i don't understand why it has to be like this between us.  not just some of the time but fucking constantly.
all i do for you is never enough.  you never give me any credit for anything - just discredit me and my efforts at taking care of you and loving you.
i do understand that, in your mind, i am what i was and that people just don't change.  what seems to be a secret that everyone realizes - except you - is that i will never be that person again and my whole life is yours.  
every breath i take is for you.
every moment of the day is spent for you.

you are right.  i am at my breaking point.
but not to leave you.  there is no way i will ever walk away from you.  i'm in love with you and love you too much to want to ever be apart.
but my sanity is slowly slipping.  i'm beginning to think things that are not healthy for anyone around me.  especially me.  i will not live this life without you in any capacity.  

your constant accusations, your constant doubt, your constant need for reassurance - i've done nothing to feed any of it.  all i have done is been honest and told you straight up how i feel for you and what i want for my life.  

you are my wife.
you are my true love.
you are a very difficult person to live with.
you are the only one for me - for my life.

please just trust me a little bit already.
please just have some faith in me and what i tell you.

you are it for me.
i'm it for you.  or so you've said..

i'm yours.  don't throw me away please..

please dont break up with me. i know i fucked up royally, but please don't leave.

Don't they know it's the end of the world ? It ended when I lost your love ..

Yeah that tall dark & handsome MySpace friend is now my hard-chested manly & sexy picture exchange buddy.
Waist up for now. He really liked my breasts, and he wants more. He even made a request. He wants a picture of me in a tiny, tiny top; something I'm busting out of.
Honestly I love seeing him without a shirt but the best part, the part I like most, is his face. Dark hair, dark eyes. So intense. And I love that those pictures were just for me.
Despite all this, I'm sooo thankful he lives 3000 miles away. I love my boyfriend with all my heart, but my lust wouldn't be containable at closer range.

oh god. a few hours after this secret was drafted, i realized that my friend looks just like someone i knew. a friend i fell in love with who vanished five years ago and hasn't been seen since. they could be brothers. this may explain my attatchment...

You told people you were going to leave me because of my depression and lied to me about it. You emotionally abandoned me when I needed you the most in my life. Now I hide my depression under fake smiles and even faker laughs in a vain attempt to keep you but I know that it is only a matter of time before you want to leave again. You think everything is o.k. with me now but on January 2nd I am going to put a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. I cannot stand to see you eventually walk out of my life and take your love, our children and everything else I know with you while you gleefully move on to others. So soon you will be rid of me and I will not be around to feel the pain your pleasure would bring me.

Erik, you are the most amazing thing to happen to me in years, I don't want to fuck it up, I'll give it my best if you can promise me a little patience and understanding.,

I still can't tell those who are closest to me that I'm gay. If only they knew that I'm in love with her... if only SHE knew.

I know this girl. She likes to crush prescription pills and snort them..
This girl has a child, who is a year and a half..
Yesterday, the child got ahold of a pill (Mom claimed it was aspirin. Then changed the story to tylenol.)
Child spent the day throwing up, then rushed to the ER and had her stomach pumped.
CYS was involved once and found nothing wrong. This time will be different.
For the kid's sake, I hope so, at least. The mom is such trash and the  baby has no chance.

I think I'm fucking him to see what you might have acted like when you cheated on me. I get to hear what the husband says to the other woman. It's depressing to think you might have thought of me like he thinks of his wife. It's fucked up that I'm fucking a married guy. What is wrong with me??

im shaking with fear...i want to hide inteh corner andcry...everthinf is over

I wish my dreams told me all the answers. Instead, they give me questions.

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im tired of bending over backwards to prevent you from getting angry. you get angry anyway. if you keep this up i will cut myself again.

I wish I had never said yes.

im afraid of you. because even if your nice 99% of the time, the 1% when u treet me like shit and make me cry always happens at times like now. when bad things happen out my control but somehjow its my fault anyway. this is why im afraid of u all the time. because i never kno wen the 1% is goign to hit. are u goign to hitme one day? or just tell me im worthless again?

I'm a very ugly/unattractive girl. All my friends are beautiful, and it KILLS me everyday.

He texted me: Wut up babe
I texted back: Nothin. Wut up with you baby?
Him: Can I see you tonite?
Me: I'd like that. Leme see what I can work out...

We met later that night in my car outside the gym I was supposed to be working out at. It was raining and dark and when he got into my car he looked so cute wearing his baseball cap and huge hooded sweatshirt.

"Hi, baby. How you doin' tonight?" I said.

He was fine now that he got to see me. He is so fucking sweet, it hurts. We only had a little while. He had to get back to work and I had to get home to my husband. We kissed. His tongue working my mouth so good, I bet he eats pussy like a fucking pro.

"Pull you out, I want to feel you," I asked him, and he did. He was fucking rock hard. "You think of me a lot, baby?"

"Yeah. That's why I always have a hard on."

I pumped his dick, "He likes you a lot," he moaned, talking about his dick. I smiled and he kissed me again. "If you keep that up, we'll have to move to the back seat."

I agreed because I wanted more of him. I got his dick in my hand and before I sucked him down I said, "Fuck, I'm so bad." And then I mouth fucked him like a pro. He smacked my ass, and reached inside my pants for my pussy, which was so fucking wet. He finger fucked me while my mouth sucked his fat dick. I moaned and gagged him down some more. "Oh yeah baby, just like that..." He pushed my head down on his dick further and then I felt his warm, sweet cum in my mouth. God he tastes good. I swallowed him down.

We still had a few minutes, so we talked a bit.

"Can I ask you a question?" I said.
"Yeah."
"How come when I text you, you don't know it's me right away?"
"I just got a new phone and I lost all my numbers."
"Oh. I thought you didn't save my name on your phone."
"No, I got you in there now. It pops up when you call or text."
"I thought you didn't save my name on purpose. I've known some guys that didn't do that with me because they have girlfriends that go through their phones, and if they see a girl's name, they'd get mad. You don't have a girlfriend that goes through your phone?"
"Naw, no girlfriend. Just you."
I smile, "You think of me as your girlfriend?"
"Something like that."
"I think we're sort of mess around buddies."
"Yeah, that's about right."

He had to go then, as did I. Fuck, baby, you make me feel so fucking good. Til next time...

I can already tell that I'm going to be stand-offish to you tomorrow, because you didn't pick up on how upset I was.

I feel like punching you every time I see you. Little things about you make me furious, like the spandex you wear to run in every day. I also hate the way you act like you're better than me. Because you aren't. I have avoided any form of communication with you. How can you just not care? How can you know so many things that make me really unhappy, but never ask me how I am? I tried so hard to make you happy, and I get nothing in return. How can you claim that I mean something to you, claim that our friendship is important, but not even try to stay close? How do you chop me out of your life and not even mind? These things make me feel like I hate you, and that you are unfair. But I have to realize something...the only reason I am so mad at you is because I miss you. Your friendship meant more to me than you will ever understand. The only reason I can get over our friendship fading is by being so irrationally angry. I don't know why our friendship meant more to me than other ones I've had. I can't explain it. But I do know that I won't feel like me again until our friendship is back to how it was, or completely erased. Anything in between just makes me feel like a failure, like I am not good enough. But I think which way it is going to go is up to you, and that pains me. I don't feel like anything I do will make a difference.

After many years, I hooked up again,  with my very First, true love while he was Incarserated.

We spoke every day for 7 years. I lived for his phone calls. We'd always talked
and planned with great anticipation what our first encounter would be
like, the first time we made love again after all these years being apart.

Fast foward.. He got out in June 2009, I saw him, we had an affair. Today we don't speak.

He used me! I was his source of entertainment while he was in jail,

I am devastated! Dear lord please help me forget him and help me to move forward and help him become a faint memory.

i am madly and deeply in love with her. i thought i was over it, i was over her, and that she wouldnt be a part of my life anymore. but i can't love her...too bad she will never feel the same way again. she is with someone better, i don't deserve her. i need to jusr move the fuck on. please get out of my head and leave me alone. i'm a girl.

i wish i knew how he felt about me. his eyes tell me he wants me, though because i'm married, i'm sure he's scared to do anything.. if he gave me any kind of sign or look, i swear i would......

sf
we've talked hours on facebook, but never in real life.
i have a girlfriend, but you're gorgeous.
what to do...

I hate my life, I really do. I have one friend, who is slipping away ever so slowly, and the plans I've had for the future are getting more and more difficult to achieve. Some days are good, don't get me wrong, but some days are so awful I have to resist swallowing all of my moms HIV pills. I'm consistently homesick, but then I realize I'm homesick for a place that doesn't even exist, I have a house, but it isn't a home, and it never will be. The cat is treated better than I am in that house, and they just think it's a "teenage" thing. Fuck you guys, I'm sick of your bullshit. I want a job so I can save up to move out and be by myself, and so I can get away from you two. All I want is to for once in a really long time to be certain of my future and certain of what course I want to go. Maybe I'm just bitching because I'm an ungrateful teenager, or maybe I'm going to feel like this for the rest of my days, and be a lazy old lady that smells like shit. Either way, I'm not too happy, and I want to die 98 percent of the time.

I miss him.I'm not supposed to. FUCK!!

My heart is struggling with my head.  Should I or shouldn't I?  I want too so bad, but I know once I open the door, 5 other doors open up with it.  I don't trust him right now and what he is doing because I know he is selfish.  Its been so long and if I do, what are the next battles that I am going to be dealt because I know he wouldn't be there to protect me against it because this would only be inflating his ego.  Huh...  I don't want his ego battles, I only want him.  I have wanted him so long but I just don't want to deal with new battles to inflate his ego.

Sometimes I wish I could dive into your thoughts and figure you out. I also want to make your dream come true.

Infidelity in marriage is way more common than I thought.
Both men and women cheat!

F/35 that cheated on her husband.

By God, I will have this done within a month. That's it. I said it. I mean it. There's no going back on it. I'm tired of letting fear rule my existence. Talking about freedom and truth right now only makes me a hypocrite because I'm not living it. Well, dammit, I'm ready to live it because I'm not willing to lose this time.

I love him.  Things have set us back though, and I don't know if there will ever really be an us.  We make each other happy, he tells me I make him happy and that he likes how I am with him, how I take care of him.  We get each other's sense of humor, we genuinely like being together.  But he doesn't trust me.  And I don't know if he ever can/will.  And it has bad consequences on the both of us.  I wish I could assure him that I would never ever cheat on him.  I only want him.  We're perfect together.  I pray that it all works out for the best.

I still believe that anything, or anyone, can be changed. There is hope yet.

I love it when my girlfriend blows me and swallows my cum...I wish my wife would do it and I wouldn't have to go elsewhere!

i think we're the star-crossed lovers..

Does anybody else want to go back in time and try to fuck Thomas Jefferson? I am sure he would be a tender lover.

I'm a 40 year old female who worked her whole life and now has nothing to show for it.  Noone wants an aging 40 year old with no job, no money.. no matter how hard you thought your life was, this is the worst.  I hear it only gets worse from here on in.  Why bother?  I always thought that I was Juliet and my Romeo would come along.. I'm a stupid, stupid woman.

I am so ready for a change. 2010 is gonna be a hell of a year. I'm gonna step my game up.

Bitches. :)

My boyfriend is a great guy.  Everyone loves him.  He is charismatic, very handsome and is an all around, good person.  BUT.. he is CHEAP!  This drives me absolutely insane, that he is completely pained to part with a dollar.  It makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him to take care of (not that I need him to), but if I did, like I lost my job.. I KNOW, he would leave me if he, god forbid, had to pay the bills for ONE month.  I'm a FUCKING PRINCESS damnit!  At least pretend you would take care of me?  What happened to the REAL MEN of yesterday?

I have no friends.  I was never taught how to make friends.  I am a 39 year old female who thinks she says stupid things and isn't good enough for people to like me.

I hope he spends New Years completely alone.  Nobody should have to put up with his back-stabbing shit.  I've never met a bigger two-faced bitch in my life - and he's a DUDE!

He'd likely accept an invitation just so he can make fun of whomever he hung out with the next day.  And, you know what?  Rightfully so.  They'd have to be pretty sad people to voluntarily spend their New Years with him.

Maybe his mom will have him over.  She's the only one that doesn't seem to mind...and yes, he talks about her, too.

I was just mildy sexualy active with someone tonight !

Oh I'm bad ;]

I have a friend that tells me all the  detail of her  relationship with  this  guy that she is cheating on her husband with but she is lying cuz I am sleeping with him she tells me what thee  do and  where they have been I  dont have the  heart to tell her that I know she is lying !!!!

Part of me wants someone to be tough on me. I'm tired of just being taken at face value and simply "put up with". There's no challenge in that. I like to be argued with sometimes. If I need to be put in my place, I wish that somebody would do it, but you can't just ask for that. It sounds crazy. I want someone that I don't feel like I'm having to dumb down for. I don't mean to condescend to anyone, but I seem to get forced into that role because I tend to end up with idiots. Why they're attracted to me, I don't know. I don't have much to offer them apart from the fact that I'm a sucker who likes to take care of people. I wish that I could stop being scared...and stubborn. It's never served me well and I know this. But it's hard not to be afraid when the story always seems to go the same way. Truthfully, I'm terrified of ending up right back in the same position that I've always been put into, no matter how different someone seems. I'm afraid of ending up unappreciated and/or merely tolerated again, and I'm sure that idiots aren't the only sort who are capable of this. I'm not a dragon lady; I just need logic, honesty, and a bit of affection. Why is that so difficult to come by and sustain?

My secret: I just need to quit letting fear ruin my life...because it's completely irrational and I know that's all it's doing.

It has nothing to do with my wife; I just want something new once in a while. Is that so bad?

my goal is to be in a picture on a thinspiration website.

Dear Jon,
    I hate you. I regret the day I said yes when you asked if I wanted to be your girlfriend. I dont want to be friends either. I've saw how much of a manwhore you truely are and how many girls you've dated and what you tried to do with a few of them. So, to sum it up, leave me alone.


                                          With Hate,
                                              Alexandra
PS- Oh, and I know that you read this website, so text me when you read this message. We need to talk.

I wish my son's father never got sober.  I always thought he was an asshole becaus he drank.  Now I realize he is just an asshole and it never had anything to do with the drinking.  I don't want my son to grow up and be like him.  He is disrespectful, greedy, and just an all around mean person.  He thinks now because he is sober that he is better than everyone.  He has the nerve to look down on me and be rude and mean to me whenever he wants.  

Who does he think took care of our son for the first 4 years of his life while he was busy sitting on a bar stool spending the rent money?  Now I am the bad parent because I can have a couple drinks without throwing my life/family down the drain?

When he dies I will make sure I go to his funeral because I want to be the first one to tell him "Hope you enjoy hell"

If he never got sober I would have a reason to keep him out of my son and I's life.  Now I have to spend the next 10 years teaching him how to be a good person and not to act like his father.  I just hope when my son is old enough he will just tell his Dad that he is an asshole and deserves everything that happens to him.

Karma's a bitch and I hope she beats the fuck out of him.  

Sometimes I catch myself writing as if I'm on Facebook.  If I'm chatting with someone via text I might just randomly write something like "is really exhausted." or "says, "Whatcha up to?"

FB is a disease.

I am through with this.  You are a child and not worth it.

I've been dreaming of going to the last place where we saw each other.  In my dreams you meet me there.  I am waiting for you and we have amazing sex all day long.  Every position. Multiple orgasms.  We both go home. Our secret.

it didn't work out and i ended up jerking off after getting an email that she wasn't playing anymore.  it's probably for the better, i need to straighten up.

Nobody wants to marry someone who has been somebody else's whore. The Bible is very right on sex.

One of my MySpace friends is so, soooo unbelievably fucking handsome. Whenever he posts new pictures, I stare at them and eventually I realize I'm wet and salivating.
He's tall, dark, handsome, single, a singer, and apparently he likes girls with my body type :O
Hubby should be thanking his lucky stars that this man is on the other side of the country.
I don't think I'd be able to resist him in real life.

I'm currently at a Dunn Brother's Coffee place in downtown Minneapolis, just a block south of the river. As I sit here fiddling around on my laptop and making minimal progress on my j-term reading, there are two old men seated at the table across from me talking about years past. They look like they have been best friends for years.  I hope my best friend and I can still be friends when we are old.  It seems like having someone close like that could make the aging process alot more fun.

It's 2:45pm, and the days are finally getting longer. I know that the solstice just came and went, but even 5 more minutes in a day makes a world of difference. The sun is coming in the dusty south window of the building.

What else is a secret about me...Have you ever read the book "Stuff White People Like"?  Because out of the hundred or so things listed, I like about 60 of them.  I'm so darn white. You betcha.  I do speak Spanish though! Culture points!

A little view into the life of me, BH.

How many more times are you going to victimize yourself to make me look like a bad person, Ashley? You are no friend of mine.

You've told her haven't you. I knew you would, but why? How could you hurt me so much when you know i have SO much shit going wrong right now. Please say you didn't, please let it be you just want to scare me. You said you didn't care and wanted to tell her, and you needed a good reason not to. I couldn't tell you, but what we had, thats a good reason no? I'm so scared, i feel sick. I will loose her forever this time, I've never done anything so bitchy and backstabing, she does it all the time, but not to her best mate. Please say you didn't, please say she's not angry&upset about what we've done. Please say its the other reason. Please.

You've broken my heart once, please don't do it again.

I won't give up. I'm not a quitter. I love you and that's all there is to it. :)

i need to literally get f*@ked, but not by my husband.

I want to kiss you at 12:00 am on new years, and every minute after for the rest of our lives.
but in reality you'll be kissing your boyfriend,
and Ill be taking a double shot of tequila and trying not to cry.

I just want to know if you ever doubt your choices.. I want to know if you ever lay in bed and imagine being with me, instead of him. I want to dive into your thoughts and figure you out completely.
I miss you already. I love you!

It could be worse.  I could be a celebrity and have my insanity posted on every tabloid in the world.  Instead it's just plastered on a Facebook wall that nobody reads and that I can delete at any given time.

Why do I do this again?  Oh, right, sheer boredom.  When the weather gets nicer I'll forget all about it.  I'd feel badly, but the kid I'm making fun of likes getting used.  Makes it well known.

What I feel badly about is that I don't feel bad.

If you tell our dirty secret, i will loose the two most important people in my life. And you will loose alot more.

So why try to get me in shit, when it will get you in worse?
I hate you.

You have time to log onto OKCupid but not to send me a fucking text message?

Fuck off. I'm done.

I don't know how to love, and neither do you.  Once you realize that, you'll get along better in life.  You don't abandon people you love.  You don't love someone by leaving them to rot when they need you the most.  You don't walk away when someone gets sick.  You don't toss them aside when the money runs out.

You are supposed to love someone for who they are, not what they have; such was NOT your original vow.

i truly hope you were molested by your father when you were 12, like your mother's divorce attorney claimed.
It's about the only way i would be able to accept or forgive the way you treated me while i was with you.

I'm fucked up now because of you.

I won't ever be able to trust or be completely honest with a woman again because of you.

Please get out of my life. I don't care about you anymore.

I thought I could handle it, but I can't, I  really can't.  If he is not willing to change it will be the end of us, no matter how much I love him I can't do things like this any longer.

i still love you.

i really really really like you.
i wish you could be the one i was kissing on new years

I hate the fact  that i spent so much of my reputation on being funny cause that seems to be the only reason people want to be freinds with me. I feel the best when i come out with something funny but if i fail to do so i feel like i could just end it all with a smile.

I'm a guy who got his first blow job from a guy-it felt so good.,,why??

Bleaching my hair was just the start. Be prepared to eat my dust in 2010!

It's finally real. It took 5 years, but I am over him completely, and love him only as a friend. My husband has taken top position in my heart, mind, and soul. He is the one because he made it that way. He does everything imaginable to make me understand his love for me.  I am such a lucky woman.

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Find comfort in yourself
Begin to believe, before it's over
Lift your head up
Everybody's talking
Prove them wrong
Before your time is up
You keep it all in, and you never find a release
Take comfort in yourself
And only know how to find safety in yourself
Find your faith and find your hope
You'll find safety
I know it's hard to look up when everything's falling down on you
It's hard, but you can make it
Begin to believe-

u say u care about me but u're going to cut me off when u get a gf becoz it's not appropriate for me to be in ya life anymore, out of respect for your future gf. u say we're friends but we talk on the phone for hours, have so much fun together hanging out n laughing. u say we're friends yet we drive 5 hrs to see each other. u say u don't want to hurt me so u shld just cut me off now instead of later. where do i really stand with u?

V -

I am scared that you are leaving. I never want you to leave, i wish i could run away with you to canada, and hold you tightly. I adore how honest you are about everything, how much of a gentlemen you are around me. I appreciate every little thing you do, because i have never felt this way about anybody. You make me want to believe in love, believe in something. I have never felt like this before, and i feel unbelievably vulnerable towards you, i can't believe your leaving to go back to your base on the 3rd. It's not enough time to spend in your arms. I spend everyday with you because i love your gentle touch, your sweet smell, and how you wrap me up in those big arms, and pull me close to your chest so i can feel your heartbeat.
I will miss you marine. Come home safe, and don't let them change you  -
I love you *

- S

About to graduate, and I'm not sure that I want to stick to my career choice....after 5 years of studying. :/

i fucking hate life. i just need to die now

Here's the key to a happy life: JUST SAY WHAT YOU FEEL! Drop the pretense, drop the bullshit. Stop trying to say what you think is right or acceptable. Just let it all out; good, bad, ugly, whatever. If the other person has a problem with it, tough shit! Just let it roll. People waste so much time trying to pretend to think or feel one way when really they're thinking or feeling something else. Hiding from your feelings is like trying to hide from your own shadow. It's fruitless. Expecting others to read your mind is equally pointless. People spend their whole lives sitting on their hands drowning in uncertainty, anger, loneliness, and sorrow. And for what? Why all the fucking guessing games? Ask your questions, give your answers and be done with it! Just let it go! If nothing else, you'll feel better. You only live once, so why not? For society or an individual to progress, a certain degree of upheaval is necessary. The only person with the power to trap yourself is you.

I have been stockpiling guns and ammunition for 2 years now. I am not sure why, or what for.I am afraid that I might be planning to do something crazy.
Lucky for me and thr world, I am probably too much of a coward.

All of my front teeth are fake.

As I type this, my husband is prolly letting this fat gay fuck suck his dick, and drink his piss for a 100 bucks.

I am so sick and tired of it, but we need the money.

I would have kissed you tonight...
what is it about you???

I want to do everything to myself to cause me physical pain, maybe it'll cover all the emotional pain I have.

your hugs are electric :)

It's time for me to let you go.

I'd like to suck on a cock. I have a cock. I'd like to suck on a circumcised cock. I don't have one of those.

I am deliberately destroying the best relationship I've ever had. I nag and manipulate to push him away. Because I can't trust him with my heart. I can't trust anyone.

oh god, his hands are so soft...

Alone again.  Not even my family wants to be nice to me anymore.....

I know that you don't love her.  Come on, it's all for show and you know it.  She may be beautiful, but she's not your type at all, and she doesn't understand you.

The fact is, I love you...a lot.  I've loved you since we were in the same class together.  And I know from how you look at me, the way you interact with me through conversation and the way you stare at me when you think I can't notice that you care for me too.  If we love each other so much...then what the hell are we afraid of??

I think about you every day...and it absolutely kills me that I can't be with you.  I really hope you two break up in 2010.

I guess I won't be giving you your first kiss of the year.. I love you.

I just wish I could be gay already. I'm hurting myself and I'm hurting my husband because of my idiotic fear of the unknown.

So instead I'm just going to pick up some chick on the next business trip I take.

One time I made a cake and put so much blue food coloring in both the actual cake and the frosting that it made everybody who ate it shit blue for a couple of days, like Smurfs. Needless to say, I learned that less is more when it comes to food coloring. It's probably poison with the potential to cause colon cancer.

I'm as good as dead.

HE makes me smile more then any person in this world...i love him. he is my world and then some not a day goes by that i dont think about him and love him more and more he played me to the left and sold me fucked up dreams but after all that i still love him i cant imagin how empty my life/world would be without him.. i am so scared that he wont forgive me for what i have done to him and put him through but he was always there when my world was falling apart...boo please come back to me she wont ever love u as much as me. AND THE SICK PART THIS ALL IS I  HATE HER BECAUSE HE IS WITH HER FUCKN BITCH

in 2010, i'm going to get my shit together and i'm going to find the courage to go after someone that i want instead of just waiting around for shit to happen.

i'm also going to make out. it's been almost a year since i've made out or had sex. i'd like to get laid.

I'm afraid I'm obsessive and weird.
I just want to be important. I want little things that probably don't matter much, and people take for granted. Like a hat with candy and gum inside instead of a stupid t-shirt, or having someone sit next to me because they want to.
You two are breaking me. I can't take much more. I feel like I'm being swallowed by something much bigger than myself.
All I want is special attention. Who thought this would be enough to kill me?
EL

i dont fight with you on purpose.. IM REEEEAAAAALLLLYYYYYYY really sorry for putting you through all this shit... you havent talked to me in such a long time, im pretty much dead inside.. you keep talking about marriage and were only 13 & 15!it scares the hell outta me. i was crying that one night and you made it fucking worst. you sed sorry n i sed fuck you. i almost broke up with you...but then, you sed,i love you wifey.a couple more tears rolled down my cheeks.you make me feel like shit 24/7 but i love you :/