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192,199 I got engaged last month. He's a fantastic guy-- intelligent, cute, funny, hard-working, very kind to others. The secret is he's like 37 and has never had sex before me. That's right, I found a virgin. We're waiting until marriage to do the deed. We've made out a few times but he's so respectful/God-fearing that he hasn't even copped a feel. I, on the other hand, have had sex before, and I'm one of those women who normally masturbates like 8 times a month, just for the sake of orgasm, no porn/ fantasizing required. The second secret is that I'm not masturbating for this month or for the next 8 months. I'm hoping that pent-up tension will help me in the gym so that when I'm finally naked with him, I look really good. I've got great tits but my abs/ass need work, so I'm going to group fitness 5x a week and saving for plastic surgery in case I still don't look the way I want. I know that the stereotype is that on the "first time" the man will likely come super quick but I'm the kind of the girl who can get off if a man licks my ears or neck the right way. 15 months of dating, sweating in the gym, waiting and it'll probably be over for both of us in 3 minutes...but  damn, it's been a while so I'm looking forward to it.

f/27


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192,198 My husband doesn’t get me. At all. I’ve spent years trying to understand him & I just don’t care to anymore. Everything’s an argument and he fails to see I’ve been the only one trying. Just forget about itz


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192,197 I just found out a co-worker died this weekend. His car hit an icy patch and boom. Life can vanish in flash. I picture him driving down the scenic road, knowing him, he was probably listening to the radio, singing along, no worries. He didn't realize his life would be over 30 seconds later. I wonder if he was conscious for a little while. Did he realize he was dying? Was he scared?


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192,196 We've been heading this way for more then a year. Dancing around our attraction, flirting, finally admitting we want each other. My secret is I'm terrified. I'm terrified I'm going to screw this up like I've inadvertently screwed up nearly every other relationship I've been in. I'm even more scared I possibly already have.


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192,195 I'm trying to lose weight by jogging. But I mostly only jog when I see a car coming down the road. Other than that I'm walking.


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192,194 Just read a headline that it is a powerful statement that the pretty people are all wearing black today in Hollywood at their masturbation festival.  It is not a powerful statement.  A powerful statement would have been made if you would have turned in these scumbag predators a long time ago.  You are all cowards, except for a couple of you.  Cory Feldman, rock it out of the house.  you are truly a man making powerful statements.  

The rest of you can go to hell.


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192,193 Sometimes I fantasize about being single and out fucking slutty young women.  But I know if my wife weren't around, I'd end up an alcoholic.  She's the rock in my life.  But man... to be single and fucking slutty young women...


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192,192 My husband usually doesn't make much noise during sex. When I suck his balls though, it brings out this uncontrollable moan. Turns me on so much


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192,191 Lol, when I first was separated from my ex wife, I used to play Aja over and over, no particular reason, just liked it. The "cow" song was somewhat apt. I still have to try one of those drinks sometime.

I recently bought this super cool portable vintage GE record player. I got rid of all my good records once again some years ago, so I'll have to get another copy of Aja, get the cocktail ingredients and throw a party. Goals 2018


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192,190 I miss the darkness of the old cave. It felt secretive for some reason. This white color is so bright. It’s a different experience now.


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192,189 I love your attempts to look happy on social media. I'm not sure who all knows the truth, but I sure do......


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192,188 I don’t understand water sports or eating poo during sex. Maybe I’m missing something here, but that sounds more like torture than foreplay.


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192,187 I remove the callouses and hard dry skin from my feet with a dremel tool.


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192,186 I've done the pee thing with guys a few times. It's certainly different. It does get the juices flowing. I have this vivid memory of me standing in the bathtub hovering over a guy's face. He had propped himself up on his arms so his mouth was only a few inches below my pussy.  I peed in his mouth, on his cheeks, on his eyes (when he closed them), in his hair. Some got up his nose lol. He also made a point of swallowing some of my pee. As sexual experiences go, it's not one to be forgotten.


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192,185 I am scared of everything:

• heights
• getting my heart broken / entering a relationship to be disappointed
• trying new, active things like rock climbing or learning how to swim
• making the wrong decision
• losing out on money in the stock market
• ending up alone

help


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192,184 I like the new interface. I found the old dark blue with white writing to be hard on the eyes. This is much better. I don't have the font issues though, probably because I access it on my phone.

Also I think the ability to "like" the secrets is a good idea because people might be less likely to respond and clog up the page with things that aren't secrets.


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192,183 Trump's nuts. Duh.


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192,182 I live alone, so I can sit on the toilet and shit with the door open.  Just beyond the door of the cubicle are the bathroom basin and the mirror mounted above it.  When I'm sitting on the toilet, I can see myself from the shoulders up in the mirror about three metres away, and when I have a particularly satisfying shit, I can see the true face of relief in the mirror.


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192,181 Oh so he likes Asian women with dark areolas and medium sized tits... Mine are complete opposites...he's so not my type.


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192,179 My secret is I hate this new CaveCanum interface.  I think it is very annoying that everyone so desperately displays the need for constant approval and the need to be liked.  Facebook is for that crap.  How the hell do you approve someone's secret?  So childish!  And the new font is way too big.  I'm nearly blind and it's too big for me.  We can adjust our own display size by holding down the Ctrl key and scrolling to the size we want with the mouse wheel.  

From what I have seen over the years, the site is quite successful.  Why eff it up???


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192,178 I don’t like being called pet names.

I’m not a baby girl. I am by NO means a sweetie, sweetheart, angel, or cupcake. My name is Mara. If you can’t pronounce it, or feel like calling me something else, do me a favor, and leave me tf alone to begin with.


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192,177 When I’m home alone, I scream “I miss you! I miss you! I miss you! I miss you!” Over and over and over again hoping that you can hear from here.


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192,176 When I walk past Perfumania at the mall, I have to hold my breath, because if I don’t, I’ll cry.

Most people think I have a problem with the smell, but in truth, I have to keep myself from getting a lump in my throat from holding back the sobs I’d normallly let out had I been in privacy rather than the mall.  

I want to cry, because I smell you. You are in the foreign language around me. You are hanging from the mirror in people’s cars. You are the homeland of so many, then, strangers.
My thoughts are always consumed with you to this day.
Forever and ever, my cutie patootie.




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192,175 I come on here to tell the same secret in any way I can without it sounding too similar to the last time I posted.

I miss you so fucking much, and there aren’t enough ways to say it.

Now that you have her, because I was a lousy girlfriend, I hope she makes you happy, but dammit R.
I’d give away everything and everyone I love for one more day with you.

I want to meet you in the ocean, and scope out sea turtles, and kiss as the sun goes down just over the ocean water.
More than the pain of missing you, I miss who I was back then. It’s been two years, and I’m still tearing myself apart.


I deserve every second of it too..



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192,174 Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back


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192,173 I have social anxiety. Sometimes it’s crippling. The last time I went out with my main group of friends was last April. We went bar hopping downtown, and I had anxiety attack. Took an Uber back to my friend’s place. One friend came with me voluntarily while the others stayed out. Since then, they haven’t bothered to invite me anywhere even though I’ve tried to make plans. I stopped trying. I can take a hint and don’t want to embarrass myself. I watch them all hang out through their snapchats now. They don’t seem to miss me.

I recently got a new puppy. He’s adorable and loves people, and people fall in love with him and how happy and sweet he is. This gave me hope. Maybe a side benefit of having a dog will be meeting new people. I’m tired of being lonely, and it’s so hard to make friends after college. If my buddies who leave me out of plans want to get together, I don’t think I’m going to go back. I’m excited to see what dog ownership will have in store for me :)


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192,172 I can’t cry anymore
while you runaround
Break away
Just when it seems so clear
That it’s over now
Drink your big black cow
And get out of here...


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192,171 I may look normal, but I do get the kink on sometimes.

Like I'd be okay with a guy pissing on me. It would have to be in the shower though, but yeah, I'd let him do it. I'd even let him piss in my mouth.

24f


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192,170 I'm one of those people who got roped into financially supporting my abusive mother well into adulthood and having kids of my own.  I paid rent to live in a house she inherited but didn't live in for years. I finally moved out and cut off all contact with her. I feel ashamed that I finally feel comfortable in my OWN home at 34. Nothing feels good like being in a big cozy bed in your own space. I should have stayed away at 19 and never gone back home.


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192,169 Guys, if you trim the bushes, the tree looks bigger.

Ya get what I'm saying........


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192,168 i'm a slut trying to squeeze myself into a married woman's body.


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192,167 I like my boyfriend's brother more than I like my boyfriend. if only a switcheroo was possible...


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192,166 I rent out a room in my house. I am so ready to live alone, but I don't know how to tell my roommate. He's one of my best friends but I just want to live alone. I don't know how to tell him!!!


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192,165 157, I believe the skewed numbers are totally due to the dysfunctional thinking and body shaming that girls and women are subject to, day in and day out.  At school, work, on the street.   Body image begins early early for females.  How sad is this?


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192,163 After my kid sister died from brain cancer last year, I've been very scared that I could have lung cancer. Intellectually I know that I have adult-onset asthma and that as long as I stay away from allergens and take my Singulair on time I should be fine. But the idea of lung cancer lurking obsesses me day and night. I won't rest until I have a PET scan.

26/f/never smoked


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192,162 Hey you....yeah you... Guess what??? Your marriage won't last.

Also... she's ugly. For Christmas you should have gotten her a professional makeover so they could teach her how to do her eyeliner so that it doesn't look straight out of the 80s


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192,161 My sugar daddy is my sons biological father. I'm terrified of the day everyone finds out. Thanks to ancestry DNA I'm aware that it is inevitable. Fuck that's gona suck.


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192,160 I'm afraid I remember more about my first love 10 years ago than I do about myself.


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192,159 Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite for shopping at Lush, I love their products even though I love to wear fur it's the only thing it keeps me warm when it's too cold .  Sorry antifur lovers but there's nothing as soft and warm as real fur.


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192,158 My elderly father in law wets himself. We pretend we don't notice.


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192,157 It's winter break here and too cold to spend much time outside. A few days ago I took my son to an indoor playground. It was, of course, totally packed with kids. Sitting there watching them play, I was surprised at how many overweight children there were. Not the majority, but a lot. But when I paid more attention, there were 3-4 little (under age 10) overweight boys, zero little overweight girls, one older overweight girl and a bunch of older overweight boys. Like 10-15 of them.

I don't know if boys have more of a tendency to be overweight than girls or if overweight girls are less likely to want to play at an indoor playground. But either way, it really does look like childhood obesity is on the rise around here.


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192,156 didnt realize i was your personal entertainment director when you are bored and are looking for something to do......do you know how tiring that is?   time to grow up


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192,155 As my daughter's friend was over to spend the night last night, they decided to watch Stranger Things on Netflix. I looked over at my husband of 13 years, and he winked at me. Within an hour I was upstairs sucking his balls while the girls watched TV downstairs.  My secret... keep the fire alive. Pretend you've just met and are having dirty nasty forbidden sex.


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192,154 I love hearing other people's secrets. Thank you for sharing.

Alcohol was my demon. I've been sober for 20 something years thank God. My bottom came at a restaurant. It was a place where you have dinner at your table, but people could also get up to dance. There were about 10 people at my table. I couldn't drink as much as I wanted because it was a group setting. The waitress poured everyone a glass and  then I had to wait for everyone to mostly finish before the waitress would come back to offer another round. Of course normal people drank slowly. Some people took only a sip and let their glass sit there for an hour. It was killing me. I was only able to get two glasses in the course of two hours. This was way below my needs.

Finally it was time to leave. Everyone at my table got up and headed to the coat check room. Me too. But it occurred to me there were still half consumed glasses of wine on our table. The waitress was going to throw them out. This pained me beyond repair. I turned around and went back to our table. It took me a moment to find it, but bingo, all these half empty glasses. I started downing them in giant gulps. I was standing there helping myself to other people's glasses. But no big deal right. They were done. They didn't want the wine.

Except....

A minute into consuming the goldmine, half a dozen people I didn't know  showed up at the table. They stared at me. In my head I was like move along, move along people, nothing here for you to see. I'm just a guy drinking some wine. It doesn't concern you.

One of the women said, "Who are you? What are you doing? Why are you drinking our wine?" She was shouting. The commotion caused everyone in the restaurant to stop what they were doing and stare at me.

Turns out it wasn't my table. The restaurant was large. It was the table for another group. They had been on the dance floor. I was drinking their wine. I was putting my lips to glasses of total strangers. I had 200 people in the room looking at my shame. 200 people catching me in the act of being an alcoholic glutton.

That was the end. Never touched the stuff again.


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192,153 Buried deep on my computer in a zip file are 10-12 pictures of my wife's sister nude.  Her husband sent them to me in a not so good time for them, long since past. I told him I would look at them and then trash them. Way too good pics to do that, so I saved them.


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192,152 I like having the house to myself so I can poop with the door open. It's the little things.


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192,151 Well, I got another year sober from opiate pain killers. I now have three years.

I celebrated my sober birthday at my 12 step meeting last night. It is customary to share our bottom and what we did to stop using. I say my bottom was hat I lost my job and that was my bottom and I recovered from there.

But that's not my real bottom.What happened was I went to a doctor and got a prescription for Vicodin. He only gave me a few pills so I took them all at once. After a few minutes I got really nauseous and I knew I was going to vomit. However I was not going to waste those pills so I threw up into an empty Gatorade bottle, waited a few minutes then drank my puke with the pills. It was that moment when I realized I hit rock bottom.

That story is just too gross and embarrassing to share at my meeting. Anyway , My life is much better now and I'm happy now!


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192,149 Michele W. Your Instagram picture was being shown around tonite, the one from New Year's Eve where your kissing S and say something like "My one and only!" Cute pic. But I wonder if you know that your not HIS one and only. Actually we all wonder. Do you know why he really married you, and you just put up with it to have a good looking husband, since no one else wanted you? Or are you so dense, you think he really loves you? Because he doesn't. He's not attracted to you at all, I'll just say that. I've known S almost my whole life and he will go to great lengths to keep a lie going, even if it makes him sick to his stomach. This is the longest and really the most twisted lie we've ever seen him keep up with. Think about it. You know how much he loves women. He's cheated on every chick he's ever been with, even his exgirlfriend when she was pregnant. If he was as into you as he says, don't you think he would have hit on you before? No, he paid you no mind until...he needed you for something. Your money is the icing on the cake. We all know who pays most of the bills while he socks his money away. He did that also with every chick he was with. They paid for all the vacations, not him. Sometimes we laugh at you, but mostly we feel sorry for you. Can you really not see that it's all a charade? Someone said maybe you should put hidden cameras in the house before you go on your next business trip, or maybe we should just take our own pics and send them to you anon,  but then we kinda think you still won't leave him when you found out what he does when your not around. Oh and everything he told you about J is all lies. He made you hate her becasue he needed you on his side. He's still in love with her. Some of us still talk to her btw. Oh and don't be surprised if in about 5 years he disappears on you. Depends on if he can keep the lie up which he might because he likes the lifestyle you give him. We can't say this to your face so maybe youll see this.


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192,148 I'm going to get a webcam and sign up for a service where I can jerk off online and people can watch me over the internet.


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192,147 I can't even believe it myself, I just turned 40 y/o, and I am still listening to Berryz Kobo.  I am a man, by the way.  


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192,146 141, it may not even be Alzheimer’s.  You (and I and many others) are at an age where cognitive abilities, specifically memory, does decline.
The same things happen to me, but I am nowhere near ALZ.  I had a doctor check me and it is just aging.
Please...go get checked as another poster advised....  


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192,145 Is it just me, or is there much more hair in food these days? This past year I was revolted to find hair in take-out Chinese food, take-out pizza, and a cupcake from a bakery. Like OMG store workers, do something about this! Gross.


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192,144 I wonder to myself is this all there will be to my life?

I'm so used to being held back that when I pass my test and get a couple of months wages behind me just upping and leaving this place.

I have a variety of transferable skills and somewhat sociable that I could find work easily. I'm good at sourcing and finding things, so getting a small place to stay while I save up a bit more would be no problem.

How do I cut off my fiance and friends and family though? I only like a few of them so at least that's that. I do love my fiance but I will always feel inadequate around him.

Roll on April.


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192,143 if any more of these women I meet become obsessed with me, I'm gonna give up.
I'll still be the best I can be, but CHILL, Women!


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192,142 141- Go to a doctor. There is a lot that can be done nowadays to slow the progression of dementia and even stop some types. Smarter people seem to decline faster because they can compensate better and hide it for longer.


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192,141 I'm 58. Alzheimer's is coming my way. I can feel it. I'm not as sharp as I used to be. I can't add two numbers without paper and pencil.  I can't do the crossword puzzle to completion anymore. I forget people's names. It's embarrassing when I can't remember the name of my sister in law whom I've know for 40 years. I try to cover it up. I greet her with  "Hey there my favorite sister in law,"  so I don't have to say her name. All together I'm devastated by my fading mental functions. Being intelligent defined my life. Once it goes, I am nothing. I'm also dreading the idea of becoming a burden to others. Will it get so bad they'll have to feed me and clothe me and change my diaper? I will not let that happen. I will not. You know what I'm saying -


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192,140 We are seeing a lot of stories on how robots will replace humans for sex partners.

So what you are saying is that a sex robot, built and programmed by people whose sphincter tightens when they see someone from the opposite sex, will have the capability to program a sex robot?  God, life is funny!  

I prefer to fuck the old fashioned way!  Silly me.


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192,139 I love the look of extreme surprise on a woman's face when I ease my cock up her ass and there is no pain.


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192,138 107 - you have given me hope that with some diligence, I can fix my financial situation and be okay.


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192,137 If one more person tells me that I am “too young” to have arthritis, I’m going to slap them in the face. It’s genetic in my family, and I’ve been tested for it by my doctor and responded to the treatment for it. Do they think I’m lying? I wish people would keep their ignorant comments to themselves.


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192,134 L, if you’re back with him, find it’s a free country whatever.

However, Sweet Cheeks, please let me clarify you do not “know what I’m thinking.” Babe, I could give a shit if you’re now keeping you and your son as number one.

If you think I’m going to be your tissue, your shoulder to cry on this time around ... Honey you’re on crack. I don’t care what he does to that heart of yours, you’re on your own you masochistic freak!

You want to know what I was thinking?!?!?  I was thinking, I want all of those hours of my life back you so narcissisticly stole from me while you sobbed in a puddle over that douche.

I’m out, you’re on your own. And if he breaks your son’s heart a second time I would really try and take the life lesson here, Killer.

That’s what I’m thinking. Namaste you dumbass!


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192,133 I like the look of extreme pain on a woman's face as I jam my cock up her ass.


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192,132 I think if I was independently wealthy, to the point where I didn't have to work for a living and could afford to do what I wanted, I would join one of those teams of eccentric people that hunt ghosts or Bigfoot or things like that. I don't really believe in those things. I just think it would be fun.


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192,131 I once called 911 to report a drunk driver who was swerving all over the road. I followed them for a while. When I was on the phone with 911 the police caught up with us and were giving me the thumbs up while they chased down the drunk driver in front of me.

I was also drunk and have not drove drunk since. I have no idea why I did what I did, but while I saw the blue lights come up behind me I saw newspaper/tmz headlines of "drunk driver narcs on drunk driver LOL" in my head.

I drove home immediately after and have been very careful with my alcohol consumption and driving since. I never had the courage to look up the results of my 911 call. This happened in about 2010 and have never told a soul about my close call including my wife. I was 25 at the time and if I got a DWI it would have destroyed my life. I think about that person every once in a while and wonder how my decision impacted their life while fully knowing that my decision to also drive drunk could have impacted so many others.


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192,130 Whenever my boss says he needs to train me to do something, I feel a sense of shock.

You mean you're not planning to fire me this week?


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192,129 I was sexually obsessed from 15 to 30. I'd have sex with any girl. I didn't see a problem with it. Yes it felt good. But there was something more to it. I wouldn't want sex with the same girl over and over. I'd want a different girl every time. It was like a test. Could I entice a girl to have sex with me. As soon as we did it, the challenge was over and I moved on to the next girl. I'm not sure what was driving me to have sex all the time. My parents were practically non-existent in my life. I basically raised myself. Was I filling some void they left behind? I don't know. I don't really care about them. So I don't think that's it. It was the challenge I guess. I'm extremely competitive in other ways. I like testing myself. I particularly like coming across a woman in a happy relationship and seeing if I can make her stray from the path. Bonus points for getting a married woman to cheat on her husband. God I sound awful.


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192,128 I was alone on Xmas so I got a hooker from Craigslist. She was really pretty and only 22 and spent almost all of Xmas with me, sucking me off and stuff and it only cost me 200 bucks. It turned out to be a great Xmas. And she loved cum all over her face. So fucking hot. My family would never believe it. HAHAHAHA.


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192,127 The pickup line I used on my future husband: "You're in my psych class. Give me a hug!"

We've been together 17 years.


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192,126 It took a few years, but I had a depressing epiphany. When I was a freshman in college, I ended up having regular sex with the most annoying unattractive woman in the freshman dorm.

When I was a junior in college, I again was having regular sex with a different unattractive woman in my junior dorm.

Those were the two women I was with in college.

After I graduated, I started having sex with the most annoying unattractive woman in the office.

So the question came up in my head, why do I only have sex with the most annoying unattractive women?

The answer: Because they are the only women who will have sex with me.

Why? This is my epiphany - because wherever I go, I am the most annoying unattractive guy.

Prior to my epiphany, I thought I was a reasonable pleasant guy who could have sex with any woman, it just worked out they were all annoying and unattractive. But I came to the realization that the choice wasn't mine to make. I slept only with annoying and unattractive women because they were the only women who would have me. I now know I am a very dis-likeable person. Depressing.


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192,125 Im surrounded by Women who HATE Trump. but I LOVE HIM! look at the Stock Market!! look at him kicking ass! Look at him protecting our Country!
You stupid bitches only dog him because "he's digusting", or "his locker room talk".
you all need to be grabbed by your pussies and put in place!


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192,124 I feel like my life is just one big aberration and people merely tolerate me.


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192,123 Time for a cold beer, a cheeseburger and a movie. I was at work but I was bored so I pretended to be sick and came home. My monthly prescription for Vicodin is refilled tomorrow so I calling in sick. I'm going to get high, eat junk and watch movies all weekend. Sometimes, life is really good!


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192,122 I’m sleeping with a 25 year old girl who tells me I can ‘do whatever I want to her.’  Nice / hot to hear when you’re a 49 year old man...


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192,121 My husband frequently comments on my procrastination. There were times that he really blew up on me over it, and rightfully so. I used to be pretty bad, but have been much better at managing my time and getting things done when they need to be.

So today is my birthday. My husband took vacation time this week. The kids and I are also home today, because we're in the middle of a blizzard. Everything is closed because of the snow, so we can't go anywhere or do anything.

And my husband - well he procrastinated. Despite the news, and social media, and me talking about the storm, he figured he could go out today in his 4WD to get me things for my birthday. Never mind that he had Tuesday and Wednesday to do this, and that he was right behind the mall yesterday when he had get something at the auto parts store. So no birthday card, no gift, no flowers, and no stores open to even buy things to make me a special dinner or buy a cake. I'm incredibly pissed off at him. At least the kids made me a card :/


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192,120 There’s that old adage, “curiosity killed the cat”- well, mine finally got the better of me last night and I looked to see where you might have ended up. I no longer do the usual social networking sites, it’s just as well, I prefer my privacy and don’t really like the idea of people stalking me and my family anymore.

But there is one place where I knew you had/ have a profile, so I looked. All this time, I’ve resisted the notion that it was better to just let it be. Sure enough, there you were- a new state, a new town and phone number. No, I didn’t write it down, nor will I make an attempt to reach out. That didn’t go so well the last time. I guess I just wanted to make sure we would not be haphazardly intersecting in our old town, so I looked, to put my mind at ease.

The end result, I was glad to finally face that truth and accept it for what it was. From the surface, it would appear that you’re doing well, and for that I’m grateful.

As I’ve transitioned in my own life, despite the hardships we encountered along the way, I know now that my life is better now as a result of having had you in it. It wasn’t the comfortable change I was hoping for, but nonetheless, it got me to a place of self awareness, evolution and transformation that I was obviously in need of.

May you truly be at peace, be blessed and loved in a new and truly fulfilling way.

A.


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192,119 I don't know what the secret is, and nobody will tell me what it is. It seems like three people think I did something wrong, and I'm getting the (nearly) silent treatment.

The distance and void is bothering me. I need to know what the big deal is so we can fix this. Families are supposed to talk.


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192,118 I'm an author of erotic ebooks, and I don't let people know about my dirty hobby. I don't put personal info in my profiles on the author sites I use - no freakin way. That might hurt my reputation.

But... On one major ebook retailer, there is another person with the exact same author name as mine. She has a few romance novels, and a 'teen angst' series, plus she has a profile pic with limited personal info.

If someone actually found out my pen name and searched hard enough, they could connect these names, but they won't know these genres are written by different people. Very different. Sorry Ms. , I hope you aren't upset if people think wrong about you.

This little piece of anonymity makes me happy, and this post is two secrets for the price of one!


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192,117 My wife makes me so sad.  The kids and I were out working in the yard. She doesn't do yard work. She doesn't get her hands dirty. She has allotted herself a free pass when it comes to yard work and really any kind of work. I asked if she could make dinner for us in lieu of her helping outside. She agreed and went into the kitchen. An hour later I came in from the cold to see how dinner is coming along. There was nothing. She didn't even start. Her eyes had been glued to the TV the entire time. I turned off the TV and told her it's not fair that she did nothing about dinner. We were counting on her.  I ask if she could at least order a pizza. Half an hour later I checked back in on her. Nothing. No pizza has been ordered. She was looking at facebook the entire time. She's not a member of this family. She's more like some freeloader who has snuck into our house and we can't get rid of her.


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192,116 It seems Trump will once again make marijuana illegal across the country.  Good. We have too many vices. I can never say this to my friends though. They use marijuana. I think marijuana hurts all of us.


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192,115 I suffer from depression and anxiety, and have for many years. Most people in my life don’t know this about me. Honestly, I don’t feel like anyone in my life besides my immediate family would even give a shit. I’ve never had much family or much of a support group at all. I have especially never gone on social media and posted or tried to get sympathy from people. I guess I’m not much of an attention seeker. I have friends that do, though. I try not to judge and I try to be supportive. Everyone reaches out in different ways, but sometimes it just comes across as sad and needy. My daughter’s music instructor recently passed away. He died from illness. Though he was loved by his church and his community he didn’t have any family, and so there will not be a funeral. That has to be the saddest thing I’ve heard. With that in mind, it makes it a little more difficult when I go online and I see one of my friends posting about how they feel sad and insecure, but they literally have dozens of friends to tell them how wonderful they are. Seriously?! Be thankful if you have at least one person in your life who genuinely cares about you.


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192,114 What is wrong with people...bitter cold and some of you leave your animals outside to only to freeze to death because they are chained up?

im no fan of cats, but if i saw one out in this weather like that, I'd be damn sure to bring it inside.....

THE WORLD NEEDS EMPATHY....WE ARE COLLECTIVELY BANKRUPT ON EMPATHY AND CARE TOWARDS OTHERS AND OTHER THINGS.




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192,112 I create fake profiles on Instagram. I give myself likes so others can think I'm popular. My secret is, I'm lonely  and nobody really likes me.


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192,111 I laugh when ignorant single females think being independent means still asking seeking or expecting help from others. I finished college, a single mother.
Never needed "help" from my children's father's, parents or family members.  I did it all by myself.  True definition of independence.

Major In Anthropology



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192,109 When I was in high school, I was such a nerd, I used to cut class to go to the public library.


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192,107 In another life time I was married and young.  I had a semi-decent job but every month our checking account was overdrawn and there were not one but several overdraft fees of $12/ea.  Thank goodness they over drafted instead of not paying the check.

I blame it on my wife as she decided what she and kids needed and went and bought it even if we were broke and we were broke all of the time.  I said something had to change but she just let me know I wasn't earning enough.  She refused to work.  I heard someone say that every pay day you should pay yourself even if it is just a few dollars.  I worked for a government so I opened a
403b and put $10/mo in it.  I didn't tell my wife about it and when we divorced a few years later she still didn't know about it.  It was worth just a few hundred dollars by then but to me it seemed like a miracle.  I had child support for a few years and then college for the kids but I kept up the contributions and even increased them a tad.   After the kids were out on their own I opened an online brokerage account and began to buy a few shares of stock.  Every New Year's Eve I list all my assets, I have no debt (that seems like a miracle too. It took a long time to pay down the debts from the marriage. I assumed them all.)  I listed all my assests last Sunday and I am worth a little less than two million.  That 403b has grown to $50,000 and I take a minimum draw and get a check every month for $170 and the underlying principal has never decreased.  So I feel lucky and amazed but my problem is that I got the saving habit and I find it hard to spend.  What a delimma!  Basically until I was well into middle age I felt certain I would live month to month and any emergency would bankrupt me.  I really think that advice I heard to pay one's ownself and then not telling the wife about it was what caused the change.  Time was on my side then.  Well, now the ex is broke with several maxed out credit cards, making payments on a small house, living on social security.  But... she found a really  rich boy friend and he pays her way traveling the world.  She was right all along... I didn't make enough money.


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192,105 Been sober a year never met a female whod make me want to use so bad by mistreating me so easily


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192,104 I'm talking to a guy in prison. At first he thought I was a catch. Now he's going back to his girlfriend once he gets out. I think he just viewed me as a side hoe. Why is it that all guys cheat on me or write me off or just use me?


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192,102 This new year I’m doing less shit for other people. We’ll see how many friends I have by 2019. My guess is zero.


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192,100 I feel as though people can see right through my lies. I think that's why I get treated like shit.


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