I hate exchanging gifts with my best friend. She usually gives me a pile of dumb, cheap stuff that I know is re-gifts, plus one gift that cost bucks--but is something I didn't ask for, don't need, and don't want. I mean, a snow cone maker for a single woman with no kids? And a miniature hockey figure? WTF?? But every time I've tried to mention not exchanging, she gets insistent to the point of becoming furious.

Maybe I need to break this friendship off.

I do not know how to talk to you.  I'm comfortable within myself and with myself.  I have no qualms with that part... It's just that, with you, sometimes I feel as though I'm annoying you in some way or something.  I don't understand why I feel this, but I get that vibe.

For that very reason, I just tell everyone else how I have a little crush on you ... but would never indulge you in this tid bit - for fear you'd be annoyed.

We're so opposite.  But in some strange way, don't opposites attract?

I could balance you out... I know I could.

Oh well.  I'm way outgoing, I'll talk to anybody.  Anybody and everybody, except you make me all kinds of ... I don't know what.

Anyway, I'll see you in 2010.  I hope someone with a gleam in her eye gets to squeeze you and give you a kiss tonight.  Otherwise, what a waste!  :O

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I just moved to Boulder, Colorado from Los Angeles. I got a job for a prominent technology company. I am making more money than I ever have so I should be happy. The truth? All I want to do I go back to L.A. It is sooo fucking boring here. Everyone goes to college at CU so being in my late 30's is not very fun. I am so lonely. My social life consists of sitting at a bar alone. I feel really dumb talking to college girls that don't wear any makeup. I am sure they feel just as dumb talking to a middle aged coffee colored brutha. I thought I would be snowboarding my ass off by now but all the snow is in the mountains of L.A.??? WTF?! There is barely 2 feet here?! I am actually dreading going out tonight for New Years...ALONE. I actually don't mind being alone if there are people to talk to but up here everyone is so damned vanilla. I wish a fight would break out or someone would DO something. I like nice people but this is ridiculous. Please pray for snow with me people. Happy Frggin New Year!!

I'm nearly 23 and I've never been in love.  I'd even settle for a crush.

I wish I knew what was wrong with me.

I got to ride in the elevator with my work crush the other day.  He actually spoke to me and asked me to push the floor he needed (which I already knew).  He's so nerdily hot.  I would F*CK the ever-loving shit out of him.  I fantasize about what his cock looks like.  

I get so nervous around him, never actually talked to him and my face and neck get beet red.  This behavior feels high schoolish.  Makes me feel young.  

35/Married female

You always ask me when I stopped caring.

I used to care. I used to bend over backwards to try to make you happy.

I stopped caring when I realized that you'd never be happy. And that I'd never be good enough.

Yesterday, I posted my facebook status as: "I have a secret. Shh. Don't tell." My best friend asked me what it was. I told her that it was that I had started a new story, but I didn't want anyone to know. The truth? I wrote  a suicide note, and cut myself. I hate it here.

Draconius, I wish that you would contact me.   I just want to talk to you so bad.  Maybe you'll read this..I can only hope.

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If I kill myself, I want someone to know that it was because of all the horrible things that were said about me online by the 36 year old man who's e-stalking me. I'm 18, this has been going on for a year, starting when I was 17. He has single handedly destroyed me-- my reputation and my self-worth and my LIFE without ever even leaving his fucking computer.

I don't understand how someone can say and do the things he does with no one telling him how wrong it is. Because of him I went from being secure and confident to anxious, depressed and self-loathing. Maybe if I killed myself people would finally see what a shitty person he is.

I'm actually anxious about posting this because I feel like everything I do and say he knows and is there to make a horrible fucking comment about. I don't know what to do anymore.

i don't want to kiss him tonight! i want to kiss you!!!!!!

I cant decide if I even want to go out tonight for new years. I just dont even give a fuck. Its my favorite holiday, best parties, getting wasted.. having fun.
But since I fell in love with you, I just want to spend this time with you, but I cant because youre already taken.
So this is yet another holiday Ill cry on because I miss you. just like halloween and thanksgiving and Christmas.
we'll see if the 4th time is any more fucking fun than the past 3 holidays this year.
I dont mind being alone. never have. but now, I DO mind not being with YOU.

I plan to drink myself into oblivion tonight. I honestly don't give a fuck about anything anymore. Cheers.

I have to go to therapy because of you, duplicitous scumbag. My new year's resolution? To deprogram myself from the damage you have done to my faith in marriage. I am sick of analyzing happy married couples and assuming something terrible is going on behind closed doors.

I can't do anything right.

I dream that I'll get into Harvard or Berkeley, but my grades suck.

If 2010 is as shitty as 2009 was, I seriously don't know if I can keep from jumping off a bridge somewhere.

I'm nervous for the time next year when my boyfriend moves on to college and forgets about his highschool lover.

I just went to the bank and found out that I'm $95 in the hole.

Happy New Year...

I am 23, and I may be getting my first kiss tonight.  But this relationship is still so new, it still may not happen.

Stop cheating on your husband.  We screwed around when I was engaged, but now that I am married, I know that I cannot cheat on my wife.

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Surely you aren't daft enough to believe that I'm under the impression that I would be inheriting Superman, a gold mine, and a flawless situation with you. I know who you are. I think that some part of you wants and/or expects to be written off as a waste of human flesh, but I'm not buying it. Here's a big secretI'm madly in love with your mind and I know that I've only grazed the tip of the iceberg as far as that's concerned. But hey, if you'd like to set out and prove me wrong by showing me what a hapless douchebag you think you are, then be my guest. I could certainly use the entertainment. After all, I'm just a vain, coldhearted temptress who ambles through life expecting to reap dividends solely on the basis of my looks, right? Hopefully you know better than that. I'll grant you this though, you're witty as hell. I love it (and you). I can't help it; I guess I'm just crazy.

Why would I work so hard just to screw you over? Nobody's that fucking bored or sinister, my friend.

I've let my boyfriend beat me up for the last 4 years, I'm so used to it by now that I don't even try to fight back anymore I almost feel as if my giving up makes me deserve it even more

My friends call me the man eater...I hate to be alone so I find a guy and munipulate him into falling in love with me I'll meet his family and convince his friends I'm great then when everything is going perfect iwill leave with out any explanation. I'm sorry for those I've hurt

I had an abortion when i was 15 I'm now 18 and i think about it everyday, I feel as if god will punish me and not  allow me to have children later on in life as if that were my one and only chance I suffer the guilt everyday . Will god ever forgive me?

I miss you so much. I just wish i will wake up one day and have you back in my life, i want to go back in time. I still love you, if i had the guts to tell you.... i would in a heartbeat.

My friend think her life is shit, so she tried to commit suicide, my other friend's dad molested her for 5 years. My other friend's parents are divorced, and it seems like there is no hope for anyone out there.

I'm kind of glad you won't be here. Not getting to kiss you would be torture.

One of my many New Year resolutions is to get over you.

the truth is, I never wanted to hurt you. It just hit me so hard, I got knocked down, and then beaten up, and kicked down. I've never had someone help me up from when I was down, but then I met you. And you were the one I've always dreamed about. But I got knocked down again, and with out saying a word, I let you go. It was the worst mistake in my life, and now my misery is my punishment.

Happy Birthday Andy.

Please come find me.

i pick my boogers, and eat them...

I've fucked over a hundred and fifty girls.

Took me fifty years to figure out that it's more impressive to have a girl that wants to fuck you for the 151st time than it is to fuck a bunch of them.

i just finished my first composition, i wish you cared as much as you did when i started it.

I am an online amateur porn star.

I have to go somewhere and do something important ...before I get old.

It was so wrong. But i loved every second of it.

I can feel you thinking about me, I can feel your regret.
I wonder if I'll ever speak to you again.

i'm not so quick to cry anymore.
since you

i think this is a good thing

the truth is.
the love in the movies and the books
some people get to have that love
but most people don't

i'm probably most people

19.
i would like to be kissed.
next semester.
if i don't get my first kiss.
i may give up on love.
(for myself)
because if no one wanted to kiss me in the first 19 years of my life
who's going to want to kiss me for the next 20 ?

i will never tell anyone about how i feel about you. least of all, you. i think it's better, for the both of us.

but sweetness, i still feel it.

i can't stop talking about you. but i know you don't like me. and that's ok. i think i like where we are right now and where we are going.

i think what's different this time is I don't want to stop liking you. because you are a better person.

he's cancer.

I should get out of the south for a while.

i want to be with you again, but my family and friends would hate me, and i don't know how you feel about me anymore. it's been the worst 8 months of my life, and i just wish we could be together again, because when i was with you i always had a friend and had someone to count on, i was happy. god damn it.

i wonder how many girls i can fuck in a lifetime.

I hope that, when the time comes, I'll know what to do and what to say. I get so nervous just thinking about it...but like I've said before, I've never wanted anything more than I want this.

i know it is selfish of me, but i dont want you to go.
i know it is what's best for you; and i know that it's what you really want.
if you stayed i would be holding you back.
but part of me thinks that if you truly loved me you would stay.
i know you won't.

ive decided that i want to do something good for someone else.

im going to start by registering as a bone marrow donor. maybe i can finally help someone...

My mom died this year. I am almost certain she communicates with me by sending Led Zeppelin songs on the radio. Yes I know that sounds crazy.

I just told my online boyfriend what my dad did to me. But he made it about HIM! Everythings about him! I fucking hate him.

I have lived on a farm my whole life and have always enjoed and got off on watching animals fuck. I have even let my dog eat peanut butter off my pussy. Is that wrong?

I want to spend a night with you.  Just with you.  I don't want to keep pretending I'm there to spend time with your sister.  Don't get me wrong she's one of my best friend's but I want to see what would happen if we were alone together.  I don't just want to see.  I know what would happen.  IT would finally happen.  What I've been waiting for, for months now.  I would finally get to feel your lips on mine.  What are we waiting for.  There's so obviously an attraction between.   I wish I could be there tonmorrow night.  New Year's Eve would be the perfect night for us to start a relationship.  You could kiss me at midnight.  We could mark the day and the time and the place.  But I know I can't be with you then,  you'll be with your family and I'll be with mine.  We'll both be celebrating how we do every year.  Seperately.  You know when it happens fireworks will go off.  You know when it happens I'll FINALLY be happy. I want so badly to be happy.  But most importantly to be happy with you.

You seriously went out with her without even TELLING me? Wow, shows how committed to this relationship YOU are...

I see him with her and don't even want him---but I think I could have him. Sometimes I want to see if I could do it, even though they're great together. They've been together for 3 years and she wears track suits and likes his family and his crippled old house. She doesn't care that he's poor, drinks, smokes pot, slept with tons of people, and has no drive. She's even kind of pretty. But I'm prettier, and I'm the one he couldn't have. The one who tore his life apart. And I want to do it again just because I can.

I am a teacher. Yesterday I lost my first student. He was 16, and shot himself in the head playing a fucking game. His life was wasted because for one second he did not care. I can only hope to God that me posting this can cause just one person on this site to rethink taking their own life because for just one second you did not care anymore. Trust me, people out there care about you, even if you don't. Go and find them, and talk to them. What ever you do just don't fucking take the pussy way out.

The worst thing in the world is not hatred. It's not fear, fear of death, or pain. It's not disease, or war. It's not murderers, or rapists. It's not dictators or tyrants. It's not insults, or loneliness. The worst thing in the world, is Unrequited Love. It can make you feel hatred for the one you love. It can give you fear, fear of death, so you may never see them again. It can make you feel sick, as if diseased. It can make your heart seem like a battleground, like it's at war. It can make you feel murdered, because the one you love does not share the same feelings. It can leave you feeling raped of all happiness. It can dictate you life, with the singe of tyranny. It can leave you feeling insulted, because you are not loved back. It can leave you feeling alone, because you don't have the one you want. Unrequited Love: The worst thing in the world.

My boyfriend is following in my ex husband's footsteps as far as fantasizing during sex.  He now has me doing something I'd become very practiced at in the 4 years I was with my ex.  I tell him about sexual adventures I've been having with guys behind his back.  Seeing as I have had none, I have to make these tales up on demand.  But what worries me is that my current boyfriend will want to make these fantasies come to life...as my ex had wanted.  I do not want anything to do with another man.  Or woman.  Last year it was wrongly suspected infidelity that came between us... now I am afraid that I will dissapoint him by being uninterested in a threesome, therefore my fidelity will become the problem.  It did in my last relationship and the way my boyfriend's been acting, it doesn't seem far-fetched to think that it will again represent a problem.  WOW I can't win.

Why do I keep dreaming about you? For the last three nights in a row, outta nowhere, you started showing up in my dreams. I have no idea why. We barely know each other, I haven't seen you in forever, and I'm sure you probably never think about me, but my mind just can't seem to let you go.

There's so many things I can't stand about him. Lives with his parents yet bitches about them endlessly, drinks too much, smokes too much. His living area is a messy pit, no food in his fridge, animal hair everywhere. Sounds like a young guy huh. Nope. This is a grown man in his 50's!. My secret to him. I cannot love him!

so now you go and drop off the face of the earth huh.  nice.

i love how you tell me you get upset that i talk to other guys .. even if they have girlfriends ..
i also love how you tell me you won't talk to your phsyco exgirlfriend anymore . but yet when i saw who you were texting it was her .
there's a reason she's your ex .
maybe you should still be with her if you must lie to me .

I fucked up .
He treated me like gold .
He would do anything for me .
You're just obsessive .
And most likely using me .
I'm fucking retarded .

my dad's sick , my ex-boyfriend hates my life and wants nothing to do with me. one of my best friends claims hes in love with me and i dont feel the same way so our friendship will be ruined. yet i like his best friend i think. my other friend is suicidal and always talking to me about how sad she is and shit, when she has NO idea.
happy fucking new year (Y)

I only want to spend New Year's with you, and kiss you when the ball drops, but in reality I know you'll probably be making out with your girlfriend at her house while I sit home alone painfully trying to forget you.

I like two different guys. The first one is ugly and weird. But I don't think he's ugly, and I love that he's weird. I've never really talked to him, but I think I love him. I've loved him for three years.
The second is my friend and locker-buddy. If I tell him I like him back, I'll never be able to go to my locker again.
I'm scared if I don't tell him that I'll regret it forever. So which one do I tell? I like you both and can't choose. It kills me to think of them with other people, but I'd die before I told them how I feel.
I'm pretty sure both have figured out that I like them. I mean it is pretty obvious, but I can't help myself. So if I stay a coward all my life, this is me saying it.
I like you!! I've liked both of you for a really long time. I'm terrified that you won't feel the same way, and deep down I know you don't.

I just spent 2 hours trying to clean up my cousin's pubic hair.

The price I pay for wanting to spend a day with my boyfriend...

i love you nduta. happy new year

I suddenly woke up last night with the thought that I'm not good enough for him.

I meant every word I've said. I'm ready for you.

i want to try heroin so bad but if i only had the money :(

If there were no consequences, I'd kill you.

i was my ex's first...everything from girlfriend to kiss to the first one hes had sex with. He took my virginity also. We started dating at 15. He was sooo inlove with me and did everything i asked. He was the best boyfriend anyone could ask for. I guess i was scared to fall inlove... I never realized how much i loved him and needed him till i broke up with him after a year. He now hates me and refuses to speak to me. We've been broken up for almost 8 months and i cant make it through a single day without thinking about him.

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my biggest secret is that i want to be raped. i dont know if it is because when i was young i was molested by my father and he was so gentle, but i want someone to burst into my home or snatch me off the street, rip off my clothes and shove their dick into my pussy, i want them to choke me will they are thrusting as hard as they can into my pussy, i go out late at night by myself hoping i get lucky.....something is very wrong with me

I'm the most pessimistic optimist I know.
Well, I guess that makes me the most optimistic pessimist I know too...

A. You said that we can only be friends, but you keep right on doing things that suggest otherwise. Last night for example, "quit trying to make me like you" is what you texted me. Um, I think I have been good, it was you trying to hang on. I am thinking we both fell in love and are just too afraid to let go. A

I wish I had never met you I hate what you've done to me and made me feel. I hate that I care about what you are doing about me, and more than that I hate that you are a coward and instead of admitting to using me and being a utter bastard you block me, you know "out of sight out of mind" kinda thing. Well, I will have my revenge I don't care if it's petty but I will.

The moment I find a job in another town, will the last moment any of you ever see or hear from me again. Furthermore with the exception of my sister and one aunt, there is not a one of you that I do not feel has any type of affection, regard, or respect for me.

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Some of the sex stories on this site make me horny.

I'm done with your lying and cheating.  I deserve better!  Our daughters deserve better.

OMG i really like him!

i dream about fucking my husbands friend....in reality i am a nice polite well mannered women that remains completely loyal but in my dreams in my head i am a nasty dirty whore...i wear nothing but skirts with no panties. i shave my pussy bald and wait for one of my husbands friends to bend me over and shove their cocks into hot wet pussy. i masterbate every chance i get and i fear if i ever get the chance to be out of town without my husband i will be the whore i am inside i dream of women too they are so sexy i would love to eat some hot wet tight pussy my husband wants a threesome, me, i want an all out fuck fest men with women, women with women, men with men, my pussy is getting wet just thinking about it. i no longer want my husband his dick bores me....i realize i am not a one man women too bad the epiphany came after the children...i will have to just cheat so my chikdren don't lose the two parent advantage....lifes a bitch...so fuck a
her as hard and fast as you can...remember settling down is still settling

If he "pokes" me again I'm going to "poke" him with a fucking knife.

I used to think fetishes and alternative fixations could be a good thing differing from the standard bland and simple, but in surveying a ton of those sorts of guys I see it's more of a weight and nuisance than anything of a perk or plus....

These sorts of guys have the same or more of a sexual focus, but have to stoop to shameful levels and connections to express and enjoy it....they're typically beyond focused on self and feeding their desires like drug addicts and as they don't love, understand or accept themselves they tend to have a difficult time doing so for another being.....it all makes them impossible to love, respect or admire in any true way....

If somehow those obstacles are overcome or don't exist with a specific person, the idea of wasting so many hours, days, years feeding idle desires living in a super confidential little private fantasy world when there's so many more substantial things to spend time and energy on in life and the world is lame....that's about when it clearly shows as a disorder and not an alternative little twist or unique aspect of self that could enhance or colorize....

I think you could be the man i marry but i still get scared sometimes and want to run back to my past even though i can't. i dont want the past at all but starting fresh is scary it can change at anytime.  i need to keep going forward because that's where true happiness is.

I workout to be healthier and feel better and NOT to look like a better piece of meat or get attention for matter of appearance.....that happens and it makes me not want to workout and do good things for myself in that way .... I end up ditching working out regularly and/or cover up all the more so....I may have some slight issues, but I think more at fault is the sickos in the world gawking and making others like me feel like meat....

this shouldnt be a secret but apparently it is... you people raising your daughters to be princeses are raising a whole generation of females that are going to be sorely dissapointed in life and whatever men they choose to be with. smarten up ,stop buying them all that princess trash, let them know they are lovable.
their heros shouldnt be princeses.

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The song Mr. Sandman makes my troubles go away! :D

Everyday i smile away my pain, my troubles, my doubts and fears. Everyone thinks im a super confident person, who doen't care and just lives life for the full. I wish i was like that. Deep down i am scared, worried and unsure. I trusted you, and pretty much gave up all the others for you, and now in this time of need, when i need a friend most.. you turn your back on me? you ignore my calls and texts, you cancel on me last minute.

i was there for you. i cared when no-one else did. i helped you out. but you just don't seem to care

You've pushed me one too many times
I'm sick of all of the fiction, we're gonna settle it
You've pushed me one too many times
I'm sick of all of the shit, I'm gonna settle it!
Well there's nothing you can say to me now
And there's nothing you can do to stop me
~It's time you met the monster that you have helped create

i said i forgave him for cheating, but i didnt. i still think he is cheating. two days in a row he has left the house and needed to take a shower upon return. i think he is hiding phone numbers under male names in his phone. when he leaves i will cheat on him. i am going to look for my lost love find himand make him mind, the evil thing is i am leaving my husbnad with the children. my way of getting revenge he will not be free to do as he pleases. i think i actually loathe his presence, i think i loathe him i wish i was strong enough now to lwave him, or he could do me a favor and just die.....i think i will sleep with one of his friends then tell him, but not tell which friend, that will really hurt him

E-

I think you're deplorable, untrustworthy and dirty.  There's no fucking way in hell I'd ever talk to you.  There is no way to repair an imaginary bridge, and that friendship was fake from the moment you started lying.  If you think for one fucking second that I could ever forget how disrespectful and spineless you are then you're obviously more high than your scuzzfuck friends.

Now go run to your mommy.

-D