sometimes late at night i hear footsteps in the room directly above my bedroom. i live alone.

Today is my birthday. I was lonely but happy.  Here's to my 32nd year just being happy :)

Please don't let him like me.

he wrote that poem about me. I am positive. I am sure.
All I can think about it is, if you are worried about me and him, why won't you tell me? Why can't you tell me that I'm right - that he treats me like shit, that he's never what I say he is, that I lie for him all the time, tell me that! Maybe if you say it, I'll believe it.

Im not sure if someone is using me or not. He's sooo sweet sometimes, and others all he wants is sex. I'm tryin to play it cool...but it's killing me inside

I turned a gay man bisexual. He is in love with me, but I don't feel the same.

I have never felt so guilty in my life. I feel like dying.

i dont think i am an attractive person so when i see an attractive guy i end up sleeping with him gettin attached and then completely droppin him and ignoring him but then i'm in pain because i want the guy but question how he feels about me i think because i put out so soon thats all the guy wants which i guess sometimes isnt true i want a relationship but its hard for me to trust people so i dont like them to get close and i always go for the unavaliable guys so i dont get attached but i always fall for them anyways

I love my friends. I know so far it doesn't sound like anything much, but.. I just love them so much that it hurts. Sometimes literally. I feel like it isn't healthy. Whenever I'm around them, I get this urge to hurt myself in some way, even though I seem like this kid full of laughter. I just feel like I'm not worthy of being around them, especially since my two best friends love each other and I don't want to be in their way, because without me I know they could create something beautiful.

Just recently..I did hurt myself, and manipulate the blood. I'm growing into old addictions I used to have for the past two years, and I like it.

Why am I afraid of sex?

I am afraid of the whole up and down, animalistic motion. I'm afraid I'll look stupid and I won't look attractive.

23 / female

The simplistic things are what make me happy, why do you ignore them :(

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I try not to think about you being with her. It makes me so jealous I can't stand it.

I hate that I hurt you, but I had to before you got too close.  I am waaay too fucked up to love.  I hope I get the guts to kill myself soon.

I want to cry so bad, just let it out, but I can't. Please, will somebody cry for me? Please?

I could barely even look at you after I thought you gave me herpes... Thank god it wasn't herpes

I still have a scar from wear your boyfriend bit my ear

sometimes i still hate myself

I REFUSE TO COMPROMISE FOR YOU ANYMORE! You need to start compromising with me. Because this kid is yours too, and I REFUSE to do it anymore!!!! DAMN!

My cat's breath smells like catfood

In 16 days, I will kill myself.

ISLY. I don't know what to do. I cheated on my current boyfriend for the 5th time last night... and im inlove with my ex boyfriend..I always will be.. I just want my ex back. I would never cheat on him. I don't know what to do.

S ,I'm smitten with you.I'm certain it shows by the way I act around you. I'm trying hard not to think about you but it seems to be beyond my control.If you're feeling what I'm feeling.....leave me something? Something only I will understand.

I hate peas

i fucked M.S. the other day and it was AMAZING! i really really want to see him again, we have so much fun together, not to mention the amazing sex we can have, god just thinking about him gets me wet! Mike, i love being with you sucking your cock and having you kiss me with such emotion and having you fuckin my pussy from behind. But i text you yesterday and no responce, not gonna lie, that hurt, text me so we can hangout!!! i want it rough

i never will forgive you for leaving me. even if it was only a day, and because you claim your future was unclear, and you didn't see me in it. those were the most painful words i've ever heard, and i wish i could've slapped you, i wish i could've hated you and told you to leave my life for good. i wish i didn't love you this much.
but i'll always love you.

he's 28. i'm 20. is that bad? i know he likes me, but when we found out the others age, we grimaced. it was kinda like a slap in the face to both of us. but we both want eaach other...... FUCK THIS LIFE! i dont even feel 20

At one point I was standing right behind you.

i'm so unhappy in my marriage. I can't stand my husband.

please give me a sign, someone, somewhere, that someone sees what's going on and has my back. PLEASE!

This divorce is going to most likely go badly for me because I am afraid to talk. I can't talk without putting someone else in harms way. So I have been silenced. He is running around saying god knows what to everyone under the sun and I can't say a word. So I guess I'm being "framed".

I'm desperate to run away-escape-dissipear. So i try to become thinner so i'll be small and can just fade instead.

i feel like a fucking freak i am only 42 and i have early menopause wtf i am youg WHY WHY WHY WHY ME??????

You only have yourself to blame!

I need to move pronto before this white trash hellhole rubs off on me!

I keep holding on to the belief that things will work out somehow as they always do, but I have been so stressed out that yesterday my neck and sholders were so tense and sore! Last week I could barely sleep at all. I keep worrying about how I will have money for this and that, how my phone will be cut off and my insurance will lapse, and I won't be able to pay my rent and get evicted. God I hope I can make enough money in the next couple of weeks to take care of everything.

All I really want is to be able to come see you for Halloween so we can play dress up and have fun together, but I know it can't happen :( I am too poor.

Soon enough I will be completely through with him, out of this fucking place, and living a much happier life. I keep telling myself it is NOT worth it to be unhappy in a boring, sexless, dead-end relationship! Even if I am screwing myself financially, it will pass and I will come out victorious!!!! (If I can have you...)

We said goodbye so long ago, I've moved on and so have you. Everything should be fine, you stopped calling, I stopped picking up, I met him and you met her, we're happy, right? I dream about you every night. I see your face in crowded places, a tear comes to my eye when I hear that song. I think of you every single day.

I want my life to be something it's not, and probably never will be.

I stare at your lips when you talk to me. Mainly because I can't look in your eyes because I think my own would tell my secret that I'm in love with you, and because your lips just look so damn perfect..

You were right.  You are my soul mate.  I'm just not sure that I want to share that curse of a soul with anyone.

I could never hate you that much.

THAT'S why I wind up with retarded cunts.  It's EASY to hate them that much.  Why can't you understand that?

Once a cheater always a cheater. Believe me. 35 years of LIFE exper...

I went on vacation with my wife. I should have known better. After the first night, she insisted we switch to a different room.  She didn't like the mattress.  I tried to talk her out of it.  Which of course only makes her madder.  So she whines to the front desk and they say they are booked and there are no other rooms.  Tantrum ensues.  Unbelievably this works.  Hey Hotel Manager, you aren't doing anyone any favors by rewarding this kind of behavior. As is evidenced by what happens next.

The following morning my wife decides she likes the new matreess - but she doesn't like the new room.  So she wants the hotel to giver her back the old room, but switch the new mattress in there.

No really, people like my wife exist in the world.  We're talking about a woman who once went out to dinner at a restaurant and returned her parpadelle pasta to the kitchen because the noodles weren't wide enough.  They were only an inch wide and she likes them to be an inch and a half.

The hotel gave my wife back her old room with the new mattress.  Jerks.  

People, please don't feed the fire breathing dragon.  You make my life so much harder.

I just spend my laundry money on weed.

I don't want to be a fool. Something that only you and I would know,plzz.

My secret.

He's in a relationship and I wish I could just forget what I am feeling for him.

BTW ,your eyes are beautiful.It's difficult for me to maintain eye contact with you in a conversation.It's the way you look at me , it's like you know something is there.I hate the fact that I will never tell you any of this.I'm afraid that you may not feel the same way.I don't want to ruin our friendship.I know you might never see this but I had to get it off my chest.You don't know how hard it is to keep this secret ,especially when we're around each other.

I like you a lot! I really hope this works out! I act all chill around you, but I always have major butterflies in my stomach. We should definitely chill soon :)

I'm falling in love with you Shawn!  We're perfect for each other...I know you feel it too :)

Daniel-
I have been abused. Emotionally, physically, sexually. I have been lied to, manipulated, cheated on. This is why, when you asked me out, I ran away.
But if you asked me again, I would say yes this time.

I dream about you every single night.

I know you wish I would write you, to tell you how I am and how things have been.  Doing that would open a door best left closed for both of us, a door beyond which intensity of feelings tended to mute common sense.  I've heard that you've moved on to someone else, and I'm happy at home now, so why upset things by trying to carry on a tension-filled exchange?

I'm fine.  I harbor no ill will toward you at all, and I look on our time together as wasted in any way.  I took away a lot of memories, and I think of you often and warmly.  On the other hand, I don't regret the choice to come home; my family relationships are better than they've ever been.

I hope you've found peace, both within yourself and outside, and I wish you well.

congrats. you threw your life away for a guy. have fun in jail, cunt.

I erase pictures of myself that I look "too pretty" in.

I'm in a hotel room this morning, and I see the sign that says save the environment and re-use your towels.

Whenever I see one of those signs I make a point to use all the towels every day, and drop them to the floor to be cleaned.

Fuck you Al Gore

When I go to bed, Molly the family dog, follows me and curls up on my side of the bed. When my wife comes up a bit later she will snap her fingers and speak in a harsh tone to Molly and force her over to her side of the bed where the actual dog bed is.


At some point in the night Molly always comes back over to my side of the bed.  Every morning when I get up there she is at my side.


This is a metaphor for how our children ages 15, 18, and 21 all act. Their mother snaps her fingers, tells them where and when to go, tells them what to do, etc.   But when they want advice or to just talk about things in their lives they always quietly seek me out and not their mother.  

My wife is clueless on all of this.

I wish I would of never done that. Now I will have to carry this guilt for the rest of my life. I can't tell you. You will either leave me or hold it against me until the end of time. It is my burden to bear. I am so sorry. I won't do it again.

I have listened to you tell me how I abused/disrespected you.....I'm a whinner, A fusser, I didnt show you the Love you needed. Basically I held you Hostage? When your here you dont want to be? When you're there you want to be here? You tell me U Love me? Well sweety I love you enuff to release you from the torrid prison in which you've been kept.

Seems to me the only thing I done was provide for you? And I probably didnt do this the way you wanted.

I'm angry,bitter,sad,remorseful........I didnt measure up to Your Standards.........The weight that caused you to feel like you were drowning. All 3 times..has been Lifted from your Soul.

If I could be granted any wish at all, I'd wish that I could be in your arms right now in the dark. I know it's late, but I'd give anything to be lying there with my head on your chest and my face touching your chin, wrapped in your warmth. I can't imagine any feeling that would be more incredible than being touched, and held, and loved by you. There would be no need for words. A silence shared with you would be worth more to me than any conversation ever could be. Just the fantasy of your hands and lips against my skin drives me to ecstasy. But with it always comes the pain of knowing that you're not mine.

You'll never know just how much my heart aches to be with you...

Reading these secrets has helped me immeasurably. It's a small gesture, but it is nice knowing that even if I am in pain and confused over different things that there are others out there with situations just as serious and just as petty as mine also dealing with their own pain and confusion.
I wish we could all be more open about things, everyone seems to paint their lives as so perfect to the outside world when often times they are suffering inside.
I take that back, I wish we were not all so judgmental so that people could feel comfortable being open.

I would totally tell people I was smitten with them if I knew I wasn't going to be chastised for it, but sadly that is rarely how it works.  People are cruel for things that there is no reason to be cruel for.  Love should be a things that is celebrated, it is a wonderful thing to know someone likes you regardless of how you feel in return.  It shouldn't be scary or awkward unless someone is persistent after you have made it clear that you don't return their affection.

Why am I awake right now?

He wasn't worth ruining your life over. Sadly, this was a secret only to you.

Not sure how much longer it will be a secret for... But it's too late now, isn't it?

you know your stoned when you mix mangos and peanut butter... but secretly... its delicious.

I tamed the mouse that lives in my kitchen and play with it at night. its gross but hes cute and i cant kill him or throw him outside. so i feed him and play with him.
yep.

I wish so fucking much that I could physically defend any girl as well or better than any guy.
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Im in love with you, and you're in love with someone else.
Such a common secret, it seems so insignificent, but to me, it means the world.
and it seems that God expects me to be able to handle this pain... but I'm not sure I can do this again.
Not with the situation.. not like this..

If you die, I die.

plain and simple.

Just hang on for a while longer. It's just around the corner. It is within your reach right now. Your so close you can almost touch it.
So why don't I believe it?

I think I'm making a positive difference in someones life.
It feels great.

I've waited about 35 years. Now it's time for me to fall in love.
I'm good people and I deserve it. goddamit.

I'm on the verge of tears and you guys don't seem to notice.
I know that we're suppose to be working on our project but I can't help but feel so alone right now. I lost everything that ever matter to me in the past six months because some heartless bastard decided to not give me 3 points. now I am so unstable. I don't think I can survive 15 weeks alone. I will most likely kill myself in the end.
IT'S NOT FAIR!
IT'S NOT FAIR!
WHY AM I DYING HERE ALONE.
I WANT TO STAY IN MY GROUP!
i WANT TO STAY IN MY GROUP!
IT SUCKS THAT I GET LEFT BEHIND.
I WANT TO STAY.
I'M DYING. I CAN'T BE LEFT BEHIND.
I NEED MY GROUP.
Please God, please. I need you to be on my side.
I'm lost without my group.
Please...
please

I know I probably won't go through with it because I'll more than likely puss out, but my Halloween costume is sexy as fuck and I'd love to jump you while wearing that. Nothing like making some holiday memories! :)

I can't touch you, because if I do, you will feel the electricity I'm putting out to you. I can't hug you because I will probably embrace you, most likely inappropriately. I would pull you so close to me, and take my hands and rub them all over your body. It would be so hard to stop myself from shoving your head into my cleavage... I'd be straddling one of your legs while this is all happening. Hopefully by then you've stuck your hands down my jeans, squeezing my ass, lifting me up, maybe giving me a once over with your finger..... ummmmmmmm wet!!!!! :)

Gays pressuring Obama? What does he owe them? If I were him, I would simply do nothing about whatever they are shouting about.  Does he owe them anything because he is black (well half black)? If I were in his position I would do nothing. If the gays then wanted to punish me or revenge, they could vote for conservatives next time around. May be the conservatives would give in to the gays demands.

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i firmly believe that everything happens for a reason. and iv been searching for the reason why you got rid of me when i gave you everything. and i finaly figured it out. i loved you, so i let it fly, but you made me miserable. there was always somthing with you. always whining, if not yelling at me i was rarely happy with you. but i was in love. so i was always happy. but after the way you spoke to me on saturday morning. i cant even believe how ungrateful you are. fuck you bitch. im actually over it. you couldnt have been more wrong for me.
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sometimes i wish i was strong enough to talk about it. other times i'm glad it's my secret. but right now? i just wish somebody would love me either way.

when everything started going wrong i found a way to make it all go away for a while. now that i need it to go away forever i find i cant stop with my temporary relief. old scars mingle with new ones and i cant make them go away.

I wish I had never told my mom I hated her. I really wish it werent the last words I said to her before she had a heart attack.

I'm in denile of something. Something that alot of people see as wrong.

I am gay.

I did NOT choose this.
I just want to be happy.

I really hope this is all happening for a reason.  It's the only thing that is keeping me from losing my mind completely.  I am basically a positive person, and I have grand plans for my future, BUT at the moment I am having a hard time saving money, my car is broken and eating up more money that I don't want to spend, I am single and it is getting on my nerves, the boys I like don't like me back, at least not as much or in the same ways that I like them, my job is tolerable at best, but I hate working there, I have no (zero) friends, everyone I know, including those that are unemployed, have a more active social life than I do.
All I really want at this moment (everything else can wait) is:
1. A working car that doesn't need anything more than regular maintenance for the next 2 years.
2. Enough "extra" money each paycheck that I can afford to eat, drive, and save $100 or so dollars at a time.
3. Someone to occupy my time.  I don't want/need a boyfriend, but I would love a best friend, especially one I could have good sex with on a regular basis.
4. If I can't have #3 then I want a platonic friend that I can see at least once a week, that I can connect with and that I enjoy spending time with.
5. Nothing major changing for the negative in my life such as losing my job, death of a family member, major illness, or anything else costly financially or emotionally.

It is getting harder to keep my hopes up when the only really positive part of my day is seeing my dogs when I get home.

I find it funny that the "friend" you used to pity and talk about all the time now has a fabulous life in California and you are stuck in Jersey with two kids and a husband who only married you because you were pregnant.

LOL!!!!!

I love her, its exhausting, But I love her, I wish she would open up and let me help her.

There was this boy in high school who was completely in love with me. He was really tall, built, and gorgeous but he was kind of a jock and I ran with a different crowd, so I wasn't interested. I automatically assumed that he wasn't very intelligent so I didn't give him the time of day even though he followed me around like a puppy dog. He got down on his knees at my 16th birthday party and kissed my hand and told me how beautiful I was and that he'd never loved anybody as much as he loved me. Later, he pulled me away from the party and kissed me again and again outside in the moonlight. Then he got down on his knees again and hugged me as if he never wanted to let go. And you know what I did? I laughed at him and walked off. I  thought that he was the biggest buffoon I'd ever seen. My friends and I had a big laugh over it later. I took some sort of nasty little pride in knowing that I had just ditched him like that. At the time I couldn't believe that somebody would make an ass of himself that way over me. I kept ignoring him until he finally went away.

My secret is that no man before then or since has ever made such a romantic gesture towards me. I was such a stupid, vain little fool. I wish I had at least given him a chance.

I want to be loved. I want someone to care for me, someone who is not a friend. I want too know that i matter in a guys life.. i want to kill myself because i feel so worthless.. im only a teen and i want to kill myself badly.. i took pils before. but they only go me high.. they didint do the job. I need to be loved.. it is so much pressure to get a bf these days.. everyone is getting one and i have never had one before. I have been told im very pretty.. but then why wont guys like me? i am already thinking of killing myself tonight but i wont.. i am doomed to walk this world in depression

my neighbors are verrrry enthusiastic while watching sports.
my secret:
i imagine their YES YES YES and OH FUCK as a different kind of activity...
not going to lie, they're both guys and it reeeally turns me on :)

my husband has this friend. actually its his best friend. hes a total whore. he fucks ALOT of girls.

my secret: id give anything to be one of those girls.

I'm married to a raging, fucking lunatic. Nobody knows how crazy he is except me. I hope I get a job soon so I can run the fuck out of this house and never look back.

I drown myself in bottle after bottle every day of my life.
the way I feel without is, is absolutely indescribable.

All my friends drink, but just a couple drink like I do. and I jus feel my body failing. and Im so scared to die over this and leave my friends, and even more scared of them dying and leaving me.
Basicly, it doesnt effect my life too much. Im not anywhere near a sloppy drunk, I function good, go to work, live my life.. but relationships are doomed from the start, so I dont start them. Im fucking lonely. and heartbroken.

and I jus kno that Im too far into this to get out, especially alone. Im TERRiFiED to live life sober. I just cant fucking do it...

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I was a goody goody all my life. Now I have no idea how to meet a drug dealer. Damn it!

I'd really appreciate that massive, fatal brain embolism tonight. Thanks.

My best friends think I'm crazy because I keep a list of things I want to do in life, books I want to read, places I want to go, and people I want to meet. My secret? I think they are crazy for not having any dreams.

Enjoy music for what it is. Don't be embarassed. :]

All of you, you are beautiful/handsome/amazing/unique/good. There is beauty in everyone and i'm doing my best to see it. the secrets we have all shared are now no longer a part of only us, because we know that so many relate. It is amazing to know that in a world of 6 billion people, wars, lonliness, anger, rage, etc. there is still love and kindness. Feel it and share it. its the only way to make the world a better place. Peace and love, from a 20 year old girl.

depression and loneliness are too easy.  what I feel is so much more.  I pushed all of my friends away.  I don't miss them but I hate that my family has noticed.  I just want that one man to love then I'll be happy.  That's it

Sometimes I wish some major disaster would happen with me and my entire family.  I see them all surviving but believing I died as they will never find my body.  But in actuality, I would have slipped passed the confusion and would have gone on to start a brand new life in another country.

i used to care that my mom had so many friends MY AGE and talked to them all day and was loving and caring and with advice she would never give me .. now, i don't give a phuc she can enjoy whomever the helll she wants.. secret is, i don't like her, at all

I just told you we need to stop crossing the friends boarder and learn to get over our break up.

I'm having you meet me right now and i'm going to push you against the wall and kiss you like I used too.

We'll probably end up humping too....but you are so DAMN SEXY

Ive never been as sad/depressed as ive been lately. life sucks here & i want to leave.

i hate my life

Well, I just had a flirty little dream about somebody who I've never felt a sexual attraction to. He put his arm around me and kissed me and it seemed like the most natural thing in the world. And I woke up feeling very warm...odd.

how i wish the way me and you use to talk.. i have never been any happier when i was talking to you. Why did i have to fall inlove with a guy who pushed girls away .. and who doesent want a commited relationship? even if you like a girl alot. You would never go out with them for some crazy reason. I want to be the girl who you decide to take a leap for. I want you to talk to me on msn.. everytime you sign on i stay on hoping this could be the day you talk to me.. but you never do. Either you really dont like me, or you do like me.. but you just push people away for some crazy reason.

Sometimes when i am in the car with my family, I wish we would get in a accident. That way if I live, then it shows I have more too live in this life, and if i die.. well i was going to kill myself anyways, i just died alot sooner, and without my aid.

i am inlove with a guy who I am never going to get over with. He is the one... and we are never going to be together. I am dreading the day I meet someone else, because all hope I might have with him will be lost forever.