love and respect and I really don't care what other men are doing. I don't feel the need to be complimented by them, coddled by them, or that they have to pay any attention to me at all. Just treat me like a human being with respect, MGTOW, that's all I ask. This image of the needy, neurotic woman desperately craving the validation of all the men around her is not all women. But you won't hear that from me, you've made up your mind about who you think women are. So go your own way. I have everything I need in my life. I don't want or need anything from you.



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188,643 Fyi i'm no longer recieving abuse or unsolicited mal intent so please redirect accordingly.       thanks



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188,642 My boyfriend has questionable taste in movies. Like, half the movies he's into are good. But the other half...god they are so bad. We'll watch a movie of his choice, and he swears it's hilarious, but in actuality it's just really bad and cheesy. I don't want to hurt his feelings or be mean, so I bite my tongue and laugh at the parts of the movie that I think I'm supposed to... :S



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188,641 I think we are going to be nuked at the start of Tribulation, which is now.  Then all the world will look in horror and terror on the smouldering mess that was US.  

Just like it says in the Bible.

Right after, all that mark of the beast, anti-Christ stuff will happen ... but WE won't have to worry about that.  We will be gone.

Thanks, Donald :-(



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188,640 Knew I'd fuck this up.



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188,639 If I won millions of dollars from the lotto here's what I would do. I would buy a nice house in the Hollywood hills area and I would buy a few nice cars. I would then tell my family and my employer to fuck off and die. Then I would spend the rest of my life smoking marijuana and banging 18 year old girls. Sounds good to me! 53/m



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188,638 I'm so fucking high right now. It feels so good.



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188,637 I cheat because it validates that I am likeable. I already know my girlfriend likes me. But it's not enough. So I meet a new woman and talk her into bed. When she accepts, I know she must also view me as a worthwhile person. But my elation wears off. So I need to find another woman and another. I'm not an asshole. But I probably am insecure? I've cheated on my girlfriend over a dozen times in three years. She has no idea.



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188,636 I'm tired of sexism and the gender wars.  There is something wrong with people that think this way.



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188,635 Yea. Honestly, in the end women just want attention.  Guys ask why a girl settles for a jerk? Even if he's a jerk, he probably at one time gave her lots of attention and she wants it back. Also why girls will go with broke guys.  You don't even have to be the best in bed, just be attentive and get in her head.  Guys...jeez...they cheat because their girl isn't perfect, they cheat because she's too perfect, money issues, variety, insecurity, entitlement, to see if they still got it, boredom, and after a certain age it's the dirty old man thing, etc. You even have these good guys that feel they've been good for so long they deserve it. Ugh



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188,634 I read that men tend to cheat because of a feeling of superiority, entitlement and lust. Women tend to cheat because they feel neglected by their partners.

So basically... men cheat because men are assholes and women cheat because men are assholes.

Of course there are exceptions to every rule, but for the most part, this sounds about right.



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188,633 Some people are just buttholes , I had the tires of my car slash twice by a jeoulous coworker many years ago , I know she did it . Unfortunately didn't have any proof so I have to replace my tires at my own expense, I also had a jerk push his grocery cart against my car , one person saw him got on his car speed up so the witness couldn't write the license plates on the car .  Until this day I don't know why he did it , from the description of the guy I never met him , maybe he confused my car with some else either way , there are vile people out there who have no respect for other people's properties , I just hope one day the same happens to them.



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188,632 I'm bored with my marriage, my job, my home, my everything. I've been living the exact same way for the past 14 years. Nothing has changed. These past years have served no purpose other than I'm now 14 years older. I want to end my marriage, job, home and everything. I want to pack a bag and go, never to come back.



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188,631 I'm tired of my car being vandalized. It has been keyed twice. Why? Did I take the parking space you wanted? So you stayed in the background until I went into the store and then keyed my car? How about talk to me? I'd be glad to find a different parking spot. Or are people just angry in general, so they key the cars to be dicks? Whatever it is, I'm tired of it. People, you need to stop being passive aggressive jackasses.



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188,630 A few times the past couple of weeks, I've tried to let out a silent fart, only for it to be incredibly loud.  Sorry, I have problems with my body.



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188,629 I steal light bulbs from work.



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188,628 I try not to pass gas. Even when I am alone. It's not proper.



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188,627 I fucking hate my family.  Person #1 is a narcissistic jerk who throws tantrums, including the one today.  Person #2 is so severely jealous, when I try to have a conversation with my relatives, she gets in the middle and tries to break up the conversation.  I'm constantly told to apologize and respect them for having fucking mental illnesses.  They piss me off so much!  They are so fucking toxic!

Person #1 has to ruin every good thing in my life.  I remember her throwing tantrums at Christmas, during mall trips, and summer vacations.  Everybody who deals with her either gets frustrated to the point of breaking off contact with her, or act like she never did anything wrong.  I just want to leave this shithole.  I cannot deal with mental illness at all.  I never want to deal with mental illness again.

Person #2 had tried to break off my contact with my relatives after Person #1 threw a tantrum today, and then Person #1 asked me to apologize to Person #2 because I got frustrated with her.

I really need to cut these people out of my life.



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188,626 I'm very glad I don't live in Houston anymore.



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188,625 Someone told me that voting doesn't matter, and it kind of pissed me off. A lot of ladies fought and suffered for women's right to vote. Whether or not it counts, I still vote to honor them. I don't care what anyone else thinks about it.



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188,624 I've lived in an apartment. I've lived in a house. I prefer the apartment. There's less hassle. Apartments are usually in an urban environment. I can walk to the movies and dinner and food shopping. When living in a house I had to drive to some ugly overdeveloped strip mall invested place. It was depressing. Yeh, in an apartment sometimes I could hear my upstairs neighbors having sex. It wasn't a bad thing. It was inspirational. :)



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188,623 The human body is weird. I was having a hard time at work and in my personal life. In the midst of my troubles, I suddenly had a toothache. It was in a back molar. I drank something cold and I could feel a sharp pain. Week by week it got worse. I'd have anxiety about it every time I ate or drank anything. I would chew on the other side of my mouth. The ache worsened. I knew I had to go to the dentist, but I dread the dentist. Months went by. I suffered.

Finally I had to give in. I went to the dentist. I explained the problem. He took a look for a minute. That's all, a minute. He said I didn't have a cavity. He said it was impossible. He pointed out there was a porcelain crown on that tooth. Porcelain doesn't get cavities. What's more, he said when he put the crown on years earlier, he did a root canal on the tooth. All the nerves were removed. It's impossible for the tooth to feel anything at all.

What? But? I feel the ache.

He said it was all in my head.

I went home so relieved. By the next day I was downing cold drinks, and I felt nothing in the tooth. No pain at all.

The human mind can fabricate pain. Fascinating. Now I'm looking at everything else in life which bothers me. Maybe every fret I have is all in my head. Maybe this happens to all of us.



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188,622 We have six cordless phones in the house. And six cradles where they sit. The phones are mostly never charged and therefore unusable. When my wife uses a phone she either A) leaves the phone where she is when she hangs up. This could be in the basement. In the garage. In a closet. So the battery slowly drains. B) Even when she is in a central location when hanging up, she'll put the phone down next to the cradle, but never in the cradle so it can charge.

Once every few weeks, when all the phones are dead, I go around the house and hunt them down. I put them in the cradles so they can be used again. That is, until my wife eventually drains them all again.

No amount of pleading ever gets her to change her behavior with the phones. It's a little thing. But it's telling. I've never met a person more stubborn and set in her ways.



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188,621 I used to have this friend. He cut off all contact with me. I was never sure why. The other day I sent him an email out of the blue. He never responded. I'm not sure what I did wrong.



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188,620 You don't start baking cookies 10 minutes before you are supposed to be somewhere else. Time management obviously isn't your thing.



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188,619 Fuck, I'm so horny, but there's nobody I want to fuck. Every time I think about it I find something that makes me uncomfortable. I wish I could fuck anxiety, cause it's surely the only thing fucking me



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188,618 If we only had $100 left and we could use the money to either buy our son flu medicine, or my wife another new dress, I swear, she'd sneak away with the money and buy herself that new dress. Because sometimes having over 100 dresses in your closet just isn't enough.



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188,617 My wife wonders why I don't want to have sex with her. Simple. It's because I'm running on empty. There's nothing in there. Someone else already took care of the situation. Your help is no longer needed.



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188,616 Holy shit, Heather.  Time has NOT treated you well.

I know 23 years hasn't been all that kind to me, either, but you're only 43 and you look like a testicle.

THANK YOU for laughing when I asked you out back in college!

THANK YOU!!!



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188,615 I forget what having a boyfriend is like.



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188,614 I try to be as honest as I can. The past is in its own context. "Till death do us part"

Then it ends. The death part of it will always be there. (Oh there is that thing that died, my future self)

Families can seem like such bullshit under these conditions, especially after it seemed like there were no limits on this love.

I'm naturally morbidly curious, but not about this. I can't do anything about it.  They do go away. That's all that matters.



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188,613 You cheated on me. In your heart. You swore on your kids' lives.You attempted to replace her with me.  Whoever she is. A woman knows these things. Our intuition tells us that something is off. I would say I don't care who she is.. But I do. Who is that woman who takes up so much of your thoughts. Why did you get with me? Why move me over here then proceed to treat me like crap? Wwhy try to make me jealous then judge me for reacting? You hate drama but then you create it? When we were living together, I couldn't make it through the days without wondering what heart sinking revelation am I going to face or discover before the sun sets? Heart sinking. Can you imagine how that feels? The anxiety. That crushing suffocating feeling in your chest that never goes away?  I have to live with that now. I thought love wasn't supposed to hurt. You weren't supposed to hurt me. I thought this laSt half of my life with you was supposed to be lovely, filled with joy and happiness and most of all, peace. Was that just wishful thinking?  What gave you the right to just take a life, my life, and play with it the way you have? Then toss me away like a piece of trash? I certainly didnt.You said you would never hurt me like that.Said you had my back. What? Was i not supposed to belive it when you said those things? My God! My usefulness for you ran out though didn't it? You don't need me anymore. You can pay your own shit. You'd rather be alone than to deal with my shit. But who created the shit? Certainly wasn't me. Was I trying to make myself jealous because you couldn't keep your eyes in your head? Because you couldn't help but talk and text other girls? Because you delete phone calls and text messages from your phone? Because I saw barely legal porn sites and free fuck sites and cam sites and worst of all rich mama and single dating apps on your phone?  What were you looking for that you weren't getting here from me at home? The hour long phone calls with female friends (but ignored my calls and texts the whole time) when you were gone 2-4 days "in the streets" doing your drug and drinking. Leaving me, your "sleeping beauty" in the bed on Saturday to go run errands thinking everything was fine with us when actually you knew you were going to go to lunch with one of your female friends without my knowledge! The same female you ditched me on my birthday for eight hours to be with? My first birthday with you. All I wanted from you was a flower and maybe a card and a happy birthday mami! ! All i got were tears anger frustration. And how could he? That's all I asking myself.   If you have to hide things why be in a relationship? If you know you're not going to be faithful why be in a relationship? Why put some innocent someone through that mess? Someone who has had to overcome so much in her life and has so many of her own battle scars? From having to grow up with emotionally and sometimes physically abusive parents. A mother who drank most of my teenage years and a father who was in denial? You know a little about that. I never told you about the perverted things he did to me because never could trust you enough. Well here I am telling it. The sexual innuendos, beginning to treat me differently when my mom told him I started my periods. I asked her not to tell him. Was none of his business. She told him anyway. the sneaking around my bedroom window when I was getting ready for school. The coming in my room in the wee hours of the morning standing over me I woke up one time to him pulling up my nightgown he said he thought I was asleep and was tucking  me in. I was a teenager I didn't need tucking in. Where was he when I was a little girl needing to be tucked in? He would pinch my ass and called it goosing. Whatever the hell that meant. When my mother went on vacation to her sister's and left me with him. He told me he liked the way I smelled and asked me if I was attracted to him sexually.. my own father!! He said he saw me through my bedroom window some mornings and saw me looking at myself naked in the mirror. Yes I did that. I was a teen girl. All girls do that i told him. He tried to turn it into something nasty like it was wrong. told me that he wouldn't tell my mother it would be our little secret if I let him come in my room and let him just watch me in the morning. I got sick to my stomach.. my own dad! I guess that's why I didn't like you watching me when I took my clothes off. But then I wanted you to because you were my boyfriend and I wanted to get over my fear and insecurity. You're the first significant other ive been with where I feel self conscious around. With my others, I ran around butt ass naked in front of them. I guess maybe its cause you put so much emphasis on big breasts and booty and I don't have those. Anyway i Cant remember much after that except I didn't agree to it. Ewww. My mind blocked my memory of those future interactions with him. I tried to focus on getting through school which reminds me of another incident with him. I went to give him a kiss one morning before heading out the door to the bus stop when he grabbed my head and tried to force his tongue between my lips I reeled back and was like what the fuck I told him he was sick and he just started laughing and said he was only playing with me. He didn't mean it. When I turned 18 I got the hell out of that house.I couldn't stay knowing what a freak my dad was and my mother in denial. I began wearing my long sleeved flannel nightgowns with my robe over them to bed. With my sheet and blanket pulled up around my neck. In the summer. You know how hot that was? It was sweltering. No fan in my room. No a/c. But I had to protect myself. I started wearing big baggy t-shirts and jeans at home. I saw him looking anyway. It made me sick. He and my mom made me dread coming home from school. And i hated school. She was usually drunk and playing with her gun. Crying in the corner of the living room. Sobbing asking why her poppi beat her and her siblings with a razor strop. She was dwelling in the past. Resented my dad for all of his whoring around after they were married, him going to the bars and staying out all weekend with some tramp who knew he was married he wore his wedding band ffs. I can imagine all the things that were going around in her head cause ive been living it too. I see the pattern. And if you say you've never cheated on me, W, I will still say you're a liar. I know it in my bones. If not why all the secrecy? Why do you get all defensive when something is brought up in conversations? I can't even speak without you getting all upset and defensive. You freak out on me and start screaming at me about any old thing. And I can't help but believe that it all has something to do with another woman. That's what happens when you try leading a double life honey. You start getting tired of all the hoohaa because you can't maintain. You're always on the edge because you're thinking what's going to happen when the other woman calls or texts while you're with me. How you going to explain it? Oh you could say it's someone we both know or you could start screaming and throwing a big fit saying you're tired of my jealousy. Whatever. So one of us had to go. And since your relationship with her is shiny and new and she's a lovely gal and you're developing feelings for her      
you're done with me. Or maybe she's an old fling. Someone you've known for years and you want to see once again if you can make it work with her, once again.So you're done with me. Finished. Finito. So im just left here holding the bag wondering what has gotten into you. Never took my feeling into consideration. You just did what you wanted to do when you wanted to do it. I see that now. And so many other things. Im finished now. Tired and have nothing more to say atm. Except one more thing, Mr. P. You can fool some of people some of the time but you can't fool all of the people all of the time. And there's no bigger fool than an old fool. And no matter how much you try to hide something, it always comes out into the light. Sometimes it has to be dragged, kicking and screaming but eventually it has to come out.



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188,612 Fuck it! Tomorrow I will receive my monthly prescription for Vicodin. I'm going to call in sick at work, buy a case of beer and get fucked up taking Vicodin and drinking beer while watching movies this long weekend. Ah, sometimes life's good.



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188,611 "You're just jealous 'cause we're young and in love"

Yep.



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188,610 I would be lying if I said a part of me doesn't want you to come over one night and declare your undying love for me. And you would be lying if you said you weren't thinking about telling me how you feel.
Would I believe you?
Would you mean it?
Is it just old habits?
Should I risk everything for you? Give you a second chance almost a decade later?

Because all these years and I have never, ever not loved you.



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188,609 seriously though
handshakes and slaps on the wrist
a moth flies through you



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188,608 I'm getting out of the rat race early. My husband and I will be done at 40; 35 if we get it really right. It's not an easy thing to do. It's meant living substantially below our means to have more money for investments. It's meant working 60-70 hours a week to make room for side hustles, rather than coasting at 40-50 hours. It's meant building up streams of passive income, reading up on personal finance, and putting personal desires on hold. It's not a question of "what if" we retire at this point. It's when. Our life may not be thrilling now, but it's a short wait. When my friends are staring down the barrel at another 25-30 years of work, we'll be out. Doing whatever we want. It's worth it.



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188,607 I don't care what you think. There's more to me than what I am to people who aren't in my life and don't know shit



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188,606 I'm not even a Clinton fan.  Didn't vote for her in the last election.  And hate that this site gets political. But I had to check and see who was right.  According to Fox News,

"For $2,375.95 (or $3,000 in Canadian dollars), Clinton fans in Toronto can obtain a “VIP platinum ticket” for her Sept. 28 talk. That ticket includes two front-row seats, a photo with Clinton backstage and a signed book."  

That is a lot more then just a book signing. So stop exaggerating about a former first lady. Stop attacking other posters pointing out your errors.  And high priced VIP tickets are not rare and are charged according to their supply and demand value.

She lost the election. There's no point in kicking someone when they are down.



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188,605 I see the $99 water differently. A store on a hill has plenty of water. They were not flooded. The store owner decided to be greedy. His neighbors are desperately thirsty including their small children. The store owner sees this as a way to take their money while they are down and out. Disgusting people out there. Capitalism is good. Mostly. But at times it goes too far.



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188,604 If I divorced my wife, why do I still have so many ties to her? She was a terrible person. She cheated. I left her. I filed legal papers. My divorce was approved by the courts. But now that it's done, I need to give her money even though she has her own job? I have to tolerate phone calls from her and her lawyer because they want to complain about something. What are they complaining about? We are divorced. There should be no more contact. No more harassment. I am supposed to be free of her. Marriage never goes away, not really. Our judicial system is messed up.



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188,603 For those of you that don't understand the "secret" of why capitalism is awesome. Yes a case of water in Texas is now $99. What happens next? People load up tons of water and haul it to Texas to sell because its $99...oversupply happens then it drops to $20 a case but guess what? There is plenty of water in Texas. You know what happens if never goes to $99 a case? It all sells at $10, it all sells out  and then there is no water in Texas. Capitalism works!!! Just stay out of the way people, just stay outta the way.



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188,602 Oh yeah like that night you were lurking in the shadows watching me crying out to God? Not even bothering to come and comfort me and apologize the way a good hearted man would do? No thank you. You can stay in the shadows. Because thats where you run to when the going gets tough anyway. You don't need me, remember? Im working on myself, doing me and what makes me happy. Stay away til you can swallow your pride get down on your knee and beg me for forgiveness lol. We both know that won't be happening any time soon. I won't be holding my breath. Hahaha



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188,601 I recently saw a movie where there was a married couple and the wife was secretly having an affair. The movie showed how the wife lied to cover the affair. She also appeared to be flaky, missing appointments, getting to work late, bitching out, all because she was having an affair. No one realized it though because the affair was still secret.

I watched the movie and then thought about my own marriage. My wife lies. She arrives late. She bitches out. She is constantly acting flaky and distracted. She is the same as the wife character in the movie.

Hmmmmm.



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188,600 A case of water in Texas now costs $99. You gotta love America and the greed. LOL!



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