I CANNOT believe that he left his old MySpace name available for anyone to take!  Hahahaha.  Wonder how long until he realizes that I put up a profile with that MySpace name to humiliate him.

I'm 41 with a smokin' hot girlfriend who's a lot yunger than me.  We've been together for two years, and she's sexy and amazing and everything I thought I wanted in a woman...until four months ago. Four months ago I met someone online, I'll call her "Angie".  Angie is the same age as my gf, and she's amazing, smart, funny, sexy, and she totally gets me in ways my real gf doesn't. Right after thanks giving we started talking more and more, and I couldn't help falling in love with her. It got to the point where I'd ignore work and chat with her for five or six hours during the day, then again for another four or five at night. We'd talk about everything, anything, we'd even talk about what we wanted to do to one another. I masturbated every day reading what she'd write to me, and she did the same. Then her husband caught us, and my gf found out. I broke it off and I wish I hadn't. I still love her and now, when I'm screwing my gf? I think of her so I can finish.

I'm 41 with a smokin' hot girlfriend who's a lot yunger than me.  We've been together for two years, and she's sexy and amazing and everything I thought I wanted in a woman...until four months ago. Four months ago I met someone online, I'll call her "Angie".  Angie is the same age as my gf, and she's amazing, smart, funny, sexy, and she totally gets me in ways my real gf doesn't. Right after thanks giving we started talking more and more, and I couldn't help falling in love with her. It got to the point where I'd ignore work and chat with her for five or six hours during the day, then again for another four or five at night. We'd talk about everything, anything, we'd even talk about what we wanted to do to one another. I masturbated every day reading what she'd write to me, and she did the same. Then her husband caught us, and my gf found out. I broke it off and I wish I hadn't. I still love her and now, when I'm screwing my gf? I think of her so I can finish.

I guess it's over...

I hope I die today!

fell for my best friend who had feelings for me.  i made her realize she's not ready for a relationship. i'm kryptonite to a woman's libido.

i feel very scarred.

Sometimes I wish I would of never had my Son. So I can just go somewhere and start a life and perhaps get it right this time. Almost everyday I dream of running away without him. Even though he has all of my heart.

if you don't want to be here, leave. i don't want you here sweetheart.

how quickly u forget...why can't i quit u, but u obviously can.  Please, please, please, call me! =0(  i need to hear ur voice.

above all things, i find disrespect the most unattractive.

BR, I want you so badly but I'm afraid to tell you.  Why must we be so far apart?

I am very suspicious of building fires in a down economy.

I am having fun watching the fall of both Obama and Hugo Chavez.

I have not donated a penny to Haiti and frankly, I don't give a damn.

I'm tired of being patient! When the FUCK is something going to happen?!!!!!!

I made a fake facebook page trying to make her jealous. She's not real but I pretend to be with her all the time.haha

I'm not really sure what a true friend actually is.

My right ear dropped some serious amount of nasty ear wax this morning.  Like a clump of it was on my pillow.  The q-tip pulled out another clump.

It was solid.

Grossly, fascinating stuff.. the human body.

When I go to the bathroom and pull out my dick, I always shake it and make a 'slap' noise with it against my balls.

I've had this friend for many years now.  When we first met, she was a little rough around the edges.  She came from a tough part of town, cursed a lot, had done drugs in her past, drank, etc.  Then she found Jesus.

Those next couple of years were almost unbareable.  She would try to drag me to her church, even though I am a staunch Catholic, saying that her church was better.  (Now, I'm not a crazy Bible-thumper, and I'm not the BEST Catholic out there, but I am pretty religious and spiritual, and my religion has gotten me through some tough times.) When I cried to her about a young friend who had been diagnosed with cancer, she said it was God's plan for her to have cancer.  When I asked her to pray for me during an upcoming surgery, she said I needed to come to HER church to be healed.  Going through a slew of loser boyfriends, I told her I knew that God was waiting to send the perfect man for me.  She said no, it was actually the Devil who was keeping me from finding a good man.  That last one really got me.  WTF, what person who calls themselves a Christian thinks about the Devil?  he doesn't even enter my mind, EVER.

I found myself walking on eggshells around her.  I couldn't let a curse word slip, couldn't talk about drinking, couldn't mention that I was going out dancing in a nightclub, couldn't talk about sex with my boyfriend (now fiance), because all of these things were mortal sins in her eyes.  I couldn't even say that I was going to an annual festival for Saint So-and-so, to whom I have praying since I was a little girl, because to her, we weren't supposed to pray to Saints, only to God and Jesus.  She also began sending Bible verses to my email every day and giving me religious books to read and CDs to listen to.  

Even though she was a really good friend to me, and was there for me when I really neded her, it all became so exhausting that I began to distance myself from her.  Thankfully, I had a new job that took up a lot of my time, and my two children to take care of.  I wasn't able to answer the phone as much, nor visit her, and honestly, as much as I really liked her, it was a welcome break.

Now, about a year and a half later, we have renewed our friendship.  We talked on the phone for almost two hours, catching up on everything and everyone.  WOW.  She has done a 180.  She was cursing up a storm, talking smack about people we know, calling them "fat, ugly biches," saying how she and her husband had gone out to a club and got drunk, how she wanted to smoke some pot, and, oh, YEAH, her teenage daughter is pregnant.  And what a loser bitch her daughter is, and that she's going to take her to court when the baby is born to get custody.  To say I was stunned is the understatement of the century.  I was speechless for much of the conversation.  I finally gussied up the nerve to ask her...um...what had changed so drastically with her?!  She said she realized that she could honor God without being so over-the top about it (ya think?!).

My secret?  I don't like this new version of her.  As much as her charasmatic religious fanatacism drove me crazy at times, I actually prefer her like that than how she is now.

please text me, call me, stalk me, whatever just please let me see u.  if there is a God this will happen and ASAP!

i am 25  ready for a child but know i need to finish school first, so hard sometimes, I have 4 years left. at least my boyfriend agrees or i would be in trouble.

i don't want to ever see you again, but i wish u would call me.  U are not my man, but i wish u were.  i am "happily married" on the outside, but on the inside my lions yearn for u.  i am so screwed up in the head it's not even funny... i will get through this.  it will take time, but i will. =0(

I wish you would of gave me yours,cause i know i gave you mine.

im much happier here than i was the last time i visited.  the world is different outside and in my head.  i belong here, even just for a moment.  i've always belonged, and nothing and nobody has the power to influence my feelings on the subject. ^_^

I wonder how Ali's little girl is doing.

You've found the tiniest fragment of my heart that remained unbroken. Then proceeded to stomp on it.

Instead of pausing the fucking DVR, my boyfriend pauses me.  Thanks, asshole.  Also when you want me to be silent while you drive and listen to your music, it makes me think of you as less of a man.  Fuck you, Matt.

I am so hungry (I'm somewhat starving myself to lose some weight quickly) that I am about to look at pictures of food online and browse menus of restaurants.  Like it's pornography or something.
f/28

I thought us having sex more would make me love you. Yeah it doesn't, you're still a stupid bitch.

Anybody who publicly preaches their religion should have their genitals removed and fed to them.

Remember the 11th Commandment:"Keep thy religion to thyself"

Nothing wrong with hoping there is more after death but if one more person tells me to repent or I'm going to hell I'm going to have to set a motherfucker on fire.

So I was at school today when I walked through the social work building with an energy drink in my hand. The building has a little area to buy food and drinks and I had to get to the other side so I walked right through drink in hand. I hear this girl say "Sir, sir! You have to pay for that." Confused, I ask "Pay for what?" "That drink you're trying to steal." Well it's already open and roughly half of it gone and I hadn't even reached the area where energy drinks are sold. I look at her and explain that not only are the energy drinks on the other side of the store but that they don't even sell this brand anyway. Furious, she calls the manager and threatens to call campus security if I don't pay for the drink. The manager shows up and listens to what her employee has to say and then listens to me. Somehow decides I am a thief and when I refuse to pay for a drink they don't even fucking sell the campus security is called. Thank god not all cops are dumbasses they look at the security tapes and it takes all of 3 seconds to realize that I didn't do anything wrong. I asked to file a complaint with the manager and she refused saying it was policy to pursue all shoplifters...even though I didn't fucking do anything wrong. I said fuck it and was leaving already missing my class. I called the dumbass cashier a stupid bitch and walked out. As I turned the corner I heard her say to her manager "stupid fucking niggers always trying to steal shit." Yeah I'm Indian, usually get called a terrorist but nigger was a new one. Institute of higher learning my ass.

I dont care if it's tomorrow or 40 years from now. If you move to texas, Im moving too.

I love alot of people. Id do anything for them, but I wont give up drinking. Not when my mom cried, not when my sister begged, not when my boyfriends left me, not when my best friend said she was scared for me, not when so many people gave up and walked out on me... not for any of these people that mean the world to me.
But here you are. And here I am. I can stop for you. I would stop for you. Just ask me too. You've changed me so much, it amazes me.
I'm here and I'm not leaving you. I'm spending all my time saving you're life, please save mine.. you're the only one who can.
I love you bby girl <3

I am glad I started therapy. I have lived in misery for decades and now I am beginning  to understand it all. There is hope for the future!

We would fail if we got together.
You and I are both too stubborn to let the other win easily. You would be so pissed that I'm a bit of a pacifist when it come to things in life. And I would get mad at you for so many stupid reasons. I just wish that there was a nicer version of you and I was a better version of myself. Then we would have been going out for a least 5 months about now. I could see it... well, not anymore. You are way too harsh and I refuse to let anyone get close.

Damn, what a mess we are. I'm a bit glad that I most likely won't see you till August. But that doesn't mean I won't miss you from time to time.


Goodbye.

My secret: I'm afraid that I'm not in love with my boyfriend of overca year like I tell him I am. He took my virginity, I'm afraid to leave him because without him I literally have no friends.

sometimes i cuddle my cat and wish that she was a human baby instead.

i want it to be real.

So I ended it.  F@ck it. He's not worth the headache & agravation.  I hope I never bump into him again.  I hate him.

According to all logical social norms, I know I should not encourage my boyfriend's obsession with Pac Man. I pretend I hate when he plays, however, I incrementally get excited the more power pellets he eats.

I think I need to go to therapy. One reason is because I can't open up to my mom.

I need to ask my mom to put me in therapy...

And around in circles i shall go.

I am obsessed with my boyfriends boss. I can't help it. He's just so my type - or maybe it's because I know that he can get the job done....

i'm in love with my best-friends and he doesn't even know it.

How on earth am I ever supposed to get over you when you're so perfect. I love you and "you like me and everything but as a friend nothing more" thanks that really means a lot to me. Actually ass hole that doesn't mean shit to me. I told you I don't want to be your friend so you telling me you want to be my friend is only depressing. I liked you. You shut me down. The girl who you flirt with just humiliated me, and you pretend nothing happened. Three days after you tell me you don't like me, and I'm supposed to pretend a weekend was long enough to get over you. I wish it was, but it's sure as hell not. I really didn't want it to be awkward, but I couldn't live like that anymore so I told you. I texted you tonight "as a friend" about fucking homework and you were too big of an ass hole to text me back. I hope you feel like a dick when I fail because of you. I really do hope you try to make an excuse about it tomorrow about how you didn't get it until really late. Because I'm going to tell you to go fuck yourself. The worst part of this whole thing is I try to pretend like you're this terrible guy when I really know you're not. I try to hate you, but how can you hate the nicest person you know? Fuck off and disappear I don't want to love you anymore.

I want to tell u so bad that I hate u, but I must be the bigger person in this situation.  It sucks!

I just want to hold you and not say a word.

U broke my heart.  I bet u r not even thinking about me.  Happy Birthday GI... :0(

amongst the commercially pretty faces, i caught site of yours... sigh... you're such a gorgeous man, even if you do not posess 100% of the qualities that make people "gorgeous" in today's world.  

sometimes i hope i end up with you.

my secret: i wasn't given the chance to understand my feelings for you.

im sleeping with my cousins man

i am addicted 2 pussy and tits its like every were i go there every were i cant get away but its ok

i'm scared that my sister is going to develop skin cancer. she is fourteen years old and our mother has allowed her to tan (both outside and in tanning booths) for the past two years. she has the one mole near her armpit that has transformed from a moderately-sized circle to a massive, irregular mountain. it screams melanoma. i've made remarks, dropped hints, and all but sat her and my mother down to discuss how i feel about their constant tanning. every time i so much as mention skin cancer, they give me this oh-whatever-that-will-never-happen-to-me look and it makes me so goddamn angry! skin cancer is real! it's horrible and tragic and very, very fucking real. i don't want to lose my younger sister because my mother is so dead-set on allowing her to indulge her vanity.

The only true gods are the ones that one will find in themselves, not a fucking zombie that calls himself "messiah" or any other empty headed gods.  Stop beliving in the myth of "god" and learn to live life as best as you can.  STOP THE MADNESS!!!!

i love tigo bitties and pu nany.....and my dick runs deep so deep so deep put her ass to sleep

I believe in God, but I'm not in any huge hurry to get to eternity. I enjoy life and if I lived to be 127 I still wouldn't be able to fit in everything that I want to do. I think that uber-religious fanatics have it all wrong. You're not supposed to crouch in dark corners trembling for fear of all temptation and waiting with bated breath, longing for the apocalypse to come and wipe out your lesser, "more sinful" neighbors. You're supposed to open your doors, to go out and live, and to show others how to live and love and make the world a better place by example. There's too much hatred in this world as it is without those who claim to be followers of Christ, or any other deity for that matter, perpetuating more of it through acrimonious words and actions couched in "righteousness".

This is the first time that my mom is not able to be with me when I really need her. She is sick and can't travel. She keeps insisting that she is well enough to travel, but I would never risk having something happen to her.  

She would sacrifice everything to help her children.  She has always been that way and this is the first time that we have been forced to be apart and it is not easy. When she sees a need, she tries to fill it and I admire her so much.

I will be sure to be the same kind of mom to my children.

I am so tired of hearing all about the celebrities who are giving money to Haiti.  They are clearly doing it for the publicity. They are tweeting and sending out press releases.  Why not just donate and do it anonymously?  

Meanwhile, we have so many people suffering here in our own country.  Where are the celebrities when towns are going bankrupt, people are being forced out of their homes, animals are being deserted?

Of course I agree that aid is needed in Haiti and I commend the silent heroes who are sacrificing their time and resources to help people.  It is heartbreaking to watch the devastation. The doctor's stories are especially inspiring.  I would like to see more recognition for all of the silent heroes who are doing so much and are not out to make headlines.

I want to run and hide from these children...

When I visit a hospital, I am always shocked to see so many nurses who are obese and look so unhealthy. You would think that by seeing sick people every day that they would do all that they can to be healthy.

Why do i feel like this? U r not my man we only f*cked cuz we r attracted to each other.  But damn it i felt a connection.  i guess u didn't =0(

I want us to be close. But with all the warnings some bitchy friends gave me, I'm taking it slow. I want so badly to trust that what they say about your duplicitous and selfish nature is untrue or exaggerated. Have you changed into a bitter, irresponsible opportunist? Could be. But I still believe the sweet, idealistic boy I once knew is in there somewhere. I hope I'm right.

Dear M,

i don't know how to say this but you waltzed in and said hello after 2 years not speaking to each other? i was really skeptical and still am. thanks to you, you've got me thinking especially so much things we've gone through in a such a really short amount of time. i loved you and i did fall for you, M. But i don't know if i want you in my life again. Do you remember the last conversation we had, it wasn't pretty at all! it was incredibly ugly and the result was that both of us got hurt royally. our relationship was so beautiful and absolutely ugly at the same time and i don't want to go through that shit with you again.

no one else hurt me SO bad like you did to me. Yet....we're so much alike and at the time, you were the only person that truly gets me. i don't know if you still do to this day. Things could have been SO much better if there were no physical punches throwing across the room or making one another bawling to no end.

i dug those memories so fucking deep and beyond because they were too painful to remember even though there were good times.

you owe me a fucking apology, asshole!!

I have a huge crush on one of the guys at the pizza place my boyfriend and I go to once a week.  He has the cutest smile, and he's always so amazingly nice.  I like their pizza, but I look forward to going there every week just to see him. <3

I hope my roommate sees that even though I don't ever leave my room when I'm home, I'm incredibly social outside my interactions with him and come and go as I please before he wakes up (at 4pm).  In seeing that, I hope he realizes that I don't ever leave my room here because he's a fucking disgusting slob, and I'd prefer to call this ONE ROOM my apartment rather than lay claim to any of the space he's already smudged.  

I'm not a mean guy, and I really haven't been this resentful about it yet, but after living here 7 MONTHS, and hearing that he's told other people I never leave my room - yea I'm gonna get pissed.  I don't leave my room to talk to HIM, but I leave it whenever I want to go hang out with OTHER people.

It's just a shame that the only way he feels at ALL empowered is by yelling at the cats and talking shit about our other coworkers.  Sure, neither of us are paying rent, but he's like 45.

Way to be, dude.

I hope my roommate sees that even though I don't ever leave my room when I'm home, I'm incredibly social outside my interactions with him and come and go as I please before he wakes up (at 4pm).  In seeing that, I hope he realizes that I don't ever leave my room here because he's a fucking disgusting slob, and I'd prefer to call this ONE ROOM my apartment rather than lay claim to any of the space he's already smudged.  

I'm not a mean guy, and I really haven't been this resentful about it yet, but after living here 7 months, and hearing that he's told other people I never leave my room - yea I'm gonna get pissed.  I don't leave my room to talk to HIM, but I leave it whenever I want to go hang out with OTHER people.

It's just a shame that the only way he feels at ALL empowered is by yelling at the cats and talking shit about our other coworkers.  Sure, neither of us are paying rent, but he's like 45.

Way to be, dude.

Ever since I found out how terribly my boyfriend did on the GRE, I can't imagine dating him for very much longer.

why do i get myself into sh*t like this?

I don't think 2012 is going to happen. God said the next time he would destroy us he wouldn't let us know when and he would let the angels come and wipe us out, then set fire to earth. I don't think we are worth all that trouble, I think he is just going to let us kill ourselves and save his amazing destruction for another race of beings.

We make plans & God laughs.  I have to laugh too. SMDH @ things that make me go hmmmmm. =0)

I never thought I'd actually say it, but I'm glad to not be young anymore. I'm happy that my days of going out to loud, overcrowded clubs filled with obnoxious drunk asses are over. I'm glad that I don't have to maintain so-called friendships that only drag me down. I'm glad to not have to work so hard to fit in with morons. I'm thrilled it's all over. I hated it; I'm done with it, and now I'm finally old enough and out of the loop enough to where I can be myself. It's a very gratifying place to be.

The clothes I wear now are the same style I wore in highschool.  Back then, people made fun of me, but now these clothes are the "in" thing to wear.  Go figure.

I couldn't be happier without you. You're a terrible person.

I'm fat, not chubby but fucking FAT okay? So my friends all think I'm "Safe" to leave alone with their wives and girlfriends.  So far I've slept with three of my friend's wives, two girlfriends, and the wife of one of the guys I work with. So if you're wondering why I'm always calling your house to talk to you? I'm not. I'm calling to spend some quality time with your wife or girlfriend, and the fact that they'll let a fat bastard like me slam it to 'em every chance I get? Buddy, that's all on you. IF you guys took care of business I'd be out of business.  

Why me? Because I listen to them, I act like I care, and I'm more than willing to go down on them and tell'em how good they taste/smell/feel...and they do, God they're amazing. You guys go to Hooters and check out chicks 10 years younger and way out of your league, I'll keep bedding your women and drinking your booze. You're pathetic losers and I no longer feel guilty about it any of it.

I wish I could have my virginity back.
Not so that I could actually save it for marriage but just so sex could be that exciting again.

I've been high so much recently that I can't handle real life anymore.

Fuck it.

Hey Y'all, the Earth gone blow up in December, 2012, and it ain't gone do y'all no good to dig no underground tunnels to try and hide from the wrath of God in, 'cause those underground tunnels and bunkers is gone be the first to blow sky high!  If I was y'all, I'd start now gettin' on my knees and prayin' for some forgiveness and compassion toward my fellow man and stop trippin' on greed, vanity and sex freakery.  Otherwise you might get blasted clean down to Hell on the day of reconin'!

Is there a statute of limitations on a therapist sleeping with a former patient?

My mom tried to kill herself last night when coming to visit me and my family.  If i wouldn't have gotten up to go pee I would have found her dead this morning on my couch.

My secret:  This isn't the first time and I wish I would have never gotten up.  Maybe than she would be pain free.

I think my best friend is getting high on heroin again.  =o(

Dammit, I wish I had gone to law school instead.

if i were a sin, it'd be gluttony... iv been investing too much of my money into CHINESE FOOD lately, and not even anything remoteley healthy at that...

last night as I was nursing a hangover, all I wanted was a nice heaping plate of Sesame Chicken.  I overcame that desire, thankfully, and just made myself something to eat here.

I faced the same dilemma again today, and then I did something that made it 100% not a dilemma... i just plain didn't get it.

Suddenly I'd saved 20 bucks AND what is probably something like 2,000 calories.

I can do this.

The joy of my life so far has been working with kids, but childcare workers get paid less than pizza delivery guys. I've never been that happy at any other job and probably never will be again. I took it very seriously. I felt like I made a difference in their lives. But most adults can't afford to work with children when they're being paid next to nothing. The same goes for social workers, those who work with the disabled, those who work in nursing homes, or those who provide home health services to the elderly. Their pay is barely enough to make ends meet, regardless of their level of education. Most human service careers are definitely a labor of love for those who are willing to make sacrifices. It just goes to show you what Americans truly value. Not their kids and not dependent adults, that's for sure. Shouldn't human beings, particularly those who can't do for themselves, be worth enough to society to compensate those who would choose to work with them adequately so that you can attract and maintain workers who are qualified to do so? Instead you attract a labor force that largely consists of grossly underqualified, ignorant individuals who can't get a job anywhere else and if their personal histories were made available to the public, you wouldn't want them anywhere near your loved ones. And people wonder why the tragedy of abuse and neglect happens so often. But hey, I guess you get what you pay or, better yet, don't pay for.

I feel like most of my body is stained by their hands. I hate you dad more than I could ever hate the men you sold me to.

i just got offerd to have a threesome with my g/f and her friend, except i can't fuck her friend...i really want to though.......also just for posting this i have sent a donation to africa cause i dont have it that bad...

Your negativity is a thorn in my side.

Keep being negative about our relationship, and I'll leave you swimming in your sea of negativity.

i wish i could just cry when i needed to so that it didn't come bubbling up during inopportune times... not that it ever does, just something about today feels like it might.

what are you afraid of? i'm allowed to have guy friends... geez

It pisses me off that Tiger Woods has to go for treatment for "Sex Addiction".  I think he is only doing this because his wife is making him do it as punshment for all the women he banged.  All "sex addiction" really is is being a normal man.

Getting treated for sex addiction is like getting treated for being a man.  Just another way men are told that they are somehow broken, and women are always right about sexuality.

I would say this publicly, but my wife just found out that I was banging hookers on the side.  Maybe I should blame it on the "sex addiction" and I can get off the hook!

half the time i want to make you suffer. the other half i end up hating myself for feeling that way b/c i can't tell if you really are suffering or not. you seem afraid to let me in. you seem afraid to let go. you seem unhappy like you're going through the motions with her. i want you before you're too old. you still look good. you still look amazing, in fact. half the time i don't even know if you really want me or if you're just having fun. i can't read you. i just wanna close the book. i confessed something to you that knew would either make or break this. it broke it i think. truthfully? i got off on feeling that vulnerable. it gave me some type of power i forgot i had. i was too worried i wasn't good enough. i've been depressed about it for long time. and then there is all the guys i turned down b/c i was so hung up on you. i think you're full of yourself. or you're faking it so people don't know how insecure you really are. and i know i am still a threat in her eyes and it makes me feel good. perhaps the both of you deserve one another. as far as looking for answers i don't even bother. these last few times i just put my heart on the line on purpose without any buffer or proof that you felt the same. i just needed to get it out. i know you've got shit going on. i do too. this is too fucking weird for me. i want something tangible. i'm tired of pining from afar. i just hate the fact that i know that no one will ever effect me the same way you do. you'll forever be the comparison. i'm afraid i'm incapable of loving anyone. i'm afraid i can't let go. it's not like i can help it. i refuse to make you do anything. i had to let you know where my heart was. i'm tired of being this hopeless romantic vigilant fool. i don't even wanna make you jealous. i just want something real. the fact of the matter is even still i write this i keep telling myself that if you came to me i would accept absolutely everything that has happened. and everything in your life. i laid my heart down for you the other day secretly in a public place b/c i thought i was being brave. i still think so. i don't care anymore. i just needed to take some type of stupid risk b/c honestly you and the idea of losing you is the only thing i fear. and in the back of my head i get this gnawing sensation that it still isn't over. i don't want you five or ten years from now or when you finally gave into these stupid manic fits of fickleness. i want you now. i want you soon. i'm moving on. you had better come and find me once all this is over with. and i want to be treated like a lady. from what i've noticed you treat her like garbage. i used to think it was b/c you were still hung up on me. now i am not so sure. i'd treat you like a fucking king. i expect to be treated as your equal. you better hurry up b/c you're about to lose everything. i have no problems with making you regret it either. every time you look into the eyes of that cunt you married.

i wish my friends would just believe me, espcially over someone that they "hate!" i mean i thought we were bestfriends then just one night change your mind . i really wish everything could go back to when youd believe me and not be soo stuck up ! if you really understood how i feel about this , if i broke down infront of you , would it change nething ?!

Someone stole a bunch of packages from my mailbox and they probably threw them away.  One package was a pair of glasses.  Give me a break!  Who do you think you are?  My secret is that as much as I am trying to forgive you, I really want to beat the shit out of you.

i killed a guy, and i dont feel gulity.

I see him at the gym. His name is Brian. He's totally cute. I don't think he's taken, I don't know. I think he knows I'm married. I want to kiss him. To see what it's ilke to kiss someone other than my husband. It's been awhile. He kind of looks like my husband - dark hair, kind of built like him. Hmmm. We need an advice section - like where others can add comments about what they would do.

mr. barra is the awesomest person in the world ^^

It doesn't feel right.

I know there are many people out there who not only hate me because I am fat, they treat me differently. My secret, I bet I hate me more than you ever could.

ah...if you lived closer, i would be the one to hold you and make your life more bearable. i promise.
maybe someday we'll get that chance, in alaska..

I love it when he goes out of his way to insult me.  I do it right back - simply because I have the time.

Be he initiates it.  I must have REALLY hurt him.

Good.

its been almost 2 years and still not a day goes by that i dont think about you my jeneh