Do you really think I am falling for the "I Love You" spill? Do you really believe, I believe your story about hanging with your boys? You are NOT that good! You maybe my husband but you are not my first mistake! You know who IS good though?...I am!...because I have YOU believing that I fell for it...What a fukn loser! What a fukn idiot you are...keep doing you cuz I am certainly doing me!

Nate,
I like you, please find it in you to feel the same. <3

I am happy doing nothing. I like sitting still and thinking. More people should try it.

I really don't see what the point of living is at the moment. Just sayin'.

I'm tired of my "friends" who only take and never give back....I've been here for months and you're too busy and lazy and distracted to visit....

guess who's not going to be my MoH anymore....haha

99% of people should be put to death for being assholes.

I went crying in to your arms,
we haven't seen each other in yeas.
When I saw you had read the message but hadn't replied it broke my heart.

Then, you did reply I could have cried.

Oh fuck . .  

I still love you Tar, more than I ever admitted.

Shit.

you asshole, why did you let me leave?
why didn't you keep chasing me when I said no?
Why didn't you COME WITH me?

you fucking asshole!

                            NO.

What I mean is, I love you.
Still.
After all this time.
I fucking love you.
And you love me too.

Come back to me.

There is so much that I'm dying to ask you and to share with you. We've had a million conversations already in my mind. I hope we get to make them a reality someday soon.

I AM SICK OF BEING BETRAYED BY EVERYONE WHO CARES FOR ME!!

So it turned out to be nothing.  Oh well!  It was nice to be in your arms, even for just a couple of hours.  I will find someone perfect for me, I know I will.  It's only a matter of time.

You like me.
I like him.
He likes her.

It's been 3 weeks, please, come back.

M -

If we didn't have the children, you'd be so divorced right now.

Thank you for taking all the luxury I afforded you in life and not doing anything positive with it. Thank you for letting me bust my butt in a high risk business to give you everything, then have you fail to be a decent human being/mother/wife.

But don't worry my lovely wife...

You'll be divorced soon enough.

N

I loved the feeling of your hands and arms around me. They feel genuine, loving, and safe.

My secrets:

I want to run away from this horrid place I live.

I want my baby's daddy to die so our lives will be carefree, the way they should be.

I will keep my promise and the list I have made and when my daughter finally speaks of the horrors she has experienced you will all PAY!

I want to move. NOW!

I am planning to move...soon.
It will all work out sweety : )

I am falling for someone that I know I have no future with :(

My final secret:  

I need some serious help with this whole life thing!
Maybe I should continue to pray....

Notice how I always ignore when you tell me that he says "we did everything but have sex?"

It's because we did.

I believe that all people have a great deal of inherent goodness in them. We have our problems, our worries, and our troubles but the capacity for so much good is still there. We just have to tap into it. Perhaps I'm just naive in my thinking, but in the relatively short time that I've been on Earth I have had so many opportunities to witness kindness coming from the most unlikely hands in the most unlikely of places that I can't choose to ignore it or write it off as a fluke. I've seen people who have nothing or next to nothing giving what they didn't really have to give in order to provide another human being with a little peace and comfort. I've seen prayers answered, needs met, and hopes fulfilled in ways that will never leave my consciousness, no matter how I struggle or how many times I put my head in my hands and feel that my life is being lived in vain. Oh sure, I could be a cold minded cynic like so many others and choose to believe that every human being that I come across is evil, flawed, and warped. But I prefer to be optimistic. There is hope out there. The answer lies in you. Believe it. You can do a little but you can also do a lot. I'm not talking about material gifts, I'm talking about something that lasts and is real. It's about opening your heart and letting who you were created to be shine through; without fear, without greed, and without hatred. That's the only way to find true joy and peace in this screwed-up world. Hope is out there. Happiness is out there. Don't shut your hearts.

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This place makes me paranoid.

No wait, it doesn't I make me paranoid.
I think too much, I analyze EVERYTHING.
Every little twitch I make, people that I care about.
People I don't.

I care too much.
I think too much.  

And I can't seem to shut off my brain.
Ever.

Maybe there is something to taking drugs.
I need something to tone this down.
Something to make me feel less.
Think less, if my mind would stop racing all the time maybe I could stop and think.
Be more rational.
This racing is making my insecurity worse.

Off hours that I'm kinda ok- and yes I do mean hours sometimes only minutes.

I still think too much but at least I can function. Get things done --productive things and not obsess...


WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!???

I want this to stop.

I don't care if it's:
Bipolar Disorder
Obsessive Compulsive
or anything else.
Maybe I'm just crazy.

but I want it to STOP.
JUST STOP.

because if it doesn't I'm afraid of what I'll do.


Heroin anyone? Because right now I'll try just about anything.

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I wish you loved me, yet I am scared for you to love me. I'm so confused.

I hate life

We're all trapped.

Each of us is stuck being who we are. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we
are.

Maybe you're too fat, or too thin, too old, or too young. Maybe you're ugly and nobody wants to sleep with you. Maybe everyone
wants to sleep with you, but nobody loves you and it's all meaningless. Maybe your body is fucked up and you're in pain all the time. Maybe your mind is fucked up and you're in pain
all the time.

So you struggle with all these problems year after year, and you're getting nowhere, and you wonder if anything will ever change. And the unavoidable reality of it all is that, for you,
life sucks.

But of course you're not going to give up so easily, you're going to keep struggling to solve your problems, to change yourself, to find happiness, wherever it is, whatever it is.
But still, life sucks.


All of your life, you've been lied to.

You've been told what life is supposed to be about. Grow up, do well in school, make friends, get a girlfriend or boyfriend, get a good job, get married, get a nice house and have kids. Watch tv, go to church, vote, find some hobbies to entertain you. Donate
money to charity. Go on vacation. Get old, retire, spend time with the grandkids. Look back on your life with nostalgia, look forward to the afterlife of your choosing.

This is what you're supposed to do, this is what normal people do. This is what everyone else is doing. Oh sure, there are a few aberrations here and there, sometimes some people slip off this track, but you can get back on at any time.

Of course, when you actually look at the world around you, you may see something entirely different.

See that young married couple living next door, with the wife gardening in the front yard while the kids play out back? She's snowed under with Xanax all the time, without which
she'd be in a continuous state of anxiety. And her 6 year old son, he's following in mom's footsteps already, taking his daily dose of Ritalin to keep him tranquil enough to sit still all day at school.

She stopped sleeping with her husband several years ago, but that's ok, cause he sneaks off a couple times a week and has sex with street prostitutes in the back seat of his car, or a nearby motel. He feels a bit bad for them, and tips them extra.

His favorite prostitute is always glad to see him, because he's pleasant enough and an easy $75. Too bad they can't all be like him. She gets beaten up and raped by johns multiple times a year, but that's ok, she can handle it, cause even at its worst this job is
still better than what she went through as a child. Besides, there's no other way she could
support her crack cocaine habit.

And the cop who tries to arrest her, last night he arrested the neighborhood marijuana dealer, then went home and got nice and legally drunk on jack daniels.

And the cop's daughter, the pretty high school cheerleader, sneaks off and vomits after every meal so she won't get fat.

But these are all small scale problems. Don't forget that, several times a century, often enough to happen at least once during the average human lifetime, all the most powerful nations of the world divide up into sides and begin slaughtering anyone they can find on the opposing side by the millions. This is agreed by all to be unfortunate.

And the city you live in, if you're in a western country and living in a city, has already been targetted by some country's nuclear weaponry. A few pushes of the right buttons, and you'll be vaporized, or survive and live in some radioactive wasteland. But that's ok, because it probably won't happen in the immediate future, so you might as well go out
and buy the week's groceries.

Beneath the thin veneer of civilization lies a howling madness, and the average normal human being has the ability to commit genocide during the day, then come home and
tuck the kids in at night, or to ignore the pain of a billion people in misery while mowing the lawn or doing christmas shopping.

The Big Lie is that all of the problems of human life are separate. If you compartmentalize them all, you can convince yourself that once you lose that 40 pounds, or get more money, or get your husband to stop beating you, or finally kick that addiction,
you'll be a normal happy person like everyone else. And once you get the right politician elected, or win the war, or convert the infidels to your religion, the world will be a happy place.

The problems of life are all symptoms of the same cause. The locks on your doors which you need to keep out burglars, the schoolyard bully, the serial killer, the drug addict, the drug dealer, the billionaire who thinks he's being exploited by the poor, the
millions of soldiers fighting for peace, the enslavement or slaughter of entire races of people, and your own unhappiness, all are interconnected. They are all part of one problem.

I wish I could define the problem for you, or offer a solution. Human beings seem to have a basic design flaw. We're a fucked up species, striving to be healthy and happy while simultaneously destroying ourselves and each other in a million different ways.

The only positive note I can end this on is that it's better to understand all this than to be ignorant of it, I think.

my scars are an everyday constant reminder, that haunts me.

im tired of people asking if me and you are going out. because i have to say "no, he's going out with kay, me and him are just friends." its obvious that we both like each other.

stop liking me, or stop liking her. i dont wanna be the other woman anymore.

I recently had a wet dream! I was dreaming about my wife's friend. I was on my back. She was riding me on top. Just as I was cumming, she demanded I stay inside of her. I immediately woke up to find gobs of jizz in my boxers. Sweet! It was like cheating on my wife but without any of the guilt because it was all just a dream. Yet I really did get to bust a nut. A free pass at sex. Not bad for a 40 something like me!

I can't stop thinking about getting a blow job from a guy. Maybe even giving one back.

Married, Male, 49.

You are the first thing in my mind when I wake up, the last thing I think about before I go to sleep, and you pretty much permeate my mind all hours in between.  I know it is probably L**E, but I can't bring myself to say it, it's too soon and it means way too much to fully admit it.

I never meant for this to happen. (<-- sounds crazy I know, but I have my reasons)

When I do see you, I want it to be the last night we are together. I want the night to never end with all the passion you have built up inside you. I want you to never forget all the times we were together.

I have to let you go, but I cant just tell you that. I have to slowly remove myself from the situation.
You think Im this bitchy person or someone that Im not. I cant be nice and affectionate towards you. I know my boundaries. I cant let you into  my soul and let you touch it for just a moment. I cant show you the real me. I dont think you can show me the real you either. I know sex is sex, but somewhere in that brain of yours you have to feel what Im feeling somehow. The feeling of passion,the need for closeness, the feeling of wanting. Your kiss...oohhh your kiss makes me melt like there is no tomorrow.

Ill be ok and Im sure you will too. It sucks that it has to be this way.

I hate my fucking grandmother.  Instead of just telling people something, she has to start an argument over it.

I have a cold that she has ignored for the past 3 days.  I still get ready to take the dog for a walk in 40 degree weather, when she yells at me.

Grandmother: "ARE YOU TAKING THE DOG FOR A WALK?  BECAUSE YOU CAN TAKE HIM ON A WALK IF YOU WANT TO."

Me: "I'll take the dog out."

Grandmother: "WHY ARE YOU TAKING THE DOG OUT?"

Me: "I always take the dog out.  It's just a part of my chores."

Grandmother: "WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

Me: "I just have a cold."

Grandmother: "YOU DON'T NEED TO TAKE THE DOG OUT IN THIS WEATHER.  YOU HAVE A COLD AND I DEMAND YOU STAY IN THIS HOUSE!"

She could have just told me not to worry about the dog, but she decided she needed to yell at me as usual.  Can't wait to get more hours for my job so I can move away.  Forever!

The first three days of a cold are the good ones. Everyone's sorry for you, they coddle you, bring you soup. You're allowed to sleep a lot, take heavy medicine, read in bed, and be cranky. Also, you NEVER have to go outside into the cold, which means you never have to take out the trash :D

I love having a cold lol

Last night, we did something we shouldn't have. And it was the best experience I've had in a long time. Please know that I still need to figure things out and, no matter what, I do and will always care deeply about you. I hope I can be that person for you, but its going to take time for me to get there. Keep living your life the way you want and be as happy as you can make yourself. In time, maybe we can pick up where we left off and really make it work. I'm starting to truly believe that it could have been you all along that I was looking for.

I believe I have the space and knowledge now to let you go...I can't love what is not mine...never was, although you are my husband it takes two to form a foundation and I refuse to do this on my own...I bow out gracefully.

Thank you for not freaking out when I told you I was raped.

You have no idea how much it means to me. You make me feel safe. You make me feel worth it.

I can't believe how lucky I am to be with you.

Thanks Willie

A,


I want you to fuck my brains out. I haven't seen you in months, but the pure fucking lust is still raw and seething inside of me. Those looks you used to give me, like you wanted to cup your hand on my ass and spank me. Like you wanted to grab me by the hair and have your way with me. Why do you think I used to giggle when you would look at me? You were my boss, and I couldn't just ASK you to fuck me. Believe me, if you would've pinned me down on B's desk and drilled into me, I would've enjoyed every fucking second.

I still want it, and I want it now.


Love
T

I'm getting so much better! :D

When things blow over I'm going to have a chat with you about your drinking. It's making me nervous.

I seldom dream of my boyfriend, and when I do, he's usually fucking me [tehee]

But I dream of his friend Cody a lot more. Just his face, just that dark intense stare he gives me when I'm whispering, smoking, giggling, flirting with his girlfriend ;D

I find him so alluringly guarded and angry and manly and mysterious.

I mean, I'd probably hate to be in a relationship with him, he's overbearing and controlling and terribly territorial.

But he's just so damn handsome.

We're leaving in six mo-onths, we're leaving in six mo-onths,
And I never have to see this goddamn town aga-ain
Wheeeeeeeeeee!!!

I'm so happy I could burst into choreographed song and dance and take a whole city block with me, like a fucking Disney Princess.

My parents will be pissed though, oh boy.
And for the first time in my life I think I'll tell my father he can suck a cock <33

I fucking LOVE Polyvore.

But I know I'd never belong in that community.
I design sets with clothes that would never fit me, even if I could afford them.

There's no room in fashion for fat. Or economic challenge.

Secret: Everyone wishes they were skinny and rich, but I'd actually kill, I think.

"Ed", an old high school friend added me on Facebook today, and I'm terrified.

I was in love with his cousin "Al" so hardcore for the whole first year of school and then poof, the guy disappeared. I had a major depressive episode, shut down, and never went back tot hat school.

I'm scared to ask Ed what happened. Did Al move away? He poofed off the face of the world, like he'd been kidnapped. I had dreams about him being dead for months.

What if I'm right? Worse, what if I'm wrong? What if this leads to me having to see Al again, all these years later?

I think I'll die.
Ed, please, still be in the dark.

How do you tell your boyfriend that you think he's passing your yeast infection back to you?

"Hey, you know that nasty infection my rapist gave me? Yeah, you might have been passing it back to me THE LAST 5 TIMES I'VE HAD IT."

Nasty as that sounds, I might have to say it. I'm sick of sex hurting.

I was watching a Shakira video on MTV today and had to masturbate afterwards.

I'm a girl.

I'm sorry the Alcohol ruined us.I will forever be sorry.If i wasn't so fucked up it would have worked.I just hope you are happier now.

J... a kiss in advance

:X

E

its been a while, i talk to you sporadically, but we are definitely not the "good friends" you promised we'll stay as. Maybe your ego got the best of you, i don't know. I just want to say it took me a while to finally let you go, i still have feelings for you, which is why I have not moved on. But I realized what our experience together was great, but it ended at the train station on that summer afternoon. You might've thought being honest about what you wanted would hurt me. But giving me false hope only hurt me more. I have realized however nothing will ever be between us.

I hope the best for you, and I dont ever doubt the success you will have in the future. i can honestly say I have loved you, and loved every moment of it.  I wish you can finally find someone who you will find worth making sacrifices for.

I'm in love with you. It has nothing to do with him. I love him very much and will probably spend the rest of my life with him happily. But you are something else. I can't figure you out.

I know you don't swing this way. I know that you'll find a man to make you his wife someday and you'll probably be very happy too. But I will miss you terribly. I think about you all the time. You're beautiful and wonderful and I hope you never change. You are unlike any girl I've ever met and that is so precious and so rare and invaluable that I can't believe I'm not outside your window drunkenly serenading you in the heat of passion. I almost wish I was.

I don't want to hurt him. He's been great to me and this has nothing to do with him. I'm not dissatisfied. I just kind of wish things were different. Especially when I rest my hand on your milky skin and hear you breathe and especially when you laugh. My head reels and my stomach drops and I can't breathe.

I want to hold your hand. So badly. If you only knew.

I know you're right, and trust me I feel the same way, but please don't make me wait forever to get to be alone with you.

Ive realized that I am losing myself. Not even slowly, very quickly I am fading.
I have no hobbies. I stopped writing, even when I get the urge ocassionally, I just cant anymore. Writing used to be my lifeline. I stopped playing sports. I dont draw anymore. I quit building things. I lost my ambition. My dreams are fading and hard for even me to see anymore.
When people ask what I do for fun, all I can think of is drinking. I'm falling apart and I barely have anything left.
Even my personality is different. I used to have the best advice, now I draw blanks on helpful things to say. I'm not funny anymore. Im full of anxiety and Im self conscious all the time.
This isnt me... this was never supposed to be my life..
How could I expect you to fall in love with me when I dont even like myself anymore?

we're so close...
it's an absolutely fabulous situation..
and I say...
let's be ninjas and do it!!

I am not going to get that electric book you want for Xmas.  You break everything you touch and I know you would destroy the electric book.

I will however by you some books because you do love to read.

A book doesn't require batteries and if you drop the book it won't break.

I could love you. I trust you, but this all seems to good to be true. Is it?

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I'm looking at you because we have the most in common, we're on the same level, and I know you're not a psycho-path who's going to fuck up my very comfortable, stable life. oh yeah, and I think you're beautiful...
get it now? I think things through...
I need a fwb, and it should be you!
;)

I saw my biological mom 2 times since you've been away.
And my little sister. I wanted to tell you, but we were fighting.

Baby, I miss you so much and I think we love eachother.  You're in Afghanistan.  Please don't cheat on me.  You promised you wouldn't, and I'll be here when you get back.

i want you. i had you for a moment, but i need more. you are so intriging, and i can't stand it any longer. she doesn't deserve you. be with me, give me a chance

I point out to my wife we haven't had sex in about two years or so.  Her response is that we will do it "soon".  I say what about tonight?  She again says "soon".  She pretends this is the first time we've had the conversation.  Truth is we've had it every week or so for the past two years and her response is always "soon". We are in our 30s. How can we go two years without sex? I'm not a mean rude guy.  Maybe that's my problem.  I am so nice my wife thinks nothing of lying to me over and over again by saying "soon".  I feel like telling her I want a divorce "soon" and then showing her what "soon" really means.

In the deepest part of me, I know that I'm the one that screwed us up because that's what I do. I fuck things up.

I'm straight. I have a boyfriend of 4 months. But lesbians turn me on. =p

I've been having dejavu recently... It actually occurred twice today... Funny how I'm writing some very critical paper, which makes me think a lot, and how I've been disconnected from it recently. Maybe this will spike my interest in the paper and give me the mental state to create an eye opening paper!

I sure hope so, because I started this today

and it's due tomorrow...

The best feeling...peeing while drinking a glass of water.  Like keeping the balance...

alright so i'm a girl, and i liked this girl for a year or so, and last year this girl actually said she liked me. best feeling in the world. we actually kissed and it was amazing. then she broke my heart by getting back with her bf, she just didn't care and it hurt so bad. then they officially broke up and this other douche bag decided to show up, steal her heart and sweep her off her feet, then they were dating. i was over it and her, up until a month ago when i realized, that i will never be able to get over her. she has stolen MY heart and swept me off MY feet, so now what do i do? this makes me sad...everyday.

We are now officially dating! I'm so glad I told you that I liked you. :)

I can't wait til I take your virginity.

love,
E

I'm 100% straight, I only have feelings for women, I can only imagine myself with a women, but gay porn is so fucking hot :P

Every time I hear about a couple getting artificially inseminated, I can't help but think about how he jerked off into a cup while the doctor and his wife waited in the next room.  Yuk.

And then what did they do?  Did they go home and tell his mother in law?

Adoption sounds like a much better option than having all the relatives know you jerked off into a cup.

I hate seeing you, I get that feeling in my stomach of pure arousal. All I want is to fuck you one last time to get you out of my system, once, and you barely speak to me anymore.

Oh you seem to make everything better. The world stops when I'm around you. I just want to say thank you.

I recently realized I was a lesbian and I'm afraid that if I tell my parents they'll kick me out of my house.

Im lonely.
I just want to kiss someone for hours on end.
Or talk to someone while laying on the bed as they gaze into my eyes.
I love being cheesy like that.
I wish i would stop being so afraid of myself and others.
Being bisexual doent help much either.

21/f

i want to kill myself.

but im not gonna.

not until my dad is sober enough to see..

You said I was like your sister.
Is that why you keep hooking up with my ex boyfriend and still haven't told me? I have lost all my respect for you. Even if you tell me now, its gone forever.

Early this morning 2-5 in the morning. i cybered for the 1st time.
It was amazing.
i still cant believe it, it doesnt feel real.

OHH  i almost forgot secret #2, i have so many people tell me secrets, that i think i might spill. of course i wont though, i dont think like that.
but secretly i feel like i need someone i can tell me secrets too, someone who i can absolutely trust.

I have a crush on an internet star.

It's surreal how far so many people justify the worst parts of consumerism.

My family already has a computer in the family room, but I wanted the internet in my bedroom so I could browse the internet at night.  I spent $40 to connect my Wii to the internet, and the quality sucks.  Sometimes it will work fine, sometimes pages will freeze, sometimes I will lose a connection for no reason.

I'm tired of fucking around and trying to make this work.  I'm also tired of asking for advice.  Everybody has told me to buy more and more just to fix a problem I shouldn't be having.  Everybody tells me to buy another wireless connector, buy a computer, buy headphones, etc.

Why is it socially acceptable to sell junk?  Why are people addicted to buying this crap that costs more money to get working?

I want a job at QE so badly...  I'm not their "usual" candidate...  But I'd be a hell of a good deal for them...  Please, QE, please hire me.

My secret? I went about 6 hours without a drink today, cant remember the last time I did that.

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I miss you

I hate when people tell me they love me. It makes me feel so sick and angry. But at the same time I feel so untouchable and I want to be loved. But I'm doomed to be alone forever cause I am so jealous and mistrusting. I feel no peace in my death just chaos, and anger, and lonelieness and emptieness... I am so worthless, that I do anything any guy asks, and i hate it so much

People tell me I intimidate them. I come across as a badass chick that you don't mess with. I really do enjoy that I give this impression. And I've backed it up.

My secret: Sometimes badass chicks get lonely. We say we don't need a man. We don't.

I'm just lonely. Dammit.

i was scared of this whole girl&girl thing until i met you. now nothing can make it seem wrong. nothing can make me scared of this. i love u too too much.

You are my only secret that matters to me.
You are the secret that I wish I could tell the world.

. I . l o v e . Y o u .

I'm convinced that even D_E_A_T_H cannot make us part. You'll always be my life, you hold my heart in your hands.
<3

I changed my birthday on FaceBook so my husband won't be reminded.  We haven't celebrated my birthday in three years.  It's too close to Christmas and the last thing I need is to spend the day listening to how bad my husband feels that we can't do my birthday AND Christmas.

So, I just don't have a birthday anymore.  He'll get pissed at me halfway through the day for not reminding me that it's my birthday and then he'll lay guilt on me for the rest of the day for not getting anything for me.  Then he'll sulk and be despicable until I put out.

I hate the day I was born.  I really do.

I wish you would let me call you by your real name. but I wish you would stop calling me by mine.

if you ever left me, i'd probably kill myself.

I'll never tell you that, but i'm 100 percent certain that I wouldn't be able to live without you in my life.

I love you more then words will ever be able to explain.

I often catch her staring  at me. She is hot but  and all but I do not want to do it to her and complicate her marriage.

Yesterday I got "checked out" by a butch girl and I got butterflies like I was being checked out by a hot guy, I am straight.....I wonder what this means

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I like mike alot. his eyes. the way he keeps himself. keeps to positive thinking.I love being in his presence.. especially the attention he gives me when where having sex. We hung out practically everyday after school..doing what we both enjoyed..hooking up. except all these feelings were suddenly broken as i found out all he loved from me was sex. Just one thing. all the time and effort, suffering and thought i put into someone who i suddenly found was in love with someone else.I am so upset i wasnt good enough to grab his attention the way he has attracted mine.

The writings on the wall.

I love seeing you happy with him. Im glad he's treating you better and taking my advice. I would've never helped try and fix this for you, but baby girl, the way your entire face lights up when he walks into the room is just too gorgeous (and absolutely heart breaking for me at the same time). You look at him the way I look at you.
I said I could stand watching you with him as long as you're happy, but I dont know anymore.. Im so glad that you're happy and you can actually smile now, instead of crying in my arms.
I'm the one crying now. I think, I'm going away for awhile. You made me realize how lonely I really am. I found what I wasn't even looking for, and you're amazing, but you're not mine. You dont understand I really have to grip a damn chair just to stop myself from casually playing with your hair or wrapping my arms around you because I don't even think about it. I have to remember that I cant do that anymore.
I think I got my last goodnight kiss from you last night. I can't do this anymore. I almost start crying every time I see you.
DAMMIT. I wish I could give you the world. Ill never be far love, I couldn't stay away if I wanted too, but I do need distance so this doesn't completely break me.
I just wonder what I ever meant to you.. I wish you would tell me. please.
-Me

A long time ago I got pregnant.  It was no accident.

No, hun, your Dad is not really dead.  He just wasn't part of the plan.

i hate the fact that you lie to me and tell me that you are busy. when in reality your in your room playing vidio games or on myspace. if not then ur talking to someone else on the phone. so if u dont wanna make any time for me then why wont you let me go!?!

you are seriously ruining my life

I wish that I had an invisibility cloak so I could sneak into church without having anybody notice me and then sneak back out before they accost me. Social anxiety is the only thing that keeps me from going. I HATE being around big crowds of strangers and I hate running into people I know even more. :/

Yeah, at this point it has to happen with you, T. People will think I've lost my mind, but really, the only thing that actually tore us apart before is what other people thought and me being attracted to somebody. Not this time. We are probably meant to be together.

I recently lost about 18 pounds through dieting and a whole lot of exercise.  

My husband and I went to visit his side of the family over Thanksgiving, and I'm the only one who has lost any weight.  The rest have all gained weight, including this one niece of his mother's who is now so heavy she practically looks spherical.

Said cousin is also a jealous, petty megabitch who kept interrupting me to talk about how much fun it is to sit in front of the TV eating buttered saltines all evening.

Right, I got in shape just to piss you off, bitch.  

Secretly though, people like her are a tremendous diet motivator.  I can't wait until we go to the big family reunion my MIL is planning this summer, when I'll be about a size 8.  I think I'll spend the entire trip in a swimsuit.

I dearly love pissing chicks like her off.  Hey, if she's going to antagonize me and insult me because I managed to improve my health and make a positive change in my life, she deserves it.  

Off to the gym now!  HAH!

I need to have the constant attention of others. If somebody isn't talking to me 24/7, I'm freaking out. (like right now) I wanted you to leave me alone and move on, but now that you have, I'm desperate for you to just talk to me right now. You're probably not even ignoring my text. You're probably busy, but I just flip out when I don't get a reply. Hell, you haven't actually moved on and I know that. I just can't stop craving having somebody falling all over me. And J, it's been a long ass time and I just want you to still want me. Still. It drives me crazy that you don't want to talk to me or see me. We'd just flirt. That's all I need right now. Come on, a quick fix is all I need.

I have fallen for a str8 man how sad is that? I really thought we were getting close but the other day he told me "I don't want to gay marry you I am just in it for the experience" It was the worst thing any man has ever said to me because I finally thought someone who was totally in tune with me and that I was completely honest with liked me and wanted to be with me and share a bit more than just sex.

You make me so frustrated and I usually want to kill you. And yet every time you call after ignoring me for a few days I melt.

it's really annoying when u make plans w me and then blow me off that's not right or fair