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190,099 We will never bump into each other casually in the street, because you live in a different country than me, and that makes me feel so incredibly small. :{



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190,098 When you were mine, I loved you, but I was naive, and didn't love you as much as you deserved. After I cheated on you, my life flipped upside down. Nothing felt right anymore, I hated myself, I was at my lowest point ever to imagine and allow something like that to happen. I will never stop being sorry for it, and I will never forgive myself. I lost the only confidence I had, and killed the relationship that I wanted for the rest of my life.
It breaks my hurt. I keep breaking my heart by loving you when I know you deserve better.



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190,097 I fucked her in the ass at lunchtime. Then she went back to work. No shower. I loved thinking how my sperm was swimming around in her for the afternoon.



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190,096 Romantic movies make me want to cry because I know I'll never have a love like what you see on screen



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190,095 I tried to sit through a couple typical movies with her to make her happy, yet again I could barely understand the content.The psychosis makes so much that is so simple, simply incomprehensible. And impossible to enjoy.

She is so old. After she dies I will struggle but most likely lose the little she leaves to me because my body and my mind are controlled by the others, the otherness, the other worlds, the alternate timelines. I wander. Sometimes I can't leave my bed. Self care is not possible. I will probably die alone in the woods or the streets. Or worse.

I take my pills.



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190,094 Can't wait to fuck her husband tomorrow. She's so so stupid.



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190,093 I'll never understand why people are content being one of the 70,000 fans in a Stadium, rather than the Star onstage.



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190,092 I love the feeling of my balls making sperm.



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190,091 I absolutely love shopping for office supplies. It's probably my favourite kind of shopping.



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190,090 No matter how many times I get my heart broken I will alwasy believe in love because I love, love. It makes me happy to see others in love, I just hope one day I can have that too.



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190,089 I like it when I find someone like him, who looks dominant but is really submissive. It adds to the feeling of accomplishment when we're fucking and I feel the dynamic, that *I* am the one fucking *him*, not the other way around.

It gives me so much pleasure to see his eyes roll back into his head in ecstasy during sex. And how he's not shy about moaning to me about how good my pussy feels. He lets me have his body, and I'm very loving and sweet to him. When we fuck it's like he's losing his mind, and I'm in complete control.

His sex style is very intimate, for someone I haven't known for very long. That turns me on even more about him, that he immerses himself in sex, instead of being so concerned with the orgasm that he rushes through it, like SO many other guys. I think I'll keep this one around for a while...



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190,088 I like my job, but I'm getting really frustrated with the atmosphere there. Management keeps making horrible decisions that have decreased our overall efficiency by about 30%, and then they bitch because we "can't get the work done". Nobody ever fixes a problem, they just put a Band-Aid on it and keep on trying to limp to the finish line. We have more Band-Aids on stuff than the freaking Red Cross!

And the other two shifts, never put coolant or oil in the machines, leave the area a wreck, everything they do they get something wrong and I have to fix it before I can even start doing my own stuff. I've told the shift lead about this about ten thousand times and no one ever does anything about it.

I'm really tired of being the only one who does things. I feel like I'm everybody else's patsy and servant. And I'm sick of stressing out about shit they do. Last night I was just so pissed, I didn't do any housekeeping stuff either. Fuck it. Let the machines go dry. Let stuff sit there undone because I didn't feel like doing it. Let the area stay a mess. Let them figure out how to change a tool when some idiot has stripped out a screw (yet again). Let them set up for the next job. I'm sick of it.

Several people have already left because of these issues, and they can't hire or keep any new employees because it's gotten so bad. Well, I've gotten two calls from skilled trades placement agencies in the past week. If I find something, I'm out of there. Let them keep rearranging the deck chairs. I'm jumping ship.



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190,087 What kind of idiot name their network FBI surveillance van, seriously most likely wannabe hacker , loser who has no life and nothing better to do than just park on the library to use their free wifi and harass people.  Wannabes like you are not intelligent enough to get recruited by the FBI, keep dreaming.



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190,086 You cannot drink through your butthole. Not coffee, not alcohol. These substances need to be processed by your liver, which will filter out a whole lot of it. The unfiltered substance will most likely kill you. Hope everybody's having a nice day



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190,085 I want to befriend a large group of people. Just have everyone standing in a huge circle (about 100 people). Standing, and staring at all the people around them, gathered randomly.

Then I want us all to stay together for an eight week period. During this time, we would start to understand the kind of people that surround us (especially strangers).
I want to see if it will bring some humanity back. There is no sense of community, security, or friendly faces anymore. It saddens me.



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190,084 My boyfriend of seven years just broke up with me. He wants marriage and kids, I do not. We talked about it a lot. He finally said he couldn't wait for me. I understand. I wish him well.

My secret is that I'm sort of glad this happened. I love him. I always will, but I know he loved me more than I loved him. I felt so bad. I wanted to love him more, but deep down I know we were never going to be forever. I'm glad he pulled the trigger because I never would have.
I'll miss him. We were good together. But really I need someone who will accept me for me.

Plus, I need someone who is more aggressive in bed. He was too polite. I need someone to spank me, pull my hair, tell me what to do. I wanted to be more adventurous. Blow you in the car. Fuck in a bathroom stall. Push me against the wall and kiss me hard. Bend me over the kitchen table and give it to me. He would never do any of those things. I asked. Repeatedly.

I know I'll be ok. I'll get through this. I hope he finds someone to give him what he wants. I'll be just fine. I'm excited and nervous about the next part of my life. I'm in the hands of the universe. I can't wait to see what's going to happen.



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190,083 You want to know why I stopped talking to you, even looking at you at work? Here is the reason: I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU. I've been in love with you for years. I've been struggling SO HARD with my feelings for you all this time, and never told you, for a very simple reason: I know you DON'T care for me. And telling you my feelings would accomplish nothing but humiliate me, at work, and I don't trust that you would keep it to yourself. No, you'd tell your friends, and they would tell the whole building, and I'd be a laughingstock. I'm trying to hold on to what little dignity I have left here.

So I'm not talking to you and I'm not looking at you and I'm trying to avoid you as much as possible because I'm trying to GET OVER YOU.

You have no fucking idea how hard it is, knowing you are so miserable in your marriage, so miserable with your life, wanting to love you and give you everything you want, and knowing you don't want me. You want to be cared for, needed, desired... you just don't want that from me. You need someone better looking, more interesting, more witty... I know. That's not me. That will never be me.

It drives me insane working with you every day... wanting to reach out for you, to talk to to you, to laugh with you like we used to all the time. I hate this silence between us. I hate being so distant from you. But it's the only way I know of to keep from falling apart. I want to tell you so much. But I never will, because I already know... there's no point. It will only make things worse.



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190,082 High. Ahhh, better than pills.



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190,081 189946 - I'm MGTOW because i refuse to accept punishment for the behavior of the small percentage of men that are currently assholes to women or the larger percentage of men in the past who were assholes because they didn't know any better.  Women may have equal rights, but they sure as hell don't have equal responsibilities.  I'm taking a page from the female playbook and looking out for number one.



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190,080 I would take a sicklingy nice and sweet over an asshat . Who cares if those people might seem "incensire" or " fake better than being rude and a jerk.



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190,079 I have the opposite problem, but with the same end result. I try too hard to be nice to people. I want them to like me. In the end I come across as sickeningly sweet and insincere. People aren't too fond of me either.



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190,078 If you only knew the extent to which I wanna screw you



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190,077 I have a problem where I can't control what I say. I blurt things out in momentary anger.  Someone will mess something up and without thinking I'll say "You're a moron." I say it with a mean tone.

These are people I work with. I shouldn't say things like that. But I speak and two seconds later I realize I shouldn't have said it.

It's like a milder form of tourettes sydrome.

Needless to say, the people I work with aren't too fond of me.



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190,076 The soundtrack of my secret dreams includes some of the most amazing musicians and bands that ever made music:
Genesis, Yes, Crimson, Rush, Floyd, Zappa, Moodies, Proco, Tull.

Lamb Lies Down.... a monster masterwork.

With some noteable exceptions, IMO, the entire catalogue of popular music from 1978 onwards could be disposed into the garbage dump.



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190,075 Ugggggggghhhhhhh I got married
I am soooo stupid



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190,074 When I was a kid, my dad would lock my mother and I in the house if he had to go anywhere alone.  We were banned from going anywhere without him.



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190,073 My music tastes are still stuck in like 2011. Face it, the music was way frigging better. Great for parties. I turn on the radio today and don't recognize a god damn single song.



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190,072 I use to think turtle necks were so sexy... lmao



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190,071 My wife insists that I wear earphones when I listen to videos on the computer



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190,069 I fucking hate pumpkin spice!



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190,068 My boyfriend likes those countdown videos on YouTube where they count down interesting things about a topic or facts or whatever. I don't tell him this but I hate those videos with a god damned passion. It's nonstop talking the entire video. Just yap yap yap. The speaker never slows down enough to take a breath. The constant barrage of words totally overwhelms me. (I have moderate/severe adhd and get overwhelmed easily.) It drives me nuts hearing this speaker drone on for 10 minutes NONSTOP. It's like god, shut up, just shut the fuck up.

This probably is really random but I had to suffer through 3 of those damn things before I made an excuse that I needed to go shower. How does anyone stand those stupid things??



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190,067 I want to move from New York to California. Perhaps SF because my company has an office there. But really, I want to move to Southern California... San Diego, Santa Monica, etc. So very, very chill.

I've never left New York though - so we'll see.



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190,066 I suddenly am finding myself deeply saddened by the 15 years I spent chasing what I thought would make me happy.  Drugs, women, booze, and especially all those extramarital trysts and the flirting I did.  None of that made me happy.  I'm sad because I now know how much happier my life would have been had I focused on the things that actually makes a person happy, like family and my relationships.  I wasted 15 years of my life substituting substances for happiness.  But I guess lessons are forever, and I'm glad I found this out only at the halfway point of my life.  I wasted 15 years instead of 50 years.  I should make the most of things from here on out.



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190,065 I'm getting my cat's ass shaved with my first paycheck. I'm sick and tired of seeing dingle berries hanging off her butt.



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190,064 I'm going to try to pour a little coffee in my butthole



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190,063 When I first started my career, I tolerated asshole bosses.  Being that I didn't know any better, I thought asshole bosses were the norm.  Bosses are supposed to lose their temper at you, question your intelligence, and blame their leadership problems on you, right?

25 years later, I'm out the door as soon as that first insult crosses the boss's lips.  Fuck those guys.



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190,062 I just want to work with nice people. I'd take a pay cut to work with nice people. I'm tired of dealing with these assholes where I work.



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190,061 I don't care anymore about catching AIDS. I'm old. If I become infected, old age will probably kill me first.



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190,060 My wife is a cannibal. She ate my soul. Some men marry their muse. Their wife inspires and encourages. Not my wife. She zaps my energy with her bullshit. I was so much more successful before I met her.



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190,059 190032, do it. it will be really hard and really scary but you should do it. you can always come back. I moved from Utah to New York, been here three months and i had only planned on moving since january. you can do it and you should. do it. it will change you for the better and if you're ambitious and put yourself out there to find a job you will get one. you can do it!



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190,058 In 2000, I had been trying unsuccessfully to quit chewing tobacco for years.  A buddy kicked the habit and told me his wife offered to give him a blowjob whenever he had an urge to dip.

I told my wife about it who informed me that I should want to quit for my family.

- M 46, writing this with a dip in my lip

P.S. Poopoo-ing... anal... I get it :)



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190,057 53 I'm the same way , worst part I'm a women . There's a reason I don't mind being on a sexless marriage and sleeping on separate bedrooms best part I don't miss sex , I think I'm become asexual.



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190,056 Silly, people thinking politicians have other than their own interests at heart. Don't be that person please.



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190,055 I cheated.

Sex disgusts me now.

I absolutely deserve it.



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190,054 I want to invite my mom, sis and bro and their families to Thanksgiving at my home. My husband was poopoo-ing the idea. He had a suggestion. He said if I did anal with him once a week until Thanksgiving, then he'd be in favor of inviting everyone.

Alrighty then. Thanksgiving will be at my home this year. My fam has no idea of the sacrifices I make for them. :)



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190,053 I lose interest in sex very quickly after sleeping with someone new.



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190,052 976, Ha, I know a guy by that name. He isn't the one who stabbed you--he's too old to be the one--but I could totally see him doing it.



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190,051 Health costs are destroying everyone. Soon I'm going to be paying more for health insurance than for rent. That's crazy. Where is the money going? Big pharma profits for sure. But I also see endless TV commercials for oddly named drugs. This is new. These expensive ads did not exist 10 years ago. Is it wise to even advertise drugs? Shouldn't the doctor decide what drugs you need. You shouldn't go into your doctor and tell him what drug to give you based on a TV commercial. That's silly. Stop the pharma ads and insurance costs will come down.



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190,050 I organized a coin drive for my child's classroom. Everyone was asked to bring in a handful of pennies, nickels, dimes and quarters from home. I figured every family has a bowl somewhere in the house filled with coins which will never be used, so why not give a handful to the school. It worked out pretty well. We ended up with about $80 which will be used for holiday parties. One thing though, some child, and I don't know which one, unwittingly brought in a handful of somewhat rare coins. There were buffalo nickels, mercury dimes, and silver quarters. I'm thinking a dad had a coin collection and this child helped himself. I'm waiting to see if any parent brings it up. Nothing so far. I don't think they realize what their child took. I'm feeling guilty as I write this. I should make an announcement to the parents.



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190,049 I'm so unhappy.



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190,048 I just want to go home to my kids & husband. I'm tired of traveling for work. I miss them so hard tonight.



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190,047 You often blame your family for the reason we are not together or ended, but really....it was your desire for men that you could never admit to...

I never understood that.  It is what it is.  You need a man. No big deal.  I understand.



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190,046 Take the chance. 15 years later I'm still in Boston and he's still out in L.A. Mine slipped through my fingers.  The what ifs kill me.



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190,045 I feel more like "myself" recently after making a concerted effort to distance myself from the news, social media, and just current events in general. Seems in this day and age, I can be informed and anxious or oblivious and mentally healthy. I'll choose the latter.



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190,044 190033 - Its not just "Obamacare". Keep watching.... the mandate will be gone and the insurance companies are already pushing prices through the roof.33% ever higher in other areas. Since there will no long be govt subsidies for the insurance companies, everyone but the uber uber rich and congress will suffer.



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190,043 I am about to do something illegal. If I get caught, my defense will be ignorance. I will tell them I didn't know it was illegal.



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190,042 My wife cheated on me. WHY AM I STILL IN THIS MARRIAGE? I have no valid answer. I should get the hell away from her. But here I still am, waking up next to her every morning. I hate her. I hate me.



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190,041 The pieces of my life are falling away like leaves. One small piece at a time. I think maybe it's a mercy.

I can't hear well anymore. On the rare occasions when people try to talk to me I usually can't quite catch all the words that they are saying. I try to interpolate from context but I always feel like I am not successful at it.

When I go out into the world I seem to be sliding along somehow, invisible and silent. I have trouble even believing that most of what I am seeing is real. I don't think I have any connection to it at all, as though I am not actually a human being, but only a mechanism wearing a human skin.

I can hardly taste my food anymore. I drank some milk the other day, and I was on my third glass before I finally realized that it was long past being soured. I only noticed because there were lumps in the bottom of the glass.

I don't think I am better than the world, I think I am just deficient. All the people around me seem to be authentically part of the stream of it, but I am not able to do that at all. I haven't dated in years, and I don't even miss it now. I couldn't imagine spending time with someone like that. I don't have the slightest idea what I could offer them. I don't even masturbate anymore.

It all makes me think of a pencil being sharpened. When I am done being whittled away, maybe that will be the end? I don't know. I lie in bed at night trying to imagine nonexistence, to dredge up some fear of it, but it doesn't bother me at all. I think I am ready to go.

I don't know why I turned out so badly. The thing I regret is how badly I will let everyone down who knew me. They all deserved better.

I thought typing this might be cathartic, but now it just sounds to me like bullshit whining, first world problems. Waaa waaa poor me. If I could get my shit together somehow everything could be fine. Oh well.



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190,040 One of the main figures who caused the 2007 world-wide economic meltdown, lives in a beautiful house in my town. I see him sometimes driving his fancy cars. He caused so much pain and damage to everyone else. I personally lost most of my 401k to his market manipulations. Yet he's still living the high life. Think about that next time you struggle to pay your mortgage. The bad guys really do win.



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190,039 Is there a Relationship status on Facebook for "In a relationship with: 2 cheating whore wives who sneak around on their husbands"  ?



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190,038 When I really needed her, she wasn't there. I'll never forget.



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190,037 I don't know why I'm mega obsessed with rubbing my dick to completion inside a pussy. It's like a mental illness on my part. It's all I think about. It's all I want to do.



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190,036 I can't wait to get married and come home to someone nice every day. Here's how married Friday nights would go in my world: we each get home from work, eat dinner, and watch some TV. After the first TV session, we smoke some weed or do some xanax or pain killers (not too high a dose. Just some pleasant impairment). Then we fuck and then we watch more TV and go to sleep.
-F19



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190,035 40 years old and he was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer.  He'll leave a young wife and two kids in elementary school.  I just don't know what to say except I am thankful it was not me.



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190,034 031 - Call the hospital billing office and work out a plan.  Tell them you can't afford to pay it.  They may try signing you up for Medicaid.  They'll likely write off a portion as uncompensated care.  There are options.  They don't like telling people this because they're trying to get as much of the cost recouped as possible.



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190,033 031- You have it backwards. The hospital must charge someone $4900 because of all the insurance companies paying far less than it's worth to perform certain procedures and the fact that most people without health insurance pay nothing at all. They never pay the bill. It doesn't bother them because their credit sucks anyway. Responsible people with good credit have health insurance. The guy who gets to foot the bill is the guy with insurance and a high deductible. Like mine, thanks to Obamacare I had to up my deductible to $7500 to be able to have reasonable premiums. I would have to pay the full $4900 and I would because I'm responsible. Guess what I'm the upper middle class American...the guy that ALWAYS foots the bill for the rich (see uber corporations like the insurance company) and the poor (see people with no insurance or people that got all their pre-existing issues covered by Obamacare because they would rather have a cell phone than health insurance) We are that guy that always gets the burden of financing this world we live in. We are the reason Trump is in office. We woulda voted for Mickey Mouse if he would stopped all the PC crap and tried to help us. We are tired of paying our own way and everyone elses!



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190,032 I'm considering moving to California with my old college roommate this March. Part of me thinks it's a stupid move, because she has $10K saved (she's been planning this for at least 3 years) and I have nothing saved, and no plan, and no idea what I would do when I got there. At most I could have $3K saved by that time, and I don't know how long that would give me to find another job.

On the other hand, this is the kind of opportunity that could change my life. I could finally focus on my art, and I wouldn't be so bogged down by the mundanity of Boston. I'd at least have someone with me, and she could help me out if I paid her back.

It's just one of those things where life is daring me to take a chance, and I don't know if I should do it or not with so little planning.



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190,031 I spent three hours at our local hospital Emergency Department.  Now I have the "bill" in hand.  Not a real bill, not something I must pay.  The total charges came to $4934.  I paid a $75 co-pay, Aetna paid $301, and the hospital "ate" the rest.  These numbers illustrate the injustice of our kaleidoscope medical billing system. The unfortunate person who has no health insurance pays $4934, often going into debt, sometimes going into bankruptcy.  If the hospital can make a normal profit for $376 why can't they charge everyone that same amount?  Why must they push some poor bastard into bankruptcy?!?

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190,030 I will never escape or break the cycle. All I know is jumping from the frying pan to the fire while telling myself that this time I'm finally escaping the abuse. I'm too old to learn new tricks. This is my fate in life: being controlled and ordered about and, and alienating anyone who could care with my inaction until they tell me to stop complaining. At my core I am a coward and I have had the will to stand up for myself in any way beaten out of me repeatedly over the years. All that's left is to continue suffering for the rest of my life. Or to just die.



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190,029 Please don't fall in love with her. It will kill me.



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190,028 I am so tired of being broke.  I feel like I have completely lost my ability to make money.  I work all the time.  I scour the house and sell unused things on Craigslist.  It still isn't nearly enough.  My wife and I make a combined 100k and I am white-knuckled every month. We're not spendy, don't eat out and barely buy enough food to make it through the week for us and 2 kids.  I keep asking myself how I got here.  
People always say follow your dream, but you know what? That altruistic phrase is total bullshit.  I was always creative growing up, love to build so I studied to become an architect. Everyone tried to talk me out of it.    I don't care about making money!  Do what you love!  Sounds great, right?  And now I watch as sport obsessed mooks I went to high school with make money hand over fist.  

I feel like a total failure.



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190,027 Im high.



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190,026 After completing rehab 8 years ago, I am starting to just now realize that I truly am an alcoholic. After a few months sober I relapsed and never looked back. I made excuses because I don't drink how I used to. I can't do this anymore. It's going to be a long, shitty road but it sure as hell beats this life I'm living now.



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190,025 I have never understood the obsession with facebook.
I have a page & visit it maybe 3 times a year around holidays to respond to holidays greetings thats all..



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190,024 For the last several days I have been brushing my teeth with bubble gum flavoured Star Wars toothpaste because I ran out of my regular toothpaste and I keep forgetting to buy more.

Good thing I have kids because they come with backup toothpaste.



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190,023 I have deleted my FB account. Oh, the freedom!



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190,022 My dogs hate my neighbor who lives in front of me, every time I take them out to go potty they look at his place( well his grandparents that let him live in their basement) and they start barking and growling . They don't act this way with other neighbors or people on general , if my dogs don't like you there's must be a reason behind , so I just I avoid him.



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190,021 Tonight is one of those nights when I miss my pre-America life.
I am a proud American, 2012 edition yet every so often I will fall into one of those youtube music rabbit holes that bring about nostalgia for my former life. It was so simple and straightforward...Not that I would return to it if I were given the opportunity but it would help if people (anyone, really) recognized how freaking difficult the road I have chosen to travel really is. I am all alone out here. No family, no partner, just a handful of friends....that's it. It's been a lonely 15 years for sure. And yes, I do miss my culture of origin for sure. Not that I want to go back -go back to what anyway?...Stuck between a rock and a hard place, is what I am....



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190,020 I'm a fraud, and I'm sorry...



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190,019 I have had two abortions.

One when I was 25 and had been married for about 4 years. I found out my husband was sleeping with someone else. We already had 2 kids (one from before we got married). I was scared of being a single mom of 3 if we split up and I had the baby.  We talked about it and he was against it, but still took me. If he had put up a bigger fight, I would have had the baby. It was not an easy choice. We divorced 5 years later.

The other time I was 33. This guy and I were not in a relationship, but we're dating for about a year. He wanted to take it further, I didn't as my divorce was still recent (3 years) and I didn't think I should have anything in my life but my children. I only went out with him on kid free weekends/holidays. I had recently told him we needed to spend less time together. We always used protection. We never had any condoms break or anything like that. I was really shocked that I was pregnant. It was the last thing on my mind. I never told him. I never told anyone. I went to the clinic by myself and didn't even get pain medicine during the abortion because they wouldnt give it to you if you don't have a driver. I ended it with the guy completely the week after. To this day he still texts me every once in a while.

I don't regret either abortion. I have two kids (one a teen and one in her early 20s). They are well adjusted and good kids. They're smart and care about people. After my divorce it was a struggle but we managed. I never was on food stamps or Medicaid. If I had a baby or another kid, I don't think we would have made it. My kids wouldn't have gotten the same attention, I would have had to work more,  and there wouldn't be money for things we needed. For sure no money for things like playing an instrument or soccer. As it was, I had to bust my ass for those things.
Also, for the last four years I've been dating a wonderful man. He's someone who accepts me for me and I accept him for himself. We're best friends and he makes me so happy. I think he's the first man who ever looked and me and really saw who I was.
He gets along with my kids. He doesn't want any kids (says he's happy with mine) and I don't want anymore.
I think if I didn't have the abortions, I would have never met him. I think my kids would have ended up differently. Maybe I would still be married to my ex. Who knows?



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190,018 My step mother tries too hard. Relax lady, you don't have to impress me and I don't have to impress you.



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190,017 I need to wear a lot of makeup to look pretty and feel confident. I feel so ugly.



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190,016 I love drinking chocolate milk!



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190,015 I don't understand why watching sports is such a huge deal. How does it help people's lives?



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190,014 At an old job, a group of mexicans stopped being my friend because I wasn't a christian.



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190,012 I would have a nervous breakdown if I lived in the suburbs of NY.

No thanks.



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190,011 I read somewhere that people's willingness to believe absurd conspiracies is based on a desire to feel exceptional.  It's so easy.  All you have to do is take the bait and then *voila* you are a perspicacious master of reality.

It's not that complicated. Occam's Razor, people. Look at the steady track record of certain politicians acting like asses, making truly deplorable statements on and off the record. Inartful, impolitic, grotesque, shameful/shameless behavior and rhetoric. Mountains of evidence. It's actually quite embarrassing to watch.



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190,010 All I want to eat is chocolate and all I want to drink is coffee. I don't have any desire to eat or drink anything else.



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190,009 After college I lived in Manhattan for decades. Loved it. Such energy and interesting people.

I finally got married. My wife convinced me to do the house in the suburbs thing. I hate it.

Sure it's nice to see deer out the window instead of a city bus. But a few things:

1) The biggest problem is the people in the burbs. They are flat. They live here exactly because they are dull. They are avoiding any type of excitement. Their idea is to never stand out, always blend in. Be exactly like everyone else. If I ask a question in public, I get dirty stares. It puts me in mind of a Stephen King novel where the town folk will come stab me for daring to be different.

2) They are also lacking in intelligence big time. I used to have intellectual debates with my friends in the city. In the burbs, the conversation is about what's on sale in the supermarket. It's soul crushing. It's dragging down my intelligence level. I'm desperately in need of a good conversation.

3) The restaurants in the burbs wouldn't last a week in NYC. The food is awful. If you've lived in Manhattan, you know. The food is exquisite. Here, you will actually be served a plate with canned vegetables warmed up in the microwave. The people here, they don't know any better. They think canned string beans are the norm.

4) The schools here don't compare to private schools in the city. If the town is lucky, one or two graduating seniors will make it into the Ivy League. Whereas in the city, 30 kids from the graduating class will get into an Ivy. And the suburb parents. They are self proclaimed experts on education. They have convinced themselves they know what's best for the students. Even though these parents were no better than B students in high school and they never made a success of themselves.

5) It's all about sports. Everyone gets together for sports. If you don't go to the Saturday night HS football game, you are blacklisted. Then there's the expectation to stand on the sidelines at all the minor league soccer games, baseball games, dance recitals, etc to talk about those supermarket sales.

6) The husbands have no friends. They don't even know each other's names. They work all day. They come home in the evening to crash. They bump into each other through their wives' social calendars and give a nod. That's the extent of male conversation, a nod.

Stay away from the suburbs. Never leave Manhattan.



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190,008 I'm left wondering if my wife is in love with a female friend of hers. They act like junior high school kids with a crush. Except they are both grown women. They get together multiple times a day. When they are not together they call and text. My wife will send 50 texts to the woman in a day. They bring each other gifts all the time. "I saw this sweater in a store and thought it is perfect for you." They bake things for each other. They constantly borrow clothes from each other - I think - so they can go over to each others houses and try the clothes on in front of each other, getting naked in the process no doubt.

When they know they will bump into each other at school events, they coordinate their outfits and arrange to sit together.

They also do this odd thing where if the other woman is jogging, she'll run in front of our house and my wife will go out and wait for her to pass. I've watched through the window. They give each other a big hug and kiss before the woman continues on her run.

Innocently in the past they have gone away for weekends together. I used to think nothing of this. But now I'm wondering if they go away together for sex reasons.

I'm not sure where to go with this in my head. They clearly are overly obsessed with each other.



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190,007 I heard you were going to phase out Clarissa and I as friends.  Whoa.

Let me help you with that. To “phase out” somebody you would have had to be a “friend” in the first place.

How's the weather up your hubby's bum? All nice and codependent in there still?  You still waiting on baited breath for him to come home from work?

Far be it from me to begrudge you happiness. Remember I was there for the 2nd divorce.  Now that you're on marriage number 3 and salon 4,000; maybe it's you.

Just a thought.



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190,006 I was born, raised, and currently live in Manhattan.

I dream about having a big house in a place with mild weather, better quality of life, some acres of land, reasonable rent/affordability, and space to move.



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190,005 Something seems a little fishy. Trump's call to the mother of the fallen soldier came when she just happened to be in the car with the whacky Congresswomen, one of Trump's biggest critics? What are the odds of that happening?

There's a one in a million chance the president calls you.

There's a one in a million chance you find yourself riding in a car with the president's biggest enemy.

But both those things happened at the same time?

This story sounds fake. I don't think the Congresswomen was in the car. I think someone in the car called the Congresswoman after the fact and together they tried to use the call to embarrass Trump. Check the phone logs. See if someone associated with the family called the whacky congresswoman immediately after the call came from Trump. Something's not right here.



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190,004 I always have people that I don't even know added to my list of like people, every month I have to check and unlike this abnoxious person who just doesn't get it .  Do I talk to you or know you personally? No , then you don't need to be on my Facebook.  I only keep my account for the few family members I'm close to and my sister in law outside of that I'm not interested . Btw I don't consider photoshopping art , trust me I been to many museums photoshopping is not an art and why you have to act so gettho is such a turn off , you only speak one language can you at least speak properly? Slang and causing was never allow in my house , my father always says only uneducated people talks the way and learn some manners .



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190,003 I hate when someone unfriends me on facebook and I can't figure out who it is. One day I'll have 385 friends. The next day I'll have 384. Fuck you whoever it is.



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190,002 Skull face make up turns me on... wtf? It has to be done properly of course



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190,001 They say in Africa... I swear we are connected by an invisible chord. You come to me in dreams all the time. This thing never fades.



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190,000 831 I do often wake my boyfriend with a blow job, but he is also free to wake me up for sex, if he's in the mood.

There's even been times when he's started things whilst he was asleep, only to wake up later during.



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