It's funny how certain things that happen in this world, and are reported about in the media, make me so glad that I am not with my ex anymore.  He's a disgusting, racist pig.  When I was gathering old coats one winter to have him bring to the homeless shelter in the inner city where he works, he informed me that said coats would be going to n******, just so I knew.  YEAH, I DID KNOW THAT.  What did the color of one's skin have to do with whether or not they were warm?!  I swear to God, if it weren't for the fact that I was due to have our baby at any minute, I would have left him right then and there.

So when Heidi Klum and Seal got together, I was SO glad I wasn't with him.  Oh, what I would have to listen to about a beautiful supermodel hooking up with what he would call a monkey.

And now with the situation in Haiti...I can jut hear him saying how glad he is that there are 100,000 less blacks on the planet.  Fucking pig.

Thank God in Heaven that I was awarded full custody of our daughter.  I hope when she's old enough to date, she chooses an African-American boyfriend.  :)

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I have a huge dildo that I love to use while masterbating and I am sooo embarassed for the man I am dating to see it.  I wonder if it would give him a complex or if he would be totally turned on by the thought of using it on me??

I am falling in love with someone I've never met....and I am sooo afraid that if we do meet, it will all end.

I'm a woman, and I love sex.
I crave it actually. I dream about it. I read erotica and watch porn. I masturbate.
I also have a LOT of real sex. my record is six times in 24 hours.
It was all with the same guy.

Actually, all the (consensual) sex I've ever had has been with the same man.

Apparently... that little detail doesn't matter.
I like sex. I have a lot of it.
Therefore; I am a slut.

Fuck you society.

There's this friend I have.
I pretty much adore him.
He's sweet, caring, romantic, funny, intelligent, witty and 100% honest.
I love him to death, and so do all his female friends...
But none of us could ever pursue a serious relationship with him.
Why?
He is morbidly, seriously obese. He wears a 5X in men's shirts, and I couldn't even begin to guess his pants size.
I mean, I'm pretty fucking large (5'11", plus size)... but he gave me one of his t-shirts and I wear it as a dress. A loose, knee-length dress.
He gave it to me to wear to sleep in at a conference/camp I went to. To give me luck and love away from home. That's the kind of person he is. Rare, caring, genuine.
So do I love him? Absolutely, but I could never pursue a fulfilling, mature relationship with him because the sexual component would be completely absent.
Because I'm not sure how it would be possible.
I feel shallow and horrible for being this way, especially because I'm no supermodel myself.
But...
If he ever loses 200 or so pounds, I'll be all over that.
Lol :D

i wish i hadn't broken it off with A.S. although he may have said he liked me just to sleep with me, he said i was pretty.
no one says i'm pretty. not even my mom. she thinks my cousins and my sister are prettier than me. my sister and i look almost exactly alike.
back to A.S....i want him back. he cuddled with me. i want to cuddle with someone.

no one cuddles with me. no one. i never get double takes and it kills me. i'll fucking pay someone 200 dollars to compliment me for a whole day. i'll become a prostitute just to know someone wants to sleep with me, just like A.S. did.

i'm an emotional wreck. i wish someone would help me.

Most people take everything I say as true...or do they. My secret is I lie about things I don't have to...and then it gets out of control. Why do I lie so much. Am I that insecure.

my cousin asked me to be a bridesmaid for her wedding. everyone in my family has seen the dress except me. they all say it's a bodily flattering dress but they're all short and thin or tall and their fat is evenly spread. i'm short and fat. i'm sure i'll look like a fucking marshmellow.


i don't know how, but i'm losing 30 pounds in three months. i'm tired of this bullshit.

I can't believe I dreamed about you again last night...a good thing...I just don't know what to do.

I know you'd like to think that we were meant to be together, and that our lives will end happily ever after now, but this is just not how I see it. I'm sorry, I know I agreed to all these plans, but I hope you will not be too surprised when it doesn't end up like you think it will. I just can't give up what I have going for me for something I'm not even really sure about. I will not let a man (with the exception of my future husband) affect the decisions I make for my life.

sometimes i still think about m's cock when i masturbate.
it was so damn BIG. biggest thing i'd ever held.
i wish i'd sucked it. gotten my lips around that thick head and seen how much i could take down my throat.
i wish i'd fucked him.

but deep down i'm glad i didn't.
my fiancee's cock would never satisfy me after that monster.

My brother's best friend is hot.  He showed me how he can suck his own dick.  I helped him suck it while he blew so much cum that it made me laugh as we kissed each other with his cum.  

I wish my husband was half as hung.

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I used to weigh 175. No I weigh 153. I'm 5'7 and this is the thinnest I've ever been.  For some reason I can't figure out... I look in the mirror and I still feel disgusting.

Do you have a stop watch with you?  Some kind of time that you're trying to make?  

When it's all said, done and over you are the first one out the door.

How the hell am I supposed to ask you to go for coffee when you burn rubber out the joint every-freak-me time?!

C'mon now.  Slowly linger next time.

I'm just looking for my window of opportunity.  M-kay, Dasher? :)

I fear that my boyfriend, whom I'm pretty sure I'm going to marry, will leave me again.

At the same time, a little part of me hopes he will so I can see you again.

I can't decide if I love you or not. I go back and forth. When you're not around, I can convince myself that I don't want you and I can live with just being best friends. But when we're around each other, I can't help but love you. You're just so cute and funny and sweet. We have so much fun. But you're suck a tease. You KNOW I like you and you keep flirting. I want to smack that smile off your face and then kiss it back on.
I kind of debate just kissing you to see what happens. But I know I won't. I don't want to be a slut like I always am. I want to take things slowly...if we take things at all.
I love you, but I hate you.

Just stop talking about how amazing she is in front of me. Please. It's killing me.

It is to bad you dont love me anymore, but the funny thing is ill never be out of ur life, me and k will always be friends c ya a round (get it)lush.

I miss you so much.

c-go fuck yourself! I'm sick and tired of you!

I know a secret about my ex-boyfriend: he cheated on his current girlfriend, who is sort of my friend.
My secret? I was the one he cheated on her with.
I need to stop drinking, it makes me want to fuck everyone.

i have 30 days to lose 15 lbs. the end. no question. it will be done.

I love you.  I really love you.  I whisper "I love you" into the dark every night as I'm in bed, wrapped around a pillow, and trying to fall asleep.  I think about you all the time and there is physical pain involved in missing you so much.  I belong in your arms.  I just love to so, so much.  I don't even know how to put it into words.
I love you so much and I can't wait for you to get back home.
I hope and pray that you love me like this too.
I miss you; please be worth this wait.

My secret is that I use this site as a substitute for human interaction.

i just want to save him [while there's still something left to save]

It kills me that you were my inspiration but I see one thing and that all fucks up.  I miss you so much, I'm so confused.  I need you and I love you and I hate you.  My stomach dropped solely because of you.  You're better than how you are now, we both know it.  I can save you if you let me.

I wish like anything that you would just trust me enough to really talk to me. Let me have it; get rude and nasty, whatever. I don't care. I can handle it, whatever it is. Just be yourself and tell the truth. That's all I ask. That's all I've ever asked and I have yet to get it from you. I can't work with nothing. I can't earn your trust on the basis of nothing. You have to help me out a little. Maybe you don't want to, but I'm pretty sure that if you gave me a chance, it'd do you good. There's nothing to lose.

i hate that he's an addict, but i love how open he is when he's high

Too bad I don't love you anymore. I feel so much better now. I am so much better than this. Stay out of my life forever. Seriously.

Your wife is a complete shrew. Apparently this is only a secret to you.
You are a puppet and she controls your strings. Pathetic. Man up already.

There is a big part of me that knows I'll fuck it up so badly you'll either leave me in disgust or emotionally hurt me until I want to kill myself even if you stick around. I'm not used to life giving me happiness & don't think I am capable of sustaining all this good luck for long. Something will happen and ruin everything. That's how it was before. If I was meant to have a happy life, I don't remember getting the memo.

My wife was suspicious. I told her I gave "the other woman" a hug, that's all. I skipped over the part where we had intercourse.

Its true.The pain and suffering does not last forever.something amazing will always come your way.I was at rock bottom ready to just end this misery until things just started to turn around.It really is funny how things can just change like that,even when there is no hope left.Never lose yourself to anyone or anything.One day you will find "happiness",just wait and never give up.

He's married. Not that smart or attractive. But for some reason, I can't stop thinking of him. I don't know why.

Last night I had a dream about the end of the world. It was one of my real dreams that I usally have deja vu over later. I know a lot of people think we are invisible. Think about it, who is out there to protect us? Our government?! Please! Think about the secrets that they hide from us. Some people chose to learn, some people chose to ignore. When you finally realize the truth it might be to late.

So I feel like I owe you an explanation. The truth is I am scared. I dont trust anyone and the minute I trusted you my mind started to convince me that you were going to take advantage of that trust and ruin my life. I know not all people are bad people but it is easier for me to not trust anyone then have my life ruined. I revealed a lot to you, my mind and soul.  The depths of my reality that no one even knows not even my boyfriend. We had a lot of laughs and said a lot of things. Please dont make me regret it. It will set me off the deepend. Prove to me there are honest people in the world.


-n

Friday I'm going to be looking SO FUCKING HOT you're going to want to jump my bones right there!

Why is it that I simply must have any man that I am interested in at all whatsoever fall head over heels for me? Whether I intend on feeling the same way about them or not I do everything I can to get them wrapped around my finger, and if it doesn't work, I become extremely frustrated. I also have a reputation as being a "heart breaker" by my girlfriends.

For example, I recently became attracted to a man and told him how I felt. He reciprocated, became pretty attached and wanting a relationship which I refused, and within a few months I became disinterested. I have already found another guy who I am attracted to who I know is attracted to me, but he is clearly not very attached to me which bothers me!! I know that even if he was, I would quickly lose interest and drop him. What the hell is my problem?

You don't like me I know that, I think. You send me all the signs of liking me. You treat me different from every other girl. You're way too nice to be a player, so if you like me just tell me already. I'm sick of this one-sided thing I have for you. I'm trying to get over you, but you're not making it any easier. I like you more now that I've tried to stop liking you then before. WTF!!I mean I'm the one who likes you, so why are you the one who initiates the flirting? Why do you talk to me? Why are you nice to me? Either like me or completely ignore me, because I obviously can't just be your friend. If we can't be more, I at least want to be able to hate you. I want to hate you, but that just makes me love you even more.

they piss me off but i never wanted THIS to happen.

I feel petty and guilty that as I sit in my therapist's office bitching about how much I hate my job and boss and mother-in-law, there are people in Haiti who have lost their homes, loved ones, and pretty much life as they knew it forever. We can't take for granted the privileged lives we lead. We can't turn away from one another in a time of need. Imagine watching your world crumbling down around you and no one reaching out to you. Then tell me how afflicted you are by because your credit card interest went up a point.

Here's a hint: in life, it's not enough to simply hate yourself and wallow in self-pity. We've all been there and done that, but what does it accomplish? Not a damn thing!Your life isn't going to fix itself. Nobody gets to be the best version of themselves just sitting on their ass and wishing. So get up off that couch, stop crying in the corner and dreaming of a better life, and do something with yourself. Even if it's just a little something. Go clean the fucking toilet. Tweeze your eyebrows. Sign a petition. Do something! Don't just sit there bellyaching and whining about how miserable and pathetic you are. If you do that long enough, you become exactly what you fear most; a worthless, shiftless, hopeless lump. That fat won't lose itself. Not applying won't get you that job. Your shitty relationship with that psycho won't end itself. You're not going to find true love or happiness or anything just wishing on a star. You've got to get moving and take matters into your own hands. That's all there is to do. When you're down and out and fucked two ways from Wednesday, the only way to go is up. So take heart in all of the possibilites and stop that crying! It won't get you anywhere. Now get going, dammit!

And that goes for me too! I'm on my way up and nobody is going to stop me.

You disgust me.  You cheater.

No one deserves your tears,believe that.

Ive got you sitting in front of me RiGHT N0W... so please someone tell me, how do I get you to stay forever??
because that is all I want...

im afraid that i got married thinking i was in love. im afraid im just comfortable. and im afraid because every night when i fall asleep next to my husband, im thinking of another man. the one who got away. the one who put a spell on me, then left me with nothing but a broken heart and a hole in my stomach. but i cant stop thinking of him.

With all the problems we're having here in the USA what with job losses, etc. I can't honestly say I really give a flying fuck if all the people in Haiti die or not. Maybe that's harsh but charity does begin at home afterall.

I have a secret wish that all of the administrators involved in the education field who have not taught in a classroom would suddenly lose all of their teeth, nails and hair and asphyxiate on their own gas.

I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. I look at fat people and think "What the fuck?" You didn't NOTICE you gained 20, and then 50 and then 100 and then 200 pounds?? You didn't notice you were buying the biggest clothes the Plus Size department had to offer? You don't fucking notice you can sit with your legs together? Please. That's SUCH bullshit. You're fat because you're lazy and you eat too much.

But I'm supposed to be politically correct and kind and tolerant - everyone says that's what I am. Inside, I want to scream horrible things at fat people.

Ladies, don't pretend you don't want to or haven't ever had sex with another woman. Please - who wouldn't want to lick that soft wet center of the universe?

I am really curious to see if he left us any money when he dies.  I don't want him dead.  I'm just curious.

I want my Husband to love me with all his heart and never let anyone take my place
i want to believe that marriages are made in heaven and its eternal
but i can't bring myself to avoid the thoughts of betrayal and lies and divorce.
I want to be independent and show them that i can definitely be happier than them even when i'm just a graduate

Oh and BTW your new bitch is ugly, im not a shallow person but I know for a fact that i am wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better looking than her.
TOTAL DOWN GRADE FUCK FACEE.

I fucked MATTHEW!!!!
ahahahah never thought that would happen!!!!
im sooo happy even if it was just an ons!

I love vegas
everything i did i'd do it again no questions asked!!
i can die happy now ;}

Dear You,

Im glad you dumped me, cos you know what I AM BETTER than YOU and yesss i will do great things with my life. Too bad i can't say the same for youu.
Douche bagg I hope one day you feel what its like to be manipulated, lied to, and hurt. Thanks for nothing asshole.

PS. I HOPE YOU GET AN STD.

sincerely,
ME.

I think i'm going to stop eating.
I want to be thin like all the other girls.
I know he loves me, but i don't feel comfortable.
Tonight will be my last meal.
I know its drastic, but i don't care anymore, it's making me depressed.

M-I love you now and forever! I miss us even more than that. Wish things were in our favor...we will always remain soulmates and no one will ever fill those shoes. Love you always, your wife-P

I wish you would talk to me...even if it's to tell me to go fuck myself.

People keep telling me how strong I am.  All I want to say back to them is that I am not as strong as they think.  Seriously, I am growing weary from all that is going on in my life.

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Yeah.. I've got a secret. My life is fuckin' amazing!!!! I had a great, interesting job for almost 30 years, I retired at an early age, I'm healthy, I inherited a large amount of money (close to 2 million $), I have a smart, beautiful wife that looks 10 younger than her age, I have great kids that are in great relationships, I have beautiful grandchildren, I have a nice comfortable house (all paid off), I've got tons of leisure time to sleep in, travel, exercise, and enjoy life, and I've got pretty much everything I've ever wanted. I'm really on top of the world.

Now... what is my secret????

The people where I worked, that I thought were my friends, want nothing to do with me... I think they're pissed off and jealous. Well guess what folks... it doesn't fuckin' matter to me!!!! I hope you look at my life and are envious as all hell. Just goes to show you, what I always said was true... I'm an asshole.

I have no real secrets anymore.  My life is an open book, with very few pages and all mostly blank.

My husband fell in love with the artist I was. I was wild and free and calm and beautiful.
And now I haven't painted in 2 years.
Something must change. I've got to fix this, I must catch that last bit of me that's left inside-somewhere-and let her grow.
I have done what I can to show him I love him, to show him I care.
He forgets, he ignores it, he cannot see it.
He never touches me.

I'm almost certain that one of my guy friends is bisexual. I wish that I could let him know that he can trust me and that I'm safe to talk to about it, but I'm hesitant to bring it up on the off chance that I'm wrong.

I'm 5'7", 150lbs and I feel fat.

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i was my mothers sixth pregnancy.,,but only her second child.  18 years ive been yelling at her to not be so clingy and overprotective.  i dont blame her anymore.  i also now understand why my brother and I are five years apart.  not apart of some plan to not have two small children at once as i had always though.  my older brother doesnt know. im scared the same will happen to me...

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My fobby little asian mom is a legit lady gaga fan.

human sexuality is not black or white, it is shades of gray.

You are not allowed in my dreams! Get out of them!

I never enter into any friendship or relationship with concrete expectations of any sort. I see good things in everyone, some more than others, so I typically make choices based on that. Maybe this is a good strategy, maybe it's a bad one. I don't know. I generally don't get put off to the point of no return by people because there is no set bar. Every situation (and individual) is malleable. If anything, I leave them room to surprise me. It takes quite a lot for me to feel let down by another person. They really have to work hard at it. I don't put anything past anyone. We're all human. We all make blunders...some more than others...but so what? Anyone can change. Anyone can improve or go downhill, it's merely a matter of context.

The bottom line is that I've enjoyed the mercy and forgiveness of others so why should I withhold it from someone else; particularly one who might need it more than I do? Nobody's perfect. Everybody's different and I, for one, consider that a good thing.

My wife had to leave the country to help family. She will be gone for one month. OMFG! I don't miss her at all! I love being single!

I put your pillow sideways on my bed and pull it so it's against my back all night. Just so I can sleep, pretending that you're there next to me.

Some people live paycheck to paycheck.
I die paycheck to paycheck.

I'm so desperately in love that when we're so far apart all I am is sad. I want to tell you every day how much I miss you and need you, but I know that'd make you feel worse. For it was you who decided to go so far from me.

Just pity yourself.You can't see what you have.

Sometimes I just want to look people straight in the eye and say, "You've become a disappointment to me."

i don't mind being a fat blow queen.

I am EXTREMELY attracted to a co-worker, but my live-in boyfriend of 4 years doesn't have any idea, even though we work together.

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After 10 months, 2 different people asked me today if I had seen you or talked with you.  I wanted to say yes but I haven't heard from you.  You have been popping up in my dreams and wonderful memories of our love and friendship.  You probably have no idea how much I still desperately love you and miss you my friend BMW.  I hope you are well and happy.  Drop me an email sometime just so I know you are alright.  I will love you always.

I tell my boyfriend not to buy me things, but sometimes, I really wish he would spoil me.

I don't know if you love me or hate my guts.
I hope you'll help solve the mystery sometime.

I can easily spell antidisestablishmentarianism, without effort, but always struggle with the spelling of 'Imagine'.

i don't think i'm capable of actually loving,
or being loved, at all.

She cheated on you and broke your heart, and now I look like an angel.  I never thought things would work out so well.

I'm afraid to admit that I'm in love with you.  If I could spend every second of every day with you I would.  But I sit here waiting for you to initiate everything, scared that I'll seem too needy, or come on too strong.  This is the first time in my life I can remember feeling fear.

I wish I loved myself as much as I love food.

you know what, fuck you. you all but harassed me into staying in touch with you, and then you blow me off. it doesn't hurt my feelings, it simply pisses me off. it's almost as if you were waiting for your time to give me the cold shoulder after i'd been giving it to you for three years. you want to know WHY i haven't stayed in touch with you? because you're a total bitch. because i'm sick of you constantly putting me down in your oh-so-subtle way. you've always been so arrogant, and now that you have your wonderful college life to dangle over my head, talking with you never fails to ruin my day. yeah, i fucked up. i made some mistakes and now i'm working my ass off to fix everything. sorry that it's taking a while. apparently i'm not good enough to fit into your awesome new life and so you feel the need to insult me. you wouldn't just let me fade out. you had to bug me again and again, and now that i'm your "friend" once more, you treat me like shit? no thanks. i'd rather just not even deal with you.

i got punched in the face today because i threw a carrot at someone. i mean throwing carrots isnt exactly nice but really?

i've realized that breaking off a fwb situation is not nearly as gratifying as ending a real relationship. he doesn't miss me at all; in fact, i think he's glad to be rid of me. and here i am, still lonely and now NOT getting laid. i guess i can say i still have my dignity, but even then i'd probably be lying to myself.

i suck ass at math and i look damn fine while doing it.

The other day, somebody on a site where you can ask questions annonymously asked me why I'm so fat and annoying. Well asshole, I'm fat because I digest my food properly, and like to sleep instead of run miles and miles. And I'm annoying because you are too much of a dumbass to know what the fuck I'm talking about. So before you go belittling people on a blog, take a peek at your insecurities. And, get a fucking life.

I really hope you do call me back tonight. You said you would, but I have a feeling you are just being nice. The funny thing is you came on to me, and at first I wasn't interested, but we all get a little lonely sometimes and it is nice to have someone to put their arms around you once in awhile. Make you feel wanted in some way without it having to become some dramatic, complicated relationship. What I don't get is that like I said, you are the one who came on to me, and we haven't even had sex, so what happened that would make you all of the sudden disinterested? And guys say that women are the ones who are confusing! :P

Never give up.No matter how low you are,no matter how broken you are,never give up.Darkness does not last forever.I promise that.

There's nothing in this world more distasteful than an uptight, arrogant asshole. People like that should thank their lucky stars that anybody gives them the time of day.

You've taken over my life, you invade my dreams every night, you're name is written on every tear that falls from my eyes, and also on every smile that spreads across my face. You are the only one I want to touch, smell, kiss, make love with, and just love in general. You hold my heart in your hands and I just want to be able to give you the world. The lengths that I would go to just to make you smile are absolutely endless. I can't even fathom anything bad happening to you, the thought makes me sick to my stomach and can literally bring me to my knees. You die, I die.
I love you. Like I've never loved anyone before, and never will again. I want to spend my entire life with you.

Soo... leave him and be with me all the time, will you? Please? I cant do this back and forth thing anymore. It's absolutely killing me.
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You have lost all respect, charm, and any sort of good feeling I had toward you. You are just a disappointment of a person. A horrible, horrible disappointment. It's so sad. I just tell you that it's okay so you'll leave me alone and so you can't continue to make yourself look even worse to me.