So my computer got a little fucked up... WHAT EVER I'LL FIX IT DAD

gosh... he freaking acts like I do stupid shit with my
computer and broke it... Getting a virus form porn or some
shit like that... When I got a virus from sharing my files, and allowing users on our network to be allowed to make changes.

Anywho he messed with some stuff trying to make it work better, and F'd it up big time... Idk what he did, he doesn't think he messed anything up..

My secret: I hate it when other people try to do stuff/ fix my computers, or anything of mine for that matter..

I think I'm falling in love,
falling in love,
falling in love,
with Hermione Granger.

We talked on the phone the other night, I haven't seen you in years. We were talking about your life and you called your wife your wife right now. You corrected yourself and I laughed, saying I understood what you meant. We talked a while longer and I said I wanted to meet her so she wouldn't be weirded out that we were suddenly talking, that you and I were never "like that" and had never dated (plus I'm a chunky girl now lol, it would ease her mind further). The truth is I'm positive that had you made a move, or we had been friends a little longer we would have. Seeing your pic after so long made me realize how much I liked you back then. I'd never do anything with you now that your married, I'd never even let you know I used to like you. But, god I can't help but wonder what if.  
....we prob shouldn't hang out without her for awhile tho, once I like her I don't have to worry about myself acting recklessly. I still find you sexy.

I don't care about your college degree or career.  We are all lucky enough to be alive for a short amount of time and all you want to do is look good on a piece of paper?  Calm down, stop trying to impress others, get rid of your louzy office job and enjoy the rest of your life.

i miss u j
uve made a mistake- ull know one day and killed me in the process....
it hurts so bad...
yet i still wait for ure call...
how pathetic...

I hate you.
He hates you too.
We put up Christmas decorations and you went to bed.
You had to use a calculator to minus 82 from 96.  
You are truly hateful and discusting.
You make it unbearable.
Can't you see that I hate you when you look in my eyes?
Can't you tell my kisses are empty every day?
I should be pursuing the person who loves the real me and who I've loved all along.
I want to put up the tree with him and our future family.
He will love us.
He will live for us.
He will enjoy life and all the moments that you pass up.  
He will be the best thing I've ever had.
Fuck you, you fat god damn bastard!
I hope your son grows up to realize the waste for human life you really are.

I hate your boyfriend! And I did from the very beginning. I acted like I didn't care because I thought that you would come to your senses sooner or later. You didn't.

You could do so much better! He's a lazy ass, not the brightest crayon in the box, looks like he lives under a bridge and talks shit. He can't offer you anything but his torn clothes!

Please, don't marry him just because he does everything you command. If you do, you gonna end up like your mother. You want that???
f/26

I think all love references are about me, even if they're not. Even if there's no plausible reason why they would be. I'm completely in love and in a very happy relationship, but I want everyone else to love me too.

You left me a small toy last time I saw you, that is currently in my car.   It gives me someone to talk to when you are not around.  I hope I'll see you again soon, it's just not the same without you, you give me something to look forward to... other than simply going home.

Swallowing an anchor doesn't help you save a drowning person.  Fucking morons.

our first phone conversation in years. and after only an hour i remember why i was in love with you all those years ago. and why i avoided your friendship for a while.

I am NOT proud to be an American!

I have a girls that is acting like a crazy stalker. She is scaring me and I am nervous that I will see her in public. It wouldn't surprise me if she tried to harm me or my family. The problem is- no one is taking me seriously when I tell them about her. They just tell me to ignore her. How the hell do you ignore someone who is stalking you??  Crazy bitch!

im sick of being treated like dirt. dont you people understand that you make me feel small inferior and unimportant!? cant you see that im not okay!? and that what your doing doesnt help!?

i cant wait to get out of here. i can not wait.

and one day. karmas gonna get you people. be ready. because if its anywhere near how youve made me feel. your in for a real suprise.

bastards.

im fairly certain my depression is coming back. i wont take those pills. id rather be crazy sad than emotionless.

If you knew what I did to the last person who said something that glaringly stupid to me via IM, you would be much, much, much more careful, you annoying, bitchy little troll.

Never put in writing something you don't want the whole world to see. That includes instant messeges.

I've called him 1000 times.  

I used to call just to listen to his voice on his outgoing office message.

Once his message was different and he sounded so sad.  I still wonder what was going on with him.

This week I have called 6 times. No answer. Is it fate?  

I can't stop.

Weve been sleeping together for about a month and a half now.
I feel completely committed to you because that is what I want more than anything. I have no desire at all what so ever to kiss, touch, or be with anyone else in this world.
Yet, you still go back to him. You're still fucking him and youre still committed to him.
and you still love him..
fml
-F

When my husband doesn't get his way, he ignores me and stops talking to me.  

I want to go see my family for the holidays and he wants me to stay here and have me cook and entertain his family.  When his family comes, he does nothing to help before, during or after their visit. They are all high maintenance.

So no decision has been made.  I would like to talk about it and have a reasonable discussion, but he won't even make eye contact with me.  

I feel like I am dealing with a two-year old.

The Internet: giving millions the capability to affect the lives of other people with internet, all across the globe.

The world is getting bigger, and sometimes it scares me!

I hope my mother in law gets cancer.

Actually no, scratch that, I don't. That would allow her to live longer to reap sympathy from her disease.

I hope she wraps her car around a tree one of these times when she's driving drunk and she dies in pain and bleeding profusely from the head.

I hope at her funeral I can keep my glee concealed.

i just had a thought... maybe i'm not fantasizing about YOU in my future, but rather the feeling i often felt when I was around you...

maybe it's not you that i see myself with eventually, maybe it's just love.

I wish you would call me.

i've had a huge crush on one of my friends for the last 4 years, and at a party one summer a mutual friend of mine stole her away, thinking it wasn't going to last, i waited to tell her, it's almost been a year now, and i've joined the marines, and wish it would end everyday, but i know that i couldn't give her half as much as he could,  but i desperately want to tell her when i go home for christmas

Try as you might to know your wife before you get married, how your wife treats your own children will be a big unknown until you actually have the children.

I am horrified.  How can a mother bully and berate  young kids so badly?  My wife is one fucked up person.  If I had known this before we were married, there is no way I would have gone through with it.

Fuck you MBTA. You are worthless. Who sends 5 buses of one route in a row and no bus for the other route for over 40 minutes? They're supposed to be there every 12 minutes max! Now everyone is stranded & late for work. Thanks for nothing you useless incompetents.

I find myself trying to live vicariously through movies I enjoy. After I see a movie I like I immediatly go up to my room, put on some music and act it out as if I was one of the main characters. I talk back and forth and everything! I just feel so unsatisfied with my life this is the only thing that keeps me semi-sane. I hate it. I know it's the most nerdiest thing...but i just cant help it...

i am afraid my fiance is nit-picky (a self-described control freak) and likes to go out drinking with his friends without me, but i don't want to die alone
f/37

i miss being next to my daughter everyday

I'm an idiot...idiot...IDIOT!!!!

the only thing keeping me from killing myself is that i dont believe in a god or afterlife and im to scared of not being

I'm more than likely going to Hell. Do not pass Go, do not collect $200. :(

I want someone to be the big spoon,
Want to smell my hair
Hum a song in my ear
And Kiss the back of my head

Just like you used to....

It's been a lonely birthday

i love you.
i want to be more than best friends.
im constantly revisited by the memories in my backseat.
the good and the bad.
i want to be with you.
but you dont want that.
i dont know why you don't.
you're not going to hurt me again.
i know this.
im a stronger person now.
getting hurt isn't that easy now.
listen to me.
be with me.
this is all i ask and want.
if not.
im not sure yet...

even though miles keep us apart. i still need you. i forgive you for all that has happened. and im ready to move on but not from you. there are some days when i want to crawl to you and be with you but i know you don't want that. i wish we could be more than this but i still love you. ill just have Faith and hope to keep me wishful and hopeful for us
<3

You are an idiot. You know nothing about addiction. If a person is addicted to something, there isn't much that everyone around them can do. I will never be able to change that and I know it. The only option is dragging my life down just to help theirs.

No matter how hard I try,

I just can't let you go.

You're part of my soul.
Why does is have to be this way?
I miss you so much.
And you're a two minute walk from here.
WTF is wrong with us?!?

I begin to miss you, the SEC0ND I see you, because I know that it can't last forever.
Ily!

I wish Hallmark made a card that said:

"No one likes you and you should kill yourself."

But you know, in like a pleasant rhyming sort of way so the recipient wouldn't be offended.

I'd buy a lot of those.

I hope you sleep well tonight

i want my back to not hurt everyday

i made out with my friends's step dad when i was fifteen. more than once.

hey jeff-  it's been a long time.  in case you ever wondered, i do still think of you & i miss you very much.  i hope things are incredible for you.  they should be, you deserve it.  love j

She will never fuck you better than I did.

I think... Im falling for her.

Your wrong.

6 years from now and we'll be back on track.

I promise.

Even though you broke my heart, I still love you with all of its pieces and she can never give you anything close to that. Why did it have to be like this?

It turns out you were sick, still sucks you didn't call, but it gives me hope that maybe you would have otherwise.  I really want to make this work.

And all of this, this is why I use this site to get this stuff out, if I were to say it to your, or anyone's face, they'd call me a psycho bitch... and that's not just speculation.

Our new boss is less qualified than the last one...
Not sure if this time the whole team will be fired.

I am a depressed duranged pot-smoker who is addicted to porn as if it were air... And not just regualr porn, I'm talking about weird shit, like shemale, beastiality, snuff, tenticles, and a whole bunch of other things. I suck at school, but have no future else where, I'm seeing a pycologist but i'm too embarrased to tell him all of this, and im scared that if i don't I'll be even more f***ed up then befor... i have almost no friends because I annoy almost everyone i meet, and the friends i do have almost never want to hangout with me. I'm scared that my girlfriend is cheating on me. My penis is smaller then normal. I'm fat because eating helps me fill the void i feel.... I hate myself

you hurt me, i know about it.
i hurt you, you have no clue.


i will always be the one hurting from all of this.
by hurting you, i hurt myself.
you hurt me, i hurt myself.
i will never win this battle.



at least one of us can be happy from all of this. hopefully you don't take that for granted too.

I'm going to see New Moon at midnight tonight. I'm never going to hear the end of this.

19/f

sooo , i just got back from your house
and you spent the whole time passed out on the couchh..
GREAT parenting skills (Y) :)

Okay let's get this straight now.  We will not be talking at any time.  It will not be okay for you to call me.  I will not answer if you call, email or text.  You blew it and it's over.  Done.

I am really so happy right now! I have been kicking ass in school, recently got a great opportunity for my career path, and became involved with an awesome man.

J-If you only knew how ready for this I am!!

I love my husband with all my heart but I dont this I am in love with him anymore /i would love to feel like I did when we started dating

I will always love you...Even though you'll never want me the way I want you too...

Yes, I totally flirted with your boyfriend. And I'll say that I'm sorry, if you want me to. But honestly I don't feel sorry at all.

Secret: I desperately want to get out.


Conversely, and even more secretly, if they were to look me in the eye and honestly want me to stay, I would. In a split second. That's all it would take.

Let's have the Magic 8 Ball decide.

I think I'm really starting to want you

Women that want bigger boobs make me want to punch them and hopefully kill them.

I have a oversized chest for my size, and am not fat at all. No one will understand how hard it is to dress myself and not look skanky. To search for swimsuits that will actually cover me up. Or to even buy a fucking bra.

It's not all it's cracked out to be. I can't wait for my breast reduction. Stop complaining that your boobs are too small, because they aren't. They are fine, at least you aren't worrying about them falling out every second. Or having to adjust yourself in all sorts of situations because you can't find a proper bra fitting.

32 E, that's rare, and I hate them everyday.

Today I asked you to come to my class with me, because I knew we'd be talking about realtionships and how they work and how they fail. I became very sad at hearing all the things i've always known. Throughout the lecture we joked about "us" but mainly I was just not trying to cry. I can't let you go, but I need to. We just do not work on so many levels.

And your alternatives right now out way anything that I could offer you......so you be happy. Just don't hurt her like you hurt me.

I work for a local government. Almost every employee starts out hardworking and motivated. After years and years of comments from the public about how lazy government workers are, some quit caring and quit trying. But most don't. Most keep working hard. The secret is no matter how much you wish to believe that we are lazy, most of us are busting our asses to do the best we can. I no longer care if anyone believes me. I do worry that no longer caring is the first step towards no longer trying.

Now that it's over under your name everywhere, I think it's a sign..

I know you said we'll work on it. But I'm afraid that we'll go back to where we are now and you won't do what you promised. I can't go back to being that way. I'll end up leaving you if we do. I told you to make me fall in love again. Are you really up for the challenge?

Throughout my life, I always had boyfriends who were loving and romantic.

My high school boyfriend used to write me poetry and was a true romantic.

When I broke up with my college boyfriend he wrote out the song, "Looks Like Rain" about feeling heartbroken and sent it to me. He was sweet to me, even after we broke up.

After I met my husband I told my longtime boyfriend that I was going to marry him and he pleaded with me not to as he thought he was not the right guy for me. He joked that he would show up at my wedding and would interrupt the ceremony just like the scene out of the movie The Graduate. He ended up coming to the wedding as a guest and my best friend told me that he looked so sad. I saw him just last week after a couple of years of not seeing him, and even after all of this time we still have a warm, innocent bond that will always be there.

I had all of these wonderful, loving boyfriends and then I ended up marrying the least romantic and most selfish person.

How did I go so wrong?

Please let everything be ok, please!!!! I fucked up! I am so fucked! Oh God, please let everything be ok!

I slept with him and my boyfriend will never know.

I wish I could stop loving him and be happy with what I've got.

The rumors were right.
We werent together. but I did fuck her.
Im sorry.

i'm pregnant. fack!

It's starting again - the yearly stress of too little time and too little money. Not getting to spend time with the people I most want to spend time with and being forced to spend time with those I don't want to see. Having to work when other people are taking time off to enjoy friends and family. Being mad at my boyfriend's family for monopolizing his time. Fighting with my family about wasting money on gifts no one really needs anyway. Fighting with my boyfriend because I'm so stressed out about everything else. I really hate the holidays and can't wait for them to be over. I go through this every year.

Apparently we are all cheating sluts who have no idea how to relate to each other or truly have lasting relationships of any kind.
On the one hand that makes me feel better, at least I am not alone in my failure in our current social network.
On the other hand, can't we see it's time for a change?  The world is not as it once was, we can fight it and try to go back to that ideal of everyone loving each other and keeping up appearances, OR we can change the current social structures, let ourselves be who we really are.
We are all limiting ourselves, but why?  What harm would it cause if we learned how to be more plastic, less rigid, with our relationships.  John slept with Nancy, then two days later they both slept with Peter?  Who cares, we all did something like that.  Susan from work said she was your friend, but then ditched you for Jane, oh well you are already out with Amy anyway.  It seems so much easier if we all just realized how flaky we were as a species, we could then relax and enjoy each other as we were meant to.  There are enough contracts in business, do we really need them when we are at home?

i'm really hating my life

Check mate.

A conversation I never had with my daughter:
Me: "I hate to tell your this, kiddo, but your mother's a porky".
Her: "What? She's not fat -- she's 103 lbs"!
Me: "Not a porker, a porky -- a porcupine.  If she had as many dicks sticking out of her as she's had stuck in her she'd look like a fucking porcupine"!

I never had this conversation because she already knows.

I'm sucking Rochelle's tits right now.

I don't kiss and tell- I tell you after I've betrayed you.

The night before I got married my fiancee at the time threw a huge party in the house we were sharing.  

I was spending the night at my parents' house that night and getting ready for the wedding the next day at their house.

The night of his party (the night before we were to be married) was pouring rain.  Our house was the meeting point for pictures of him, his groomsmen and family.  

I spent two solid days cleaning the house from top to bottom so it would look perfect on our wedding day.  I happened to stop by the night of his party to pick up my belongings before heading to my parents' house.  Needless to say, I was supremely devastated that he was throwing a huge party the night before we got married.  I should have known then not to marry him.  I didn't listen to my instincts.  

The night of the wedding he got so drunk at our reception he couldn't stand up to even take a shower and we never even consummated the day.  So so sad!

Our honeymoon wasn't any better -- we went to Hawaii and he opted to go back to our room after dinner to watch football while I took a walk on the beach by myself.

22 is too young to get married - but still even though I knew I was making a HUGE mistake.  Needless to say, our marriage continued with even bigger mistakes.  Been divorced 4 years -- best move I ever made.

I am married now for 6 years, but I also have a guy on the side who is also married and signficantly older.  My husband is a great guy but he doesn't know how to be passionate about me.  I've lost 80 lbs and he doesn't even compliment me on how great I look.  My otherguy is passionate, when he looks at me he is looking at my whole inside.  He understands me, he does everything to make me feel like his number 1.  I love my husband, but I also love my guy.  I just wish my husband could be more passoinate about me.  I've asked and asked and he's agreed to try harder but that lasts a week or maybe two then its back to the same old same old.  I feel like a piece of furniture at home.

i graduate with my bachelor's degree in 2011. wouldn't it be so brilliant if the world truly were to end in 2012, so that i would never have to suffer with all these student loans?

Let's finish what we started. It's about time, don't you think?

I think about suicide every day.............

I need a very minor surgery, Ill only be out of it for like 5 days after. And Im in pain, Ive needed it for a while.
But Ive been putting it off because I know that it will be a few days I won't get to see you.
How pathetic is this?

You can't have the best of both worlds.. you cant have a bf, and a gf. I hate settling for this but I cannot let you go. I care so much for you.

I don't know what Im doing anymore. I don't know what Im playing at...

Ive never slept so good in my entire life, as I did the one night I got to sleep next to you for the whole night and cuddle with you.
I didnt want to push it so I wasnt really going to wrap up with you like I wanted too so badly because you do have a bf, but you pulled my arms around you and we fell asleep holding hands.
'Moment of serenity. One of my favorite memories. This will be the death of me. But I just can't let you go.'

Whenever you needed to talk, I'd always be there to listen. But one day, ONE time I needed advice and you took your time to respond. 30 mins each time. You didn't say anything that helped either. Then you just stopped responding altogether. 3 hours after the last text you sent a forward. Really? A forward?Fuck you, you little bitch I'm done listening.


Go off being a slut, you never took my advice anyway.  -J-  

I've been married for 23 years. I've never been more lonely than I am right now. Two great kids. Happy family. My wife and I are like old shoes going through the motions. There is no sex or intimacy between us. There is no discussion. There is no effort. I'm 50 and cant understand how it got this way.

Dont let this happen to you. Make the effort and bust your ass to make your relationship work. Show your spouse you love them everyday. No matter what. Little things count. Do it today.

I'm shutting down.........

You lost me, to her empty threats of hurting herself. You've known her how long? And you've known me how long? You once loved me, and apparently all she does is lie to me. Well guess what, I was just too blind to think someone so close was going to hurt me, to see you're the one who's been lying all along.

I cover up my depression with smiles and laughter.

And it's silly, how it has everyone tricked.

I want a friend, a boyfriend, a friend with benefits, whatever any and all of those things.  I want to feel close to a human again physically and emotionally.  The level of commitment isn't too important to me, but I want that connection that I have been missing for the past few years.

Where are all the lonely people?

I want someone to cuddle with.

I hate feeling so alone when my roommate and her boyfriend are acting so cute and play around and fight playfully. it's so sweet and I want some love of my own.
They sort of remind me of my friend and me except the cuddling and kissing part.
But I could totally see us cuddling on these small dorm room bed. Just talking face to face.
Feeling his breath on my face and he's feeling my breath on his.
I could comfortably sleep all night while he'd snuggle up next to me. Then gently wake him up and tell him that that he gonna be late for class if he doesn't get his ass up.

All this is truly in the realm of possibilities except:

He not looking for a girlfriend.

*FML

I think we're in the process of deciding if we should be friends or not. Let's ;)

It's all too much... I just don't get why it's so hard for a person to pick up a phone, don't fucking say you're going to call and then not do it, or at least get a phone of your own so I can call you if I want to.  Friday will be interesting, I wonder if you'll even say anything at all.

i love him so much, i might lose my family for him.  but i don't feel at peace with him, he gets me crazy and stresses me out.  he interrogates me over meaningless things. he's nit-picky.  he calls me names, really mean names.  he tears me down and swears he's not.  i need to do things exactly perfect to his liking or else he complains. im so sick of his double standard and hypocrisy, it makes me stressed out inside, it chips away at me.  but i love him, so i deal with it.  because the good is sooooo good...wat will we do???

I always thought ou meant it when you said forever.
I know you did. I know you still do.
I know Ill see you later on and make it happen again.
I believe on me.
You kept that letter on your binder for a reason.

you let me die for her.

I plan on making it to the top, I told you id drag you up there as well, but make some sort of effort bro.  Im afraid if I tell you what to do youll say screw off and ill be on my own, and well I can do it, but whats the fun in standing on a mountain by yourself.

I want to lose myself to hate. I'm tired of being the good guy.  I want to let the hate consume me and go on a rampage.

I wish there was a way i could explain how the love from high school and the love for my husband are diffrent there two diffrent loves ...im still trying to figure it out. My high school love i miss that love...but then again i dont want to lose my marrige loves because is not as the same as my high school love but its strong enough like for me to stay with him and do anything for him