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189,599 After nearly 10 long years of missing someone who was, what I considered, the best match for me of anyone I've dated, he and I are now planning to reunite. I am quite excited and nervous. I flat asked him if he wanted to have sex, and he said yes!!!! I can't wait. Honestly, I don't care what happens after this I just miss him. He revealed to me that he has always regretted breaking up with me, and I was just shocked really. He makes me laugh non-stop and is just a fun person to be around. Here's to never stopping going for what you want. Don't be scared. Ask for what you want, and you just might get it.



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189,598 I'm grateful that my girlfriend likes anal sex. It's always a pleasant surprise when during foreplay I'm asked, "which hole do you want?" Often times I'll arouse her with vaginal sex and finish in her ass. She loves it, and it's a huge turn on. As a note, when we started dating she was full-on vanilla, but I've gotten her into some fun BDSM type activities and she's now enjoying the bedroom liberation! She's gone tonight, I miss her.



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189,597 I let some strange myths live in my head. It's a measure of my dedication. Will you let me down? Will you fulfill some higher purpose? I tested you.. tested you and waited....,
I'll just try again  tomorrow.. There will be plenty of rainfall.



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189,596 I never knew marriage could be so lonely. I married my husband because I love him and I can't imagine my life without him. I also married him years earlier than we had always planned because I was hopelessly depressed and being tethered to someone else was the only way I could stop myself from killing myself. I thought that being responsible to and for someone else would keep me from offing myself, or at least that it would make it easier for me to decide to live and stay because I would be a little less lonely/isolated. Now I'm scared that I'm going to ruin my husband. I can't imagine how much shame I would bring to his family if I killed myself anyway, because they are all about appearances and they already feel ashamed of me. At least my husband is young and he would be able to remarry and live happier with someone better for him than me.



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189,595 My nose has been broken at least 8 times before i turned 17.   Car wreck. Being the new kid in 2 different Jr high schools and 3 different high show ment that I learned how to fight.

Snorting coke wasn't an option for me cause my nose was fucked.



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189,594 And it's spelt Bisa pathetic moron. Not Bisaya. Yes, please do this world a favor.

-Target



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189,593 On my 20th birthday, I was dying in a hospital.

On my 30th birthday, I danced in the rain with the woman who would be my wife.

Things change, I guess.



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189,592 I'm 30 today, and this has definitely been the most underwhelming birthday I've had. It just makes me sad. My friends and family who live far off have wished me a happy birthday, but my friends here have been mostly quiet. The few times per year they remember me, they tell me how much they love and miss me, but then when I suggest we get together, they either flake or have an excuse. I don't know why. I'm always happy and laid back. I don't think I'm annoying. So why have I always been treated like an afterthought? They're celebrating tonight one of our friend's birthdays that's on the 12th. That stings a little.

I have close to no social life anymore besides my boyfriend who never wants to go anywhere. It's an awful thing to be alone on your birthday and crying because you have to spend it alone.  Even my boyfriend isn't with me because he's not feeling well today. I don't want to ask anyone to get together and do something because for a change I wish someone would ask ME to get together.

I'm probably just being self-pitying and melodramatic. Tomorrow can't come soon enough. I just want to wake up and go back to my normal routine with work that keeps me too occupied and busy to think about things like this.



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189,591 When I want to annoy my wife, I go into her bedroom late at night (I sleep in the guest room). I turn on the light to get something, but then leave without turning the light off. She then has to get out of bed to turn it off herself. Passive aggressive on my part. But it works. She can't fall back to sleep. She's tired and in a foul mood the entire next day. Victory for me.



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189,590 Ok, I saw this amateur porn video of a wife and husband. It starts with her sticking a finger up his ass. Pretty hot. Then she lubes up her hand and sticks it up his ass. She goes so deep that part of her forearm is in there. I've never seen anything like it before. Amazing turn on. But she wasn't done. Unbelievably she lubes up her other hand and sticks both up his ass. Again going in up to her forearms. Pounding him, in and out, in and out. Holy fuck I almost creamed in my pants. I wish I could get my wife to do that to me.



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189,589 I hate you.



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189,588 I let my kids do really dangerous things. They ride motorcycles and go rock climbing. I'm not sure if I'm being stupid or not.



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189,587 565- Ok, maybe this sounds weird, but try showering without any shower gel. Maybe your body is reacting badly to it. Me and my boyfriend rarely use it, we do however use scrub brushes often, use a soft one or a glove. And my skin has never been better! Of course use deo but try it out. Or maybe you have some sort of internal infection or your diet is unhealthy..



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189,586 584 - I agree, haven't watched NFL games so far this season. Been spending time with family and my dog. Amazing how we get brainwashed into ignoring what's really important. I've already gotten rid of cable TV, can't say I really miss 200 channels I never watched.



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189,585 Loneliness is...
Lying in bed next to you, each night & never once having you wrap your arms around me. I often imagine you wrapping me up and pulling me close. This is being alive. To me, it's where I feel safe. Maybe that's an illusion but the heart wants what the heart wants.
I don't know why it took me 10 years to realize that you aren't capable of loving me in the ways I need. It's not my fault your mother never showed you affection or love. I can't be your mother. I am your wife. At least I am for now.



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189,584 I haven't been watching football these last few weeks. You know what I miss about it? Nothing. It's a dumb slow game played by a bunch of fat morons who are giving themselves brain damage in exchange for a large paycheck that they use to buy gaudy mansions where they beat their baby mama. Remind me why America watched football in the first place?



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189,583 I had a few drinks last night.  I hadn't done that in 6 months.  I had freed myself from alcohol since then.  I never wanted to do it, but my little brother was in a car wreck this week and was almost killed.  He spent a few days in the hospital and miraculously he's fine now.  But it affected me so deeply that I didn't even know it was affecting me.  I guess I was looking for a way to process emotions that I didn't even know I had.  So I subconsciously did what I knew worked in the past - I drank - even though I knew consciously that drinking doesn't solve my problems.  But when I woke up this morning it made sense to me.  In another year I'll think of the accident, look at those drinks I had last night, and know I should just give myself a mulligan for it.



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189,582 580 The media wants people to think thats shocking. They want to tell us what to think. Don't listen people. Think for yourself.



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189,581 I really like your brother. I really like your family. People always make jokes about getting married. Basic wedding toast bullshit. It's actually a funny commentary on our failed relationships.



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189,580 The news media seems shocked the Vegas gunman could amass 47 guns. That's nuttin. I know guys with hundreds of guns.



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189,579 Why is it always me who has to take care of everything? Story of my life. Wherever I go, people think of me as the responsible one who will solve whatever problem comes up. I'm tired of it. I don't like being in that position. I only do it because if I don't, no one else will. You know where it burned the most? My father died. OUR father died, and my siblings washed their hands of the details. They just assumed I will make all the arrangements and pay all the bills for the funeral. They are lazy fucks. It was their own father and they couldn't lift a finger to help.



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189,578 Finally. Someone gave me a fucking chance.



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189,577 My nads itch. I wish I had a young woman to scratch them for me.



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189,576 If I killed myself my grade school bullies would smirk and giggle between whispers about what a loser I always was. They would do it within earshot of my family and deny anything was wrong if confronted.



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189,575 The secret to stopping the shootings.  Stop being assholes.  Be kind, considerate, and understanding to everyone.  If American's are likeable and kind, people won't want to kill them. Media, propaganda, and education is the way to make this happen.  It is possible but will take a massive effort.



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189,574 Flocks of birds or schools of fish. They all seem to move with one motion. On one level, we see an intricate dance. They move with one purpose. It's a spectacle of nature.

Incurious drones that lack any real sense of what it means to be free. Lashed to the rocky crag of a terrible job and a slave morality that offers no sense of fulfillment. If they were happy they wouldn't be constantly bitching about taxes and Hollywood.



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189,573 I could seriously just come in my pants when a man plays the piano, bass guitar or drums.



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189,572 Whenever I see a post about "those terrible liberals", I skip it. I'm not even a dem, but I guess you could say I'm a fiscally liberal-leaning libertarian. Regardless, I'm sick of people generalizing their complaints toward entire groups of people based on a relatively small number of interactions and a sense of shared idealism. Give it up.



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189,571 In my mostly rich town, if you are black or poor, and you get ticketed for speeding or god forbid drunk driving, your name gets in the police log section of the newspaper.

If you are wealthy and white, the police log says a stop was made and a motorist was ticketed, but no names are used.

They couldn't be more obvious about this bias.



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189,570 My in-laws are extremely liberal.  I'm the only "conservative" at their family gatherings.  I'm not even that conservative.  I'm a little right of center, but I can be socially liberal.  But they're way off to the left in their political views.  Whatever the Democratic Party tells them to think, they think.  I love it when they start talking about politics and try to bring me into it because I've been an analyst for the last 30 years.  It's my job to separate fact from bullshit, and I've gotten quite good at it.  They try to throw talking points at me, and more often than not they get a well reasoned response that sinks them.  Now they keep quiet when they come to my house.



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189,569 my brother went to prison for a year for armed robbery but my parents still treat him as the favored son. whatever. i stopped caring. enjoy your twisted criminal lives. i'm outta here.



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189,568 566 - I know what you are going through. As the only Liberal in the sea of family ultra-conservative viewpoints, it's all ok if I argue the point, but I have grown weary of sitting in the middle of a Christian Revival Tent Celebration.... there is no win for me, so I do what you are doing. My responses are usually - "thank you for the invite,but I will not be able to attend, enjoy yourselves".... end



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189,567 565; have you tried changing your diet?



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189,566 My in-laws are fucking HORRIBLE. The last time I visited my husband's ultra-evangelical sister tried to start this big abortion debate with me. I declined to say anything because I don't think these kinds of discussions are appropriate at what should be a pleasant family event.  

This woman would NOT shut up. She went on and on at me about the evils of abortion even though I hadn't said anything. She kept talking all through that lunch until finally I got up and left the table. They weren't satisfied with my non-response, so they ALL took up the topic of abortion with me all that weekend.  What are your views?  Don't you think it's a sin?  Don't you love children?  We're concerned that you aren't Catholic -- don't you love Jesus?

Fuck that noise. Not only have I never had an abortion, I don't even have a uterus anymore since I had a therapeutic hysterectomy some years back. (None of them know that.)  But I'm never visiting those people again. I won't buy a fucking plane ticket to get harangued for a full 48+ hours about their politics and religion.

Meanwhile my husband watched football and drank heavy with the men and didn't pay any attention to his ultraconservative relatives sweating me every fucking second. Thanks, honey.

He just told me that our presence is requested at some cousin's fourth kid's baptism. I told him to go have fun and give everyone my love. He's flabbergasted.  

I WIN!!!



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189,565 I smell bad. It's not BO. It's not farting. It's not bad breath. There is something in my body chemistry  that makes my flesh give off this sour odor. No amount of scrubbing or deodorant makes it better. It's built into me and oozes out of my flesh and there seems to be nothing I can do about it. I constantly leave my home and office windows open. In the summer it's fine. In the winter people come into my freezing space and think I'm nuts for having the window open. Believe me, the alternative of smelling up the room is much worse.



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189,564 My wife is under the impression that I'm responsible for everything bad that happens to her. If she wanted to go for run, but it's raining, she's angry with me. If she wanted to go to a movie, but it's sold out, it's my fault. If she is driving to her mother's, but she gets stuck in traffic, it's my fault. I have nothing to do with these things. But she needs to be angry at someone and I'm a very convenient target. I need to get away form this woman. She weighs me down.



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189,563 #559 I get that too. My old office I would lock the door and then my new office had no lock, so I put a 'Please Do Not Disturb until 1pm (or whatever time my lunch period ended.  If that fails, cover your food and start fake coughing that should make them run. Good luck!



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189,562 I can feel a depressive episode setting in. It sucks, because my last one lasted for 3 whole weeks. It's like a shade is pulled down over your eyes, and everything you see that looks beautiful lacks any feeling, like a delicious looking meal that has no taste. You'll still eat it because it's sustenance and the world keeps turning, but the entire action becomes increasingly empty. That's just a little part of it.

On the bright side, I have good friends behind me who know how I feel, and who are there to support me. I'm also getting better at getting through this. Suffer through it, and it'll be over eventually.

I've found that reading is one of the best remedies for a bad head space. If you're in someone else's world, your problems genuinely do go away. And I've got lots of books in the queue that I haven't read yet. So that's something



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189,561 I got some Vicodin, beer, marijuana and snacks.  I'm going to call in sick at work today and spend all weekend getting fucked up and watching movies. Life's good!😁



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189,560 In love there is no truth - only layers of lies. There are the lies we tell the outside to put up appearances, the lies we tell each other to maintain the status quo, and the lies we tell ourselves to get through the day and to sleep at night.



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189,559 Nobody wants you to come into their office or workspace while they're eating and you're not. It is extremely awkward to chew and swallow and try to be neat and silent and further, actually enjoy, a meal when someone else is sitting across the table and just wants to talk while the other person is eating. Wait 10 minutes. It's not that hard. You are making the other person extremely self-conscious.

I cannot tell you the number of times somebody comes into where I am eating my lunch in silence (with my door closed and the lights off) with nobody else around, and plops themselves down across from me to hang out.  Do they really not notice that I completely stop eating my lunch? This often goes on for my entire lunch break.  I love my work friends and they keep me from going crazy, but this is just common courtesy. Either bring your food so it's not awkward, or just wait a few minutes.



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189,558 I'm choking on my own possessions.  The time has come to sell some, donate some, trash some.  Empty the closets!  Lighten the load!
  -- M/70+



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189,557 I've got problems, yes, but I'm breathing an extra sigh of relief. Tomorrow is a new day. The weight is gone.



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189,556 I hope history repeats itself.

In the 60s, we had insufferably self-righteous hippies burning the flag, screaming about how America sucks, and yelling "peace, love, and togetherness" while spitting on Vietnam vets as they came home from war.

So by the time my generation came along--coming of age in the 70s--everyone was sick to death of all that shit. Our motto could be summed up as, "Fuck 'em all, let's party!"

Now we have insufferably self-righteous Antifas burning the flag, screaming about how America sucks, and yelling "Love trumps hate" while simultaneously calling for the death of cops AND THEIR FAMILIES.

So, if we're lucky, by the time the next generation comes up, we'll all be sick to death of all the bullshit again, and we'll kick 'em to the curb and start the party.

Hurry up 2020!



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189,555 My husband's family hates me.. I'm not the daughter in law they wanted for their son because I'm not submissive enough or "ladylike" enough. I'm ok with how they feel but the part that bothers me is that they are poisoning my husband and what he thinks about me. I can't help but feel trapped.. I wish I could run away from everything.



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189,554 I'm so fucked up. The last relationship I was in, we loved each other very much, could talk for hours, had a great time together, but he slapped me from time to time and was controlling when it came to sex. And in the end he was talking to other girls, the same reason I broke up with him the first time. Well since then, the two guys I liked, nothing happened with them, they liked me and then strung me along and flaked. and the latest who pursued me, he has a girl. He's my friend for years, had this crush on me apparently. I saw him with his girl so I'm not going through with it. It felt weird as hell. There was always an attraction but when he said these things to me, I started liking him more. Can't do it tho. So it makes me think of my ex, is that all I'm good for? A side chick or in a relationship with an abuser? I start thinking maybe I deserved getting slapped and talked down to. Maybe I'm not good enough to be with someone who would make me their one and only and be good to me. It's just one of those nights...having a pity party for myself...



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189,553 I've been watching the TV show "The Wire" on DVD. It's about drug gangs in Baltimore. The characters speak inner city ghetto slang. I've watched so many episodes in a single week that it's messing with my mind. My husband walks in the door and without thinking about it, I say, "What up nigga?" I'm a white soccer mom from Massachusetts. LOL.



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189,552 I wonder if asian pussies are small too. That would be worth looking into.



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189,551 I remember my mother crying on her 30th birthday. I was 9 years old and could not, for the life of me, understand how on earth someone could cry on their birthday—the best day of year! I tried to comfort her and told her not to cry, but she was inconsolable. It was so bewildering to me.

I'm turning 30 in two days.

I understand now, Mom. I feel like crying, too.



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189,550 My little boy was playing a game that had a lot of Christmas music in it.  I had a sad thought - one day decades from now he'll be my age, sitting next to his Christmas tree in the dark at Christmas time, listening to Christmas music by himself, feeling sad that I'm no longer around.  Like I did after my parents died.



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189,549 I've noticed something about Asian women.  The middle class Asian women date only white guys.  The working class Asian women only date black and brown guys.  I wonder what that means?



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189,548 I drank like a fish from the time I was 19 to 42.  I didn't know it at the time, but it was from severe PTSD.  The amount could vary.  Some years I was getting drunk 4 times, some years I got drunk 50 times.  It was a lot.  I liked the escape it gave me.  Then one day when I was 42, I sat down and wrote out all the horrific experiences I went through.  And just like that, my urge to drink stopped almost completely.  I was still overindulging, but it was only once every six to eight months, like at weddings and the occasional holiday.  Then when I was 45 I had to stop completely from diabetes.  I haven't had a sip of booze in 7 years.  It feels great.



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189,547 Asian penises are very small.



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189,546 Soooo,  someone was looking at OkCupid and saw your boyfriend's profile  there. What happened man? Remember when you told me how you have never been so happy in all of your life? Remember how  you said you had found true happiness for the first time in many years? Remember how you said you had it all figured out, how supportive and understanding he was?

Maybe you guys can still work it out.  I mean, I don't know anything about your situation other than how great you said it was. Don't give up on him so easily would be my advice.



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189,545 I fucking love alcohol. I love it more than anything.



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189,544 Sometimes I wish I was a pumpkin.



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189,543 I hate stupidity. I have no patience for people who do or say stupid things. I ask the secretary to make copies. She asks me which copy machine she should use. Yo ditz, I don't give a flying fuck what copy machine you use. Use your brain and figure it out!



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189,542 I just bought a snowball pumpkin. It has a long neck and a bulbous top on it that is about the size of a very large lemon. Tonight I am going to put it up my pussy.  I didn't know these fucking things existed. I'm so fucking wet right now over knowing this thing will be inside me and I know that I will be stretching and cumming and wiggling my hips and open pussy all over that fat head and SO glad I can feel  this full. God I cannot wait to feel such raw pleasure!



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189,541 I've figured out how to steal from Wal Mart self check out. I don't "look" like a shop lifter, so they never suspect anything. I usually go in early in the morning before work (6am) and I figure out which items I'm going to steal and which I'm going to pay for. I will have two of something, and will scan one, but put both in the bag, or I'll have two things in my hand, scan one, and drop both in the bag. It's so easy. It's saved me money.



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189,540
I love living in Los Angeles. There is never a dull moment here.



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189,539 Hey miserable husband , you need to put your foot down and get on charge on managing your money , create a budget for the household including clothes money, entretaiment, and emergency.  If you have a share account just keep very a little and move the rest on accounts she doesn't have any access to it .  I let my husband take care of all the finances, he always sets money aside for entertainment, clothes and other fun staff like vacations but we stay on our budgets and it's very rare when we go over.  My husband has accounts to cover emergency and savings that I don't touch , there's one to cover basic expenses like phone bill, cable, mortgage etc.. if you are the breadwinner I dot see why she should have a problem ,  with you taking care of the staff.



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189,538 505 - You rock and you deserve all that's good in this world. I hope you stay well, you stay in the job you like, and one day you can look back and say FUCK YOU to everyone who doubted you, shunned you, said no to you, said loser to you... Hey people.....THAT'S WHAT THIS COUNTRY IS ABOUT.



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189,537 I never liked the taste of alcohol, it tastes bitter to me.  I have shared this information with a couple of drunks.  One of them, an ex-coworker, actually told me that it actually does not taste good.  Why is he an alcoholic then?  Although, he said it's the buss he liked.  He is an alcoholic on recovery.  And you know what's ironic?  I have an uncle who was full blown alcoholic.  He would get drunk to the point of vomiting and passing out.  My mother would told me he would comeback after a party and promised her he would not drink anymore.  One week later, it was the same.  Now, in his 70s, he is suffering from health issues, he does not have a prostate anymore, and a couple of months ago, he had to have surgery to have stones taken out from his bladder.  He basically could not pee.



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189,536 I'm out of words to describe my disappointment in being married. I came home from work. My wife is wearing more new workout clothes. I'm sure it cost more than the money I made today. It's a never ending story with her. She does nothing all day except work out and buy herself things. I am miserable in the marriage. I AM MISERABLE.



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189,535 It makes me sad to hear the stories of girls being molested. I molested my teenage sister many years ago when I was a teen. I molested another teenage girl too. I am ashamed. There is no excuse for what I did. I'd like to think I'm a better person now. To all you women who have been touched inappropriately, I'm sorry. I was one of the villains. At least know I regret what happened and my mind has punished me.



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189,534 years ago I had this friend who got married to this little fire cracker of a girl. She was a little ball of fire, kind of annoying but hot. One night I was at the bar and she showed up with some girl friends, we started talking, then the music came on, I love to dance so we started dancing, next thing I know, she grinding her crotch on me, so i go with it, next thing I know we're grinding pretty hard, if we had been naked I would have been balls deep in her. Anyway, we ended up leaving the bar and going to this house party, were they had 'dancing' we ended up continuing the the lambada all night, to the point I was convinced I was going to blow a load of cum right in my pants. It was so hot and heavy, we weren't even trying to pretend we were dancing anymore, we were just in the middle of the crowd just humping the shit out of each other, it got so bad we left the room and went into the bathroom and just started grinding crotches like there was no tomorrow. I never kissed her or touched her pussy or unbuttoned one botton on her OR my pants. I never did cum in my pants, which to this day surprises me. ANYWAY, that was over 15yrs ago, since then, she's divorced my friend she quite drinking met a nice guy got re-married and has two kids, good job house white picket fence blah blah blah, we are friends on facebook and every once in awhile I see her and we talk, but since she doesn't drink I never see her out. A Few weeks back I saw her out though and I noticed she had a beer in her hand, it always surprised me when people get sober, then go back to drinking, it's kind of disappointing to me, but at the end of the day it's none of my business. Well, about a week ago I get a facebook message from her asking me where around town, if any, is there a good place to go dancing. I didn't think anything of it, I just told her of a couple  of spots, she thanked me and said "She knew I would know" then she said "we should got dancing together" like "this weekend"........I was like...oook. She almost has an 'urgency' about getting together to dance, I have no idea what's going on with her or her husband, I have a serious gf now and don't want to mess that up...but hey, it's only dancing ;-)



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189,533 There are many moments in my life where I wish I could have been my own mother. I would have loved me and protected me from everything. My own mother would have too, if she survived long enough



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189,532 I really am so sick of struggling. I was oyal fucked over by my ex financially. I refinanced my car to pull cash out to buy him a truck, i refinanced a credit card to increase my limit to fix the truck, i closed out my 401k to put money down on a house we bought together and boout him a dirt bike. He decided the grass was greener and cheated on me and got her pregnant then we had a fight about it and beat the shit out of me. so i moved 2,000 miles away to try and start over, better myself. I found a job and an apartment but i'm still stuck with all this debt and it's really starting to scare me that i cant make the payments and buy food. every paycheck i got negatve in my account. and it's not  like i'm going out and spending all my money on random shit for myself. i have bills. my money goes to all my bills. car $325 rent $600 gas/electric $80 cc1 $200 cc2 $50 cc3 $50 student loans $120 medical collection $300. i once had a really good credit score and was good with my financials but they've gotten away from me. I dont get to go grocery shopping for this week to try and avaid a negative account because my bank charges me $25 everytime i do go negative. I wish there was some easy solution for my financial issues, no i dont have the body of a person who could strip and trading sexual favors just makes me feel like sick to my stomach to think about and i hate asking for help from my parents. Thank God i dont have kids of my own. My dog has food and thats all that is important right now. Just wish someone would give me 20K that's all i need, that's less than a car to some people. Dont get me wrong though I am so very grateful for everything that i do have right now, a place to live, a job, clothes on my back, my health, a family that loves and supports me, my sweet puppers and my amazing best friend who has lent me her car until i can buy my own (which i have no money to do and she needs the car back today) i just dont want to complain to anyone about this so that's why i'm putting it here. I know that it will be ok just not right now it's not. I also suffer from anxiety (diagnosed when i was 2) so that's not helping. I just feel fucked over right now for trying to do the right thing and being a good person and this whole starting over thing is really tearing me own, but I believe that everything happens for a reason, dont really know what i'm suppose to be learning right now, maybe to be more grateful for the things i have an dthe things I have taken for granted in the past or maybe this is some sort of karma that i deserve from something i did and didn't realize it at the time that it was a karma thing?? SMH i dont know i just need financial help or a sugardaddy. I'm ok with a sugardaddy situation on this one.



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189,531 It bothers me a lot that the only time I was molested was in front of my brother. He didn't notice his friend's dad slipping his hand under my shirt. He was too busy playing videogames. Before the sicko even started to grope me, something in his expression made me very scared. This was a man who was 45, and looked 60 because of smoking. I tried to alert my brother, but when he huffed at me, annoyed, and said "What do you need to say that's so important?" I didn't know how to verbalize what was going on. So he said "Don't interrupt me again if you have nothing to say." and kept on. And I was groped. He pushed me down on the bed, trying to get on top of me. His son said something like, "Hey, should we leave the room?" in a joking way. When it was over and I left, my brother got mad at me for passing in front of the TV to get to the door.

And he wonders why I hold onto the past...I doubt he knows that even happened.

I couldn't tell anyone but my best friend, and the first thing she did was yell at me for not speaking up. But I tried...



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189,530 Yay! I'm glad to know that I'm not the only person who doesn't like to drink before i stop completely, i only used to drink maybe 4 times a year and out of the 4 only used to get wasted once a year ( New Years or my birthday) after I got pregnant and had my son (at 24) and I just never drink again , I don't smoke or do drugs either but I wish I could quick my addiction to sugar .

37 " boring f" that doesn't like alcohol.



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189,529 505 Good for you. I'm happy for you. It sounds like you have worked very hard and it is paying off. You should be very proud of yourself. That's the American way. That's how most Americans make it in this country. Sure some are handed everything. born rich. Most of us though do it just like you are. Welcome to the club.



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189,528 511 HaHa I feei the same way. The only thing that stops me is that I'm not as tough as I used to be. I'm not as fast as I used to be. I can't hit has hard as I used to. Other wise I'd be kicking someones ass on a daily basis. Oh well Sucks to get old. HA Ha. I just keep smilin anyway, and do my ass kickin in my dreams at night.



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189,527 I live in a State that is in the North East and is in a financial mess with no budget, high taxes people and business leaving in droves. Of course it's a Democrat run State. My wife's entire family is Democrat. They see nothing wrong with just raising taxes to cover the deeping crisis.



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189,526 I had a college professor who wanted me to give him a blow job. I didn't do it. I should have reported him but I didn't do that either. It gets complicated as a student. How do I report a prof who is then going to give me a grade in his class? Or even if he was barred, his friends, the other professors would give me grades. Also I was on a scholarship. Do I jeopardize being left with no money to pay for college? I said nothing because I had no choice. I'll bet the professor knew he had me in a tough spot and that he could get away with it.



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189,525 I don't know how people drink alcohol. The last time I drank, I felt like death the next day. I really thought I could die. I have never had a drink of anything since. That was 25 years ago. I haven't ever missed it. I'm perfectly happy and feeling good about myself without the need for alcohol. I feel a heck of a lot healthier too. No one will hear me on this, but I think people shouldn't drink. Life is better without it.



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189,524 There are more left-leaning voters in this country then right-leaning voters. (Many more) The left is grossly underrepresented because of gerrymandered districts, the Electoral College, and the apportionment of Senators. Isn't this a form of Socialism? Isn't this a redistribution of power away from the "haves" to the "have-nots?" It's just a matter of time before the tyranny of progress sweeps all this provincial red-state nonsense under the rug of history.



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189,523 The truth is with Electricity, Magnetism, and Gravity, we don't know much about them. We only know them by their effects on nature.



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189,522 The NRA does NOT support your Second Amendment rights. The NRA doesn't give a shit about your Second Amendment rights.

The NRA supports the rights of GUN MANUFACTURERS to sell their product with as few restrictions as possible. It's all about sales.



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189,521 Guns kill 13,000 innocent people a year, abortion kills over 900,000. More innocent people are killed by abortion in a week than by guns in a year! Oh and if black lives really matter why don't they focus on the 900 innocent black babies killed everyday instead of the 285 killed a year (most justified btw) killed by cops. Really?!? Its simple math again.



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189,520 If you don't want to get pregnant, you should consider getting an IUD. I've had one for about 4 years now, and I've never been happier. Granted, I didn't get it until I knew for sure I wouldn't want a child in the next 5 years. It's also very important to know that while it's 99.9% effective, if you do get pregnant by any chance, you have to have an abortion.

So really, you have to be certain that you don't want a baby in the next 5 years. But I'd consider it if I were you. Save yourself the worry.



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189,519 I've gotten my life down to a good balance of being productive during the week and being a trashy mess during the weekends. As long as one doesn't bleed into the other it's fine. No missing work because of benders, no extra-curriculars on the weekend. Weekends are for catching up on sleep, alone time, and the sort of mind-numbing intoxication that stops you from thinking for a couple hours.

It's a good place, because I used to be a mess, drinking myself drunk every night of the week, getting to work late every day and smelling like booze. At least now I've found a way to function



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189,518 Here is what I need to hear. I don't know what you are or are going through. But I BELIEVE you and in yourself because I have gone through it too. Losing my dignity to arguments I was not understood in and deciding just because humble pie was yanked out of my throat I could not be humble. Hearing no truth in silence means you have to ask questions SEEing the truth and letting THEM be pointing it out. I know my own truth and i am honest and i hate how i feel when i try to prove myself or cant accept that i am not yet forgiven by people i want it from. have a lot to be thankful for but it's unfortunately not that I don't have a job. I have one yet only want to merely feel like I am looking for one and can do my art. It's people who have given me the opportunity to free myself from unfair things that I love and live with. It's that I AM OKAY. I can make this work. I can do it I can be humble and accept what I am not. I can accept a love returned to me yet not in ways. I have new memories every day to hold onto laughter love communication. Remember to love and know that people go without who deserve to love. It's a scale where your understanding of someone else lifts them high. Not wanting to make ppl feel like what they are not.. And you always fall again and feel not understood but you ARE. I know I can keep my job if I just SLEEP even when u want to be searching for answers from the past that were stolen and no longer can help me. Don't let it keep you out of focus. Change your goal. Your friends matter not your enemies. If you need new friends you can find them. Know what you want. Know you will die we all will but they can't take your truth.



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189,517 Something I've learned at 55:

If you wake up in the middle of the night and find you can't get to bed, jerk off.  You'll go right back to sleep.  

I've saved hundreds of hours of sleep with that.



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189,516 Last time I've checked sweet heart is a  career woman is someone who has already obtained a job and is working. Focused on progressing in her current job as she is working. Not someone who label's themselves one while parents paved their way for private school and after graduating never made them work, but instead has paid their bills, gave them cars give them spending money. Is an adult that's 30 yet never obtained a job longer than a year. Is an adult but still currently lives with parents. Is not a prime example of a career woman. Nope, sorry! I'm sure you'd love to think that about yourself sweet heart. Me and my husband knows the truth. He uses you just like you do your parents. ;)



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189,515 Masturbation has been on my "to do" list for a month. I just have not found the time. Maybe this weekend. Having sex with another human being is also on my "to do" list. It has been a long time. I don't know, maybe 3 years. I work too hard!

[31, f, career woman!]



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189,514 I think love comes in many forms, like when you first meet a guy/girl and you instantly feel a connection , let's say those two felt the same way  fall in love and got married but eventually the feeling goes away , people settle into routines , have kids, and as the years  pass by they become more like roommates, the lust , the spark is gone but you still care and love the person just on a different way .   They start getting annoying about trivial , insignificant staff like who left the dirty dishes , oh who forgot to bring the milk after work , or they disagree over politics or how to discipline the kids.  Eventually people forgets what made them fall in love with the person on the first place  and fall out of love and stay because they feel comfortable with the person .   Sometimes I look back at guys that I dated it and was in love with them but when I look back I wonder what I was thinking? Those feelings are gone and wouldn't like even being friends with the person . The love I had it's gone , replaced by indifference.



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189,513 Life is going pretty well. I hope I don't get pregnant.



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189,512 I don't believe in love anymore. Especially couples that look happy in public. I assume they've got serious skeletons in the closet behind those picture perfect smiles and pristine Facebook profiles. I don't know anyone who postures that way who is actually happy. Go ahead. Ask how many tries it took to get the perfect selfie. Ask how much fighting happened immediately after the pic was taken. Ask whether the couple that posts about #datenight actually sleep in the same bed afterwards. Ask whether they actually spent that date talking to each other instead of networking on their phones.



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189,511 work is unbearable.  these people are total assholes and it just doesn't ever end.

I totally understand why people lose their shit at work.  

I'm trying not to - I'm really really trying.

Two more days til a three day weekend please pray that I don't beat the shit out of these assholes the next two days. I'm too old for jail.



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189,510 I haven't had a care free day in decades. There is always something pending or something worrying me. I wish I could relax.



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189,509 Don't tell other people to say hi to me. And why would you even be thinking of me? You got what you wanted.



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189,508 I caught feelings. Damn him.



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189,507 My high school had a student smoking lounge. Times have changed.



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189,506 She is just another tropical depression.



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189,505 498, It's certainly not unpopular to love your country, there are just a lot of people disagreeing with that right now. Also from your tone of voice and what you said, you sound like a middle-aged white man. Not saying it as an insult, but your demographic is the only one that has always benefited from the U.S.'s legislation, so it's no surprise you love it here so much.

Your point is moot anyway, because you seem to assume that I'm a middle aged welfare check cashing whiner, which isn't true. I've never even applied for welfare. I'm simply a 23 year old woman. I haven't lived at home since I was 18 and my family was evicted, and I've been working jobs since I was legally able to.

In the last 5 years I've gone from surfing peoples' couches and getting fired from jobs to having my own place, with a steady job that pays me more than what most of my friends make, owning everything I have in my house. I even got a few years of college in, and even that's an accomplishment because my parents told me last minute that they couldn't even pay my acceptance fee. All of this, I worked for, with no support whatsoever. I even have time to volunteer. So I know a thing or two about hard work.

Maybe you should take a better look at other peoples' perspectives before making assumptions.



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189,504 I'll take chubby any day over a fake phony miserable purger.



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189,503 One of the great moments of my life:

I was in college, smoking a cigarette in front of one building before longboarding off to Greek Mythology class. My GM class was in a building about 1000ft away, still within eyesight, but with the twists and turns inside the building it was still a solid 10 minute walk to get into the lecture hall.

10 minutes before class starts, my professor sees me as he's walking to class himself (I sat in the front row every period, and was also the only student who always brought a longboard to class, so he knew who i was). He stops and says, "You'd better get off to class, it's going to start in a few minutes." And I told him, "It's fine, I'll make it." and he gave me that oooookay that means "I tried to tell you..." and walked off.

4 minutes before class is supposed to start, I throw my cigarette on the ground, pull on my bag and skate off to class. There's a shortcut if you go through the parking lot that leads right to my classroom, so I took that.

And I shit you not, my professor and I walked into class at the *exact* same time. There were 2 sets of doors; he came in one and I came in the other. As we walked down the aisle I gave him a cheeky little wave, and when we got to the front he told me he was pleasantly surprised. We both knew I loved the class so he was happy I wasn't bullshitting him about getting in on time.

Just one of those perfect timing moments that fucking ruled.



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189,502 I work with a bunch of EastCoast liberals. Alt-left. NeoSocialists. For the most part they are good people, but I refuse to talk politics with any of them. My secret? I think they are 99.9% wrong. Their agendas are filled with more "feel good" politics than real life.

* No, black lives matter isn't a good group. They are racist assholes. I refuse to support them or you.
* Yes, Americans should keep their guns. New gun laws wouldn't have stopped any of the recent mass shootings.
* Trump is doing more good for America than Obama ever did.
* No, there is NOT a gender-based pay gap. Educate yourselves and see the truth. It's not true at our company, nor any other I've worked at, as well as the rest of them, but for some reason they think it's still a thing.
* As a veteran, I am personally insulted by the asshole racists in the NFL, and I WILL NOT give you a damn penny to your stupid support group. As a matter of fact, even asking me to support that shit insults me further. Fuck them, and fuck you too.
* No, we shouldn't have open borders. No, we shouldn't freely give citizenship to everyone who illegally comes here and commits fraud and identity theft to get a job, and we shouldn't give welfare to those who can't be bothered to break laws to get a job.
* OH HELL NO we don't need safe spaces, you idiots. Welcome to real life.

Overall, I work with mostly pleasant people. When the emails and group chats involve work items, we get along great. But the bad part is when things get slow and they want to talk politics; that's when they show their true colors and turn into blithering idiots. Fucking mindless drones parroting talking points from some late-night talk show. Outside of work topics, I don't think they have enough brain cells to function in real life.

Whew, I think I may be done. This is just the BS from today. I don't know how much longer I can keep my mouth shut. As is true across most corporate environments, while they say they support diversity and inclusion, that only means that it's only applicable when you agree with the liberal alt-left thought police. With Google as evidence, any deviation from their version of being politically correct is thought of as "hate" and can get your ass fired. Fuck those liberal idiots.



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189,501 Why people cannot believe one person is capable to do such thing , because he was financially well off , wealthy people commits crimes too, because his age , I'm sure there are plenty of retired that have kill before , because he never had a running with the law most physopaths can blend in there's a reason it takes a lot of years to caught some serial killers.  Just look at the zodiac killer he was a member of a community, the guy belong to a church and was a good neighbor.  This guy didn't snap , it took months , maybe years to plan this whole thing , I'm sure if this was a Muslim people wouldn't be on such denial and wonder why he did it.



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189,500 I guessing most don't know he video taped himself doing the shooting and breaking out of windows.



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