Honestly, even with all the curves life has thrown at us this year, seeing you unexpectedly like that genuinely made me smile.

Why is it when I go to Starbucks with my skinny friend, they make her pumpkin spice latte with whipped cream, no questions asked.  But when I order the same thing, the guy making the coffee always shouts over to me to ask if I want the whipped cream.  You could be a little more tactful about my weight issue. Asshole.

I'm not really sick.
It just hurts that you can never know.
Ever.

I'm not gay, I just wonder what it would feel like to have a cock in my ass... I'm hard just thinking about it.
26m/married

The nerds are getting lazy. By now we should have  live-looking and feeling dolls instead of blow dolls.

I think all the girls I sit next to want to fuck me. I will explain why... They start getting close to me and start rubbing their legs against mine while also rubbing their tits on my arm. One time this woman was wearing these really sexy tight pants and she lifted her ass and she layed it right on my hand...then she started rubbing my leg and my thigh... I came in my pants man it was such a Rush! Nobody saw anything...this was on my way to work. We just get up and go about our ways... It's never the same person.. This has been happening on a daily basis. I am a happily married man ;)

Yaf: you turn me on so much. I can see it in your face your horny too... Let's do something about it... Everytime you shake that ass near me my cock feels like it's going to explode in my pants... Let's do it ;)

I hate the feeling that people are watching me when I see you. I don't know who to trust. Also, I feel like I can't disguise the thoughts that are going through my head.

I wish I could have talked to you.

i talk to a 36 year old man over the computer
we met on a website and later became fb friends and yahoo
im 19 years old, and i think im going to meet him
who knows what we'll do
but i know he'll make me happy
oh and btw, ive had a boyfriend for over 2 years.
he has no idea
- 19/F ..

Truth be told, I'll probably always be the bad guy. It's simply in my nature.

Em, you are a manipulative anal whore slut. I think that sums it up perfectly.

Stop hovering around me and say something.

Don't let it stop.
Turn
to
ME.

I have failed at life and there's nobody I can turn to.  I've devoted my entire existence to a wife who literally wants me dead.  I've got nothing, no hope, no chances, no promise, no odds, no possibilities, just failure.  

I give up.  I just want it all to stop.

My daily 'to do' list:

- Check husband's email account

- Check husband's cell phone records

- Check online credit card accounts for unusual purchases

- Check the number of condoms in the drawer hasn't gone down.

- Check yesterday's pants pockets for forgotten notes

- Check the secret keystroke tracker on his computer

- Check his car for evidence if anyone has been in the passenger seat


And he wonders what I do all day.

I am not a yeller. When something goes amiss, I calmly look at the situation and try to solve the problem so everything can get back to normal.  This is how I treat relationship problems, work problems, you name it.  I've always been like this.

But I think I am wrong. I think I have been making a giant mistake.  I deal with yellers sometimes.  Usually at work.  Something goes wrong and they start with the screaming and finger pointing. At the end of the day, when whatever the issue was has been resolved, people remember the yeller.  They remember him and make the assumption that's how ultimately the problem got fixed.

Yes, my calm approach might be the "better" approach as a whole.  But it is not the better approach for me personally.  I think I'd probably be given more credit in life if I made more of a fuss. So goodbye calm person.  The new mean mother fucking asshole has arrived and you lazy slacktards that fuck up everything because your momma let you suck on her fat tit too long, your days are numbered you moronic dipships.  

(How am I doing?)

Where do I start?  I guess that first is that I am so fat that I can't wipe my own ass. I have to rinse the shit off my ass in the shower with a hand-held shower head. I hate being made fun of just for walking down the street.  I go to the gym to workout to lose some of this fucking weight, and people still laugh and say that I don't belong there.  I hate myself.  

Next, I have been married for several years.  I love my wife with all of my heart, but she has grown very cold in bed.  I love to receive oral sex, but she refuses to do it.  I will not cheat on her with another woman, but I feel the urges to have a man suck me off.  I have never had any sexual contact with another man, but I have visited gay chat rooms and jerked off on webcam, frequently.  I don't feel that it is adultry if it's another man.  I have gone so far as to set up meetings with men (giving a different description of myself) and gone to the area where these meetings are to take place, and watch them walk around looking for me. Once I even walked up to one guy and asked him if he had a lighter for my cigar, he never knew it was me. The only reason I don't go through with it is that I would lose my job if I was ever caught.

I need out of this.

In my role, people often email me articles to read.  I appreciate that they think to include me and seek out my opinion. But truth be told, I can't read all that crap. Not wanting to discourage the emailer, I will write back, quoting a line from the article.  I purposely choose a line near the bottom of the text to give the impression that of course I read the entire thing.  In reality I only read that one random line.  I'm a big faker.

To clean things up, sometimes you need to sling a little mud.

You had to have been there, to truly know and understand the situation. I didn't leave him, because I was weak - I left because I was strong, and had accepted things were not going to change for the better for us. It takes real balls to take that first step - he just couldn't do it. So, now I'm the bad person, and he just plays the victim to his friends and family.

I have secret email conversations and photo exchanges with married women. Thank you internet. I am getting smarter about such things too. For example, I once printed out a steamy picture and jacked on it with the idea being to send a copy of it back with my "modifications". But not thinking, I left the photo on my desk for a few minutes while I took care of something else. My wife found it. That was bad. Very very bad. We worked through it and she has my assurances that nothing like that ever goes on anymore. Which is true. I don't jack on paper pictures of women. What she doesn't know is I now take my computer screen and lay it down on the floor with the screen facing upwards. Then I jack directly onto the screen. I quickly snap a picture of my handiwork, clean the screen and put everything back to normal. But no honey bunches, I am no longer jacking onto paper pictures of women, as promised. What a crazy thing though. I'm standing there with no pants on, wires twisted every which way as I jack onto transistors and capacitors and chips.  I'm making love to a bunch of electronic components. How damned screwy is that?

I'm trying so hard to be okay on my own without you, but it's more difficult than I could have ever imagined. I still see people from your family and your friends and it's a constant reminder of what you did to me and how you're with her now. I need to learn to stand on my own two feet again.

Life's too short to keep slamming the brakes. Just roll with it.

I'm lost. I hate my life. I don't feel like I have any hope for anything. Nothing to look forward to. I wish the guy I want wanted me for something more than sex. I wish I didn't hate being in college. I wish something could change so I had some hope.

I'm sorry I don't show you, I get scared of my own intentions. It's all new to me, all these new but familiar feelings. Why do I choose to act on them now, is something different then before? I don't want to hurt you. What changed when I wasn't looking?  Could it even work? This is driving me mad because I'm stuck like a prisoner of my own stupidity with no way out and countless questions unanswerable.

I like you. You like me. Now, let's make this work!

I can trust a very small group of people I work with. The rest are sitting and waiting to fuck me over because I threaten them! This sucks!! I don't wanna work there anymore.

I wish that I was there with you right now to ease your worries. I'd give anything to hold your face in my hands, kiss you, and look into your eyes and assure you that I love you and that your heart is safe with me. I just want to wrap my arms around you and keep you warm.

When can I come over again?

You're leaving this week and I'm really going to miss you. :(

We have to talk about this before you go because I'll be going nuts waiting for you to come back.

I pray for all these fears to leave and never come back.

that's it, this crush is done. you suck. glad I saw it now. that's what I get for falling for a boy...

Can't sleep.
Everything went wrong.
I miss my group terribly
I got to fight for what was always mine
but I have a feeling that I'm going to lose.

MV~ Thank you so much for everything.
You were the first person that truly made me believe
that everything will work out in the end. Please pray that things work out.  I'm scared of begin left behind.

I'm about to smoke some weed and get hiiiiigh!

Then I'll just be sitting around waiting for you to talk to me.

Whatevvvs to you!!! WTF did I do to you?!?!
Y O U R    L O S S

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I like to pee in my front yard during after dark when nobody can see.... It's quite peaceful and relaxing looking up at the stars while relieving yourself.

At the end of this month I will be homeless.  A combination of disability and job loss and just some bad luck put me in this position.

I do however have a plan...

I'm going to pretend I've relapsed after six years of sobriety and check myself into a long term rehab.

I'm a Veteran and since I will be homeless and broke I can stay in the rehab for as long as two years at no cost to me.

So after the initial six months of treatment I will be able to go back on job search and not have to worry about food or shelter.  

Nice!

I have a boyfriend of over three years, but this guy down the hall from me is gorgeous. I have never dated anyone but my boyfriend, but this guy is so tempting. I helped him with a project today. He is kind to me, has an incredible voice, and everything about him is beautiful. I keep wondering if he is as interested in me as I am in him...

please come back to me.... i need you.

You know? I AM strong enough to let by-gones be by-gones and to get on with my life. Sad but true, that I won't coast my days along with ppl I like.

I feel like I have more knowlege than most people twice my age.

Oh god, I'm so unbelievably sorry I hurt you.

Is that a sign?

I picture you coming over here after my wife goes out for a few hours.  You ring the bell and I bring you inside.  I immediately drop to my knees, undo your pants and release your cock.  I take you in my mouth and work it till you're hard.  Right there in the foyer.

Then I lead you up to the bedroom.  I climb on my wife's side of the bed.  The side with all her lotions and candles.  I get on all fours.  I am staring at her picture on the bedside table as you kneel behind me.  You use your hard cock to toy around, rubbing your balls here and there.  I reach for one of my wife's lubricants, the one she uses on her pussy.  Only this time I'll rub it onto your cock.

Well oiled, you press the tip of your cock against my ass.  I have wanted this so bad.  You ask if I can feel it.  I say yes yes, press more.  You do.  My ass starts to open as the head of your cock enters me slightly.  My heart is racing.  More more.   You press harder and there is a definite moment when your head completely pops into me.  There is a cock in my ass!  For the first time ever.

My wife was asleep right there a few hours earlier.  Now she is out in her sporty car, feeling secure and normal and proper.  But her husband is in her bed with a cock up his ass.

You keep pushing.  I insist.  Your entire shaft enters me.  Ohh. I start rocking.  In and out.  Faster and faster.  God does that feel good.  You feel it too.

I can tell you're about to come.  I spin around.  I push you down on the mattress.  I take your sticky cock in my mouth.  I keep the rhythm going.  3,2,1 boom.  You shoot your load onto my tongue.  Gobs of gooey cum.  Thick. Forbidden.  Your married cum is in a married mouth.

Next time you cum in your wife's pussy, it will be different knowing you came in another man's mouth.

You get dressed.  You leave.

Half an hour later my wife comes home.  I French kiss her.  She doesn't know she has just tasted your juices.  I strip her down.  I suck her pussy knowing some of your cum will get inside.  She blows me and fingers my ass.  She has no idea the wetness is from a lubed cock pounding me back there a short while earlier.  Then I put her on all fours,  just like I was with you, and I fuck her in the ass....  

I can't wait to just talk to you; for real, no bullshit, nobody watching my every move. That'll be awesome. There's so much I need to show you and tell you. I wish we could sneak off and be alone somehow, even if it's just for a little while, but I guess I'll have to hang in there. Things will be different soon. Thank God.

I miss our good moments...listening to music on the patio...dancing...hold each other while we slept...cumming together...waiting for you to come home, with excitement and enticipation...walking hand and hand while we shopped...I miss loving you....I am tired of hating you...I forgive you, but would you change and be that precious angel that I married. I will always adore my husband hard hard hard!
PM

I am so discouraged right now about whats happening in my life... And ive got no one to talk to... And everybody that looks at me thinks im happy... And i hope things will look up soon, I dont know how i can handle with all this faliure alone,

I love you, but I'm caught in the middle. I'm afraid you'll just laugh at me and say i'm too late. I'm afraid you hate so much that it wouldn't mean anything to you. I'm afraid that if I were to get back with you, we'd find out we weren't meant to be at all.

Why can't this be easy? why can't we just know if it's not good or not? I wish you would talk to me. I miss playing video games, i miss acting like an idiot with you, and i miss your hugs and kisses. you loved me so much and i ruined it all. And if you can't take me back, please forgive me for my mistake. we all make them, some or just worse than others.

You confuse me so. I know how you feel yet it is never shown when your with me. It will be quite interesting in the future i think.

S , we need to finish this tonight please.


I wish I had the guts to start. But I can't. My stomach is in knots and I haven't ate a thing today. I feel strange.

How can I claim what was......Never Mine?

This is what you say. Hmmm I am such a fool!!! Wow!!!I am starting to really understand that all those times I thought you loved me as you said you did were all lies! I just don't understand why you marry me in the first place? It makes NO sense. I will eventually make all this go away...it is starting to get easier already. The more you convince me that you never cared the easier it gets.

You were a very lucky man to have had the opporunity to experience my love for you and now you will spend the rest of your life searching for what you already had and will never experience again.
PM

Either ask me, so I can say yes, or leave me alone, once and for all, so I can start to forget.

You are a crazy bitch, why would you fucking go ahead and key my car. BECAUSE you can't trust your husband. Not my problem, cunt!!! If your man is out cheating on you, its not me, you have the wrong bitch. Get a clue and leave me the FUCK alone!!!!!

I f***king can't stand my coworker.Either coworker has your back or coworker is reaming you out for something.Coworker gets on my nerves...will I be fired for doing my job?Because of coworker???UGH I can't stand coworker!

Resorting to reaching out to prostitutes again?  Wow.  I thought desperation already had enough poster children.

I'm sorry that even a whore has someone to love and you never will.

I'm also glad that I'm sitting behind a laptop so you can't see just HOW straight I can't keep my face right now.  Just stop trying.  None of them will ever want you.  You're a toy.  A joke.

I wish the parents that have been so shitty to him would die so that I could adopt him and he'd really be my son instead of me just treating him like he's my son.

I'm moving back in with my mom and dad for a while. I can't believe it's come down to this. Yet somehow, I don't feel anything...except maybe a little relief.

i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.i still love him.

i will forget him.i will forget him.i will forget him.i will forget him.i will forget him.i will forget him.i will forget him.i will forget him.

i lied.

I so hope that you are happy in your new life without me. Otherwise, my leaving you after all those years, would be in vain. I HAD to let go - didn't want to - but I knew deep down, when you found a life outside of us, that there was no going back for us. I shall cherish the memories. Love for you always, M

Could everyone please stop calling me for the next hour? Doesn't a girl deserve a little downtime now and then? Jeez, I'm trying to masturbate here!

I don't remember how many years it has been but I don't remember you anymore, and to me, that is a victory.

I wish I could fast forward my life to about 3 years and see if there's anything worth sticking around for.


Cause right now there isnt. I dissapoint everyone.

Why did I have to fall in love with you?
Forreal, out of everyone... why you?

i know youre going to think of past mistakes ive made and, in your mind, connect them with this.
its so different. please. seriously please dont secretly hate me or resent me. dont talk to her about it. talk to me. think of this situation, i feel like shit about it. im sorry ill stop it wont ever happen again

I have never been so close to killing myself as I was a few days ago and its terrifying for me think back on already. Its been so long since Ive been in such a dark scary LONELY place.

Im still scared. I dont know how to get past this.

I've never been more terrified of anything in my life than I am of this. Fear has kept me still. But I'm more afraid of what would happen if I had to go on being without you. I love you. In the end, I promise you, it will all be worth it. I know it's asking a lot, but please have faith in me.

i am a female, and i absolutely LOVE giving oral sex, and having a guy cum in my mouth...i LOVE the look of pleasure on his face...so it does indeed, make me smile.
i feel like a dirty little slut, when i think about how many guys i've done that to...but i didn't sleep with all of them! i just love giving oral!
but then again...it's also a turn-on sometimes for me to feel like a slut...0_0

female, 18.

I cant believe you do that, how evil.

I hold my feelings in too much. When a friend does something that pisses me off or upsets me, I dont say anything, but i gradually start to resent that person.

I am going to be 45 next week and I never ever expected to find someone to fall in love with me. I have a lot to offer but I just figured no one would ever look past what I consider flaws. I love you so much for loving me and making me want to live again. I promise to be here for you for ever no matter what. Thank you God for giving me Jimmy.

I could be happy here...

but wishing does nothing. you showed me that atleast.

I wish for you lots of happiness in the future!

Move forward and be done! Some things are just not meant to be!

apple, you dont know how you make me feel.
or maybe you do, and thats why you play with me.
because you know i'll stick around. i'll prove it over and over by not leaving. you said my time is more valuable but i dont have alot to give right now.. but when i turn 18 i will.. who knows if you will have been bored out of your mind with me by then.. because i'll stick around but idk if you would.. :'[
and everytime you get pissed at me it ruins my day. really. like, i feel like complete and total shit and i dont want to do anything.. well wait who cares how i feel.
anyway  are you ever going to talk to me again? at the very least let me know, so i can know if im gonna sit in a corner forever or keep being happy.
miluje te

Why am I afraid to let myself love you? Is it that maybe we have too much to lose? Is it worth the risk? I stay so scared. Just tell me it will be ok and that you love me.

I'm very proud of my cock picture I send to anonymous women over the internet.

i love him. i don't know what to do.. we are 'just friends'. i know he was in love with me before but i pretended that i wasn't interested in him as nothing more than a friend. i guess i was just scared? & didn't want to ruin our friendship.. he was one of my best friends. he was forced to move on & now that it seems that he has completely forgotten about me, i have come to realize how much i am completely in love with him. as stupid as this sounds.. he is always on my mind. i just want it to stopp. my heart hurts so much. the worst feeling in the world is being in love with someone who USED TO love you.

It has taken me FOREVER to convince my husband that we do not need to take a shower every day. Just telling him I had very dry skin, and even used the convincing angle, that it helps to save on water, was not enough. Telling him that we need to do every thing we can to help our immune system, is what convinced him. He does notlike being sick, or have the patience to care for anyone else that might be. Hooray for me for not giving up on this important issue.

For Suzuki Joe, I just want you to know that I do not have any regrets about these last few months.  If I thought that I could be with you in the afterlife, I would end it all right now just to be with you.  You say I never heard anything that you said.  I heard everything and plan on fulfilling everything I have said in time.  Right now, I have a major obstacle to clear before I can proceed.  I have to say, the hurt is unbearable.  No one has ever made such an impact on me.  I love you and want nothing but the best for you.  You are beautiful to me and always will be.  See you in the afterlife.

these past few days I met several of different girls and it felt like the time I spent with each of them was special that the things we did were meaningful nearing the end of the day I felt good like I was on top of the world, its like I had fallen for each of them... now that I think of it it seems kinda of weird that I think of them all in a romantic way I hoping I have a dream tonight where for some reason it works out between all of us

The thought of kissing your lips makes me warm all over. Now I just have to find a way to get you alone...

I spent the majority of my life feeling a little outside the human race.  I'm gay, and as I understand it most gay people feel a bit apart from the rest before they understand themselves fully.

But I've been out for 4 years, and yet I still felt... different! Then.. I made mistakes.

In the past year I've made more mistakes in my life than ever before, and it wasn't until I reflected on them and truly began to understand human instincts that I started to feel part of the rest of the world.

Imagine that. :)

Secret: you will be fine.

My boyfriend of 3 1/2 years and I went our separate ways a month ago... we got back together a week later, and it was 100% everything I'd dreamed of, I really thought I had avoided the biggest mistake of our lives by getting back together.

A week after that, we broke apart again.  Actually, he broke it off with me.  After a week of shock and tears and trying to get him back (and a heavenly post-breakup night under the sheets), I finally started to understand.

I am thankful to him for having the strength to see what I could not, and the strength to do what I most likely never would have.

I was so stuck in the mindset of what was best for "us" that I hadn't stopped to think about what I wanted for myself.  Now that I've had a few weeks with myself, I've started to understand my needs and wants a little better.  The painful part in the beginning was about recognizing my faults.  After that, I started to see why I was such a wonderful person, and realized - I DESERVE TO BE LOVED.

I may just be in a strong place that I will fall from eventually, and that's fine because I'm very in tune with the ebb and flow of the universe.  But the fact that I reached this strong place at all has me knowing that whatever happens, I will be fine.

And you will too.  Whatever your relationship business, you will be fine.  Just trust yourself.

Mikey~ Thank you so much for risking your toes in 30 degrees weather to make me feel better.

But I'm still scare.

Your back Home with all your Friends & Family....Because thats where You want to be. You can FB,Tag....etc all Day and Night Without any ridicule.

Balls is Admitting my Mistakes and Facing the Consequences.
Not Having Balls....is allowing You to come back Again........Knowing You'll leave again.
Having the Wisdom to Accept the things I can not change is called.........Moving on with My Life!!!

How can I claim what was......Never Mine?

Dressing like the full-fledged prostitute version of a fairytale character is the one thing I really look forward to every Halloween.

This is the most terrible, awful and disgusting secret:

The whole reason I have been so successful at my weight loss is that I am terrified of looking like "Rasputia" "Keisha" or any of those grossly obese, ghetto, ugly black women stereotypes.

Lets just face it, the reason why its such a popular stereotype is because you see that stereotype often enough waddling out of McDonald's, or some fast food place wearing size 5x jeans and cheap two tone colored weaves, while they chase after multiple children.

I am embarrassed for them and of them.

This is why most guys, (especially the successful ones), want to date anything but us (black women).

I can't believe how much time I wast trying to help people.  I'm stupid.

He wants to suck my cock. I think I'll let him.

My secret is......I dont want you Back!!!!
U have your Friends and Family......Now live with the choice You've made.....Because, I am!!!!

My husband is terrible in bed. There I said it. He does most everything wrong. He can't take constructive criticism so I say nothing and pretend to like it. Just a word to the men out there, "sucking nipples" shouldn't entail latching on like a baby who is nursing and not letting go. Give them a lick and a nibble and a little suck here and there, ok? Geez this is just one of the things I wish I could tell my husband!

I need to lose weight so badly. I hide food from you so that you think I am eating like a bird.

Ok, I am ready. As wrong as it may be, I am ready for that kiss. I have resisted and you have persisted. Guess that means you really have something to offer me. I thought about it all night the other night and in my imagination, the kiss was amazing. I am ready.

I just found something VERY strange...I went into my boyfriend's car to look for a cigarette (he is sleeping), and in the glove box he had 3 pairs of my dirty panties and my driver's license and social security card which has been missing for a week!!!!!!! I asked him if he saw them, and he said no. We have been together for 2 years, I don't know why he would do this, I am very creeped out right now :C

i was told to not look back on the past and see what i no longer have, but to live in the moment and see what i can gain
messages that leave a dent, you always hear them
for me, i feel like that dent is never hard enough to alter me as a person, i can give advice and listen but it never truly sticks to me when i need it
competition used to be what drove me, and i'm trying one last time
i challenge any person out there, reach your goal, do whatever the hell you want to do, cause i'm going to damn well try my hardest too
to whomever out there that is competing with me, i've never been able to challenge myself and do it for myself, so i'm doing it for you
i'm going to reach my goal for the sake of this challenge and you better swear on whatever you hold dear that you're going to do it too
the next time i post on this site, i'm posting, "i did it"
however long that takes, i guess we'll see
if you're joining me in this, you post that too when you're done
regardless of time that this message is read, it's never too late to reach whatever you want out of life
my advice to you live in this moment, this exact second

I say I love you.
You say you love me more.
I don't think you know how much that means to me.

I can't believe you had me just sitting there. So mean. :(

I need a cigarette. *sigh*

I'm a skirt chaser I'll admit but at the end of the day I still want you just like I have for the past 4 years

How can anyone just fall in love with one person? god I envy the greeks man were they into polygamy

I'm sorry I'm so afraid of this. Help, plz? I need you.