You are a liar, part of the reason I have never been able to trust men. You claimed to love me but you just cut me off from your life--through a letter with no message of love. I don't believe you loved me. Nobody will ever love me. I'm unloveable.

I am not worthy of your Love nor Affection

The universe is sending good things my way....
I can't wait to see what the next few months will bring!
Hopefully happiness, peace, and love. True love, the kind your heart aches for, the kind you wait for years for. I think I have found it! Don't lose hope all you romantic types out there, it can happen.

I'm having an affair.... Have been for  a few months.
I want to end it.
Just not worth the risk.....
Married female, mother of 3

I can't sleep because I keep having nightmares about you screwing one of my friends. I hope it's not some psychic vision. She doesn't have half the looks or personality that I do. It really makes me want to beat her ass!

ive convinced most people in my life that i dont lie,i say im really bad at lying and that you could tell that im lying.but thats a lie.im a good liar when i wanna be,scary good.but everyone in my life thinks im a bad liar and i dont do it cuz im also a very honest person,wont lie 2 protect ur feelings,just 2 protect my time.and  my secret...im an amazing liar and sometimes its awesome but i think i might feel bad about it sometimes.or is that a lie i tell myself?

i love her. alot. my heart literally sings when i think about her or see her of just hear her voice for a minute.  
but theres always a bad part
i have to pretend its a guy making me this happy. i cant even tell my mom who the love of my life is. [and she IS the love of my life] the girl i love doesnt even know yet. i havent said it back because i dont want her to think im just saying it back you know?
besides she's like... 8 years older? even my sister doesnt approve i mean SATs are tomorrow and all im gonna be thinking about is her.
fuck i just wanna BE WITH HER!!!!!
i love you, apple.

(This secret is only for those who believe in God.)

When things aren't going the way you'd like, put your life in God's hands.  Tell Him that.  Ask Him specifically for what you want.  Now I don't mean go all crazy and ask for a new BMW to be delivered to your doorstep, but if you need a new car, for example, say, "God, please give me the means to be able to afford a new car within six months (or whatever).  I put my trust and my life into Your hands."

I'm not some over-the-top religion freak.  Just a normal mom, and a pretty good Catholic.  I pray every day, thanking God for what I have and to continue to bless me.  But when I ask Him *specifically* for something and trust that He is going to help me, I get what I ask for literally immediately.  IMMEDIATELY.  It's crazy.  I was just so frustrated and tired of things the other day, I did this, asked for something so unrealistic...and I had it within hours.

I've been to hell and back a few times, thought I'd struck the very bottom with no way out...but I made it out, and so can you.  There is someone there who wants to help you...  

...all you have to do is ask.  And trust.  =)

I have been thinking about you way too much lately.  I don't know why and why should I care?  I haven't spoken to you for such a long time.  But my secret is: If you came back towards me, I would take you back in a heartbeat!

I waited till I was 20 to sleep with a guy.  He was one of my best friends. He didnt speak to me for 2 years. I slept with another friend when I was 30. it took 10 years to work up the courage to try again.  For the second time another friend is lost to me.  I am now 31 i dont think I can wait another 10 years or loose another friend.  I am craving the warmth of a lover in my life.  I hope I can last untill my someone comes along.     Please let it be soon!!!

I like chewing on a piece of mint gum for five minutes then sucking my husbands cock. It's delicious.

Pussy isn't for free fellas!

I'm such a preacher. I always talk about abstinence and how I don't drink. I look down upon people who smoke cigarettes, and I seem to despise people who use illicit drugs.

My secret is that I wish I could get high once. Just once. No consequences. No paranoia. Just reach the state of totally high, just to know what I'm missing out on. I need to know what that euphoria feels like.

But I'll never do it. I told myself I'd never take a hit of cocaine or shoot myself with heroin. I suppose that high will have to remain a mystery.

I wish you would give me a chance. I promise I won't disappoint you.

Im really lonely. all i want is for someone to love me. Some one to care about me

I got him Mafia Wars friends on FB so that he'd take me out of his Top Mafia.  I tried to get him a job so he wouldn't transfer to my school next semester.

I'm eliminating him through kindness and I really hope it works.

I like anal sex! There I said it! Most of my fantistsys are of you lubeing me up, and fucking me into the wall, washer, shower, bed, desk, floor, pillows, even in the National Park. I am tired of you only fucking my pussy. you even said you also like anal better as well. Come on love fuck me the way we want.

18/F

I am not worthy of your Love nor Affection

I have GOT to stop being so fucking gloomy. Who is this Emo taking over my life?! I don't like this girl, she needs to leave and let me have my sunshine back.

My secret: I want to get high. No, I NEED to get high.

Im fatter & uglier than your wife. So at first I was wondering why you were attracted me. Then I realized it all:

1. you get to have meaningless sex with me
2. I suck your dick better than she ever will
3. I am willing to try different things because I like sex
4. you dont have to call me or talk to me for days or even weeks after its all over
5. you go home to your family and Im left feeling satisfied from the sex, but empty inside when your gone.

Where did I go? Why am I doing this? Not sure, but until I find someone to fill this void I will still do you.

It's frightening that all he'd have to do is ask, and I'd give in.

I can't stand being around you because you cause me to feel pain and I dont like a lot of what you do. On the other side I need you! I cant go a day with out you!!! sadly you are a guy and i know you don't float my way. The worst part is that you are my best friend and you tell me your deepest secretes and if I told you mine our friendship would end.

Secret 1: Earlier this year I started offering massages to men I met off Craigslist to pay rent. NYC even Queens is expensive. I don't have actual intercourse with any of my clients, except for one. Secret 2: I think , NO! I KNOW I am falling for him. The connection when I'm with him makes me weak, but strong at the same time. I want him and only him, and would stop tomorrow if he would just say the words. Secret 3: I have a drafted email from 2 weeks ago that I should send to tell him I can no longer see him, but after today I'm not that strong. DAMN:(

Please just love me. Please. I know that it's a lot, but I wouldn't ask for anything more.

i really hate the word "Daddy"

I don't like sex anymore....I used to...but that was before rape, and physical abuse followed by rape again by my husband. There were many years I tried to fill an empty space with lots of men. Then I realized that a woman was what I wanted. Now at this point I have no self esteem and am your basic run of the meal nothing special fat assed lazy bitch
.

I smoke weed everyday as well.

Thats my secret, literally not one person i know knows i smoke weed.

So here i am smoking 1/8ths everyday and noone even has an idea.

I'm numb........there is only so much rejection a person can take...........I don't even feel love.....and for just once i want to be loved.......

I get high everyday. Only weed, but I smoke so much (wake n bake, you name it) that I smoke to get normal. Sad...

35/m

When I get high I cut myself.
I get high everyday...

This past year ive fucked up my life so much.

I hate drugs.

I have finally experienced what "making love" is.
SOOOOO much better than fucking, gotta tell ya.



Besides that, I'm the happiest I've been in a grotesquely long time, and everyone thinks I'm faking it.
No, I REALLY AM HAPPY. Accept it, please.

I want you. I have you. I release you, And you will return.
And this is the reason-I love you.

I've lost all hope and nobody knows it but me.

Union-
If you read this, You'll know that I'm in love with you. I need you forever.
The thing stopping us?
You're gay.
And
it
SUCKS.

I saw the JK Wedding Dance for the first time last night (after The Office episode, of course) and I almost cried.

35/M

I know I've said time and time again that I'm over you.. but I'm not I still in love & lust with you!

She unknowingly almost drove me to suicide this past winter.

My first job after high school was in a candy factory which shall remain nameless. My job was to stand on a platform in front of a bagging machine, on a line with three other women, putting candy in the compartments that led to the bags.

At break, I noticed there was a lot of trampled candy on the platform. As everybody else left for break, I picked up the trampled candy and tossed it into the long bin behind the platform.

Later that day, I saw a guy with a big tub come and empty the bin. I said to the woman next to me, "Where is that candy going?" and she said, "It's just scrap. It can be melted down and remade into fresh candy."

So if you ate a certain brand of candy in the early 1980s and got sick, it could've been because of me. I apologize.

I'm going to marry you because I have to... not because I want to. I'm thinking that's a really bad way to start off. Oh well, may God's Grace be over us.

You know, I feel like you've shit on me. After I stuck by you through everything, you can't deal with me now because I'm moody? At least I'm not beating up cops. In any case, I'm royally pissed off.

Despite that, I desparately miss bunnies.

I think the Universe has a personal vendetta against me. How much bad is one person supposed to take before they break? I've tried to stay strong, keep my head held high and tell myself to rise above it. I can't anymore. I am physically, emotionally and psychologically drowning in my own life and there's no escape. I wish it would just end.

I laughed harder than I have in a long time today.  Should it matter that it was at someone else's expense?

Louise, I hope we stay in touch. Something tells me that one of these days, or years even, the time will be right. Oh how I look forward to that time. C

I havent had sex since february. Sex has become so meaningless to me.
I dont want to have sex just to have sex.
I want more than drunkin hook ups or a fuckbuddy that means so much more to me, than me to 'them'..

I want a real relationship. I want to go the distance. I want to cry over our first real fight and fall asleep wrapped around eachother.
Blahh. fml
"If only.. if only..."

Stop giving me mixed signals. You're gay, though part of me wishes you weren't.

A secret know only to me: You're an ass.

Yolanda...give it to me already ;) I'm diein to eat your tight little ass and pussy ;)

When you get pregnant or a STD I will laugh and not help you. Serves ya right bitch.

I'm in my 20's and I'd rather sleep and be comfortable in my nice warm bed than have sex w the guy I'm messing with! If given the choice between comfort and sleep or sex, i'd choose comfort and sleep!  this worries me, i'm too young to be thinking like this...

I'm content with life. but that's all it is content. I'm not happy. I'm not sad. merely content.

I'm still in love with a man that is nine years younger than me and I met him when he was seventeen.  I cheated on my husband with this man.  He eventually left me since I could not find the courage to leave my husband.

I am still with the same husband that I could not leave.  I work all the time to support my husband and my child.  My husband refuses to work or even at the very least help with cleaning the house.  My husband loses his temper easily and treats me like crap at times but I grin and bear it.  I guess it's just my lot in life.

I really still love the man I had an affair with and I day dream about him all the time.  I lie to myself by saying because my husband has endured more time with me that his love is probably more true than the love from the guy I cheated with.  I once even said this to the guy I cheated with when we had a fight when he was tired of me never leaving my husband.

I will probably always be with my husband

Please destroy the nudes...those aren't yours anymore...only if you take new ones will you be able to do that. I miss you so terribly! The only balcony we will ever sit on will be here in Louisiana. I can't or trust to ever make another trip to Va again. Way to far from my safe haven. If you love me in the depts you say you do then hope will bring you here for another chance of happiness. I love you and forever Here I stand.
P

I'm a really good wife. Have stayed fit and sexy by maintaining myself well. Educated, accomplished. Good mother, good housekeeper, involved in my world.

Throw my husband into bed every chance I get, rock his world, then bake him a pie and give him intelligent companionship.

And, remarkably, there have been several problems I couldn't get him to address...

UNTIL, I withheld sex. Suddenly, he's the best husband ever.

This sucks. I *like* sex. And I *like* being a generous wife. Why do I have to be a bitch to get him to be good to me?

wow...that didn't help me feel better at all...It's 5:30 am and I'm going to get drunk

I continued dating a man for two years AFTER he told me that he raped a 3 year old girl at the age of 12

My husband and I are separated right now, mostly because he is going insane. Now, when most people say insane what they really mean is bitchy...I mean insane...you know like I have to i have to explain to him why killing people and cannibalizing them is wrong.

He hit me (during sex only), left bruises on me, ate a triangular patch of flesh cut from my leg, choked me during sex to the point of passing out and continued to fuck me without trying o resuscitate, got me pregnant and had nothing more to say then "I want to give a guy a blowjob" when I told him that I miscarried, was emotionally distant, and had severe paranoia issues.

Anyway, he has had these bone growths on his skull that I urged him over and over again to get checked out. Once I left he finally did. It turns out that he has a genetic disorder that will eventually give him severe colon cancer. The growths on his head are a side effect of the syndrome. It turns out that the bone growths are pressing into his brain an making him loose all sanity.

I keep telling myself that it is not his fault that he is how he is and I have been trying very hard to be a loving and supportive wife despite our physical distance but, secretly I hope he does die. That way, I can walk away from him and never have to worry, wonder or look back ever again

I'll Get Wasted Tonight.
And Accept the Fact
"It is what I thought It Was" 3 - 0.......Game Over :|

He fullfilled my rape fantasy on our second date. I'm going out with him again.

The day my fiance left me for being "distant" is the day i was going to tell him i was pregnant. itwas also the day i miscarried.

GIRLS are messed up. You bring them flowers, tell them they're beautiful and they ignore you... but if you don't return their calls, don't notice their new hair, or act like an ass..... you can't get them to leave you alone......

I'm a nice guy. I refuse to change until I find the right girl.

I can have ANY guy I want. I can make ANY guy fall for me.



...but girls.. yea I dont kno how to do that. and I really want a real relationship with a girl.

I went out with some of my girls tonight...I left early wasnt feeling it and cried all the way home... Praying cuz I miss my husband so much the pain in my heart is explosive. The sad thing is we will never be together again cuz he is in virginia and im in louisiana. God bring him to me i love hims with all that i am. i forgive his infidelity and want to work on us.

I really enjoy having a crush on you, but at the same time I hate it.  I like your personality and I think you are smoking hot, but I don't like that you smoke, get high, and drink a lot.  Then there is the weirdness that makes no sense.  I am used to weird, but I am not used to this off and on behaviour.  Some days you spend a ton of time around me, others you look at me like I am stalking you and that you are freaked out to be in the same building as me.
Trust me, I am not stalking you, which in itself is a bit odd for me.  I just like you, if you would clearly state that you didn't like me or that you were into someone else that would be fine.  Otherwise make it clear you like me, even if just as in friends like me, but stop fucking around and acting like a freak.

I am going to try and stop liking you, if you could just stop being awesome and start being more of a douche bag that would help immensely.

I liked the taste of his cock in my mouth. I had no idea I'd like giving oral sex.

23/female

So, my friend used to have a tub that didn't drain so well and a cat that hadn't been pottie trained so well.
This one time, I stepped in it's shit and then dipped my foot into the water left in the tub and acted like the cat shat in there. :X

I am having an affair with this man. He is kind, affectionate, gentle, great in bed.

Here's the thing.. He doesn't have a job and he doesn't seem too eager
to find one either.

I'm tired of paying for everything...

Sorry V but this isn't working for me. Become self supporting like... NOW
or I'm kicking ur ass 2 the curb. You ain't got shit to offer me.

I had oral S*X at Dolphin mall. on a friday night. in one of the corridors/halls.

I wish you would come and just take me. Or something romantic, and passionate, and wild, and crazy like that. I'd fuck you in the yard. I don't even care. I need you.

i want you so much right now. end of.

As much as I hate where I'm at, I know that I'll be safe here because he loves me, he doesn't lie to me, and he'd never cheat on me. With you I don't think that I could say any of those things. :(

I know that it shouldn't impact my decision, but at this point, it does. I feel so weak.

(Dammit, I don't want to be just safe...)

I have ADHD and it's destroying my career plans

I'm married to an awesome man who I wish would find his true love. I am shit.

I think the breakup is going well, at first he was mad, but that's the thing- he was mad, for like a few minutes until I talked some sense into him. Seriously, he's not happy either, he has talked about us breaking up before too. I think he realizes that it will be better for both of us, he just doesn't want to be alone. Of course, no body WANTS to be alone, but I just want to be with the right person for me, and I want the same for him. I want him to be happy as well, this is part of the reason why I think this needs to happen.

The secret is that I thought he would be upset. I thought he would cry or beg for me not to leave him, and if this happened I probably would have felt guilty and decided to stick around and keep trying to make our relationship work, but now I see that I have made the right choice. I was so nervous before because I thought I could be making a terrible mistake, but now I definitely know that this is the right thing for us to do.

I am going to leave the man i'm in love with once i get back on my feet because we are not soul mates. If we didn't smoke and have sex we would have nothing in common. I think i love him.He has done so much for me and im greatful for this man. Its been 3 months and i cant even think of life without him. But it seems us being together is more of a Barter then a Relationship. I'm sad about this. I have been hurt so many times. I haven't cheated on this man, i will not either. But he doesn't want to get married or have kids and I want one or both. We hardly have anything in common and our we are TOTAL opposites. Which i dont think will work. I want him to tell me "Im sorry but i cant love you." I feel im more of his friend then his lover. Sometimes i wish i could run into one of my ex's with him but it wont happen here!

I felt weird kissing you today in the park. I don't know how to tell you that I don't want to pursue this.

This world really is lucky... If i didnt smoke pot everyday to chill me out i'd def flip out becasue of all the stupid people areound me and kill a few motherfuckers with my glock.

Luckily, i smoke weed.   :)







that alone really should be enough to legalize that shit. I wasnt kidding with what i said up there

I often have conversations with you in my head. In fact, most of the time when I'm being babbled at, my mind wanders and I end up imagining what it'd be like to have you there talking to me instead. It helps me through the hard times. Sad, I know.

I Googled my name and found a link to his MySpace profile.

Google has immortalized our acquaintance.  I'm not happy about this.

I am paranoid, I really am. I swear to god my life is like "The Truman Show" if I believed it more than say the 40% or so that I do, I would check myself in for mental heath care, but seriously, things are weird in my life.
Often if I get into something, very shortly after I start seeing it everywhere, ads, research, whatever.  Some say its because I seek it out and notice it more once I discover it.  I think that's partially true, but that doesn't explain how I will be into a small unknown band and then a few months later they make the big times.
Today is a fine example of this whole thing.  I was checking my finances and found I had an extra $400 or so that I wasn't expecting.  Just as I found that out, the auto shop where my car was called to tell me the problem would cost way more money than originally quoted to fix.  I mean we are talking within moments of me finding out I had extra money, there was a company there ready to eat it up, plus more.
This is not the first time this has happened.  It seems like every time I decide I am willing to get something as long as it is between X and Y dollars the total with come up to be exactly or almost Y.  The price range is something I never discuss with the merchants, but sometimes I talk about it with friends or on a blog. It really blows my mind.
Another example: I keep up with several bloggers on YouTube, one day I had just learned about something new, I don't remember what it was, but sure enough the next day I watched two of my favourite bloggers and not one, but both mentioned something directly related to what I had just learned.
It's kind of fun, but kind of freaky too.

I think I'm a nymphomaniac. I wonder if other women think about sex at least a million times a day.

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saying, "okay take your clothes off" and then laying in bed flat on your back so I can start sucking your dick is NOT foreplay.

you're an idiot.

i'm tired of all this shit.

i knew as soon i came here i'd been down for the long haul

it just seems everything has gone a bit wrong (again!)

i can't really blame this town though, however much i'd like to.

i just feel gray and dull much like the boro itself. :-(

and whenever i feel like this, i remember when i first came and it makes me think of you, i had hope and i was happy! and then i start to miss you dreadfully... and then i feel ridiculous. i hope you are happy.. you know that right?? x x

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I'm crushing on two guys that are best friends. I think both of them like me, based upon the incessant flirting. I hate situations like this. I'm afraid of hurting their feelings, but..... i really wanna get laid.

i promised myself i woudnt eat until i'm under a certain weight... 2 pounds to go, 4 days without anything other than coffee and i feel horrible. dizzy sick and no energy. doing it to mysefl so i shouldnt complain right?

Duuude she Letf you 3 times...........Wake up and smell the Coffee.

Move on with your LIFE

I want to run away. Really. Right now.

I'm so confused I want to vomit.

My thoughts betray me so often that I want to divorce myself.  It's times like this that I wish I believed in God.  I wish I believed in anything.  Something to save me from myself.

I love my husband hard...to spite our differences and his wrong doings. I know he loves me but his pride carries his soul. Lord cleanse him and make him whole again...not for me but for him. He deserves to be happy and I pray he does in Jesus name. I love my husband hard!

I hate fat men.  

Most of them have this attitude that they are holier than thou and that you should grovel at their feet.  Most of them are sterile, they always make you do all the work in bed, and their genitals smell.  When I marry I WILL leave my husband if he decides to stop taking care of himself.  

If MY ass is expected to look good then honey - YOUR ass better look good, too.  What will my friends think if you go and gain all kinds of weight?  Disgusting.  I refuse to be stuck with a man-cow.  What an embarrassment.

I fuck daily one daily.It is costing me a lot but it is really wonderful.age of the girls does not matter as far as you get them and they keep supporting you.you know many girls like to suck your cock,but they hesitate,encorage them but not immediately.remove their clothes slowly and not all of a suden,polish their body fully with honey if possible.fuck them for atleast 30 minutes.licking their lower parts as long as is very important.let them weep ,weep and for such a long time they beg you to fuck do only at the end.or else stop and put on your clothes they beg you call you again and agin.i had such things many times.

some days all i want in the world is to know i've touched lives and made an impact SOMEhow...

other days, though, I realize how powerful the consequences of our actions are, and hope beyond anything that i don't affect ANYone's life...

it's a fine line between affecting it for the better and worse...

the secret to living a great life guys..is get a steady partner and have sex often..

here's why..

1. you'll outgrow the "thinking of sex all the time" thing..thus you will be able to see crazy bitches as crazy bitches not as a hot chick with big tits..

2. chicks will fall all over you because you aren't pressed to play a part for them to "possibly" f**k you..

3. right now EVERY girl you meet believes that they can use "sex" to control any situation..

using sex means, implying actually having sex or even just batting her eyes and pushing up her bra..with MOST guys it works, but have enough sex & you wont be enamored by it any longer..

and a chick dangling "possible sex" in front of you wont matter any more..
you'll make better decisions and stick with them..

watch how your life changes when you aren't a slave to " sexual innuendo" ...it's a true secret that i learned and LOVE that i did!!!

Women can be some crazy bitches. If you have to keep your man on lockdown, screen all of his emails, go through his text messages, check his Myspace and Facebook, and constantly obsess about whether or not he's looking at other women, maybe it's time to call it quits. If he's such a dog that he can't stick with one woman yet you keep taking him back or you're so sad and pathetic that you can't hold his interest, maybe you deserve to have him stolen. Especially if you're some uber-possessive psycho with nothing better to do than worry about whether or not he's talking to somebody else.

Try putting out on occasion. Try looking nice. Try being normal and having an active social life so you don't have to sit around being a loser with nothing but your boyfriend in your life. I do all of these things and I can assure you that no man has ever even thought about cheating on my ass. And if he had, I'd tell that mother fucker to hit the bricks and I'd have myself a new one in no time. If I were a guy with a psycho girlfriend, I would cheat on her too...with impunity.

People ought' to realize that in the end, nothing matters really.
We all die.
Love doesnt ever last.
Happiness is only attainable through money.
There is no god, only the here and now.
Everything ends, everythig dies.
All these words we speak, all the things we do...
It all means nothing,
life is literally nothing.

realist 101

I met someone a year ago that made me feel things that I hadn't felt in a really, really long time.  They were like a drug.  I was addicted.

But, addiction is bad.  And moderation is my nemesis.  We parted on very necessary and very bad terms.  When I'm in my right frame of mind I'm ok with it.  

But when I'm going through a mental, I don't know how to explain it (it's a condition and it makes me think all loopy for a few weeks every now and again)...all I think about is that person.  They're my anti-crazy and crazy all-in-one.  

I don't want them for the long haul.  I just want them to get me through those miserable times.  *lol*  They're like a mental band-aid.

But, like I said, I'm not good with moderation.  Friendship gets insane with this one particular person.  I never know how to act around them - so I act on instinct.  Unfortunately my instincts with them are so out of whack that I would usually be drunk or in mental anguish whenever I was with them.

Why just this one person?  I can admit that they aren't special.  Not too good looking, not successful, not even nice more than 35% of the time and their morals are totally out of whack (when I am around them mine are, too).  Why?  

I'm fucking crazy.  :-D  And I think about this too much.  I'm wasting time thinking about this too much.  Blah.  

Thank you for reading this.  These are the thoughts that quietly circle my head and I can't seem to change mental tracks.  :-/

i curse this shit hole every day.

My clothes and hair smell like him now.

Maybe I can do this dating thing after all.