I can deal with physical pain, I even kind of like the feeling. But sometimes the stupidest things make me tear-up. like sappy country songs on the radio and stupid comercials for family vacations.  I think it might be because I never had the "happy family" and I want to know what it feels like, but I know I never will. It makes me sad, but I still dont get why it's those stupid archetypical family scenarios that make me well up. What the fuck, I am a strong girl, I have a great head on my shoulders, so why can't I just get over the fact that my parents are fuck ups, and give myself a little credit for being okay after all the shit they put me through.
thanks!

I am the oldest granddaughter on my mom's side.

I dreamed about fucking my sister before several times.  She is one year younger than I am. and I dreamed about screwing my grandfather in different dreams multiple times. They are so disturbing. I have a lot of sex dreams that don't seem to be my real desires, but yet all these perverse things come out of my dreams. Good thing I do not act on them and do not care for the dreams at all! I wish those dreams won't come up, but they do. Thank god when I'm awake I have normal sexual desires...

okay so your quite the bitch at the moment
i try and be there for you and you fuck me over EVERYTIME.
im not dealing with it anymore , i try and help you and you say im your best and only true friend and you love me soo much . im sorry but im not seeing it at all. fuck you.
   then theres you, your just kinda there to be there, thats about it.
    ohhh and then theres youu.. who thinks you own everything and can control me with your guilt trips. nope, not happening. go have a drink.
FML

i seriously hate being a virgin. i want to know what sex feels like.

Once a cheater always a cheater.... and if there ever was love there would be no cheating! You deserve better and why waste your love on someone like that who doesnt even love themselves!!!!!!!!!You are too grown for that and know who you are!

I wish I could make the world happy forever!

You have such a way with words...

Daniel, I have the worst crush on you.  You probably know it, just a little.

I'm happily married, and you're not my husband.  My husband treats me with love and respect, and would probably give me anything I wanted in the world.  I'm not unhappy in my marriage, and I was perfectly happy before.  Then I met you.

Now I'm fantasizing about you all the time.  Why?  WHY?  You're not my type at all.  You're such a straightforwardly masculine athlete and I don't do athlete crushes; they're far too obvious for me.  I like serious artists and computer geniuses and driven intellectuals.  Other girls crush on guys who play sports -- I'm too intelligent for that.

But you drive me crazy.  I can spend hours fantasizing about what it would be like to have you on top of me, just kissing me and lustily grinding away, when I'm actually a very kinky girl who prefers complicated exotic sex.  Yet with you, the thought of plain old missionary is enough to make me hot.

I should just avoid you.  But somehow I've gotten the feeling that you enjoy your time with me as much as I enjoy my time with you.  And that is so precious.

God, what the hell am I doing.  I can completely forget you anytime I want.

Your move. If you want to I hope you'll make it soon.

i wish i could still cut myself

Do women who constantly gossip about others really feel good about themselves when they go to sleep at night?  I don't get it.  Nothing good comes from their chatter.  They usually have abrasive or bad energy and they most likely lose friends along the way.  I can't imagine it is a fun way to go through life.  I can only guess they are genuinely unhappy with themselves.

Got the papers in the mail today-my divorce is final (after 3 1/2 years), and I've got my real name back! Yeah!

My secret? It is a little sad, he was my best friend, and I miss him...but I'm happy :)

I took off the ring. I just can't do it anymore. I can't live life knowing that I will never make you fully happy. I'm done. And there you are calling me right at this moment... Maybe its a sign.

Every time you talk to me, you have a new excuse to see me. It's not that I really mind seeing you, but I don't want to go out of my way to have a boring time with you. You want it to be just you and me, which I'm not comfortable with anymore. I'm in a happy relationship. I'm not going on date-like activities with you. And it's boring because you always HAVE to have some big thing to do. I'm okay with sitting back and hanging out. That's one reason we never worked out.

Let me get this straight. You are a nasty, spiteful and vindictive witch.  You have used your connections to give me and other well meaning people a hard time because we didn't always agree with your point of view.

Now you are starting up some new web venture selling something or other, and you send us all an email asking us to support you in this new business.

I hope you invested a lot of your own money in getting this new business off the ground.  I look forward to never buying anything from you and watching you lose everything.

Going to sleep and waking up are the worst parts of the day because you're not there.  I can temper the going to sleep part with pot and booze so at least I fall asleep quickly, but nothing helps the waking up.  I'm there, you're not.  It's that simple.  We've been broken up a year and a half, about as long as were dating, and it hasn't gotten any better in that time.  No other girl even comes close.

I woke up this morning and wept.  It was all I could do not to sit at my desk and not have a nervous breakdown.  I can endure a lot, but waking up clutching a pillow, tears already forming at the knowledge that I'm alone and will never wake up with you in my arms again...nobody should have to live with that kind of hurt.

So tell me, when are we going to combine your secret and my secret, and make them our little secret? We know who we both are...don't we? Did you wink at me the other night? Right back at cha babe ;)

Glenn, I like you.

Why am I so afraid to tell you that? I'm such a ditz around you, tripping and stuttering; you probably think I'm retarded. I get the proverbial butterflies in my stomach.  You're so much fun to just chill with.  You make me smile :)

You have my number... hit me up!

I still love my ex-husband. He is wtih someone else now and has a baby. I miss him everyday and dream of him everynight. I pray he will come back.

I LOVE MY HUSBAND STILL. HE ACTS SO ANGRY AT ME YET HE HAD THE AFFAIR. I MISS HIS SCENT, HIS NAKED BODY. HIS SNORES AT NIGHT, WATCHING FAMILY GUY TOGETHER, I MISS KNOWING HE IS THE BACKGROUND EVEN IF HE WAS ON THE COMPUTER COOROSONDING TO THE OTHERS...I MISS MY HUSBAND. I KNOW HE LOVES ME AND JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THAT. I MISS HIS TASTE IN MY MOUTH AND THE MASSIVE GROWLS AS HE CUMS...I MISS CUMING TOGETHER. I MISS MY HUSBAND! DOES HE MISS ME?
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After having your baby. I feel like maybe i can love you, and we can be a happy family. I wish you can just rescue me and be my night in shining armor. Because i have to much pride to tell you i need to be rescued. Me and your daughter really need you more than anything.

i wish i had a mom and dad and even siblings i'm tired of not ever having had a family

I think I finally understand what it is about you that annoys me: that you are our guest, in our house, and you seem to be irritated and troubled by the littlest of things sometimes. I'm sorry if you are troubled by my lack of initiative to talk to you. I just prefer not to engage in communication, thank you. I just hope that you get to run off with your dreams fast.

Hey look, that man is beating his wife... someone call the police... oh wait a second... he is a card carrying republican... just like me... that bitch probably deserves to be hit... how's your hand my friend.... did you hurt it breaking the bitch's jaw... can I get some ice for you... at least let me buy you a beer and give you a ride to the next Tea Party.

Japan sucks. You put a man in jail for trying to get his kids back after the wife illegally took them to Japan? Let the man see his own kids assholes.

Here in America the legal system goes after men for failure to pay child support and for not having an interest in their kids.  But in Japan, you put people in jail because they ARE interested in their kids.

Japan, you should be ashamed.

Since you went back home, I can't think of anyone else.  I've tried to move on, but you are everywhere in this town for me now.  When I go to this place, or drive by that place, I see your smile.  I remember the times we went there, and how much I loved being with you.  But now an ocean separates us.  I'm trying to get over you.  I even tried taking another girl out, but the entire date I felt absolutely nothing.  It breaks my heart that I may never see you again.  I want you here so bad.  Te quiero, mi corazon.

My bitch of a wife goes for a jog everyday on twisty narrow roads.

World, you drive your cars around everyday at high rates of speed.

Couldn't we work something out?

There are always a few school parents in the crowd who claim standardized test scores don't matter.  

These also happen to be the parents of the kids who flunk the tests. LOL!

Way to go parents, if your kids are too lazy to stop watching TV and do some studying instead, good thing you are teaching them how to make excuses.

Oddly enough, I'm not being sarcastic.  Teaching how to make good excuses will actually help them later in life because this is what most adults do anyway to justify their failures.

I'm so glad I have my heart set to hate him.  He can watch me all he likes - want to know what he'll see?  A life he wishes were his.

I'll make sure of it.

Here's the thing, the great secret of life...fear drives us from doing anything wrong, but HATRED drives us to be better people.  :-D

I wish I was a camera sometimes
So, I could take your picture with my mind
Put it in a frame for you to see
How beautiful you really are to me..

SECRET.. Ive never ever told you how beautiful you are :) in those 9 yrs I know U. But I know You love me deeply and truly and so do I You are the most beautiful thing ever.

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How can we be friends when we can't even talk to each other? There's this giant elephant in the room that I can't ignore and that would be all the half-assed lies you've tried to pawn off on me. It's not so much what they consisted of, just the disrepect and obvious underestimation of my intelligence on your part that disturbed me. That's what I'm still upset about and I think that I have every right to be. If you have any respect for me at all and if you treasure my friendship oh soooo much then you might want to start by legitimately clearing some of that up. It'd be a nice gesture.

And another thing, how in the hell can you presume to know my mind or to truly know who I am when YOU kept our communication so shallow? How much did you expect me to give to a stranger? I hate that I don't know you. I'd love to know you and I gave it my best effort despite the smoke screen and bullshit, but you worked just as hard to keep me from doing that. I could be a great person to have in your life but I'm not into half-truths and lies. It really does break my heart because I know that you're better than this. Don't ask me how I know, I just do.

And yes, I do still want to fuck you because, well, I just do dammit and it seems like you want the same thing. I'm totally up for it. Why not? We've engaged in enough verbal foreplay to fill up a volume of Shakespeare. I think we'd be great. And no, I'm not trying to propose marriage, so no need to panic. I get how it is.

I still cut myself.....my new girlfriend doesn't satisfy me.  I like it a tadd rough

I really want(ed) to get laid today.  I am pretty sure you were up for it, but I just wasn't prepared.  For one it sucks being a girl and having to shave every day, so I skip it some days.  It's bee a couple so I am a bit scratchy from the waist down.  For two, we haven't been using a condom when we have sex and I am in my fertile week right now, I have condoms with me, but I have very little resistance when it comes to you.
Hopefully soon, it's gotten to the point where just seeing you turns me on so much it's hard to focus.

I know you want me, you know I want cha
Good song.

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What are you waiting for? When are you going to tell me?

There go those butterflies...

Bats are not blind.

Why were you just sitting there? Why didn't you say something?

I am ashamed of myself for hitting on my best friend.

At least the thought of you gives me something interesting to get off to...even if you are too chicken shit to actually help me out. :)

do you know what's wrong with me?

I feel so guilty about being mean to this girl back in highschool..
she looked up to me so much and she liked me.. she was 'in the closet' gay and I pretty much always knew.
I liked her (not like that) but damn I was so mean talking shit about gay ppl and stuff and i remember she wrote a poem about me and let me read it and she didnt tell me it was about me but i knew and called her out on it and just laughed and walked off.
Ive apologized so many times these days and I go out of my way now to be insanely nice and accepting of her now and talk to her every few days. Shes always been an awesome girl and Im so glad I never got to her more than I know I did in highschool.

Talk, talk, talk. That's all some people know how to do. I don't have time for talk. I want some action. Let's just fuck and get it over with.

damn, I make some good hamburgers...

Anyways, this game is wearing on me, it's like a high school crush. Only, I want to do very ADULT like things to you. Muahahaaaa!

I hate being one of those people who always tries to see the best in everyone. Some people obviously have nothing good inside of them to begin with. Yet I still care. I hate that I care. I guess I am completely fucked in the head.

It's amazing how much people will take if you let them.  The part that really gets to me though is that when I say enough, you can't have anymore, they get mad at me.

I love my husband's big, thick, 8 inch cock. He always makes me cum at least 3 times, and that's not counting when he licks my pussy. I can honestly say he never leaves me unsatisfied. :) I think I'll go jump him right now.

Ooops. I met a woman in a bar. She approached me by the way.  We spoke for a while and had a great time.  She owned an art gallery. She was intelligent. She was sexy.  At the end of the night I walked her to her car and we necked for about 20 minutes.

Next day I was thinking about her, so I looked up her little art gallery on the internet and found an email address.  I sent her a warm and sexy message saying how I'd like to do more than just kiss.

This is where the oops comes in.  She runs the shop with her husband.

I hope you are enjoying the show.  Yes you.  Come on, give me a little credit. Did I somehow lead you to think I am a complete idiot?  I know you are watching me.  And so I try to play it up as much as possible.

I think if Saddam Hussein was instead born and raised in America, he still would have been a maniacal sadist.  He probably would have been a Republican.

I don't care about my wife anymore. She is not a good person. Far too many examples of her taking advantage of not just me, but everyone she knows.  So we live in the same house.  We pass each other in the kitchen.  I am courteous. Just like I am courteous to a stranger I might sit next to on the train.

But love?  No.  Not a chance.

I know about a crime in my town. I want to tell the police.  But I don't want to be the proverbial snitch. I want to give them the information anonymously. However, there is no way for me to do this. My town has no TIPS hotline.  And unbelievably my local police department doesn't even have an email address where I could go to the library and email them the information from a fake email account. So day by day this crime goes unsolved even though I know who did it. Frustrating. I'll bet American taxpayers are footing the bill to install new computers at police stations in Iraq.  Yet we don't even have computers here at home. What a crazy world.

I wish I had a mom still.

Grow some balls and tell me the truth. The whole truth. To my face. I fucking hate being patronized.

It really isn't you. It's totally and absolutely me.
I shouldn't have led you on.
I shouldn't tease. I shouldn't be so invested in something I knew wasn't going to work.

I do want us to be friends. I want us to be best friends. I need you around me, we've gotten close. But we can't be together.

We tried it out. We have nothing in common, we have nothing to talk about. We just small-talk, chatting about insignificant stuff that will never ever matter.

It wouldn't be fair if I kept this going. Please understand that you're an amazing person. But I can't do this.

I love my life. I can't possibly do such a thing as commit suicide and hurt everyone around me.

My secret?
You make me... hate and love myself.

I would like to kill myself. Everyone's happy but me. I feel like everyone's leaving me. I'm tired of looking for a light at the end of the tunnel. But I don't think I could do that to my family. I'm the baby.

If I were a set of twins, I'd probably go down on myself.

I hate myself but I'm too scared to commit suicide.

suck it, bitch!!! ha ha - bet you just love being in jail, broom-raped by big bertha for assaulting a cop and stalking one of the most important people in my life. don't think the pain will end when you get out either. i can't wait - vengeance is so sweet when it's deserved.

I would kill my self right now via OD on tylenol, except I just looked it up and it takes 24 hours or more. Instant death, handy around the house, am I asking too much? Yet again, universe thwarts me. No wonder I want to die.

I like broad shoulders and strong arms on a man, but lately I've been eyeing men's hands, looking for large, but not pudgy, fingers.

One of my friends is so weird.
She's 17, obssessed with cats, unattractive, eats like a pig, she sews crap during class and loves talking about anime.
Yet, regardless of all these weird ass qualities, she has been happily in a relationship for at least four months now.
And before that, she was in a relationship with a different guy for almost a year.

Why is it that the gross cat lady can get a fuckin boyfriend but I cant???

There must be something seriously wrong with me.
Maybe I need to start taking some sewing classes...

Damn.

Every morning when I wake up and realize you are not in my life anymore, I want to shoot myself in the head.

I miss you because I'm pretty sure that I could tell you how "fantastic" you are and you'd hook me up with free Xbox games, drugs, and you'd set up my internet connection so I'd get free Interweb off of my neighbors.

Still not worth dealing with your psycho momma, ghetto drama, and looking at your fucked up eye.

I say this because, even thought it's obvious to everyone else...it's probably a secret to you.

*loves*

I still miss you, my imaginary friend.

I got a message last night from my best friend who lives far away. Something was different in her voice. It was too late to call her back. I was restless last night thinking about her.  I called her today. She was having a tough day but without saying it, she was screaming out for help.  I called her husband and asked if he could leave work to check on her. I called a doctor friend for advice.  I put all other things aside today to focus on her.  A lesson that I have learned lately is to "be in the moment" and don't get distracted with unimportant things.  I am thankful for this lesson as I put it to work today.

My best friend called me a few hours ago to thank me.  She was crying.  Her husband was driving her to a center to check her in for major depression.  She was afraid she was going to hurt herself so she was getting help.  I feel thankful that I called her back today, but I also felt scared thinking that I might have put off calling her back and something might have happened to her.

Thank God she is okay.

For all you fuckups and predators, three simple letters that I hope are haunting you.  

DNA motherfuckers!

You know who you are.  

All donations that I will make for the rest of my life will will only be to a fund dedicated to finding you.

Sleet tight!

I have always loved you and shall always I wish things were right between us but I guess everything happens for a reason.. You are the best thing that ever happen to me. Dont go call me once and tell me you cant live without me.. I long to be with you.

I love you Crombie. I've never met anyone like you. You are more kind, thoughtful, sensitive and intuitive than I ever thought possible.
You are so beautiful and everyone knows it but you. You actually sometimes find yourself hideous.
You need to start letting people get close to you. I know you feel lonely sometimes, but it's not because people dont care about you, it's because when someone tries to get close you push them away as far as you can.
I'm happy that you have a boyfriend that loves you as much as I do- even if I'd rather you were still mine. I wish I would've known what I had when I had it.
If you feel lost and ever need a friend to talk to, I hope you know that you can talk to me.
You are so special to me. You are going to have an amazing life my girl.

When I make a post to a chat board, I don't like my message to be on top for too long.  It makes me think I said something stupid and no one knows how to respond.

i always feel guilty after sex. like overwhelming, oh my god what have i done, kind of guilt. this is followed by intense worry for the rest of the month until i am sure pregnancy is not involved. i dont think this is normal or people wouldnt be so obsessed about sex being oh so much fun because it certainly isn't fun for me :(

I think I bait people hoping they will attack me. Then I'll have them arrested. Are you wondering why? Me too.

I don't want anyone to ever be lonely again.  I wish I could help everyone.

I pretended to be happy when I heard a friend was pregnant. In truth, I was just thrilled it wasn't me.

Hey dickhead!! While you're walking around in a pissy mood, annoying everyone around you, let me remind you of something:

The entire fucking earth takes up less space in the universe than one single grain of sand takes up on the entire earth. Do you fucking get that???

So, all these stupid little trivial things you are stomping around about (and rubbing off your shitty mood on to others) are occurring on something less than the size of a speck of dust in the big scheme of things.

GET IT IN TO PERSPECTIVE ASSHOLE!! Your life is NOT that important; learn to enjoy it!!!!!!!

I hate this son of a bitch I have to sit next to! He is set on making us all miserable just like him. But what is worse is the idiots here feed into it!!

I feel that I love her so much I have not told her how I feel.When she calles me I can't help but smile. she's my bestfriend I have a feeling she feels the same way I do.We Know everything about eachother we have messed around a time or two or more with our husbands just in the other room. I love her kisses and the way she touches me the way she smells.but I know it could never be, our husbands would be devestated.

I love my husband. We have a wonderful marriage. We have amazing kids. Nothing is perfect, but our lives are as close to pefect as perfect gets. I wake up every morning so unbelieveably happy...and thankful. I try to never miss an opportunity to thank God for how blessed we are. My secret? I sometimes downplay our success because I have less fortunate family and friends. If I talk about how excited I am about something sweet my husband did for me, I am bragging. If I talk about one of my children's accomplishments, I am rubbing it in someone's face. You get the drift. So, over the years I have just learned to keep my mouth shut. And I close my eyes, thank God for my life. Then I go to sleep every night listening to my children's snores through the monitors and feeling my husbands heartbeat on my back. The most amazing feeling of all.

I know that I have done wrong in the past and for each time I cheated on you, I admitted it on questioning. Then my ex contacted me. I should have not replied to her, but both of us knew that the child was not from me. I asked her questions on who both of us felt was the father; about other affairs she had, about this and that. Again, I should have ignored her. She has a borderline personality Disorder and Bipolar. She physically and mentally abused me in the past marriage as well as our child. Then she started to tell you this and that about me wanting her physically. This makes me sick to my stomach and I will state again and again that I would rather take my life, then to be ever attracted to someone that caused my previous family so much pain and suffering. I did not do any of the things that she is stating. My family knows the shit she can do and that she is completely nuts.
If you think that I did any of the crap she said, then you are throwing away this marriage on something that is not true.

J- is there something between us? I don't think it's just me anymore. I like to daydream about sucking your cock, and what turns me on the most? the sounds you would be making. I can only imagine what you sound like. and I want to know. Is that so bad? Well, I guess, there is a ring on my finger :)

I am to the point of not trying anymore. I put forth the effort to have hope and forgiveness and you do the opposite. I put my mindset to move on and you do the opposite. You cant even be open and honest to your own feelings. You use to tell me if it is worth fighing for... but you are not fighting. You are an emotional rollercoaster ride and I do believe I am ready to get off. I can not make you love me and if you did, this wouldnt be happening. I was eager to forgive you and yet you twisted the emotion to where I was awaiting forgiveness. You are so good! You had the affair all I did was leave...there is NO comparrison. No justifying. So I fell in love with you...I will have to live with that. Our Marriage failed I will have to live with that but in the end you can not say I didn't try to better things. I love you Marv with all that I am. Forever in my heart here I stand.
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There are now two investigations going on trying to determine how two people died in that "sweatbox" retreat in Arizona.  The temperature inside the makeshift sauna was 175 degrees.  The people sat in there for two hours.

Um... let's see... how did they die....

Maybe they ate bad seafood?

Do you ever tell the truth about anything? What a sick disease you have. How can you think so little about lying to my face so often? It's to the point where I totally discount anything you say.

You tell me where you're going and I think to myself that I have no idea where you're going. The thing is though, I no longer care.

You tell me how much you paid for something and I know you are making it up.  A few weeks later I'll happen to see the credit card bill and there is the correct purchase price in black and white. But you know what, I don't even look anymore. Why would I?  You are always lying.

Don't you feel dirty inside?  Do you feel guilty?

I guess I am pleased that I could never be you. I never lie. I have a conscience.

Anthony.


I fell in love with you within the first hour.
I made a big mistake.
If I had one wish, I'd go back and say--


"Yes, you can call me your girl as much as you want, but you have to call me that forever."

The guy I'm involved with can have sex a few times a day, and not just quickies, he can go long each time.  This can make me not only sore, but it will hurt by the second time.  He has perfect rhythm and can go like a jackhammer.  He prides himself on his sexual skill, girls before me have always come back for more.  So I wonder if I'm the weird one, because it's not all that pleasurable to me.  I prefer it slow.  With the guy before him, which was years ago, he was easier to cum, but it was ok, and he would go slow, not fast and hard.  And a few times a week was his limit.  Girls talk about wanting a guy who can go for hours, who just f's the sh-- out of them, and this guy i'm with is a dream for those type of girls.  but i think i prefer someone more slow and steady, and no marathons either.  my pu--y can't take it.  he wants it so much it can be annoying, he's so sexually high maintenance.

I was one little measure away from completely losing it today. Up too early, not enough sleep, weird ass bus ride, excitement, then confusion, disappointment, and frustration.

I never fully cried, but I wanted to so so so bad.  I still do.  I am just wondering when the roller coaster will have hit the bottom of the dip so my life can start going up again. It hasn't been like this in a long while.

I haven't had sex in over a month and I'm really beginning to not care.

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Robert thought that you and I were going out.
Because I guess you were sick and it seem like your "glazed over" look were eyes of affection.  And I also guess it was my look of caring and concern about you going to class sick.
Silly I know. But Robert threw me off with that question.
He also said that we would be a cute couple.


This is not a secret I know. but it not like I didn't think about what would it be like if we went out.
maybe we would be cute. You know, not all girl are the demanding type. You just gotta find the peanut butter to your jelly. Just like how I'm looking for the jelly to my peanut butter.  it out there. maybe closer than we think...

"In God we trust"
and it's so close to forgotten for most people, that to me it almost seems as if it's a secret or something these days.
I think everyone needs to start reminding eachother.
Were so obsessed with money, but never think to READ IT. Everything powerful comes with  message, money included and its an important message.
"In God we trust."

God bless yall
<3

this happened so long ago and were long done now but - I cheated on you. with your roommate. whom had taken my virginity 2 years ealier.
and ive still never told anyone. you treated me like shit but I do feel bad. thats the only time ive ever cheated on someone and it sucks to know that ive done that.

We are so corrupt as a nation. I think we need to start over.

I am heartbroken....today I learned my best friend got married two months ago....I was supposed to go to the wedding but the invitation never came...they told me they put it off...it would have hurt less if you had just been honest with me.  I will love you forever R and I am happy for you always.

i dont like anyone, and it sucks

who am I

i have a crush on this unattainable guy. ever since i made this confession on another website that he looked freaking hot in his pair of jeans, it's basically all he's been wearing to his job. i'd like to think he didn't read it, but it kind of seems weird now, almost like he did. i wish i had the nerve to just say  "hello" to him. i can talk to every single other person that's around but when he's around i can't even look at him. we seem to have nothing in common and i'm just the plain girl that wouldn't catch anyone's eye, let alone his. the best part about all of this is, this is the first guy in 15 years that i've been remotely this attracted to and wanting to get to know. i wish i wasn't such a fraidy cat.

He is selfish, controlling and abusive. Why do you keep making excuses for him?

she talks to him more and is all buddy buddy with him after i tell her he sexually assaulted me? after i told her how much he hurt me... what a bitch