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195,599 Yay, pedophiles can run for Congress! Yippee! This is what life is like when Democrats are in charge. Hooray!


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195,598 I once mowed the lawn on crutches. My wife refused to do it. People were coming over. It had to be mowed. So I did it. This explains who I am. It also explains who my wife is.


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195,597 On Facebook I've blocked two people. There's a guy i dated once who later on went to prison for murder. Then there is my sister.

Some people deserve a second chance, so I'm thinking about unblocking the murderer.




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195,596 My brother in law is in his 40’s and speaks to us in baby talk.

“Awww, my wittle Sally Wally made me my favorwit dindin. Yummy! Wet’s eat!”

Dude, stop it. Fucking stop it. You’re a fucking grown man. Fucking act like it.



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195,595 My daughter wasn't invited to the prom. As her mom I guess I'm supposed to feel bad for her. But I've had this conversation with her numerous times where I point out how difficult she can be. She's a stubborn girl and a know it all. It can be a headache talking to her. I've told her it will scare people away in life and sure enough no guy asked her to the prom. She tells me I don't understand. She says it's a thing where couples don't go to the prom anymore. They go instead as groups of friends. That's why no guy asked her. Ohh, yea I see, except she's not going with a group of friends either becauuse she doesn't have a group of friends. Yea yea somehow I'm wrong on this yea yea ok, but the fact remains no one invited her to the prom as a date or in a group. If I pressed further I'm sure it's my fault somehow.


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195,594 Your baby is the size of an avocado right now.
Taking pictures of your belly to post online makes you look stupid, because you’re trying to justify being obese. You’re not “showing” yet. You’re just fat.

I can’t stand girls like that ^


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195,593 Facebook is freaking weird. When you look in the General Settings, they want to know your name, your email address, and..... whether you read temperature in Fahrenheit or Centigrade.

Ok, the first two I get. But Fahrenheit or Centigrade? This is as significant as you name and email address?

Ah Millennials.......


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195,592 I'm sorry for laughing, but your husband's name is Harry Weiner?

Really? His parents thought that was a good idea?

LOL.


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195,591 My therapist once called the police on my sister's son. It had to do with inappropriate sexual behavior. By law, the therapist had to call. I think it was 8 years before my sister spoke to me again. I was shocked too that most of my family didn't speak to me again for all those years. I learned alot from the situation. I learned the truth about who my family is. I speak to them now, but I have never gotten over the way they treated me. Someone else did something sexually "concerning", according to the therapist. I didn't do it. I was the victim. Yet I was ostracized for many years. I try not to think about it because if I did I'd never speak to any of them again.


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195,590 It's scary how good I am at pretending to be okay. I have PMDD, and am taking no meds for it even though i really need to be. Case in point: I keep a vial of eyedrops and a box of tissues on my desk at all times for when I have silent breakdowns. This is when the anxiety gets so bad that I start to cry from the stress (usually about work). I've learned how to break down, blow my nose, and fix myself up again in damn near silence. My boss's cubicle is right next t o mine, and we have high walls so I'm safe from sight. But isn't it fucked up that I'm so used to these breakdowns that I've learned how to fit them into my work day?

Trust and believe, it's not the job. I've done this in many other places, simply because I'm emotional and mentally unstable.  But bitches still gotta eat


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195,589 I’m only going to have a chance for happiness when he’s gone.


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195,588 Honestly? Occasionally the thought occurs to me that even now at 48 yrs old I still haven't come up with any one thing, skill, ability, etc that I can do better than most people.
And that depresses me quite a bit.


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195,587 I think it's selfish and unfair how a few family members abuse facebook for their own agenda. Our large family, including aunts , uncles, cousins and so forth, are all connected on facebook. There are about 40 of us. Most everybody uses it to post family photos and news of gatherings. But two people in the circle post endless political articles. I don't think they even read the articles. They find something controversial sounding and post the link. It's always one sided. It's always anti Trump.  Today took the cake. One very abrasive family member posted an article with a cover picture saying "Cunt Cunt Cunt..." My underage children are part of this facebook circle. I don't want my children reading such things. Yet it can't be avoided. I want my children to know their cousins. I want them to be part of the family conversations. But we have to dodge these inappropriate hate bullets everyday. It shouldn't be. The offenders should realize they are hogging the microphone. If they want to post their junk there are plenty of other forums to do it. But family circles on facebook should be about family matters. I never realized how self centered and oblivious these few people are until I saw their true personalities  on facebook. I wish they'd stop. But how? Suggestions welcome.


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195,586 "because I know you like them" ... this stunned me. why doesn't my partner consider me like this?


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195,585 I have a good career, own my own home, am a funny, thoughtful and caring person. None of this matters.

I'm fat. I have an incurable sti.

If it's not one, it's the other. Some days I really consider not telling potential partners.


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195,584 Well this is refreshing. My daughter is going to prom and after the main event is over, there is a girls only party. No boy students allowed. This negates the possibility of hanky panky. The girls devised this plan by themselves. Maybe there is hope for the future!


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195,583 You know what loneliness feels like? It’s being part of a group chat with 19 other people and the minute you say something the whole thing goes quiet and doesn’t spark up again until the next morning when people are saying good morning to each other.

I can’t do this to myself. I’m going to stop pretending we’re friends and bounce! Being a part of this weird thing makes me feel lonely, like a deep kind of lonely.

It’s not you people, it’s me! This time I don't want to be added back...


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195,582 Anxiety is ruining my life. It's ruining my fucking life.


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195,581 I cheated on my ex-boyfriend.
I’m a real piece of shit, and I see that every time I look I the mirror.

I know that’s why I’ll never be truly happy with myself or anyone else.
My cheating wasn’t justified except by the fact that he totally put me on the back burner, and made me feel insignificant to him. Only after the cheating did he finally tell me he was going through some things/depression, and even forgave me for my infidelity, but nope.
I couldn’t live with myself. Couldn’t look him in the face the same, and couldn’t let myself stay with someone I was in love with, and that loved me back, because I knew after the cheating that.......maybe we didn’t love each other that much after all. :/


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195,580 I don’t know how or why people are so fragile when it comes to babies and birth.

They both make me cringe.


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195,578 When I was younger, I thought I was the only "real" person and the rest of you were puppets put here to make it seem like I was living a real life. I always wondered who was running the place and making the stuff around me happen. I also thought the only things happening for real were what I could see and hear. Everything else that I heard about, read about or saw on TV were made up.

I wholeheartedly believed this into my middle 20s, though I've never told my wife or anyone else...I'm in my 40s now, and I'll probably never tell anyone else

P.S. I no longer believe that....you've done your job


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195,577 First sorry this isn't actually a secret...I try hard to only leave secrets here....that's what this space is for.
but, I'm very curious what the demographics are here.
I've seen many religions post here.
I've seen  different political views posted here
I've seen male and females post here.
I've seen a lot of ethnicities post here Asian, black, white, Latino, and others
I've seen people from several countries post here.
I've seen posts from people who are from 17...to I think 73
It's like a huge "melting pot"

I also sometimes imagine what each individual poster is like and what they look like.
sometimes I feel like I have more friends here than in the real world.
I guess I'm weird!..lol
-48M


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195,576 I think about getting revenge every day, then I look at my innocent kids and I refuse to put them thru the shit storm that would follow.
It's like I'm in AA and taking it one day at a time.
F37


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195,575 I had a job interview the other day with a guy over the phone. It was the most unprofessional interview ever. He was in his car driving home. He was caught in traffic and every minute or so he would say hold on, hold on, I'm going to change lanes. Or he would curse at someone cutting him off. I'm trying to tell him about my work experience and he interrupts to curse at the guy in the car in front of him. I think employers forget the interview goes both ways. I'm also deciding if I want to work with people like that. The answer from me is no. We eventually got cut off. I think he lost his cell signal. I never called back. Neither did he. Fine by me.


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195,574 I already miss you.


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195,573 Some men look at new women and think how amazing and beautiful they are... While other men look at your current woman, your wife/girlfriend, and are amazed.



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195,572 I feel like a hypocrite, because I am defending the poor dogs being killed in China for the dog meat festival, but I’m having chicken for lunch.

I don’t think I would be a successful vegetarian, but damn. It makes me sad..


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195,571 I recall the days of giving a shit. That time we we’re not quite dating and you wanted to take me on a date to a roller derby match. Yeah. Your ex was on one of the teams. I declined. Why the fuck would I want to accompany you to watch your ex play roller derby? Saw photos of it years later. There you are, in the back. Looking on at your ex as she turns a corner in her roller skates. Seeing it now, and knowing who you are and how you operate, you look so pathetic. I feel bad for you, because you’re alone & broken & insecure. Your perpetual attempts to break me after I’ve given you ten years of myself are really...sad. Your lack of security or substance and efforts to control me and compete with me make me feel embarrassed and sad. Ick.


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195,570 I graduated from college in 2011 and I'm not in  touch with a single person from back then. Guess we weren't really friends.


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195,569 i've pretty much managed to ignore everything i learned in health class


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195,568 I think someone is going to get gunned down. The verbal abuse has gone too far. There will be some angry guy with a gun who is tired of being called a Nazi / Racist / Bigot and he will walk right up to some political loudmouth and shoot for the head. I won't be sad when this happens.


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195,567 Now it's okay for a female tv broadcaster to call a woman a cunt?

Okay. Good to know.

All you women out there, you are cunts.



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195,566 I have very angry thoughts about politics in this country today, but I say nothing for fear I will lose my job and my friends. When you think about it, that's really twisted. We live in the land of free speech, yet I can't say what I think without reprisal.


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195,565 My mom died a year ago today.  She had Alzheimer’s and Cancer. It was a real raw deal.  

I am not sure how I feel on this anniversary.  My mom’s death was, to a large extent, a relief.  She was finally relieved of the hell she had lived through for almost four years.  I and my family were relieved of having to watch it happen and the burdens of caring for her.  So while I am sad, I know that her pain is over and we can live our lives

What saddens me most though, is not that she died – though the manner of her death was awful.  What saddens me the most was her life.  I knew my mother for 49 years, and as far as I can recall most of them were unhappy.  To be honest, my mother was generally a miserable person.  She was negative about everything and everyone.  She had no real friends that I could remember, save one friend for a short while later in life before that friend died. I am rather sure that my mom did not really love or even like my dad and she did not go to any lengthy to hide her distain.  She shunned almost all other outside family.  

But she was my mom.  I loved her despite her shortcomings; though because of them I found it hard to like her once I became an adult.  So, I miss you mom.  I wish you could still be here to see your grandchildren getting bigger – I know they were possibly the once source of happiness in your life.  It sucks that your illness robbed you of enjoying them in your last years.  

I wish you had a better life.  That is the thought that makes me cry the most.



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195,563 My wife had inappropriate contact with a former boyfriend. Meaning she was meeting up with this guy and lying to me about where she had been and what she had been doing with him. I still don't know exactly what went on. To this day I think my wife lied about how far they went. It's the biggest unresolved issue in my marriage and I think it will lead to our divorce..

Looking for answers I called the ex boyfriend to hear what he had to say about it. Rather than being apologetic and helpful, as I would expect if he was innocent, he was cagey as hell. He was intentionally being obnoxious to me and refused to discuss his recent encounters with my wife.  

He wasn't a good guy. He was also a stupid guy because I then called his wife. What did he think, that I was going to keep his secret for him?

I told her what I knew. She was shocked. She was angry. She was tearful. She was my new best friend. She told me about their marriage troubles. She looked on her calendar to cross check dates where my wife lied to me about being with him. She found he was lying too.She had it written down that he was at a client dinner when in fact I knew he was at a party with my wife. And the big kahuna, my wife went away for a few days to Boston on business. She swore up and down that the boyfriend wasn't there. Sure enough, his wife had it in her calendar that her husband was away on business for those same few days  in.... Boston.

So many lessons. People lie. Spouses lie. Spouses cheat. Cheaters are dickheads. People are stupid.


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195,562 I'm taking tomorrow off. It's my birthday. Sure wish I had someone to fuck besides my fist.


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195,561
My ex came back into the picture. Its been 2 years since ive seen him. Hes sending sexy texts and pictures and wants to meet up.

I told him I have herpes now. I'm no different besides this skin stuff that I take medicine for and now have to tell partners. I'm not afraid of rejection. I just hate feeling this disgusting when it's not that big of a deal. He deserves to know, though.


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195,560 There's this guy I like, we talk a lot.  He's white, and apparently there's some white on white stuff going on in the world, I'm not white so I don't know about it.  White women against white men.  They'll say things like "youre just an entitled privileged white man" but I don't understand because they're white too.  Sounds hypocritical.  Anyway he'll talk about "our white women" talking against white men, and how they're not gonna save these women from the b.s. out there.  Huh?  I'm latina, what do I care about this?  We talk sexually and all, and as friends,  but why would you tell me about protecting "our white women" when I'm not white?  



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195,559 My 90 year old mother in law is having both of her knees replaced tomorrow.  PLEASE can she just have some surgical complications and let go and leave me and my husband ALONE.

She's awful. She NEVER shuts up about how we need to have 20 million kids or how I need to practice her religion or vote like her.  My husband doesn't really want me to vote or worship like her, but he really wants me to get along with her. Which means, I would have to change myself into an exact copy of her.

Just DIE, would you?  You'd be contributing to the longevity of your son's marriage if you'd just leave us alone...!!!


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195,558 I want his dark chocolate dick to cum inside my white pussy. I miss the way he bites me when he cums.... and the way he tastes.


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195,557 My son's preschool is having a fund raiser at a bar, where 10% of the money from all the drinks purchased go back to the school. It's a preschool and we are supporting it by getting the adults drunk. Whatever happened to bake sales? By the way, the preschool is run by the church. Now I've seen it all.


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195,556 To defeat the monster, you must become the monster.


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195,555 An ex ruined it for me by contacting a woman I was dating.


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195,554 Someone got angry with me today over something I did, but it's something that is not as big of a deal that they are making it out to be. I feel dreadful, but I'm realizing something, I always try to please crazy unrealistic people and feel like a failure when I can't. After all these years, I'm wondering why I can still be made to feel like a crushed leave. Interacting with bipolar people does that to you I guess. I made a mistake and now let's move on, tell me what I can do to fix it and not walk away saying you're done talking about it though you're clearly not over it.




But I still feel bad


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195,553 My advice about offering advice to friends: Do not do it. Just don't. Experience has taught me that each and every time I give honest frank advice I lose a friend. I notice that I see them less and less. I no longer get invites to bbq's and social occasions. Then they just ghost out on me. Never once had any of them said they were offended or angry. But it's one less friend for me. I am taking a vow of silence. The older we get the more difficult it is to make new friends. I want to keep the ones I have so I think I'm just going to keep my mouth shut for now on. Life can feel so lonely especially when you feel like you can't even talk with the people you call your friends.


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195,552 My boss said to me if I was more submissive maybe I'd be married with kids by now.  He was saying it as a joke, there was lead up making it too long a story for me to tell here.  He's a cool guy, but he's very gruff and usually I find it funny, it's amusing.  But that hit really close, because I am submissive.  I don't wanna be the boss or dominant one, I like when a guy takes charge.  Problem is my ex, who I was with for years, had an abusive streak and bad temper and I had to leave him.  I'm in my 30's, I know these super old fashioned guys think that if you're a single female in your 30's there's something wrong with you, well that's my story.  I spent a very long time in a relationship that was unhealthy, and here I am.  I live in a city where anything goes, but there are pockets that it's like time forgot.  I know lots of girls older than me who haven't even had long term relationships...that's a red flag for anyone, man or woman.  So it's starting to get to me, working for him.  I really enjoyed it, but now he picks on this, all in good fun, but it hurts because i know what i put up with with my ex.  He acts like it couldn't have been bad, because he doesn't know.  I know other girls who worked for him, all were "sensitive" as he put it.  No, maybe he says things he shouldn't?  Gotta find another job.


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195,551 I can't help but laugh at the precious white snowflakes on my Facebook all up in arms over Starfuck's new policy of letting customers loiter. You'd think their civil rights were being taken away from them or they were being forced to slave away in a diamond mine.

Why, where will they go to meet up with other obnoxious PTA moms? What will become of the (actually really shitty and narcissistic) semi-autobiographical novel they can only write when 100% jacked on Verona blend? Where will they meet up with the other stay-at-home douchebag they're secretly banging while their spouse is at work?

Oh noes, they might have to wait for a seat... Or even bring their coffee home! Perish the thought!

Of all the injustices in the world!

Sigh. No one has self-absorbed wrath like uppity, white, middle class suburbanites. Yeah, maybe now you have just a little inkling what it's like when the last gay club in town gets closed down or your neighborhood gets gentrified.

Now, go polish your fucking BMW.


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195,550 Having a double standard might be acceptable to some companies, but it's not acceptable to me. I think it's time to boycott Disney.


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195,549 you are posting pics of your Fitness progress. But you got your stomach LapBanded! wow, amazing discipline you have!


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195,548 My wife travels quite a bit for work, I'm good with taking on the solo parent role to support her. For years she would come home and pick a fight over some stupid thing that slipped in her absence, simple stuff like the laundry not completed, lawn was too long, trash wasn't emptied in one room etc.  Took me a while but I realized it wasn't the task undone that bothered her but that the kids and I were perfectly fine in her absence.
So now I don't water the plants on the front porch a few days before she comes home, she sees them, grabs the hose and waters them....she walks in feeling needed and life is good.


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195,547 I have an idea how they can continue the Roseanne show.  They just have an episode where a stunt woman (or man) dressed as Roseanne falls down the stairs and breaks her neck.  They can have the ragged and bloody head roll off her shoulders and out toward the audience, et, voila, no more Roseanne!  The show can then continue without her.  I am sure it would be a better product anyway.  


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195,546 I have this great idea for an app.

Since phones can act as a GPS, imagine if you could run an app where a map appears showing the location of all your family members. That would be so cool and useful. You'd always know where your family members are.

You know, it would be like FindMyIphone.... except that it would work.


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195,545 Last week I hurt my hip joint. I jumped down from a table and my skirt got caught on a chair and I ended up landing too hard on one leg. I've been in pain ever since. I'm not worried about it. I know it will eventually calm down. But until then I've been holed up where all I can do is sit or lie down. The thing is, I haven't bathed since it happened. That's a week of me not washing any part of my body. I AM STINKY! I have never gone so long without bathing. Today I think I have to crawl into the shower and sit on the shower floor and re-introduce my kitty to soap and water. Wish me luck.


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195,544 I have learned that if I call to order a pizza and a guy answers the phone, if I make my voice sound sexy, he will be much nicer to me on the phone and I will get better service.


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195,543 Valerie Jarrett responded and said it's Trump's fault Roseanne made the Planet Of The Ape tweet. Ahh, the agenda comes out. It's Trump's fault. Everything is always Trump's fault.

She should have kept her mouth shut and let the momentum build against Roseanne. But now that I'm reminded of who Valerie Jarrett is, just another political operative looking to strike where she can. I have no pity for her.

The Roseanne show should be reinstated. Except Fox should pick it up. I'm done with ABC and all the political games.


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195,542 I don’t even have enough confidence to stand at the alter in front of all our friends and family, with my fiancée.
The sheer thought sends me into a panic, and I feel like I might just vanish into thin air from the feeling.


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195,541 I left early to go home because I felt like you didn't want me there. I feel bad for taking up space in you life. Somebody better than me should be there.


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195,540 My best friend is a guy. He started dating someone. I didn't think I cared. But I'm jealous.

I wish I had someone who was as excited about me as he is about her.


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195,539 I’m lonely. I kind of want to have an emotional affair.


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195,538 I'm kind of horrified to realize how much adults drink and drive.


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195,537 I'm in my mid-fifties. I still look basically like I always did, but I can see I'm getting older. I was fretting about it. You know, "Should I dye my hair? But then I'll have gray roots. Should I start saving up now for a blepharoplasty? Have fillers put in?"

But then I was watching TV and there was a show on about a family, and the grandmother really impressed me. She looked like she'd been attractive in her youth. But she was probably in her seventies. She had gray hair and lines on her face. But her hair was cut in a unique style, she had a pair of cool-looking glasses on, she wasn't dressed like she was trying to still be 25, but she wasn't dressed like an old lady either.

But what made her so special was you could see she was totally comfortable in her own skin, totally comfortable with who she was. If I could sum up her attitude, it would be something like: "Yeah, I was young once. I had my day in the sun. Well, now I'm old. So what? That's the way life is. You just gotta rock what you've got."

I know it sounds like a cliche but seeing her really changed my perspective. I stopped worrying about no longer looking young and started rocking what I've got. And it feels really, really good. So thanks, Cool Gran! You're an inspiration.


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195,536 I fucked a woman outside of my marriage a few months ago.

I mentioned this to three of my closest female friends.

All three of them think what I did was great.  They're all for it.  They wanted to know the dirty details.  How did she fuck me?  Did I eat her pussy?  Did she give good head??

I was shocked.  Turns out women are just as bad as men.





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195,535 This is long but I have to get this off my chest. I used to have a dog. I loved this dog. My kids loved this dog. Just thinking of her still brings tears to my eyes. I’ve never really stopped thinking of her.
I don’t excuse what I did and I don’t forgive  myself but I have to share this with someone. I’ve kept it a secret all these years.
My ex husband came home with a dog one day when my oldest daughter was a toddler and my youngest didn’t even exist. It was a skinny mutt that his friend was going to just put on the street. Maybe 2-3 years old. Maybe older. We took her to the vet, got her healthy, fed her. She put on weight. She became our family dog. She slept with me every night, she let the children climb all over her. She went on vacations with us.
My husband and I divorced. We fought over the kids and dog. I got custody of both. The kids would have been devastated if he took the dog. After the divorce, I was really broke. Most of the family income was from my husband but I still made sure our dog had everything she needed. One day, many years later, she started limping. I thought she had sprained her leg, she was old. It didn’t go away, I took her to the vet, she needed a surgery but it was going to be thousands of dollars. The vet prescribed pain meds and said keep an eye on her. He kinda shamed me for not being able to afford the surgery. Some time goes by, I know my dog is getting really old but she’s still happy. She still plays and enjoys our company. She starts having serious issues walking sometimes and possibly has Dementia. She still seems happy but I know I need to take her to the vet so I do. He says I need to put her down. I’m broke. My vet is $175. He won’t do a payment plan. I call around and all the other vets wanted to charge a visit and to put her down. At this time in my life, $175 was a lot of money so I start saving but something always happens. My car breaks down or the heater in the house breaks. The kid gets a cavity.  I’m always behind on everything. My dog gets worse and worse, the one thing I have been able to do is keep up with her pain medicine. She’s half blind and has episodes where she just trembles. This dog is the oldest pet I’ve had in my entire life, we don’t know how old she is exactly but we have had her 15 years. My kids are teens now. One day while I’m at work she somehow gets stuck behind a table I have in the living room. When I get home she has tried to fight her way through the table and has somehow broken her teeth and maybe her jaw. There is blood everywhere.  She’s screaming in pain and panting. I call my vet right away. It’s night, they refer me to an emergency clinic. I call them, they want $350 just to see my dog and they won’t do a payment plan. I have $27. She’s cryjng softly so I give her some pain medicine. I clean her up. It seems like she is in a lot of pain.
I don’t know what to do. The kids are thankfully at their dad’s house on a rare visit. I call a few people to borrow money from but no one will lend it as I owe more them money from emergencies. It physically hurt me to see my dog like this and know I cannot afford to help her. I think back to once when I was a kid that my mom put a kitten to sleep with some pills that has been attacked by the dog. Granted, this seems insane but we lived in the country and my mom was kinda a nut. I’m desperate. I remember the kitten fell asleep peacefully in my arms. I google how to put your dog safely to sleep at your house and a whole bunch of combinations of that sentence. I finally find a website, that has since disappeared, that had a bunch of suggestions. The one that seemed the most humane was to give your dog a bunch of pain pills and sleeping pills,  which I had, then to smother them with a pillow. The pills are expired but not by long. I thought of the kitten. I don’t know what I was really thinking, it was a very stressful and down time in my life, but I decided to do it. I made a whole bunch of ground meat balls and shoved them with pills. I fed them to my dog. She wagged her tail. I pet her and told her I loved her, that she was a good dog and soon she wouldn’t hurt anymore. I tried not to cry because I didn’t want to upset her. It took a while but she went to sleep. I tested it to see if she was deeply asleep and she didn’t wake up. I got a pillow and placed it over her face. I had to press really hard per the instructions.
Midway through my dog woke up. She was drowsy and weak but tried to fight a little. It was horrible. I stopped. I sobbed. I begged her forgiveness. She of course forgave me. She’s a dog. I cried for a really long time with my dog right there with me. I got up and made her a little snack. I decided in the morning I would get a pay day loan and take her to my vet. They could hopefully be able to fix her mouth or if she really had to put sleep I would do it the sane way. We go to sleep in my bed together.
But it turns out some of the pills I gave her were poisonous —-in the middle of the night I heard her running around. I turn on the light and she was vomiting really bad. She was having issues breathing and was running around bumping into things. She was panicked. I got up and tried to calm her down and she died. Just that quick. I was devastated. I killled my dog. I sobbed with her in my arms for an hour. I got up eventually, she had apparently been all around the house before I woke up. There was vomit and things knocked over everywhere. I cried again, basically had a freak out moment. I caused my dog so much pain.
We buried her and had a funeral in the back yard. It’s been years, almost 8, and I still get upset about it all the time.
I wish everyday I could take it back. Go back in time. It haunts me. I’ve never told anyone and I probably never will. To me I did something so horrible that I will never be able to forget it or forgive it. When I think of how wonderful that dog was, how sweet, and how awful her death was.
I’m doing slightly better financially now and one of my goals is to start a fund that helps low income families pay for their pets health care. I have talked to a few people about it.
I know there are a lot of problems in the world but for a lot of people, pets really make their lives better and they should be able to take care of them without resorting to desperate measures.
That is my biggest and darkest secret. I will take it my grave.




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195,534 My teenage daughter is condescending to me. I don't know how to get her back.


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195,533 When driving alone I use the time to pluck out my nose hairs.


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195,532 It's a rare day at work where I don't fuck around on the internet for at least 2 hours.


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195,531 195,522.......... er........... you see the problem?


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195,530 I'm the husband with the wife you think has neurological problems. I swear she is just lazy. She doesn't want to think about anything she says or does.

That said, an incident last night could be confusing to an outside observer. I was in bed doing a crossword puzzle. She comes bounding into the room and looks over at me. She stops dead in her tracks and slowly tiptoes backwards out of the room while whispering, "Sorry, I didn't realize you were on the phone."

I say, "Wait wait wait. This is a good opportunity for us to analyze. Why did you think I was on the phone?"

She says, "Well, because when I came in, I heard you talking to someone."

"But I wasn't talking. I'm silently doing a crossword puzzle."

She shrugged and said, "Well why don't we discuss this later when you're off the phone." Then she turned and left.

I understand why some people might think this is a neurological issue.It's hard for me to argue otherwise. But it's an extreme form of self centered laziness. She gets a thought in her head. She's the most stubborn person ever. She can't change her thought because that would mean she made a mistake. Prime rule for her, she never makes a mistake. So even though i say to her I'm not on the phone, I'm doing the crossword, it goes in one ear and out the other. She can't be bothered to parse my words. It's too much effort for her. So she'll talk to me later after I'm off the phone.

Try living with this.


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195,529 We almost had it all.


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195,528 If you're almost 30 and you're dating someone in their teens, you're most likely a bum. That's why you're going for someone whose problems you can actually handle. Sorry i can't hide the disgust on my face. Fucking predators


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195,527 It was a joke ABC, it was a joke. Roseanne is a comedian. She makes jokes. But okay have it your way. I won't watch your network anymore.


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195,526 I haven't had sex since I found out I have herpes. I take my meds and haven't had symptoms in 2 years. I want to date again but I'm not sure anybody will take risk bc I'm not enough. Doesn't help that I'm a big girl who is into black men.

Last time I tried dating he was afraid to touch me. He let me meet his family and talk about the future but wouldn't touch me. I don't want that again.


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195,525 I watch old movies with my children because there is no sex and no cursing. What a relief. Our society used to be a different place. We used to have a sense of decency. It has been replaced by characters in main stream children's movies calling each other "penis breath".


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195,524 HE is away. If you call me, I will invite you over and we will FUCK.


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195,523 And I thought I had it bad!

The moms in my sister's town love to complain online. It's what they do all day long. I've read some of the posts.They are petty, nasty and judgmental. They remind me of the girl gangs in junior high school who bullied everyone else. They are awful people.

This week they are complaining about the celery sticks in the lunch room. I kid you not. It used to be that a lunch was served with three celery sticks, each two inches long. But under a new plan by the food service provider, a lunch will now be served with two celery sticks, both three inches long. Uuuummm, you do the math. It's the same amount of celery.

The moms are outraged though. They have started a petition to stop this "flagrant disregard for the health of the students."Like holy fuck you whack-a-doodles. What the hell is wrong with you ladies. Get a life!

They will complain about anything. My heart goes out to the lunch service provider and all school employees who have to put up with these people.


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195,522 I don't trust the secrets where comments aren't allowed.


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195,521 #195,518 that's purpose of social media, to brag while pretending you are not. Wow do I hate facebook. It's enabling bad behavior and ruining our world.


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195,520 I think God is testing me to see how much abuse I can take from my wife before I finally break.

Today's mishap. I have the day off. I have plans for things I was going to go do. But my car is gone. How can that be? My wife's car is gone too. I call her. She tells me she lent my car to her friend for the next few days while her friend's car is being repaired. She didn't ask me about this. She just did it.

How could she do that? Who lends the husband's car without even asking. She's so desperate to impress her friend. That's why she did it. She wants to get in all chummy with her friend. Now what am I supposed to do with no car????????

This is so fucked up. My wife treats me like a doormat. Now she has her friends rubbing their muddy boots on me too.


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195,519 If I don’t stop drinking I’m going to die.  Soon.


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195,518 Some people are so entitled, my husband donates so much money and time in causes we both believe on . Just because we don't brag about it on social media , or you don't see us doing things for the poor doesn't mean we aren't helping . My husband has busted his butt to be where he is today , no one gave him anything he started at the bottom just like a lot of people.  So please stop it with help the homeless, give your money to the poor blah , blah , blah .  It's his money , his choice we get to decide which families and charities we help on our community not you or anyone else.


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195,516 Tell me why I still love you



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195,515 I know this lady that's going to piss me off past my breaking point soon. She's a fucking princess who thinks she can do no wrong, is a control freak, and thinks she is better than everyone else, and holy shit the amount of smack she talks about others is insane.
Take a note, people. Look at your lives. Look at how you talk about others, and what you expect others to do for you. This isn't about men vs women, it's about the ability to fend for yourself.
This is my secret. I am nice to this lady. I've gone WAY out of my way to help her. I've taken vacation time from work to cater to her needs. I've bent over backwards to help her, given money I couldn't afford, and time I shouldn't have given. My secret is that today was the last straw. This princess attitude has got to fucking end, and I will help it. I'm done being the nice guy. I'm actually looking forward to her next "emergency" when she cries wolf and I laugh it off, saying I'm too busy to help while I drive to the park and sit on a bench to people-watch.


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195,514 I'm 27. I'm scared of being away from home, from my mom. It's hindering the fact that I want to join the army or navy.


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195,511 My wife went away with her friends for the long weekend, left me home with the kids.I did all the laundry, cleaned the house, took the kids clothes shopping, tons of yard work, went to Costco to restock the pantry, cleaned her car and filled it up with gas invited her parents for dinner tonight and made leg of lamb, roast potatoes, hollandaise sauce and grilled asparagus. Her comments after dinner...you emptied the vacuum in the wrong trashcan, can't you do anything right?


I know I'm not always the best husband/parent but really?


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195,510 Today in the USA is Memorial Day. The day to recognize and mourn those people who have died for our country. For our flag. For our anthem. For our way of life. For liberty across the world, no matter how many times other despots try to run their countries into the ground by leading a failing agenda.
I am a disabled veteran. I have lost too many friends and co-workers to a military death, and I have more friends that are disabled. They don't have the strength to walk, to pick up their children when they cry, and some need a pharmacy to even sleep.
Today, I once again pledge an oath to my country, my flag, and my anthem. Today, I once again ban the NFL and the other haters that happily disgrace my flag for a false narrative. I won't pay to subscribe to TV channels or internet sites that celebrate race-baiters. Sports aside, I refuse to support, in any way, those un-American assholes that want to burn my flag, piss on our liberties, and otherwise demean our great country. Yes, our politicians may suck ass at times, but i love my country, and I won't abide disloyal people. They can leave if they hate this place so much.
I'm not really sorry, but I can't not post this today. I'm mourning the friends I've lost, but yet around me, these assholes are talking trash about my country. I need better friends. I realized these people in this room should thank a veteran for the way they are allowed to talk this kind of shit, and they need to look to other countries that are living the political BS that they want to have, then see where it leads.
Sorry for getting political, CC. I really am. But holy shit, people need to think more than 12 minutes into the future to see where their stupid utopian dreams will lead.
Semper Fi, bitches. Happy BBQ Day, and a salute (with a tear) to those who never made it home for the ribs and steak. I miss you.


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195,509 Not only does my wife have a drinking problem, she encourages our 17 year old daughter to drink with her.


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195,508 If you're in a sorority or fraternity, I will automatically think you're a slut and a trashy person in general.


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195,507 I feel as though my Mom will never be proud of me because I won't be as accomplished or hardworking as my sister. She says she's proud, but I can tell in her voice that she isn't. It has completely changed my opinion of myself.


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195,505 SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE LAUGHED AT ME


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195,503 I'll always remember the way you sit.


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195,502 I hate all the gushiness over new born babies.

"Your baby is so cute."

"You baby is beautiful."

These are all empty words. It's what gets said about every new born baby everywhere. This is apparently a secret to the mothers of newborns.


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195,501 My wife's sister is anorexic. This seems to be a secret to my wife's entire family. Interesting how people see only what they want to see.


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195,500 Taxpayers should stop funding public schools to the absurd extent we do. My son's high school has two Latin teachers. As if studying Latin will prepare students for a future career. We also bought several golf carts for the coaches to ride around the fields. Aren't the coaches supposed to be physically active? No, they need to ride around in golf carts. The top administrators are given free cars - because that helps the students get smarter? My favorite pet peeve, the Board of Ed meetings are catered with dessert items for the staff while the parents in the audience look on and watch them eat. This is a good use of educational funding? Let's get real! Cut all this crud.


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