I hate my generation. We are all going to run ourselves into the ground, one drink and STD at a time.

It's really hard to leave you every time we have to part ways. I am truly hoping you'll call tonight,if you don't please don't forget about tomorrow.

It's mind boggling how great the divide can be between hearing the truth and accepting it. He's heard the truth many times, but soon he'll have no choice but to accept it. This can't be held back forever.

It's the most fake feel-ing time of the year,
When the whores go get laid and the kids go get paid,
with toys, and video games and balllss!
It's the most fake feel-ing time of the year.
  
A Merry Fake-mas in advance.

I secretly hate ppl who fake happiness just for the sole purpose of having ppl think the best of them. I hate game faces, and I hate jolly....

I know a local politician pretty darned well. I have been very involved with most everything he has been doing for years. Now is is moving up a little on the national scene.  He is seeking higher office and has been giving speeches to larger audience who haven't known of him before. It makes me laugh. The bugger is twisting and bending the facts to make himself look like some hero. It's ridiculous. He'll take a situation he had nothing to do with and claim it was his hard work that made it happen. It wasn't. He'll also just make things up. He said he balanced budgets and reduced waste and whatnot.  Truth is he chastised all those people around him who encouraged him to balance the budget and reduce waste.  He chastised us!  And now he claims this was his standard method of operation.  Ha! Politicians really are full of bs.  And people are so gullible.

Mark,

I'd fly back to you in a heartbeat. We were awesome.
And your coffee... aiiii

Oh honey, don't play with married men!

Let me explain to you how this works:

He says his wife is just horrible. She hates sex, of course, he hasn't had any with her for a month or three or maybe longer (TRUTH: They probably get it on quite regularly).

She ignores him. She's a ball buster who tells him what to do and insults him. Why doesn't he leave her?

You wanna know what these guys are really all about? They want another mother. A woman to clean up after them, cook for them, budget for them, yeah, tell them what to do with their life. At the end of the day, he can go home to her and her stability.

You're just his fuck puppet. He doesn't love you- If he did, he'd leave her for you (and don't buy for a moment any of his lines about "staying for the kids" or "financial reasons" or "reputation" and especially something like "I can't see myself without her"). It's all baloney! He wants to have his cake and eat it too!

I can promise you from the depths of my heart, if you let him take you down this path, you will lose friends, be asked to compromise your values, possibly even hurt your career, all for a man who will stand you up because his wife randomly got tickets to an event, or will freak out because someone might see you with him, and for whom you will always be a second, never a first.

Someday, maybe today, maybe ten years from now, he will abandon you. That's what men do to their mistresses (and don't kid yourself for even a moment- That's exactly what you are). If he wanted you in his life forever, he'd make you his wife (or, at very least, leave her and move in with you). But he doesn't. Why? Because he likes fucking you, but doesn't love you. It's that simple. When you become inconvenient, or start to get old (literally or figuratively), he's gonna walk, and it's gonna hurt like hell when you look back on the time you wasted on him.

"Oh, but I'm different!" you say. "He's different! He's a wonderful man in a bad situation!" Let me assure you that you are not a special snowflake, and all these Lying Cheaters are the same- Selfish little pricks who don't have the balls to ask for what they want/need in their primary relationship, who have no qualms about wasting your time and eroding your self-worth for their own purposes.

Wifey is the Madonna- You are the Whore. And you know what?

You're too good for that. All women are too good for that- Every single one of us deserves to love and be loved exclusively.

Do yourself a favor and run, don't walk, away from this one as quick as you can. Never look back.  

--Once (but only once) The Other Woman

I wish it was ok for guys to cry. Sometimes I'll be watching a movie and I can feel the tears welling up, but I cut off the feeling and hide it away. Nope, can't let it happen. Guys aren't allowed to cry!

After I was raped I knew that I would never be the same. I felt a coldness spread through me, isolating me from everyone.

You make me feel warm and alive and safe for the first time in a long time.

You pulled me back from the precipice.

Thank you. I love you.

Once I littered.

The party was cool until someone broke out with the "yeyo".  Then it became lame.  Like a bad scene from Scarface.  Who even does that shit anymore?

I think Jesus existed.  I don't for a minute believe he was the son of God or anything like that.  But I think he was probably some nice guy who tried to convince other people to be nice too.  

For this we killed him.

We are animals.

You talk to her too much.  That's why I'm not around.

I Dont belive anything he says but i tell him i do. And i dont find him attractive

It's because I don't love you anymore

I'm breaking up with him when he goes to college.  I think.  I hope.

i feel like she went out of her way to scare me today. part of me is terrified, the other is dying of anticipation, so ready to leave today
i've already got a mental checklist of things to pack.

i have this urge to write a love story about this dancer i know and her gay best friend.
yep.

on my 14 birthday, i was molested at a concert. that same year, i went to visit my dad, and he raped me. Its been a couple years, but nothing has been going well. Im failing school, and want to get out on my own. Now, I've met this amazing guy in a big band (The Devil Wears Prada) and he wants me to go on tour with him. I really want to, but dont know if I should or can. I dont understand it, this is the chance Ive been waiting for, and I dont know what to do.

so let's get this straight
you love me. you love her. you are not going to say a word about this to me or her. you are going to be undeniably adorable and sweet and kind and never once text me back when i am so desperately seeking attention from you.
for the first time ever, i want you two to break up.

I"m unmotivated to do well in school, because colleges won't want me anyways because I'm not good at anything.

There are so many hidden worlds that the entire populace is unaware of. I hope that one day our worlds won't be so hidden. "Everyone else" deserves to know the truth.

I just gave my boyfriend a blow job. he LOVED it.

i feel accomplished.

Sometimes I bleed so much on my period that I wonder if I should go to the ER.

Once upon a time I felt mildly unnatractive.  It was a self-fullfilling attitude in that my feeling unnatractive, made me look and act that way.  Thus men never responded to me the way I wanted...and therefore all men were shallow douches who only wanted women who looked like the latest Playboy centerfold.

But then one day I decided to shift gears.  I was going to do everything in my power to make the men I hated want me...so I could have the satisfaction of turning them down. I admit my motives were nothing but evil. I didn't do anything drastic like plastic surgery or crash diets, but I dressed attractively (sexy not slutty), did my hair nicely, wore a bit of make-up, smiled sweetly, and did all the flirty things men like.

To help myself put on this "show" with each man I met I forced myself to find the good in each guy (no matter how much of an asshole).  You know what? For the most part they responded positively.  They smiled back, looked at me appreciatively, flirted, and all around acted like gentlemen. When I stopped acting like a bitch and started feeling good about myself, they stopped acting like assholes and started noticing me the way I wanted.

I think we women (and perhaps, in vice versa, men) are our own worst enemies.

I honestly can't imagine what being in a functional, give-and-take relationship with a non-petty, rational, reasonably considerate, intelligent adult would be like. It's sad to say, but I would think that I had died and gone to Heaven because I've never actually had that. It'd be a miracle, a blessing, and every other pleasant noun that I can think of just to be happy for a change. And it wouldn't take much to make me happy. I just want to be appreciated and understood. It would excite me to no end to be able to discuss various topics and ideas without being ignored, talked over, or screamed at. Hell, I'd be thrilled out of my wits to just sit and hear out ideas that made sense and had some forethought behind them. I wouldn't care if we disagreed about God or politics, but it would be awfully nice to be able to share our views and discuss any differences of opinion without WWIII breaking out. I know it's a lot to ask, but if you could give me that and allow me the privilege of giving you the same in return, then I couldn't ask for anything more.

I think I'm in trouble.  I really miss W but I'm married to J. W and I met online and only have talked on the phone.  This is fucked up. But I really get butterflies whenever I see his number pop up on my phone...damn it.

I am totally amazed that I have made it this far in life.

I don't care that you've been a lot of girls. I don't care. And I know one time I told you that I hate when guys ask me for my number, but I didn't mean you. Ask me for mine, dangit! I want you to. And while you're at it, go ahead and kiss me too. I wouldn't mind one bit.

J - I'm only following you on Twitter because you live nearby and aren't fat or ugly (from what I can tell). But I'm too self concious about being older than you to hit on you properly. Maybe I'm too fat, or my hair's too thin, or I'm not into the new music that you are. But I thought you should know, if you ever want to go get a beer or something, I'd totally be down with that.

- the 36-year old Old Lady

I find the entire pregnancy/labor/birth process nauseating.

$10 to fill 1/4 of my gas?  Fuck!

Did you really just ask me to break up with my boyfriend so we can have sex? After you ditched me TWICE for other girls, you expect me to come crawling back to you? You've got a lot of nerve.

I'm so over you and I'm so in love with him. Get over yourself.

All of my life I've felt as though I've needed a man to make me feel complete and happy.  I've always been with someone, I've always had a boyfriend.  Now I'm alone.  And I'm okay.  I realized I've been developing little crushes here and there to fill a void I have in me...as though flirting and playing the games and seeing if he likes me is what I need to feel beautiful, content, and secure.  But last night I realized I don't need a man to feel those things.  I am beautiful, I am content, and I will be okay.  The right someone will eventually find me.  Or maybe he won't.  Either way, I'm okay.

My Christmas present to myself this year is finally being okay with who I am without someone else.

You hurt me my "friend." Why do you have to be so harsh and mean? Why does the one person I like have to be so in love with you that he doesn't notice? Why do you have to "think that you might possibly" like him? Why can't you just be nice? Or give me a simple yes or no?

And to you, my BFF. Why do you have to look at her in that way? Why can you sit with me for hours talking about music and dandruff and just everything, but still not see me as a girl? Why can't you see her bullshit? Why can't you see the fact that she is the girl who bullshits to the world about who she is, the thing that you told me you don't want? Why does it have to be just her?

And to me. Why do you have to be so stupid, thinking that he might possibly like you back? Why do you have to help get them together over facebook while pretending to be happy over chat, when in reality you're crying your eyes out? Why cant you just give either of them up?

Why? Because the world is stupid and nothing's ever fair. That's why. But I still  pretend that maybe something will change.

After seeing the same thing happen in several friends and acquaintances, I believe that education is the enemy of religion.

(Oh yeah, I'm on the education side.)

47/F

In High School, I was a full on scholar. If I got below 85% on an exam, it just wasn't good enough. My friends were the same, we were classified as 'nerds' and we wanted to be doctors and lawyers and forensic scientists. We wanted the most that furthur education could give us. No 'Art Degree' for us.

High School ended, and we all had been accepted into the University courses we had chosen.

My friends went on to University, I chose not to. Purely because as I was filling in my acceptance forms - I had a brief millisecond of doubt over what I was getting myself into.

I just couldn't do it. I couldn't face another 7 years of school, of being told what to do, and being assessed and knowing that all that lay in my future was working 70 - 80 hour weeks.

So I went the 'blue collar' route, I worked 1 year full time at McDonalds, then 2 years as a data entry clerk for a fire extinguisher company, then 3 years as an office manager for a security firm.

During that time I saved up enough money to go travelling. I spent the next two years in Europe, drifting from place to place. I visited Spain - and ended up living there for 6 months, where I met my fiance and we left Spain to go travel through South America, where we've spent the last year and half in Guatemala.

I've come back home to New Zealand to get married. And met up with my old high school friends, they're living the life that I once thought I wanted, and I think they are as happy and content with thier lives as I am.

But to this day I am forever thankful to that one millisecond of doubt I had when I was 18 years old.

Dear Alcohol;

I want my father back, you son of a bitch.
A

I have fallen in love with a married man and he is falling for me but he still loves that bitch of a wife of his and his wife has fallen in love with another man but he won't leave his wife for me and it tears me up inside.

She torments him, I will treasure him.

She ignores him, I will dote on him

I want this man so badly that I dream of him every night, I dream of what life would be like with him. I want to be loved, needed and wanted by this man.

I am trying to be patient to see if he will come to me and I will wait for him for however long it takes.

I love this man with all of my heart, body, mind and soul.

My girlfriend came last week for a minute or so, and I came inside of her. It was the most amazing experience ever. I am so glad neither one of us has an STD or anything. I have never cum so hard.

You said you didn't trust me still.
And I went out last night.
I've never given you any reason to not trust me before.
But last night I made out with two guys.
At least you have a reason not to know.

I have always had crazy things floating around my head.  I hope they will start to make sense.

After hearing my roommate and her friend talked about their failed relationships... I don't want to have a boyfriends any time soon. Boys sucks.

I'm sooo tired of fighting and I wish I wasn't so irritated all the time.  I wish for the patience I had before. Can I please have my patience back.

I know that my husband and I will not be together forever.
I'm just waiting until I graduate, so I can support my family. He's such a fucking moron.

I want to be wanted, not needed. By an equal. I wasn't sure if it could be found, or where, but I decided that just sitting around hating being needed had to end. And now - you. I don't know you well enough yet, but... we'll see if things stay this incredible. I kind of think there's no way they can. I don't know if it's possible to find something so good so quickly.

Phew, I totally thought you were gunna ask if I liked you.. haha. Glad that elephant is out of the room!

Damn, I miss you so much...

i cant tell my mom i'm gay UUUGGGGGHHHHHHH
like as if all the piercings i'm about to get won't be a dead ass giveaway.
oh man,
my girlfriend is sexy as hell too.
OH baby i'm so fuckin lucky.
mmmm :]

You're that place I go to in my mind when I want to escape reality. Oh the things we do there...too bad it'll only be in my mind.

I loved every minute of it. I have NEVER in my life given bj's and sex to some one ALL day! You are so awesome. You are sexy and handsome.I am still shocked, ALL day!

M,

Why the hell do you just HAVE to control every little aspect of everyone's life? You try to tell everyone who to date and what to do and everythings that's wrong with them. Newsflash, bitch. You CANNOT just take away the guy I happen to love and break the heart of one of my really good friends. Does that make you feel better? Really? And I hope that all the attention you're getting lately because of your surgery is enough for you. I mean, you always seem to be milking it for attention. Guess what? I'm not giving it to you. And next time you mess with me, there is NOTHING stopping me from giving you what you deserve. Everyone else will back me up, and your world is gonna fall apart. Good luck. I hope that you, one day, have to suffer all that I have. Because of you.

hearing my mom cry in her bed is more painful than any physical mutilation. my mother is the most important person in my life and she needs to know that. im giving up everything i can to make sure that my mom becomes the happy person she deserves to be. i love you mom.

You are so amazing, the way you light up around me, the way you hold me, all of it, truly amazing...  I am going to soak this up as long as it lasts as it is a very very very rare treat for me.

Fuck.  I hate feeling so insecure.

I just had a big cry.  

42 year old man.

R,


You're a fat, miserable bitch. While you rot away at your little 8 dollar an hour job, I'll be happily moving on with my life! Your snide little looks and comments don't intimidate me. I actually feel sorry for you. No wonder everyone in your life hates you and leaves you. :)





Here's a tiny piece of advice- You'll never get anywhere in life with that stank attitude of yours. Especially where you WANT to be. People don't enjoy being around a pissy, bitchy nutcase such as yourself. Trust me ^_^


Byyyyyyeeee!!! <3

I hate you...I truly fucking HATE YOU!!!

go to hell B...and take ur lil slut girlfriend with you

No.  I won't do what you tell me to do.  Stop bitching to me about your fucking morals and go to hell.

My brother is such a little bitch...

He wines all the time, is critical, selfish, self centered, and disrespectful. After several years of public school, he has build himself into this character.

He started out being popular in middle school, but all that came crashing down when he played 2 girls... and basically said he didn't know which girl he wanted to date, but that they both liked him...

He had a hard time dealing with ridicule, it ate him up, destroyed his self esteem, and now he's extremely insecure. He has turned himself into a monster, which he no longer cares about... He doesn't want to change, and doesn't care that he's messed up.

He just wants everyone to LEAVE HIM ALONE and do things his way... If things don't go his way, he throws a fit, all must be done to his will... fuck you lil broh.

I have tried so many times, I cannot count the amount of time I have tried to amend things between us, but it cannot be done. Because you want to stay the same..

You don't want a relationship with me, and you don't care.. and for that I hate you, and I don't mean I wish you'd die, but the kind of hate as can only be born out of love...

Why do you do this? Can't you just try to fix things?
M/18/ Brother-less in MI

I was molested as a child by a male family member, and you were my best friend at the time.. we were so young.. two girls.. and I was confused . I kissed and touched you..it was wrong. I wished I hadn't done it, because now you are gay, raising two children of your own.. and it's got to be confusing for the children to see.. Did I steer you in that direction? I pray I didn't.. because I am married, Christ is my Savior, and I believe with all my heart we were created man to be with woman. I still consider you a wonderful person, mother, and friend, I can't judge, for I am not the One who does that.. I can only love you, and pray that one day forgiveness and mercy may enter your life.. forgive me.. I was young and abused, confused.. and it was something I should have never done. BFF..

I miss seeing you. Even though I never know quite what to say, it makes me feel warm all over just having you near.

This is absolutely tearing up my heart that I am questioning it so hard. I guess telling everybody in the world is how I get over things... How I think. I talk so I can think. Is that backwards? I think it is.

I am sorry. I have alot of soul searching and pondering to do.

I haven't heard from you today. I don't want you to slip away from me for ANY reason (unless that's what it takes to make you happy, of course). I wonder if I did something? I hope not. I hope it's something else keeping you away from me.

I have a wart on my penis, it's really disgusting. D=

I didn't believe in love. Then I met you, we fell in love. We had fun, we laughed together, we got married. Babies were born, they became children. Our family was happy and well and loved.
Now you're gone. You found a new love, before you even left our love. I don't believe in love anymore.
I believe in lies.

I've done some pretty stupid stuff as a kid, and up until now I thought staring into the Sun's disc was one of them; but now I realize how awesome of an idea it really was when I read republican propoganda. I can quickly glance at the disc now from the same town I grew up in, and notice how the disc is white instead of yellow as it was, and knowing a bit about the nuclear composition of the Sun, along with that of the ozone layer surrounding this planet, I can easily conclude that more of the Sun's damaging radiation is presently beaming down to us than it was when I was growing up, thereby INCREASING the overall temperature of the planet, making weather patterns more chaotic, and in turn some places cooler, while others grow hotter all around the world.

Its really too bad conspiracy theorists can't be educated, but then the education usually eleminates them anyway; at least the weak minded can be mildly entertaining at times for the rest of us.  I suppose the republican party has to have some means of existence.  :)

http://www.sourcewatch.org/index.php?title=Global_warming#Global_Warming.27s_Deadly_Denial

You global warming people are idiots.

I just can't believe you are STILL trying to say the hacked emails from the CRU don't mean anything.  It's unbelievable.  What a bunch of retards.

Look, these are the top climate scientists in the world.  They control one of four climate databases on the planet.  Two of the four other databases are interpreted through them.   These scientists are the same ones who help write the UN's IPCC reports on global warming, the same report which is the basis for the huge global carbon taxes they want to pass at Copenhagen.  Ok?  This is who these people are, you fucktards!

Now what do these top scientists say?  they specifically say they know gloabal warming isn't happening.  They say the temperatures are declining and they don't know why.  They say they're making up data.  Even the fucking source code of their climate model has comment tags in it that say shit like, "This is where we make up the numbers."

Fucktards.

Oh yeah, do you fucktards know who came up with the idea of the cap and trade carbon tax???  It was KEN LAY of ENRON!!!  Yeah, the same guy who screwed tens of thousand sof people out of their pensions!  Now they're going to try to pass Ken Lay's idea in Congress!! What a guy you can trust, right?

You are all fucking idiots.

you are my one and only. my life, soul, heart, mind  and body are yours.
please stop taking it all for granted and bask  in this love with me until the end of time.
-E

We were play fighting on our bed. You kneed me, hard, in the side of the head. You didn't mean to and were immediately resourceful.

Abuse? Or not?

Tiger woods is the Man! I used to think he is boring but  at least it seems he is not.  The only woman who should fuss about his affairs is the one who was with him and faithful to him before he became  rich and famous. The rest, whoever they are, have no grounds for complaining  -in my opinion.

You claim to be my best friend, but all you're doing is pushing me away. You are so shitty. Why can't you just be happy for me for once instead of being jealous and trying to ruin all the good things that are happeneing in my life. I'm happy with my life and the person I'm seeing. If you have a problem with it then fuck you jd... fuck you.

Dear Dad,

I love you, I do.  BUT....I don't respect you at all.  You make me feel so sad because you never grew up.  You never took responsibility and weren't a good role model.  Sacrifice?  Do you know what the means?  It's all about you and never for "us kids" as you say.  I know you love us, but not more than your selfish desires.  Women, cars, "stuff", your house, your yard....whatever it is always came first.  How do you expose your daughter to the numerous women who came in and out of your (and my) life?  Is this how it's supposed to be for me?  Is this what you wanted me to see and learn?  It's okay for men to treat me like you did/do them?

Did you molest your nieces?  DID YOU REALLY?  WTF!  I mean, I can recall kissing games with you that were probably wrong and you think were innocent.  BUT is allowing tongue play okay?  I bet you acted inappropriately with them and don't realize it or would admit it.  You can't!  You still don't accept responsibilities in life.  YOU FUCKING MOOCH!  Berate your mother, fight with the family, always the topic of conversations in a bad way.  AND YOU'RE MY FATHER!  YOU!  Ugh.  The things you say and do, just crush me.  I tried.  I really did.  I just can't keep walking into hurt and disappointment with you.  It hurts so much!  And I wish you could see that.  I can't even tell you because you wouldn't "get" it.  Defensive mode, initiate.  MORON!  Yes, thank GOD I got mom's brains.  I don't call, so you don't call?  I see!  I see you're playing tit-for-tat with your kids...oh no, just me.  I called.  I drove 7 hours to see grandma and you.  You don't ever come to see me.  I ask.  It's always....after I pay this.  After I do that.  WELL????  Where the fuck are you?  You selfish bastard!  You really think you're close with your son?  HA....he just deals with you, like I do.  He's the only one who ever sticks up for me.  He knows!  He sees and knows how you hurt me over and over again.  He's the one who listens to me again and again crying about how you treat me.  You might as well slam the door in my face.  Remember the time you told me as a kid I was acting like a bitch?  I was a child!  How could you?  And not talk to me for 6 months!  Do you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep because I wanted my daddy in my life!????  DO YOU KNOW!?  And yet, I still sit here and cry just not as many nights anymore.  It still breaks me at 35.  You're 67 going on 15 again.  

I'm going to learn to take care of me, myself and I and deal with these issues.  I can't continue feeling like this.  I won't allow it anymore.  I deserved better and still do.  And I want and deserve a healthy relationship with a good man.  I can't do that holding on to this.  I will get help.  I will.  I let go and hope God helps me release and move on.  Higher power somewhere!

Love always,

Your daughter

I'm giving up on us,
Please don't let me drift away.
I don't want to fall out of love with you.

I was so close to telling you last night. I'm waiting for you to say it first, but...

I love you

i really donno hw 2 say dis 2 u but i m so sorry dat i cant stop luvin u.... i don wanna lose u bt i doubt i deserve u... u shud b wid a person lot lot lot better thn me who can give u all d luv this wrld has to offer... i just dont wanna let go of u.... m so sorry... bt i m guilty of luvin u baby..!! hope u wud c dat sumday..!! hope dat v ll b more than frnds 1 day... and believe me sweety.. i ll cherish dat day for d rest of my lyf...

I've been so close to saying it so many times now, but I like that we never have rushed. It makes it more special.

But, for the record, I do love you. :)

Even though you cheated on me 3 times, even though we were so far apart, even though you ignored me and got upset at me when I tried to get a little attention from you, I want to thank you.

I proved everyone wrong. I won't say 'we' did any more, because that would constitute you treating me a hell of a lot better than you did. I flew across the country just to see you. I KNOW what I saw and felt between us, and I know it was real. I don't understand why you threw it away... that was the best week of my life and you treated me like a princess.

It still doesn't change the fact that AFTER I got home, you went right back to 'her.' The girl you complained to me about constantly, and the one you claimed you were over. You told me you never wanted me to go through that again. You told me it was her fault, and she told me you cried after that because you loved me. So is this tough love?

Our lives have gone in different directions now. But I thank you for showing me I can be loved... oh, and I'm worth way more than the drama you put me through.

I'm terrified of what's going to happen when my dad gets the phone bill at the end of the month. God, he's going to kill me.
But this time, I don't care. Those hours I spent on the phone with you were worth it... I think.

I miss having someone want me, desire me, be unable to keep their hands off me. Having their eyes light up when I spend extra time making myself beautiful for them. I miss being noticed. Who knew marriage would make me a non person...A piece of furniture that gets looked over like its not even there

Yep, just as I predicted I went to the Casino and pissed away 1,600.00  Well done, idiot.  I have been beating myself up about it all week.  When will I learn until I am even more in debt perhaps?  At least if I was on crack or an alcoholic I would of least of had a real couple of good  highs or a good hang over or two but with being a compulsive gambler you get squat in the end, nothing.  Just more depression and debt.  This is the toughest thing I have ever had to overcome in my entire life and I am still not there yet.  I am still thinking in the back of my mind, maybe next time I will win.  How sick is that?

It's you that I want, for once I don't NEED anyone, I could continue being single, I could choose someone who isn't in such a complicated situation in relation to me, I could find someone who is "perfect" on paper, but it's you that I want.

I have made a list of things I am looking for in a guy, the one thing I always neglect to include is that they need to be imperfect in some way.  I have dated "perfect" guys before, they never are and it's hard to fall for someone to have them let you crumble like that.  I know you are imperfect, you don't hide it, I am fine with that.

You get me going, too.
And of course, I'll always be your girl.

Chronology has no bearing on the way I feel about you.  It just is.

I Love You Sarah sooo freaking much alot totally way to much :) please dont ever leave my life

I act like I don't like you anymore,
but I am still crushing on you...
I wish we could just hang out...

:/

when i ask you what's wrong, it's because i genuinely want to know. i want you to tell me, whether it's going to upset me or not. i like knowing what's on your mind and why you seem upset, i'd rather you tell me and maybe upset me a little than just leave me in the dark.. i think that's how i get like that... or at least part of it.. >.>

I want to leave you. To go away and be myself and then I think happiness would come to me because I left you. I'll get up out of bed now. Treat you like gold and you'll treat me like a handtowel.

stick it to the "ugly americans"... when reviewing the case, amanda knox looks innocent to me, or at least they lacked enough evidence to convict. talk about a railroad job! watch out when traveling abroad...it appears to be open season.  

I really do love you.  I know I do.  I proved it when i put you and her together in the same area.  But if I tell you what's wrong, what's bothering me at the time, you're just going to get upset.  I can't have that... it's my job to keep you up.

I'm trying the urine thing for my (mild) acne. I'm actually pretty excited to see what happens. And hell no I'm not telling anyone else.

please. stop flirting with me. you are doing it so damn well and every time I fall more for you. if you keep on doing this, I will fall in love. I know it. I can feel it coming. and then there's trouble for everyone. I don't want to cheat on him, but I won't let you just go by without acting on my feelings.

and I really don't know if you are playing me because you haven't done anything with a girl before and wanna see what it's like. you are pretty sure you swing this way and i am pretty sure you do too. as for me, we know I do.

so I'll tell you what it's like: you are one of my best friends and it will ruin this friendship. we will end up hurting each other, and drift apart in angst. but the sex will be so good. the kisses, the hugs, the loving will be so good. the teasing, the tender moments, the way you charm me... it will be so, so worth it... I love you. I think I'm in love with you. so please, stop flirting me...

21/f

I'm in an emotionally abusive relationship.He has gotten physical before, not out of nowhere, but his tolerance is pretty low.Slapping, smacking, hair pulling.But i love him.I've read up on these kind of relationships, and basically women like me hold on to the good parts, the times he's nice and good to us, those times are great.But it's a cycle.Eventually it will get ugly again, and then comes the verbal assaults.I read up on Stockholm Syndrome, and it all sounds familiar to me.I'm totally aware of what is going on, that it's an unhealthy situation, and that sometimes, the relationship can start normal, and just devolve into being abusive.It's kind of scary when u read up on it, and hey, u can identify with practically everything they're saying.Including stuff about family, how if they call u sometimes the guy will say something about it.Because he's controlling.It's all true.And how the victim gets mad at those trying to help, u wanna know why? Because that starts trouble between the victim and abuser, so the victim just stays away from things that will anger him.So her day becomes more about what can she do to not anger him, than about anything else.It becomes about how she can try not to upset him, what can she do to minimize things that will bother him, so that he can be his best self.It's really sickening, I am appalled at myself, at how I let it get to this, and shocked that I am involved in something like this.I know why members of my family are flipping out (i hear from others, not them), it's because they have an idea of what is going on and can't stand to see me go through it.Or to think of what could possibly happen to me.I really really value and love the times me and him have alone together that are nice.That's what keeps me holding on.It's like those few good times with all the other bad are more worth it than lots of good times with some other guy.At the same time, I'm aware that a little good doesn't mean it's good.You shouldn't have to work for someone's love, you shouldn't have to prove your love to them.Just because they hand out their praises to you rarely doesn't mean they are better for you than someone else, or that you should love them.The real test of a person is how they get when they get angry, and how often they get angry.If they're getting angry all the time, then it's just part of their routine and that's a problem.and if they get low-class when they get angry that's a problem.Now if you combine high frequency with low class tendencies, it gets really bad.I wanna overcome this, but idk how.That's my problem, I love him so much, but this isn't healthy and I think it could end up badly if I married him.So I am trying to look up ways on how to get through this and get over it, but I can't find any.

A, you have become my obsession now.I really do not like how you have crept into my head so fast! All I can think of is being with you and it kind of bothers me. I look forward to and loathe next week. What do you feel? A

I wish i could marry you now and hug you tight. I dont think i can live without you.Its very hard to find such good ones around.seriously. I can't say that to you. of course. I really want to do that.

i am scared. i seek protection. my unclassifiable position freaks me out. please i need to marry you to know that i ll have someone always, under any circumstances. please.

I'm scared. But I think that you're worth the chance. Please don't prove me wrong. I really like you alot.

I just watched some porn and now am going to go masturbate while my husband snores beside me