I used to pray he'd tell me he likes me back, but as of right now I just want him to tell me he'll leave forever. I never want to see him again. I don't even care if he likes me anymore. I just want to get over him as fast as I can. I wish you would disappear, and it would be like you never existed. But you do exist, and I hate to admit it but until now you've made my life better. I can't sleep. I can't eat. My heart aches when I think about him. I see him contantly. I look for him everywhere I go, and when I don't look he's right there. There's never a safe moment. I never get a moment to just be happy. The sound of my own thoughts almost seem too unbarable. He's perfect. I can only think of one undesirable characteristic, he makes me love him. He makes me love him more than I've ever loved anyone in my life. Why do you do this to me? I know you don't do it on purpose you're too nice for that. You do it though; oh you do it.
Why?
You tell me you care about me, and I believe it's true. You send me the right signals, but at some point mine got all twisted. You came up to me. You put yourself out there, and I shut you down. Why on earth did I reject you down? I didn't even mean to. You say that the whole situation didn't mean anything, but it did to me.
I knew what had to happen next, I put myself out there. You played along to some extend, but it was weird. We both know it was. It's made everything between us weird from that moment on.
That was the moment, when I went from liking you to this obsession of sorts. Ever since then I can't even think a full thought without your name coming up.
Go away. I don't want to like you anymore. I don't want to know you anymore. Liking you has made me a better person. I've become a nicer person just so you will like me back. I've also lost my mind in the process.

.blah

not many people like me, i've lost 2 out of 4 of my best friends, and the other "friends" that i do have only talk to me when its convienent. i want to go to puerto rico this summer but i dont think i will, the only 3 people i would ask to come are either too broke or busy. now im comptenplating on asking a co-worker at a job i have been working at for 5 weeks, i feel so pathetic.

What the hell, man, do I have to fucking hammer that fact into your brain before you understand? Damn, sometimes I wish I could slap you, kick you in the balls, and flip you off.

Oh, one more thing: you're in HIGH SCHOOL, you're not "in love" with her, it's called hormones and infatuation. She's an ugly ass bitch, anyway. Have fun with THAT.

i have two small children and both are the result of sex, but not orgasm. this sucks.

You ALWAYS do this.
Every time I try to make contact, I text.
Everytime I do, I get two back, then never hear from you.
I'm tired of chasing you just to get a word from you.

I think that my boyfriend hates me. I think that he is only with me because he has nowhere els to go. I bet he will leave when my money runs out. I wish that he would go ahead and leave now.

All the unwanted, superficial attention in the world can't make up for a little genuine affection from the one you love. In fact, it only makes the absence of it hurt that much more.

That one to two weeks a year I go away and stay somewhere else, that the last few years my boyfriend has come with me, those are the weeks I look forward to.  And time is going so fast that they come quickly

I miss my ex-boyfriend so much. I wish I could go to Agoura Hills, CA to find him, and punch him in the fucking face. I miss him sooo much. Blahhh TylerrrrMooooee.

Why is it that when I see you now, I feel uneasy and awkward all of the time? I'm still angry with you, even though we've been done for well over a month. I feel so depressed still and like nothings worth fighting for when I'm near you. Its why I try and stay out late now, so I don't see you so often. That way, when we are together, I can try and have a conversation with you.

You'll be moving out soon and so much of me is relieved. But I'm so insecure right now too because everything will be changing. I'll be alone and I'm afraid at how I'll be able to handle that. An irrational side asks are you sure you're doing the right thing? I know I am though because our personalities are too different. I need someone I can talk to and share my meals with.

It pisses me off to see you starting to get out a little more and lose the weight you used to joke about. Part of me is paranoid in thinking that you're doing all this now and hoping I'll notice and change my mind about you.. I hope you're not trying to place a stupid game like that. It'll only hurt more and I would never forgive you for it. You're a lot like your mother in that respect, just more subtle.

Please stop doing this to me... I need to get out of my own head.

i think
maybe,
possibly,
that i may want to be with you.

i know that doesn't make sense because i'm gay and you're my best friend but when did these sort of things ever make sense to begin with?

at lunch I met up with a guy I met online, went to his place and had amazing sex...he is 15 years younger than me

-Married F 39

Either I go to school or I get a job.  I don't want to go back to school, you are not guaranteed a good job (or even a job) just because you have a degree.  I knew that years ago, and now other people are finding that out.  In this economy, no one is getting hired.  I like learning but I don't want to waste my time (actually, learning isn't a waste of time, so what I don't want to waste is money) on something that I'm not gonna even use.  I know that sounds ignorant, but it's the reality of this economy.  Everyone is so pro-school, but people who have degrees don't even make all that much money.

I wonder if the strangers I have friended on FB realize that I have sex with them on a regular basis.

Yea, you with the winter hat on and the "I'm gonna give it to you" look in your eyes.  You will be the one I fantasize about tonight.

I would probably think these guys are boring if I ever met them in real life, but in my mind they are sexual gods.

I envy people that get gastric bypass surgery.  I wish I could get doubled over in pain whenever I eat ANYTHING with fat in it.  I just wish I were obese enough to qualify for it.

how come now that things are getting good financially and emotionally with my husband i start cheating on him with my ex's brother?  i got some f-ing nerve.  please God help me figure this out because eventually someone is going to get hurt...

I hate these disgusting pig women, who never exercise, get gastric surgery and pretend that they are "healthy" because they are smaller. I know that when no one is looking you still inhale a whole greasy chicken or eat a whole bunch of snacks and sit around on your ex-fat asses all day. You guys don't fool me. I have more respect for the chubby person that hits the gym all the time then I would ever have for you guys. You know that person who goes to the gym is truly healthy, not just trying to fake it. My bet is that you will still die in 10 + years from high cholesterol, and that when you lose all the weight you will look like a flabby nightmare. Lets just face it, we still cannot make fake breasts look real, or old women like Madonna look 20 years old. We can still tell the difference between a healthy thin person and a lazy bypass person with skin flaps like yours.

I wonder why only girls get vaccinated for HPV when boy boys AND girls carry it.

Are they testing the vaccine on girls first?

Cinthia I can't stop thinking about you...me estoy enamorando de ti cada dia mas y no se que hacer...

I never paid for sex. That is until I got married.

Now it is the subtle, but ever constant part of our relationship.  Always the unsolved factor X in the equation of our marriage.

i think i have a bleeding ulcer.

When I was 18, I worked as an escort and slept with disgusting men for money.

I can't wait for friday

I cheated on my Boyfriend again, with the same guy. This time I had sex, and I'm honestly happy.

I don't give a flying fuck what you think about me.

i will lose everything

I am going to be 30 years old and have a wife and three kids.  I realized that I have no friends anymore.  There's no one I visit, and there's no one that comes to visit me.  I have acquaintances and co-workers, but that's all.  I've always been easy-going and straightforward, and I always thought I was easy to get along with.  So how does it happen that outside of my wife (who I can barely stand) I have no real contact with any humans my age?

I got treated for a mild case of genital warts during the summer and I am deathly afraid of people rejecting me if they find out. I haven't had them back since. I want to find love, get married, and have a family one day.

I "pretended" to sleep while i let a guy molest and rape me.  He thought I was passed out drunk.

It was some of the best sex of my life.  I masturbate to the memory of it.

What's wrong with me?

Oh Scott... you ended up marrying her?  Did you ever tell her what we did?  I guess that's your secret now.  I feel bad for her.  Hope your secret doesn't choke during your marriage--- I hear that secrets can do that.

Your the only one who can't see how much of a slut you really are.

I want to share everything with you. I want to spoil you. I want to wake you up with breakfast in bed. I want you to talk my head off. I want to know everything there is to know about you. I want to see where you grew up. I want to show you the places that I've been to and all the places that I want to go. I want to hear all of your stories; stories that you don't even think are special. I want your thoughts and opinions on politics, religion, philosophy, books, aardvarks... anything! I just want to be in the same place where you are as much and as often as I can be. I can't help but daydream since it's all that I have right now. Silly, cheesy daydreams about the little things...and big things. Many that I'm too embarrassed to confess to. Why is life so complicated? Why can't I just show up at your door right now, wrap my arms around you, and tell you how much I love you? I know that words are cheap. I wish that I could give you my actions now too. It shouldn't be this difficult. If love was enough, I'd be a millionaire and I would have found a way to start making you happy a long time ago. But unfortunately it isn't, so I have to make a little bit of a way for myself first. My only hope is that if and when my daydreams do come true, the wait will have made them sweeter...though I doubt they could be. I wonder if you realize the depths of what you do to me. I'd love to show you. I hope I get to. Soon.

she plays with my heart. she knows i love her and she plays with me like im sort of ragged doll. shes a boyfriend but every night she tells me she is going to leave him for me. me and her have a past and she was the one girl that i couldnt forget no matter how many girls i was with.i fucking love her so much but idk how she feels. im so lost so scared that she is going to hurt.i really think following your heats sucks. she has him all over her page saying all this lovey duby shit and she gets mad when i call him her boyfriend. if i dnt text her or call her she wont text or call me. you say you love me???? so whats the problem. she wants to have sex and she says she wants to have my babies but idk how much longer i could keep this up. please please jus leave me alone or be with me. your breaking my soul and i probly wont ever fall in love again because of you. you got me scared and paranoid that every girl is the same. idk why i love so fucking much but i jus do..........

.......here's the thing



i don't feel bad about what he did to you.
I hope it eats you alive for the rest of the week.


its EXCATLY what you did to me.
then you have the balls to approach me about it?
FUCK YOU.

You played with his dick behind my back why should he do any different to you?! slut.

OMG! he loves meeeee! :)

I told my daughter that if ever her teacher talks down to her again, my daughter should call the woman a fat slut and spit on her. I want my kids to learn that no one is their master and no one should have to put up with crap. My daughter is either going to be voted in as class president, or she will be expelled. Either way is fine with me as long as she stands up for herself.

If I don't jerk off every day or so, the intensity of my orgasms actually goes down. You'd think it would build up to some overwhelming desire for release. But not so. If I wait a week, I have trouble getting myself interested. And then when I pop, it is sort of flat, nothing earth shattering. Not to worry, by a day or two later I'm back in the drivers seat with engines at full power.

I think this is my wife's problem. She is as close to asexual as possible while still having sex organs. She never wants sex with me. She never has sex by herself. I wonder if women experience the same things a men. If you don't use it, you lose it. Maybe when she was younger she went for weeks without masturbating. Then when the time came it was nothing special. So she she wasn't encouraged to try again. A viscous circle ensued, which now leaves her void of any desire what so ever.

Women, maybe avoid this in your own lives. Don't let so much time go by between orgasms or you too might become a sexual dud like my wife.

I kind of like being alone.  I like to be in my bed all day, whether it's sleeping or laying there.  And now I have someone I'm in love with who I can do that with.  But if he leaves me, I don't see myself becoming miss social butterfly in order to get myself out of this introverted web.  I know it's healthy to meet lots of people and have lots of friend and social networks etc, but that bores the hell out of me, i can't stand most people, they annoy me.  people are judgemental and make lots of comments that i can't stand.

I don't know how to deal with this web of emotions. I miss you. I need you. And right now I can't stand you. You're going through rough times...and I am so used to being there for you. But now I'm not. Because you don't want me to be. You can have someone else be there for you. But the sad thing is...there is nobody else I want to be there for me besides you. Although when I think about it, I don't even think you were always there when I needed you. But the times you were are enough to keep me attached to you still.

I am so scared about the future but I know that God will always take care of me no matter what.

Me, I have friends coming out the wazoo.  I enjoy people.  I enjoy my life.  

I noticed you.  You were always alone.  I felt bad.  I reached out to you.  I became your only friend.  It was working out okay.  I think we sincerely enjoyed each others company.

But then...

Someone made some uncalled for scathing remarks about me.  Over the top rude.  And what did you do? You sat there and said nothing.  And you wonder why you only have one friend?  

Well guess what, now you can wonder why you are back to having no friends at all.

I really hope I get to prove everybody wrong. No, strike that, I WILL prove everybody wrong.

I try to get people to change.  I stand up against things that are wrong.  I try to make them better.  This pisses some people off.  Usually the ones who were benefiting from the wrongdoing.  That I understand.  

But there is something more.  Some otherwise disinterested people also get miffed?  Why? Because I am trying to bring about change.  Oddly, some people fight change even if it is for the common good.  

Fear?  Laziness? Lack of common sense?  

I think we are doomed.  Darwinism is a theory. A beautiful and efficient theory.  But there is no math in there to account for the naysayers who intentionally get in the way of progress.  

Think about it.  What if the one-celled amoeba refused to adapt and become a two celled organism?  We wouldn't exist.

How much longer will I put up with the negative people?  I am human.  I only have a certain amount of energy and patience. What happens when I finally give up?  The amoeba will remain as is.

Sure, I'm just one person trying to fix my small corner of a very big world.  But I'll bet everyone out there like me feels the same squeeze.  What happens when we all give up?

People.  Open you thoughts to new things.  Stop thinking only of your lazy scared self.  Allow change to happen.  Or we will be just another dead end on Darwin's flowchart.

oh and p.s....he has never said that he does, did or will love me, he says nothing at all. i still need him to say he doesn't, didn't, wont....errrrrrr

I don't understand why people say things they don't mean.Just don't say it if you don't mean it!

i wish he would just say "i dont love you, i never loved you and i will never love you".  such terrible words to long to hear but at least i would be able to move on.

I'm sorry.

I can't believe how many people have died that I went to school with. We've had horrible accidents, chronic diseases, suicides, and murders. This is a quiet area where nothing ever happens and I'm only 27. It makes me feel very old. I think back and I remember all of these people as if they were still alive. I can see their elementary school birthday parties, making Play Doh sculptures at daycare, sleepovers, dances, and football games...all just like it was yesterday. It never ceases to be a tragedy, no matter how many young faces you see stilled in coffins long before their time. It's so sad. It always leaves me wondering who will be next. :(

I hate my job. A lot. I could cry myself to sleep every night out of anger for having to tolerate it. I have strived my entire life to not have the exact type of job I now possess. Oh god.

When I talk to someone who doesn't really understand  the issues, I am polite.  I try not to make the person feel bad for not understanding.  I explain how something works without being condescending.

It always amazes me though that some of those people who don't understand won't give me a chance to explain.  They jump right in and tell me some concocted misinformation to make it look like they are not wrong.  They do this with an extremely rude tone in their voice.

I feel bad for these people.  Their egos are so fragile.  Their minds must constantly be working to cover up their inadequacies while the rest of us are enjoyiing life.

i am so lonely. but instead of solving it by spending time with others, i want to be alone all th e time and sleep all day.

I overate today because I was angry.

I'm not sure why I take this out on myself.

I love to vomit. I feel so much better after.

I think I'm in love again! My 3 year relationship ended a little more then a month ago. Is that too quick?

You haven't messaged me in a few days.  You're already annoying me!

please, please don't fuck this up again.

I fell in love with a man who cheated all the time, he screamed at me all the time, and he was always drinking.  I broke up with him when I realized that I deserve to be loved better than that...it's going to be a year since the breakup he's still calling and I haven't spoken to him but a part of me still loves him. Was my soulmate an abusive alcoholic? That blows.

I think im addicted to SEX!

I can't help but look down on people who have kids, want kids and continue having them whether planned or not - we're obviously far overpopulated as it is and both space and resources are limited so it's truly selfish and ignorant to carry on like animals oblivious and programmed to breed

If someone really cared about children, they'd adopt or foster one of the many children alone in this world and not be insistent on breeding and carrying on their own genes - get over yourselves people as you're not that special myself included - look at the big picture and try to at least pretend you're evolving somewhat positively and progressively

I hate every single one of my coworkers stop interrupting me when im in the middle of a fucken sale!!! You fucken sell it then FUCK n leave me the fuck alone!!

where god when u need him or wheres the angel i ask 4 ugh:(

With LSD, great things are possible...like Seargent Pepper and the White Album. Or bands with fucked up names like Strawberry Alarm Clock and Procol Harum. Now "popular" music sucks ass. Wonder why?

U CALLED!  i can't believe u called!  i was getting a little worried for a minute there.  oh and u said u would never forget me (sigh)=0).  is it possible to fall in love when u are already in love and married? =0(

I learned a past coworker died today.  How horrible am I?  The first memory of him wasn't even of him.  It was of his desk.  Well... of me fucking someone on his desk.

Whenever I hear "I Am The Walrus" I weep.
I need to reach that ultimate high- no drugs, but being that outside of my own mind seems like a nice way to escape.

For years I have licked my wife's ass (a big turnon for me)hoping she would return the favor over the years she made a couple half hearted attempts at it (a quick lick then back to giving me a blow job)but now she seems to be into it like a woman gone mad who knew after so many years my sex life would be so incredible!

i wasn't interested in you at first, yet you made me fall for you. reassured me that you were different, and then when you had my trust you discarded me like filthy, dirty, trash.

i want to hate you sooo bad but being with you felt so right. life is just too unfair.

am i really that bad????

it killlssssss me to know that your treating her like you once treated me.

ughhh why can't i get over you??

i need a sign.

my parents did not emotionally support me between the ages of 13 and 18.  My father was an alcoholic.  My mother married a man who turned out to be a crack head.  My stepmother was a full blown functioning alcholic as well.  I turned to drugs several years later after giving all to the US Navy....I had a child....I forced myself to give temporary custody of my child to my father...no many choices.  I got her back some 5 years ago.  She is having problems adjusting.  She tried to commit suicide last Monday.  I came to the realization that I can't care for my child.  I am devastated because I feel as though I have failed.

the other day in class i had intense allergies and my eyes were extremely wateryy/puffy/redd.

part of the tears were because of my allergies.
the other part was because of that someone who will never be apart of my life ever again.

it still hurts, but i dont have allergies anymore.

Watch out, world. I'm gonna blow you away.

ohh yah, AND you.. yah, you.. you can go to hell. I'm sure that's where you'll end up.

Amy, I am glad we talked last night. I am glad we finally found some closure together. I know we resisted the end, but it really is best. You are a sweet girl and I did enjoy every moment with you, but it is NOT meant to be. I see that now and so do you. We were very comfortable from the start, but lets please let each other go. Adam

When I heard that heroin abusers in Scotland were killed by anthrax-tainted drugs I wondered, so what's the problem?

I saw one of the true life crime shows on A&E. A young woman was kidnapped, raped and murdered.  Her body was dumped in a ditch. From watching the details of the case, it became clear the girl was a tease. She'd entice men.  She'd flirt with them. She'd let them buy her drinks. She play pool with anonymous strangers in a bar, bending over the table in her short skirt.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I feel no sense of outrage that she was murdered. Everyday there are innocent people out there who don't deserve the evil that sometimes comes their way.  Then there is this woman who brought it on herself.  I have no sympathy for her.

I am a master at managing mediocrity. I hire marginal people, simplify their tasks and help them make good decisions.  That's why my company can still manufacture computers in the United States.

We are not meant to be together, but we are. I must confess that Im loving every minute of it. You're one of the few people that know that I have this tough exterior but on the inside Im very sensitive and loving. Ill even admit to that-just dont tell anyone else my lil secret. Every encounter we have leaves me wanting more and more and more. But at the same time, Im content on not having you at my "back and call". I like our time apart because I feel after time, youd probably get annoyed with me. Maybe annoyed isnt the right word but...it is. Im a very independent woman and I know that you like taking care of me when you can. I can see it in your eyes and you can see that when you do take care of me, how much I truly appreciate it (probably because you know Id never take advantage of you and what you do for me). I know you'll never read this but it feels good to get it out and in the open. I love you babe. Love you with my entire heart. Ive never had a relationship that worked so well. We fit together so well-when we're tangled up and naked. You have this look you get that gives my stomach butterflies like no other...and when you get this look, I know exactly what you're thinking. You're thinking this is so right and I feel the same way. I really do. 3 days babe. 3 days until we play house for the first time. I get to cook you dinner and breakfast. I get to take care of YOU for once. Im so excited and yet so nervous. kisses.

I hate to say it, but nothing says white trash like people who finally decide to get married after they've already had a bunch of kids together. What's the point? You're already living in the same house and fucking raw often enough to get preggers. You would think that after the first two or three somebody would mosey on down to Wal-Mart for some rubbers. "Well, gol-ly, I reckon I done got ma's oven bunned up a few times, let's us make it official and get some insurance togither!"

Ah, true love. How sweet it is.

people need to start getting lives and trying to ruin others ! really if i was saying shit about you i would at least be nice enough to say it to your face . and not even trying to talk to me about it really ! some best friends you are !

Oh yea... and then people want to talk about you behind your back and compare notes.  And then come to some general consensus of what's wrong with you.  I'm so sick of people ugh

People want to listen to your juicy gossip but they don't want to deal with the fallout - once it starts getting hectic, they don't want to hear anything.  "I don't need this" is what they say.  They care about the toll it takes on them to worry about you.  It's so selfish.  Yea I know they worry because they care, but they are more concerned with how it bothers them.  People are so self serving it disgusts me.  No one told you to ask me questions and inquire about my life.  If you don't want to know the answers then don't ask me.  That's why I keep everything to myself now.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, LET THIS BE THE DAY THAT I SEE U.  OMG I REALLY LIKE U AND I AM VERY CONFUSED...  

PLEASE CALL ME, TEXT ME, COME VISIT ME.  I'LL TAKE ANYTHING...

GI WHY OH WHY DID WE BUMP INTO EACH OTHER?  KNOW I CAN'T GET U OUT OF MY MIND!  SH*T!

It'd be nice if I didn't have to get my own self off every morning.

just stfu. seriously.

If you were not the father of my kids, I wouldnt let my kids go near or even talk to someone like you, you wouldnt be in our world.

I parked next to you at school because I wanted to tell you I did because I like you. I don't care if you're one of my best friends exes, and that you broke her heart. She's over-dramatic anyway. I think you're really cute and really fun and I really like you. I hope everything works out.
And, BTW, I think our cars look cute together.

Laughter helps me forget about life. I am laughing 99% of the time.

FWB--sounds good to me...Err..but, only with you.

FYI: I'm waiting on you to make the first move.

Don't be such a wuss. Talk to me. You know that I like you. ;)

If blow wasn't such an expensive upkeep, I'd do it all the time to stay thin.

You want to hear what my sister did? When our mother died my sister wrote an obit for the local paper. In it she said that my mother enjoyed the company of all her grandchildren, especially-- and then she named her own three kids. WTF? Why would she single out her own kids? What a twisted little shit to turn a funeral into some political "mommy loves me and my kids more than the rest of you" kind of game. My sister is sick in the head.

Democrats and Republicans you do realize that you are both wrong. Politics is absolute shit. It doesn't matter what you want. These party lines bullshit are just used to keep people apart. You can be pro life or pro choice, it doesn't really fucking matter because the government will do whatever they want anyway. Stop all the fighting and fucking get over it, come together and overthrow this corrupt government.

So. I thought I was over you. Then I saw a picture of you kissing your girlfriend. And then I realized I wasn't.

Fuck you for making me feel this way, man.

I was only happy when i starved myself
and you still liked me

the women's bathroom today was a hot mess!  we're all professionals here, I thought

i should be enjoying my youth, yet i'm working to the bone for twelve hours a day. i'm a 21 year old female, living the life of my 56 year old father. fuck my existence.

I think I'm at the end of my rope.

::correction::

I AM at the end of my rope.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels,
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels,
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels,
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels,
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels...

                                   Except for that chocolate cake..

the more i like you, the less i want to sleep with you out of lust. but if it ever happens... it's going to break records ;) i can assure you that, my friend.

Don't worry.  The relationship ended months ago.  We will never meet again.  Besides you can't keep it up for more than 2 minutes so why should I bother?  Might want to get that checked out.  No wonder you and wifey don't have sex.  You can't get the job done.

BJR; Please oh please, fuck me when you get home from college. Its been almost a year and I still love you and want your dick inside me. Show me what I've been missing, baby, please. ;D