man across me on the b train in the red jacket, u are sexy. red hair & glasses are hott.

Every time I like a guy and he starts to show any interest, I'm immediately uninterested. Some people say I just like the chase. But I know it's more than that. I am so scared of getting hurt I won't give anyone a chance.

Plus. I'm scared of what they want from me. I don't know how much of myself I can give...

I dream about my ex boyfriend all the time...his sex was so much better than the piece of shit  I'm getting now from my partner.

i just made myself cum thinking about you.
can't wait till you can help.

People who cheat make me sick.  If my husband ever cheats on me it will be hell for him.  You know those emails that go out about shit women do when they are pissed at their husband/boyfriend.  I would do every single one of those things.  Paint inside the car, pick axe through the windsheild, signs posted with their name and picture, etc, etc.  

All I have to say is becareful men.  Your girlfriend/wife might just think the same about you if they found out you were cheating.  And trust me, my husband would NEVER in a million years think I would do something so crazy.  Little does he know....I might be cute but I will become pyscho if he FUCKS UP!!

I see that one of my many new year's resolutions is going to work, thanks to you. You are making this resolution very easy to achieve.

Dude, you were hospitable and kind. You didn't even know me, but you let me stay in your house, you drove me places, you even bought me a couple of gifts to take home with me.

You know what I did in return? I finger-fucked your wife. She initiated it, but I wasn't like I was going to resist. She wouldn't go all the way because of you, but I made her cum with my tongue. Now, when you're out, she does stuff on the webcam too. I have dirty pics of her on my hard drive.

I feel bad for you, but I would do it again. There's something insanely hot between us that neither of us can resist.

I want to see her again, but how do I phrase it?  "Hi, we fucked around a few times, then you got in A Relationship and dropped out of sight, but I heard you broke up again.  So can I eat your ass again now?"

I feel it lacks something.

CR, you are a sad, sad person.  Some day you are going to look back on your life and realize how much you gave up.  You should have left him and went with the cop.  You would have been much happier.  Go ahead and try to make our lives miserable.  We forgive you.  We'll even let you back in but you're going to havce to make the first move.  We're done.

I love being bisexual!  It's the best of both worlds for me and I love it!  But it's so crazy that both sides have attitudes about playing for both teams!  Also - it's a funny double standard in that if a girl is Bi, it's soooo hot.  But if a guy is Bi, it's so not.  Strange how that works.  I don't care - I'll have fun in my Bi world.

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I secretly love staying at home all day while my boyfriend is at work. I know it's more modern for both people to work and be successful, but I'm entirely too content cooking and cleaning and making his life easier. I'm way too scared to say anything to him about it. I love him more than life itself, and anyway I can make his life better for him, I want to.

I think you're pathetic. You try to come off as cocky and all-knowing. Deep down, you're really insecure and constantly seeking validation. I'm enjoying watching you trip all over yourself in an effort to come off as suave and in control.  You're less in control of your situation than you think you are.  I will enjoy the show when you crash and burn.

To think that once I actually wanted to fuck you. I consider myself lucky that I never did. What a waste of time. I don't know exactly what I want, but I know I don't want you. You're weak and that disgusts me.

anything can be healed.

I'm so afraid of letting my hopes get too high only to have them dashed again, but I can't help it. I'm excited for the first time in a very long time. Something good is about to happen. I can feel it. :)

hey you. yes you(: dont be sad, cheer up. someone loves you(:

I joke around with you whenever I'm in the coffeeshop you work in, but what I'd really love to do is to kiss you hard and 69. Yeah, you're probably my daughters age, but that makes you even hotter.

i want to be kissing him again.  where did we go wrong? we weren't the best match but we belong together. if i was smart enough back then, i would have kept you happy.  you would be mines and not hers.  I could fuck you when ever i wanted to. i wouldn't have to sneak around and pretend to be your friend.

I think you are so sexy! I love your smile, I love your tattoos, I love your voice and how passionate you sound when you play your guitar and sing. You are a great singer. You're just great, and a sweetheart as well. I hope you are o.k. I hope you will open up to me, I feel that you have a lot of pain inside. From what, I'm not sure, but I hope you know that even though we don't know each other so well yet that I am here for you. You are like me in that we wear our hearts on the outside for everyone to see, which makes it easy to love and trust, but also easy to be taken advantage of and hurt. I hope you know that I wouldn't do that to you. God, I want you so bad!!

Last night I fooled around with a guy and it ended up being kind of weird because he just got out of a relationship, and I think he felt awkward because it was too soon.  I hope I didn't screw up...we were both really drunk. We had made out once before when he was still with her.  I lied.  I said that I was just looking for a physical thing, but the truth is that I do have a crush :) I hope that after he gets over her we could possibly date.  

The other secret is that I have been talking to another guy who lives in another city, and who really likes me a lot. I know he has all these plans for us to be together, but the truth is I'm not really ready for anything serious.  I know he would be upset if he knew I was fooling around with other guys, especially a guy that I could possibly like as more.

Why does love have to be so confusing? FML And in the end, I am still alone.

i hate being alone. I hate being married to a man that doesn't know that I am hurting.  I hate crying alone wondering when things will get better, but the better is right now.  I get high because its the only pleasure i give myself.  God is good to me, but i can't be good to myself.

he was over again tonight.  I gave him head because i was on my period.  i know he listens to me because i told him i loved kissing him and he kissed me before i even made a move.  he reads my body so well.  he would be the only man that would keep me from my husband.

Everyone can see that your young "girlfriend" sees you as a meal ticket and nothing more. I'm sure you're the easiest mark she's found. No one is more vulnerable than a drunk and horny old guy. You know she's going to turn up pregnant so she can milk you of money for 18 years - but at the rate you're going you aren't going to live that long anyway. I wonder if you know that and are spending all your money as fast as it comes in? At any rate, I don't think you have as much money as your lifestyle suggests - wonder how long she'd stick around if she knew that?

I think I'm the biggest fool though, because I know all this and still love you anyway.

People don't say "Gee, you can always count on a tweaker."

You will never hear somebody say, "Drunks are always so wise."

"Stoners are always so successful!"  Yeah, right.

That's why I don't like any of your friends.  You fucking loser!

I hate Nigerians. Fuck a terrorist, try living next door to those pieces of shit.

u never think about the bullshit u say i fucken hate u sometimes when im telling you i love u ive put up with your cheating disapearing and your bullshit meth problems u deserve everything u get u stupid bitch and youll see im not as devoted to u as u think your not the only one with shit up your sleeve

can't you see that i still have SOMETHING for you?

ugh. i hate goodbyes. i hope he knows that he's someone i would never ever forget, no matter who told me i had to cut ties.

you made me feel something i never felt before, and now you want this to no longer exist. that's fine with me. have a good life, and i hope when you think of me, it gives you hell.

He stopped talking to me, and I don't know why. I miss him like none other.

The airbrushed, over-styled Glamour Shots of real estate agents on bus stop benches makes them resemble over-the-hill cheerleaders/hookers.

Anger can be the best thing in the world. Not the destructive kind that makes you do things that you regret, but the kind that gets you just pissed off enough to where you realize that you can't take it anymore and pushes you over the edge until you have no other choice but to get it right. I'm there again. Losing is not an option.

i can feel us getting closer :)

no body prefect every body lies and make mistakes!!!!

i want to try 3 some where girl playing with herself while she waitting 4 her turn lol and i want to do weed just once or twice and i wish me and my bff boyfriend where friends again just like we where friends before they started dating ugh when single u need ur bff when u get boyfriend u only need her when something bad happening ugh life suck sometimes !!!!!!!!!!!!

You think I'm your friend, but honestly, deep, deep down
I hate you.

Stop telling me what to do. Stop lying. Stop calling me names.

I am so sick of you!

i might be bi but scared to admit it:(

i lied to my best friend off 11 years about not being a virgin and doing certain drug and about having  3some becuz those are the things i want to do but havent got the chance to try any of them. will god 4give me if i ask him to.?

it is so hard to pretend you care about your job when you are planning an escape. muahaha

I just crawled on the floor and searched my freaking countertop for percocet crumbs just so I could get 1 sad excuse of a line. Iv already take 4 today, they were my last 1s in the bottle

It is dangerous to have Busby Berkley dreams!

i am sorry for all the people i have stolen from in the past. i promise this time i will be better. this is a new year full of changes and full of forgiveness to myself. i cant hang onto all of this guilt for the rest of my life. heres to hoping that i have been forgiven for my past faults.

All my life I have acted like someone else then myself because I wanted to be cool like everyone else. I wanted to leave myself and be someone else. I am slowly discovering that I am ok. Its okay not to be as social as the next person. It is ok not to trust and its ok to be scared to love. How can I forget the past so it never comes back again? I don't want to be reminded. I want it gone.

I took a drink that I knew wasnt mine at a show. I regret it now. It was stupid and I was drunk. I have spent the entire day worrying about it. I hate that I worry about it. I am tired of worrying.

These stupid things that will not matter in five years. Why do I constantly hold onto them? What good does it do to feel worrysome all the time? I am mentally exhausted of it. I want to stop worrying for once. I feel like I will go crazy from it. I am going crazy slowly.

im stress eating again. Y cant i just puke it up?

When I'm high, I'm still the same person on the inside. Stop treating me like some sort of fucking circus clown. I want to be respected!

When I see guys my age on the train I want to jump on their laps and rip open their shirts.  I want them to join me in one last romp while were still young enough to want to, while we still can.  We don't have much time life.

A selfish thought I am going to throw out into the cyber universe.  Here, for a moment, I'm going to be selfish.

I would really, really, REALLY like it if I could attract guys close to my own age.  Closer.  

The old, creepy men, with unbrushed hair are freaking me out.  Okay, UNIVERSE?

Thank you in advance, for any notice of this here, thought.

Oh, and Universe, I'm not opposed to handsome older men who could teach a few things.  I'm cool with that...  Little salt 'n pepper, composed.  

You just need to see where I'm coming from.  It's very disheartening.

If you flake on me and break my heart I don't think I'll recover.  It will be the straw that breaks me.  
:(

Please call me.

Where are you?

I am 30 years old and have never slept with anyone much...one guy. Sex bored me. It was embarrassing, because my partner was never happy with me. But recently I met someone who is making me see what all the fuss is about. I don't want to confuse lust with love because I have a responsibilty to myself to keep myself in only positive situations. But yet. I find myself dreaming about him like a hormonal teen. Damn, I hate that I didn't get this bullshit out of my system when I was young and foolish.

i know i'm the butt of your jokes.
sometimes ignorance really is bliss.

Literally one minute away from going over to your house.  So terrified.  I hope this goes well!

Here's a secret, don't reply to any job postings on Craigslist. They're all scammers looking to make a quick buck by getting you to sign up for a credit report. They'll even go so far as to send you very legitimate looking interview requests. Instead, stick to job postings that use the names of companies that you recognize and include local telephone numbers. I wouldn't even trust third party hiring agencies anymore because there are just too many dickheads out there trying to bank on your misfortune. Yeah, it sounds obvious, but when you're desperate, you'll try anything.

But hey, good things happen to good people eventually. I still have 2 real job interviews, so fuck those sons of bitches.

everytime i hear my little sister laugh or see her sitting her lazy ass down in front of the television i want to scream at her! ...sometimes i do. and most of the time i KNOW my life would be easier without her but then again i know i'd be helpless without her in my life.

I can't wait for my baby to get home from work ^.^

Man, I'm so glad I can't have kids.  I'd be insane by now if my own children were this wild.  :(

I'm so in love with my best friend that sometimes I think I'm going crazy.

youre going to newyork in a few days.
stay there.
please.

I told my care worker I didn't want to see her anymore (because one appointment every 3 months is pointless) and now she's completely discharged me from the mental health services. I feel like she's done it out of spite!
It's the final proof I needed that no-one really does care about me and if I kill myself or continue starving myself to death.

theres so much truth in my fictional stories.

I don't want to just be friends with you. I honestly thought we were heading in the direction of a relationship. Why wouldn't i think that tho... u kinda lead me on. Idk... i've come to the realization that people wabt to have their cake and eat it too... well guess what? I'm gonna do it... have my cake and eat it too... appologies in advance for the people i hurt along the way. Life has made me this way

yvette,
more than life itself...
more than the sand on the beach...

im yours.
for always.

i promise i won't let you down. no matter what.

When I call someone on the phone at home and they don't answer, but call me back a few minutes later, I assume they were pooping.

My straight best friend knows I'm gay, yet he always says that it makes him sad that he can't be "like that" for me...I am going to hold on to this statement many years from now, and hope and hope that it means someday he will turn out to be gay.  I don't want anything to FORCE him to be like that, however.  I wish for him to make that decision of his own accord.

So for now, all I can do is live in my fantasy world.  I told him the other day that if he ever "changes his mind" that I would leave anything and ANYONE for him.

And if not, I have the best friend in the whole world. I bet your best friend is not even a fraction of a percent as cool as mine!

When I was a teenager I was obsessed with a boy.  It ended badly.  For many years I cursed myself for all of the mean and hateful things I did that drove him away (really, I was vicious).  I thought that if we could have at least remained friends that it may not have hurt so much.

Now I'm a bit older.  I'm realizing now that all the mean things I did were just forms of self-preservation.  He was mean.  In all honesty, he probably grew up to be an alcoholic with mental issues.  Our relationship was unhealthy and cyclic.

I've met a handful of guys just like him since.  Every one of them use women until it's not exciting for them anymore.  Then they push them away.  After a few months they come back to start the cycle over again.  Every one of them has been some combination of an alcoholic, bipolar or both.

And I'm brilliant.  Each time they do I have subconsciously been cruel, hurtful and torn them to shreds.  Now I know why.  I'm too good to be used by a psychotic loser.  Somewhere in my brain I was programmed to know this.

I miss my old cushy office job right now. Not only was I fantastic at it, but that crazy bitch of a boss of mine really paid me handsomely to put up with all her bullshit. And I had medical and dental insurance. Dental. Who the hell gives people dental coverage these days? Too bad she hired two people to take my place. I don't know those bitches, but I hate 'em.

I seriously had my doubts about you when I told you Michael Jackson died and you very bluntly said "Good!". You, a future music educator.  You should be ashamed. Whatever the man's personal life was about, his music influenced generations.  So maybe he wasn't your favorite, but the fact that you didn't even seem to notice that I cared... well, it's very clear we wouldn't have lasted much longer without that moment anyway.  But what a way to remember you.

I've become the kind of person I hate.

Craigslist scammed me. I feel raped.

I'm in a relationship with the only real MAN i've ever met.

EVERY DAY:
-he tells me he how much he loves me.
-he tells me i'm beautiful.
-he cuddles with me.
-he does little cute things to remind me that i'm appreciated and cared for.


1 1/2 years, and all this stuff still happens EVERY DAY?
I will NEVER let him go.

if i weren't stuck in this lease with her, i'd break up with her today.

I hope that you've still got a little faith left in me (assuming that you did in the first place). If things go well, I might be hearing some very good news soon. Things are looking pretty good right now. I wish that I could talk to you.

You know... I could still be jealous of you. But then again... I'm not failing half my courses every semester. =]

I really don't care anymore. You are the only person that i actually care about.
You want nothing to do with me.
I officially have zero passions anymore, I pretty much just think all the time and accomplish nothing. Im sick of people telling me how to do something. Im sick of all the obtrusive people in my life. I really don't give a fuck what their opinion is. Each day is blander than the last, boring, uneventful, and nothing matters like it used to. You just want to be "civil". Yeah, "civil" to you is no acknowledgment of existence. I know i fucked up, I ended it, and as soon as i did, as soon as i dropped you off, i knew i made the biggest mistake of my life.
And we could have what? Gone back out? We both know your insecurities would overcome you and would be forever paranoid of it happening again, it wouldn't have been the same. I want to be friends, for you to paint the color back into my useless life. I don't think you will ever know how much you mean to me.
I always dream up situations where someone pulls a gun on you and fires, i stand in front of you and take the bullet while he runs away. This would accomplish 3 things:
1) Show you he's an asshole
2) Show you that i still love you and would do anything for you
3) Put me out of this lazy pointless life

You've really started to step your game  up... and even tho I have always loved you... I finally think i'm falling IN love with you. And I kinda like it, I'm sure we'll be great together

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Now I just have to get it out of my mouth. I can't wait. We're perfect baby. I know you love me too.

Tracy you broke my heart! U dont even know how much I truly loved you and now you never will... I was willing to divorcde my husband for you. I wanted to live the perfect little life with you. I was willing to move back to Vegas to be with you. I would have done anything you wanted me to just to be with you and now you will never know what that could have been like because your a JERK! In 2 ways.. Oh Well It's your lost cuz you missed out on the best thing to ever come into your life Douchbag!

When i was a teenager from the age of 13 to 17 i slept with several men older than 40. 3 of them were married.

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Sometimes I wish that I hadn't wasted so much time and effort on being a good kid. I didn't even watch R rated movies at other people's houses because I wasn't allowed to at home. I went to D.A.R.E. camp and actually listened. I prayed diligently every night before I went to bed. I was disgustingly good. I should have stolen a car or drank my parents' liquor or something. I got spankings and put on restriction all the time and never really did anything. What the fuck was I thinking? I should have rebelled.

I doubted his taste in music, and his habbits. I now find myself in his spot. Listening to the thing I ignored by choice. I LOVE THIS MUSIC!

You hurt me you pussy, but you did leave a legacy of great music, Great food, Great movies, and good art in my mind, and that I will continue to love you for.

Okay, I finally reached a place of peace and happiness, and now I find a zit on my balls???

Here's to hoping that's ALL it is.  I've never wanted fuliculitis more.

I love you jerk! haha
You know you love me.
The city is calling our name.
I am determine to see the beauty in all that is ugly with you.
I hope that I can follow whenever you take me.
I would follow you to the edge of the world and one step further.
I hope you know that.
I'll make sure you know that.

that's it, S. i'm going to leave you this time. you said you were so afraid of losing me, and i told you to just love me and it would all be fine. but just because you have one fucking bad day does not give you the excuse to treat me like complete shit. you think you want to die? well i'd tell you to think about how i feel but i don't think you care anyways. and you know what? i'm confident enough to realize that i am the perfect girl for you. but you don't deserve me right now. so by the time you understand that, by the time you realize how much i loved you and how much i tried to make you happy, it'll be way to late. i'm not sorry anymore. this isn't my fault.

goodbye.

I want the platonic relation ship I have with my friend back. I really do. I want to find him, and bring him back to a place of peace. We tried the dating thing it didn't work. I miss that! I miss my un-biological brother I want him home!  I worry about his health, I wonder if he is okay. I want him to sing to me. Yea he is a vocalist for a local band so fucking what if he sings to his sister?! Damn it I can't help but fear he forgot me.

I just relized that my ex of three years never even knew I played the Clarinett. Fuck me....I guess he didn't know me that well at all.

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I need passion.

i hate being alone.

Sometimes I feel like I am just going to give up, and doubt myself.

Damn it, I wish I had percervied through learning to play the Clarinet. There are times when I find myself remembering the feel of the mouth peice, and the metal under my fingers. I quit because I could not practice at home. It showed at school.

Not many know I played decently either.

I wonder what they would say if I randomly took it up again.

Remember that day we passed that guy we both dated?  He couldn't even make eye-contact with either of us.  We thought it was so pathetic that he still was so feeble and petty, and we laughed.

And now this.  I hope you're learning.

I hope my new neighbors who have not talked to my family since they moved in have see me awake at night and watch me live my life, and see how happy I am and get jelous.

Don't send chain letters. It's rude and thoughtless. Chain letters expect you to inconvenience others, threatening bad luck if you don't. I won't befriend anyone who sends this tripe. It shows that they are not capable of being respectful.

You are finally choosing me. You let me fall in love then told me about her, and no matter how long I went without talking to you I never stopped, well, loving you. It sounds so stupid to be nineteen and been with you since fourteen.

I like to think that we are the exception to the rule, but as I read all these other, nearly identical, secrets, I want to think otherwise. But there is a difference. I love you, and if we get the chance to openly love, I will be appreciative, but I have by no means signed the rest of my life away to you.

None of you should ever sign your life away to someone else until you are entirely sure what you would want to do with it alone. Partners are there to assist you, not to be the focus of your life. You are more important.

As for his wife, I feel so fucking bad for her. She didn't deserve this.

i just want someone to want to be around me. am i that bad of a person? i know i'm not perfect, but fuck, i'm trying the best that i can to be a good friend.

The night I was so drunk that I went home with my third grade teacher's oldest son and did some sexually inappropriate things was really just me rebelling. By the time we got to his apartment, I was almost completely sober. I still had fun.

When I was 13 I was treasurer of my junior high school. We made money from washing cars and bake sales and the school store. We used the money for a class party and a few other things although I forget what exactly. At the end of the year we had $35 left in the bank account. Since we were leaving the junior high school and moving on to the high school itself, we were asked to turn over the bank account with the remaining money to the next years 8th grade class. That's what I did.  I turned over the bank account.... with $28 in it. I stole the other $7 and made up a fake entry in the record book. I used the money to by ice cream for myself and colored shoe laces and I think a yoyo. It happened about 30 years ago. I still think about it sometimes. It makes me sad I stole the money. I haven't led a perfect life, but I always try to do the right thing. Except for that $7. That was me being a thief. It is one of the things I regret most about my life.

i try so hard to love my dad, but it is the most impossible thing in the world to do.