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194,799 When I was in Junior Highschool in Brooklyn in the early 80's, I hung around with these two other kids, AW and Brian.  AW had a pretty cool older sister, Lisa.  We were about 14, and she was about 16-17.  I remember one day we all went to the movies and Lisa gave me my first real kiss.  I remember to this day the squishy feeling of her tounge on mine and the taste of her spearmint gum.  It was at the same time erotic and weird, as I was all of 14.  That was as far as it went.

About 25 or so years ago in the mid 90's, I was still living in Brooklyn, and I ran into Lisa.  She was just divorced and had a child.  I was single.  We exchanged numbers and talked a few times.   One night during a crazy blizzard, she drove over to my place with a bottle of wine.  I guess she wanted some companionship, and so did I.  We humped like bunnies for hours.  I remember that I did not want to get into a relationship with a woman that had kids at the time, and she was comming off the divorce, so it sort of petered out. No bad feelings on either side.  It just was what it was.

A while ago I was contacted through facebook by Brian.  I was surprised that someone I had not spoken to in decades even rememberd me, let alone could find me.  We joked back and forth and I mentioned that I had a funny story about Lisa to tell him, since as kids, we all secretly wanted to fuck her.  That is when he told me that Lisa died in the Towers on 9/11.  All of a sudden, my story wasn't that funny to me.  It kind of made me feel sad.

Lisa is, as far as I am aware, the first person that I have slept with that has died.  I remember how cool she was growing up. She would hang out with us,and we all thought she was the coolest chick.  I remember how we fucked like rabbits for that one night during the blizzard.  No drama.  No pretense.  No expectations.  Just 2 people that wanted to feel the touch of another person.  

Even though my only other contact with her since childhood was that one night, I found myself missing Lisa, and quietly mourning her loss.  I do not know how the rest of her life turned out.  I do not know if she ever found someone else to make her happy. But I do hope that she had a great life and loved every minute of it.  I hope she has many many people to keep her memory alive.  I know I will.

Rest in peace Lisa.



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194,798 OMG those songs. I wonder if he remembers ...


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194,797 I quit weed for Lent, and I can’t believe I’m still going strong!!  I didn’t think that it did any harm and I still don’t however I was doing it every day. It’s amazing how clear my mind has been. I may go back eventually but definitely not to the extent that I was doing it.


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194,796 I have a fetish for groping women in their panties.  I love to have them bend over a counter or have them on their knees whike i feel around the erogenous parts...their inner thighs, the booty, the lower back and the soft and sensititive mound.

I love to save that part for last and let the anticipation build.  And when i do touch the sensitive parts they always moan deeply...

Man its hot!!


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194,795 After reading that people (spies or hakkers?) can see you thru your phone's cam, i just now put black electrical tape over mine lol. I donno what to do about mic tho. I guess they can still hear me peee if they really want to.


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194,794 I'm a young scientist and I can't wait to marry another scientist. Science people are fairly kinky. I can't wait to have a ring on my finger AND tie up my best friend who can talk about chemistry with me!



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194,793 I just saw the most bizarre and awesome plane fly over me!!!! It was huge bodied--wide but shortish...it was beautiful light blue & white. Looked like a blimp with wings! It flew very slow and low. Right. Over. Me.

No one else looked. Course, i was in an empty large parking lot. But I'm again left to wonder.......am i the only one witnessing these bizarre, awesome things in the sky???
The secret is that i don't know if i can tell reality any more.
I have very abnormal airplane dreams. Freaky freaky dreams.


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194,792 I can't send my husband to the dump anymore. He brings too much home with him. Who brings things home from the dump? It's the dump. It's filled with garbage. But not to my husband. He brings back an old chair saying he will refinish it. He brings back a TV. He brings back a bicycle rack. He says he'll sell it on ebay. He never does. From now on, I'm bring our trash to the dump. It's off limits to my budding hoarder.


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194,791 Have you ever ordered something and checked the tracking for the package and seen several scans at the same location? They keep dumping the same mail on the machine multiple times to inflate their numbers. That is why it takes so long to get your packages.I have seen the same piece of mail several days in a row. This is not the workers. We actually care about getting the mail out as quickly as possible. It's management trying to make themselves look good by faking numbers. I wish more people would call postal inspectors to complain. It's just not right. There is nothing I can do about it without the risk of losing my job :(


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194,790 I am a serious alcoholic. About 6 weeks ago I began to significantly reduce the amount I drink each night. In this short time I have managed to cut my drinking in half. My goal is to continue to reduce until I am not drinking at an unhealthy level and I am able to mix in days when I drink nothing at all. You know, drink like a normal person for a little while. Once there, I will quit for good.

I feel great. I am much more focused at work. I am sleeping better, eating better, getting much more exercise. The best part though? Not waking up every morning where my very first thought is sucking on a gun and putting a bullet through my brain.

Since I have been cutting back I wake actually kind of looking forward to my day. Imagine that? Gives me hope that I can pull this off and that life will be OK, maybe even better than OK, once vodka is no longer part of it .


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194,789 Apparently the red X is just pretend delete.


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194,788 I don't get the "flagging" thing here. I read the rules and didn't see anything. Any hints? Is it a bad thing like warning? Or good thing like "yay! good secret!" ?
And i know we're not supposed to write about this site but I've seen about 4 posts all about the site and they're still here so .,.. im confused. 🤔


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194,787 Ridiculous that Special Prosecutor Robert Mueller's interview questions were leaked to the New York Times. In any valid investigation, law enforcement always keeps details close to the chest so as not to taint anything. But with Meuller, the questions are posted for all to see. Why? I suspect because this isn't really an investigation. This is a smear campaign against Trump.

It's disgraceful. I'm not even a big Trump fan. But I'm deeply disturbed to see our justice system being used in this way.


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194,786 Everyday, ten times a day,  birds intentionally bang their heads against my basement window. They sit in the window well and pound pound pound against the glass. It's the strangest thing. It reminds me of a horror movie where animals sense evil and do bizarre things.


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194,785 I'm fearful I'm not the father of my second child. He's a teenager now and he looks amazingly like my wife's former boyfriend. I've put their pictures side by side and I think everyone would agree they are father and son.

My wife had an affair with the man after we were married but three years before my son was born. I thought it was over. She promised never to see him again. But maybe she did hooked up with him again. I don't know and I'm not sure I want to know. I hate her for this. But I don't want to know the boy isn't my own. He means so much to me.


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194,784 But it only works when it doesn't matter.


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194,783 Our world can be profoundly ugly & beautiful at the same time. And I’m trying to figure out what to make of that


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194,782 I told you about this site a couple months ago and I always wonder if you come here. I don't post often....but I wonder if you'd be able to tell which secrets are mine


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194,781 The more I read comments on news stories or social media, the more I hate people. Even if I start to think that people aren't so bad and I should go out and try to make some friends, I quickly change my mind when I just spend 5 minutes in a comment section. The things that people say to one another on the internet when they know that they are anonymous is disgusting. If these are the things that people really think then I am OK with not having any friends, thanks.


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194,780 I wish that this website was like people posted their secrets more creatively on a post card like post secret, but still freely, like here.


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194,779 I ate 5 cupcakes today =|


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194,778 Reading the hurt in others here, it makes me so glad that the obsession has been lifted for some time.  

Time may not erase the scars, but the pain eventually subsides.

Peace.


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194,777 You know that feeling when they say I love you. When you feel the love in the words. In the eyes. I wish I knew why that feeling went away. I know you feel it too. The regular in passing by obligatory I love you. Where did the feelings behind the words go. I scared where this is going.


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194,776 IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS PLEASE STOP I JUST WANT TO MAKE THIS STOP


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194,775 I wish I could go back to being 15 again.  So much I would have done differently.  I miss that innocence.


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194,774 We fucked so good in his car yesturday!
His bipolar, nagging, obsessive jealous baby momma kept blowing up his phone though.
It was actually so fucken funny.


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194,773 Baby please baby please baby please. You hurt me so bad and I know you guys are happy but I'm pretty sure we're on the same wavelength and I want you so desperately. This is not lust I've never felt this way about anyone. The first few conversations I had with you felt like a big hit of amphetamine. That has to be a sign.


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194,772 I just noticed my headphones have braille on them for L and R. Makes it simple to get them on right in the dark. Thank you JVC!


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194,771 As I have aged I have realized that all of my interests have slowly disappeared and been replaced by concerns.   Sigh.

M/50


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194,770 All the best matches on okcupid are severely ugly.


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194,769 I have PMS and I am craving sweets more than ever! I went for a 6 mile run, came home, showered and ate half of an Entenmann’s raspberry coffee cake for dinner.  It was delicious.  


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194,768 I'm going to win you back.  Watch me.


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194,767 My cousin did the DNA test from ancestry.com.  She is four ethnicities.  Only two showed up.  How can that be?  I want to do my DNA so badly, but there were rumors about my mom (and HER mom) cheating.  I'm afraid to find out that I might not be related to anyone on my dad's side.


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194,766 I know we belong together.  In time, you will see.  Right now healing and getting rid of excess baggage is paramount.  I love you today, yesterday and tomorrow.


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194,765 God, if you're listening, it's me.
If there's any sign I'll get my happy ending, send it now please.
-Me


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194,764 I can't control my tears today.
I think i know why this time
But it's so hard to explain.
Fuck this fucked up mind.


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194,763 I took a nap to pass the time and found a nice surprise,
I had a dream with you as the star, dancing before my eyes,
You looked across our busy street and waved a friendly hello,
And I waved back with a smile and excitement as I tried to hide what’s below,
But then you got in some random truck and he kissed you on the cheek,
And the patio I stand and ponder on began to rot and reek,
My wave flew off down our busy street and into the thin air,
But there I stood with a smile on my face, resuming my curious stare,
When I woke up my heart was racing because everything felt so real,
But it was just a fantasy, nothing but false memory, which always is the deal,
And with that I say goodbye for you won’t see me again,
You’ve always been the light in the window, pants off dance off, my anonymous sexy “friend”,
I am leaving and won’t be returning because my time here is done,
But I’m near by with a curious eye, always looking for old fun.

And yes, it was me.


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194,762 Last night my wife said she hates me and doesn't want to be around me.  Words don't hurt me, but they show me something.  

She said she can't be around me because i'm miserable and negative.  Ok.

I'm miserable and negative, because my science career has been a disaster and i want to do something else.  So i've chosen another field that is tech related.  Nope she doesn't think i should go that route.

I've been in the science field for 17 years now and have been laid off 4 different times.  Each time i've eneded up starting from square one.  At the last place, I started to take on management/coordinator responsibilties...then they were bought and the lab let go.

Alright...economy fluctuates some grants dry up.

So she is against my desire to change careers, yet knows i'm unhappy at my current job.

I feel like she doesn't believe in me.


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194,761 This time of year when I'm planting my garden, I get covered in dirt. I wear old gardening clothes, but still, I can't go into the house being so dirty. If the neighbors are paying close attention, which I hope they're not, they could see me take off my dirty clothes at the back of the house, everything except my undies, and then make a mad dash to the side door. lol


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194,760 I'm lying on my resume. But it's not what you think. I'm not making myself look better. I'm down playing my past experience. I used to run a big department. I don't want to do that again. Too much stress. So I present myself as just a worker in the department. I'd be very happy taking on a simpler role.


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194,759 A huge secret is a person i know named Donald Marshall. If anyone wants a triple dose of unbelievable truth, look him up. He is genuine. Yes, the things are horrific. But true. Some of the biggest secrets on planet earth.



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194,757 I eat animal products, but if I let my mind roam, and I think about it, it disgusts me that I'm eating a creature which was once alive. I try not to think about. I think one day i might go vegan.


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194,756 I remember the exact moment I decided to marry my wife. We worked in the same industry. It’s how we met. We were dating for about a year, but no one from our working lives knew. There were times our paths would cross at a business function. We acted like we only knew each other slightly, even though we were essentially living together by then.

There was this one client dinner. About 20 people were in attendance. A guy I newly met was sitting next to me. He nodded over at my yet-to-be wife at the other end of the table, and pointed out she was hot. He asked if I knew anything about her. I said no, not really. The industry we’re in can be ragged and crude. He started talking about how he'd like to get in her pants. He went on for a few minutes about how her pussy must be golden and soft. Things like that. It was such an odd conversation. He’s saying these things to me, a stranger, not realizing I’m already sleeping with her and that.... big epiphany... the moment it first occurred to me... that I’m in love with her.

By a month later I proposed.  

What a strange catalyst. I think normally a guy gets the idea to  propose to a woman because his great aunt says she’s such a nice girl, or his friends say she is a good catch, or his mother says she’d make good looking grandkids. Light hearted innocent comments like that gets the guy thinking and eventually snowballs in a marriage proposal. Not me. I proposed because some stranger started talking to me about her pussy.

I should thank him. It was the right decision and it has worked out pretty darn well.



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194,755 They want what's in my head.




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194,754 I am a woman in an abuse relationship with another woman.  She is pregnant as are we are trying to have kids.  I only stay because I don't want her to be abuse to my child.


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194,752 I reverse searched his license plate to figure out his last name and Facebook stalk his sons. I wanted to know my son's half brothers names and if they looked alike.
His wife is beautiful and they seem to be good friends. I don't know why he thinks he is in love with me. It was only ever about the money.


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194,751 Sometimes I wish that instead of keeping my hair long for so long, I should've shortened it sooner than I did.  It used to go all the way down to my waist, but now it's a pixie cut.  I don't think I'll ever go back to having long hair again.


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194,750 I am probably the only parent on earth that hopes I outlive my child. I hope & pray he passes before me. My son is autistic and no family member will even consider taking on this “burden”. I live my life in pure torture & turmoil making myself sick wondering what will happen to him if me & his father die. I cannot imagine him being homeless, scared, cold, not eating, abused, etc. (he’s such a lovely boy). If I ever became terminally ill- I can’t even finish this sentence...


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194,749 I require so much downtime. For me, downtime is having time to read, go for a run, go to the gym, go shopping, or nap. I don’t think I have it in me to be in a relationship where I have to answer or compromise my time with someone. I wish I was different.


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194,748 I don’t understand how anybody with a conscience could consume animal products.  Fucking sociopaths.


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194,747 In my experience, all the sensitive, good looking, communicative men in my life have been gay. They are just so much better than straight men.


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194,746 I like to tell myself our love is pure and platonic.
It's hard to believe though. Especially with your fingers inside me and my hand on your cock. But I'll still tell myself it's nothing.


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194,745 I did a lot of LSD in college.  Never affected my grades or my life negatively.   Every trip I had was incredibly beautiful. I think that’s why I love rainbows so much.  I also had a trip where the entire time I felt like I was in the Van Gogh painting starry starry night.   I feel like I understand Heaven. I don’t regret these experiences and I’m very glad that I had them. Of course, now in my 40s, I don’t share this with anybody.


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194,743 Something that pisses me off. When I was a kid there were flashlights. You push the button it goes on. You push the button again it goes off. Really simple concept.

But these days, with all these brilliant new minds coming out of top schools, you push a button and the flashlight goes on. Push it again the flashlight goes off. Fine. Except, when you need the light on again and push the button, it's in flash mode where the light flickers on and off. You have to then turn it off and turn it on again to get back to normal mode.

Why the fuck is this? Why does the flashlight go into flicker mode? I'm guessing it's for an emergency beacon of sorts. But tell me this, have you ever used a flash light in emergency beacon mode?

I use a flashlight a few times a month. I've been doing so for 40 years. That's me using a flashlight about 1,000 times and never once did I need it in emergency flicker mode.

It's stupid to have flashlights default to flicker mode every other time you turn it on. It's poorly thought out and plain old idiotic. It would be like driving around in your car and half the time the airbags are deployed... you know... just in case you might need them.

Can we please go back to the old way of doing things. Modern inventions aren't always good.


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194,742 Since our brief fling boats make me so horny. I keep having to travel lately and have started the journey each time by boat.

I have been having some dirty dreams involving you and I, pretty graphically enjoying each other on the water.

Thanks for the parting gift. Now when I have to travel the entire hour or two hour trip is perverted. It’s a good job I’m not a guy or I would be sporting a woody the whole way.


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194,741 I never knew what made a woman marriable.  Is it just that she looks good, takes care of herself, and the guy is more inclined to marry her?


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194,740 I fix heavy duty electrical parts while the power is still on. Boilers and blowers in air ducts, things like that. It's easier than finding the breaker box and figuring out which switch controls which device. It gives me a thrill to live a little dangerously.


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194,739 I get it I got it you jacked with my emotions. I'm not gonna say I deserved it, though.


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194,738 When I was 17 years old I fell hard for this girl at school.  Chased her like a pathetic puppy for 4 years.  Then one day when I was 22 years old I woke up and my first thought was, "What the fuck was I thinking?"  She wasn't very attractive, she was mean, and she was kind of dumb.  I think it's funny that I just woke up one day and realized I was an idiot.


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194,737 I still have dreams about my emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend. In my dream, he was trying to lock me in a movie theatre.


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194,736 I assume by now every woman has tried anal sex. Is there any woman who hasn't?


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194,735 Did you know there are fossils on the moon? For real and truth. You know the dark spot that is always facing us? That's the bottom of our Pacific Ocean. There was a collision with an asteroid. It sheared off part of the Pacific, the hard basalt underbelly of the ocean. It was flung into space and was captured by the gravity of the moon. It's so much heavier than the rest of the moon that it is constantly pulled toward earth's gravity. That's why it always faces us. And seeing it's part of an ocean floor, there are fossils in those moon rocks. The universe fascinates.


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194,734 I'm way too horny for a girl. I have a bf and our personal life is good but I still have fantasies, sometimes about other men. Any thoughts? I would never cheat. I also have a lot of dreams....


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194,733 Please tell me I will find another man I like as much as I like him. I know I'm a fuck up who smokes and does drugs but I'm VERY smart and I pull good grades. I'm interesting. I can be sweet.

Just please tell me I'm not too broken for someone to want to be with me.


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194,732 Yeah. I'm not in a great position. I've made some serious mistakes and it's costing me. But I'm not like the failures around here. I will not submit and succumb to the failure, I won't stop and I will make it where I want to be. So now that you are pushing me away because of my failures, don't you dare try to come back around when I'm back on top. I love you, I want you. I don't need you, I won't beg you. It's now, or it's never


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194,731 Every single person I know who has gone crazy on social media showing off their new bodies and work-out routines and such has a complete bonfire of a private life. I’m sure there are exceptions, but it’s to the point where, as soon as I see somebody getting really into fitness or some diet, I know a big announcement is coming up about a divorce or break up or something like that.


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194,730 My wife teaches religion to 1st graders. A few weeks ago she gave them an in-class assignment, to draw a picture of the Virgin Mary. Most of the kids did their best. But one kid wrote on the page "Fuck You."

Ok. The kid is like 6 years old. How does he even know those words? Who are this kid's parents and what's going on in that household? Why does the kid think it's okay to say such a thing to an adult, especially in a religion class?  My wife told the church administrators. They shrugged it off saying boys will be boys. Social Services should be all over this but I'm sure nothing will be done about it.


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194,729 i just learned what "deep state" government is. Yowza.


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194,728 Why do bipolar individuals try to self medicate?


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194,727 I’ve become a volunteer with children. I don’t want to say in what capacity, but the experience has been a major letdown and so different from my memories enjoying this thing when I was a child. The other adults involved are difficult to communicate with. It is impossible to find the time to get together either of them and make plans for the kids. Thus there is no planning. Thus the children suffer and have a shitty experience. Since I started “assisting,” I have felt nothing but guilt and shame for the children’s unstructured experience that has very little to do with the organization.

I want out of this volunteer position, I don’t have any children - I was just looking to give of my time for something that I so much enjoyed as a kid. After many repeated attempts to meet with the other adults involved and those requests falling on deaf ears, or we make a plan and the other adult cancels at the last minute to get together. I am all set.

I want to see the commitment through so I will remain for the rest of the school year.

I do not want to fail the kiddos, but they are already tremendously being failed by adults who are too busy and stressed out for this commitment.


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194,726 Secret 1: There's only about ten people in the world that know exactly what my second job is. It's my hobby, and I created an actual licensed company (for reasons) to manage the content. I write erotica. Literary porn. Sexy, romantic, dirty, fantasies, you name it. I'd be mortified if my family, friends, or 1st job coworkers found out about it, so I keep it well hidden. There are three names I use, and nobody, absolutely nobody, knows about the third one. I have published well over 100 stories, and have over 100 more in the works in various stages.

Secret 2: I didn't want to be a simple consumer of the internet, I wanted to contribute to it as well. I actually pride myself in that. Just like everyone else here on CC who contribute to the internet, I'm an active producer and consumer. I secretly think less of people who only consume but don't contribute.

Secret 3: I don't believe in numerology, but when I'm tracking my statistics I see a weird pattern where numbers repeat and link to other stats. Not all of them, maybe half. It's kind of creepy, but oddly pleasant to see it happen. Maybe there's something to this numbers thing after all. I tell myself there isn't, but... maybe... just maybe... No. Well...


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194,725 Ever since we had kids, all my orgasms have been in silence. I can't risk having them hear mommy and daddy moan in sexual pleasure. This is the way it will be for the next 18 years. How depressing. I liked moaning during sex.


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194,724 Email has become silly. It doesn't work. I sent out an email from my phone to my PC. I waited a few minutes. It didn't arrive. Sigh. I sent it out again. I called the second email same as the first, except with a 2 at the end. It didn't arrive. I send out another with 3 at the end. Nothing. I sent out another with 4 at the end. Again nothing. This is over the course of 20 minutes. Like wtf?

Next day I received email #4.

Two weeks went by when out of the blue I received email #2.

It's been a few months. I never did received #1 or #3.

Email is fucked.

I have a guess as to what's happening. Everyone uses texts. No one uses email anymore. So the tech wizards at companies stopped supporting it. No one is noticing that half their emails aren't arriving. This sucks and is unacceptable. If you offer an email service, it needs to work!!!!!.


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194,723 And one day... your name didn't make me smile anymore.


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194,722 I don't know how to use twitter. I feel like such a moronic technophobe. 🤔


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194,721 We teach little children to call it a "peepee" because penis starts with p and we don't want them to say penis so instead we get them to say peepee.

But doesn't pussy also start with p?

Maybe we're the cause of the gender identity crisis in young people.


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194,720 My parents are old now, and need assistance.  I am the only child that can help, and I do, but I really do not care about them nor do I want to help.  The point will come when I just walk away, with zero guilt, if I can make it past this mess.

All I can remember are insults and nasty comments from them about my weight, looks, etc all my life.  Nothing and nobody was ever good enough for them.  I never, ever brought anyone to the house, because the immediate comparisons and insults would start.  As a result, my self esteem has always been in the dirt, and I have not ever been able to establish meaningful relationships with anyone, because I have always felt “less than” and believe that nobody could want anything to do with me.   I’m 55 now, and I just want to cry all the time.  I retired recently, and their health went immediately downhill, so I’ve been kind of forced to help them.     Is this some kind of gruesome joke on me?   Worked so hard to get away and now stuck with these people?    What kind of life is this?    Every day I think about how I could end this.   I really don’t have anyone I can tell all this to, so I am writing my secret here.  I hate them.  I really do.  I just honestly can’t remember one kind word from them in my youth.    Who does this to their kids?



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194,719 I am looking for a new job as a teacher. I found an open position which seems perfect for me. I started filling out the application but ran into a snag. The position is at a private Catholic school. I have to write an essay about how God is a major part of my life. How can this be? Isn't that illegal? A company can't turn you down for a job based on your religion. But a school can?


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194,718 Sex with my wife is really sex with myself while my wife and I both pretend she isn't falling asleep.


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194,717 I've spent half my damn life living in this same house, doing the same thing everyday. I am so ready for a change.


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194,716 Oh boy. I did it this time. I was talking on the phone to my very good friend. He was futzing with something on his computer so he put me on speaker. I didn't realize. Then at one point in the conversation I said, "How's it going with your piece of shit wife? Is she still being a pain in the ass?"

Turns out she was in the room at that moment and heard me.

There's no way of backing out from my comment. No way at all. I doubt she will ever let me in her house again.




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194,715 Doesn't anybody see what i see???? Nobody looks up at the sky any more i swear.


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194,714 I can't help but feel a bit - smug about the drug epidemic in rural America.  They always had this attitude that they're better than "city people," that they're more caring, more honest, et cetera - well, turns out your blood is just as red as ours, huh?  ;-)


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194,713 i have stalkers.
way too many.

good thing they're stupid.


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194,712 I know a woman who slept around a lot in high school and college, but insists on acting like she is some sort of virgin.  This is a woman who told me she fucked three guys at a frat party... but it wasn't "too much" because she fucked them one right after the other, and not all at the same time.  She once drove over an hour to get to my friend's house in another state, when she had never even met him before.  Showed up at his house, had a few drinks, fucked him, and drove over an hour back home.  Of course, my friend let me know immediately what happened.  I asked her if she fucked him, and she said, "No, we just chatted."  It's like she's never figured out that if people know what she's been like in the past, we're going to know what she's doing now.  But none of what she does concerns me, I'm just amazed that people build these little fantasies about themselves.


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194,711 I relate more to scifi and fantasy lives in books than i do to ppl in life.
Everyone i pass or talk to is so empty and vacant. Even their eyes.
Creepy.




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194,710 The bird that sings at four in the morning reminds me that being alone and unheard is more meaningful and real than the bird who sings in the middle of the park for all the world to see and hear.

Alone and unheard, you won’t be seeing me again.




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194,709 I think he can sense the relationship is almost over. He’s flattering me desperately and promising his undying support and love even though right now I very much need to be left alone to deal with what I have going on. I keep getting faulted for apparently not sticking to my “word” when I apparently said a year ago that we should always be there for each other no matter what. He doesn’t understanding that leaving me alone right now is being there for me and not nagging constantly to come see me even at late hours of the night. I’m tired of the clinginess. I’m tired of being shamed and nagged for doing what I need for my own well-being. I miss my freedom. I miss having peace and doing what I want with my time. This whole thing needs to end soon for his sake and mine. I hope my friends and family will shake some sense into me if I ever mention the idea of being in a relationship again.


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194,708 More than anything I wish that you would call or text me right now. I miss you so much my heart literally aches.


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194,707 I showed you the book about marital communication I bought.  I gave it to you asking you to read the first chapter so we could talk about it.  That was six months ago.  I know it's hard to talk but if we don't start, we won't last another year.


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194,706 Love isn’t real or attainable. At least not for some of us.


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194,705 I really gotta be nicer to stupid people. It’s not their fault they’re stupid. They’re not trying to inconvenience me. I have to learn patience and tolerance. Working on it


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194,704 I don’t feel suicidal or anything. But I often hope to get cancer or some terminal illness so that way I don’t have to see any of my love ones pass on before me.


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194,703 Can’t wait to find my true love.


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194,702 I avoid chemicals. I don't touch paint and turpentine and household cleansers. I fear chemicals cause cancer. I'm probably right on this. Cancer comes from somewhere.  


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194,701 My supermarket charges 10 cents for a plastic bag for my groceries. However when I use my EBT card to purchase my groceries the bags are free. I like that.


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194,700 Wish they still made Scooter Pies.


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