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189,099 How I know I'm a witch:
I'll masturbate for a few days with intense focus on the person I want inside me. A few good herbs, well intentioned spell cast, and constant visualization means I'll wind up with that person on my mind for a while. 100% of the time, they'll then just contact me out of the blue. My sexual power is something only I know about. And it is VERY real. Watch out, Eric. ;)



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189,098 When we were young she was taut and beautiful. Now she looks like a emu. How the fuck did your neck get so long?! When you go to the zoo do the staff chase you around with a net thinking you're an escaped giraffe?

Time is cruel.



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189,097 Moving here was a big mistake. I don't like drama and drama is all these people know. I'll stay for my parents sake but I miss TN. I am not in love with my new husband. His drama kills any love allowed to sprout.



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189,096 Last weekend, I kinda fucked my roommate. Emphasis on kinda, because he had whiskey dick. Duh, we were drinking whiskey. It was weird because our other roommate that he fucks (and who I occasionally make out with) interrupted us, and I ran away and took a nap. I wonder how he felt about it. He'd probably just tell me he didn't care.

Still, it's annoying because I wanted to fuck him. I've thought about it on the low since I moved in, but decided at the time that it was a bad idea. He had too many women running through. I'm also glad we actually became friends first as well. Now it's just rattling around in my brain, fuck him again, or not?



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189,095 As far as I'm concerned, popular music lost the plot in the 1990s, and I switched off.  I don't like rap, either – because I like songs to have a tune, and I like the lyrics to be sung, not spoken.



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189,094 I listen to thrash metal. I don't care what anyone thinks about that.



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189,093 Subjective perception is pretty Hard  to understand  if you really think about it. I listen to the classical station and sometimes I can't stand it other times I can't turn. It has nothing to do with race. I'm white and I don't like country pop music.  It's formulaic. Bots could do just as good a job at making music on those stations.  I however like Buck Owens.  I like Willie Nelson, Hank Williams and many others.
I didn't start out liking rap music, but it's a thing that kind of evolved as I was growing up. It did have a racial component obviously because in the early 80s  older generations were still alive and people  of those generations were generally more racist by today's standards.
I was traveling through Oregon one time  and I decided to buy in NWA album.  During this time, Janet planet was super popular and  nearly everyone was getting down to "Push It"  
"Straight out of Compton" blew my mind.  I wasn't digging on that earlier Rick Reuben shit, which seems like a natural fit for young whitey,  NWA really got me to look at rap music in a new light. Then I got a hold of " fear of a black planet" and this too really flipped my lid.
Of course there's an insipid  crap out there but that's not what I'm into.
Diversity is  responsible for why people are into crap music and exactly the reason why there is good music out there and people to appreciate it.
Everything doesn't have to be so black-and-white but that's the world we live in now. It's hardly post racial



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189,092 I'm a white male.  Twice in my life, black people have laughed at me when I was listening to rock music in my car.  Another time, a black coworker acted confused when I was quietly singing a pop song to myself while stocking shelves at work.  I assume they think it's goofy that I don't really listen to rap music.



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189,091 When did the United States attitude go from "We are the defenders of freedom." to "We are afraid of everything, let's build a wall."?



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189,090 So, it's a fact that I don't like rap music, I don't like soul music, I just do not like the kind of music.  Why?  I DO NOT KNOW.  It's just not appealing to me.  Do I dare say this out loud?  No!  Is this a secret?  Yes!  Why you may ask, because I would be labeled a racist.  I am not a racist, just because I don't like certain type of music.  I also don't like country music.  Would I be labeled a racist because I don't like country music?  Of course not.  To me, it's like not liking certain type of food, for example, I don't like spicy food, which makes my ass burns when I take a dump.  Would I be labeled a racist in such case?  But I can't say I don't like "black" music out loud, otherwise, I would be labeled a racist, which I am not, I have black friends.  BUT, I love 80s heavy metal, hair metal, I love some progressive rock, I love 70s hard rock, it's simply what I like, and what I don't like, would this still make me racist?



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189,089 I laid in bed. I stroked my throbbing cock. I stopped. I was dying to cum. I held it, I stroked some more. I stopped. So good. I stroked. I couldn't stop, and I shot cum all over me. Such a great orgasm.



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189,088 087 - hah i like you, think we could be friends in real life.



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189,087 Sometimes I try so hard to figure someone out before I reign in and remind myself that people are chaotic, selfish and easily bored. It's not me; it's not them; it's all of us, bumbling around in this wide, weird world. We're all living in these tiny human consciousness worlds and we forget that we're all condensed particles inside of some endless Russian doll. Then I remember that I'm hungry.



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189,086 A lot of people I knew in my hometown are overdosing at an alarming rate. It's a drug infested rat hole disguised as a tourists wet dream. As a visitor, you'll love it, but live there, and you'll fall into drugs…quickly…

It's sad. It's very sad. But that's why I moved. I was never into drugs. Had I stayed I imagine I'd just be another name in the obituaries.



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189,085 Hour 4 of being sober and I've contemplated taking oxy 20 times and cried 21 times



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189,084 Although I have a relatively happy life, especially compared to those on here, I just hate the world we live in and cannot wait to leave.  It is because I live in a world where the things that are said on here are quite, quite true!  Human beings are garbage, less than the most rabid reptile.  This is the real world, right here ... and that is so far beyond sad that there are just no words.  Come, Lord ... and hurry!!!



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189,083 During a crazy period of self exploration, I tasted my own pee, pooh and menstrual blood. In looking back it troubles me a little. I think I possibly went too far, but I tell myself every woman has probably done this once in their life? I hope this is the case and I'm not as crazy as I sound.



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189,082 My husband told me after 11 years together that he wants to try being polyamorous for awhile. There's a woman he likes and he wanted permission to flirt with her, although he assured me he loves me and only me and will never leave me.  Likewise I'm free to flirt with any men I desire, so long as I stay married to him and he comes first. It's funny, but since I told him it was okay to enjoy his crush, our sex life has suddenly gotten much hotter.

What he doesn't know is that there's someone I've been crushing on but resisting for years, a gorgeous younger man who sometimes does freelance work for my company.  This fellow's made it clear that he's attracted to me, but keeps it in check out of respect — he's never even touched me, although the way he looks at me and talks to me can sometimes get my pulse racing.  That's been a slow burn going on for years, but nothing's ever happened because I'm married.



Honey, you should maybe not have given me permission to pursue something with this guy, because now all I can think about is when and how I can finally fuck him.  Are there happily married women out there who also have a lover on this side, with their husband's knowledge and permission?

I'm afraid that if I tell my husband that there IS someone I like and who very likely reciprocates, that he'll call the whole poly experiment off.  But I want to throw my friend into bed and just fuck him unconscious anyway.



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189,081 My super conservative Catholic in-laws were told that we can't have children, and oh, aren't we wrecked by that, we wanted all the babies God could give us, wanted them so bad, babies babies babies, oh woe is us we can't have babies.

Truth is, we both can't stand kids and my husband got snipped while we were engaged.  Neither one of us is Catholic and we only go to church when we visit his parents.

No fucking way are we having six kids like my mother or ten kids like his mother.   I always felt a part of a traveling freakshow when my parents would parade our giant brood around -- biggest family in our parish, yay...

Fuck that megabreeding religious bullshit. We're going on a cruise to Hawaii this winter.



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189,080 I am bad.  I am going to visit our son in college and already thinking about strange.  Man, I need a pussy this weekend.



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189,079 Being targeted by baby traps. They really are trying to impress. They want that baby after all. When they get their period they wonder what happened.

Babies aren't accessories. Bringing people into this world takes some nerve. You have to be able to let the baby birds fly away when they are ready. One minute you are changing diapers, the next minute they grow up and move away.

It's difficult to think of anything more meaningful then being a parent, but you have to be capable of letting them go.



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189,078 I have been clean and sober for about eleven years. But fuck it. I bought a twelve pack of cheap beer and now I'm very drunk. It feels so good. Oh, well...



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189,077 I get tired of having to be what everybody else wants me to be.  Everybody likes me until I do or say one thing that they disagree with, then they angrily discard me from their life.  It never used to be this way until I became an adult.  Fuck you people.  You only want your own thoughts and lifestyle validated, and you're bullshit.  Don't tell me I have a problem.  You have a problem.

I remember getting disowned from a group of new friends when I was 20 and I moved into a new town, because I didn't want to get drunk on my 21st birthday.  It all went downhill from there.



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189,076 I don't like people. I like making things. There should be a place for me in the world.



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189,075 There needs to be a guidebook on how to avoid the super-charming men who only want sex with no commitment, and to never accept less than what you deserve in a relationship.  I would totally buy it.

I need practical, real-life situation examples - because when I get into situations with men I am attracted to, I tend to imagine the future with him, which is a terrible habit. Ugh.



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189,074 Listening to my old albums on my son's "new" turntable and missing the high school "me" of 35 years ago.,.



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189,073 Curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought him back.



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189,072 Arbee... you are the "C" word so many women want to say but cannot.  You are a poser in your Burberry and Brooks Brothers -  what is up with the booties and gladiator sandals?  Go back to your city trash upbringing.



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189,071 066. Actually it sounds like you have marriage figured out. Just don't let wifey find out.



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189,070 My deep secret: having a child has been the absolute worst thing that has ever happened.



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189,069 Dear world,

You are a beautiful swirling mind fuck that always leaves me mystified, amazed, stunned, hurting, and joyful.

What a Life!



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189,068 My mother was always telling us how she had to move around because her dad had to go wherever the company told him to go.  Well she decided to rectify issues from her own past by having us live in the same place for at least 13 years which turned into 50. I remember crying when we had to go from one school  that was literally a few blocks away from the other school. This set up a lifetime filled with a crippling level of sentimentality.

Meanwhile, my adult child went away from here without a second thought.



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189,067 Girls, this is how you get a guy to propose to you. When your stagnant boyfriend won't pop the question, then break up and go out on a date with another guy  he'll come running with a ring!



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189,066 I figured it out today at work.  In the last 8 years, 23 women have made me cum 32 times.  

I suck at being married.



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189,065 63. While traveling and meeting new people all the time is great , you miss building long time relationships.  I grew up on the aviation industry, which meant we had to move constantly all over the country and even to other continents like Asia and Australia.  While I loved my childhood and it was a wonderful experience that very few get to live , it got tiresome sometimes, it was sad saying goodbye all the time to people you became friends with it , knowing that most like it you would never see them again .  I been staying put on the same place for the last 13 years to give my kid a " normal" childhood , yes it's boring sometimes and I miss experiencing new cultures and places but on the long run I think my kid would appreciate growing up around the same people , when he grows up he can go whatever he want to go.



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189,064 I think serial Facebook posters are in a terrible marriage. That's why they post so much to Facebook. They are desperate to communicate with someone and their spouse isn't there for them.



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189,063 I want to live out of a camper van like uncle Rico. I want to travel the country like the Incredible Hulk when he isn't angry. I want to meet people and then move on and meet more people.



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189,062 I guess it's a secret, because I couldn't say it out loud to anyone, but why are we SHOCKED that Hurricanes are demolishing those Islands?  I mean, they sit out in the water, in Hurricane Alley! I feel sorry for the people, but I'm not SHOCKED. I would do all that I could to move from there! I'm sure it's tough, but possible.



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189,061 What's your deepest darkest secret?



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189,060 Nothing is doing more to facilitate the “loneliness epidemic” than modern day dating apps and facebook. No risk, No reward.



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189,059 How's that van by the river life looking these days?



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189,058 The statistics tell us there's a “loneliness epidemic”. With an epidemic comes the search for a cure, but loneliness is so much bigger than a cure. You can be lonely in a crowd, a bed can feel emptier with the wrong person in it, and a knitting circle will not fix you. Loneliness is internal and fundamentally existential. Ernest Becker wrote in The Denial of Death that the only thing keeping humans functioning on a daily basis is their fear of death, that if we were to confront our own oblivion we would be frozen to the spot. I think this is why loneliness is a darker thing than just being alone. It's a stillness that gives you a preview of death; it's seeing the world carry on just fine without you in it.



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189,057 I try not to cry until the weekends when I know I'll be alone and no one will see me.



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189,056 I'm one of those guys that would probably buy a really high quality sex doll or robot. It's not that I don't care for real women, I just don't care for the drama and emotional issues that go along with relationships.
I'm a successful business owner/entrepreneur and as I get older I just have less patience for bullshit.



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189,055 The worst thing about being an open book is that when you want to keep a secret, everyone knows you're hiding something.

Oh well, I'll never tell.



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189,054 I wish I had someone to talk to about my addictions aside from my friends who are also addicts and okay with it or my friends that aren't addicts at all. There's so much stigma around addiction that once people hear the name of the drug of choice, they stop listening.

The real me is in here, somewhere, trying to take control. I wish people knew that and could actually offer advice.

And by the way, advice doesn't mean, "just stop being a drug addict." That's literally the most ignorant thing in the world to say.



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189,053 If women don't want us to be sniffing their panties, why do they leave so many dirty pairs laying around?



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189,052 I got an email last week from a former classmate, asking why I wasn't at our high school reunion last month.  I've gone to almost all of them.  Well, I didn't go because I knew nothing about it.  Apparently, I was excluded from this one.

Such is the case when you're the lone fish - a conservative Republican in a sea of SJWs.  Oh well.



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189,051 I don't know why people make such a big deal out of having fluffy rice. Personally, I like it to be sticky. If it's fluffy, you end up chasing the grains all over the plate and never quite being able to get them all. I like it to stick to my fork so I can eat it all with no fussing around.



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189,050 Donald Trump is going to succeed in destroying ObamaCare and healthcare is going to get 10,000 times worse. It's amazing to me how so many working class and poor people feel that basic health care should be a luxury.



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189,049 BJs are cheating. Anytime you put any of your body parts in someone else's body parts that is not your gf/ wife or bf/husband, it is a violation of trust. Don't you think Hillary felt shocked and hurt? Of course she did. When you marry or commit to anothe you're to forsake all others. Mothers fathers brothers sisters aunts uncles cousins nieces nephews exes friends everybody and you're to make your significant other's happiness your priority. Til death do you part. For richer or poorer. To love and to cherish. When you choose to shatter that happiness by sticking your penis or vagina on or in another person you're violating that sacred bond. And also damaging your SO's  mental health. There are no accidents. You don't accidentally fall into somebody's mouth or vagina either. You choose to do it. While Clinton did q lot of good things for this country, ,he is not God. People think presidents should be infallible. They're not. He was human just like the rest of us but he abused his power and Ms. Lewinsky went right along with it. She knew what she was doing just like he knew what he was doing. You have to think not with your little but with your big head.



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189,048 My coworker is a beer snob. He's always yapping about some beer he drank with a weird name and it6'a very expensive. What a jerk. When I want to drink some beer I go to my local liquor store and buy two 25 oz cans of malt liquor for $2.50. It taste good and and gets me drunk. I think it's ridiculous to pay a lot of money for beer.



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189,047 BJ's are not cheating. According to Bill Clinton anyway. That opened the flood gates for me and lot's of other guys...



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189,046 Doesn't matter who the one is doing the cheating. It could be my dead grandmother r.I.p grandma... That doesn't excuse anyone. Be single or at least separated and living on your own before you do something that's going to irreparably damage someone's heart and self confidence. They don't deserve that cruelty.



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189,045 Careful who you trash talk for cheating. Could be your best friend, sister, brother, parent, church lady, priest is getting it on the downlow.



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189,044 I hate that most of the important family in my life have serious personality problems.  I can't do anything without setting off somebody's personality problem.  I feel so trapped and want to die.  I hate my family.  Hoarding, being possessive, being angry, being narcissistic, being mentally ill, not being able to function by themselves.  I'm just so sick of it all, and I'm being tired of being told that I'm making excuses.  I'm tired of being treated like the problem and everybody else being an enabler.  I'm tired of my family fighting.  I want to die.  So toxic.  I want to leave them, but I have to stay.



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189,043 I had to tell my BFF, any married woman who goes out and sucks guys' dicks IS definitely cheating.  Any sexual acts or conversations or actions that lead to one person's genitals coming into any kind of contact with another person's anything is cheating.  But ... if you don't want your marriage, you can do anything you want ... but then of course there's God, but who cares about Him today?  So, go ahead, whore, slurp up all the cum in the city, after All, that's the kind of girl you are.  (Now pass the barf bag!)



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189,042 I love getting blowjobs but i hate being the wallet for the my regular hooker who calls with a sob story every time she needs money. She's always extra grateful and lets me cum in her mouth and all over her face but I would rather do it when I need it, and not just her. I'm really going to make her work for it this time and jerk off before I visit her. The load will be smaller but at least the pleasure will last longer.



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189,041 I love when I have a good paycheck and can go to the store and put anything I want in the grocery basket



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189,040 I left everything to the last minute, and now there is no way I can finish in time. I hate being me.



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189,039 Just read about the 500th homicide in Chicago. Most are gang related, some just innocent bystanders. I thought there were very strict gun laws there. Guess gangs haven't read those laws yet. My secret? I hope the homicide count skyrockets. I also believe when whites leave an area the crime and homicide rates go up. Sure BLM, to everyone except blacks.
37, Harvard educated Black male



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189,038 Life became much easier when I stopped thinking about other people and only worried about myself. Yeah, it's a little selfish, but I've become much less toxic because of it.



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189,037 Cheating is easy. I tell him I have to work late. He never notices that my paycheck doesn't go up even though it should if I'm putting in extra hours. I'm wondering if he even cares.



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189,036 I'm actually happy.

I spent a lot of years trying to find the right man. The one I found isn't anything like I thought he'd be. In fact, for most of the years I knew him, I would have sworn he and I would be a disaster together. But we changed, and we got better as people, and we got together. That wasn't the happily ever after, though, that was beginning of knocking the last of each others' sharp edges off.

But now we're content hanging out at home, him reading something while I play guitar beside him, talking or not talking as we feel the need, and curling up together whenever it's opportune. I spent years looking for grand love, but as it turns out, grand love is terrible. It's the pain that makes it grand. Daily love is so much better.

I heard people say this for years and I couldn't understand it or even imagine it until now. But it all makes sense. I get it.

The person who makes every day better is the one for you. And they'll make you crazy sometimes and they'll have their annoying hangups and so will you. Even saying that yous love is your best friend doesn't capture it; it's good to have friends as your friends and your lover as your love-friend. But the main thing is that they make every day better just by existing, and they put your interests on par with or ahead of their own, and you do the same. It'll feel logical when it happens. It'll feel like the most necessary decision in the world.

I had no idea what joy could come with staying in, cooking dinner, and watching Netflix. But apparently it's everything. Four years into this relationship, all I want to do is spent 80 more years hanging out with my beau.



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189,035 Squirting is not a myth! I used to think it was until I met the guy who changed everything for me. I won't ever be the same. It was the best sexual experiences ever! No guy will ever compare. Now, the thought of sex with anyone else is lame.



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189,034 She wanted me to pretend. I would go along with it. None of this was real.  Other times, she was like a sister or a best friend. We had no boundaries. I met her on the side of a mountain. She was on both sides of the world at once. She turned on her side and I held her in my arms one last time. I'll never know how we did it. I kept thinking that we had time. Please let there be more time...



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189,033 I love it in the morning when my wife bends over to put the towel on her head after her shower.  Her asshole is one of the finest I've seen. I don't tell her and she won't let me near it but I like to know it's there.  :)



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189,032 Back in early 2016 I was meeting up with different men 2-3 times a week to fuck in hotel rooms. Yes. 2-3 different men every week. These were all men I knew not strangers from the internet or anything like that. I miss that. I've never felt sexier or more desired than I did then. There was one man that came FOUR times during our couple of hours together. Later on he told me it was the best pussy hes ever had and he often fantasizes about fucking me when hes with other women. I thought "Yeah yeah yeah whatever" but, recently he contacted me after not speaking to him for about a year. He said that he and his girlfriend were talking and she asked him who was the best sex he'd ever had. He told her about me, and described what made me "the best". As he explained this to her it turned her on and he said she tried to perform like he told her I did, but it wasn't the same. Long story short, he wants me to join them for a threesome. She's all for it. He says she wants to watch he and I together. As he told me about this plan, I got so turned on. I just imagined her licking me while he fucks her, then vice versa. She doesn't allow anal, but wants to watch him fuck me in the ass. THIS IS CRAZY SHIT YOU ONLY HEAR OF IN PORN!! The idea of it turns me the fuck on so much. Here's the kicker. I'm a 44 year old married mother of 4.



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189,031 I have 7 credit cards taken out in my name.  5 of them are maxed.  Ugh.  This is a new low.



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189,030 You meant so much more to me than that even after all the shit we put each other through. I mean all the sneaking around behind my back you did and me having to defend myself when you called me jealous. Jealous of what? Did you have something with those girls you were talking to that I should have been jealous of? If you did, I certainly didn't know about it. You can only be jealous of someone if they have something you want for yourself. What did they have that I wanted? Nothing. I had you. Or at least I thought I did. You were all I ever needed and wanted. And maybe a place of our own. So we could build a life of our own and i could cook you some fabulous meals. And have you all to myself. I was ready. Apparently you werent. You wanted to run around and do drugs and only God and you know what else. Im not going to get into telling about the motel rooms you rented or the young woman there who asked you if you were going to spend the night with her. Or the vial of red lip gloss. Or your cum stained underwear. And all the other piles of evidence I found out. You missed both my birthdays out with another female all day on the first one, out supposedly doing drugs on my second. I just wanted you here like I was here for yours. Even treated you to dinner and bought you new clothes cause I wanted to do it. What did I get for mine? Your absence. But you know about all that.  
Anyway, I warned you about getting emotionally attached to the other girls. Did I not? I told you that I was afraid you were going to fall in love with one of them if you continued having contact with them. I was afraid you were going to replace me. I told you. You remember what you told me..?.
And I quote what you said not ver  batim but close, "Be glad that I spend all my free time with you. Don't I when I come home from work, cook for you eat with you or take you out. We lay here in the evenings and watch TV together do we not? Be grateful that I don't leave you here alone only when Im at work. Be grateful I don't leave you here alone on the weekends. Be grateful that I don't leave you here alone for days or even weeks cause I did do that to my exes all the time going back and forth fucking one then coming back and fucking the other. I was a player. But I don't want to do that shit anymore. Be grateful that Im not texting and calling M and T right in front of you cause I could be doing that and making you be sad and hurt but I have to much respect for you to do that" What? Really? You could be texting and calling those woman right in front of me? Isn't that what you do with your friends when you're just friends with them. As you claimed. You text them in front of your significant other? You didn't have any problem texting or calling any of your other friends in my presence so what was the deal with your friends you found on the internet before we got togwther? Ill tell you what's the deal. With you sneaking behind my back texting and talking to M and T or K is  what I call her I notice you give these girls you're fond of shortened versions of their name or give them nicknames. Did you give me one? No. Not even babe. I was your girlfriend and you never even called me babe or honey or sweetie or boo or babygirl. I like those names too. But nada. No affectionate terms of endearments for me. Except mami. I used to think that mami was special until You call some other women that too so nope nothing special there. So since you don't tell me what you talk about with your friends who live in riverside and Nevada (and you said that you tell me everything you do . right loll) I can only assume you engage in some inappropriate talk with these girls is why you never text or call them when you were with me. And that my friend is called cheating. C-h-e-a-t-i-n-g. There I even spell it out for you since you say cheating is when you go and fuck someone else other than your gf or wife. No honey what you been doing talking inappropriately and deleting your texts and phone calls before you come home is all cheating. And it's the most hurtful ways cause you're not only getting sexually involved you're getting emotionally involved with the girl.  You're giving them what you are supposed to be giving to me. You're giving them your time and affection and your love and flirting with them while I get nothing but food at the end of the day. Not even affection just a peck on the lips every now and again. You must've been so tired after a day of giving those other girls your sweet words of affection and maybe jerking it in the bathroom at work to her on the phone. She drained all of your emotional reserves so you don't have any left for me. Your forging an emotional connection which makes you miss them and think about them when you're not talking to them. That's not cool and That's what hurts the most. That's what hurts the most. That's what hurts the most. But then again you must love making me "jealous" lol. But how do you live with yourself after all you've done. Hurt so many women. I don't know. Maybe I didn't give you the emotional support you needed and Im sorry about that but if I can't make myself feel better how do I make someone that I love feel better.   so that's why instead of speaking to me about it you got it elsewhere. I remember the text she sent you saying it was no big deal and you just needed her to talk to you. That hurt me. So you were in almost daily contact with her. That hurts. Then you came home acting like nothing was amiss. That hurt. But maybe in your own little world nothing was amiss cause you thought about her and missed her when you weren't talking and when she did text you, you were happy in that moment. I remember that feeling. It came from you long long ago when you'd text me. But when I moved over here with you it stopped. The texting and talking in the phone all day everyday while you were at work. You relegated it to nightime a few months after we began. I should have noticed the red flag.
You were so big on communication and honesty but never gave me honesty only when you were lecturing me on what I should do or say.



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189,029 Ok, truth, sometimes he puts it in my tush and then wants me to blow him afterwards. I'm like no no no, it was in my tush. But secretly I like the kink of it. I protest only to keep the appearance of my dignity intact.



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189,028 Over the last 12 years this site has been my secret diary.  I was introduced to it by a friend, and for a month we would both look at it.  I visited this site for maybe a year, but then I forgot all about it for maybe two years.  One day, I remembered it, and came back to it.  I've never mentioned this site since then to my friend.  I don't want her to know I'm back on it so she can't figure out it's me.  But the things I've posted here I've never told another soul.  Maybe one day after I'm gone, someone will be able to figure out all the posts that were written by me and start to piece together the secret life of an anonymous person.



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189,027 I wish I could find my purpose in life when it comes to my career.



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189,026 I was never with the popular kids.  In fact, me and my friends looked down on them.  We were the smart kids.  We knew the popular kids weren't smart.  Not caring kind of made us... popular.



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189,025 Have to get this off my mind.  My friend is a fantastic organist and a friend of his always wanted him to play for his funeral.  Friend passed away and his wife reminded my friend about the funeral.  Full of himself, pompous ass Catholic priest said he couldn't play for it.  I am so over Catholic clergy.  Ugh!



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189,024 That's how less I meant to you after almost three years was not even q handshake and a goodbye .



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189,023 No, I didn't say goodbye to you when I left.  In fact, I noticed that you weren't there, either.  You were there up until maybe ten minutes before my exit.  But I just would have shook your hand and said goodbye.  Short and sweet.

Thanks for making it easy on me.



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189,022 I don't want to be married anymore. Too much downside, not enough upside.



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189,021 020: Hahaha. Surely you're kidding. I've been with plenty of men who have came more than once in one evening. I have also given enough head to know precum is very real. The man who was arrested for fucking sheep in my former hometown will tell you beastiality is real. I've had a man ask me to piss on him and ask to piss on me, so it's real. So is S&M. As far as getting married for financial reasons? Some folks maybe, but not in my case



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189,020 I think a woman squirting is a myth.

I think pre-cum is a myth. Ive never seen it.

I think guys cumming more than twice in a sex session isn't real.

I think S&M isn't real. People don't have sex with pain.

I think bestiality is a myth. Makes for a good story but not real.

I think people peeing and pooping on each other isn't real.

I think love is a myth. It's a chemical reaction is all.

I think deep down people get married for financial reasons.



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189,019 In 1999 I had a night with a female friend and her girlfriend I'll never forget.  They were both 22 and I was 27.  Her girlfriend was very attractive and horny as hell, talking about how her boyfriend never pleased her, how she made guys cum too fast because she was so tight, how she didn't know guys' names when they were eating her pussy, how she woke up once and some guy was fucking her, but she didn't care.  

A warning bell went off in my head that she was sending me signals - she wanted to fuck me.  Another warning went off in my head that fucking her would probably give me a STD.  I took them home after we were drinking.

But once in a while, I fantasize about that night and beat my meat.  It always makes me cum fast and hard thinking about her and what could have happened between us.  It's been 18 years and I just did it again this morning.  She's 40 now.  But at least I don't have a STD.



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189,018 Ahhh, chubby love. I love it when the pudgies find each other.



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189,017 9012, you should rejoice.  It is true that the nerds in high school rule the world.  Your kids will do fine in life.



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189,016 The first person that utters the word "racist" is usually the biggest one. In psychology I believe it's called projection. I work with several people that throw that word around...too bad, it's starting to lose it's impact.



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189,015 I wonder is any of my friend's husbands think about having sex with me. I'm not opposed to the idea. But they have to make the first move.



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189,014 When I reach into the desk drawer for a pencil, and find that none have a point, I'll take the time to sharpen all of them. After all, what is the purpose of having a desk drawer filled with pencils if they aren't usable?

When my wife reaches into the desk drawer for a pencil, and she finds none have a point, she'll grab a pen instead.

It's a simple thing.  But a few observations.

1) She takes the easier path. Story of her life. Me, I take the right path, even it it means more work for me.

2) She does what's best for herself. Not me. I do what's best for the common good. It helps everyone if I sharpen all the pencils.

The simple act of getting a pencil sums up our entire marriage.



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189,013 When I was 17 I got drunk at a party and walked right up to a woman and grabbed her bosoms. She yelped and recoiled in horror. I tried grabbing them again. A few guys standing there pulled me away and started yelling at me. People turned around to see the commotion. The woman I groped had tears in her eyes. Her friends came to her aid. The guys pushed me out of the house. I walked home in a drunken daze.

It is now many years later. I still think about this incident. It's not a good feeling. It's filled with shameful guilt. I don't know what got into me. I'm an otherwise good person. I've thought about sending the woman an apology note. Could you imagine getting a note like that so many years later. She'd probably freak out all over again and think I was stalking her. So I do nothing.I'm not sure what else I can do except cringe when the thought comes into my head.



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189,012 My high school aged children would rather stay home and do school work on the weekends, than go to the beach.

What have I done? I've created nerds!



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189,011 Twenty-five years later, a girl in the popular group in high school told me she wished she hadn't been in that group - that the artsy group would have been better for her.  But once she was in, she couldn't leave.  She said it was constant bitchiness and cattiness, fights over boys and trying to keep up.  She said it made high school life more stressful than enjoyable.  To cope with it, she began drinking and eventually became an alcoholic.  (She's sober now.)



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189,010 I really wanted Carrie Fisher's and Harrison Ford's affair to be something grand. Something legendary.
But it sounds like it's just another asshole cheating on his wife with some poor woman that doesn't know any better.



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189,009 Oral is cheating.



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189,008 So I have a friend who wants to fuck me. We've known each other since we were kids. There has always been an attraction, but it's weird to me because I've known him forever. He lives nearby, also, I'm pretty sure he has a girl. Although I haven't seen her around or heard about her lately. He is too close, he had something going on back in the day with a girl in my circle. I am not close to her, but she's friends with a close friend and I see her occasionally. She was in love with him and it ended ugly. I'm considering it, I haven't gotten fucked in forever. The last two guys I liked were supposed to meet me, they initiated everything, and they still ghosted and reappeared and ghosted again. Guys my age or a little older who are single, they don't want to get involved, including fuckbuddy situations because there are always strings attached, they want to fuck but not the drama that comes with it. The guys who have been going after me who actually are taking action and not all talk, are guys with girlfriends and younger guys who think i'm their age. The thing is, I'm trying to get away from my neighborhood and that circle, my 2 last exes were guys from back in the day, I am not trying to do that again. Guys from my past who are tied into my neighborhood, and secret clandestine situations keep following me, even though I've been making a conscious effort to break that pattern. Ugh.



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189,007 Always fall too hard, too fast. Fuckin dumb. Why do I do this to myself?



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189,006 It's true that customer service in mortar stores suck! First of all, at Macy's for example, often times you can't even find a sales person when you have questions. Then when you finally find one, they don't know more about the merchandise than the customer her/himself. Then, when you're looking for something specific, they're too lazy to look for it (in an often messy store) and tell you to go on line! Really?! All this what I just described, started a couple of years ago, and back then I was already wondering if the employees in the store know what they're doing when they were telling me to go on line. They were talking themselves out of a job! So dumb!
Today I read that Wall Street thinks that the retail industry is in trouble and more stores will have to close.  Except for Best Buy, which is surprising because one would think that it' would be easy to buy a pc or phone on line. But check them out: the stores are clean, there are sales people everywhere, they know the merchandise and if an item isn't available in the store, the sales person orders it for you. Their stocks are up! I don't have an MBA or a degree in marketing, but it's clear to me that people who run the retail industry are fucking dumb!



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189,005 I lose my job on average every two years.  Most of the time it's not my fault.  It's just the industry I'm in.  It's always tight for money and most executives in it are more interested in the status this particular industry gives them than competence... and they hate people who are more competent than they are.

Sounds like it sucks, and it does.  Constantly job hunting is awful.  I always have to be looking for the signs that the axe will fall.

But it also means that I've bounced around the industry so much that I have tremendous knowledge of the entire industry.  That makes me valuable.  The amount of money I command now is 200% what it was 10 years ago, and it's a lot for someone who's never held an executive position.

My friends who have been with the same company for a decade?  They're chugging along with their 3% annual raises.  That's maybe 40%, and it's eaten up by inflation.  My salary has grown at a rate 5 times theirs.

I also have great job search skills.  That's a plus, too.  My friends are trapped in their positions because they don't know how to get out of them.



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189,004 I'm one of the person who prefers online shopping vs going to the store , most of the time the stores don't have what I want , they answer is always the same oh I'm sorry, we only carry the item online , their customer service most of time it's awful, I seen many times employees of those stores with horrible attitude, their dressing rooms are a mess and some even dirty , I once walk into a Macy's dressing room and found a used maxi pad , also quality control is not so great due to employees not doing their work , when people try on clothes constantly you always going to have at least one customer per day not being carefully while trying on and damage the merchandise, I seen clothes with deodorant, make up stains and even rip before .  While I hardly order from amazon ( they sent me the wrong items , too many times ) , I would continue my shopping online not because I'm too lazy to drive to the mortal stores but they need to improve the way they run their stores.



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189,003 993- As a girl who was not so popular in high school, I would say embrace it. I'm not going to generalize the popular girls as "shallow and vapid" but there is tremendous pressure for them to dress and act a certain way. They have to date "popular" boys and hang out with "popular" girls. They can't participate in "geeky" activities. Popular girls can also be horribly cruel to the less popular kids.

The "less popular" girls tend to be a little more free-spirited and care a little less what other people think. They choose activities based on what they enjoy and they develop friendships with people for who they are, cool or not.

Your daughter has chosen to be friends with these girls for a reason. You have obviously raised her to live life on her terms, so good for you!

I'm the end, high school really is such a short part of our lives. There is so much waiting for her after that. Who cares about homecoming.



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189,002 Second is this: "you shall love  your neighbor as yourself" there is no commandment greater than this.



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189,001 Bruh, that's a blatant lie and you know it. There was no need to withhold information from me. We weren't in love but lying can still be hurtful.

At any rate, I randomly thought about the situation the other day and the truth hit me. It was kind of funny! No one in my real life knew about our, uh, "thing" so this is the only place I can talk about it when I am somehow reminded.

I wish you the best. I hope you're happy and healthy. I am!



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189,000 I'm so much more attractive than your new girlfriend. The nauseating amount of selifes you post of the two of you just makes me shake my head. If I knew her, I'd give her some makeup tips so she didn't look like she was stuck in the 80s.



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